Much as I'd love to, I simply can't afford it. I managed to bring in the last one for just under $500 - gas, food, hotel, convention badge - and that was before my department got reorganized and I had to take a pay cut. It's all of my disposable income for a year, and most of my disposable vacation time as well. The copays for The Missus' health care are what's killing us; while she seems to have beaten the cancer for a year, we have to pay for continued screening and monitoring. What with all of her other health issues, we just don't have the money available to do much of anything over and above the normal course of life.
And I'm not getting any younger. Last time around, I only took a few days off, and worked both weeks as 'bookends' around the convention. Huge mistake - I should have taken a full two weeks off, and given myself time to recover. I got very badly dehydrated on Saturday - which was stupid of me, because I had a case of bottled water out in the van - and it took the better part of a month just to get back on an even keel. The after-effects of the brain bleed and the related surgery also are part of this. I just don't have the stamina and energy that I used to; I get tired pretty quickly these days. I have to really be careful with how I budget my time.
And I can't accept any anything like somebody giving me some help with gas money or hotel rooms, because the Tekumel Foundation regards that as "unauthorized use of the Tekumel IP for compensation"; I am tired of threats. I can't afford to have a lawyer at my elbow all the time, to tell me what I can and can't do.
So, I game here at the house, on my own table, and let the world go by.
Fuck 'em.
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