HIGH COUCH OF SILISTRA (RETURNING CREATION) by Janet E. Morris HIGH COUCH OF SILISTRA A Bantam Book / May 1977 All rights reserved. Copyright © 1977 by Janet Morris This book may not be reproduced in whole or in part, by mimeograph or any other means, without permission. For information address: Bantam Books, Inc. ISBN 0-553-10522-1 Published simultaneously in the United States and Canada Bantam Books are published by Bantam Books, Inc. Its trademark, consisting of the words "Bantam Books" and the portrayal of a bantam, is registered in the United States Patent Office and in other countries. Marca Registrada, Bantam Books, Inc. 666 Fifth Avenue, New York, New York 10019. PRINTED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA Herewith I do discharge both the chaldra of the Mother, and that of the Father. I. Chaldra of the Mother I am Estri Hadeath diet Estrazi, former Well-Keepress of Astria on the planet Silistra. I have begun three times to tell this story, and three times I have been interrupted. This, then, the fourth attempt, will surely prove successful. Perhaps you have heard of Silistra, the planet that was catalyst to the sexual revolution in the year twenty-two thousand, seven hundred and four Bipedal Federate Standard Time, or of the Silistran serums that lengthen life and restore vitality in virtually any bipedal life form, or perhaps you have at some time contracted the services of a Silistran telepath, or a precognitive, or a deep reader. It is possible that you haye in your own home the scintillating, indestructible web-cloth woven by our domestic arachnids, or have seen holograms of our golachits, those intelligent builder-beatles who exude from their mouths that translucent superhard substance called gol and create from this gol, under the guidance of the chit-guards, the formidable and resplendent structures in which we live and work. And perhaps you have seen no web-cloth, no gol, never been ill, and are not interested in sex. If so, you may never have heard of Silistra. I carry Silistra in my mind's eye, here under this alien sun. In my mind alone can I look out the east window of my beloved exercise hall in Well Astria and see the sun's rising burst upon the jewellike towers and keeps of the Inner Well and a thousand rainbows arc and dance in the greening sky. I was Well-Keepress. Seven thousand people thrived under the aegis of my Well. I was sought and celebrated for my beauty and lineage, for I was great-granddaughter to Astria Barina diet Hadrath, the Well-Keepress who seduced M'Glarenn, Liaison First for the Bipedal Federation, and changed the sexual habits of bipeds on one hundred and forty-' eight worlds. I was high-couch in the greatest house of pleasure in the civilized stars. I commanded a great price. Any being who was capable of desiring me, I could fulfill. I was fluent in the language and customs of fifty worlds. I had more than a passing acquaintance with the other ninety-eight. I was reasonably happy, happier than I knew. I must speak briefly of chaldra and chaldric chains, for it is chaldra that brought me here, to this strange and frightening world, so far from all that I hold dear. It is a Silistran saying that we are all bound, the least of us no more than the greatest, and a Silistran would have it no other way. The bonds of which the saying speaks are bonds of the spirit, of responsibility and duty and custom, and these are called chaldra. Upon the body of each Silistran, proudly displayed in twisted belts called chalds, are the thin, supple, many-colored chaldric chains of precious metals. A Silistran without chaldra is a person bereft of purpose and self-respect, and often such unfortunate individuals, when unable to acquire ennobling chaldra, choose to take on the chaldra of the soil—by their death gaining that which was denied to them in life% There is high-chaldra and low-chaldra. An example of high-chaldra is the chaldra of reproduction, of begetting one child, no easy task among Silistrans, which is symbolized by the bronze chain before the chaldra is met, and the golden chain after the child has ~been produced. Also the chaldra of the mother and father, the task set by the parent of the same sex, symbolized by the red chain before completion and the blue when the task is done. The chaldra to the Stand of Well is high also, and the chain is always silver. Low-chaldra are such as the chaldra of couch-bond between a man and a woman, recognized by the pinkish titrium chain, or of skill, such as the black-iron Slayer's chain, or of vocation or avocation, as the Day-Keeper's slate-colored chain or the golachit breeder's brown. There are over two hundred chaldric chains, if one counts both high and low. I still wear my chald of eighteen intertwined chains. Once it lay snugly across my navel, but I have lost much weight in this dreadful place, and now it slaps annoyingly about my lower abdomen as I labor at the senseless tasks set me by my inscrutable masters. I was marked from birth for this end, and all saw it, but none understood. I was born out of couch-bond to Well-Keepress Hadrath Banin diet Inderi by an out-worlder known only as Estrazi. My mother carried me thrice the normal term, and died birthing me on the twenty-five thousandth anniversary of Well Astria. How much my mother knew of my fate is still open to conjecture, but until I received her legacy, and another, on my three hundredth birthday, I thought myself little different, if more favored, than my couch-sisters. The second bequest came in the form of a letter from my great-grandmother Astria, to be opened upon the three hundredth anniversary of my birth. The letter, which I received in the office" of Rathad, my dead mother's half-brother and adviser to my Well, had my full name upon it and the date, Macara fourth seventh, 25, 693, and was written eight hundred and forty years before I was born. The letter lay between us on the table of thala-wood that I had shipped down from the northern forests as a gift to my mother's brother almost a full year ago. A silver cube lay beside the envelope, yellow with age, upon the night sky of the thala. The reflections deep within the wood seemed to go on forever. Musicians tuning, laughing, limbering through their scales mixed with kitchen clank and the gol-master's hoarse calls as he set the golachits to their building. I did not rise from my seat to watch them at work in the Inner Well amid the bustle of the Well as it is rising, as I might have on another day. Nor did the smells of the morning meal, of baking bread and roasting meat, entice me. My appetite had disappeared with Rathad's summons. My recalcitrant precognitive gift had given me no warning, nor any information as to why, on this, the one day of the year on which I habitually secluded myself, seeing and speaking to no one, he had sent for me. On this day had he sent a messenger to summon me from my solitude. I had run the distance here to Rathad's keep, filled with foreboding, leaving the messenger in the exercise hall staring, undismissed, openmouthed at my undignified haste. When I reached the mirrored doors and burst through them, I was badly winded. Rathad did not so much as raise his grizzled head to me in greeting, but waved me to the dark carven chair, silent, staring fixedly at the two objects on the table between us. My breathing was no longer labored when Rathad, his fingers upon the silver cube, raised his eyes to mine. "Daughter of my sister," he said, "have you, perhaps, knowledge of these things before me, that you have arrived here so swiftly?" I shook my head no, and his jibe passed unanswered, though at any other time I would have berated him for disturbing me. He sighed. "One might hope that the foreseeing abilities of your mother, and, it seems, your great-grandmother"—his hand was on the envelope— "might someday manifest in you. You have no idea, then, why I sent for you today, or even why you showed such uncharacteristic haste in presenting yourself to me?" "None at all." I am a very weak foreseer. "Did you call me to discuss my psychic debilities? If so," I said, rising, "I will return to my day's undertakings." I did not care for the amused condescension in his voice. "Will you indeed? I doubt it. Now, sit back down. Good. It would be a sad thing, Estri, if you let our personal differences prevent you from receiving this message from your mother, and this ... ah, shall we say, unusual communication from the Foundress of the Well herself." He was leaning back in his chair, fondling his chald, a smile playing around his lips. "What mean you, Rathad? Do not toy with me." "I mean but what I say, Well-Keepress. This," he said, picking up the silver cube, each side of which was the length of my middle finger, "is a recording device, popular in the days of my youth. When your mother knew herself pregnant with you, she came to me with it and asked that I deliver it to you at this time. She knew she would not survive your birth." I heard the bitterness in his voice. It was common knowledge that Rathad considered his sister's self-sacrifice ill-conceived, and had urged her to abort me. Because it was his chaldra to do so, he had brought me up. I am sure he would rather have drowned me upon the day of my birth, so great was his love for my mother, Hadrath. "And this," he continued, fingering the yellowed envelope, "this comes to us through the kindness of Day-Keeper Ristran, who attests to its authenticity, and bids me to tell you it has lain in the Hall of Records these eight hundred and forty years, awaiting your maturity. "I have not opened either of them, nor do I have any information as to their contents. I have my sup--positions, of course, the validity of which we will ascertain here together." Again that deeply seasoned face smiled at me. Rathad's smile has always made me nervous. It is the smile of the predator upon a new kill. His hand closed about the silver cube, and he shook it. A dull rattle dame from it. "As is often the case with such containers, there is something within." He placed the cube carefully beside the envelope. "Which one, which will you explore first, Estri?" I grabbed for the silver shape so fast I brushed his retreating hand. He had not made clear to me the significance of the letter, except that it was old and that it had been in the possession of the Day-Keepers, those among us who study the past and keep its legacy. In any case, I, who had never seen my mother's face or heard her voice, had in my hands that which she had meant for her daughter to hold. Emotion roared through me like the Falls of Santha. My hands shook and my tongue attached itself to the roof of my dry mouth. I held it, turning the metal cube in my fingers. My mother's name rang in my head. I searched for my voice. "How does it work?" I asked finally. I had seen two small circular insets, and above them a larger triangular one, all on one side of the object. The other sides were, as far as I could determine, featureless. I was afraid, suddenly, that I might somehow damage it before its long-held secrets could be revealed. "Hold the cube with the circles uppermost." I did so. "Farther away from you. Now, press once firmly upon the triangle." I did this also, and a rectangular section halfway down the cube's surface slid back, and then from the opening extruded a dished bar, metal on all sides but the one facing me, which was composed of two lenses recessed in a metal frame. "Put the eyepiece against your eyes so that the metal bar between is in contact with the bone at the bridge of your nose. Now, press the left-hand circle, once only." I held the expanded cube before my eyes. It was contoured so that it rested against the bones of my face snugly, letting in no light. I pressed the left-hand circle. For a moment, nothing happened. Then I saw her. She was standing before a window set into umber gol, the same shade as Rathad's keep. Her dress was the simple wide-sleeved white and silver of the Keepress, chald-belted, and flowing translucent to the floor. Her belly seemed a trifle rounded, but her breasts were high and firm, the nipples standing well up. I thought her much more beautiful than I. Her skin was the rare Silistran white, transparent and delicate. Her eyes were the gray-green of the predawn sky. Her hair was the color of the finest northern thala, black, blue, and glistening silver. She was smaller than I, wider-boned. Otherwise we were much alike. Her nose was as mine, deliciously straight, chiseled, and haughty. I could see her nostrils flaring as she breathed. Her mouth, also, was like mine, full, sensuous, with a touch of cruelty at each indented corner. Her cheekbones were high and wide, her chin tiny yet firm, with the subtlest hint of a cleft in its middle. But for the size and coloring, her stamp was heavy upon me. She raised a fine-boned hand to her forehead, and then I heard her voice, musical and breathy. "Little one, spark of life that kicks and twists inside me, now that the moment is here, I do not know how to say what I must. Since you have received this, my life has been well-bartered." My mother cleared her throat, rubbing her belly absently with her hands. "I have some fear that Rathad and others may press guilt upon you. Let me assure you, by my own mouth, that you were conceived in love, with full understanding of the consequences, and, values weighed, that my Me for yours is little to give. "Oh, Estri, for that is the name you will bear, at this time in my life, when I most wish to be warm and loving, to give you all of motherhood and sustaining purpose in a few short moments, I find myself cold with fear and stiff with self-consciousness. How will you see me, daughter? I did not desert you willingly. The arrangements for your upbringing have been well attended to, your social and economic position secured. But what is it to be without the touch of a mother's hand, the comforting circle of her arms, in those difficult times of youth? No recording can give you that which has been denied by fate and need. If you can bear me no ill will for the frailty of my flesh, I will know it, for I have demanded of my eternal spirit that it watch over you all your days. I have no doubt that this will be so." She stopped, swallowed hard, blinking. "That is the worst of it, I think," continued my mother. "Now that there is understanding between us, child unborn, I would speak to you of your father, and what was between us, your parents. Though we were couch-met, it was as if I had known him for a thousand forevers. Our races are only semicompatible, hence the long term which I will carry you, and my projected death at your birth. The benefits to the issue of such a union far outweigh the debits. You will live twice, perhaps three times the normal Silistran span. Were you slow maturing, little one? You now know the reason. Within you lie dormant abilities far beyond the ken of those around you, and in time you will come to know them. "We are as children to your father's people, and he did me great honor in choosing me to bear his get. Which brings me to the chaldra I would put upon you. It is my wish, and that of your sire also, that you seek him and meet with him, be it here on Silistra or upon the planet of his birth. Little help can I give you in your task, for there is a testing in its accomplishment, but be sure that there is reason greater than any you could dream in our request. The time is short, and I must hurry." She looked down for a moment at something off the screen. "You-will soon see the moment of your conception. What prompted me to record our coupling, I do not know, unless it was the meeting that preceded this record. You will understand, when you view it, why you have not received this until, in your own blossoming maturity, you have become wise in the ways of men. "When the record is ended, put your hand beneath the cube, and receive the ring of your father. The ring is the key. Keep it on your person, even in sleep, until you rest within your father's house. It will identify you and keep you safe among his people, should your search take you so far." She smiled, a smile I will never forget. "It is, child of my heart, a great sadness to me that our meeting and parting be so close together. Remember, Estri, I love you and am with you ever. Tasa, Estri Hadrath diet Estrazi." The grayed screen flickered, became what could only have been the magnificent keep of my mother, the Keepress. I saw her, upon the silver covers of the couch, and her skin glistened with sweat. Her breasts rose and fell with her impassioned breathing, nipples flushed and erect. She leaned back on stiff arms, naked, her marvelous long legs outstretched, slightly spread, her feet beneath the iridescent coverlet. The room was candlelit, and the light flickered and glowed about her. "Come, then, barbarian god," she taunted, teeth flashing, "come and take me, if you can. Put that deathly seed of yours where it will do the most good." She laughed low, and tossed her head. Her hair fell curling across her left breast. "You must petition me more prettily than that, well woman, before I fill your belly." The second voice was deep, undeniably commanding, full of strange sibi-lances. "Surely you cannot expect to do so little, and receive so much. Show me the skills that have made you high-couch here. Or, perhaps, you do not truly possess them?" With a leap from the darkness, he was on her, one knee beside each of her breasts, his hand still upon her throat. He turned his head to her left shoulder, and his face, eyes heavy-lidded in his heat, was clearly defined. He was indeed and truly my father. His eyes and hair were the color of molten bronze, his skin but scant tones lighter. His body was light-boned for his mass, and the muscles rippled in long flat slabs as he crouched above her. I watched him use her, and I have never seen a woman so diabolically aroused, so freed from the bonds of mind, so deliciously debased. He brought her, leaping to his hand, to the edge of climax three times before he allowed her to attempt to please him. Finally, acquiescing to her desperate pleas, he lay back and allowed her to work her skills on him. Their multilingual love-abuse encompassed all that I knew and went beyond. Once he pulled her head from his lap, and holding her arched back by the hair, said in archaic Silistran, "You are truly worthy to be high-couch," and thrust her head back down. When he was ready, he lifted her into the air and set her down upon him as one might lift a young child of no significant weight. If she had been beneath him, the violence of that final coupling surely would have crushed the life from her there and then. The last thing I saw was my mother nestled in the crook of his arm, her tears rolling down his shoulder, to settle in the hollow in his throat. The screen went blank. I started to lift the cube from my face, only at the last moment remembering my mother's instructions. My hand shot out to catch the ring as it fell from the opening bottom of the cube. I did not look at it, but pushed the cube across the table to Rathad, this long while waiting. He looked at me, for my permission to view it. I could not speak. The room swam before my eyes. I nodded my assent and leaned back in the carven thala chair, the ring clutched unexamined in my fist, to let my tears flow while my mother's brother viewed the cube. I had not cried for some years, and as the moisture of my grief and joy poured out of me and filled my lap, my confusion went with them. I knew what I must do. I raised my head to tell Rathad, but he was still sunk deep within Hadrath's record. Dispassionately I deep-read him, knowing that he could not feel the touch of my mind while so engrossed in my mother's story. If foreseeing is my weakest skill, deep-reading is my strongest. I can, in moments, and without trancing, acquire from any sentient being an accurate estimate of his basic nature, motivation, and any deep-seated emotion he is feeling. I did so. I was pleased with what I saw. Rathad would be less troublesome to me in the near future. He was deeply moved and full of remorse. Whether or not he had treated me fairly, he now felt that he had not, and that was sufficient. If he had caught me at it, however, I would have lost that which through my mother I had gained. I withdrew almost immediately. My father's ring was still clenched in my right fist. So much was happening, my head was so full of plans, I had not even looked upon it. I brought my fist to eye level and slowly opened my stiff fingers. I had clutched it so hard that the blood had been forced from my hand. It lay facing me, on my wet palm. The metal was a pale yellow in color, perhaps gold. It was very large and heavy. I could have fit two fingers within its circle. I remembered the hand that had worn the ring, and I shivered. Within the bezel was set a glowing black stone, as large as titrium half-well coin, and in the black stone itself were a thousand white points of light, scattered in a seemingly random pattern. As I looked closer, I determined that these were not characteristic markings of the black stone, but tiny inset gems, some as small as a pore on the skin, some slightly larger. One of the bigger stones was not white, but a brooding blood color. This was set in the upper-right corner. If this random patterning could be said to resemble a spiral, then the red stone was far out on the north-eastmost arm. I had never seen such a ring. The craftsmanship was exquisite. I turned it. The sides were covered with raised script, but it was no language with which I was familiar. I slipped my first and middle fingers within the band and closed my hand into a fist once more. I wished there was a way to make it smaller, but I knew I would not so deface it. I put my right hand within my left, and both in my lap. I would have to find another way to wear my father's ring. I considered the possibilities until I heard Rathad place the cube back upon the table. His face was ashen white and his eyes bleary. He leaned his elbows upon the table and supported his chin with one hand. In the other he held the letter. He extended it to me. I shook my head and made no move to take it. "Not yet," I said. "That which has waited so long can wait a while longer. Summon a runner. I will leave with Santh tomorrow morning. There is much to do before the next sun's rise. If Ristran is still here, I will meet with him in my keep, and we will take our mid-meal there together. If not, then I will do the same with the highest-ranking Day-Keeper you can produce by that time. I will also need the toilet women to help me prepare. Send a chalder also to Jana's room, for she will be high-couch while I am gone." Jana and I thought alike on most social and political issues; she had met her chaldra of reproduction, and I liked and respected her. She would enjoy being high-couch, but not so much that she would be unwilling to relinquish the position when the time came. "Impossible," Rathad snapped. His face had regained its normal color. "Which?" I asked. "All of it. You cannot leave the Well until the chaldric priorities have been determined, if at all. How many chains do you wear? Are all of them meaningless when compared to this adventure? Such tasks are usually carried out before major responsibilities are assumed. The Day-Keepers must decide. I have never heard of a three-hundred-year-old woman, of responsibility and position, romping off to do the chaldra of the mother. Perhaps they will allow it, but not until the papers have been filed, the purifications done, the ceremonies complete. It will take time." His voice was very loud, his face red. "And your chald. You cannot go without another. It must be made, wound, prayed upon. The chalder will never be able to produce one for you in a matter of hours, should he wish to, which he will not. You cannot possibly leave before Detarsa fourth seventh. It will take the full pass to arrange things. I do not agree with you about Jana. There are those more deserving of such an honor." He rubbed his hand across his face? "But if you insist upon her, she must be readied to take on your duties. AH these things take time. It is now the last of Macara. Give me these twenty-eight days, and when the pass is done, I will not obstruct you. Truly, I do not obstruct you now, but simply remind you of the forms to which you must attend. Perhaps the Day-Keepers will uphold you. The circumstances here are very unusual. But whatever comes to be, you must meet your fate with an eye to the traditions of this Well, and with dignity and grace." "I know you mean well, Rathad, and that you would not obstruct me. I ask you again to attend to these things for me. Only summon for me the Day-Keeper and the chalder, and the others that I need. I feel certain that this matter can be arranged in a way acceptable to all concerned. If I am wrong, then I have but taken mid-meal with the Day-Keeper, and discussed certain matters with the high-chalder. I will take Santh to the Liaison First's tomorrow, whatever the outcome, so I will need the fitter and the toilet women. I will let the subject of Jana rest for the present, but the rest must be done." I smiled my most winning smile. "I think I should like parr and eggs, fresh fruit, cheese, and wine. Perhaps enough for three, for the high-chalder might also be hungry. Do hurry, for midday is close upon us." Shaking his head, a smile playing across his lips, Rathad strode to the mirrored doors with a swirl of his iridescent web-cloth robe. I heard his muffled voice giving instructions to the runner just outside. I sighed with relief. I had been unsure I could persuade him. When he reentered, he did not sit again behind the table, but came to lean against it by my side, so close that I could see every white curling hair that poked its way through the straps of his thonged sandal. He handed me the old yellowed envelope once again, and this time I took it. I broke the seal and withdrew the sheet within. The hand was sure and strong. There was no greeting. "The woman I seek, whose name the envelope bears, is all of a color, the color of the spring sun rising, with hair of molten bronze that brushes the ground. In my vision it seemed that this woman and I were of a kind. I will never know. To her I say: 'Guard Astria, for you may lose it, and more. Beware one who is not as he seems. Stray not into the port city of Baniev. And lastly, look well about you, for your father's daughter's brother seeks you.' "If you succeed, you will be lauded, even as I am lauded, for you will accomplish more than you attempt. Be strong, for the father will surely help his daughter." It was signed "Astria Barina diet Hadrath." I read it twice. It seemed that every hair on my body stood away from my flesh. It is said that obscurity is the cloak of the forereader. My great-grandmother had drawn that cloak close about her in the writing of this message. That it was meant for me, and no other, was beyond doubt. But no one is as he seems; I had no intention of visiting Baniev, far up the coast; and I had no brother. Her encouragement made even less sense. My search was of personal import only, and my mother had said it was a testing, so no help from my father would be forthcoming. I had no fear for Astria. The Well was in the same hands that had guided it these three hundred years. But I would take care. I shook my head and handed the perplexing oracle to Rathad. I felt most discomfited, yet I was glad my great-grandmother's message had reached me. It would be a great lever with which to pry the Day-Keepers from their conventions. "What sense do you make of it, Estri?" said Rathad, frowning at the letter in his hands. "Very little," I replied, "but I will look more sharply about me, and you must see the affairs of the Well with great care." "Doubtless there is a hidden meaning," he mused. "Doubtless," I agreed. "But perhaps it is too well-hidden." "I would take all pains to avoid Baniev, were I you," he continued. "I will avoid," I announced, "not only Baniev, but Baniese also, and products bearing that city's stamp." "Has it occurred to you," my mother's brother asked, "that much time has passed since Hadrath's death, and the father you seek may be no longer among the - living?" "It occurred to me," I admitted. "But the message of my mother said he awaits me, and it was she who chose the point in time at which I would assume the chaldra. If he is dead, it is by accident and not by age or infirmity. I must seek him. Who knows how long the bronze people live? Not I." Rathad grunted and sucked his teeth. "I yield." He sighed. "If it was known that you would take this chaldra and make this journey eight hundred and forty years ago, then, by the Day-Keepers' Clock, you must make it, and I must give you whatever help I can." He reached behind him for the silver cube, and handed it and the letter, which he placed carefully within the envelope, from his pale hands into my copper ones. "Run, child," said he, bending to kiss my cheek, "or you will keep the Day-Keeper waiting." II. The Liaisons, First arid Second When I could restrain Santh's need to hunt no longer, I found a resting place in the shade of two large boulders, removed the surcingle from about his black-furred girth, and let him loose. With a great leap and a snap of his mighty wings, he was off, bounding and gliding, silent, deadly. Four bounds took him from my view. There is nothing on Silistra to compare with the speed of a hulion at the hunt. While I waited for him to return, cool and comfortable in the late-morning shadows, my back against the larger boulder, I reviewed the events that had brought me here to the trail that would lead, by nightfall, to the house of the Liaison First, M'lennin, my former couchmate. My mid-meal with Ristran had produced some surprises, and a satisfactory outcome. The Day-Keepers are a mysterious, solitary lot, and rarely frequent the Wells. I had supposed, somewhat naively, that his interest would be only for the objects of antiquity I possessed. I read his desire when we touched hands in greeting, and the fantasy deep within his mind was an easy one for me to fulfill. I pleasured him while he lay back on the amber cushions, matching my actions to the picture I had pulled from his subconscious. Thus I delivered him his dream, and the taste of him was thick and overly sweet, the taste of a man long denied. It had been so quickly done that the food upon the low thala table was still warm when we seated ourselves to eat. We struck a bargain that benefited us both. I would leave the cube and letter with the Liaison, who would deliver the originals into Ristran's hands. I would take with me copies which I knew M'lennin's star technology could provide. In exchange for these priceless artifacts, Ristran waived all formalities and ceremonies usually associated with the assumption of chaldra, including the need for a new, virgin chald, and upheld me in the face of the chalder's wrath. After a perfunctory blessing, my old chald was cut from me by the chalder's hand, the red chain woven into the already existing belt, and certain alterations made in the chald's construction. These were the addition of a hidden lock, and a tiny key which slipped into a compartment in the lock itself when not in use. Thus I could remove the chald at will, rather than wearing it soldered about my waist. Before I snapped the lock shut, I had drawn the width of the chald through the band of my father's ring, so securing the ring to my body. The other considerations I had from Ristran were equally valuable. He had been unable to decipher the script on the ring, or name the race of people to which my father belonged, so he suggested that I travel to Arlet. There he would provide me with an expert in off-world culture and language, in such a way that secrecy might be maintained. I accepted, only afterward realizing that Arlet lies uncomfortably close to Baniev, that port city which I had intended to avoid. But by the time I had recollected my geography, Ristran was long gone, and I was already making my way across the plain that separated the Liaison's keep from Well Astria. With the help of the two toilet women, I had made what I considered the supreme sacrifice. I had cut my ankle-length bronze mane. It had been my trademark. I could do little about my skin tone, but it had become fashion in Well Astria, and to a lesser extent in Port Astrin, our dependent city, for the women to spend long hours beneath the sun, gilding themselves with oils and ointments, that their skin might glow golden in the manner of Well-Keepress Estri. With my hair now so shorn that it barely covered my buttocks, I could be any Astrian well woman of high position. My chald was thicker than most, but whatever degree of anonymity I could foster would serve me. I wore a soft tas-skin jerkin, cream-colored and sueded, and matching knee boots to protect my legs on the trail. Above my chald was another belt, of thick parr-hide, from which hung a full coin pouch and double-bladed hunting knife. My hair was confined in a thick braid down my back. I felt fierce and strong, and very free. I had not realized how heavy the cares of the Well had been until I laid them aside. I took the surcingle I had removed from Santh and wedged it between the boulders. In its laced pockets were the cube and letter, dried meat and fruits, and a waterskin. The shadows were rapidly disappearing as the sun reached its zenith, and I was thirsty and anxious to be on my way. I called Santh silently, with all the mind-force I had. The answering picture was clear and sharp, of that black wedge-shaped head, tufted ears laid back, yellow eyes slitted from the sun, mighty fangs bared in a silent roar. He had heard me and was on his way. M'lennin had found Santh and his sister abandoned by the Falls of Santha. What had happened to their mother was never determined. He had been small enough to cuddle in my arms when the Liaison gave him to me as a couch gift. His shoulders now were the height of my own, though I stand upon two legs and he upon four. The intelligence of the hulion has never been studied, for they are rare and seldom thrive outside their native mountainous home, but I guess it to be as great as our own. However, they are not toolmakers. Somewhere back in time Santh's ancestors had chosen not to compete with the hairless bipeds of the plains and valleys. They live their own way, isolated, primal, high in the crags of the Sabembe range. In some ways the hulion and Silistran are much alike. M'lennin calls us of Silistra anachronistic, haughty primitives. We, like the hulion, insist upon our freedom and individuality. Silistra once trod the path of technological culture. In our prehistory lies a long and bloody story of wars, of great and powerful governments, of taxation and oppression, of madness and suicide. At length the people rose up and dismantled the machines that had come to rule them, and the parasitic bureaucracy that served those machines. It is a Silistran saying that the law lies within the man, and that no amount of coercion from without can alter that law. The hulions, also, obey the law within. Santh is no more mine than I am his. It may be, in his mind, that I am his charge, and in his care. We serve each other, with respect and admiration, and more than a little love. I saw a spot in the azure sky, far to the west. I stood and shielded my eyes and watched him come. The spot became a speck, rising high into the air, gliding, falling from sight, then rising again. Soon I could see his wings, snapping out straight at the height of his arc, beating the air to ease his descent, then the coiled crouch and spring as his powerful hindquarters thrust him almost instantaneously back into the air, with those mighty wings pulled close to his sleek black back. A bound away, I saw that he carried something in his jaws. When he furled his pinions and padded to my side, he dropped the mangled carcass at my feet and lay proudly beside it, growling softly in his throat. I could not tell what animal that bloodied corpse had been. Only a few tatters of red-brown fur remained, and the head had been bitten cleanly off the shoulder. Its hooves were cloven and black, its four legs long and spindly. I thought it some subspecies of bondrex, the nimble plains grazers—but which, I could not tell. I stepped over it, to scratch Santh behind his ears. He stretched his neck appreciatively and began lick- ing the blood from his outstretched paws with his coarse tongue. "Thank you," I said, and bent to cut a strip of the still-warm flesh from a half-gnawed haunch. It would have been an insult not to eat of his kill, though I had neglected to bring a fire-maker, and I am not fond of raw meat. Santh rolled onto his side and watched me eat, through slitted, yellow eyes. I cut another piece and chewed it noisily, exclaiming my praise through a half-filled mouth. The blood ran down my arms and stained my tas-skin jerkin. I made great show and ate little. The meat was tough, stringy, and tasteless. I got down a third thin strip, wiped my bloodied knife on my boot, and returned it to its parr-hide sheath. Then I got the surcingle from between the boulders and stood over Santh's drowsy head. "Get up, lazy one," said I, prodding him with my foot and pointing to the surcingle. "We must make M'lennin's by night." Complaining loudly, Santh stretched and rose. I threw one end of the web-weave band over his back, between his shoulder and forewing, and grabbing the dangling end from beneath his belly, hitched it tight. Having secured the cube and letter from harm by this means, I relaxed again. Whatever happened on the trail, Santh would bring the cube and letter to M'lennin. Although the danger of the open plain is slight, and with such a companion slighter still, I had been uneasy in Santh's absence. Silistrans have only one natural enemy. Other Silistrans. I had seen no one since we had set out before sun's rising, but one fears the enemy one doesn't see. With Santh at my side, I' feared nothing. We set out again, I at my easiest jog and Santh padding beside. He would have allowed me to ride him, but my legs were strong under me. I had not had time for my usual exercise this day, or yesterday, and I had need to work the kinks from my muscles. Santh paced me patiently until I felt loose and pleasantly tired. Then we rested and shared the waterskin. When I had replaced it in the pocket and laced the flap securely, he nudged me toward his back with his wedge-shaped head. He could not understand the slowness of our pace. I laughed and scrambled onto him, placing my feet and hands in the surcingle loops provided for that purpose. When I was secure, he got carefully to his feet and broke into an easy lope that ate up the distance. His approval was a purr in his throat. We sped across the green and yellow flatlands, toward the foothills where the Liaison First had built his angular, ugly complex. The jitkaws swooped and darted in the green-blue sky. It was a clear afternoon, and the west wind carried the smell of new awakening, for it was Detarsa first first, that is, the first day of the first seven-day set, or of the pass of Detarsa, our fifth month from winter solstice. Yesterday had been Macara fourth seventh, that is, the last day of the last set of the pass Macara. We have on Silistra a fourteen-month revolution, each month containing twenty-eight days. Our year is eight days less than the standard B.F. year of four hundred days. Our day is forty minutes shy of the Bipedal Federate Standard day of thirty hours, but we divide it into twenty-eight "enths," or "bells." Each enth, or bell, contains seventy-five iths. I had not been conscious of the problem relating times until I had spent a year as M'lennin's couch-mate. This questionable custom is not a chaldric matter, but courtesy to the outworlder Liaison, and had been originated by Well-Keepress Astria. I had found it very difficult to live with M'lennin, in his strange home of clicking machines and canned and frozen food, where time and date are Bipedal Federate Standard, and nothing Silistran. M'lennin prides himself on his retention of off-world customs, and holds us, I am afraid, in sour contempt. He would have us mechanize and modernize and become like all the other Federate worlds. Much money comes to Silistra, but little goes back to the star-worlds. This is a great problem, in his mind. I think matters are as they should be. If Silistra became as all the other star-worlds, if we were not unique, what would we have to offer them? Such were my thoughts as Santh bore me effortlessly toward M'lennin's star-steel fortress. Within its walls was the help I needed. It was well within the Liaison's power to analyze the data contained in my mother's tape and make me the copies I desired. Since each major Well had its own Liaison, and these kept in constant contact with each other, I could also benefit from his assistance in arranging my stay in Well Arlet. Doubtless, too, he could provide me speedy and anonymous passage up the coast. Perhaps his computer complex would be able to pinpoint my father's race and planet, and I would not need to go to Arlet at all. There was, however, one problem in obtaining this invaluable assistance from my former couch-mate, and this problem was more and more in my mind as the hulking geometric Keep of the Liaison First loomed larger and larger on the horizon. I would have to ask. I, who had so many times derided M'lennin for his all-consuming technological passion, who had declared my independence from communicators and computers, now found myself in the ignominious position of needing those very machines which I had so loudly decried. Dusk was fast approaching. The lights, keyed by an electronic sensor, were ablaze in M'lennin's outer court. Still I had found no way to approach him that would allow me to retain my dignity. Perhaps I would have to admit that, indeed, his toys were good for something after all. I stopped Santh with a touch, and dismounted, walking by his side through the electric eyes that sentried the outer gate. Now M'lennin knew I had arrived. I dallied in the empty court, hoping in these last few moments that some inspiration would come to me. I scratched Santh under his massive chin, and he butted me with his head toward the door. He knew where he was. He had been raised his first year here. The hulion was anxious to be indoors with his sister, Sithantha. I sighed. It would be unpleasant, but the time called the move. I must set aside my pride and principles and my personal feelings for M'lennin. I wished it were not he whom I must petition for aid. He would take much satisfaction from my plight. Santh growled restlessly. I ran the three broad steps to the star-steel door and put my hand to the glowing red panel. The door slid silently aside to admit us. With Santh at my heels, I stepped into the reception hall. The door slid back into place. We had taken but three or four steps along the hallway when I heard the clatter of running feet and M'lennin careened down the steps directly in front of me, almost colliding with Santh. He was gasping for breath, his black-and-gold dress tunic rumpled, his face contorted. He reached out a hand as if to steady me, and then I understood. "Time has improved our relationship, M'len." I grinned at him. "I had not imagined you so anxious to see me." "The blood, I thought, that is .. ." He took his hand from my shoulder and ran it through his blond beard. His blue eyes were keen and icy. "I thought you were hurt," he began again, looking pointedly at my bloodstained garment. "I see I was mistaken." "Only a fresh meal I took with Santh on the trail.” I reached out to take his fine-boned, freckled hand. "It is good to see you, Liaison. What have the winds blown you?" I dropped his hand and stripped the surcingle from Santh, slinging it over my left shoulder. The hulion, sniffing loudly, his head to the ground, disappeared around the first corner to our right. I let him go. M'lennin had not answered, but stood, watching Santh. His back was to me. "He is immense," the Liaison said. "Twice the size of his sister." "Males are often bigger than females," I reminded him. "But not always," said he, turning to face me. M'lennin and I are the same height. "Time has been easy on you," he observed. "And you also," I lied. I could see new lines upon his boyish face, and silver in his flaxen hair. I moved to join him where he had seated himself on the bottommost of the three steps that led up into the keep proper. "You did not answer me," I reminded him, "when I asked of your affairs. I assume you have been profitably engaged? We have not seen you in Astria for more time than is customary." I had not seen M'lennin since the end of the couch-bond. He shrugged. "You seemed to wish it so," he said softly, examining his booted feet. "Should I have sought you there? When we parted, you wanted nothing from me that I could give. Nor has there been any amendment to the trade arrangements. They have stood unaltered since you took up control of the Well." His eyes met mine. "Did you come here to try me again? I doubt your luck will be better now than it was then." M'lennin had not changed. He was bitter, still, that he had not brought child upon me in the year I had spent with him, and hurt that his feelings for me were more than I could return. He had wanted me to himself, and had managed to acquire me for a year. When the year was over, I left with no regret. It had not been so for M'lennin. During that year he had tried to manipulate the trade balance in the Well through me. He had not succeeded. I had thwarted his plans in more ways than one. M'lennin was used to getting his way. I, also, like control of my situation. There was much discord between us. I did not answer. "If not my glorious body," he asked again, "then what brings you here? And why alone? How will the Well fare without its Keepress?" "I came," said I, snatching the opening, "because I have taken up the chaldra of the mother. It must be done without aid from the Well. I have the Day- Keeper's leave to pursue this end. I would have your help. These things," I said as I handed him the cube and letter, "were my lever with Ristran. He will pick them up from you. I need the copies, computer evaluation, anything that will help me discharge this chaldra." M'lennin turned the cube in his hands. "How did you come by this? I thought there were no such viewers in Astria? You did not get it through me." "It is old, before your time and mine. In my mother's time we had looser standards. We had surveillance devices in the Well. My mother made the tape, and it was held for me. On it is the record of my conception. It shows my father. The chaldra involves—" I stopped, for he had raised his hand. "Estri, I have guests in the dining hall. This is a long and complicated story, it seems, and dinner lies cooling on the plates. I will give you what I can in the way of aid. Perhaps you can also aid me. Will you stay the night?" I nodded. I could see no way around it, though I knew he would exact his price. "Have you something else I might wear? And I would wash the trail dust from me before I meet your guests." I plucked at my bloodstained tas jerkin. He got to his feet, lifting me from the step. "I have kept your things. They are in the room you had. I will walk you there, and you can tell me more of this chaldra." He smiled, guiding me down the corridor, his hand at the small of my back. "It is an interesting twist, you coming here for such specialized assistance. I think I will much enjoy aiding you." He chuckled. We stopped at the door to his sleeping quarters, and I waited while he locked the cube and letter in his private vault and called the house computer to alter the dinner plan. It clicked disapprovingly. I leaned against the blue wall in that blue room that I had thought never to see again. Caught up tight in the weave of some strong time skein, I felt very help- less. M'lennin made no move to leave, but lit a pipe and threw one leg over his desk and leaned there, puffing the mild aromatic smoke. "Who are these guests we keep waiting?" I asked, to remind him. "The new Liaison Second, bound to Arlet, and his pilot. We Liaisons would rather fly than walk." "What?" I clutched my chald. Still tighter wove the weave. "What happened to the old Liaison Second?" "He died of natural causes. He was an old man," said M'lennin, eyeing me curiously. "Did you know him? You seem upset." "No," I whispered, "but I must go to Arlet from here." Now I knew why I had felt need to hurry here. I shook my head and rubbed my hands across my eyes. "To Arlet? In connection with the chaldra?" he asked. "I must meet with a Day-Keeper there. I had thought to take residence in Well Arlet, but under another name. There is need for secrecy. I have much to discuss with you, Mien, and little time." He waved me out of the room, and followed, palming the door shut. We hurried down the corridor, past three doors on the left. Before the fourth he stopped. "Perhaps we can settle this here, and you will not have to journey to Arlet. The new Liaison Second, Khaf-Re Dellin, and his pilot must stay here a few days. He is young, and has never before been to Silistra. The old Liaison's death was sudden, and Dellin is being shoved into this thing unprepared. He needs more than briefing and language tapes before taking on the second-greatest Well on Silistra. I must work with him before he settles into his responsibilities." He grinned. "I may ask your aid with him. Who knows Silistrans better than the Well-Keepress of Astria?" He leaned against the wall, fingering his beard. "Tomorrow," he continued, for I had not replied, "I will start early with you, at sun's rise, if you wish, and we will see what can be learned from the letter and viewer. There is ample time to arrange your passage with Dellin, if we decide it is prudent. Tonight we will eat and enjoy each other's company, and Dellin will meet the high-couch of Silistra." He rubbed his hands together. "This is really most opportune." "But I would start—" "No," he interrupted me firmly. "No chaldra, no business, no predictions. Not tonight. Tonight you see to my aid and comfort, tomorrow I to yours. It is a fair trade." He touched the red block beside the door, it glowed, and the panel slid soundlessly aside. "You will find it unchanged," said he, and waved me within. It was true. The room that had been mine two years ago was exactly as I had left it. I shivered as I entered. M'lennin followed, and the door closed us in. I stood in the midst of all the off-world opulence imaginable. Thrah-skins from Torth covered the floor, multicolored and luminous, and the pile was ankle-deep. The curtains were wine plush, heavy-napped and glowing, like tiers of strung rubies, woven on the looms of Pleiatus. The Pleiatu are the master weavers of the known galaxy, and their magnificent dyes are their greatest secret. The table and two chairs were carved from the white bone of the wistwa, giant sea-beast of Oguast. The windows behind the tables, framed by those bloodred curtains, were quartz crystal slabs from M'lennin's home planet, M'ksakka. The only thing Silistran-made was the couch itself. It was double to my own thala well-couch, crafted by Astria's own masters. I was unsettled that M'lennin had done this thing. There was no dust on the wistwa table, no wrinkle hi the resplendent silken hangings from Kost. It was as if he had made a shrine of this place. It felt wrong; I did not like it. I liked less the look on the Liaison's face. I turned from him and knelt before the low chest beneath the windows. In it were the clothes I had brought with me from Astria. I stripped off the jerkin and threw it aside. The silence screamed its message. I freed my hair, and it fell around me. I rummaged in the chest, finding at last what I sought—a comb and two gold clips, and a length of embroidered Koster silk. These I laid beside me on the pile rug. I sat on my heels, naked, and with the comb I went to work on my ratted hair. Through the curtain of its strands I saw M'lennin's booted feet appear in front of me. "Mien—" I said, before his hand twisted in my hair and pushed my head hard to the floor between my knees. I felt with my hands for him, but he caught them up behind my back. "Did you think I would give you the chance?" he, growled as he used me so brutally I cried out. "Did you think I would wait while you read my mind and manipulated me, while you witched me again? No. This time you will take what I see fit to give you, my way." It did not last very long. When he let me go, T rolled over and looked up at him. To use a Silistran woman so that the precious sperm is wasted is a great insult. I would have, had he wished it, made love with him. He had not wished it. It had been painful, the more so because I could not move to ease him. He stood above me, already buckling his gold-studded belt. I would not give him more satisfaction. If I could have avoided it, I would not have cried out. "I know the way to the dining hall," I said. "I will meet you there." He looked down at me as I lay there, on my back on the Torth pelt. For a moment I thought he would speak. Instead, he turned on his heel and in three strides was out of the room, slapping the lock without looking back. "Have I hurt you so deeply, M'len?" I asked softly of the empty room. It appeared that I had. I explored myself with my hand, and finding no blood, rolled to my feet. As I made my way into the adjoining washroom, I picked from the pile of silk my bone comb. In the shower I attacked my ratted hair section by section. When it was tangle-free, I lathered my body and leaned back, letting the steaming spray run long over my aching buttocks. I flipped the knob that controlled the shower's temperature, holding my breath as the icy needles struck. The cold was invigorating, but it did not cool my inner heat. I was still much aroused. I smiled to myself, thinking of M'len. I hadn't thought him capable of such ferocity. That was my mistake. It lies waiting in all men. I had made the novice's error of allowing my conception of the man to blind me to his needs. No one is perfect, I decided as I padded on squishing feet back into the apartment. It had turned out the better for my surprise. By surrendering control of the situation, by expressing my pain and humiliation, I had gained an edge. And perhaps I could exploit it. I stood on the Torth pelt wringing my hair dry. The smell of the room, of star steel and damp clean body, of my own need, excited me. Finally I was dripped dry enough to dress. I wound the Koster silk, all embroidered in gem tones, around. my body, and clipping two ends at the neck and the others at my hip, drew it taut over my breasts and hips. Then I regarded myself in the mirror behind the couch. My skin gleamed from the needle spray of the shower. I tingled all over. My image reassured me. Even with my hair still damp, and parted simply, I looked well. There were no toilet maids to dress me here. I would have to get used to caring for my own needs. I had done it in the past. I reached back and took the curling mass of my hair where it fell over my hips and squeezed once more. The drops ran down my legs and dripped on the rug. I inspected my reflection once again. Good enough, I thought, and tossed the bone comb on the couch. The rust silk set me off to my best advantage. There was, however, something missing. Thoughtfully, I disengaged the clip that held the two ends of the silk strap together at my right hip. I lifted the ends and stuffed them through my chald, so that they were tightly belted to my waist. Then I refastened the clip higher on my thigh. I fingered my father's ring for a moment. Better. I turned, slowly, full around. Much better. As I made my way to the dining hall, my anticipation heightened. My hungers had sorted themselves out. I was more than ready to eat, and the smell of roast parr and fried grintafish made my mouth water. M'lennin's back was toward me, and he was engaged in animated conversation with one of his visitors, he whom I took to be the pilot, for his hair was cut close to the head, and he wore a tight-fitting brown uniform, that of his vocation. The small dark man was almost hidden behind a pile of Silistran fruit of every conceivable variety. I stood in the doorway scanning the room, as is my wont. All the food upon the table was Silistran. M'lennin never ate local produce. There was a whole parr, its skin shining with glaze, its square snout propped up in the air by the name fruit between its teeth. There was a side of denter, with roast tuns, a starchy dark-skinned tuber, for garnish. The table, as long as my body and half as wide, was overflowing with meats and vegetables and fruits. There were four large decanters, two of an amber liquid which I took to be brin, for it bubbled and frothed, and two darker, almost certainly kifra wines. It was an impressive spread, and would have fed forty, rather than four. M’lennin was consistent, at least, in his excess. M'len and the pilot had not noticed me. I stepped silently into the hall, planning to cross the marble floor unannounced. I had made perhaps a third of the distance when a hand came down firmly from behind me on my left shoulder. Reflexively I dropped and kicked out. I felt my foot connect with something hard. Crouching free, I pulled my hair back from my face. My would-be attacker was on his knees, clutching his diaphragm. M'lennin and the pilot were leaning on each other, laughing hysterically. I saw the overturned chairs and spilled fruit on the floor, and the menial robot clicking irritably as it scurried to set things right. "I would introduce you two," gasped the Liaison through tears of laughter, "but I see you have already met." My adversary raised his head to me, steadying himself with one hand on the floor as he rose. I, too, got to my feet. My hands on my hips, I regarded him. I did not think the situation humorous. I have had much training from the Slayers. My teacher, Rin diet Tron, would say I have many moves. I would say I have a few, though I am no match for a Silistran Slayer. "My apologies, lady," said my attacker. He was a good head taller than I, dark-complexioned, with a great mass of black hair. Under straight, pronounced brows his eyes were gray, frank, open. A smile played at the corners of his mouth. I thought him very attractive, though overly muscled. I had brought him down through luck, and he knew it. He weighed perhaps thrice what I carried. He rubbed his middle. "I am Estri," said I, extending my hand palm up. I would not exchange apologies with him. I smiled and nodded my head. "Khaf-Re Dellin," said he. His voice was pleasant, low and rich. His large hand, palm down, enveloped mine. The back of his hand was fleeced with black silky hair. He wore a white, collared shirt, and the black shorts I knew were part of the Liaison dress code, though M'len always wore pants and boots. His eyes had mine, and we stood there, palms touching, longer than was appropriate. Neither of us spoke. I searched for something to say, but I was mute. Instead I disengaged my hand and turned to M'lennin. "You had better teach him some manners before he goes to Arlet," I advised in a low voice. "Perhaps you will do it for me," he said, giving me a piercing stare. He stepped between us and put his arm around Dellin's shoulder. He had to reach up to do it. The Liaison First said something to the Liaison Second in a voice too low for me to catch his meaning- "Seat yourself, Keepress," said M'lennin. I did so, choosing a spot before the platter of parr. I winced when my bottom settled on the padded bench. Mien, standing over me, grinned and reached under the table. When his hand reappeared, it held a cushion. I took it and placed it beneath me, and sat again, this time gingerly. The Liaison First took his armed chair at the narrow end of the table. The pilot sat across from me. He introduced himself as Dalf Tragett, of Beten, a B.F. planet in the adjacent quadrant. I had had Betenese in Astria. They are tiny powerhouses, brilliant and sensitive. The Betenese are among the best mathematical minds in the B.F., much sought as astrogators. We exchanged suitable pleasantries and I asked after two captains I knew from his home town. He was flattered, surprised at my interest, and we chatted. Dellin had not seated, but continued his inspection of the tapestries that hung from the gray walls of the huge and lofty dining hall, that inspection which my entrance had interrupted. I was piqued. M'lennin was' openly amused. He leaned back in his steel and sueded armchair, sipping brin. As host, he should have served us, but he did not. I rose to serve the pilot, and turned to face M'len, letting my hair fall over my shoulder so the Betenese could not see my face. I stuck my tongue out at the Liaison First, and he choked on his frothy mouthful. "Brin is a lightly intoxicating drink, brewed from grain called binnirin, which grows both wild and cultivated all over Silistra and is one of our staple crops," said I, handing a crystal glass of amber liquid to the pilot. He sipped it hesitantly, then nodded and took a larger swallow. "It will not, of course," I continued, "intoxicate a Beten, unless one of such prodigious appetites were to drink, perhaps, a whole barrel." We both laughed. I poured another tall foaming glass and carried it across the hall to Dellin, where he was dutifully inspecting a Torth sculptured panel. I looked back over my shoulder and saw M'len handing a pipe to the pilot. "Liaison," said I, a safe distance from his broad back, "will you taste brin?" He turned and looked past me toward the table. We were well out of earshot, if we kept our voices down. "Keepress," said he, extending his hand for the glass, "I will have whatever you see fit to give me," and his eyes were frank and appreciative. I tossed my head, letting some of my nearly dry hair fall over my breast. The curling ends rested on my naked thigh. "My couch-price," I breathed, "is fifty gold dippars, in Astria. Here, however, I am at the Liaison First's disposal. Should you make an arrangement with him, I would have no choice but to honor it." A cloud crossed Dellin's face. Had I misread him? "I would give you that chance," said he. His voice was low but angry. "I would make an arrangement with you, not M'lennin. I want nothing not freely given." I saw that he had much to learn of Silistra. "And I cannot," I explained, "give you what is not mine to give." He looked at me, not understanding, leaning his shoulder against the Torth panel, sipping his brin so that I could not see the expression on his face. "You are incredibly beautiful," he tried again. "Surely worth fifty gold dippars, then?" I asked. "Doubtless," he confirmed. "I cannot lower my price, my value, my status, by lying with a man like some binnirin farmer's daughter, for nothing. Do you understand? On Silistra, such things are not done. If you would have me this night, you must pay my couch-price to M'len, or strike with him some bargain." I smiled reassuringly. "You have much to learn before you go to Arlet." He raked his fingers through the harth mass of his hair, shaking his head slowly from side to side, and handed me the half-full glass of brin., I took it and tried to suppress my amusement as he strode to M'lennin's side. My former couch-mate would be very annoyed, but he had little choice. M'len could not, in his position of mentor to Dellin, refuse him. I had no choice at all, but it happened that I wanted the Liaison Second. I would, in any case, have had to abide by M'len's decision, even if Dellin had been old and ugly. Had he been the least attractive man on Silistra, I would have answered him the same. But he was not. I watched them. Dellin bent over M'lennin. M'lennin rubbed the back of his neck and played with his glass. The Liaison Second nodded, and the Liaison First smiled. I thought the smile a trifle strained from where I leaned against the Torth sculpture at one end of the long, narrow, high-ceilinged gray room. It was good to watch Khaf-Re Dellin move, I decided as he came toward me, graceful, fluid, catlike on the balls of his feet. He did not swagger or strut, but moved with sinuous, unconscious ease. In his hand he held a second glass of amber brin. When he reached me, he took the half-glass from my hands and gave me the full one. He leaned one shoulder against the wall, looking down at me with a bemused expression on his strong-boned face. "I have little understanding of Silistran customs, but I would be a fool did I not wish to learn." He reached out and touched my hair, then my neck. "You struck, then," asked I, "a satisfactory agreement with M'len?" I read his path, as it is said, by precipitating the question and watching his mind react. "You are mine, as the Liaison put it, to command until sun's rise. I command you, then, to tell me now if you would prefer to avoid my touch." His face was but inches from mine; his narrowed eyes searched. "Avoid it." I laughed. "Does the musician avoid his instrument? Does the singer avoid the song? Such is my chan-tera; my study, my vocation, my way of life!" I turned my face to his. He took a kiss from me. I tasted my own blood as his lips pressed down upon mine. His hands were on my buttocks. After a time he pushed me from him and held me at arm's length, his fingers digging into my shoulders. "Your answer does not satisfy me, woman. Do you want me?" He shook me. "Do you want me to want you, Liaison? Your mouth says one thing, your touch another," I replied. His face showed no expression, but he turned me and pushed me toward the table, slapping me ungently on the rear. For that question, the Liaison Second had no answer. "We have delayed the meal overlong," said he instead. The pilot and the Liaison First stared at us until we were seated behind the roast parr. M'lennin drummed his fingers on the tabletop. He had the look of a man who had tasted kifra gone sour. "Where are you from?" I asked, passing Dellin his plate, upon which I had placed three thick strips of parr, juicy with blood. "M'ksakka is where I grew up," said he, accepting the cream sauce I passed him. He spooned some on the stewed name he had chosen from a large bowl of mixed fruit, "but I was born on Itabe, of a M'ksakkan father and Itabic mother. Why?" "Curiosity. You remind me of Mien in some ways," I said, shooting a look at the Liaison First. "He has never truly gotten used to Silistra. I think perhaps he is afraid that it is all just a dream and one day he will awaken and find himself Liaison to a mining colony on Centaus. They instill a strange brand of morality on M'ksakka," I added, serving the ruby kifra wine. "Not as strange a brew as is found in Astria," growled M'lennin. "I might prefer Centaus, were I given the choice." He popped a chunk of grintafish, crispy and brown, into his mouth. "I hear the food on Centaus is incomparable." We all laughed. Centaus was a bare, airless rock. The colony was underground, the food hydroponically grown. "And there is no blasted chaldra to drive a man mad. Nor chaldless outlaws, nor highborn ladies of the evening. Just men making a good living, who have no compunction about doing so." He drained his wineglass and refilled it. "Planet of dizzy whores," he grumbled. Dellin had one hand between my thighs beneath the table. With the other he forked a bit of mashed tun into his mouth. "I see nothing wrong with Silistran food. In fact, I rather like it," said the Betenese pilot, emptying one decanter of kifra and starting upon the second. The Beten was quietly getting very drunk. "Has Estri told you, Khaf-Re, that she intends to make her way to Arlet on a mission of great chaldric importance? Everything on Silistra has chaldric importance," said M'lennin bitterly. I choked on a bit of narne. I had wanted to tell Dellin in my own way, at a more opportune moment. The Liaison Second squeezed my thigh. He put down his fork and looked at me. "Perhaps," said he, "if I can get a pass's advance on my salary, the Well-Keepress of Astria will allow me to deliver her to Arlet?" He was grinning. "Doubtless, if that is the case, she would allow it," said I, straight-faced. "Done," snarled M'lennin around a mouthful of denter, "though, if the Liaison Second will allow the Liaison First to advise him, there are other women on Silistra, many more reasonably priced. One should taste the vintage before stocking the cellar." "That's one bottle I would buy unopened," mumbled Dalf Tragett, the pilot. "Thank you, Master Astrogator," I acknowledged, but the Beten slumped forward on the table. Kifra is smooth and deceptively delicate, but it is potent. "Speak to me of these chaldless," said Dellin to M'lennin, as the button-bristled tubular menial robot blinked its way to the table with a pot of steaming rana grasped in its jointed metal tentacle. As I served the sobering rust-colored brew to the three of us, M'lennin launched into a tirade concerning the ungrateful malcontents that harried tourists and waylaid star-goods caravans. It annoyed him terribly that the chaldless seldom bothered Silistrans. The pilot snored loudly. I thought he would sleep until sun's rise. M'lennin ran dry of words as I served the fruited binnirin cake, and we ate it in silence. The Liaison First then pulled out a large-bowled ragony pipe and filled it carefully from his parr-hide pouch. I knew what he had filled it with from the weed's yellow smoke and acrid odor. We would smoke danne, the rare and costly psychotropic herb that grows high on the Sabembe range. Three puffs would put an out-worlder such as Dellin out of commission for hours. I leaned against Dellin's shoulder and whispered a warning in his ear. He nodded, and when M'len passed him the pipe, he inhaled only a tiny amount and blew it out almost immediately. He passed it to me. I dragged deep and held the smoke. I felt my limbs tingle and the colors in the room brighten. I handed the pipe back to the Liaison First, leaning across Dellin's lap. My breast brushed his hip and burned at the heat. My need was much intensified by the drug. I looked up at Dellin. His face was beaded with sweat. "No more," said he to M'lennin, pushing back his chair, "else I will be in no shape to use her." He gestured vaguely to me. "Get up." I got up, putting my arm around the unsteady out-worlder's waist. "Your room or mine?" he murmured, nuzzling my neck. "Mine," said I, maneuvering him toward the door. "Tasa," said the Liaison First indistinctly from his armed sueded chair. I doubted M'lennin would make it to his couch this night. "Tasa," I replied, steering Dellin around the corner. The danne had been of exceptional strength. I stepped square on Santh's tufted tail where he lay stretched out beside Sithantha across the threshold to my apartment. He growled softly, opened one eye, and regarded me balefully. Supporting Dellin with one arm as best I could, I leaned over the hulion and slapped the lockplate. "Step carefully," said I to Dellin. He shook his head, rubbed his eyes, and removed my arm from his waist. He stared at Santh and Sithantha. "I," said he, "am in worse shape than I thought." "No, they are there." "They?" He looked straight at me, making a valiant effort to focus my face. "The hulions. Step over them." "Hulions. Certainly." Somehow I managed to get him into the shower. When the cold water struck his clothed body, he howled and grabbed for me. I evaded him, laughing, while the stinging spray did its work. Sputtering and growling, he stumbled out of the stall and stood dripping, hands on his hips, much sobered. "Come strip me, woman," said he. I did as he bid me, and he took me there on the pile of sopping clothes. Then he stripped me of the Koster silk and regarded me. "Does that come off?" he said, hooking a finger between the chald and my naked body. He closed the chald in his fist. “No," I lied. "Good," he grunted, and dragged me by the chald across the floor and up on my Astrian couch. He was superb, and I told him so, over and over, as he used me. He had the skill of taking a woman out of herself, and I was truly lost to him. Only in the predawn did I have a chance to deliver to him an Astrian lovemaking, and even in that he directed me. Then we slept, and I missed my appointment at sun's rise with M'lennin. Dellin wakened me with his renewed interest, and afterward I lay on my back in the crook of his arm, staring at the lofty ceiling. The midmorning light streamed through the crystal windows. He kissed my temple. "Tell me about life in the Well," he said in an odd voice. I extended my right leg as high as I could in the air, pointing my toes. I studied the play of shadow along my inner thigh. I sighed. "You wish to know what a fine girl like me is doing in a place like this, do you not?" "It is not the place," said he, fondling my breast, "but the situation. Yes, I suppose that is what I want to know," he admitted. I wiggled my toes. "I understand," he continued, "the economics. of Silistra. I realize that each Well is autonomous, and that each Well-area has its Liaison, acting independently of the other. I can even accept that I shall be one. I have studied my tapes and committed the four major Silistran languages to memory. I have also studied all the available data on your time theory and your Day-Keepers and your genetic manipulation. I understand your concern with your low birthrate, your unwillingness to use drugs to alter your natural-selection system, a system that puts the woman in a centralized location of sexual activity until that precious and unpredictable egg drops and is fertilized. I can even swallow that bit about only the egg knowing the right sperm, and that a Silistran woman ovulates only upon the presentation of desirable sperm, and then only two or three times in her life. I find the concept of shipping your best psychics off to the Day-Keepers, that they might conceive only with other psychics, hard to take. It must be even harder for Silistran men. And the costs of access to the Well! Have you not priced yourselves out of the local market? How about the fine physical specimens who can't get up the couch-price?" He was up on one elbow, staring down into my face. I said nothing. "Why do Silistran women commit themselves into public usage, and then, when pregnant, become willingly the property of the men who impregnate them, giving to those men title to all they have gained in their years in the Wells?" "Why not?" I retorted. "You will never understand Silistra if you take the facets of the culture out of context. That is M'lennin's mistake. Chaldra. All is chaldra. There is great chaldra attached to the Wells." "I had a tape on chaldra," he interrupted. "It did not explain the Wells." I sighed. The sun was getting higher, and I had to find M'lennin. "I shall try to show you, then. A girl, when she reaches puberty, takes a number of examinations. Her scores on these, she submits to the Wells. From this information on her physical, psychical, and mental potential, the Wells either accept or reject the girl. Astria has first choice, Arlet second, and so on. Astria will take a highly intelligent girl with a strong fore-reader index, if she is attractive; Arlet will take a high hormonal index, for they specialize in exotic sex. Each Well has a character. It is a great honor to be an Astrian girl, and wear the silver chain with white interwoven. Once a girl is accepted by a Well, the security of her family is assured. They are gifted by the Well and benefited in many ways. The girl's earnings are invested by the Well, and we are very good with money. A woman goes out of Astria with a great fortune. She is also educated continually and thoroughly. She learns comparative cultures, the known languages of the galaxy, musics, dances, a large number of required subjects, and others, of her choice. She learns the ways of love. She becomes cultured and sophisticated. She has opportunities to mate with some of the most powerful and brilliant men in the known galaxy. Should a woman, given a choice between such a life and the lot of the farmgirl on the plains, choose to churn bondrex milk and slop parr? And meet perhaps a hundred men in her life? Should she risk bearing the unfulfilled chaldra of reproduction to her grave? The chances of an isolated Silistran woman conceiving are sixty to one. "As for the men," I continued, "I believe our men are content. Only four "percent of Astrian women conceive by off-worlders. A man need not have money to partake of the Well if he is Silistran. There are games once a set, and festivals once a pass, where the men may earn silver and gold well tokens. These games range from physical to psychical, and any man with a talent or skill may gain entrance to the Well in this manner. Men love the gamble as they love wealth. A man knows that should he bring child on a girl in the Well, he will acquire not only a sensual, beautiful woman, but the money to enjoy her at his leisure in luxurious surroundings. If he can impregnate two, then two women and two fortunes are his. The men control much on Silistra. Both the dependent and independent cities draw great revenue from the Well and the traffic they bring. The traders and the merchants and the slayers and the hunters, and the weavers, and more, prosper from the Wells. Thousand of years ago the Day-Keepers and the forereaders determined the social structure of Silistra, building upon the ruins of past mistakes. It has endured." "You are angry," he said, tracing my lips with his finger. "No," said I, "but I have said this say many times." "What if a woman falls in love with a man without him having impregnated her?" he asked thoughtfully., "There is the pressure of chaldra to consider," I reminded him. "Perhaps she would stay in the Well until she conceived, and petition that the father's right to her body be waived. If the Well accepted this, they would pay the father double the birth-price, and the woman would, once having repaid the Well, be free to leave and go to her lover. The Well would gift them and absorb the loss. I have never heard of a woman leaving the Well without conceiving. She goes to the Well to become pregnant. Why would she leave without fulfilling her purpose?" "You have not conceived," said he, "but you have left the Well." "Oh," said I. "I have taken on the chaldra of the mother; to find my father. I seek him. I have no man whom I love. The skein of the time weave bears me to Arlet. My father was an off-worlder who did not want my mother, nor the birth-price, nor me. He spread his seed and disappeared. If a man does not want the woman, the Well buys her back, and the profit to the father is high. But he did not wish it. I was raised by the Well, for my mother died at my birth. Women who have been in the Well and have not conceived are given such children to raise when they can no longer take the couch. We care for our own." "I, too, am half-bred," said Dellin. The way he said it made me think the fact had caused him some pain. He sat up and swung his legs over the edge of the couch. "Anything I can do to help you discharge this chaldra, whatever I can, I will do. I will be, remember, powerful in Arlet. What race was your father's?" "That is what I am here to find out," said I. "Come with me if you wish, while M'lennin and I attempt to unravel the riddle." He nodded and pulled me to him again. I begged off, and we showered and I dressed. In my short white sleeveless s'kim, which tied behind at back, waist, and hip, I walked him, naked, to his own room, where he pulled on black shorts and sandals, and we went searching for food and M'lennin. III. The Context Within Which the Act Is Viewed We found M'lennin in his main room, a place of clicking, whirring machines, each of which blinked a thousand varicolored eyes and spun its wheels and flickered its indicators back and forth across the lighted maws, of its meters, singing to itself and its fellows in machine song. The door was open, the room dim-lit. We never made it to the kitchen. M'lennin waved us within, and we came up behind him where he sat before a bank of controls. Somehow he had devised to project the contents of the cube upon the right-hand screen that covered the wall before us. My mother was just fading into gray. We watched my father take my mother, double life-size. Dellin threw his leg up on the console and pulled me against him. "He's got the moves, eh, Dellin?" said M'len. "Quiet, I am learning," retorted Dellin. I said nothing. My night with the Liaison Second faded into perspective as I watched. I had not, after all, conceived with Dellin. I would have felt the egg enter my tube. With such a man as the one on the screen before me, I would surely conceive. I pulled a bit away from Dellin's encircling arm. "One need not be a deep-reader to know what you're thinking," said he in my ear. M'len pushed a button, and the scene froze. He touched another and another, and the left-hand por- tion of the screen lit up with columns of words and percentiles and numbers decimal. "There you see it, Estri," said the Liaison First. "No, I do not," I answered. "Explain it to me."- He went through the list item by item. It was very complicated. "So you see," he summed up, "what we have here is a 1.0000 to infinity bipedal standard air-breather. The archetypal man. The bipedal standard is a composite of all the divergent characteristics of the four-hundred-odd races of the hundred and forty-eight planets of the Bipedal Federate group. There is no such thing as a living standard biped. Or there was never known to be one. Now we see such a man before us. The absolute man. The only one I have ever heard of. I cannot place him for you, Estri. There should be no such being." My heart sank. "May I see the skeleton again, please?" I asked. I studied it. I saw some of my own peculiarities there, cervical ribs, excessively thin flat bones. I counted the vertebrae. He, as I, had two more than Silistran norm. "All right, M'len." The Liaison First hit the console, and the lights came on while the projections on the screen faded. "How about the languages?" Dellin asked. "Did you catalog?" M’lennin handed Dellin a fax sheet without turning from the machine. He twisted a dial and slid a fader, watching two lit meters. "All dead languages," mused the Liaison Second. "Even the Silistran is archaic. Three the computer banks cannot identify. Yet the woman seemed to have no trouble understanding him. Could she have gotten the meaning of his words from his mind?" he asked, looking at me. "She could, but I could not. My mother was an exceptional telepath, but not enough of a deep-reader to go to the Day-Keepers." "Pity," said M'len, his chin propped on his fist. The console hissed and burped up a small flat oblong and two sheets of the orange, rubbery fax. "Do you want stills?" he asked. I nodded, and he ran his hands over the coder again. The machine spit two palm-sized color holos into his waiting fingers. He then turned from the console and faced us. The Liaison First handed me the fax, stills, and the black flat oblong, which he explained was a modern version of the silver cube. I nodded as he instructed me in its operation. "I would leave now," I said to my host. "I expected that you would want to go today when I realized how little I could make of this. Dalf is at the hover, ready when you are. Take care, Estri. I like this whole business less, the more I know." He was genuinely concerned. The Liaison First extended his hand palm up to the Liaison Second. "All is in readiness for you in Arlet. You have the call codes if you need me. Tasa, Liaison." "Tasa," Dellin and I said in unison. We had been delicately dismissed. "How long will it take to get to Arlet in the hover?" I asked Dellin as I grabbed up my belongings and stuffed them in my old parr-hide sack. I would leave nothing behind this time. "A set, at least," said Dellin. "A set!" I cried. "I could walk there in that time." "Ah, but it will be infinitely more pleasurable to fly," said he. "I must get to Arlet," I objected. "You will," he assured me as we made our way across the stone court to the egg-shaped, creamy metal hover. "But you must teach me of Silistra on the way." We climbed the ramp, and I ducked my head in the low entry. It was a very tiny space, filled with more hateful blinking gadgets and three contoured seats. I chose the back one, away from the window. I do not like to fly. One must give over too much of one's destiny to the caprice of circuits and steel. The Beten pilot waved. I was not pleased with Dellin. I knew he could have had me in Arlet before next sun's rise. I leaned back on the seat and closed my eyes. I was hungry and irritable and tired. I felt guilty about sneaking off from Santh, but I knew he would have insisted on following, and one cannot be inconspicuous with a giant hulion at one's heels. I had been lucky to get away without him. I heard the pilot bringing the engines to life. I was very tired. I was asleep before the hover gained the air. I dreamed I was in a strange checkerboard land, where all of time-space were jammed together like some impossible collage. A piece of winter laid half atop a chunk of primal sea, which bubbled over an unseen edge into a volcano that vomited fire and ash onto a plain covered with waving grain, while hailstones fell bouncing into a triangle of rainforest that grew in the midst of desert dunes, and a great bronze figure stood laughing, towering over the scene, legs astraddle. He pointed at me with a finger, and I saw that that finger was adorned with my father's ring. I fell down on my knees and cried in fear, but the giant only laughed and snapped his fingers. Instantly I was imprisoned in a block of transparent ice. I awoke sweating, to find Dellin shaking my shoulder. "You were moaning and crying. Are you all right?" "Yes, now," I said, knuckling the sleep from my eyes. My stomach churned, and my face and eyes stung from lack of sleep. "I had the strangest dream. About the ring." I sat up, wide-awake. "I forgot to show M'len the ring! I am such a fool, it is a wonder I can feed myself." I groaned. "Easy, Estri." He brushed my hair from my eyes. "We are going to set down for a meal. I thought you would prefer it to eating in the air." He patted my arm and took his seat next to the Betenese pilot. My head was spinning. How could I have forgot- ten? The landing was accomplished without incident, and I felt better as soon as I had solid ground beneath my feet. Dalf, the pilot, carried out a basket filled with good Silistran fruit, cheese, honeyed binnirin bread, and the inevitable brin. Dellin made pleasant small talk with his pilot while I ate in silence. He seemed determined not to discuss the ring or my dream. So be it! After all, he and I had nothing together but mutual lust. I chided myself for expecting more from him. I examined the glade around us. When there was nothing in the basket but crumbs, seeds, and cores, the diminutive Betenese disappeared into the hover. He returned with two large bladders of drink, and handing one to Dellin, retired with the other to the shade of a giant wisper tree. "Let us explore," said Dellin, shouldering the bladder and helping me up. I brushed the crumbs from my white s'kim and took his arm. My irritation was fading. A full belly and the warm sun of Silistra do wonders for the temper. We walked far through brush and trees. The jitkaws flittered and the black harths cawed and the large-eyed, bush-tailed krits scurried in the high branches. It was a beautiful day. I pointed out flora and fauna to Dellin as we went, that he might see pictures for the words he had hypno-learned. We wandered past the glade into deeper forest of dappled light and moist cushioned sound; a sunken meadow. I sat beneath a fan-leaved wisper tree, leaning my back against the cool velvet bark, motioning Dellin to join me. He squatted cross-legged and pulled the bladder from his shoulder. He uncorked it and tipped it to his lips, swallowed, and handed the skin to me. "I have no name for this, but it is good," said he, wiping his mouth on the back of his hand. "It is fermented name, from that round red fruit you ate last night," I said when I tasted it. "It is called the same whether food or drink. The drink is always potent," I explained. "Tell me about your dream," he suggested, moving to share the support of the tree trunk with me. I did so. He listened, his arm around me, his nose in my hair. "Let me see this ring," said he thoughtfully when I had finished. I reached down under my s'kim and took the tiny key from its hiding place and removed the chald from my body and held it out to him. "I thought you said it did not come off," said he, referring to the chald. "They do not, as a rule." I smiled. "I would not be without my chald, even in sleep." He held the ring close to his face, and the ends of the chald, looped through its band, dangled in his lap. He turned it, and turned it again. He peered long into the stone. Then he handed it back to me. "It reminds me of something," said he as I refastened the chald around my waist and replaced the tiny key in its housing and smoothed my white s'kim down around my thighs. "Something about it that I should connect. I cannot quite grab the thought. I have seen something that relates to it, somehow, and recently." "Think," said I, staring at him. He raised his free hand and dropped it in his lap. I waited. Finally he shook his head. "I am sorry," said he. "Perhaps later on. My mind is on other things." He grinned broadly. "Not now," I snapped. I had an uncomfortable chill. "Now," said he, taking me by the hair. "Fight me," he advised. I did, until I felt myself fighting my own desire. Then I lay on my back under the wisper tree and struggled futilely, deliriously, and with much art. I was very close when I opened my eyes and saw them staring down at us. Dellin's mouth was on mine, and he was deep in his pleasure. I tried to warn him, but it was too late. Hands dragged us apart. Hands forced me to my belly on the leaves and bound my wrists to my an- kles, right to right and left to left. There, under the tree, a number of them took their turns with me. I caught a glimpse of Dellin trussed and helpless, watching, while two of them held him. The two men that held Dellin wore no visible chalds. They took much glee in my debasement. I lost count of them, and my mind went elsewhere and I endured them until the last rolled away and pulled up his laced pants. In that moment I gathered my wits about me and feigned unconsciousness. I raced through the mind-clearing ritual and called Santh with all the power I had. Then a hand was shaking me, and I did not get the hulion's answer. A filthy bearded face loomed before my eyes. The teeth in that face were yellow and broken, and the breath from that mouth was fetid. I tried to turn my head away, but he jerked me back. "High lady, do I offend you?" he rasped. I spit at him, hitting him square in the eye. He jerked my head back by the hair until I thought my neck would snap. I cried out in pain. "My Well will pay a ransom for me," I gasped. He loosened his hold, and we eyed each other. Over his shoulder I could see Dellin, bloodied, down on his belly on the ground, naked. I groaned inwardly. "No. We know who you are," my tormentor informed me. "Yes, we do." His eyes were filmy and glazed. "We know that man, Liaison to Arlet, and you, high-couch girl. And we know because a little fellow we met on the trail was kind enough to tell us before he died. Terrible accident, that. Boom! Right, Tark? Boom!" A straw-haired, hulking youth nodded and turned' toward us. He dragged his right leg. He knelt at my captor's side and touched my dirt-smeared breast with a scabby finger. "Pretty fi-ire," he said slowly and deliberately. Then he giggled and hunkered back on his heels. "Pret-ty fi-ire, Morkel." I shuddered as I realized the extent of our difficul- ties. Poor Dalf. I counted the chaldless. I could see eleven ragged, filthy men. He would have had no chance. "Your couch-mate does not please us," Morkel, the torturer, said. "You tell him, lady, to do what we say, and we will not kill you. We will keep you, you will be happy to be alive. You tell him that Jorna and Trinard like boys like him. You tell him, lady, to do good by my friends Jorna and Trinard." He caressed my cheek with a horny paw. He pushed his face against mine. "Or we will cut something off, something he would like to keep, and feed it to you." He was consumed in laughter at that. He pushed himself away from me and rolled on the ground, kicking his legs in the air. "And feed it to her," he screamed repeatedly, pointing. The others took up the cry. They giggled and guffawed and danced around each other as the two I assumed to be Jorna and Trinard dragged Dellin to within an arm's length of me. His arms and legs were still bound, and there was another thick hemp rope around his neck. I searched the sky. I saw nothing. I turned pleading eyes to Dellin. He was struggling furiously, his face transformed with impotent rage. He looked upon me, unseeing. Morkel jerked me to my knees and pushed me, his foot in the small of my back, toward Dellin. I fell forward, my face so close to his that I could see the blood and sweat mix on his skin. He was cut above the eye, and more blood ran from the right corner of his mouth. His eyes were wild. "Please," I whispered in M'ksakkan. "Do what they want. They will torture us if you do not. I called Santh." I begged him. "We need just a little time. It is not the act, but the context in which it is viewed. It is not that terrible a thing." Dellin shook his head and spit blood. "No chance. They'll kill me afterward anyway." His voice was toneless. His eyes implored me to understand. I could not. A foot struck me in the kidneys, and I bit my lip. "You better tell him good, lady," someone said. "Please, Khaf-Re, if not for yourself, then for me. I am sure Santh will come. If you lose your manhood here, and he rescues us, what good will your life be to you? Buy me the time, please," I sobbed. I had never before used his given name. I craned my head to see the sky. Still nothing. I looked back at Dellin. The tears streamed down my face unchecked. His face swam before my eyes. He stared at me and said nothing. Morkel stepped between us and hunkered over Dellin. "You ready to put on a show for us, star-man?" He giggled. The Liaison Second of Arlet did not respond. Morkel picked me up roughly and set me on my knees between himself and the bloody, hulking Tark. The men had formed a circle around the prostrate Dellin and the two men Jorna and Trinard. "You watch," said Morkel to me, grasping me by the throat. When the two men forced Dellin's mouth open, he kept his head, and hence his own imperiled sexual organs. He cried out once when they used him as if he were a woman. I sympathized with him. When the show was over, the two men dragged him to his feet and pushed him, stumbling and naked, to my side, where they knotted the end of the rope that dangled from his neck around my throat and forced us both to lie down. My hands were rebound behind my back. Our feet were rope-wrapped, and they left us, facing each other, bound together. They seemed almost to forget about us as they prepared a fire and cooked a meal of stolen stores from the hover. Dellin did not speak to me. I watched the sky. I nudged him, but he turned his head away. I kissed him once on the shoulder, and he shivered, but that was all. The day passed slowly into dusk, and our tormentors, drunk and sated, snored under the peaceful wisper trees. I must have dozed. When I awoke, it was pitch dark and the sliver of the moon was rising in the velvet night. I heard a rustle near me, then a soft sound as of gnashing teeth. I raised my head. I could see nothing. I stared, straining into the dark. Gradually I could make out the edges of the shapes, dark against dark, of the men sleeping on the little rise above us. I heard another rustle, farther away. I sniffed deeply. I thought I detected a musky smell, and then I saw him, silhouetted by the feeble moonlight between the trees. It was a hulion, surely the hulion. His head was high, and he was shaking something in his mouth. Back and forth he shook it, then, with a great toss of his mighty head, sent the thing flying into the midst of the sleeping men. I heard a grumble, a shout, and two figures rose up, their knives glinting. The battle was short. Growls and snarls and shouts, and Santh threw one man so far that the sound of his landing was lost in the commotion. The other turned to run, screaming to his fellows for aid. But no one moved from the still-sleeping camp on the rise to assist him. Santh followed his prey into the trees. I was so filled with pride and fear that I could hardly speak. I nudged Dellin, who still slept. He did not wake. I nudged him again, harder. He tried to move his arms, and came alert when he realized where he was. "Santh is here," I whispered. I feared that somehow, some of our captors still lived. "Where?" asked Dellin loudly, struggling to sit up. "Move your feet here. Good." We could, by placing our mutually bound feet between us, sit facing each other. "Hey," Dellin shouted. "Sssh," I hissed. "Why?" His tone was flat and cold. "If I am saved, I wish to know it. If not, I would know that also." None stirred in the camp. "Could he have killed them all?" he asked wonderingly. "Easily," I gloated. "Has he ever tasted man flesh before?" "No, he has not." "Might he not, in his blood rage, kill us also?" "Santh would never hurt me," I assured him with more confidence than I felt. I had not thought of that. Santh bounded out of the darkness and laid a large wet form at my feet. He snuffled his nose in my hair. I trembled. "Good Santh," I said in my most approving voice. The great hulion sat with his front legs tucked between his rear, his fur touching my leg, waiting for me to taste his gift. His huge eyes shone like two golden full moons out of the night. "Santh, find a knife," I commanded, sending to the great beast's mind a picture of the object I wanted. He sighed explosively and slunk off in the dark. "Well"—Dellin let out his breath—"at least he is not going to devour us immediately. Do you think he understood you?" I nodded, forgetting that Dellin could not see such a slight gesture in the dim light cast by the small sliver of moon now directly overhead. Only when Santh returned and laid the knife he carried in his mouth between us did I realize that I, also, had been holding my breath. Dellin bent to the ground and took the knife in his own teeth. It was not long before our feet were free. The Liaison Second crawled behind me and sawed through the ropes that imprisoned my hands. Then I took it and cut him loose. Santh sat guarding his newest kill, purring softly in his throat. I rubbed my wrists and went to him. He lowered his massive head that I might scratch behind his tufted ears. I dug my thumb deep into his inner ear and let him lick the wax, stroking and fondling him. Dellin, amid the camp of our assailants, lit a torch. In the flicker, he waved me to him. Santh growled as I started up the gentle incline, and nudged the body at his feet with his nose. "No, Santh, I love you, but I have no stomach for such a meal," I said. The hulion snorted. At Dellin's side, I inspected the carnage in the glow of the torch. None of the men had any throat left, nor stomach. Some were mangled beyond recognition. I went to my knees and vomited quietly. Finally my stomach stopped convulsing. I had no more to give. I wiped my mouth with clean grass. On my hands and knees, I was unable to rise. My limbs trembled uncontrollably. I had been clear-headed and numb while my life hung in the balance. Safe, I was consumed with fear, and with anger at the Liaison's thought. "Are you hurt?" Dellin was kneeling beside me, his hand on my bowed back. I raised my head and looked at him. "Can one have such an experience and remain untouched? When two people share such a point in time, when the wind from the abyss roars around them and they live to remember, cannot there be trust? No, I did not get pleasure from them. I see the question in your mind. "I would not have imperiled my life. They bound me, and I am grateful for that. I had no alternative but to submit. Had they not bound me, I would have served them, for my life's sake. But I did not have to suffer that greater humiliation. I am grateful for that. Although every woman in her deepest self desires to be bound and raped, because of my terror I felt very little. I am also grateful for that. And I live. I am unmarked in body and mind. I thank you for trusting me." He touched my face. I could read the turmoil in him without trying. "You have no reason to thank me," he said softly. "Had your pride caused you to fight them, you would have lost. Perhaps your life, and certainly your male- ness and your mind. What could I have salvaged of my own sanity had that been the case?" I hoped it would work. Dellin made no reply. "I think it is much harder for a man than a woman. For me it was an exaggeration of a normal experience. For a man, I would assume, there could be nothing but pain and humiliation in submission under duress." I looked at him questioningly. "I, too, feel the chill," he admitted. I felt him relax, the whirling within him slow and cease. "We will be," I quipped, "in fashion in Arlet." "What?" "M'lennin did not tell you, then, how Arlet differs from Astria?" He rocked back on his heels, rubbing his eyes. "No, he did not. But I think you just did. This is a strange world, Estri. Perhaps I am not suited for Liaisonship here." "Doubtless it seems strange to you, from the prudery of M'ksakka. You may not be suited for Arlet. I think you will have to wait and see. Men change here. I would say to you that I know you are suited for Astria." I took his hand. "M'lennin is not. He is, however, a man who would be at home in Arlet. Perhaps you and he could exchange posts. I would relax the trade embargo for the right man. You might find Astria profitable if such an arrangement were made." Dellin, soon to be of Arlet, dug in the dirt with a stick. "I would think you would want me less, not more. I could not protect you, could not even control myself. As you said, I might have got us both killed." Self-recrimination was a cutting edge in his voice. The torchlight flickered. I shrugged. It had cost me to put that offer into words. "Perhaps I liked what I saw in you when you bested yourself and endured them. A boy would have died there, for his purity and honor. M'lennin is. such a boy. In Astria we are in need of a man, sure enough of his strength to act on his own standards. Would you trade Arlet for Astria, Khaf-Re Dellin?" He stood abruptly and extended his hand to me. "You speak of the Well but not the Well-Keepress. It is too soon for me to know what I will do, Estri, when I have lived in Arlet. As you say, men change here. And even if I wanted it, it might not come about. Offer me the Well-Keepress, and I will accept. These Wells, both of them, interest me less and less." He stepped among the bodies, and he stooped among the corpses, collecting weapons and leathers and bits of food. He picked up the torch, half-burned, and another which he gave to me. I took the weapons and belts, and he gathered some coals and wood and we carried them to the hollow and made a fire and cooked chunks of meat on sword points. Santh snored peacefully. "I must dispose of this chaldra," I said, "and then, if you choose, we will discuss the disposition of the Well-Keepress." I had thought hard on how to answer without rejecting him. I did not entirely succeed. "I see no way to dissuade you," he said. "Would you have Santh with you in Arlet?" I asked. "Do you think I need him?" "I need him and cannot take him into the Well." "If that great beast wants to come to Arlet," he said slowly, "I would not be able to stop him. If he would be in the Liaison's there, I will allow it. If you would, also, prefer it to the Arletian Well, I would allow that also." "I must be there for Ristran's man to find me, in the Well." "Then I will know where to find you, should I care to buy your use." I threw food and sword into the dirt. I went to him and put my head in his lap. "Do not be angry with me for the way I must live, Khaf-Re," I pleaded. I found I truly cared. He rubbed my shoulder and kissed me gently on the lips. "Women are not so free on M'ksakka," he said gently. "On Silistra," I whispered, "we are all bound." When I awoke, Dellin was leaning over tending a fresh-made fire in the dim dawn light. Beside the fire lay three fat black harths. He had hunted us breakfast with the longbow he had taken from the camp of the chaldless. He had also appropriated for himself a vest of thick hide circles, linked together, such as is popular among the-slayers. It protects the vital organs, coming low over the hips, but leaves the wearer's arms and legs unencumbered. Beneath it he wore a short leather breech, of tas. Around his waist was slung a Silistran pocket belt, so named because of its many compartments, of wide parr-hide from which hung a short sword in a tooled scabbard and a knife in sheath. He had a thong across his brow, to keep his shoulder-length hair back from his face as he poked the crackling logs and the sparks flew. In the light of sun's rising, he looked very Silistran, squatting before the fire in his leathers. I went to him and knelt beside him, fingering the harth carcasses. "I found your viewer and holos among the loot from the hover," he said. "Give them to me." I held out my hand. "No, I will hold them until we reach Arlet." He took the birds and began to clean them. "They are safer with me." "Where is Santh?" "He was gone when I awoke. He will find us again if he so chooses." He met my eyes for the first time. "We will strike out for the road, that way," he pointed, "as soon as we have eaten. I would make it there by mid-meal." "I would wait for Santh." "Woman, do not try my patience." His eyes were hard. "I have thought much about what has happened since we met. I have paid for your use, but you have used me. I have paid with more than dippars, and I will yet get full value from you." He reached into one of the pockets in his belt and drew forth a thong on which was strung perhaps two hundred gold dippars. He leaned to me and fastened the thong behind my neck. Then he leaned back and regarded me. "Now, you wear your worth. I had thought to wait and pay you in Arlet, but I have changed my mind. I would look on you and be reminded who and what you are. And perhaps you, too, will find yourself better able to recollect your station." I was angry. I reached up to remove the necklace of coins. He took my wrists and held them in one hand. His grip was not gentle. I had played the game of control and I had lost. One controls a man through his weakness, his self-image. Dellin had reassessed himself. He could not be handled now, as he was before. I struggled to free my hands, but he held me easily. I closed my eyes to read him, to find a reference point in him I could use, but he slapped me, hard, with his free hand, across the face. "No," he said. "Look at me." I did so. "Remove your chald." He let my hands go. I shook my head. I could taste the blood in my mouth. His hand was in my hair. "Do it! Fear me, woman! I might kill you here and blame it on the chaldless, and none will gainsay me. If you serve me truly, I will deliver you to Arlet. Then I will give you your chald and your artifacts. Santh is not here to protect you. You must depend on me. I would not be taken for a chaldless on the road to Arlet." "You are unbalanced, from the shock!" "On the contrary, I think I have, for the first time in my life, struck a tenable balance with myself. I would not bind you, Estri. You said yourself that that is too easy. By your chald and your father's ring shall I hold you. Give them to me!" I did as he commanded. He was totally in control of the situation. For the first time, I did fear him. To have a man come to the Well, money in hand, determined to take an evening's pleasure with a high-couch girl, is one thing. A woman has subtle but effective restraints upon his behavior. Here, alone, with Dellin, who had freed himself of those invisible bonds by which we bend men to our wills, I had no option. This was another thing entirely. I had put myself into his hands, when I thought those hands were weak. I had miscalculated. If I tried to escape him alone, my fate might be worse. He took the chald and examined it. He removed my father's ring from the chald and slipped it on the middle finger of his left hand. The chald was too small for his waist. He draped it around his neck. Then he lay down on the soft grass. He pointed to the harths. "Cook the meal." I did, and he ate his fill. Then he gave me the remains, and I devoured them. I read him, and what I saw confirmed what he had said. We struck out through the woods toward the road to Arlet. He moved quickly, said little, and I found myself half-running to match his pace. I called Santh, but got no response. I wondered if Dellin had somehow driven him away. When we were in sight of the road, a wide stone-block thoroughfare, lightly traveled, we stopped to rest in a thicket. The road was below us; we could see a good distance in either direction without being observed. I collapsed on the soft mossy ground, panting, grateful for the respite. I had had much time to think. I knew that my fear had triggered something else within me. I desperately wanted to please Dellin, to reach the gentleness in him I had previously known, I told myself. For whatever reason, I determined to do my best to placate him. His rough, offhand treatment had me off-balance, defensive, and much aroused. When I was breathing easily, I crawled to where he leaned against a needle-leaved evergreen. His eyes were narrowed on the road. On my knees, I put my cheek and arms against his thigh. He pushed me roughly away. "I will let you know when I want you," he said, not taking his eyes from the horizon. I lay where I had fallen. I wanted to cry but bit my teeth into my wrist until the need had passed. That much I would give no man. After a time he came to me and motioned me up. He did not extend his hand to me. "There is a likely-looking group, there. They seem headed in the right direction. I am going to see if we can join them. Whatever happens," he said, loosening his sword in his scabbard, "keep silent and do as you are bid." I trailed meekly behind him down the incline and waited silently beside him at the road's edge as a group of four men approached us. When they were almost upon us, Dellin pointed to the ground. I sat. He went to meet them. I could see that they were Slayers, back from the hunt. They wore the slate-colored leather and metal armor, carried helmets crested with parr bristles and square shields emblazoned with the Slayers' device—sword and stones, in black upon silver. It must have been a successful hunt. Each man had his cape drawn up into the sling. Slayers hunt the chaldless, and outlaws, for sport. In those capes would be the trophies of their victories. They were large, fierce, proud men. Dellin, I thought, looked well among them. They circled around him, and I heard laughter, then more low exchanges. I could not catch the words. Dellin turned and pointed to me. One of the Slayers made a remark, and all laughed again. Dellin snapped his fingers and pointed to the ground in front of him. I got up and ran to him, conscious of my ratted hair and filthy white s'kim. "This," said Dellin when I stood before him, "is Estri. She has a speech impediment, but is otherwise sound." His eyes warned me. I flushed but said nothing. "I have often thought," said a red-haired Slayer— from his black belt, their leader—"that that is a glorious quality in a woman. You are very fortunate. I think life would be more pleasant if they were all born mute." There was general laughter at that, and Dellin put his arm around my shoulder and kissed me for the first time that day. I melted to him. We moved off in the direction of Arlet, safe in the center of the red-haired Slayer's band. "Where did you get her?" asked the red-haired one, making small talk. "I won her on a gamble, north of Astria." "Umn," said the Slayer. "I wondered, until you mentioned her muteness, why she was not in a Well. Though she is, perhaps, too slim in the hips to bear child, she is certainly better than what the Wells customarily leave us." "She is also very stupid," said Dellin, his hand at my throat. "That matters little when they are on their backs." "What is that necklace she wears?" asked the red-haired Slayer. "She eats a great deal. I rent her out that she may earn her keep," said Dellin. "She wears what she has earned on the road from Astria." I bit his hand. He jerked it back, into my hair, grasping me tightly at the base of my skull. "What is her price?" asked the red-haired one. "Only one gold dippar, Ganrom. But for you I will cut that in half." The red-haired Ganrom, leader of the Slayers, grinned broadly. "I will take you up on that, should you choose to share our fire this night. I think, too, some others of us are in need of release. We are three days' march, from Arlet, and we have been on the hunt over a set." He turned to his companions. There were guffaws, and the heavyset? dark Slayer on my right reached across me and pounded Dellin on the back. "What say you, Idrer?" the leader asked of the heavyset man. "I say I would take her if she were deaf, blind, and mute," answered the dark Slayer on my right. "And you, Fen? And Mael, you also?" The two Slayers in the rear laughed their assent. I heard little else that was said. My fury roared within me. One gold dippar indeed! If not for Dellin's restraining hand, and his possession of my chald and my father's ring, I would have run into the woods and taken my chances with the chaldless. We proceeded at a good pace, faster than was comfortable for me, through the day. We overtook a party of merchants, with their large wagons pulled by plodding docile denters, and when the sun was low, we in turn were passed by two mounted runners, their red cloaks flying behind them, pushing their sleek threx at top speed. These were headed to Astria. The four-footed threx showered us with clods of dirt and dust kicked up by their mighty hooves. Soon after that, the Slayers turned off the road. The sun was sinking when we came to a clearing that showed traces of many previous camps. There the men set down their bulging capes and set about building a fire. "Down the path," pointed Ganrom, "is a pool where the girl could wash. Should I send Idrer with her? I would speak with you, Dellin, alone." Dellin looked at me, then the red-haired Slayer. He raked his hand through his hair, pushing it back. He nodded and turned his back to me. When I returned with Idrer from the pool, naked, carrying my hand-washed s'kim, the fire roared high and Dellin and Ganrom were huddled together like old friends, sharing a bladder of drink. - I was shivering in the cold night air, my hair wet, clammy, and dripping on my back. I hung the s'kim to dry on a shrub, and sat close to the fire, that its heat would dry my hair and bake the chill from my bones. Idrer patted me on my damp head and went to Dellin. "The moment took me," Idrer explained, handing Dellin a coin. "Your price," the heavyset Slayer con- tinued, "is much too low. She is like a high-couch well woman." Dellin snorted, looked down, then back up. "My appreciation, Slayer," he managed. "I taught her all she knows, but, like any other woman, she has her better times. Often I have to beat her to get her to perform. Perhaps she is taken with you." Dellin passed the bladder to Idrer. "I had wondered," said Idrer, "how she amassed so many coins at such a low price." "We stopped in Port Astrin," bluffed Dellin airily. "Ah," said Idrer. "That, then, explains it." "Estri, here," Dellin called. I went to him, managing to step on his foot in doing so. I was flushed, and not from the fire. I knelt before him docilely, and he pulled me to his lap and began caressing my breasts. "I had a coin girl once," reminisced Ganrom. "I made much money on her, and she gave me great pleasure. She was comely for a Well reject, though not so beautiful as this one." I had never thought of the fate of the Well rejects. I was learning. "What happened to her?" Dellin asked. "I came upon hard times and traded her for a threx. Sometimes I wish I had not done so. The well women think themselves more than human. I seldom use them." "In Astria," said Dellin loyally, "they aim to please." "And they make sure you know it. I do not like feeling as if I must thank a woman for pleasuring her. I prefer to have the girl thank me." The red-haired Slayer grinned. Dellin's hands did their work. I knew he teased me for the Slayer's benefit, but I could not help responding to him. He bent his head to kiss my erect nipples, while I tried my best not to put on a show for Ganrom and his men. I heard meat sizzle on the fire and smelled the tas as it cooked. "I could tell them you are not what you pretend," I whispered in Dellin's ear. "They would kill you. I would still get to Arlet." "I would not, were I you," he growled at me, "for they would never believe you, and you would become what I have made you, a Well reject, a coin girl. With a different master, perhaps Ganrom, you would play that role for the rest of your long life. You must remain a coin girl. The Slayer would take great offense if he knew I lied about you. He caught my accent, and called me on it. It took me the whole time you were gone to placate him. I did not lie, but I gave him less than the truth. On Silistra, it seems, a man is allowed some secrets." His hand went to my belly, and I moaned helplessly. The ring glinted in the firelight. "What are you?" he hissed. "A coin girl," I whispered, defeated, betrayed by my body. "Will you eat, Dellin, or are you too full of love?" It was Mael's voice. Dellin pushed me off his lap, and I sprawled half on the ground, half on Ganrom's crossed legs. "I was hoping you would be passed this way," said the red-haired Slayer through a mouthful of tender tas. He put a grease-slick hand on my naked thigh. I groaned, but I did not move. I looked up at Dellin beseechingly, but he had his hands on a tas chop and would not meet my eyes. I started to shift my hips off Ganrom's lap. "No," he mumbled. A hot dribble of meat juice struck my thigh. "That is the part of you I will get to first. Let it be." They did not offer me a piece of meat, though Dellin took a second chop, bit it once, and handed it to me. I gnawed it gratefully, trying to keep the grease from my face and hair. The men passed the bladder, and Ganrom gave me a swallow when Dellin proffered it to him. It was crude kifra, but it warmed. I ached within. I wanted Dellin badly, but it was another who would have me. I hated him for arousing me, purposely, for Ganrom. After the third round of kifra, Ganrom's hands found me of interest. Fen put another branch on the fire, that there would be sufficient light. Dellin leaned down toward me where I lay, my head on the ground and my hips on the red-haired Slayer's lap. "Estri"—his lips brushed my temple—"do use your skills. I would enjoy watching you. Give your best to Ganrom, and prettily. Perhaps, when you are done, I will reward you." I would have in any case. I was beyond caring where I was or who was who. But I moved for Dellin, as seductively as possible, and with much emotion. I was exquisite. I would make him sorry he had given me to another man. Ganrom did not believe it. I went for his inner need and gave him such prolonged ecstasy that he rolled and moaned and whimpered. The three Slayers and Dellin got more than they bargained for. One learns many dances in Astria. Finally, I lay panting, sleek and glistening with sweat, in the fire glow. Ganrom heaved great gulps of air beside me. I bent one leg at the knee and brought my foot near to my buttocks. I rubbed my inner thigh and turned my face to Dellin, my lips parted, chest heaving. I would not describe the look on his face, but although it was his game, it was my point. Ganrom struggled to sit up. "Kifra," he croaked. "Dellin! I will buy her from you. Name your price." My heart stopped. Perhaps I had done too well. Khaf-Re Dellin started to laugh. He put his head in his hands and shook with laughter. Uncertainly, the others joined in. Presently he looked up at the red-haired Slayer, who, to my amazement, was also consumed with merriment. There were tears of mirth on his face. "The reason you want her, Slayer, is the reason I cannot part with her," he got out. "You know, as I, that we are all bound." "I would be so bound, my friend." He was shaking his head, back and forth, back and forth. "A coin girl," said the Slayer in wonder, "a coin girl. Doubtless you will allow us to accompany you to Arlet." Dellin inclined his head. He had regained control of himself. "Everyone," he wondered, "wants to accompany me to Arlet. I would be honored by your presence, as I am honored by your interest. So be it." He passed the kifra bladder to me. I drank three swallows and handed it back. His fingers touched mine, and I thrilled to the insignificant contact. I caught his eye and begged him without words. His lids half-closed, he looked coldly down upon me and signified his refusal. Then he gestured to Mael, the brown-skinned Slayer, to take his place next to me, and walked to the other side of the fire. As Mael spoke gently to me, I glimpsed Dellin coming around to seat himself on Ganrom's far side. I rolled so that my back was to them, facing Mael. Mael was young and hesitant, for all his bravado earlier. I touched him, and he was mine. I was glad, and I was faultless. I rolled away from him and sat up, pawing the hair off my face and breasts. I shrugged and raised my hands, dropping them back in my lap. I made sure to keep my head high and my back straight. I would not show him my humiliation, my need. There was one left. Fen, who had cooked the dinner, was blond and slighter than the others. He spoke quietly when he saw my eyes on him. "I cannot," he declined. "Not like this, not now. Watching you was more than I needed, lady. I am not rejecting you. I will try tomorrow." I tried to look disappointed. Mael put his hands companionably around Fen's shoulders, holding the wine to his lips. "I guess us boys have got to leave some things to the men." He was rueful about his own performance before his leader and the stranger, and he was obviously relieved that Fen had fared as badly as, if not worse than, he. Ganrom and Dellin were eyeing each other, making valiant efforts to remain upright and straight-faced. Idrer was lying on his side with a bladder pillowed on his arm. He convulsed silently. My eyes were for Dellin. I guessed him less drunk than he appeared, though he seemed to match the Slayers' leader swallow for swallow. He caught my eyes and pointed to his lap. I nodded. I stood, as languorously as I could manage, and walked my best toward him. I knelt down at his feet, and he pulled me toward him. I had wanted his touch so desperately, tears squeezed from my eyes when I felt his arm around me. Tears of joy. I should have been anything but happy to be with the man who had done this to me. He lay back and made me work, his heavy-lidded eyes on me. I forgot everything but his instructions. He took a long time with me, and I felt more with him in that awful place than I thought a woman could feel with a man. Yet, he made no sound, nor did he once lose that distant look. I deep-read him. He had nothing more important within. He was engrossed with the moment, the context. But I could coax from him not a single moan of pleasure, even in the final moments. I curled myself on the ground beside him, my head at his calf. I fell asleep to the sound of his voice, and Ganrom's, as they discussed hunting the chaldless. The morning dawned bright and clear, and I found myself imprisoned within the circle of Dellin's arms. My back to his chest, he had held me through the night. I lay unmoving, content, until-the sounds of the Slayers rising woke him. He pushed back from me, stretching and yawning. We went together to the quiet pool and bathed. The warm muck on my feet and the cool waters on my flesh revived me. I took care to hold my hair from the water. Too much washing is not good for long hair. Dellin bathed himself when I climbed out on the bank, and motioned me to follow him back to camp. He had said not one word to me, nor did he look behind to see if I followed him as he had bid me. We ate and broke camp and were on the road again by the time the sun had lost its ruddy glow. I labored, as before, to keep the pace. Even in such a simple thing as speed of stride is a woman at a disadvantage. I thought, as we passed out of the wooded area into tilled land, about Arlet. It would be good to be within a Well again, where men seek out a woman, pleasure with them, and depart. To spend long periods of time with a man, I concluded, is surely more difficult than having them come, high in expectation, to use one. The Well life allows a woman to maintain her dignity. There were denter and woolly tas grazing in the rail-fenced pastures on both sides of the road. I could see farmers' keeps and animal barns in the distance. The green-and-gold binnirin waved high for miles in front of us, and the smell of new-turned earth came rich and moist to my nostrils. A yellow crier darted across the road, its wings invisible, screeching. With Dellin's arm on mine, in the midst of the Slayers, I made my way toward Arlet. Only two more days, with luck, and I would see civilization again. I listened to the men jabber around me. Dellin concealed his ignorance of Silistra with masterful skill. As I listened, I realized he did this as a deep-reader does, by concentrating the men's attention to the subject he would study, and drawing them out. He made intuitive jumps of understanding. I began to wonder if perhaps he was not an undeveloped telepath, so smooth with his facade. The road was becoming more traveled. Often we passed traders, farmers, and carts. We stopped and lunched in an unfenced field, under the shade of three huge wisper trees, a solitary stand in that wide expanse of weeds and rocky ground. When we had eaten, Mael drew out his sword and with its point made a large circle on a level stretch where no grass grew. This was the Slayers' circle. He then, with decorum and attention to proper form, invited Fen to join him within its boundaries. The slight blond man accepted eagerly, and the two fell to swordplay with a will. They were well-matched, and obviously familiar with each other's moves. They engaged and disengaged, laughing and cursing, neither able to score a hit, which would have been fatal had this not been play, or drive the other from the circle. Finally, with more imagination than either had previously shown, Mael pretended to stumble, and rolled under Fen's guard, hoping to drive the point of his sword up to touch his opponent's breech. This he managed to do, but by that time Fen had his sword's point at Mael's throat. "You are both dead," called Ganrom disgustedly. "My men have just slain each other, Dellin, with as much grace as a pair of three-legged threx." His voice turned soft, conspiratorial. "Would you, my friend, like to join me in a little recreation?" "Not with sword," Dellin declined. "I have not the skill." Ganrom looked disappointed. "I will, however, if you insist, fight you hand-to-hand, no conventions. But I warn you, I learned what I know long ago, high in the north, and you will surely make quick work of me. I have not the refinements of the Slayers." "I insist," said Ganrom, stripping off all but his breech. "I will not, I promise, do you any permanent harm. If you would have quarter, it is yours." Dellin freed himself of his garments. He reached down and rubbed his hands in the dirt. He had a look of keen anticipation on his face. "Thanks, and to you the same." I thought the Liaison Second badly underestimated his opponent. Fen and Mael came and lay, one on each side of me, propped up on their elbows to watch. "Idrer, will you play the winner?" asked Ganrom as he and Dellin entered the empty circle. The heavyset Slayer nodded. The kifra had been drunk to the last drop the night before, and the big man had accounted for most of it. He had been taciturn and surly all morning. They were like two great tawny animals, circling each other in the midday sun, the red-haired and the black-haired heads weaving with concentration. They stalked, circled, feinted, each taking the other's measure. Dellin was on the defensive, dancing light to keep out of range of Ganrom's mighty arms. Ganrom dived for him, striking at Dellin's neck. Dellin ducked under him, fluid as running water, and his foot connected with the red-haired Slayer's belly. Ganrom, with a howl of rage, launched himself upon the half-prostrate Dellin before he could regain his feet. They rolled in the dirt, grunting and growling. Then, magically, Dellin was out from under the Slayer, backing away, crouched low. Ganrom came at him again, trying for a shoulder hold. Dellin reached down and up under his opponent's arms, his hands at the other's throat. They rolled again in the dust. And disengaged. And engaged. They stood struggling, upright, their limbs tangled, each straining to throw the other, to break the hold. They were like living statues. Then Dellin collapsed. Ganrom, startled, released his grip. On his knees in the dirt, Dellin reached up deftly and toppled the Slayer. They grappled once more, rolling. The men outside the circle were very quiet. The tangled bodies had parted, and the two men stood, begrimed and swaying, each at one edge of the circle. The sweat ran down them in rivulets, streaking their dusty limbs. Dellin was shaking his head back and forth, the red-haired one weaving. Dellin took a step forward, stopped, and rubbed his eyes. "I give you a quarter, Slayer." "And I you, Dellin. It is a long walk to Arlet. We would not want to tire ourselves overmuch." Ganrom, his chest heaving, staggered to Dellin's side of the circle and clapped his arms about him. "You should test for the Slayer's chain," advised Ganrom as the two men came to sit beside us in the shade. "With a little training, you might win one." "Perhaps, but I would need a good teacher. You have seen my weakness at hand-to-hand only, and that is my strongest skill." "Ah, yes," commiserated the Slayer, "hand-to-hand is my weakest skill, But keep in mind that the competition in that field is less than in the sword or stones. I myself have won the Golden Well in the Arlet hand-to-hand three passes running." The best compete in the pass games. Ganrom must have been skilled indeed to have triumphed three consecutive times. Idrer waived his exercise, as it was obvious neither man was in shape to fight again. He and Fen and Mael broke the camp, and we took the road once more. Ganrom set a slower pace, and for the first time I was able to match them. We kept our march long into the dark, for the Slayers' leader sought a special place. Little was different that night than the night before, save that we ate from a haunch of denter Mael bartered from a trader bound to Baniev, and Fen and Mael gave better accounts of themselves when dinner was done. We had also, at Idrer's insistence, purchased kifra of a better vintage than that the Slayers had supplied. There was some talk of the Day-Keepers calling a conclave of the forereaders and the Slayers, which struck me as strange, but I soon forgot it, at Dellin's hand. He was, if possible, more inscrutable than he had been the night before. He seemed to delight in my abasement. He did not refuse me when I went to him in my need, but he had no kindness for me, no intimacy in his lust. I would have given much for a gentle caress, an understanding smile. Neither was forthcoming. I laid my head in his lap when the night was old, and he had tired of me. I did not sleep, but lay quiet, listening to his drink-muddled exchanges with Ganrom. His hand touched my hair; he stroked my head absently. I held my breath. I, a woman of Astria, had lain still as stone on a man's lap as the night wasted away, hoping for such a touch, needing it, but unable to ask. I wished he would hold me, but he and Ganrom talked on. Finally, I dozed. I woke when he slid out from under me and stripped off his gear. I feigned sleep when he lay down beside me, and rolled drowsily to him. He allowed me to rest my head on his shoulder, his arm went about me, and I slept. The next day, Detarsa first fifth, we made it to within sight of Arlet. The sky was gray and threatening, as it had been since sun's rise. When we came to the intersection where from the road to Arlet the thoroughfare that leads to Baniev and the sea branches right, and that which leads to Morrlta, where the trappers sell their pelts and buy their needs high in the foothills, branches left, Arlet crouched above us, another half-day's journey, squat and angular on her craggy perch. Arlet is built of dark-blue gol-blocks, rather than the free-spiral gol-forms of Astria. The Well has been often expanded, and cube and tower jut out at odd angles, that they may find foothold on the rocky crag. She lies like a hulion sprawling on a log, dark and powerful. I could not see the great wall of Arlet, which undulates about her like a tight-fitting chald, but I knew it existed, hidden in the shadows of the oncoming night. There is only one gate by which one may enter or leave Arlet, and the double doors of that gate stand thrice the height of a tall man, of star-steel, machine-powered and ponderous. Arlet is not an enticing sight, in the ominous dusk, from low on the road, but I was heartened to see her. Soon I would be free from Dellin and the Slayers, and in control of my destiny once more. I would have gone on, having seen my destination, but none asked my feelings. The night wore away in its familiar pattern. This would be my last night with the Liaison Second of Arlet. I found that the thought upset me. I longed to speak to him, to advise him to take chaldra in Arlet, to find out if he would visit me in the Well, to test him out about the duty he had to the Well-Keepress of Arlet. I dared not. He had said, I reminded myself, that he would give me what help he could. My inner self told me that it was a different man who had offered me the Liaison's house in Arlet, who had said he would buy my use in Arlet. I would, I told myself, be lucky to get my chald and my father's ring from him, and be quit of him forever. My inner self disagreed. I was perplexed and preoccupied. Dellin noticed, and took me away from the others, into the brush. "Your heart," he chided, "is not in your work." The rain began to fall as we stood there, in the brush and the gloom, facing each other. Dellin's arms were folded across his chest, and the droplets glinted in his black hair. "I would speak to you of Arlet," I said. "When I seek you in Arlet, we will speak of Arlet." "I cannot go into the Well looking like this." He had told me what I wanted to know. "I had not thought of that," he allowed. "Mael mentioned that tomorrow was market in the Inner Well. I will buy you something with the dippars you made on the road. I will also give you your things. You deserve them." He put his hand under my chin and tilted it up to look at my face. I was glad it was raining. "I love you," I whispered, unable to hold it back. He raised an eyebrow and kissed me on the forehead. He did not reach out to hold me. "I doubt it," he said finally. "I have never said that to another man." "That, I do believe." "You wanted me before." "I want you now. But on my terms. I only said that I doubted your love for me. I think, with all your experience, you know little of love." There was nothing I could say to that. I put my head against his chest. He had me there, for I went on my knees to him and shamelessly begged, that he might recollect me the sooner in Arlet. The privacy of the scratchy, brittle brush was opulent luxury. I remember little else of that night, for I was focused so on Dellin that I retained only the memory of his voice and his hands. IV. Well Arlet It was close to mid-meal, bright and hot, when we neared the Arletian gate. The road was thronged with vendors and merchants and traders, for it was market day in the Inner Well. Arletians disdain uniformity of dress, and the crowd in the large U-shaped court of stalls was a riot of color—shifting, swirling, clashing primaries. Laughter and hawkers' spiels and raucous cries drifted between the towering metal gates toward us as we threaded our way between the mounted and pedestrian, tourists and the locals, star-traders and pelters down from the hills. The feeling of holiday was strong around us, and the Slayers were much affected. They fidgeted and joked, speculating on the delights they planned to purchase under the Well's copper-scaled roof. "Would you sup with me tonight? The hospitality of the Liaison Second's house can be stretched to include four more." Dellin's words were for Ganrom. "I would not test my welcome there, my friend, by including Slayers in your party. There is little love lost between the Second and the Slayers," Ganrom replied. "Ah, but the old Second no longer holds court here, and the new, I have heard, would change the old ways," Dellin said as we were squeezed together by the unruly crowd as it queued to pass under the scrutiny of the red-garbed guards lounging against the wide-swung metal gates. He put his hand, which bore my father's ring, on my neck, that we would not be separated by the crush of bodies. "So be it, then, Dellin. If we are thrown out on our heads, however, you must buy the dinner, at a place of our choosing." "Done," the Liaison Second agreed. "At moon's rising, then?" "At the Liaison Second's," Ganrom confirmed. As we passed through the portal, two of the guards separated themselves from their fellows and blocked our path. "You cannot bring such a woman within the Well gates, Astrian," said the broad, brown-skinned, portly guard to Dellin. I heard the Slayers around me, as if they were one man, loose their swords in their scabbards. Dellin still wore my woven Astrian chald, The squat guard's hand was on his hilt. Dellin looked him up and down slowly. "Can you read, zealous one?" he asked the guard. The sword was unsheathed and gleaming in the guard's hand. "Indeed I can, and I may read your name to the Day-Keepers this evening if you do not get yourself from my sight." "I think I will reach in my pocket and give you a thing to read," said Dellin, unperturbed. "You never know who may come walking through these gates to Arlet. Should you have lied about your literacy, I suggest you find another who has the skill. Otherwise, it will not be my name that goes on the Day-Keepers' roll." His voice was chill and commanding. He reached into his pocketed parr belt and pulled forth a rolled sheet of orange fax. The guard blanched when he. saw it. Fax is not common among Silistrans. The guard took the proffered document and awkwardly unrolled it, sword still in his hand. His mate peered over his shoulder. I saw three other red-garbed guards sidling toward us through the crowd. We had blocked the entry, and it was congesting behind us. The three came up behind the guard who had spoken and his mate. The brown-skinned one's lips moved as he slowly and laboriously attempted to decode written B.F. Standard. All speak it, but only the more literate read the curious computer script. "Give me that," snarled a florid-faced, middle-aged officer with golden squares at his shoulders. "What is the trouble here?" he snapped at Dellin as he snatched the fax from the illiterate guard. The brown-skinned one began to explain. His superior silenced him with a wave. The ranking guard's eyes flashed over the orange sheet. He let go the lower edge, and the fax rerolled itself. He handed the roll to Dellin, his face expressionless. "Get back to work," he snarled at no one in particular. The knot of guards melted away. Behind me the Slayers expelled their breath and shifted their hands from their weapons. "Shall I escort you myself, sir, that none of my men bother your party further?" He raised his right arm to his chest, forearm parallel to the ground in the Silistran gesture of respect and service. Ganrom muttered to himself. "What is your name?" Dellin asked. "Tetrim, point leader, Liaison," answered the officer. The Slayers behind me whispered to each other. If they had suspected before, they knew now. "Tetrim, send that man back to school. And any others here who cannot read Standard. I would make my own way for the moment. You could, however, inform my house of my arrival, and that there will be five for evening's meal, at moon's rising." Dismissed, the point leader, Tetrim, made haste to his fellows, where he spoke briefly, and then disappeared in the crowd. He took the brown-skinned guard with him. We passed through the gate without further problem. Ganrom reached across me, and, grinning, took Dellin's arm and squeezed. The two faced each other against the inside of Aglet's great wall. Ganrom fur- rowed his brow in mock anger. Dellin had the look of a boy caught stealing brin. "You lying outworlder!" Ganrom accused. "Liaison Second of Arlet. Ha!" And he could restrain himself no longer. Peals of laughter rang from that mighty throat and broke Dellin's composure, and the two leaned against each other, pounding and poking. "And do you know . . ." gasped Dellin, pointing his finger at me, shaking with mirth. "Can you guess who that. .. that girl is?" "She is not, then, a coin girl?" wheezed Ganrom, leaning on Dellin. The other Slayers were also infected with mirth. They sat on the ground, their backs against the blue-gol blocks of Arlet, chortling. "Perhaps she is high-couch of Astria?" wisecracked Idrer, snorting in hilarity at his joke. At that, Dellin sank back against the wall, rubbing his eyes with his hands. I had hoped he would not tell them. I had also hoped he would include me in his evening meal. "Not possible, but funny, very funny," objected Ganrom. "Why not possible, Ganrom?" said Dellin innocently, composed. "She . . . she is mute, and agreeable, and . . . she obeys you," he trailed off. "That she does. Here." Shaking with rage, I went to him. I considered strangling him with my chald, which he still wore around his neck. "Magic," he said, putting his hand to my throat. "Speak. Tell them your name." I did, and they fell silent. One does not so abuse a Well-Keepress. "Give me my things, Dellin," I hissed, "and I will take leave of you. Who knows what will befall me by way of your flapping tongue?" "Soon enough, soon enough. Now, be silent again, if you would have them." He turned to the Slayers. They looked, to a man, perturbed. "At moon's rise, my friends. And do not forget. One must give a woman what she needs, no matter how high her station," and he turned me roughly around and guided me through the crowd to an aisle of stalls. Through every stall in the Arletian market we walked, until Dellin stopped me before a large star-trader's booth filled with off-world fabrics and crafts. "Choose," he said, waving me inside, and struck up a conversation with the clerk. I was loath to touch the delicate gauzes and silks with my filthy hands, and the shopkeeper's eyes followed me as if the same thought was in his mind. He suggested to Dellin that under the circumstances I might use his shower stall in the back room. I did this, and took my time. It was a narrow portable shower, with hardly enough space to turn, but I luxuriated in it. Clean to squeaking, I disdained my grimy s'kim, leaving it on the dirt between shower and shop proper, and walked, naked, covered with beaded drops of water, to where Dellin lounged with the clerk. There was a length of silvery silk and two silver clips, set with white stones, and a bone comb backed with a matching silver handle on the counter between them. "I have little time, Estri. These will have to do." He gestured to me to dress. I did so, slowly, shamelessly, before the popeyed clerk, taking as much time before the mirror as I dared. Only when the silvery silk was most artfully draped and my hair sleek and shining did I leave the interior of the star-trader's shop. Dellin looked me up and down, nodded, and paid the bill. It was exorbitant. He steered me across the crowded Inner Well until we stood before three broad steps that led up to a massive thala door, upon which were carved many women. "Turn for me." I did so. He took my chald from about his neck and with the tiny key unlocked it. He removed my father's ring from his middle finger and threaded the chald through its band, then fastened the chald around my waist and secured the key in its housing. He drew from his wide parr pocket belt a small tas bag and handed it to me. I could feel the viewer and slightly bigger holos through the buttery leather. He then reached behind my neck and removed the necklace of dippars he had put on me in the forest. He Held it out to me. "Take it. You earned them." I shook my head. Again he tried to put the necklace of gold coins into my hands. I knew what he had paid at the star-trader's stall. He had not even haggled. "I will not take payment from you, Dellin." "But you will lower your value. You cannot couch with me for nothing, like some binnirin farmer's daughter." He mocked me, but his tone was gentle. I shook my head again, and backed a step from him. He grinned broadly and put the dippars, still threaded on the thong, in his belt. "If I should buy your use here in Arlet, you will have no choice but to take payment," he reminded me. "If you should," I allowed, "then I will have no choice." My voice trembled. I turned from him and ran the three steps and pushed through the carved thala door, closing it quickly behind me, leaning against it. Another moment, and he would have had me begging. I took deep breaths, counting, until my throat stopped aching. Then I opened my eyes. A girl, startled, faced me, her hands frozen in front of her with mop and bowl. She had been moist-dusting. She was a small girl with sturdy legs and peas-shaped breasts, a pleasant round face, large brown eyes, pale skin. Her head was shaved. She wore a mesh wisp of a breech, a metal triangle held over her crotch by a fine-linked brass chain, and nothing eke. She went on her knees to me. I ran my hands down my hips and took a deep breath and motioned her up. "High lady," she whispered, touching her forehead to the tilted blue floor, and rose. "Is your mistress in?" "She is in, if you are she whom we have been expecting." Her face was tense, her huge eyes luminous. "I am Estri of Astria, Hadrath diet Estrazi. Will that do?" "Oh, yes." She smiled, relief evident in her expression. "Mistress has been waiting for two days for you, high lady, and the Liaison's men have haunted us for word of you, and she hates waiting and she hates haunting and she is in a very bad temper." She stopped, put her hand to her mouth. She had said too much. "Take me to her, then, and we will see if her mood brightens." The shaved-headed girl dropped her bowl and rag on the deep-blue tiles and started down the dimly lit corridor. Her plump hips swung before me, and I watched the chain that came up between her buttocks, to split and encircle her loins, glitter as she moved. The corridor gave way to the sunken, vaulted-ceilinged common room, with its inlaid floors of semiprecious-stone slabs. We walked past the entry desk, unattended at this early hour, down across the middle of the huge sunken, circular chamber, past low pillowed divans and furred cushions arranged in three seating sections. This evening those divans and cushions would seat the women of Arlet, each in her price section, and the men who would pleasure after buying a well token at the entry desk. The price of the token determined the group from which he would choose. Now, in the afternoon, none reclined in the common room. My guide led me straight to the passageway opposite the entry. To my right were the open doors to the dining hall and baths, to my left the drink room, the drug chamber, and a narrow door leading to the staff quarters. The passage we entered led to the girls' keeps. It branched right and left immediately under the lintel. We took neither turn, but stopped before a star-steel panel, complete with red-glowing palm lock directly in front of us. My guide touched the red oblong, and the door slid soundlessly aside. I stepped within and regarded Celendra Doried bast Aknet, Well-Keepress of Arlet. The room was warmly lit from a concealed source. Everywhere hung rich, figured brocades from the desert tribes of the Parset barrens, barbaric and splendid. Not one surface of the large irregular keep was free from draperies of scarlets, umbers, and ochers. Hunting tapestries, geometries, free-form swirls, all glowed forth in perpetual sunset hues, as if I had suddenly come into some magnificent apprei, the portable homes of the desert nomads. The ceiling was obscured with them, the floor strewn carelessly with priceless deep-pile Parset rugs. The psychotropic patterns dragged at the eye, teasing, confusing. Here and there, stout thala poles rose from the silky rugs, to disappear in the ceiling draperies. From these poles hung chains and lashes, daggers and cords. In the midst of this rioting color, Celendra of Arlet reclined upon a great fall of cushions. The smell of narcotic danne was thick in the air as she rose like some sinuous dorkat, the wingless hulion of the desert, and moved noiselessly to take my hand. She was black as Santh, and as supple. Her hair was caught at the top of her head in a chased-silver cone, bursting from confinement at the narrowed opening of the cone's apex to flow black-blue, shining, to her waist. She wore thick silver wristlets and anklets, and a band of the same chased metal at her regal throat. She was half again my weight, and this she carried on a massive lean frame with not a hint of fat, yet her breasts were great pointed pillows, and her lips full and inviting. Beside her I was but a stripling girl, not yet grown into my womanhood. I thought of Dellin with this magnificent woman, and the image was a splinter in my heart. She took my copper hand in her midnight one, and' her silvered nails glittered. Celendra stood back, then, appraising me. She wore an Arletian chald, loosely woven, the chains separate and distinct between the spaced knots against the dark of her skin. It hung low over her inverted navel. I picked out, among the chaldric chains, the golden links of birthing fulfilled, and the copper of the forereaders, and between them, like a dark shadow, the black-iron Slayer's chain. Her fifteen-strand chald spoke eloquently of her capabilities. "Perhaps you are truly daughter of chaos," she said to me in a husky voice, slurred with danne. I thought it a strange greeting. "Come sit with me," she continued, "and we shall test the time." The forereaders use danne to dive deep in the time flow. Celendra was still half-tranced. She smiled, and her white teeth flashed. Seated among the cushions, she prepared the smoke, and I partook of it with her. She peered at me over the smoldering bowl of the gem-encrusted pipe. Her eyes were gold-green, the whites reddened from the drug. I felt my muscles relax and my mind slow in its whirling as the yellow herb had its effect. My emotions receded, leaving me clear and calm. Danne gives one distance from one's situation. "I knew you would come today," said the Keepress of Arlet. "All the forereaders leave for conclave with the Day-Keepers, but I think what they seek might be here in Arlet." She spoke as if to herself, but her eyes were for me. "I had some difficulty arriving here," I apologized. I would not have kept her from her call to conclave. "No matter." She waved her hand. "All right with me. That impotent First roused out all the Liaison's men. Where are they? Where are they? They have not let us live. I told them, but they believe only what their eyes can see, ears can hear, hands can touch. I , saw you, and the winds from the abyss blew around. Your feet were imprisoned in the weave of the time-flow, and your hands bound behind. The current dragged you off at right angles to your chosen path, and the life spirits warred over you. Then, slowly, the branch rejoined the time flow, and that flow drew you here. Almost, you were lost to the call of the crux time, but in the end, it triumphed. The Day-Keepers sense a great crux, and they call us together to prepare. They are blinded by the mists such time throws out, that we may not avoid our destiny. But I see. And, of course, that I might not lead them, the flow bound me here." She stared at me, leaning forward, her eyes narrowed. Her red tongue darted out to moisten her lips. "What say you, pawn of power?" she queried. "What sense do you make of my reading?" I thought she had perhaps smoked too much danne. The reading I got was confusion. "I say that I, too, am blinded by the mists such time throws out." She nodded. I wondered how much true knowledge she had, how much was seeress drug babble. "This is very lovely." I would change the subject. I waved at the keep. "Yes. I would keep my father's heritage around me. Do you not, also, in Astria?" "I would, if I had access to it." She looked at me questioningly. It seemed she knew less than she pretended. The moment was opportune. I took one of the holos from the tas bag and handed it to her. She peered at it, blinking, struggling for focus. "My father," I explained. "I seek him. Have you serviced such a man in Arlet?" "No." She handed it back, and I replaced it carefully in the tas bag. "If I had, I would remember. I would also be tempted to seek such a one. Should you find him, invite him for me to Arlet." She grinned, chiaroscuro. "How did you fare with the Liaison Second?" she asked. "Not as well as I would have wished. He is overly muscled and sadistic." I shrugged. "I do not envy you,' Celendra. M'lennin is bad enough. Dellin is an exceedingly difficult man." Half a truth is better than none. "M'ksakkan, isn't he? He will mellow, as M'lennin did. When M'glarenn took Astria, it is said that he used four additional women a day for a thousand days. When the restraints of M'ksakka are thrown off, much comes bubbling to the surface that has been long afester in them." "Perhaps," I allowed. "Perhaps not, though. If you think M'lennin mellow, I will be glad to exchange Liaisons with you. He and I have much dislike with each other." "If Dellin is so difficult, then, why do you want him?" "I have a revenge to work on that man," I said coldly. "That I understand." I had thought she would. "How would you enjoy my hospitality, Estri of Astria? You need not work in Arlet. We are not so light in our touch as Astria. You might find our couch overly taxing, and so much has been made of your arrival that continuing subterfuge is out of the question. If you couch here, you will have to do it as Estri of Astria." I dreaded the thought of inactivity. My feelings for Dellin would only grow stronger should I not work at my craft. "I need a change. I would work until the Day-Keepers' envoy finds me. Under the circumstances, I will take whatever your couch-price is as my own." I knew her price was much less than mine, and would not offend her by demanding more. "I see you wear the Slayers' chain," I observed. "I have some small skill, imparted to me by Rin diet Tron. At your convenience, I would work out with you." Celendra reached out and squeezed my arm, then sank back into the cushions. "You do not wear the black chain?" "As you said, in Astria we keep our touch light." The Well-Keepress laughed, low and throaty. "I had thought you much less than you are, Keepress," she said. "And I you." Celendra reached behind her and threw aside a small Parset rug. Beneath it was a square of star-steel. Disapprovingly, I realized it was a communicator. She pushed a button, replaced the rug. Someday, as had happened long ago in Astria, she would have need of the device, and it would malfunction. "See your keep, and meet me for a meal in the dining hall at the fourth bell. Then we will go to the circle." She leaned over and kissed me on the lips, The same shaved-headed girl appeared at the door and took me to my Arletian keep. At the door, she turned to me. "Should I stay, high lady?" said she, wetting her lips. I was puzzled. "I can find my way about, I think." The girl flushed, wheeled, and ran lightly down the hall. I shrugged to myself and palmed the lock. The keep was much the same as Celendra's, but in pale blues and golds. None of the dark-blue gol-work was visible behind the layers of fabric and drapes. The couch was wide and its wood frame gold-leafed. I was glad to see a window, large and overlooking the craggy drop to the road. The window, however, did not open. I peered behind the curtains of pale blue that framed it and saw two small grilles set near the ceiling high above my head. Temperature control, another star trick. I would not have such dependency on machines in Astria. I was beginning to understand why Arlet, although second among the Wells, was such a rich post for the Liaison, and why M'lennin carped so at Astria's low import policy. I explored further, poking into chests full of fabric, boxes of jewelry and chains. The posts in the rooms bore lashes and knives, manacles and rings, as had Celendra's. I took the keyring that hung on the post nearest the couch and buried it beneath a length of Koster silk in the largest of the three carved chests. None would put such chains upon me without my consent. Then I stripped off the silvery garment Dellin had given me, and the clips and comb, and carefully folded the material around them. These, with the tas pouch, I buried also in the great thala chest. In the washroom there were combs aplenty; and brushes; and thick, absorbent, sky-colored toweling. I threw myself on the couch and tried to nap. I could not. My mind chased itself in circles. Finally I gave up. I would need something to wear to the circle. I found a length of plain white tas wool and cut it to shape with a gol-knife. I made breech out of one half and breast band of the other, fastening them with bronze clips I found among the jewelry. Second bell had just rung. I did an hour of dhara-san, that exercise system which welds mind to body, clears the soul, and releases energy repressed to constructive use. I stretched long in warm-ups, the back of my legs informing me it had been too long since I had practiced my routine. By third bell I had a good sweat and was in the dhar, the contortions of great skill. I took a long headstand, letting my mind roll free. Thoughts of Dellin and my father, Celendra's obscurity and my great-grandmother's warning passed through me. I regained my perspective. Perhaps Dellin was he who was not as he seemed, for he had almost lured me from my quest. I thought of the time around me, and pinpointed the feel. Silistrans learn to identify four major subdivisions of time, and sixteen minor ones. Though no forereader, I had not needed Celendra to tell me that I was in draw, to crux, and had little choice but to go with the flow. I would, I decided, control my destiny as best I could. It occurred to me that the decision was probably preordained, and I came out of my headstand into a crouch. I could carry that line of reasoning no further. But I felt fine,, tingling, whole again. My equilibrium had returned to me. Thus I made my way to the common room, and through it to the dining hall, in good spirits. I took a table in the hall's far corner, from which I could observe the entire room. There were only four girls eating, sitting together at one of the glass-and-gol trestle tables. They whispered to each other when I passed them and took my seat. A staffer in gray came to me to take my order. "I wait for your mistress," I said to the middle-aged, nondescript man in staffer's garb. "Bring me rana and honey, and fruit juice." He scurried off. By the time the stimulating hot drink was cooled enough to drink, Celendra sat opposite me. She wore a leather breech and band, studded with brass, and bands on her throat and wrists to match. Her silken hair was caught at the back of her neck in a thick knot fastened with a brass clip. The staffer hovered over her. She ordered juice and rana for herself. One does not take intoxicating beverage before entering the circle, if one is wise. As we ate, we discussed the passes' take, which always increases in the spring, and the quality of our respective clientele. I had a question strong in my mind, and when the opportunity arose, I asked it. "How," I queried, "does the Well-Keepress of Arlet avoid being abused by her clients? The chains I saw in your keep are not just for show?" "What makes you think I would avoid the chains? Not many men could conquer me, even for an evening, without them. One must not make value judgments, Estri, about primal needs. One had the needs before one learned the values. And it is not always the men who wield the lash and hold the leash. One must give to get. I find it easier, bound. If one cannot respect the man, one can at least respect the chains. And they allow us to extend our experience beyond the limits of playacting, into totality. A taste of reality is welcome, every once in a while. It is the nature of man to conquer, and of woman to fight being conquered. Surely you yourself have at times wished for bonds against which to struggle, bonds more physical, hence less demanding, than the bonds of chaldra?" I looked into my cup. I knew she was right. I had asked in order to hear her say it. "And yet there is the matter of pride," I objected. "Do I seem to you lacking in pride? One often wins by losing." "I shall see for myself." I grinned at her. "There is much food for thought here in Arlet." I pushed away my cup. "Shall we?" Celendra invited. I rose, and we walked the halls of Arlet, coming at last to a large turfed outdoor practice area, behind the Well proper but within the outer wall. There was a number of Arletian guards, a half-dozen Slayers, and some twenty well women sitting on the tiered gol seats backed up against the outer wall. Two men fought hand-to-hand within one circle; two worked at stones, the five-lashed weighted whip, in another. The three outer circles were empty. Racked against the wall of the Well itself, next to the door through which we had come, were weapons of every conceivable variety. Celendra gestured to them. "Your choice, Estri." I had hoped she would cede me the option. With her greater size and weight I would have been hopelessly outclassed at stones or hand-to-hand. I went to the rack. There I found what I wanted. Gol-knives. These are forearm-length straight blades, with one edge serrated. The points were guarded a finger's width down the blade, that one might strike with force and not puncture one's opponent deeply. I tried several until I found one with a balance I liked. Some of the men had left their ladies and were milling about the area. The stone-fighters had finished and walked toward us to replace their weapons in the rack. As they approached, Celendra spoke to the larger", a dark-tanned man in leather breech. "Will you call for us, Jerin?" Jerin grinned as he racked his lashes. He wiped the sweat from his eyes and walked to the nearest circle, bounded in low gol-blocks, where he hunkered down, waiting. Celendra tossed her head. She took a gol-knife without testing. She knew which she wanted. We stepped within the circle. She opposite me, we both took time, eyes closed, to ready ourselves. I would be the slitsa, the deadly serpent. Like the slitsa, I would hypnotize, striking and gone, deadly. I went through the ritual, feeling the knife as my head, my eyes, my fangs. My hand was one with my weapon, my eyes were in the blade, I was what the knife was. I was ready before Jerin called us out. I faced my quarry, crouched, swaying. The gol-knife writhed back and forth in my grasp. Her eyes,, followed. I kept my eyes from focusing on her blade as she leaped toward me. When she reached my position, I was not there, but behind her. As she whirled to meet me, I slashed out, and the teeth of the gol's serrated edge raked her dark shoulder. I had first blood. She cursed, leaped, and struck down. I felt the wind from her thrust, but the slitsa, ever moving, remained untouched. Some had come to the edge of the circle. I heard rather than saw them. My eyes were for Celendra's face, reading. She stood, legs planted wide apart, tossing the knife from hand to hand. I waited. When she thought she had my attention, she struck. Whirling not quite fast enough, I felt the gol-teeth on my arm. Infuriated, I ducked under her slash and felt the gol-point connect with her rib cage. Before I could withdraw, her blade came up, for my throat. Beyond thought, I met her blade with mine, so close to my face I could see the sweat on her black hand. The blood trickled down my arm, from her shoulder, from her ribs. She was stronger than I. Slowly my blade was pushed up by hers. 1 disengaged, rolling. I heard shouts. She landed where I had just been. I scrambled to my knees. She was on, her feet. I tossed my head to clear the hair from my face. In that moment, while she waited, tossing her blade, crouched, I knew I could take her. She should have come in and downed me then, but she did not. Celendra, too, knew that I was more than her match. I struck up at her, launching myself at the hand that would hold the blade when I reached her, and con- nected. My fanged gol-knife bit hers from her hand, and it flew from the circle. So does the tiny slitsa down the mighty dorkat. I threw my blade after hers, and, slicked and panting, reached out my copper hand, wet with blood from my gol-bitten arm. She looked at me, did Celendra, and took it slowly. Then her arm went around my waist. I had seen her struggle with her feelings, as I would have had to if it were she who had bested me. Jerin, who had called for us, had the knives back at the rack. The Slayers and the guards regarded us with amused respect, standing in small knots around the circle. I saw coins change hands. So they had bet on us. I wondered what my odds had been. I put my scraped arm to my mouth and sucked the blood. A girl appeared with water and clean cloths. I took a cloth and turned to my opponent. She let me clean and dress her scrapes. It was the least I could do. None were deep, nor would they scar noticeably. I think some of the Slayers would have approached us, had they dared. We sat together on the ground and watched the men practice until the sixth bell, at which time Celendra arose, thanking me for the match. "My honor," I said. "Next time, Estri, I will be ready for you." "The element of surprise does have its limitations," I agreed. She would probably beat me badly the next time, if I were fool enough to use the same technique. "Would you have your meal with me in my keep?" I nodded. "I would be much pleased to do so." "Eighth bell," she said, disappearing through the door near the racked weapons. As she entered the doorway, two of the Slayers I had seen watching us earlier made their way toward me. "Would you go again, lady?" asked one, when they stood before me where I sat with my rear on the low gol-blocks. "Thanks, no." I smiled up at them. The sun was at their backs. "We won a sets pay on you." "You have excellent judgment," I congratulated him. The one who had spoken last knelt down before me. "Be careful of her, lady. She does not like to lose. She has slit throats for less." "No one likes to lose," I answered him. His hair and eyes were brown, his skin dark. He would have been handsome but for a scar that ran the length of his face, following his cheekbone, down to his jaw. His mouth twitched, he started to say more, and stopped. "Yes?" I prompted. It was getting chilly as I sat there with the sweat drying on me. "Are you of the Well? I have not seen you. I would give back some of what I won on you." "I am new here." I told him my name. He raised an eyebrow but did not withdraw. "What is your price?" he asked. I told him that, and then got to my feet. I put on my best smile. I find it hard to feel feminine directly after an encounter in the circle. "I will see you later," he said to me as I headed for the door to the Well. "Tasa," I replied. As I made my way back to my blue-and-gold-hung keep, the Slayer's words rang in my ears. Perhaps I should not have scored Celendra. The fight had taken me; I had never even considered the politics of beating one's hostess before her own people one day in that stranger's hospitality. I had been going since sun's rising without food, and little drink, and under much pressure. I determined to get some rest before the evening's activities, that I might have a clearer head and more balanced emotions. I wondered whether Dellin would couch Celendra this night, and then whether that possibility had had anything to do with my precipitation of our sojourn to the Slayer's circle, and then lay down on the blue spread couch and went within myself to that place which is neither sleep nor waking, where time slows down, and one can crowd an evening's rest into the space of two bells. "Before the eighth bell," I told myself aloud, "you will awaken." I opened my eyes to see the fattening crescent of moon peak above the crags through the window to my left. For a moment the scene flickered, and it was as if I stood high on the gleaming towers of Astria, with the crescent moon shining on the Litess River as it wound toward Port Astrin and the sea. Then, again, it was the barren crags of Arlet before me, and I rose, stretched, wet-clothed my body clean, and went, naked but for my chald, to dinner in Celendra's keep. As I turned the corner and slapped the palm-lock, the eight bell chimed. Celendra sat before a low table set with covered dishes. She rose to greet me, and the chains she wore rustled softly as she moved. Her body was a chalder's dream. From a wide silver collar, fine chain dipped and looped down her breasts, nipped in by a metal waist cinch, from which more woven chain depended to the tops of her thighs. She wore arm bracelets and wristlets. Her hair was loose and as long as mine, blue-black silk on silver on midnight. She greeted me and guided me to the table, where we sat, legs crossed, on low cushions. "Your fitters here in Arlet are to be commended for their originality. I would, while I am here, take advantage of their art. I would especially like a breech and band like the one you wore this afternoon," I said. "Thank you," acknowledged Celendra. "I will have one made for you by our rematch, tomorrow, fourth bell." She seemed the same; I could detect no hostility, by ear or reading. "Fourth bell, then. I have a feeling it will be your score. If you have fought as few women as I, you will understand when I say that I enjoyed that match as much as any I have had an occasion to fight." I prodded her a little more. "Indeed," said Celendra, serving me fried harth and mashed tuns, fruit and drink. "I have had little experience with women opponents. I find I rather like it. There are many things that two women can experience together that a woman and a man cannot." She looked at me keenly. I had prodded too hard. I let it pass. I studied my plate and found a choice bit of meat. "You have been reserved for the evening, you know." I looked at her from behind my kifra goblet of M'ksakkan crystal. "No, I did not know. Who has done me the honor?" I said, cooler than I felt. "Dellin?" "You have been reserved by Sereth crill Tyris, of the Arletian Slayers' Seven. Doubtless you have heard of Sereth of Arlet, he who was victorious at the last Slayers' conclave, who took the outlaw band of Gershom at the falls of Santha, who subdued the renegade Slayer Ferin?" She grinned at me. I had heard of him. He had been brought before the Slayers' Council to justify his excessive kill record. It was said that in his keep beyond Arlet he had three well women whom he had got with child. Three is very many on Silistra. "The same Sereth of Arlet about whom the song 'Sweeper of the Mountains' was written?" I asked. We keep far more musicians in Astria than Arlet, and I remembered the tune clearly, for it had been in an experimental scale, of the overtones contained within A440. "The same," she confirmed. "If I had chosen a man for you, one to teach you the ways of Arlet, I could not have done better." "I will be honored to serve him." I mused. "Why is he not in conclave with the forereaders and Day-Keepers, with the other high six of the Arletian Slayers?" "One had to stay behind to greet the new Liaison. Sereth is not a man to sit and talk, days on end, as they do> in conclave. And I think he will attempt to make a more satisfactory arrangement with the new Liaison than was between the Slayers and the old Liaison. I would do such a thing, if I were he," Celendra speculated. I was not listening. Sereth of Arlet was a man one heard about in songs, not a man one expected to couch. He was the kind of man about whom women talk. The women said he was discerning and difficult to please, and he had been known to leave before sun's rising should a woman not prove sufficiently interesting. If I much pleased him, it would be a poultice to my bruised ego. And I would please him. After all, was I not Estri of Astria? I, also, have had songs written about me that are widely sung. Sereth had never been to Astria; therefore, he had never been with a good deep-reader. Her last word had been "Liaison." "Have you been approached by the new Liaison Second?" I asked. "He sent a message informing us he would honor the Well with his presence." I caught the hostility in Celendra's voice. He had not, then, "reserved" the Well-Keepress. But someone had reserved me, and he would know that. Perhaps he would fulfill his duty to the Well-Keepress. I had my own chaldra to fulfill. "May I go as I am?" I asked Celendra over a final sip of kifra. I had been to Dritira and Stra, Galesh and Torwin, Baniev and Port Astrin, but never before this day had I been within a rival Well. Arlet was as different from Astria as the Sabembe range from the Parset barrens. "You had better, or lose whatever you wear to Sereth's hand." I stood up. I wanted to hear no more about Sereth of Arlet, of the Slayers' Seven. I would see what developed. The common room was transformed. The M’ksakkan chandeliers, hung on long chains from the vaulted copper ceiling, gleamed and twinkled. Musicians played cadenced Silistran music from their box against the far wall. As we entered from Celendra's keep, the milling mass of well women and customers enveloped us. The air was heavy with the sweet smell of danne and the acrid tang of distrit, the bar-pressed danne resin, and the women's perfume and the close smell of perhaps five hundred bodies in a small space. I was jostled by a trader from Kost, blue-white skin and silver hair set off by a knit-silk navy jump, embroidered in metallic thread. An Iartex noble, with bells and bars of his rank, pinched my naked copper rump. Celendra was grabbed up by a pair of twins from Katrir, with tufted ears and slit-pupiled eyes. They pulled her away in the crowd. A well woman, laughing, caught up in the arms of a M’ksakkan, floated past me on her way to her keep. I made for the crowd's edge and found sanctuary against the wall that separated the doors to drink and drug rooms. The wall against my back gave me courage. I scanned the throng, but saw none that I knew but the small shaved-headed girl who had guided me to Celendra upon my arrival. She was dressed in scarlet web-worked pants, in the lowest-price section. She looked lovely. Celendra was nowhere in sight. Once I thought I saw her, but the black figure turned, and I saw it to be a man of Hertekiea, his silky hair down on his hips. The Hertekieans count a man's hair length as we do high-chaldra. The dark one must have been an influential personage, indeed, on his home planet. I turned my attention to the drink room.-Dark and full of men's rumbling voices, it served not only kifra, brin, and fruited jeri, but the drinks of a hundred worlds. The decor, I noticed disapprovingly, was Bipedal Standard Modern. I slipped within and sidled my way to the server. I got name and took it to a corner from where I could see not only drink chamber, but the entry desk and most of the common room as well. There were only a dozen females in the drink room, those who had already gotten a mate for the night and were, at their customer's bidding, awaiting his readiness there. Hands reached around from behind me and cupped my breasts. I resisted the impulse to throw my drink, and turned to face the man to whom those hands belonged. It was the scarred Slayer who had warned me about Celendra at the circle. He was larger than he had seemed, squatting before me with the sun at his back. "Tenist dast-ei," I greeted him, as a well woman. "Tenist mist-as," he replied, as a customer. "I have been reserved for this evening, by one Sereth crill Tyris. I am indescribably downcast that I will not be able to serve you," I said with ritual decorum. "Sereth crill Tyris. I know him intimately. Let us go upstairs for a brief time. I am sure the Seven will take no offense." "Though you are all brothers, beneath the Seven, I think in this case I must decline." I backed away from him, into a Koster, spilling that one's drink over his front and my rear. "Another time, approach me." I smiled at him. The scar-faced, dark-tanned Slayer had not released me from within the circle of his arms. He pulled me to him, tightly, in the midst of the crowded drinking chamber. "Are you afraid of the wrath of Sereth crill Tyris?" he asked me, his lips at my ear. "One would be a fool not to fear the wrath of such a man. It is said he kills for sport more than duty. If I were you, I would not tempt him." "Now we have each warned the other once," he said. "You must at least allow me to buy you a drink." If he would let me go, he could buy me anything. "I have had enough drink, I think." I still held my empty glass of name. "But you may, if you wish, get me some distrit, for I have had a long and tiring day, and expect a longer night." "Your pleasure, Estri," said he, his arm around my waist, threading me through the crowd and around the corner into the drug chamber, where seats appeared as if by magic before us in the crowded room. I leaned back against the cushions, while the Slayer snapped a server to us with a raised hand. I decided I rather liked this easy, confident man. The scar on his face, once one got used to it, set off his regular features. He would have been unbearably pretty without it. When the tray of distrit was set before us on its spindly legs, he loaded the pipe and held it to my lips. I took a long puff and held it. He, also, sucked in the smoke, but very little. I could feel the stimulant working within me. I looked up, toward the door, in time to see Dellin, resplendent in his black-and-gold formal Liaison's garb, with Ganrom at his side, heading toward us. I looked quickly away. I had not planned on encountering them, and certainly not with this man, whose name I did not even know. I would have preferred that he had not seen me at all, but only heard that I was couching Sereth of Arlet. "Trouble?" the Slayer said, his eyes on my face. I had not realized my emotion showed so. - I shook my head, for they were upon us. "Just the man I was looking for," Ganrom said jovially, reaching toward the seated Slayer. He did not rise, but put out his hand, laconically. "Ganrom," the scarred one said. "How was the hunting in the forests? How many teeth did you take?" He gestured for them to sit. Ganrom pulled an out-worlder roughly from his seat. The small Iartex hissed his anger and scuttled away. Dellin put his handover his eyes, a pained expression on his face. When Ganrom eyed a second Iartex, on the other side of the closest tray, the man hastily rose and departed. The two seated themselves. Pellin stared into my eyes until I looked away. When I looked up, I could see the muscles twitch in his jaw. "Ganrom, if you would stay gainfully in my employ," Dellin said, "you must learn to be a little softer with the people whose rights I must protect." "Agrh," snarled Ganrom. "When the Liaison Second needs seating, they should have enough sense to jump up and move." The scarred Slayer picked up the pipe and passed it. Dellin took a very cautious taste. "Ganrom," he said, "why were you looking for me, and how come you to be employed in the house of the Liaison? Time was when no self-respecting Slayer would spit on that door.” His voice was very soft. It sent chills up me. "Introductions. You must forgive me, brother. Khaf-Re Dellin, Liaison Second of Arlet." He waved his hands about. "Sereth crill Tyris, of the Slayers' Seven." I pulled away from the scarred Slayer, Sereth of Arlet, on pretense of refilling the pipe. So this was he. His amusement with me in the drinking chamber now made sense. "I would change all that," Dellin was saying. "As I told Ganrom and his men, any Slayer who will work with the Liaison, on wiping out the chaldless and making the roads safe for off-world shipping, will be handsomely rewarded. Such a thing could be arranged without decreasing the mobility of the Slayers or interfering with private projects or Day-Keepers' tasks. I would ask no loyalty that would interfere with chaldra. You would do what you do now, and get tithe from the Liaisons, whether or not you get tithe from your private clients. We could back you up with more than money. Think on it. The technology of the Liaisons at your disposal. And another thing, I will test for the Slayers' chain, under Ganrom's tutelage. I think, when I wear it, things will be easier with both the Slayers and the Day-Keepers." I sucked in my breath in surprise. Dellin had assessed the situation and calculated his moves. A Liaison with chaldra would be a formidable figure in Silistran politics. A Slayer in the Liaisons would be able to command a virtual army, should the need arise, of fierce guerrilla fighters. I wondered what the Day-Keepers would think of Dellin's ideas. Sereth slipped down on his spine, looking at Dellin pensively. He pulled at my hair. "What do you think, lady? Is this a change for the better, or just some sly off-world trick?" "I am not the one to ask." "But what if it were Astria?" By the hair he pulled me to his chest. I felt Dellin's eyes on me. I stretched against Sereth's hard body and wiggled closer. "If it were Astria, I think it would not happen. M'lennin would no more take chaldra than sleep with the slitsa in his burrow. But, if somehow such a transformation occurred . . ." Dellin's eyes pleaded. That pleased me. "... I think I would give it a try. If, as the Liaison said, his house and hostel could work together without conflict, and profitably, both would benefit. If the Liaison took the black chain, he would learn much of Silistra by his studies. Of course, he would then be bound to Arlet, arid Arlet to him. Like any long-term partnership, the thing must be delicately done. If it does not serve the Slayers, they can always revert to their former status." If my endorsement mattered, I had given Dellin his chance. Sereth reached forward, as he had not done before, and extended his hand, palm up, to Dellin, who took it, grinning. "We will try. I promise only that. Tomorrow we will discuss it further. Ganrom, how many teeth did you take?" "Forty between us." The Slayers took one tooth from each corpse. "So the hunting was adequate. Was it profitable?" Ganrom shrugged. Then he brightened, licked his lips, and reached for the pipe. "You are really going to enjoy that one," said Ganrom, pointing at me. "Doubtless," Sereth replied. "I paid an exorbitant price. I like to get my worth." Dellin got up abruptly. "I must go see to the Well-Keepress," he said softly. "Make a time with Ganrom. I will be at your convenience. Tasa." He waved, disappearing in the crowded common room beyond. I could feel both Slayers relax. Sereth whistled softly through his teeth. "It seems," he said to Ganrom, "that things will be getting more exciting here in Arlet. My foresight tells me that it would be well if all the men sought to keep within a day of Arlet, for a pass, that we may see where the flow takes us." He looked questioningly at the other Slayer. I felt the wind from the abyss chill me, and then it was gone. I shivered against Sereth Crill Tyris' chest. As they talked, I puffed on the pipe, and I, on little food and rest, got very high. The drug precipitated my talent, and the presence of Sereth of Arlet came flooding into me. His eyes were brown, and sparkled as if at some private joke. He was conscious of himself as what the Slayers had made him, insightful, tenacious, sure in his power and his skill. He would stop the time passing. He had come up through the ranks to his position, and he relished it. He was still hungry. His appetite for life was staggering. He taught me the difference between Astria and Arlet. In Astria the woman gives the man what he wants; in Arlet, he takes it. What had been fetish to Dellin was foreplay to Sereth.- Eventually, weeping, I brought him the keyring that I had hidden earlier, that no man might bind me without my consent. With the ring in my hand I went to him, that he might put the chains of Arlet on me and teach me their meaning. This he was willing to do, until the sun peaked the crags of Arlet. "So," he grunted, "you think you know, now, the ways of Arlet?" "Unchain me," I suggested. "It is morning," I protested. "I will pay the overage. Perhaps I will stay until tomorrow morning. I have to be here for the set games." "Then I am truly lost," I groaned. "Doubtless," he agreed. "Here I am, in chains, with a maniac, in Arlet." I giggled. "If my girls could see me now, I would be much diminished." "If anyone could see you now, you would be much diminished. In fact, you are much diminished. I diminished you. I ought to know." His tongue licked at my navel. I shivered. "Are you frightened?" "No. Nothing would bother me now. You are right, my diminishment is complete." I moved my wrists, and the chain clinked. "Eventually you will leave, and I will hide those keys and get me from Arlet." "Do not be too sure that there is nothing that would bother you now. After all, I have been doing this a long time. I can teach you more of Arlet yet. What if you are pregnant?" I rolled away from him as best I could. "I am Well-Keepress," I reminded him, but he wasn't listening. His hands were in my chald. "Where did you get this?" he said in a strained voice. "What? What is wrong?" "This ring, on your chald?" I tried to sit up, but I was well-restrained. "Why?" I asked, my throat aching. "When I was at the Falls of Santha, I found a cave behind the falls, and within it, a very similar design on a slab of metal. I thought it something left from before the rebuilding, and reported it to the Day-Keepers as such. How did you come by the ring?" I told him only that it had been my father's, and that I would like very much to see the cave at the Falls of Santha. "We both get consideration for our services, Estri. Would you pay me, or I pay you, for the trip to the Falls of Santha?" "What if I get the Liaison to pay for it, as a joint project of his and mine? Then you can do what you will with the money." He looked at me very solemnly for a moment. Then he pulled me to him, and we missed sun's meal, and at mid-meal Celendra sent the shaved-headed girl to check on us, and Sereth had food sent up. I ate in the chains of Arlet. In the late day, just after fourth bell, the girl returned and announced that the Liaison Second awaited Sereth crill Tyris in the dining room. He left me there, helpless, to await his return. I had missed my match with Celendra. I hoped she would understand. With my hands braceleted to a ring sunk in the floor above my head, and my ankles to one of the posts, I was well-secured, among the Parset rugs and silken cushions of my blue-hung keep. Sereth did not return until after the fifth bell, by which time my muscles ached from inactivity and I knew I would kill Sereth of Arlet if given half a chance. When the keep door slid aside to admit him, Sereth of the Slayers' Seven was not alone. Craning my neck, I saw Dellin push Celendra, looking somewhat diminished herself, in bracelets and leashed, across the threshold. She was pale under her dark skin. Dellin pulled her to where I lay bound on the rugs and chained her by the neck to the ring that secured my wrists. He gave her a long tether. Her hands were bound in front of her. Dellin, before he rose from securing her, reached across and touched my face. "You look well-used, Estri. The Seven must suit you." I did not answer, but turned my head away. This was more than I could stand, him seeing me thus. I fought back tears. Sereth stood grinning down at us, Celendra and myself, chained to the same ring. His arms were folded across his chest. "What do you think, Dellin? They look good together, do they not?" I turned to Celendra for comfort, for she was more experienced than I, but her face was drawn and tight, and a little frightened. "They do complement each other," Dellin agreed. "Shall we make them work? They are good for little else." Sereth prodded Celendra with his foot. "Long ago, when I brought child on this one, she invoked the Well-Keepress's immunity against me." He had that quiet tone that had chilled me in the drug chamber. "This one," said Dellin, his foot at my neck, "rejected my offer of shelter and protection, in favor of well work and chaldra." "So they both would rather be bought and paid for, at the command of any master, than trust themselves to a single man." "We have bought them, for the time." "And paid dearly for their use. And there are two of us, which should please them," mused Sereth. "But I think them both too full of pride for my taste." "Well-Keepresses," reminded Dellin. "Perhaps it is an occupational hazard. If you are as tired as I, then let us do what we have discussed. I think it would put the situation in perspective for them." I did not believe what I read in him. Sereth took a lash from the post, and without warning brought it down upon us, my stomach and Celendra’s hip, for she was on her side. The thonged lash bit, and I gasped in pain. He raised the whip to strike again. "What do you want from us?" I pleaded, but his arm came down. Celendra struggled to her knees and put a leg over me. She knelt over me. I could see the long slitsa-shaped welts rising on her skin. "I would have done this another way, Estri, under my own will," she said, leaning close to my face, her lips against my neck. "I would not!" I protested, straining at my bonds, pulling away. "Move away from her," Sereth commanded of Celendra. Relief flooded me. "Invite her," he ordered me, bringing the thonged lash down hard on my stomach. I bit my lip. Celendra knelt at my side, shaking her head. Twice more did Sereth strike me before I obeyed him. They sat on either side of us, and we followed their instructions until their voices faded. Then there were only Celendra and I, prisoners of mutual need that was, in the end, only partially fulfilled. When, in the tangle of bodies that followed, I was once again servicing Sereth, my emotion got the better of me. "I hate you," I hissed at him. "Good," he grunted. "You do me great honor, admitting that I have shown you things about yourself you had not seen. Hate and love are like pain and pleasure, lady, at times one and the same. Between now and the Falls of Santha, you will learn still more, I promise you." "I will not go with you. I will choose another." "Dellin." The Liaison looked up from Celendra. "Estri no longer wants me to take her to Santha." "I cannot spare another, and we have an agreement. To fulfill her chaldra, she must go. Or would you gainsay your task, Estri?" He would not get that from me. I would not abrogate my chaldra. "Then," I said, defeated, "after-1 see the Day-Keeper, you will have your way with me, as you have had all along." I myself did not know to which of them I spoke. The sun sank, the moon rose, and the four of us together spent the night. Toward sun's rising we slept, and I awakened at seventh bell, mid-meal hour, in Celendra's arms, still chained with her to the ring set into the floor. I moaned and turned, and she pulled me close, nuzzling my hair. The keyring was between us, that we might free ourselves, and Sereth and Dellin were nowhere in sight. They had gone, I realized, to the pass games, for this was Detarsa first Seventh. I had been absent a set from Astria, sun's rising tomorrow. I roused Celendra, whose hands freed us from our bracelets. "Would you go to the games?" I asked her, sitting cross-legged, facing her, as I unlocked the leashed metal band from her throat. "It would be foolish to so encourage them," she replied, fingering the swollen welts on her belly and hips. "Perhaps their events are ended." "And perhaps not. I have a Well to run." She looked at me, critically, at my own marked flesh. "I shall tender the Liaison a bill for this," she said as she rose awkwardly and stretched. I, also, was stiff and sore in every muscle. We bathed together, I washing her hair and she mine. We soaked long in the steaming water, fragrant with soothing oils. My welts smarted and burned. "If I could"—Celendra winced as I applied salve to her belly—"I would have them both castrated. When men interfere between two women, they overstep their authority." "They paid for us," I reminded her. I would have had little interest in Celendra's advances, no matter what the circumstances. I did not tell her that, nor that I had never been with a woman before, nor that I had gotten great pleasure from her touch. I handed the salve to her, and she dressed my lesions, and my eyes watered with the pain. "Tonight," she said, "you will not know these marks existed." I thought I would know, for the rest of my life, marks from the last evening's couching. We went to her keep, where she had food brought to us, and went over the night's take, and did her paperwork. I dozed on her couch. "Estri ..." She shook me awake. "What?" "Ginisha was settled by Jerin, while we were with Sereth and Dellin." I groaned. That meant Feast of Conception. When a well woman is impregnated, all men who were that night in the Well are given free access the following evening, for they are considered talismans to the lucky well woman. The Well is closed to business from any others, and a great feast and debauch is-put on for the lucky couple at the Well's expense. Each man receives a special token, which has no denomination, and is free to use it any way he sees fit. "And another thing. Your Day-Keeper has arrived, and awaits your pleasure. He is quartered in their offices across the court. Shall I send him your regrets at being indisposed, or would you see him today?" "Can I get him into the feast? Or plead exhaustion, and not attend myself? I must see him and get on with my search. I cannot stay much longer in Arlet. I am not suited to this Me." "It is not always like this," she said softly, running her hand over my back. "I will get you a token for him for this evening, but I would not tempt the fates by having you absent from the Feast of Conception." It would be a bad omen if all who had taken part in the eve of conception were not present for the celebration. "I will go, then, to my keep and dress, and to the physician's keep. I would get checked. The small pain of ovulation might have been smothered by the larger pains. Directly from there I will go to the Day-Keepers' offices." "It would take a magician, not a physician, to figure out whose child it was if you caught last night. Here," she said, handing me a tas-wrapped bundle. I took it, and unwrapped the breech and band, black with chased-silver studs and buckles, and silver circles at the nipples, that Celendra had promised to have made for me. "It is superb," I said softly, kissing her on the top of her harth-black head. I put it on. The leather was soft and supple, the lining web-cloth. I looked at myself in, the mirror behind Celendra's couch. In the breech and band, with the scarlet-hung keep of the Keepress for backdrop, I looked, with my copper skin and damp-darkened hair, like some Parset warrior woman. "It suits you," Celendra commented. "May the flow guide you. I will leave instructions for you to get the token for your Day-Keeper at the entry desk." I nodded, at the door. "My thanks again, Celendra. Tasa." In the physicians' keep I got, from a kindly old man in the cerise of his calling, a shot of time-release stimulant. He gave me the usual warnings, about perspective, and possible drug psychosis. I had no alternative other than stimulants, or I would not have used them. He checked me, and my cervix showed not even a hint of blue, nor were any of the other tests positive. Wide-awake and trembling from the drug, sure that I was not pregnant, I made my way past the entry desk, where I picked up the token, and across the Inner Well to the Day-Keepers' offices. My mind blithered information at me. I recalled all I had ever known of the Day-Keepers. I recalled how, thousands of years ago, when Silistra's great machines warred with each other, releasing holocausts of bacteria and flame upon the planet, the Day-Keepers and the forereaders had been ready. In seven subterranean labyrinths, the two groups secreted themselves, living underground for more than a thousand years. During that time had the Day-Keepers and forereaders developed the system of chaldra, which allows an individual to feed his need for crisis and problem on a physical level, rather than internalizing his struggles. There, too, had the Slayers been envisioned, and the Well system begun. We are, all of us on Silistra, descended from the seven groups of Day-Keepers and forereaders, the bast, the crill, the diet, the stoen, the aniet, the rendi, and the gaesh. There, too, had the Day-Keepers and forereaders begun the temporal selection process that was their major function. Out of all possibilities inherent in time, they choose that most compatible with their long-range objectives, and through the arm of the Slayers implement their desires. Time charting is a difficult undertaking. The measure of their success is that Silistra lives without great machines of wars, without oppressive government, and that we are repopulating our decimated planet. I wondered what this Day-Keeper would look like. Each, when he takes his majority, chooses a period of Silistran culture, a particular civilization, and becomes, out of time, its representative. Their specialty they wear about them, dressing, speaking, thinking their choice. I had seen Day-Keepers tattooed from head to foot, in the manner of the Gristasha tribes who preceded the Parsets, fur-clad and matted as our most ancient prehistoric ancestors would have been, even knit-suited and painted about the eyes as we were in the late machine age. I was before the door to the Day-Keepers' offices without remembering how I had come there. It was unmistakable. A heavy Silistran steel slab propped up by thick gol-blocks, and that was all. The door led deep into the ground, I knew, into the labyrinth where our forebears had lived so long away from the sun and wind. Each Well is built over a portion of the old hides, as they are called. In Astria the door to the Day-Keepers' offices are not within the Well, for the hides extend for miles underground, but otherwise it was identical to this door within the gates of Arlet. As I reached out to pull the ring that would inform those within that someone desired entrance, the door swung back. The man who stepped blinking into the sun to greet me with outstretched hand could only have been my Day-Keeper. He wore a plumed headdress and brocaded robe, heavy with gems and metallic thread. His hair was drawn back into a club and sheened with oil. He carried the curved sword of the ancient Stoth priests, with gem-encrusted hilt. On his feet were bejeweled sandals. I breathed a sigh of relief. Stothric is one of my better ancient dialects. I would not have to shame myself by conversing with this high one in modern Silistran. "Presti m'it ci Vedrev bast Iradea," he said. "Prest m'it, may the sun shine in your soul, Day-Keeper Vedrev," I replied. "Ci Estri Hadrath diet Estrazi." V. The Feast of Conception When his hand touched mine, a great peace came over me. I was at one with time, sure of my position in the process we know as reality. I jerked my hand away. I had seen as the forereaders see. This was indeed an accomplished Day-Keeper! I had never met a Day-Keeper who could not influence one's thinking, but I did not remember one so forceful as this man Vedrev bast Iradea. "Would you shield?" I asked him as he motioned me into the dark passageway and the closing door cut out the afternoon light. The emotions in my mind became once more my own, as the robed Day-Keeper guided me into a thala-paneled room filled with scrolls, fax, and sheaves of bookworks, in their tas envelopes. The desk was littered with rolls and spools and loose sheets. He motioned me into a high-backed stuffed chair and took one identical to it behind the desk. The room was lit with ancient fish-oil lamps. I wrinkled my nose at the smell. Through the floors I could feel the heart of the hide, beating. The old machines that had kept us alive a thousand years beneath the earth still survived, preserving the hides and the treasures of antiquity they contained, should we ever again need them. I saw this as necessary and natural, and dissimilar from the useless star-machines. When my forebears returned to the surface they had been determined to live no longer dependent on technology, their only method of survival for so long. They also determined that the machines that had so well serviced them should continue to exist. After all, they were Silistran machines, they had served us faithfully, and a wise man never cuts off his only avenue of retreat. Deep within the hides were even preserved the terrible instruments of destruction that had almost annihilated us. But the Day-Keepers alone knew where. "And how fared you on the road to Arlet?" Vedrev bast Iradea asked me softly, over steepled fingers. His eyes were the palest of blues, ringed with black. His hair was white as ice at the temples, graying black where it was clubbed at the base of his neck. He was an imposing, large-headed man in his middle years. He had a stare like the great beaked ebvrasea, those giant cousins of the harth who soar high in the Sabembe. "Not as I would have wished. I did, however, do the Liaison Second of Arlet some good in his relationships with the Slayers. He would take the Slayers' chaldra, and has Sereth of Arlet for sponsor. What think you?" Never before had a Liaison for the Bipedal Federate Trade Union been willing to test for any chain, let alone the Slayers. They were merely the B.F. representatives on Silistra, interested in their quotas and profits. "I think the time is right." He nodded. "Do not be so foolish as to ignore the pull to crux, for it affects us all. I think it no disconnected event. The time pulls us toward a mighty change, so great that I have not been able to find a single forereader who is unaffected by it, and therefore can read the flow." He shook his head. "I left early from conclave. They get nowhere. All are blinded by the mists of the crux. The abyss, may call us all if this change cannot be charted, and we are all blind. I tell you this for a reason." His hands went to the pile of information beside him. They sought and found. He held a thick bound sheaf. "I have your records. Your forebears all were fore-readers with an index of nine or better. You could, in your testing, equal them in objective tests but were totally unable to function in life situations involving animate objects. Thus your rating is only a four. Have you ever given this any thought?" I wanted to find my father, not discuss my mental deficiencies. "Very little. My own life is, to me, and to any I have yet encountered, unreadable. Celendra had little but awareness of what had happened to me. She had no specific information about what would happen. When forereaders cannot see, they predict all manner of catastrophe, on the assumption that if they cannot see it, it must be high crux. No one's whole life can be draw for crux; therefore, they are wrong. I do not know what to think. I would fulfill this chaldra and get me back to Astria while I still have my sanity." I walked the drug tightrope between despair and exhilaration. "I think you should reexamine your data." The Day-Keeper sighed. "I do not want to frighten you. I think you are deeply involved in the change we sense. Be careful. When you are more ready to think in nonpersonal terms, we will discuss this matter further. Now, let me see what you have for me." His rebuke stung. "I have this," I said, disengaging my father's ring from my chald and handing it to him. His hands were brown and sinewy. "Sereth of Arlet says that he has seen a similar sign behind the Falls of Santha." "And that you should have that information, from the only man who has seen what lies behind the falls, and from his own mouth—that, also, you would count as coincidence?" He sucked his teeth, holding the ring close. He got a glass from his desk and fitted it to his eye. He peered long at the ring. Then he shuffled through his mounds of paper and fax. A scroll dropped, to the floor, clattering loudly on the black sheet gol. I retrieved it. He had not heard. At length he raised his head, and his face was suffused with joy. "It is certainly genuine. And it bears both the sign and script attributed to the seed-sowers. That script, first ever written, is unmistakable. I would say it is an artifact of the seed-sowers, and yet it is not more than a few hundred years old. If this truly matches with what the Seven found at Santha, which we only recently had reported to us, then it would be safe to say that both are of seed-sowers." "There is no such thing as seed-sowers," I protested, growing uneasy. "It is an old legend, a fright-restraint invented by primitive priests to keep the populace under control!" "And the same legend was invented by every Silistran early culture, even those so isolated that they could have had no contact with each other, and by more than half of the other planets of the B.F., also isolated from each other." He bared his teeth. "Come, now, Estri, open your mind." "All primitives need a spiritual figure outside themselves, until they can deal with the spirit within," I said from rote. I once calculated that I had, at the time of my graduation from Day-Keeper's school, spent forty-five years in academic situations. I had risen to my feet. "I do not want to be part of some higher-plan function, some whirlpool in temporal events! I am not interested in ancient legends. I need to know where to look for my father. Ristran sent me to you for help. Should I, or should I not, go to the Falls of Santha? Will you come into Arlet and examine the artifacts I have with me? It is Feast of Conception, but I have a token for you. I would leave this place." The smell of the oil lamps and the vibration of the floor and the drug and the lack of sleep were conspiring against me. I badly needed fresh air. He looked at me queerly, then rose and put his arm around my shoulder. When we stood in the open air, he returned to me my father's ring. "I will go with you, Estri, to the feast. It is very important that you remain strong. If you fail, none of us can help you, and it might affect the crux adversely. Consider, however, that if I am right, you will need a man of your father's race to get you with child, and all that is done other than that coupling is simply going through the motions." We walked together through the gathering shadows, across the court where the shopkeepers were locking their stalls for the night, and into the common room of Well Arlet, where the servers removed the seating and replaced it with long planked tables of half wisper logs and benches, that all might be seated together for the feast. In my keep I retrieved from the thala chest the silvery material Dellin had given me, in which I had wrapped the viewer and fax letter. The Day-Keeper sat cross-legged before the window, amid the blue cushions, and viewed the oblong. When he was finished, he replaced it carefully in the tas pouch. He looked at me, where I lay propped on one elbow staring at the crags below. "I could not be more sure," he said softly. Then he read the letter. He scowled and ground his teeth and must have read it more than once, for it was a long time before he put it away. The moon was above the crags when he next spoke to me. "Have you heeded these warnings?" "To the best of my ability. Secrecy was impossible. It is common knowledge that I am in Arlet." "And Baniev?" "I have managed to avoid it." "Perhaps there is something that may be searched from this. If Astria had access to information, I might match her channels and pick up what she learned." I knew what he meant. Time search. To connect with Astria, at the moment she received the pertinent information, and experience it with her. It is a scarce skill, the ability to send the mind to where time has no density and directly experience the long-dead past. So I dozed in my keep while the Day-Keeper tranced, and at eighth bell Celendra herself came to escort us to the Feast of Conception. I had no time to ask him what he had accomplished, only time to give him his token, that he might use the woman of his choice at the feast, and make my body ready. Since it was handy, I wore the silvery draped sheath that Dellin had bought me, and fastened it again with the silver clips set with white stones, then followed Celendra and Vedrev to the common room. I thought of what the Day-Keeper had said. Going through the motions indeed! If Vedrev was right, and I could, bear child only by one of my father's race, where did that leave me? Celendra was doing her act for the Day-Keeper, as we all tend to do with such a man. She seated me on her left and Vedrev on her right, herself between us at the head of the central table. On my other side was Sereth, and Dellin opposite him. Then Genisha and Jerin, the guests of honor. The small shaved-headed girl who had been the first I had met in Arlet seemed quite pleased with her body's choice of Jerin, the Arletian Slayer who had called my bout with Celendra. But then, girls, at times have been known to stretch the rules. Perhaps Jerin could not be proved the sperm-father of the child. He was, however, the announced father, which would suffice, since there were no challengers. The musicians were gone in a pulsing dance rhythm, and the cleared center of the common room was filled with writhing figures. Feast of Conception has its own style, its own formula, its own music and dance. It is the oldest performed ceremony on Silistra. Perhaps the most important one. There had not been such a feast in Astria for over two years. I watched the dancers in silence, refusing both Dellin and Sereth with a shake of my head. I was flashing and dizzy; sound and sight receded and sharpened around me. My hands shook and my legs also, and I clasped my fingers together in my lap and concentrated upon maintaining consciousness. I saw the man of Hertekiea, whom I had mistaken the night before for Celendra, whirl by me with a blond well woman in his arms. Also I recognized that Koster whose drink I had spilled in my first meeting with Sereth, and the Iartex Ganrom had so rudely un- seated. The air was already thick with danne and distrit. Sereth of Arlet touched my arm and peered into my face. He held a pipe for me, but I refused it. I was descending fast from the stimulant. Another would but make it worse. Having been effectively separated from the Day-Keeper by Celendra, when I began weaving in my chair I could not turn elsewhere but to Sereth. "You are not doing too well. Here, try this." Solicitous, he handed me a goblet of kifra. I used both hands to take it from him, but it fell from my grasp. "I am so tired," I whispered, leaning against him, trembling, as the servers cleaned the mess from the table and our laps. I wanted Santh. I had not seen my black friend for a set's time. I tried to call him, but all I got was hazy hulion close-ups, in which Santh nuzzled a sandy female. I did, however, see great falls at their backs. Perhaps spring and its call had drawn Santh home. Dimly I realized that I would see him soon, if such was the case. Sereth of Arlet was speaking to me, but I could hear only the growl of his voice, not the words. When I looked him in the face, it was as if he were at one end of a long black tunnel, and I at the other. "I cannot hear you," I said. I hoped he could hear me. I had no way of judging the loudness of my voice, or even whether I had really spoken or only thought I had. Something touched my lips, and I swallowed, choking and spitting. Slowly, as the bitter drink entered my mouth unbidden, I realized that the cerise-clad physician with his five-strand chald was standing over me. I could see the chald very clearly. Arletian. Others, too, leaned over me. If I could have moved my body I would have pushed away from the crowd. It was hard to breathe. Slowly, under the physician's ministrations, the room focused and my body returned to my control. I could hear and had an awareness of the placement of my extremities. "I am almost fine," I said to him, and waved more bitter drink away. I had had enough drugs. Sereth's hand was on my shoulder; his arm held me upright. Dellin looked strained and white under his dark skin. The Day-Keeper was gesturing to him and leaning confidentially close. I wondered if Dellin would learn tonight what chaldra entailed. "Should I take you upstairs?" Sereth offered. I declined. "Food it is, then," he said cheerfully, slipping from his seat beside me to hunt up a server, that I might have some solid nourishment in my stomach, and rana, as I had asked him, to wash it down. I leaned my head in my hands, my elbows steadied on the trestle table. The meal would not be served for another bell. I tried to listen attentively to Dellin and Vedrev. I no longer cared whether Dellin acquired chaldra or not, I told myself. What mattered his problems, when I had so many of my own? How could I feel so strongly about a man who had so viciously used me? Sereth had such in his nature, and he did what he did without thought. Dellin, on the other hand, seemed to do everything with ulterior motives. An opportunist and plotter, he now used his moments with the Day-Keeper, as he had used me to his advantage with Ganrom and Sereth, to further his position in Arlet. A shadow fell across me, and I looked up to see a trader in pelts and leather towering over me. Brown eyes under prominent brows, a flattish nose, and petulant lower lip were all that were visible of his features, save for a mass of unkempt dark beard that rested on his chest. He had his well token in his hand, and I was about to explain my indisposition when I realized I could not read him. I could get nothing from his mind! The burly man stood staring down at me. I raised my hand and pulled hair from my face. As I opened my mouth to speak, a well token landed with a crack in my empty plate, where it rolled on its edge in ever smaller circles until, finally, it fell quivering to its side and lay still. It was not the trader's token, for he still held his in his hand. I looked around. The Day-Keeper's eyes smiled at me, and he turned back to Dellin. Celendra, quick on her feet, was up and had her arms around the trader's massive neck, soothing. "We will find you another girl," she said, leading the red-flushed, grumbling man toward the second table. "One with more strength and stamina. That one will be of little use to any man tonight. She is worn and weak. We will find you a nice fresh girl who can do justice to a Morrltan's needs." I saw Sereth making his way cautiously through the crowd with a tray on which were covered dishes and a steaming pot. He placed the tray between his place and mine and reached for my plate. "Whose?" he asked me, referring to the well token. He slid it off the plate onto the wisper-log table. I gestured to the Day-Keeper. He had presented me with an easy out from the hoary trader, and I had thought no more about it. "What do you want with her?" said Sereth Crill Tyris in his deadly quiet voice. "She is in no shape for anything but sleep." Perhaps I had waxed hysterical, but I had to jam my hand into my mouth to keep from laughing. Sereth of the Slayers' Seven was going to protect me from Vedrev, the Day-Keeper. "Precisely. While you were gone to the kitchen, a trader came to take her. I have no need of a well woman, especially one who has been so badly mistreated." Vedrev looked with hard eyes at Sereth. His mouth was an angry white line. Sereth's hand went to his hilt, and then to the table. He gripped the thick edge hard with pale knuckles, looking at his hands. Then he took a deep breath and handed the well token that had been on my plate to Vedrev, who raised an eyebrow and laid it down. He held the Slayer's gaze until that one looked away. "I will see that she sleeps," said Sereth, "and is not disturbed." He seemed to want to say more. He shook his head and took his seat abruptly. I was then served my early dinner by Sereth of Arlet, who said not a word to anyone until I was finished, but sat with his arms folded across his chest, slid down on his spine. His face was tightly drawn. One could not gainsay a high Day-Keeper. They are categorically above reproach. The food stopped my head from spinning and brought strength back into my limbs. I was even able to sort the sounds of Dellin and Celendra and the Day-Keeper from the noise around us. The subject of the conversation was the legend of the seed-sowers. Dellin recalled similar M'ksakkan legends. Celendra was intrigued. I thought that the Day-Keeper must be very sure to sow his own seed so early. Sereth leaned close to me, as if to pick at the remains on my plate. "What did you tell him, that he put responsibility for your, state on me? I have my differences with the Day-Keepers. I do not need you to make it worse." "I told him nothing except that I had been with you, and you had told me of the artifact at the Falls of Santha." I apologized sincerely. "I think he simply assumed it, because of the seating and your reaction to his token. That man, the one who would have couched me—I could not read him. Nothing. That has never happened to me before." "I would have you make the matter of who did how much to whom clear with the high one before we go to Santha. I can do without another call to stand judgment before that pack of old ladies. I know nothing of this reading, except it is said that the fore-readers and the girls of Astria do it. Can you tell me what I am thinking?" "Not exactly. Not conscious words you are framing for communication. Deep-seated emotion, underlying motivation, primal drives I can read with clarity when I am myself. At this moment I doubt if I could read you the alphabet." "What, then, is the import of your inability to read the trader?" "Perhaps you are right, perhaps it is just that I am so very tired." "Let me take you upstairs. You have done your duty to the Well." "You are my will," I sighed, an old phrase for acquiescence I had not used since my training years. "But allow me just to watch Genisha dance first." So we sat in the common room while the Feast of Conception roared around us, and on that most joyous occasion I struggled to keep my eyelids from closing of their own accord. By the time the six courses had been served and cleared and the great dessert tray was making its way up and down the aisles between the trestle tables, I was sleeping for seconds, catching myself and starting back to consciousness, then fading again. Thus I missed Genisha's dance to Jerin, that which is the most beautiful of Silistran dances, where the elements of submission and free will, sex and love, swirl around the dancers like sheer silks. I dozed on Sereth's shoulder and did not awaken until I found myself in his arms at the door to my keep. Once within, in the soft-lit blue-and-gold chamber, he stripped from me the silvery silk Dellin had given me and laid me on the couch, pulling the covers up around me almost tenderly. Some while later I was again awakened, to take the bath he had drawn for me. He bathed with me, but not with the intent other than helpful. So I did let Sereth of Arlet, of the Slayers' Seven, wash and bathe me like a child and dry me in the soft toweling and put me again in my couch. I told him drowsily to go back downstairs and enjoy the feast, but he would not. "I," he said, "am also tired from my set's activities. I will, if you permit, rest here with you. Trouble seeks you, lady, like the ebvrasea the mountain taslings, and I think it better that you not be alone, lest it strike when we least expect it." "Lest the days all slip away." I smiled at him, quoting from the beautiful old song about two lovers who pegged every moment of their time, so that they might spend eternity together. Sereth pegged this time that I might survive it. "Doubtless," he said, pulling the cover up around him and settling on his side, "the days will all slip away regardless. But I have gotten into a habit, and it is a hard one to break." He leaned over and kissed me on the lips, so lightly, and the hair of his thick-matted chest tickled me. I wonder whether he meant the habit of me, or the habit of pegging time, but I was too sleepy to ask. We were awakened by the four bells of Arlet, tolling stridently together. Each bell, on a normal day, has seven enths to toll, but when all bells ring together, twelve soundings, it is said they weep for a soul. Someone was dead in Arlet. It is not often that such sounds are heard, for death is long coming to take us on Silistra. But come it does. I shivered and pressed closer to Sereth. He was frowning. As the only member of the Slayers' Seven in Arlet, if the passing was other than natural, it was his duty to make an inquiry. If natural, he must still take a hand. The bearers would have to be chosen from the ranks of the Slayers. The family, if they were not aware, informed, the deceased one's goods apportioned fairly. The ceremony and the writing of the name in the Day-Keeper's roll were the responsibility of the ranking Day-Keeper. All else was the chaldra of the Slayers' Seven. Sereth slid out from between the couch covers and began to dress. "May I join you?" I asked. "Do as you will, Estri, but this is nothing I expected, and it may not be pleasant." Then the death was no timely one of old age and infirmity. I threw back the silken couch spread and the web-cloth undercover and went to retrieve the breech and band Celendra had given me from the smaller thala chest. "How do you feel?" asked Sereth, watching me, bent over from the waist, untangle my hair with rapid strokes of the bone comb. Its ends touched my toes. "Fine." I straightened up, throwing back my head, feeling the strands around me crackle with static. "I needed the rest badly, I guess. I am not one to pamper myself, however, and I feel a trifle foolish." He shrugged and guided me out the door. "I must change into more suitable clothing. Will you eat with me in my hostel?" I agreed. I was curious to see how the Slayers lived in Arlet, and what Sereth of the Slayers' Seven chose to keep around him. We were halfway across the Inner Well when Celendra caught up with us. I thought that it was the first time I had seen that woman hurry. She gasped for breath. "Do you need me for the inquiry?" she panted, her hand on the Slayer's arm. "I do not know if there will be one." "There will doubtless be one." "Then you know more than I." "I know that Fressa had nothing to do with it." "With what, woman?" demanded the Slayer. "If you have something to say, tell me. I must get to the hostel and sort this thing out." He held her by the shoulders, his hands digging into her flesh, so that her feet barely touched the ground. "Put me down and I will walk you there." As we walked across the Inner Well, me in my band and breech, studded with silver, Celendra clothed in her dusky skin, and Sereth in his worn slate Slayer's garb, she told us. "Remember that trader that wanted you last night, Estri? He was found this morning, after leaving Fressa's couch before sun's rising, wandering mindless in the Inner Well. He died within a bell of being discovered. He could neither see nor hear, nor did he respond to touch. The physicians say his mind was totally isolated, cut off from all sensory input. He died horribly, degenerating before the healers' eyes. There is no known poison that could do such a thing. No traces of foreign chemicals in the blood. But every sensory path to the brain was destroyed." "If there is no poison, and no marks of violence on the body, why are you worried about your girl? Why would we blame her, or anyone, for the inexplicable?" We stood before the Slayers' hostel, an imposing structure of silvery gol, with thala door and lintel. The hostel had no windows, but narrow open slits through which a man could aim a weapon. It had been long since those slits had been needed in Arlet, but the Slayers stand ever ready to defend her. Celendra hesitated before the door. "I must get back to the Well. I just wanted you to know what I knew, lest the physicians, having no answer to your questions, use Fressa to take the blame. They seldom admit to ignorance." "I appreciate it. Tasa," said Sereth. We passed many men in the winding passages of the hostel, hurrying through the corridors, metal clanking, gathered in small knots of subdued conversation. In the kitchen, where the serving alcove was filled with them, in their slate and silver and black leathers, the talk was louder, a maddening rumble. There was little laughter. A table of light needle-wood was clear in a corner of the high-ceilinged gray alcove. Swords and shields were racked upon the walls, many ancient beyond description, jewel-hilted, and with precious-metal inlay. Other than weapons, the severity of the man-height gray gol-blocks was unbroken. The floor was planked thala, the southern variety, with brown over? grain. Sereth steered me toward the empty table. Men got up from their grilled parr and eggs to query him. "What rises, Seven?" asked a large man, blocking our path. "What indeed? I like it not when the enemy is not clear. Give me something I can fight," put in another. "Think you that this be some new disease?" said one with an accent I did not recognize. Disease had long ago been conquered on Silistra. The men were much shaken by the thought of a microscopic enemy, against whom there was no defense. "I think nothing yet. I have to find out. Would you have me tell you a guess, perhaps a wrong one, just to tell you something? Are you a clutch of old ladies, that I must comfort you in your fears? Leave me be. When I have something to say, I will say it." Angry, the Seven pushed his way through the men that had circled around us. One, more persistent than the others, followed us to the table. "Tyith, do not hover over me. If you would be of help, then bring us a meal. And lots of rana. I need a clear head." The younger, red-haired Slayer, whose skin was darker than tan, hurried to obey. He wore the red knotted cord of apprentice at his waist. When he disappeared around the corner to the kitchen proper, Sereth of Arlet put his head in his hands, rubbing his eyes. "I have never seen such a time," he said. "It whirls and blows around us, and that which rides it is strange indeed. It has been one irregularity after another. The death of the old Liaison, you, Dellin, Vedrev, so many new variables. Now, this. Those old women must be gnashing their teeth and pulling their hair out by handfuls over this one." The thought seemed to cheer him, that the Day-Keepers would be adversely affected. He pulled a knife from its sheath, a small dagger, and began cleaning his nails. "There is no use discussing the undiscussable, speculating with no information," he said to me when the food came, filling a bowl with rana and handing it to me. "Tell me what you read from Dellin, our new Second, with your Astrian skills." I had wondered when it would come up. "He is a brilliant, devious man. I am not objective. I thought for a while that I cared for him, but I think now that I do not." Sereth leaned back in his chair, his long legs crossed. He looked up at me intently from beneath his dark hair. "He is much taken with Silistra. He would make himself as Silistran as he can. That can serve you to your advantage if you play him right. He is, however," I cautioned, "a M'ksakkan, and profit and quota are to them as chaldra is to us. He will have difficulty, living as he wishes, with a foot in both worlds. Eventually, there will come a situation in which the needs of Arlet and those of the M'sakkan Bipedal Federate are in conflict. I would not trust him until that time has come and gone. But he thinks himself sincere, and thusly may be used, perhaps, to advantage by one subtle enough in his approach. Remember, a Liaison with Slayer's chaldra is a bridge between worlds, a bridge that has never been trod." "And a bridge provides access from both sides of the abyss it spans, eh?" "Such is the nature of a bridge," I affirmed. "Could you read this Fressa for me, and tell me if she is innocent of whatever Celendra tried to cover?" "I do not know. I will try." I closed my eyes and got her easily. "She did not service him. He acted very strangely with her, and spilled his seed on her breasts and spoke to her in an unknown tongue. She should have reported it right away. It bothers her, or I would not be getting such detail." "But she did nothing to him?" "Her guilt is of not calling a physician as soon as he left her, for he seemed to her deranged. It is no greater than that." Sereth stabbed a parr strip, still bubbly with juice, with the dagger. Such niceties as cutlery were not favored by the Slayers. The apprentice had brought us no utensils with our meal. I picked up a strip in my fingers. Sereth, grinning, reached back, and, the chair tilted back on two legs, took a gold-hilted knife from its sheath on the wall and handed it to me. "How will this affect our journey to the Falls of Santha?" I asked him, spearing a strip of parr. "I have to see. Since the physicians have already given their opinion, then the papers are most likely done. Today is Detarsa second first, and the rest of the Seven will not be in Arlet until second seventh. If the arrangements for funeral and disposition can be made within that time, I will have to be here. If they take longer, then I may be able to leave by the fifth. I will have to check with the writer before I go to the Day-Keepers; then I will know better. I must see how many blanks are filled, and how many are still open. A man cannot go to rest in Arlet with unfilled blanks on his papers." Sereth seemed unfond of this part of his job. "I am ready to leave when you are," I said, draining my rana bowl. It had gone from steaming to tepid while we talked. I stared into the dark, bitter sediment. As he refilled my bowl from the metal pot, Vedrev and another Day-Keeper, whose head was shaved in lateral strips in the manner of the Darsti builders, swept toward us through the thinning crowd of Slayers. Vedrev made a striking figure in his Stothric priest's robe and plumes, and he knew it. With a dramatic flourish he slammed three sheets of parchment, and one of orange fax, down hard on the table. Sereth of Arlet looked up at him with narrowed eyes. He did not rise. "Sit down, Day-Keepers. I would have been with you presently, after I had finished here. Thank you for saving me the walk." "How are you, Estri?" said Vedrev to me, patting my hand, his brown even darker against my copper skin. "Much rested, thank you. Tell us about the trader's death. It is the subject of the moment." I smiled at him. "It is all here," said Sereth, scanning the papers. With a marker the other Day-Keeper produced, Sereth signed the three white sheets, then pressed his index finger to the fax. "What will you call cause of death?" "Natural causes. It is no disease, and that anything living could have done that to another being is beyond my comprehension. How should I write it? Mind-burn? Should I give them my suppositions? If it happens again, however, we are in for trouble. I sent a messenger to Baniev to inform his family. There is little enough wealth to distribute. I think the Day-Keepers might gift the widow,, since there is no one to take up her couch-mate's chaldra." If the man had been killed by another, the killer would have had either to take the man's chaldra, his responsibilities, or gift his house so that it might survive. In a case like this, where there was no one responsible, the Day-Keepers did as they saw fit. "Baniev," I said softly. "Vedrev, I thought he was from Morrlta?" "No, although that was the natural assumption, for he wore Morrltan clothes. So I, unwittingly, kept you from a man of Baniev. Another coincidence, Estri? And that that man died in such an unusual fashion? This, too, a coincidence?" "What are you two talking about?" Sereth interrupted. "I could not read him. I told Sereth at the time. Nothing. I would have told you, but I had no chance. Sereth, tell him I told you." "Someone tell me what is going on! Yes, you told me. But you were so tired, you could not keep your eyes open. What does it matter?" "I could get nothing from him either, Estri," said Vedrev to me, as if the Slayer were not present. "I thought it some trick of paranoia in my own mind. I had such a strong feeling of impending disaster, I was seeing potential culprits all around me. I am glad I picked the right one." He looked meaningfully at Sereth. The Slayer, however, did not realize that in his own way Vedrev was apologizing. He had his arms folded and was slid deep in the chair, his most hostile position. "Day-Keeper, inform a poor ignorant Slayer. What should I do, high one? Shall I take this lady to Santha, or tend to the funerary rites? What does Baniev mean to both of you that it does not to me? I have need of enlightenment." The Day-Keeper, in a low, clipped voice, told Sereth of my great-grandmother's letter. "Is there anything else I must keep her away from? Harths, perhaps, or taslings?" "This is a serious matter, Slayer. If you have not the wish to do it, I can surely find another to follow the directions you would give me. Pick the bearers and set the thing in motion, and leave, if you must, once that is done." "I will perform my duties. I do not ask you to excuse me," said Sereth. "Seven, I do not excuse you because you Wish it. I would have this woman home in Astria. It would bring much ill will between Ristran and myself if harm were to come to her while she was under my care." "So now you come to charge me to take her to Santha. I have an arrangement with the Liaison Second to do the same. His was a prior commitment." Vedrev stood abruptly. The bench upon which he sat tumbled to the floor, clattering. The other Day-Keeper gathered up the papers hastily and trotted after his master, who strode out the door, robes swirling. "He was trying to be nice to you, Sereth. You took no notice. He would have relieved you from your burdens, but you made it impossible. Why did you bait him so? Now we will have to wait until the fifth, at least." "The rest will do you good. It is a long and difficult trail," said the Slayer coldly, rising. He led me through the winding dark halls of the hostel, to his chamber, small and severe, with that smell a place has when seldom used. I sat on the narrow, pelt-covered gol slab as he discarded his worn vest of circlets, tunic, and breech. Before the crossed spear and shield, racked blades and the tas-wrapped, seven-lashed stones, naked, his chald glittering in the meager light from the wall slits, he seemed the Silistran archetype—formidable, stern, the killer by whose sword Silistra had been raised from ashes. I had expected some grand keep, but now I realized that such would have been out of character for this man. Also, I reminded myself, he did not live here, but somewhere out of Arlet, with his prized threx herd. He turned from me and stooped to open the single wisper chest, drawing out a tooled and armored vest, circlets overlaid with steel at breast and back, and took from the wall a silver-hilted sword in figured scabbard. I leaned over on impulse and took the worn common leathers into my lap. "May I take this, Sereth?" I fingered a place under the armhole where the color was gone from the hide and the soldered links thinned to the breaking point. "It could do with some oil and polish, and the chalder should check these links." It smelled strong, of sweat and trail use. He looked up from buckling the black sword belt, with the Seven's mark worked on it, around his waist. He looked regal and imposing, quite different from the dusty Slayer who had offered to try me the day I had fought Celendra. "That is work for an apprentice, not a well woman." "I would enjoy it." "Then do as you will." He was still angry with me for speaking my mind at table. The plain wooden door swung slowly open, and the red-haired, rana-skinned youth who served us in the dining alcove peered around it. "What is it, Tyith? Come in and close it." The youth did as he was bid, squatting in the corner. His eyes were yellow-brown, wide, and clear. He stared at me solemnly. "Estri, this is my son, Tyith bast Sereth." The boy jumped to his feet, wiping his hand on his rump, that he might greet me. The son of Sereth of Arlet had his father's lithe body, but otherwise little favored him. "Out of Celendra?" I guessed. Sereth nodded. A man-child takes the mother's hide-name and the father's first, a girl-child, the mother's first and hide, and the father's first. It had been an easy guess, given the bast hide-name, Tyith's dusk-dark skin and sensuous features. The flaming hair, however, fit neither parent's stamp. The boy's hand was cold and moist, and hard with callus. "I am done with my duties," he said to his father. "I beat Uther soundly at stones, and got a nod from the master with short-sword." His pride was ill-concealed. "I wondered if you had anything for me to do, for I have won the rest of the day free." "What of maintenance?" said Sereth sternly. "That was the prize I won from Uther." "It is a fool who does not tend his own gear, when his life depends on it. Who knows how deeply your victory rankled your opponent? When you beat a man, even in fun, he is half an enemy. You may take this lady, since you have so much free time, back to the Well. Do not bother your mother, but come straight back, and I will take you with me to find bearers for the funeral." Sereth rose and came to me and whispered in my ear. I nodded, realizing for the first time, with his request, how deeply the trader's strange death had worried him. "And bring Uther and another with you," he told Tyith, "and your gear. I would see its condition, before I send the three of you to the farm. I would have Issa and Krist; and another mount of your choice, one you would like under you on the trail to Santha." The boy's eyes fairly shone. "Issa and Krist?" he asked wonderingly. "What good is a first string, but to use when one needs a threx?" Sereth queried his son, smiling. "Could I take Wirin?" "You will need at least Wirin for such a long trek. Now, move. I want them here by sun's rising tomorrow." The boy was half down the hall before I made it to the door. "Wait," I called, laughing, running to catch up. "You must be very proud of your father," I said to him as we crossed the threshold into the blinding bright of the Inner Well. "Pride is the cloak of fools. It has no place in a Slayers heart," the boy quoted. "But I would live up to his expectations, which are often beyond me. My mother wanted me to go to the Day-Keepers' school, but I have only sisters, and anyway, my call is as his." "In such matters," I reminded him gently, "it is the individual's chaldra to please his inner self, the mother's, the father's, or teacher's wishes notwithstanding. Who brought you up?" "I spent equal time at my father's farm, where there are well women, and with Vistri bast Fevnell, who raised up Celendra." The sun beat down hot on our heads. I was about to comment when Dellin came tearing down the Well steps and stopped dead in his tracks, to watch us approach him. I still carried Sereth's common leathers. "What is it?" I said when he made no move to greet me or step from my path. "I have been looking for you since mid-meal. Where were you? Who is that? Have you taken to couching children? What is that on your arm? Would you take the Slayer's chain?" Khaf-Re Dellin was more angry than I had ever seen him. "Tyith, take this to the chalder, tell him to check it and do as he sees fit, and that I will come for it this evening. And do not forget your own gear, which you must take to your father." "I would not have forgotten," Tyith called back over his shoulder, already running. Dellin shook my arm urgently. "Where were you?" he demanded again. "With Sereth, in the hostel." "Perhaps if I chain and whip you, you will follow me around, also?" "You have no right to pass judgment on whom I see, or why. I did not initiate this relationship with the Slayer. And furthermore," I said defensively, "unless I am mistaken, you and Sereth between you have apportioned a great deal of my time, both past and future, and without my consent. Now, what troubles you?" "Vedrev has been to see me," Dellin announced. "And what does the Day-Keeper want with you?" "What he wants is that I keep my hand out of his affairs. You should know, you and Sereth. I need that witchman's goodwill, and with you and the Slayer pulling power plays, I almost lost it. How was I to know you are a Day-Keeper's project? He informed me that the Falls of Santha are sacrosanct, and by involving myself in your problems, I was tipping some infernal balance. Crux, he called it. I would like to crux him. He backed me into a corner and peeled back the layers of my mind like diseased fruit, to see if it's rotten through and through. Then he changed his tune and began going on about the seed-sowers, as if nothing had happened. I will need the gods of my mother to protect me when the rest of his rank return from conclave! He mentioned that there was no record at any port on Silistra of Estrazi, not a ship, not an ID, nothing. If your father came here, which he obviously did, he has either an undetectable spacecraft, which is impossible, or some way of traveling without spacecraft, which is also impossible." Three or four knots of people had gathered in the shade near us. I cautioned Dellin to lower his voice. "That," Dellin continued, "is what triggered my memory. I showed him a map which I got before I left M'ksakka. It is the newest survey ship's work, the first accurate holo of this cluster of stars, taken from a probe on its way to Grieodsa nebula. He agrees with me, that it has an uncanny resemblance to the design on your ring. Remember the red stone? There is a red giant in exactly that position. We faxed M'lennin, and he checked the copies he had of your tape against the recording made on the B.F.'s visit to the one inhabitable planet of that system. The syntax and phonemes showed significant similarities to the voice sample we had from you. The reason the first search came up with nothing is that the planet is proscribed, and proscribed data are under a special code. Do you know what it means when a planet is proscribed?" I shook my head mutely. The hairs stood up all over my body in the hot sun. "It means that for one reason -or another, a planet is unsuited for contact. I remember seeing the tapes of first contact with the planet of the red star, which is called Zredori. I could never forget it. The inhabitants are cannibals, barbarians, and before the eyes of the transmitting camera, disemboweled every member of the first contact party, with great relish. Then we lost the picture. They probably smashed the ship to pieces. They are, truly, animals. Copper-skinned animals. No ship will take you there. Proscription is permanent, not some warning to be ignored at will. There is little resemblance between those savages, shambling about on four limbs with human bones in their ears, and the man I saw, your father, on the tape. Now, what say you?" "What did Vedrev say?" "Nothing fazes that man. His answer was that perhaps two races live on Zredori, and that we met the primitives only, or that they wanted no uninvited guests and chose that manner to so inform us. But he has never seen the contact tape. He still holds to his seed-sower theory. If those are the seed-sowers, senility has come upon them, and they have greatly degenerated. He sent me to tell you, to see what you would do." "I will think," I said, "on the way to Santha. If there is no way to reach Zredori by starship, if it is indeed the right place, then another way will surely be provided me. My father told me to seek him. I am no uninvited guest." "If, as Vedrev thinks, these are more than men, this race from which you sprung, then what are you?" His finger dug painfully into my arm. "If you cannot conceive with any but your father's people, and they are degenerate barbarians, then will you go and live among them? If they are near-gods, what will you do? You said once you cared for me." He stopped and looked at me, then pulled me close. I felt no triumph at his words. "I do not want you to go, Estri. Give up this quest. Would you die like the trader from Baniev? Perhaps your father has changed his mind, and is trying to tell you. If he is all-powerful, he could simply have come here and taken you. He did not." I could hardly breathe, so tight did Dellin hold me there in the Inner Well, with the growing number of curious onlookers staring at us. "Let us go to my keep and talk this thing out privately. I should like to see the star picture." "I have it with me," Dellin said as we mounted the steps to the Well. VI. The Cowled One When Celendra heard that Sereth intended to take Tyith to Santha, she locked herself in her keep and would not eat, nor speak, not even to the Slayer himself. On the second fifth, the day we left Arlet, she had still not broken her fast and her silence. The day dawned bright and humid, a continuation of the unseasonably warm spell that had persisted through the whole set previous. I met Sereth and Tyith in the Inner Well, at first light. I wore the tas jerkin and boots I had brought from Astria, and carried hunting knife and straight sword, for Dellin had insisted I be fully armed. With me I had a thick brist-fur pelt, for high in the Sabembe range, spring would be barely started. I gasped when I saw the three threx Tyith had brought from Sereth's string. Never had I seen such depth of chest, thick-muscled quarters, symmetry of line. From tri-part steel-shod hooves to bristled mane and tiny pointed ears, they were flawless. Their iridescent hides gleamed in the early light as they ate, their wedge-shaped heads thrust deep in buckets of eggs and chunked bondrex. Threx are omnivorous, but prefer meat, fresh and raw. They switched their bristled tails and blew softly through distended nostrils. There was one female, and she shone fire-gold in the early light. Tyith fussed over them, rubbing the biggest male, whose steel-blue body already shone like a mirror, with astringent about the pasterns. I helped Tyith, taking a rag to the black's long legs. Sereth did not appear until we had them saddled and the wire-banded bitless headstalls settled and latched around their graceful throats. Issa, the female, gave us a hard time, throwing her head into the air when the harness was presented. Finally, I held her by her sensitive ears, and Tyith slipped the strap over them while she rolled her huge brown eyes and snorted spray and froth. ; "I have never seen their equal," I said to Sereth as he checked the girths, that they be tight but not binding; and the tailpieces, that no bristles were caught in the loops; and the breastplates, that they be even and hold the saddles, of parr-covered wood lined with tas fleece, from slipping back as we rode. "I thought Issa would suit you," he commented as he gave me a leg up and adjusted my stirrups. The threx danced in place when she felt my weight on her, plunging and snuffling until Sereth hit her smartly across the muzzle. "Quiet down," he said to her. "You will get all the run you can use, soon enough. I raced her last year, and she still thinks 'ride' means 'run.' But she was unbeaten the entire season." I stroked Issa's twitching neck. Already she was slick with moisture. Sereth swung up on Krist, the gigantic black, and wound the reins once around the saddle grip. The threx stood, sniffing, his head high and ears turned behind, as if to make sure the weight on his back was truly his master, and then, without apparent guidance, ambled toward the Arletian gates, head low to the ground and snaking back and forth, ears flicking. Issa leaped after him, almost unseating me. I jerked hard back on her, but by that time she was abreast of Krist and content to pace him. I gave her rein, for she pulled fiercely, and when she had it, she settled into a swinging walk. Sereth nodded. "They both work better with knee than rein. I like a short handle on a threx, that they do not lose their spirit by overtraining." I could hear Tyith's Wirin blowing and jiggling behind us. The sleepy gatekeeper, near the end of his shift, yawned and stretched as he let us through. Immediately outside the walls of Arlet, Wirin came up on my right. He did not like being last. I had not seen Sereth since that day in the hostel, he being busy with the funeral and I with Dellin and Vedrev. The cooler morning air had already dissipated, and I thought I would be glad when we got into the mountains. I felt happier than I had since I left Astria with Santh. The threx under me was easy-gaited and even, and I exulted in the feel of her muscles between my legs. It would take us about a set to reach the falls, a distance of five hundred neras, more or less, about twice the distance of Arlet from Astria. A threx can easily do eighty neras a day, while a man at a grueling pace might make thirty. We stopped for a meal in a field of knee-high grass, where a rocky-bottomed stream muttered its way down the gentle slope. Sereth sent the boy to hunt for our food, and Tyith was puffed with pride as he slunk through the grass with his longbow. The threx grazed, hobbled, content with the fresh sweet spring grass. The saddle pouches were filled with dried fruit, pounded denter, and waterskins, but we would, whenever possible, eat what the area provided. Sereth took a strip of denter to Krist, and the big black nuzzled his master's shoulder, dribbling greened froth all over the leather I had spent a whole day conditioning. I stood a little back from Krist, watching from a safe distance. Threx are unpredictable at best, have been known to turn on their riders, drag them from the saddle, and trample them to death, and Krist was an unaltered male. Sereth motioned me over, and I gingerly scratched behind those black pointed ears. The giant beast stretched his neck out and opened his mouth wide, tongue lolling. "He would never hurt you. My girls rode him when they were the height of his knee. He just makes a great show." The black threx flattened his ears and nipped lightning fast at his master, as if to prove him wrong. Those mighty teeth snapped together with an audible click, a hair's breadth from the Slayer's arm. Sereth grabbed him where the nerve endings are exposed on the muzzle, pressing cruelly. The animal closed his eyes and stood shivering until the Slayer released him. With a disapproving snort, Krist dropped his head to the grass. I heard his teeth grinding the tender shoots. "We will make Morrlta by nightfall," Sereth said. He turned to face me. I grinned at him and stretched. Here in the rolling field, under the midday sun, with this man and those incredibly fine threx, and the Falls of Santha ahead, I felt reborn. There is nothing like the mountains in spring, with the world waking all around, singing, to give one perspective. "I have never seen you so relaxed," he said, pulling me toward him. At that moment, Tyith appeared, with a young bondrex, a male with curled horns, over his shoulder. I jumped away from Sereth, smoothing my jerkin. "Do not be foolish," Sereth said, putting his arm around my waist. "It matters not to Tyith where my heart lies at a given moment. He has firsthand knowledge of me, and of his mother. He was point between us, growing up, passed from hand to hand as our whims dictated. It was not an easy childhood, but an instructive one. He is old enough, certainly, to couch himself without my approval. I do not need his." That was the first he had ever spoken to me of his relationship, or lack of one, with Celendra, mother of his only son. I had wondered, when the boy had mentioned his upbringing, why the Day-Keepers had allowed it. It is a Silistran rule never to suffer the child to become a focus for parental manipulation. If Sereth and Celendra had not been so high in Arlet, the disposition of the child would have been different, I thought as we walked back to the stream to help Tyith prepare the meat. The boy did not seem scarred by his unusual upbringing. He beamed at Sereth's praise, and his large eyes danced with satisfaction. He seemed a different person from the overly controlled, solemn lad he had been in the hostel. I wondered if he was allowed much time with his father, whom he so obviously worshiped. The bondrex was unusually tasty, and at Sereth's suggestion, the youth hacked off the spiraled horns and packed them carefully in his saddlebag. As he doused the fire and cleaned the leftovers from the bones for the threx, Sereth and I collected large stones. There in the high grassed field we made a circle of rocks, and Sereth Crill Tyris schooled me at knife and sword in turn. I could not, trying with all my skill, get through his guard, so I had no need to pull my stroke. Finally, my right arm aching so I could scarce keep my numbed fingers around the hilt, I threw the sword to the grass, and gave him point. Then I rested while he worked briefly with Tyith. With the boy, he was very hard, sending the knife flying from the youth's hand with his second stroke. With sword, also, he made short work of him. I thought it cruel, unworthy of the Seven of Arlet, to deal so harshly with the boy's barely emergent skill. "Perhaps tomorrow you will be able to keep a better hold on your weapons." Tyith said nothing and turned to fetch the threx. "He loves you so," I objected when Tyith was out of earshot. "You could have given him, fairly, the courtesy you showed me." "You do not have to make your living by the sword and your fitness to bear it. There is always someone to fight for you. He will have no help but that he can draw from within. With you it is play; I like to watch you move. With him it is chaldra. Never will I be easy with him. Easy is not what a Slayer's life is about. Perhaps, someday, he will be able to knock the knife from my hand on the second stroke. When he can, he will. Until then, it is necessary for both of us to know that he cannot." His eyes were hard. Sereth of Arlet did not like criticism. I shrugged and turned from him, to help Tyith with the threx, reminding myself of the low worth of words. I had found it served me better to keep silent, especially with this man. I had been foolish to break my custom. We harnessed and mounted and returned to the Morrltan road in silence. Issa, as usual, would not suffer being second, so Sereth and I rode abreast, with Wirin and Tyith bringing up the rear. The road became dirt-and-stone path, the fields scarce, forest thickened. We began to climb, the threx scrambling up what was now only rocky trail. Once, Wirin stumbled and almost fell. Sereth checked his tri-shod front foot and determined that the mid-shoe was loose, and so we walked them slowly toward Morrlta proper, where we could perhaps have the nails redriven. We arrived, well past dusk, under a rising gibbous moon, at the outskirts of Morrlta, the pelter town that had its few crude log buildings at the Sabembe's very feet. We did not go into Morrlta, but stopped at a group of four low wooden shacks perhaps five neras from town. Sereth, somehow, determined that we would be safer in the tiny, ill-lit room he bought from the grizzled innkeeper than in the Morrltan town, where one could have found at least indoor plumbing. We ate greasy, overcooked stew, binnirin bread, and bad kifra, which was served us by one of the innkeeper's coin girls. There were perhaps a dozen others, pelters and mountain men, loud and drunken, who took a meal at one of the other hand-hewn tables. One grabbed the coin girl who served us, a light-haired, fair-skinned girl with four digits on each hand, as she came toward us to serve kifra. The pitcher dropped from her grasp and smashed on the dirt floor. Tyith was on his feet, sword drawn, before Sereth could stop him. The Seven slid from his seat and touched the boy's shoulder. Tyith shook him off. "Let her go," the youth said loudly. I saw Sereth's hand go to his hilt. He did not, however, draw his blade. One could have sliced the silence. The bearded pelter who had the blond coin girl on his lap looked Tyith slowly up and down, then his father, a pace behind. "Did you want her for the night, Slayer?" He smiled, revealing broken teeth. Sereth had his knife in hand now, cleaning his nails. "I think you have a heavy hand, pelter," said Tyith, "and, yes, perhaps I do want her. But whether I do or not, you should certainly offer to pay for that pitcher, and take your hands off her, for she was serving us. You, I believe, have another server." The bearded, swarthy pelter stared hard at Sereth, and me, who had come up beside him. He released the girl, who darted back toward the bar. The man shrugged and picked his teeth, leaning on the table, both hands in clear sight. "I need no trouble with Slayers this early in the season," he said with a canny look. I could feel the tension ease. "She is bony, anyhow." He turned his back to us. He had not acceded to Tyith's demand that he pay for the kifra. Chairs scraped as his companions relaxed, and they bent their heads over their drinks. Tyith stood for a moment, as if he would push the matter. Sereth put his arm around the boy's shoulders and spoke to him in a low voice. I took my seat, and Sereth, before doing the same, took from his pouch some gold dippars and gave them to Tyith. "I think perhaps you should use those on that girl, if you would risk your life for her," he said to the boy, and turned toward me. "We should get an early start. I will be with the shoer an hour before first light." We rose, and Sereth left a half-dippar amid the remains of the meal. He had well-tipped the four-fingered girl. "Try to stay out of trouble, and be at the stall be- fore the shoer, with Wirin in good order," he said to Tyith, with his hand on the back of the boy's neck. Thus we spent the night in the filthy, ill-lit room, on a feather-stuffed pallet set on a web-cloth grille, which sank toward the middle and creaked when one moved, with the strain of web against the wooden frame. "There are bugs in this place," I complained. "I can feel them. I cannot sleep here." I twitched and itched, just thinking about it. "There are bugs in the open, also. They do not bother you unduly. What difference a bug on the ground, or a bug on the couch? Take off your clothes." I did, and climbed with much distaste between the damp-smelling covers. Sereth brought my knife and his with him, sliding his by the blade between pallet and frame. He handed me mine, and I did the same. Sometime later, when I lay, unable to move, drained in mind and body, panting and sweat-dampened atop the. rumpled and wadded covers, Sereth rose and slapped my rump smartly, going with blade in hand to check the door. Whatever he had heard, I had not. "Bounce," he hissed. I bounced and thrashed, and he jerked the door violently open. There was no one there. I lay silent, listening. I heard Sereth's footsteps up and down the hall. He reentered the room, shaking his head. "Nothing," he said, closing the door and throwing the bolt. "But either I heard footsteps, or my ears lie to me." He went to the shuttered window and opened it, letting in the risen moon and the clear, starry night. When he had finished at the window, he left it open and roughly pulled from under me the covers, spreading them over me, and climbing between. I took no notice. When he had opened the shutters, I had seen, clear and sharp, hovering in the moonlight, a cowled figure, wrapped in shadow, peering in at me from its perch in midair. Within the shadow I could see only eyes, burning, pulsing bronze. But Sereth had not seen. He had calmly relieved himself at the window and come to couch. It had been so real that the reality of the room within which I lay had become dwarfed, overshadowed by the cowled one's presence. I said nothing, but it was long before I slept, before my heavy lids closed of their own accord, blocking the peaceful night sky from my view. In my dreams, the apparition reappeared, amid a sliding time-scape, calling me out from an ice-silvered peak. I tried to resist, but the ground under my feet turned to rushing river, and carried me, the current running backward, closer and closer to that beckoning shape. I woke before I reached it, dry-mouthed, shaking. The sky, predawn soft and colorless, greeted me, whispering windsong. I lay a long while staring- at the clouds. Sereth was, I assumed, with the shoer. I dressed quickly and went to meet him, disdaining another meal from the innkeeper's squalid kitchen. "I was just coming to rouse you," said the Slayer as I descended the steps to the yard. Wirin, Issa, and Krist were harnessed and ready, Tyith already mounted. I avoided the Slayer's hand and went to Issa, swinging up on her back without assistance. She sidestepped, jiggling. Sereth took her head, stroking her, looking up at me. The wind blew, moist and cold, promising storm. "What troubles you, lady?" he asked me. I had no answer. "I am only anxious to be away from here." "That is easily done." He let go Issa and mounted Krist, who stamped and blew his impatience. We left Morrlta at a lope, heading due north, toward Santha. Before long, all semblance of trail had disappeared, and the rain and wind down from the north beat the air from my lungs and the threx steamed as the cold wet hit their hot, straining bodies. Issa's muzzle seemed to drag along the rocky ground as she picked her way up the treacherous slope. I could see Krist's hindquarters ahead, bunching, sweat and rain running in rivulets down his legs as he hazarded the steep climb, Sereth bent over his withers. I was wet and miserable, shivering, muddy, and cold. The sun had made no appearance by midday, nor did we stop to eat, and it was all I could do, leaning forward with my breasts against the threx's plunging neck, to keep my seat as she scrambled and hopped her way along a dry streambed that seemed to go on forever. When I was sure I would fall from the saddle, numb with exhaustion, Krist's rear, in front of me, finally halted. I had seen nothing but his flanks for neras. The black stood, head low, heaving. His legs were widespread, and he trembled. Issa laid her muzzle on his rump. Krist did not even twitch his bristled tail. Sereth turned in his saddle, his face begrimed. He pointed off to the right, and kicked Krist into motion. Speech would have been a gift to the, howling wind, which already begrudged us breath. We trudged through trailless forest, branches snapping against us, for what seemed another day, emerging into a clearing where a building of calked stones had once stood. Now it was crumbled and roofless, but still some shelter from the storm. We dismounted and led the threx through the stone-littered yard and the open space that had once been a door. The wind and much of the rain excluded by the high walls, we huddled together and ate dried fruit and meat from our stores. There was no way to walk out the threx, so they stood, steaming, shifting their weight from foot to foot. "Are you still in love, Tyith?" Sereth asked when, we had eaten our fill and were resting, steaming a bit ourselves with our backs to the cold stone wall. The wind howled no more; the storm seemed to be abating. "I am," said Tyith in a husky voice. "He thinks he got the coin girl with child," Sereth explained to me. "That is truly what I need. Two more mouths to feed. Tyith, if you still want her on the way home, and she is pregnant and has not told her master, you might bid for her." If she had told her master, the chance of fulfilling chaldra would not be easily bought. Even to the rightful father, the price would be high. If a man owns a coin girl, any issue from that girl is considered his. This is an incentive to the master to keep his girls in good condition. Tyith would be stealing the child from under the rightful legal guardian, if the girl was pregnant and he succeeded in purchasing her. "Bid for her?" Tyith repeated, grinning widely. "If you want her," Sereth amended. "Of course I do," said the youth, scrambling to his feet, taking the pelt that had covered the three of us with him. "Give that back, you dorkat whelp!" Sereth of Arlet scrambled after his son. He caught and downed the lad, and the two wrestled playfully, twisted around the brist pelt. For the first time that day, the sun broke through the overcast. I judged it to be around third second, or fifth bell in Arlet. Our twenty-eight-enth day is divided into four sevens. Midday is second seventh, midnight is fourth seventh. The bells have so rung since hide days. The warmth of the sun called me. I stretched and stood, wishing the dampness out of my aching muscles. I felt as if my back and bottom bore the imprint of every stone in the wall. Such a change, I wondered, looking around me where monochrome had become stone and grass, clover and mud, and the dark rich forest beyond. Such weight we put upon what our eyes see and body feels. This had been a forbidding, ugly place in the storm-gray cold. It was now pleasant, even perhaps picturesque, with the red-gold light and warmth upon it. Or upon me. I went to Issa, while Sereth and Tyith were sorting the harness, and picked out the stones from between shoes and inner hooves before I went to get my gear. The threx and I were beginning to develop a rapport, and I wanted to encourage her. She stood easily for me as I slipped the headstall over her ears and looped the girths that held the saddle tight. We cut back through dense trees the way we had come, but the spray from the dripping needled branches glittering in the sun was far preferable to the gloom and wind and rain that had driven us before it to the crumbled shelter. Once on the almost invisible trail, however, the mud proved increasingly difficult. The threx floundered and skidded, and only their mountain ancestry saved them, a hundred times, from nasty falls as we. picked our way up one of the unnamed foothills of the Sabembe range. Toward dusk we gained the rounded plateau, heavily treed, that would host us for the night. Ahead for the morrow was harder going, and we loped through the trees, so high-branched that we had no need to crouch down to avoid low limbs, that we might get the last light and an edge on the morning's climb. I heard a sharp crack, and Issa leaped high into the air. I was thrown onto her neck, grabbing with both hands in her bristled crest. In two jumps she was past Krist. She held her head high, plunging ahead at breakneck speed, and the reins dangled loose around her legs. I was leaning over to grab one when she bunched under me and launched herself into the air. I did not make the jump with her. I was first aware of the rope stretched between the trees when I landed on it. It wrenched my back badly, but broke my fall, which nonetheless knocked the wind from my lungs, and sight from my eyes. Pulse and pain receded, and my burning lungs drew air, and I struggled to lift myself onto hands and knees. I could not hear clearly, and my lifted eyes saw, slow motion, dreamlike, Krist's belly above me as he leaped to avoid trampling me. Wirin was riderless, a knot of men about him. I saw Tyith, his blade flashing. Then the lad was down in the midst of them, and Krist shaking the ground at my back. The threx squealed and thrashed in rage, great- toothed jaws snapping at the men gathered around him. Sereth hacked at them from the bloody-mouthed beast's back. Gore flew in chunks. The ground was slippery, covered with it. I saw a head, severed, roll under the savage threx's legs and be crushed gray and pulpy. I saw Sereth's sword cleave a man from shoulder to breastbone, where it lodged. He was drenched red, his arms dripping. I tried to rise, to help, for there were many hands at him, trying to drag him from the saddle, and he with only knife to keep them back. I could not make my legs work. I was rooted from the knees to the earth. I struggled, tossing my head wildly. Then I saw it, from the corner of my eye. It hovered at the edge of my vision. I could not turn to face it. The cowled figure, from dream and vision spawned, and it spoke echoing words in my mind while the wind blew at its cowl, whipping and snapping. The voice I heard was wind, also, wind from the chasm at the edge of the world. "Regress," it demanded. "Turn back and forget. Leave forever, and save the days you may." ... I convulsed in fear, yet my body did not tremble, nor my mind run in circles like the caged beast who sees its death approaching. Instead, from deep behind my awareness, that which guides within spoke, void-toned and ringing. The fear of me listened numbly. "You cannot deny me my birthright," I said. "You cannot stop me by your own hand. This thing will be, and you cannot block it." "I will. I have. Those who aid you—would you give them as price? This world—would you give it? If you open the way, who will use it?" "Do speak more," I said to it, "that I may know you when we meet again." My terrified self crouched scrabbling at the edge of sanity. The power within me took no notice. "Dissolution will certainly accompany you." The bronze fires burned from within my mind. "Blood and death mark your path." "In flesh or spirit, I will find you, when I am strong. You cannot harm me. I have no such injunction. Let his will be done." That power which possessed me from without receded, leaving me with my terror, kneeling, trembling violently, on the ground. There was no sound but the blowing and stamping of threx. There was no cowled one. Freed from my paralysis, I rose unsteadily. Behind me was Krist, knee-deep in gory corpses. His muzzle was bloodied almost to the eye sockets. He seemed unhurt, munching there among the dead. Sereth was my only thought as I backed the threx and pulled at the mangled bodies, but of the seven I turned, none was the man I sought, and none lived. Tearing my red-splattered hair away from my face, I searched the trees. Perhaps he had dragged himself, wounded, to hiding. I saw nothing. Slowly, my eyes on the ground, I made my way under the rope stretched between the trees, to Wirin and the second clump of still forms beyond. I felt no pain, no emotion, just empty cold. I found them both there, in the fading light, beyond the steel-blue threx. Four motionless bodies lay on their backs, turning blind eyes to the sky. A fifth form squatted over the last, still as death. Sereth of Arlet, expressionless, stared down into the smiling face of his only son. I remember thinking it odd that Tyith smiled, as I bent to close his sightless eyes. Then I sat, at the boy's shoulder, facing Sereth, who did not see me as darkness fell and the moon rose. Twice I spoke to the Slayer, but he did not hear I cried a long while. I heard Krist's trumpeting bellow, and an answer, and I knew Issa was back. I thought I should feed them, but then I remembered the grisly feast at Krist's feet. When I felt able, I went to Wirin and got the tools and gathered wood and made a fire. It was a cold night in the foothills of the Sabembe. When I had the blaze crackling steady, I caught the threx and hobbled them, and the brist pelt from Issa's cantle, and went to rouse Sereth. I had had long to think about the day's tragedy, what might have been, what had to be. I had wrestled with my guilt by the dead boy's side. My help, had I been able to give it, would have done Tyith little good. He had died before my eyes in those first moments, while I grasped at consciousness under the rope and Krist's belly. That I was guilty as catalyst was a certainty. If not involved with me, the boy would have lived. But I would not take the weight for that burden. Crux calls its children home, all of us, sometime, and it chooses who and when, according to a rhythm we cannot perceive. "Sereth ..." I leaned between him and the body, to cover the corpse with the brist pelt. I put both hands on his shoulders and my face close to his. "Sereth," I whispered, "please talk to me." I shook him. Finally his gaze turned outward, in his set face, flicker-lit by the fire. He shrugged my hands off and stood awkwardly. He had been crouched long in the same position. "I knew it then, and I sought to protect him, keep him with me, and I was the instrument of my fears. Thus I led him to his death by seeking to keep it from him. Celendra knew, in her mourning, what I did." His eyes cut into me with every question I could not answer, and he cursed and sank back down by the brist-fur-covered corpse, and his shoulders shook, and I left him and tended the fire until he came and held me. I held back my own tears for his sake, as he had held back his wrath for mine, and eventually he released me and sat staring into the fire, red-eyed, swollen-faced, silent. When I could face it, I offered him dried meat, but he shook his head, and after the first salty, stringy bite, I put it down. My mouth was too dry to eat. We sat the night through, I huddled against him, both close to the fire. When the jitkaws took rhythm song and the black sky above us steeled, he put his arm around me. "I think we will give him to the falls," he said. I had wondered what to do with the body. We could not fire him, here in the forests, as was proper, and we could not bury the body or leave it in the open. But if he were wrapped in the brist pelt and thrown from the Falls of Santha, his spirit would certainly find its destined rest. "What happened to you when you fell?" I told him. He had a right to know. I told him about the dreams and the apparition at the window at Morrlta, and the demands the cowled one had made of me while he and Tyith had battled for our lives. I told him also what I had realized, and experienced, in those moments; that the cowled one could not touch me himself; only through others could he harm me. Why this should be true, I did not know. I advised him to take Tyith's body back to Arlet, and let me continue on my own, but both of us knew he would not do so. "He died well, and I would not belittle him by leaving the task we took up unfulfilled." He had control, save that his tone was that cold flat quiet that chilled me. "I grieve with you," I said softly, as he rose and damped the fire, "but I need you, and my need makes me selfish. I will say the words with you at Santha." I knew, nothing else to say. We took sword belts from the dead men and with them bound the brist pelt tight around Tyith's body. He seemed smaller, somehow, in death, and light. Some of the men were chalded, some chaldless, and it was odd that they should have banded together. By rights we should have taken the chalded, or their belts at least, to the Day-Keepers, but we left them, instead, for the forest scavengers. Tyith we hoisted across Wirin's quivering back. The smell of death was on his master, and the steel-gray threx did not like it. He turned his head and sniffed at the brist-wrapped bundle slung across his back. Wirin's ears went back, he lifted his head and uttered an awful trumpeted wail, and then stood, head between his knees, quiet, as we tied Tyith's body firmly to saddle and girth. As the day unfolded, Sereth and I explored our altered relationship. The pace he set was hard, both on me and the threx, with short stops but no real rest. I was now just another commission to him, another woman. He was no harder on me than he had been the day we met, but the softenings, the little considerations, wordless gestures that had been between us affirmation of a growing empathy, were conspicuously absent. Once, I had wanted desperately to please the discriminating Sereth of Arlet, larger-than-life legend. When he had denigrated me, I had implemented a plan to make him court me at the very level he had chosen to put me, and I had succeeded. Until Tyith. I had lost all the ground I had gained with him. It was a measure of .his strength that he did not blame and punish me, for he would have been within his rights. He was, once again, that distant, intense, time-hoarding Slayer who had fancied me in Arlet. And the further he pushed me from him, the more I craved our former intimacy. I would have gladly borne him a child to replace the one I had helped him lose, if only I could have so commanded my self-willed reproductive system. That I could not do. Nothing less, I was sure, would suffice. My musings were interrupted around sun's set, when we came upon a wild golachit who had somehow fallen from the ledge above, to land on his back wedged between two large angular boulders. His strident high-octave whine had attracted perhaps a dozen of his fellows, from threx length to thrice that long, who clustered together below the giant, who lay, legs waving, wedged between the rocks. They were keening. But no golachit will move to help another right itself, for such a death is common to them, natural, and right. Dismounting and scrambling to its side, we could see the softer underbelly, already cracked, and the bubbling blue froth on its perpendicular excrescence tube. Its great recessed eyes followed us. The chitinous shell seemed undamaged. Another day, exposed to the sun, would surely finish it, if the night-hunting ebvrasea did not plunge their cruel beaks deep in its belly. An ebvrasea could not kill a golachit with its eight legs under it, but an overturned one is helpless. Sereth walked quickly back to the threx, returning with a long, soft web-fiber rope. This he looped around the golachit's body, wedging it between thorax and head. The giant amber golachit clicked its mandibles weakly. Sereth handed me a section of the long line, and I kept it tight around the golachit while he played the coil to its end. He backed Wirin carefully up the rocky incline, until he could run the slack through the breast band around the steed's chest. Then he mounted and urged the threx forward. The big threx's muscles bunched, and he strained against the rope until he was sitting on his hind legs in his effort. The golachit did not budge. The web-rope hummed with strain. Sereth tried once more. Foam flecked Wirin's chest as he gamely struggled to move the wedged weight. Stones flew under his hooves, and he dug troughs down to solid rock beneath him, but to no avail. Sereth dismounted, and leaving Wirin harnessed, brought Krist carefully beside him, backing him cautiously through the jumbled rocks. There was barely room for the two threx to stand abreast with level footing under them, but finally he had them positioned and then backed them in unison, that he might get the rope around both their mighty chests. That done, he stood before them, retreating slowly, calling. A good distance in front of them, he stopped, raised both hands, and whistled shrilly. Grunting, the threx threw themselves against the rope, determined to get to their master. The golachit's hard shell grated against the rocks, and it was free. The threx's lunging carried them thundering forward, and Sereth, running, narrowly escaped being trampled. The golachit lay on its side, stunned for a moment. The keening had stopped. All that was heard was rock settling, pebbles, and hard-breathing threx. Then, with a hissing squeak, the golachit righted itself, rocking on outstretched legs, until its teetering bulk fell heavily on its belly. It still wore the rope around it. Sereth, coiling the slack in his hand, went slowly toward it. He stood before it, carefully, showing no fear, and then walked around and disengaged the loop. Only when he was out of reach of those deadly mandibles did I dare breathe. A golachit is an intelligent being, but this one had lain in torture under the sun for long hours. The golachit stood, weaving on its eight legs, its excrescence tube stretched out before it. From that tube came two tiny drops of fire-red gol. Then the golachit, with amazing agility for a creature of such great size, turned on its back legs and scrabbled to its fellows. They creeched and chitted at each other, the number closing around the amber giant protectively. Then the whole herd moved off into the rocks, shadow on shadow in the failing light. I scrambled down from my perch against the boulders. Sereth had picked up the gol drops by the time I reached him. They were blood-pulse in his palm. Red gol material is secreted only at times of great joy or crisis, and is priced higher among us than any precious stone. The golachit had amply thanked us for aiding it. Sereth did not offer me the drops, even to hold, but put them in his belt. I went silently to Issa and stroked her tender nose, where the skin is bare near the nostrils. I felt very lonely, and I was glad to have the threx's head rubbing against my shoulder. She closed her eyes, her jaw resting on my neck, and sighed heavily. Issa was tired. It had been a grueling day on this rugged path. The trees had dwindled and shrunken, and soon we would not even have their meager shelter, for the Falls of Santha, birthplace of the mighty Litess River, is almost at the snow line. Sereth checked each threx's legs and quarters in turn, running his hands over first Krist and then Wirin. He then checked shoes and cleaned the gravel from the inner hooves. When he was satisfied that both were sound, he used some of the coiled rope to attach Wirin's halter to the cantle of Krist's saddle, and mounted the black. I thought, as I followed Wirin up the tas trail, that it was a wonder Tyith's body had not come loose from its bonds. But it bob-bled, brist-wrapped, in front of me along the trail until my eyes could not distinguish it any longer, and Sereth was forced to call a halt for the day, lest one of the threx lame itself in a crevice in the dark. There was no place suitable for a camp, but we found a level stretch wide enough for the animals to stand abreast, with some scrawny needle trees and sparse grass. We used our waterskins that night, mostly for the threx, and our stored foods. The moon was coming up, the night dry and clear. It seemed much quieter here in the mountains. My breathing sounded loud in my ears; the threx's teeth ground and grated rhythmically. Sereth disdained a fire, though the night was chill. I huddled against him for warmth. I was glad for it, anxious for his touch, but nothing came of it. When he lay to sleep with me, I felt even colder, more alone, than before. It seemed to me then that it was I who had been hurt deeply by Tyith's death, and he who had recovered unscathed. I felt the need to hurt back. "What will you do about your son's child?" I said to Sereth when I was sure he was almost asleep. "What?" He rolled to face me, eyes heavy-lidded. "I said, what will you do about your son's child? Though it be a coin girl, he still has issue. Would you leave your own blood in a Morrltan tavern?" Sereth of Arlet made a rude noise and turned his back to me. But I was awake long into the evening, and I know he did not sleep. Finally, my satisfaction lulled me, and I slept, mercifully dreamlessly, until he woke me, before the sun's rise. "Get up." He shook me so that the back of my head bounced against the hard ground. I pushed peace away, slipping back into stiff body like a rider long away from the saddle. I managed to get my elbows under me, and felt the Slayer's hands leave my shoulders, and the shaking cease. "What do you think I should do?" "About what?" I asked innocently. "About the coin girl." He threw a strip of dried meat in my lap. I threw it back. I would do without rather than eat that foul stuff another day. "Take her home and have your well women raise her child. She is not so badly deformed that you cannot find some use for her. What the child will be like is anyone's guess. You may try a physician, but even if the child is deformed, or an idiot, it is still the only issue of your dead son. I think you can do nothing else but take the girl." I tried not to let my pleasure show. The last thing Sereth Crill Tyris would want is a child of the type that so often fruits such a union. But he could not do otherwise than to take it in. "Are you so sure there will be a child?" He stood over me, hands on his hips. His fists were clenched. "Are you so unsure that you will ignore the boy's wishes?" The Slayer turned from me, mute, and went to harness the threx. I smiled to myself and followed. Such verbal swordplay is woman's game, and in it I can usually count point. And I was sure that the coin girl had conceived. I looked at her when the question first arose, and I had seen the egg in the womb, silver on red, and the sperm swim, and their ultimate 'connection. The sharpness and self-mobility of the image denoted truth. In such simple psychic function, I am as good as any. Issa was cranky, twitching her ears and snapping the air, but no real trouble, I wondered, as I fitted her gear, what had made her bolt that afternoon. I remembered the cracking sound I had heard. I wondered how extensive the cowled one's ability to control material reality truly was. I was soon to find out. By the time the sun, directly overhead, cast no shadow, we had made the plateau of Santha and turned due east, making our way across the relatively flat rocky ground with ease. To our left, the Sabembes towered, ice caps glittering, and the wind that swept down upon us was dry and chill. The air here was noticeably thinner, and my lungs seemed ever-hungry, my pulse thumping in my ears. I was grateful when Sereth called a halt, but I could get little respite from it. The view, to our right, of the foothills we had climbed, and Morrlta and Arlet spread below, mantled in mist, was magnificent, but I could not enjoy it; the apprehension I felt all morning had consolidated into precognition. My body was chilled with it, my stomach aching and cramping. Yet the vision was unclear, the feeling without reason I could name. I explored the rocks, looking for something I could not find, and came away dissatisfied. Sereth, lounging with his back to a large boulder, watched me, unspeaking. He seemed in good spirits, and I envied him. I was not so resilient. I collapsed beside him, content to let my pumping lungs have rest. "What did you see?" The unspoken laughter was again in his brown eyes. "Nothing. I would find shelter this night. I have a feeling, and I dare not ignore it this time." He looked at me, his eyes searching. I had thought he would dismiss my fears out of hand. "I know a place," he said. "A cave, with good cover, easy to defend. Would that do? What do you sense?" Defend from what? I could not say, but the weight I felt lightened. "How far?" I asked. "We could make it before sun's set. The cowled spirit—is that what you fear?" He did not mock me. I nodded. He shifted against the rocks, his hand unconsciously going to his sword hilt, loosening it in its scabbard. His eyes checked the shadows around us. "I would get this thing done, and you safely back to Arlet." I smiled at him, touching his shoulder. "You and I will part at the Falls of Santha. I will be no burden to you on your return trip." I had known since my confrontation with the cowled one. "You are no burden that I have not willingly taken up. I would not have you try the mountains alone." He did not understand. "I will find my way from Santha, and it is a path for one only." I tried again to make it clear. "If we make it there, you will have fulfilled your charge." I did not underestimate the cowled one. Within the available probabilities, it seemed to me that I would make it to Santha. I was not so sure about the Slayer. But my recently surfaced scanning skill was adamant. To discuss it further would solidify a time line unacceptable to me. "To fulfill my commitment to Dellin, I must return you in good shape to Arlet. If your inner voice speaks otherwise, I suggest you share your information with me. If you had done so before, we might have fared better." That was the first time he had spoken of my complicity in Tyith's death. Yet I could not tell him more than I had. "I have no specifics, just a feeling." I lied, to protect him. "But give me some time, and I will go and see what I can see." He nodded, and I lay back against the rocks and prepared my body for trance. Not, as I had said, to clarify my feeling, but to do what I might to shift and solidify the time flow as best I could. I could not alter the draw to crux, but perhaps I could designate which approach we would take. I made my heartbeat and respiration slow, and my limbs cold and tingling. Sounds around me became magnified, then faded, leaving me floating, with no-feeling flesh, in the red-dark where the time tracks meet. Into the ball of writhing color I went, instinctively, for I had never been taught to do so, finding my branching line and Sereth's, luminous and intertwined amid countless unborn tomorrows. I did what was needed. My own line, before me, twisting mist of unsolidified reality, ceased to branch and became clear. Like a great pulsing ball, the crux sucked all the alternatives within itself. I could not see beyond. Not one twisting path toward the crux failed to enter it. I wanted no more foreknowledge; my mind reeled. Yet I found the strength to enter Sereth's flow, to disentangle his from mine just before the great ball devoured it, and to cause the sharp cessation of his line to fold back upon itself and become absorbed. As I watched, new branches sprouted from that spot, so close to crux, and drifted away tangentially. It was enough. I saw the main path firm and take color, and I knew I had done all I could. I pushed back from the flickering probabilities, and floated free until my body claimed me. I found my eyes, and caused the lids to open. The numbness drained slowly from my limbs, and I felt the wind tickle my face with strands of hair, and my ears again sorted sound. I saw the sun, still high, and Sereth, his position unchanged. What had been done had taken only moments. When the tingling was gone, I sat up and met his questioning gaze. I shook my head as if nothing had been accomplished. Sereth got to his feet and extended his hand to me. I took it and rose, and he put his arms around me, holding me close, stroking my back. "You lie to me, lady," he said softly in my ear. "But I will not press you. I, too, sometimes see." Eventually he released me, that we might make the cave before dark. Not long afterward, as we rode three abreast along the wide rocky shelf, we heard a thunderous noise that shook the ground under the threx's feet and made them snort and dance in fear. I could feel Issa tremble between my legs. There was not a cloud in the sky, yet it was as if lightning had struck uncomfortably close. The air was charged, the silence deafening in its wake. I looked at Sereth, and he at me, but Krist plunged and reared, and I had my hands full with Issa's fear, and Wirin's ears were flat to his head, and it was perhaps five neras later that we found the source of that ear-splitting crack. We stood at the edge of a wide crevice, perhaps two threx lengths across, that extended, barring our path, endless in both directions. The threx sidled back from the abyss, from which steam hissed, blowing toward us on the west wind. "This was not here the last time I came this way," Sereth said needlessly, dismounting and squatting uncomfortably close to the edge. He picked up a fist-sized rock and tossed it into the maw that had opened in the ground. Beside him, I waited to hear it land, but no sound came out of the crevice. "Would you chance it?" he asked me. "It will take us a set to retrace our path and come up again from the south." "Let it be your decision." He squinted at the far side, where a luckless tree dangled by its scrawny roots, top downward, over endless descent. The mist curled around its tortured limbs, and the smell of rock dust and warm earth belly was acrid in my nostrils. "We will try it," he said finally. He went to Wirin and began loosening the straps that bound Tyith's body, gamy now from so long in the brist pelt. Taking a deep breath, I went to help him. When we had it free, the Slayer picked the corpse up in his arms and carried it to the abyss, where he let it fall. Again I listened for the sound of the weight striking bottom, and again I heard nothing. So much for the words we might have said at the Falls of Santha. We checked our gear, and, sure that no girth would give at a critical moment, led the threx well back from the yawning split. Sereth stripped Wirin totally, while the steel threx stood, eyes rolling. We left the harness on the ground, not wanting to burden Krist further. Sereth, mounted, trotted Krist another few lengths back from the crevice, turned him, and launched the black threx at full speed toward it. Almost at its edge, when Krist should have bunched for the jump, the black slid down on his haunches, shying right, foam flying in gobs from his mouth. Again Sereth tried him, and again the threx refused. The Slayer, angry and tense, walked him a third time back from the crevice. He dismounted and took one of the discarded sword belts from the ground, and stood with it in his hand as he spoke reassuringly to the agitated animal. On the third try, at a dead run, goaded by the strap stinging his rump, the black launched himself, stones flying, across the gap. It seemed that they hovered there unreasonably long, over beckoning eternity, and then Krist's front hooves were on the far side. He scrambled for footing, his rear feet pounding the air, and he was over, on his knees, safe on solid ground. Sereth vaulted from his back, taking his head, urging him up. Heaving, the black got his feet under him and stood, legs spread, his huge head pressed against Sereth's chest, his whole body slick with froth and sweat. Issa turned her head and rubbed it against my knee.. I walked her slowly, farther back than Sereth had gone for a start on the leap, and turned her. I was frozen with fear, facing the crevice with the trembling threx under me. For some time I sat her there, stroking her neck, until her trembling ceased. Taking a deep breath, I dug both heels into her side and leaned low on her, against the bristles of her neck, my weight on her forequarters as we sped toward our fate. My eyes were on Sereth, safe on the other side, waiting. I thought she would refuse it, as we pounded close to the edge, but she bunched under me and leaped with such force that I had all I could do to stay steady on her withers. My head pressed to her neck, I could see with clarity the mist and steam below us. My heart sank with Issa's bulk, and my stomach rose in my throat as we passed the apex of our arc. I thought us far too short, but her front legs hit the ground and her rear the half-rooted tree, and she lunged, scrabbling, her belly scraping the edge, the tree under her rear feet cracking beneath her weight. Her left rear gained solid footing just as the tree, ripped away from the edge by her struggles, plunged into the gap. I was off her, pulling at her head, without knowing how I had gotten there. Her knees were cut and bleeding, but she had made the jump. I stroked her where she lay, sucking wind and trembling, until I had my own legs under control. Then, Sereth at her other side, we urged her to her feet. The threx would not put her left rear on the ground, but held it gingerly high. Sereth; kneeling beside the injured foot, cursed softly. Her pastern was ripped open to the tendon, the blood flowing down her tri-part hoof and puddling on the rocky ground. I cut from my tas jerkin two long strips and got the salve Celendra had given me in Arlet from my belt. Sereth held Issa's head still while I spread the yellow gel thick over the cut and bound it. The threx almost jerked Sereth off his feet in her attempts to rip the foreign object from her leg, but he managed to hold her. When I took her head, he went to the edge of the crevice and picked up two good-sized rocks. Wirin, on the other side, his nose high in the air, snorted and paced back and forth along the abyss. "Wirin, home! Go home!" he shouted, throwing the rocks for emphasis. Both hit the ground short of the steel-gray threx, who snorted and backed uncertainly away. ."Go on! Home!" Trumpeting, pawing the ground, Wirin regarded us. Then, with a final shake of his head, he turned tail and loped away. "Do you think he will?" I said to Sereth's back, watching the retreating threx. Sereth shrugged and turned from the crevice, going to Krist, who was sniffing Issa's bandaged leg. "No matter. He will survive in the mountains, surely, if he does not choose to return to the farm. I caught him, perhaps eighty neras from here, the year Tyith was born. His mother, whom I was hunting, was dead when I found them. He was born in this range, still suckling when I took him." I was surprised. There are few threx herds left in the mountains. They are too tempting a prize, too valuable. I wondered if Wirin would go t6 the farm, or become another loss I had caused Sereth of Arlet. We led them, Issa hobbling, snorting every time she tried her left rear with her weight, until dusk came upon us. I had said nothing, but was desperate to reach shelter before night. We could make little time with injured threx, but we had no choice. I looked up into the darkening sky. "Will we make it to the cave by dark?" I asked him, trying to hide my agitation. "Must we?" "It would be wise." Sereth, his eyes turned to Issa, quickened the pace. The threx struggled to keep it. Dark was falling fast around us. I found myself sweating, grinding my teeth together so hard my jaws ached. As the first star appeared, uncannily bright in the thin air, we began to climb from the shelf up the slope. I heard, high above me, a rustling as if of many wings as the night came to life around us. "Almost there," said Sereth, as the first ebvrasea, shrieking, dived at us out of the gloom. Krist trumpeted before me, but I could not see him. Wings brushed my head, and the wind from their passage was a fierce gust. I hurried Issa up the rocky incline, the ebvrasea all around me. Beaks ripped at my clothing, my hair. I tried, with my knife, to fend them off. I heard Issa squeal in pain as I collided with rock in front of me. "Here," said Sereth, the voice coming from my right, mixed with the snap of wings and the unmistakable kill cry of the mountain ebvrasea. The great beaks tore at me, and I lost Issa and sank to the ground, protecting my face with my arms. Claws dug into my back, and I screamed and felt Sereth's hand on me, heard the sing of his sword and the thunk as it bit into feathered flesh. Somehow, he dragged me, still holding Issa's reins, by the waist along the ground into the cave. I heard the angry cries of the ebvrasea, whose twice-man-length wingspread would not allow them access. There must have been a great number of them, by the wind sound and the numberless screechings. Ebvrasea never hunt in flocks. Crumpled where Sereth had dropped me against the cave wall, I felt the blood trickle down my back, down my arm, across my side. There had been no pain when I was struck by beaks and raked by claws, but now my wounds burned unbearably. I heard Sereth moving around. I tried to rise, to see Issa. My legs and arms did not obey me. The last thing I remember, before unconsciousness took me, was silence, as if the birds, as a group, had given us up as a bad job. VII. Beneath the Falls of Santha I woke to the smell of roasting ebvrasea, from a dream of cowled, beaked beasts who sat in judgment upon me in a crystal palace before an audience of shapeless, glowing forms, just as sentence was about to be passed. The daylight streamed in the open cave mouth, and from where I lay I could see the remains of what must have been a night-long battle. At least a score of the huge carcasses littered the ground directly before the cave. Several were dressed and plucked inside. Sereth had his back to me as he squatted tending the ebvrasea he turned on a spit. As I looked around me, wondering where he had gotten the wood, I realized that this cave was well-used. There were stacked kindling and water-skins against the rear wall. I tried to sit up, but fell back, dizzy, on my stomach. My back and left shoulder throbbed in their tas bandages, my arm in front of me bore a deep open slash the length of my hand, white and swollen at the edges, angry red in the middle. It had truly happened, then; the solitary predators of the mountains had gone against their nature and attacked us. I shivered and tried to rise again. I had not the strength. I cursed the cowled one, and envied his skill. I could see Issa and Krist, heads on each other's rumps, dozing to my left. Issa had a badly gashed shoulder, but she stood squarely on her injured rear foot. Sereth rose from the fire and came and knelt beside me. I put my hand out to him and smiled my best, and I saw his face relax. "Lie still," he said, and he loosened the bandage and removed it from my back. I moaned when he pulled the clotted leather, stuck fast to my flesh, away from the wound and redressed it. "Do I need a bandage?" I managed. "Not if you remember not to roll on it. I wanted to keep it clean." I felt the cooling yellow salve ease the throb. "Can you sit? You should eat. You lost a good deal of blood." He eased me up, and I crossed my legs under me and leaned against him until the sight returned to my eyes and the dizziness faded. He brought me a steaming, black-crisped ebvrasea slice, and watched while I ate it. "You had me worried, but I should have known better," he said, getting me another chunk of the dark meat, and sitting beside me then with a leg for himself. It was a huge leg, from that mighty beast, the size of my own arm. When my stomach would hold no more, I put the meat aside and leaned against his shoulder. My muscles trembled uncontrollably, and my eyelids seemed to have a mind of their own. "Do you think they will return?" he asked me, his eyes on the sky. "I doubt it. He has yet to try the same stroke twice." The Slayer squinted into the sun. I could see the muscles twitch in his jaw. "You know, I did not truly believe you until last, night. Now I do not know what to do. I would take you back to Arlet, and forget this thing. You are out of your depth, and I even more so. I cannot fight this spirit, and the whole of nature, which it seems to command. Let it go, Estri. No man is worth this." It must have cost him to admit his fear, and his willingness to give up. No man is worth this, he had said. He, then, held the same attitude as Dellin, that I searched for a man to get me with child, more than release from the chaldra of the mother. I wondered what else Dellin had told him. But what he said gave me cause to reflect. If this man found himself unnerved by what had happened, he who lived forever on the edge of the abyss, who was I to insist that we proceed? But I was as loath to face the crevice and the long arduous trek to Arlet as the unknown ahead. And might not the cowled one, seeing us routed, redouble his efforts? I thought so. As long as I proceeded on my father's business, I had some little protection. If I turned back, perhaps the cowled being would be satisfied, perhaps not. "If we turn back now, he will surely kill us," I said slowly. "Is it a he?" "I think so. And I think I know the rules of this game. But I cannot be sure. If we wait here a day, and nothing more happens, will you trust me and go on?" "Even if something does happen, and you still want it, I will take you. I said I would. I will not go back on my word. But I do not like it." I could feel him tense, but he did not draw away from me. "Sereth, let me sleep. I will think on what you have said." "Sleep sitting up, then. I do not want you rolling that wound in the dirt." So I did, fitfully, waking often, through that whole day, and then deeply through the night. In the early morning, when I woke, Sereth was not in the cave. Neither was Issa. Krist dozed contentedly, leaning against the cave wall. I felt reasonably healthy; the salve had done its work on my arm. There was only a tiny dark line where the nasty gash had been. My back, when I rose and stretched, did not pain me. I picked up a quarter-full waterskin and drained it, and was starting toward the kindling when I heard Issa enter the cave. She was saddled, walking easily on her feet. Sereth led her, and from the look on his face I could tell that the threx's condition pleased him. He dropped her reins near the opening, and she sniffed hungrily at the carcasses piled there. The Slayer picked up one plucked winged corpse and lugged its considerable weight to Krist, where the black stood dozing. Slapping the threx resoundingly on the neck, he dropped the bloodied bird in front of him. Issa followed of her own accord, sniffing. The two fell to their feed with relish. Although we had plenty of wood, Sereth hacked cooked meat off the previous evening's meal and handed some to me. I ate it greedily, with my fingers, licking the grease from them hungrily. He threw me the knife he had used, and I went and cut another. "Your back looks fine." He was leaning over me as I squatted above the bird. "You heal quickly." "It is Celendra's salve that heals quickly." "Do you not have it in Astria?" "I had not needed it in Astria. I suppose we must." "It is from the caocu root." "Then we certainly have it." I could hear his unasked question. ''There has been no further trouble? While I slept, were you bothered?" "Nothing untoward," he admitted. "Then we will try it?" "If it is your wish." "But you think me foolish." I turned, still on my knees, and looked up at him. "I think you overly determined. But we will try it." He put his hand on my face, tracing the line of my cheek with a callused finger. The look he gave me spoke for itself. Sometime later, near midday, we left the cave. Sereth of Arlet would not, at least, face the trail un-sated. Issa was sound under me, fresh and saucy from her rest. We made good speed that afternoon and slept in the open that evening without problem. On the morning of the third fourth, the day we had expected to reach the falls, we turned southeast and began descending. Trees became more common, though still small and scrubby, and often we had grassed ground under us instead of sheet rock. By that evening, we could hear the Falls of Santha roaring in the distance. The night was misted and cloudy, and the moon wore gauzy rings around her three-quarter-full girth. I woke near dawn, weeping, with no recollection of the reason for my tears. Sereth held me until I fell back to sleep, but we were both drawn and troubled in the morning. My dreams had proved too accurate to discount, and though neither of us mentioned it, we both held those tears to be an evil omen. As I got myself dressed in the tatters and strips of what had once been my tas jerkin, now bloodied and stiff and barely enough for breech and band, Krist let out an ear-shattering trumpet and skittered in his hobbles. Sereth shot me a look that said "Get ready," and went to calm him. I dived for my sword belt and knife and was just buckling them around me when Santh ambled into the clearing, a tawny and obviously pregnant female a pace behind. "Santh," I called delightedly, running to embrace him, regardless of Sereth's drawn sword and the threx's agitation at being so close to their hereditary enemy. The Slayer, his hands full with the two plunging, rearing beasts, looked on in wonder as the giant hulion licked my face and arms and extended his head that I might scratch behind his ears. "Get them out of here, Estri. Now!" I looked up at Sereth, holding tight to Krist's headstall. The threx was wild-eyed and foam-flecked, his teeth snapping the air. "Where were you when I needed you?" I chided the hulion softly. He purred and followed me down an incline, his huge feet padding silent behind me. "Who is your lady friend?" I asked him, when we were some distance from Sereth and the threx, but he only licked his tawny mate with his huge red tongue. His golden eyes glowed with pride. I spent a long time with the hulion, petting and scratching, and getting acquainted with the sand-colored mother-to-be, and would have stayed longer, but Sereth called down an ultimatum: Leave now, or turn back. I made the quickest farewell I could, and turned to leave. Santh bounded in front of me, blocking my path. "Not you, too," I said to him. His tail lashed angrily. "I must do this thing, and I will be back to see your babies," I bargained. The hulion growled but did not move out of the way. I sighed and put my hands on his head, one each in front of his ears, where the hair grows thin and swirls, and we considered each other's feelings for a time. Eventually, not convinced, snuffling, the great beast, with a snap of his mighty wings, let me pass. It disturbed his sense of lightness, I knew, and he was concerned. His nonverbal thought pattern was clearer than words could ever be, and more frightening. Santh had said me a farewell full of finality, and his sense of loss was so strong that I was much shaken when I climbed out of the depression to Sereth and the threx. "If you could summon hulions, you should have done it when the ebvrasea attacked us," Sereth observed. His tone was cold and his eyes distrustful, as if I had somehow betrayed him. "It is only that hulion that I can summon, and only sometimes, when he chooses. I did not summon him. He happened upon us. As it was with you and Wirin, so was it with Santh and M’lennin. The First gave him to me as a couch-gift long ago. But one cannot own such a creature." My voice sounded sharp and weary. "He thinks we will never see each other again." "I was not aware that hulions thought at all," he said, jerking tight Krist's girth, so that the threx started in surprise. "I have had more than enough of this whole business, preternatural, supernatural, and downright unnatural. Let us get it over with." "Why are you so angry?" He turned from the threx and faced me, one hand on his hilt, the other on the threx's headstall. "I do not know. Perhaps it is because of Tyith, perhaps Issa, perhaps Wirin, perhaps the cowled one, or Dellin, or the trouble you caused me with the Day-Keepers. Perhaps it is because I think, as does your winged friend, that we will never see each other again, or even because if that is so, and you do find your way alone from Santha, I will have trouble convincing the Day-Keepers and Dellin that I have properly discharged my duty, that you are not dead somewhere on the trail. Perhaps it is only that . . . that I will have trouble collecting my money." He grinned without humor. "I have a choice of reasons. Any one will do. Now, let us go." Arid he swung up into Krist's saddle. Well-chastised, I went to Issa and mounted, loping her to catch up with him. I had left myself wide open, and I could not blame him for taking the opportunity. But I had never expected him to consider our imminent parting as one of his reasons. We rode abreast at a gentle, ground-eating lope. From the corner of my eye I watched him, slouched effortlessly in his saddle, his body moving with Krist, one with his mount. The roaring of the falls drowned out the hoofbeats. We topped a rise, and I saw it. The height of fifteen men, rainbow-crowned and mist-robed, the white water pounded, plunging to the rocks below, rising there in perpetual rain before it submitted to the call of the Litess and started its journey to the sea. Out of solid rock it roared, from some underground source never determined. Sereth signaled me to follow behind, and Krist picked his way down the slope between the boulders, scattered at random as if by some giant hand, that littered our path. It took us as long to negotiate those scant two neras as it would have forty on level ground. We left the threx, unharnessed, at the foot of the falls themselves and began to climb the rocks up the western side. I was soaked within minutes, as wet as the slippery boulders we scaled, slowly, carefully, inching our way along. Speech was out of the question, so loudly did Santha roar around us. I followed in Sereth's footsteps-until there was nothing in the world but slick wet rock and the Slayer's agile form in front of me. After what seemed like days, he veered away from fallside and slithered down into a crevice in the rock, mercifully dry. I lowered myself gingerly after him, hanging by my hands until I felt him take hold of my waist. He set me on the ground beside him, where the roar of the falls was much diminished. I looked about me. We were in a strangely regular passage hewn out of solid rock, and that rock glowed with a green luminescence. Taking my hand, Sereth led me deep into the stone corridor, past many turnings. Once he stopped and fingered a section high on the wall, where two passages intersected with the one we were following, and then took the middle one. The deeper we went within the mountain, the quieter it became. Soon I could hear nothing but the sounds of our footfalls on the rock floor. The eerie green light steadily brightened, and I could see the thick layer of dust on the passage floor eddying and puffing with our steps. It filled my mouth and nose, and my eyes stung and watered. I pushed back my matted hair from my face with my free hand, feeling the painful twisted clots of it stiff and scratchy against my skin. We reached another intersection, and Sereth again reached high on the right-hand wall. "These chips cost me a good steel sword," he said, taking my hand, that I might feel the blazes he had made. By standing on my toes I could just reach them with my fingertips. I felt three parallel gouges, shallow but easily read against the slick, smooth-surfaced rock. "Three for straight. Two for left. One for right. If you and I truly part company here, you would do well to go by them. One could be long lost in this, maze." His voice sounded dull, without inflection, as if the walls would suck up the intruding noise. "One more turning," he continued, "and we are there." He took my left hand in his right. I gripped it tightly and tried to follow, but my legs would not obey me. My teeth chattered and my skin crawled. When he had spoken, I had gotten nothing from him but the sound of his voice. And I knew. There was no draw-feel to the time, none of that vague excitement that had been with me the whole of my life. I had, somehow, in this underground labyrinth, entered into the circle of crux. And I could sense nothing. Sereth pulled at my arm, but it happened far from me. It was as if I had suddenly gone blind. All the tiny bits of direct information my skills provided me were gone. I could sort no probabilities, for there were none. From this point in time, dependent upon what occurred, a whole new set of alternatives would be born. And I could not weigh them, nor hedge my bet. Terrified, I begged him to hold me. He did so. "Tighter," I whispered. "Tighter still," as if the pain as he crushed me to him would somehow anchor me to life. "Any tighter and your ribs will crack," he said, his head against my neck. "Surely you are not so deep in your need that you must have it now, here, in this place," he said, misreading my trembling. "No," I moaned, my head against his chest. "Just hold me. Please." He did, and I searched within me for that inner strength that had always in the past come to aid me. When I found it, weak and shrunken, I went about driving the debilitating fear from my mind. When that was done, and my body's reaction calmed, I raised my lips to his and kissed him, long and hard. In that kiss were all the thanks and affection I was too proud to speak, and he too much a Slayer to hear. He pulled back from me, tossing his head. A smile touched the corners of his mouth. The green glow on his scarred face distorted his features, caused his skin to take on a darker hue. His hands on my shoulders, he looked down into my face. "None would blame you if you left here with me." His tone was gentle. "You have given this chaldra of the mother more than any mother has a right to ask." "It is too late," I heard myself say, and he blew his breath through clenched teeth and took my hand in his, and we walked down the corridor until it ended, and took the final turning to the right. He was standing there in the eerie green glow, all cowled and pulsing bronze and massive, barring our path. Beyond him I could see the passage open into a huge cavern. But I could not move. "Go back," the cowled one commanded. "Go back and await him. He will come to you in Arlet when the time is right." Out of the corner of my eye I could see Sereth, still as stone, frozen in mid-stride. I struggled for my voice and found it. I would speak! My tongue felt huge and swollen in my dry mouth. "If such were true, you would have saved us all much trouble, and told me before. Nothing but evil has come from you in the past. I am not such a fool as to believe you. Get from my path. Cease to obstruct me. By my father's will, I command you." "Would you pay your passage with yet another life?" He raised his hand toward Sereth, and the Slayer fell to his hands and knees, then crumpled to the ground. By my peripheral vision, I watched him fall, for I could not turn my head. I thought of the Baniese trader, and that horrible death he had died. My stomach churned. "I would bargain his life to you, child of Estrazi. Turn from this path, and he is yours." The voice was full of sibilances that scraped my spine. "No!" I said. I thought it too late. "You will not trick me. And you will not stop me." I tried to see the face within the shadowed cowl. I could not. "There are already enough of the children gathered. You are not needed," he said, voice slick and oily, and the image before me pulsed and wavered. "But go. I have done my best to stop you. You will wish, very soon, that you had listened. I will give you his life. In exchange, you will serve me equal value when we meet again." It was a thread of hope I was eager to grasp. I wanted no more death on my account. Sereth's loss was a gaping hole within me. I could have him back; the price seemed little enough. The cowled one waved his hand, and the force that had held me prisoner was gone so abruptly that I staggered and stumbled as the impetus of my interrupted stride carried me forward. I went to my knees by Sereth, not daring to believe, but desperate with hope. His head was turned from me. I remember the feel of his silky, thick brown hair under my anxious hands as I turned his head toward me. His face was peaceful and composed, as if in sleep. My hands at his temples, I could feel, clear and distinct, the blood pounding there. He lived! But the Baniese had lived awhile, cut off from all sensory reality. I could see his eyeballs moving, as in dream state, under closed lids. With difficulty I turned him over. Finally, I sat quietly beside him, watching the slow rise and fall of his chest, where he lay on his back. He was covered with the dust of the passage floor. The cowled one was gone when I first had the wit to look about for him. I cared not. He had won. I could not leave Sereth, alive and unconscious, alone in the passage under Santha. The bargain, the offer of life, had been but a final gloating goad. What semblance of life was this? I stared at him a long time, wondering how I could have gone so wrong. I had seen his timeline fold back upon itself and branch. My constricted, dust-filled throat burned and ached. I lay my head on his chest and wept quietly. I doubted my ability to drag that large, powerful man back along the passage, up out pf the crevice, down the fallside jumble of rocks to where the threx grazed, waiting. Sereth groaned, and his arm went about me. I cried his name. His eyes opened and focused. I was limp with relief. "Let me sit up." Slowly he struggled to a sitting position, crossing his legs under him, hesitantly, as if relearning their control. He swayed, and I put my arm about his shoulders to steady him, but he shook me off, supporting himself with stiffened arms, his head bowed low. "Dizzy," he mumbled, one hand to his eyes. He sat quietly, breathing deep, a long while. "Your friend has a heavy stroke," he said finally, raising his eyes to my face. It was as if he would smile but had forgotten how. "I thought I had lost you," I said. "You lost me long ago, Estri. Nor would you have had it otherwise." "Did it hurt?" "No. Just nothing. Floating nothing. My mind still quivers. It is a very lonely place, where he sent me." I knelt before him in the dust of the corridor. I wondered if he knew how he had regained his life. "What think you of what he said?" I asked. "I heard none of it." I could see his body steadying under him. He needed no longer the support of his stiffened arms to keep him erect. I had very little time. I leaned forward and kissed him gently, then rose to my feet. I was glad he had no remembrance of my meeting with the cowled one, of the bargain I had made. "Estri, wait." But I was already in that chamber I had given so much to reach. I looked back and saw him leaning unsteadily against the passage wall, watching me. I could not wait until he was fully recovered. The great cavern was not natural in its form. It was smooth and regular, as had been the passages, and brightly green-lit. The floor was unseamed, though the expanse of it was as great as Arlet's Inner Well. In the center, I saw what I had sought so long. It sat waiting, twice my body's length, the height of my knee. It was black, of the same material as my father's ring. I knelt before it. Emblazoned upon the side of the oblong platform, magnified perhaps a thousand times, so that it covered the whole middle of the longitudinal side, was the pattern that the ring bore, fashioned just the same, from scintillating inset stones. But these stones were not white, save for one, but every shade imaginable. A fortune beyond comprehension glittered here in the green-lit cavern below the Falls of Santha. The bloodred stone in the upper-right-hand arm of the spiral was the size of my fist. I ran my dust-covered hand over it. There was no doubt in my mind as to what to do. I got to my feet and regarded the couch-sized upper side. There were two sets of gleaming golden rungs recessed deep in the black stone, perhaps one-fifth distance from either end. I lay belly-down between them, hooking my feet under one pair of rungs, my fingers around the other. My hair obscured my sight. The stone was warm against my belly, my legs, my arms. I heard Sereth's voice dimly. Then I heard a great rushing, and my consciousness blew apart screaming, every molecule straining to retain its relationship to its fellows. And we were lost, all. the billions of fragments of me, among polarized entities of undulating colored light, each atom distinct, forming great serpents who wound the centers of the gravity circuits that join all matter, synchronism preexisting. Pulling reality constantly within, ever devouring the now, they whirled and spun in nontime. Then I lay on my stomach with the warmth of the black stone once again against my flesh. I exhaled the breath I had drawn on Silistra into an alien air. I lay for a while with my eyes closed, savoring my body, once again whole. The air in my nostrils was thick and syrupy, full of almost-tastes and nameless smells. It was rich and intoxicating, and brought to me a sense of fullness. I had, in a few breaths, had enough of it. Its heaviness sickened. But there was nothing else to breathe. It was uncomfortably warm. Perspiration trickled down between my breasts. I loosened my fingers from their aching grip upon the golden rungs and rolled fast to my back, as one dives into mysterious waters. I sucked in another breath involuntarily as the reality of the place crashed in upon me. I was in a small crystal chamber. Through the walls I could see another chamber, and another, and another. In each was a similar platform. Far down the prismatic row, I could see shapes moving among the crystals. Above me I could see the sky. It was a blue sky, where it was not green or gray or white or gold or black or red. The cubes of storm became summer's day, became twilight, and morn and snow's fall, and lightning flash. It melted and reformed before me, ever-changing, but each segment distinctly enclosed by some invisible geometric barrier. My eyes ached from it. I turned my head to the left, expecting to see again only the ever-receding crystalline partitions. I saw, instead, two lithe and yet powerful bronze figures. My peripheral vision had not warned me. They had not been there before. One was a female. She was molten, brazen perfection, that reality of. which I was only a shadow. Her companion was a head taller, and twice her girth, as perfectly formed and primally male as she was female, and a shade of hair and eye darker. He had a haughty, angular face, with high forehead and prominent brows. It was not the face of my father. Otherwise they might have been brothers. I thought to rise to greet them, but the female put forth her hand, and I was paralyzed. She came forward, her face infinite compassion, and leaned over me where I lay helpless. In her hand was a band of metal on which were glyphs unfamiliar to me, and this she snapped closed around my neck. It was a tight fit; I could feel the restraining snugness when I swallowed. The metal was cold and unyielding. I tried to speak, and the woman brought her lips close to mine and kissed me. Then her cool hand was on my brow, and sleep rushed upon me, and I saw nothing. VIII. My Father's Daughter's Brother I leaned back against the crystal-clear wall of my prison and tried to comb the snarls from my hair with my fingers. It was very difficult work, painful, frustrating. When I had regained consciousness, I had been alone in the crystal cube, under that alien jumble of tiny chunks of sky. I had felt every reachable inch of my prison in the hysteria that followed my reawakening. There was no seam or joint in the cube's construction. It had no door. It adjoined the other crystal cubes on the bottom, and the two sides parallel with the long end of the platform. Above us was the sky. I had tried to determine the number of cubes, and the height to which we were stacked, but I could not tell it. There were more than four cubes under me, or just that number. Between the cubes were white walkways, on the side parallel with the short end of the platform, and these made perspective impossible. Eventually I had given up trying to determine my surroundings. I was on an unknown world, held by an unknown race, for an unknown reason. That I should be so desperately concerned with ascertaining the exact nature of my prison seemed finally ludicrous. I do not know what I expected to find on the other side of the black platform on Silistra. I think I expected my father to greet me like some treasured, long-lost love, and escort me through a land of storybook marvels. I had not expected, certainly, to be stripped and imprisoned by strangers without so much as the courtesy to inquire as to my reason for being here. Disgusted, I ripped the snarl out in a clump and straightened up. My shoulders were sore from too long spent tensed in one position. I stared again at the walls that bound me in. Only one cube directly adjoining held an occupant, and this was the cube I had arbitrarily dubbed north. In it was a black couch or platform, with no identifying device— identical, as far as I could see, to mine. Recessed into the north wall was an oblong about the height of the lower part of my body, but an arm's length off the floor. Set beneath this box, sunken into the clear floor, were what could only have been, as in my cube, a bowl and plate. Within the clear oblong box, the length of my lower body, an arm's length wide, and that high off the ground, writhed an unpleasant-looking, thick, roiling brown mass. Half between gas and liquid, it was ever in motion, and tiny sparks of colored light chased each other sporadically across the restless surface. I was glad it was enclosed. I had tried to remember the details of my awakening on the platform when the bronze man and woman found me. I wanted to know if this was indeed the cube into which I had arrived, or another. I did not remember the brown-filled container, and likewise I did not remember the dark-brown Hertekiean-looking man who inhabited the cage adjoining north. My hands went to my neck. I tried, once again, to get my fingers under the metal band that encircled my throat. But I could not ease the unyielding-pressure. It fit so snugly I found it uncomfortable, irritating. I ran blind fingertips over the alien engraved script, as I had a hundred times since my awakening. The glyphs did not give up their message. I wondered what information was written there. And why. I had not had anything to eat. There had been no food presented me. I thought I had been up perhaps eight bells, for my stomach rumbled angrily. The sky was all times, nonsequentially. Some of it was always any time of day or night one could choose. I would have to see whether or not a pattern emerged in the sky's movements. The level of light had so far stayed the same. There was no glare, nor shadow, nor bright or dim. It was actually very good light, but unnerving. If there was no pattern in the sky, I would have to rely upon my internal clock. I had seen the dark man, who seemed very bronzed for a Hertekiean, go to his plate and bowl under the brown mass and proceed to eat and drink. I had gone to my bowl, hungrily, thinking it was feeding time, but no food or drink had appeared. Across the walkways I could see others, in their cubes. Behind them, on the eastern side, a volcano belched and fumed. On the western side, a great ice floe dipped and rose. To the north and south, I could see nothing but the top row of the seemingly endless stacked cubes. I remembered the dream I had had in the hover the day Dellin and I had left the Liaison First's for Arlet; that dream of time-space jammed together in a checkerboard land where an expanse of winter laid half-atop a chunk of primal sea, bubbling over an unseen edge into a volcano vomiting fire and ash onto a plain fluid with waving grain. This was surely that place. I recollected that in that dream I had seen a huge bronze figure, and that figure had worn my father's ring. I had thought the dream allegorical. I now knew better. But my father's ring was still safe, bound to my waist by my eighteen-strand chald. When I saw the Hertekiean again rise and go to. his box of brown swirl, I rose myself and went and pressed my body against the wall we shared in common. He took up his bowl and plate, and I motioned him to me. He came up to the wall, and I could see the steam rising from the large chunk of black seared meat, running with bloody juice, upon his plate. My mouth watered. I pointed to my open mouth, then my stomach, rubbing it, then his plate. Then I shrugged and opened my arms wide. I hoped my signing made sense to him. The dark eyes followed me, his brow furrowed. He pointed to my bowl and plate. I shrugged again. My dark neighbor put down his plate and bowl. He pointed to his temple, then to the brown roiling mass enclosed in the clear oblong, then to his plate. I shook my head. The Hertekiean tossed his tangled mane of waist-length hair and folded himself into a cross-legged sitting position, facing me. I pressed my face against the partition that separated us and spoke to him slowly in Standard, then Hertekiean. He put his hand to his ear, then signed no. He could not hear me. His eyes met mine for a moment; then he dropped his gaze and picked up his plate. He took the chunk of meat, with its delicate pink-red center, and tore at it with teeth and fingers. The bloody juice ran down his chin and arms. He pointed once again to the brown oblong within my cube. I went to it, turning my back to him. I could not bear to watch him eat. I squatted before my bowl and plate. Nothing appeared upon the plate, nothing within the bowl. My mouth watered uncontrollably, and every time I swallowed I was reminded of the unpleasantly tight band around my neck. I felt of the band again, and again failed to find lock or seam, clasp or closure. My stomach seemed intent upon devouring itself in lieu of food. The thick air, with its strange odors, only aggravated my hunger. I could feel rivulets of sweat running down my back, over my buttocks. I put my head in my hands and fought the hysteria rising in me. Eventually the call of my hunger and the trembling of my limbs faded. Hopefully, my captors would, at their leisure, provide me food. I ran my hands once again over the oblong container that held the brown mass, then about the floor around the recessed bowl and cup. There was no way I could find to precipitate a meal—no button, no lever, no dial or bar to be turned or pressed. I sighed and rose. Through the floor I could see below me the white-blond head of the female occupant of the cube beneath. She, also, had fed. I did a full dhara-san routine, the first I had done since arriving long ago in Arlet. My body was stiff and angry with neglect. The contortions and twists and stretches of physical discipline calmed my mind and restored my equilibrium. I stood on my head and counted two thousand, and when I came down, soaked with sweat, I lay for a time looking up at the sky, letting my mind roam at will. I thought long of Silistra. I wondered with much concern about Sereth—if he would make it safely to Arlet, if he would acquire the coin girl who nurtured Tyith's child, his grandson. Dellin, I was sure, would not be easily convinced that the Slayer had properly discharged his commission. The Day-Keepers, also, would be little pleased. I hoped that those farsighted ones, with their insightful awareness, would be easy on the Slayer. Although, in my service, he had acted often in ways unacceptable by tradition, he had had little choice. If the Day-Keepers were aware, by their devious methods, that he had left chalded corpses on the road to Santha, without any attempt to ascertain their identity or take up their chalds, his very livelihood, his position among the Slayers, would be in jeopardy. Though he and I knew he had done no wrong, given the circumstances and the pressures upon us, none not cognizant of the situation would agree. And I was not there to uphold him. It was at that moment I conceived this accounting, that I might testify on his behalf, though I was worlds away. How I expected to get my writing to those I would inform was not clear to me. Now that I am almost finished, it is still unclear. I sat up in time to see the Hertekiean relieving himself in the southwest corner of his cube. I followed suit, finding by example the area of my own prison designed for that purpose. My water drained into the floor through some method I could not ap- prehend, since that area, as the rest of the cube floor, seemed solid to the touch. But I was much relaxed when I had finished. My mind returned to Silistra like metal to a magnet. I wondered whether Dellin would risk his relationship with Sereth and let his loss show. The Liaison Second's face was often in my mind in those first days, as was Sereth's, and those of the others who had been involved with my journey. Celendra would be much trouble to Sereth, who had lost, on my account, her only child. I did not envy him, though he was free and I a prisoner, for she would be formidable in her rage. I slept and awoke. Remembrance of my dream, one of a long luxurious shower, was so strong I could smell the water. My throat was parched and dry and my tongue furred in my mouth. I sat up and rubbed the sleep from my eyes. I got to my feet and walked listlessly to my bowl and plate. Water covered the floor of the whole northern end of the cube. I went to my knees before the bowl and plate and found them overflowing with blessed wetness. The water I had smelled upon awakening overflowed the bowl. I drank thirstily, kneeling in the puddle. Then I rolled my body around in it, rubbing the moisture over my skin, my hair, my face. Only when I had soaked myself, naked but in chald and collar, did J_ sit back and try to make sense out of what had happened. I saw my neighbor peering at me. He nodded his head encouragingly and rubbed his stomach. I had dreamed of water, of shower, of infinite wetness. Either my awareness of available water had precipitated the dream, or the dream the available water. I was inclined to think the latter. My stomach was swollen with air, gurgling loudly. The water had lubricated my thinking, as well as my parched innards. It had had a strange taste, metallic, gritty, but it had been water. I tried visualizing a thick parr steak. I saw it in my mind, charred black on the outside, barely warmed in the middle. Nothing happened. I opened my eyes and regarded the Hertekiean, squatting by our snared wall, staring at me intensely. He put his finger to his temple, pointed to the brown roiling mass above my plate and bowl, closed his eyes, squeezing them dramatically tight together, rubbing his stomach. It could mean no other thing. I sat myself a hand's breadth in front of the oblong brown mass and tried again. This time I brought to bear every scrap of information I had about parr steak. I tasted it. I felt the juice, hot and steamy, run down my throat. I conceived the texture of it, how many teeth would tear a bite from the larger chunk, what mastication of that bite involved, muscularly and tactilely. I went through chewing and swallowing motions with my throat and tongue, all the while seeing in my mind's eye with three-dimensional clarity that which I wanted to eat. Every time I swallowed, I was reminded of the metal collar around my neck. I envisioned as well as I could the molecular structure of the cooked pan;. My stomach cried out in desperation. I heard a soft thudding sound with my straining ears. Cautiously I opened my eyes. On the plate, within its recess, was a shapeless brown mass, gelatinous and oozing. It steamed and quivered there. It was not parr steak, by any means, but the smell that came to me on the steam convinced me it was food. As I leaned forward and took the plate upon my lap, I saw the Hertekiean, his arms raised wide above his head, applauding me in the fashion of his homeland. I stuck my finger into the oozing, unappetizing mass and put that finger in my mouth. It was not any food I had ever tasted, but it resembled, in its tang and saltiness, parr meat. I picked the plate up and devoured the gooey, warm, semi-solid mass. When I had licked the plate clean and with my fingers wiped every smear from my face, I carefully replaced the plate in its recess. So I began to learn to feed myself. I had said once to Dellin, long ago, that it was a wonder that I could do so. Now, such was truly the case. I worked long on my visualization of parr steak, and on the fourth try I had something that resembled, in taste and texture, that food. The Hertekiean had tried to sign me some obscure message, pointing to the brown mass and shaking his head, circling his hands and then lowering them slowly to the ground, but I was too concerned with the mechanics of feeding myself to pay him more than token attention. My second try at the parr had given me mediocre results, soft and claylike in texture. That I had thrown to the part of the cube where I had relieved myself, and it had been absorbed by that self-cleaning section of floor. The third I had partaken of briefly, also. Its color and texture were better, but the taste was not right. The fourth I enjoyed mightily, tearing at the firm-textured, juicy flesh. Then, my hunger sated, I sat myself on the black platform which served me as couch and considered my surroundings again, greatly cheered. At least I would not starve. From that greater distance I conceived my water. Evidently distance from the brown oblong made no difference. When I had filled my bowl with water that I had visualized from a clear bubbling brook, icy and cold, I went and tasted it. I nodded approvingly as the chill liquid spread inside me, pure and refreshing. If one could get a little water, I reasoned, conscious suddenly of my begrimed state, one could get a lot. I lay myself over the recessed depression that held bowl and plate and created for myself a sporadic lateral shower. First I managed to wet my body from above the waist; then I moved up and soaked my hips and legs. Finally I laid my head between bowl and plate and washed, soapless, the filth from my hair. The water ran dark a long time, with Silistran dirt and dust. I took up my position against the south wall and began combing my hair with my fingers. I smiled, for the first time since my arrival-—clean, and with a full stomach. My situation took on a different light. Doubtless this was some simple mistake, soon to be remedied by my father. Surely he would not allow me to be treated so. I felt a sudden superiority to my cube-mates. They would stay forever in this dismal place, while I, certainly, would be soon rescued by my father and treated regally, as befitted my station as daughter of one of the lords of this world. My former psychic blindness was beginning to lift: I could feel the timelines regrouping. Soon, I was sure, I would be able to see, to ascertain the probabilities inherent in this time, and guide my own among them. The Hertekiean was at our shared wall, trying to attract my attention. Poor thing. I wondered how long he had been here. I owed him something for trying to help me divine the function of the brown sludge within the oblong container. Perhaps when I was freed I would ask my father to release him. I got up and went and sat opposite him, the clear crystal wall a sound barrier between us. He kept shaking his head, pointing to my food box and his own. They were identical, as far as I could tell, save that his brown mass seemed a few shades lighter, and the texture not so dense; I signed my puzzlement. He again brought his hands slowly down until they rested on the floor. Then he raised them above his head, fingers wiggling, and brought them down, splayed, to the floor. I wondered what he was trying to say. After a time, disgusted, I went to my black couch and lay with my back to him. I had much better things to do than watch him sign. I would have read him, but for some reason I was not able. I wondered if the crystal was barrier to thought and emotion as well as sound. I could not, though I tried and tried, make connection mentally with any of my cube-mates. Nor could I sense any mind anywhere. I decided that it must be that the substance in which I was enclosed acted as a damper, for all my other psychic functions had returned to me, although they were of little use in this altered reality. I cannot say how much time passed before I slept, for I spent much of it within, trying to integrate my ego with my situation and those strengthened skills I felt within me. I seemed different in some subtle way and went deeper and deeper within, to attempt to assess that difference and familiarize myself with it. Yet I could find no specific area or understanding to which I had not had previous access. I was altered, but I knew not how. Upon awakening I conjured my food, drink, and shower, as I had done before. I worked hard at my dhara-san. It was painful, for I stretched muscles long ignored. Then I turned to what I now fondly regarded as my food box, and began experimenting. I created much food that I did not eat before I had managed a name fruit. When I had it, crisp and tart and red in my hand, I turned to materializing a starchy tun. I became absorbed and obsessed with the brown roiling mass that created at my bidding the desires of my mind. I settled into a routine of exercise and meditation, creation and thought, and I did not notice that the brown mass grew ever more tenuous, and the spark lights that had once chased each other in profusion fewer and fewer. When I had slept six times, it seemed to me that I was having more trouble than I had come to expect with the food production. I found myself straining harder and harder, and getting less satisfactory results. My parr was again claylike, my name soft and pulpy. I thought long on this. I had not had sign contact with the Hertekiean for three sleeps, since he had thrown up his hands disgustedly one morning when I emerged from under my makeshift shower, and turned his back. With this deteriorating of the level of my objective success, the well-being I had experienced began also to fade. Perhaps my father was dead, in truth, and I would stay here until I died, half-starved and surely insane from boredom. I found it difficult to keep my mind on any one subject; it jumped and rambled and would not respond to my demands for silence and concentration. On the eighth waking period, I could get little but unrecognizable white sludge from my food box, and the brown mass seemed absolutely tenuous. It was then that I went to the wall I shared with my dark neighbor, with the plate of unpalatable lumpy gruel in my hands. It was a long while before he noticed me and came to stand there. I signed my plight by pointing to the plate and my much-diminished stock of brown foodstuff. He nodded and pointed to his own. When I had first compared the two oblongs, mine had been the darker, the thicker. Now his was noticeably more solid, though I thought it less dense than it had been when I first saw it. He held up eight fingers, then pointed to where I had discarded my rejected efforts and let the floor absorb them. Then he gestured again, his hands high over his head, fingers wriggling, bringing them down over his body, then shaking them, as if to rid them of excess liquid. With a sinking stomach I realized what he had been trying to tell me all along. There was a finite amount of brown semiliquid provided, and I had squandered most of mine. It was my own stupidity that had brought this about. The dark man shrugged his shoulders and spread his hands wide. There was nothing he could do for me. He wandered to his black couch and lay down upon it. I regarded the brown semiliquid left in my oblong food box. The less dense the brown stuff, the more difficult it was to control. I thought of my daily showers, and groaned out loud. I wondered what would happen when the wispy remains of the brown stuff were gone. If my father had intended to come for me, certainly he would have done so by now. Disconsolately, I ate the unappetizing white gruel. I dared not try for a better meal. The stiffness from resumed daily dhara-san had faded, and I threw myself into the postures with all my strength. When I was done, I was physically exhausted, but my mental state was no better. I lay on my black hard couch and wept. My stomach cramped and my breasts felt exceptionally sensitive. My erect nipples burned when I touched them. When my hunger drove me again to seek to create a meal, my back pained me terribly, my intestines were constricted, and upon rising I became so dizzy that I staggered and would have fallen but for the wall of my prison against which I stumbled. I thought dimly, through a haze of pain, that I must have made some mistake in creating the white gruel. I dry-heaved on my hands and knees, but I had nothing to give up. When that was done, I crawled weakly back to the couch and dragged myself up upon it. I slept fitfully, and when I awakened, the couch was slick with blood. My thighs were covered with it, and it poured forth from me in a steady stream. Fear a cold knot in my aching belly, I examined my red-covered hand. The blood was fresh and new. I thought it ironic that my mistake with the food source had caused me to hemorrhage, and what a foolish reason that was to die, here on some nameless world so far from home. I prepared myself, as we of Silistra are taught, to let go the things of flesh and substance, to embrace that existence of mind that is after death. But death did not come for me as I lay waiting for it, but sleep instead. When I awoke, I found the bleeding somewhat abated, though still occurring. I had thought never to awaken, and I was not much pleased. My breasts no longer pained me, nor my intestines nor groin. I sat up cautiously and waited until the dizziness receded. There was much dried blood, dark and caked on my body. I realized, finally, what significance my bleeding bore. And I mourned. I mourned a long time that never-to-be born egg that had somehow made its way to my womb, only to languish and die there unfertilized. On Silistra, I must have produced it. When? I thought perhaps somewhere along the trail with Sereth. I remembered the time it could have been, when we came upon the crevice we had jumped with the threx. Not after that had Sereth put seed within me, but had used me otherwise. So I had my chance, and had not made use of it. I wondered, as I keened the child-death chant, if ever another egg would be granted me, ever in my life. Sometimes one has only a single opportunity. I prayed to the old gods, in my bereavement, that such would not be the case. I wondered how long I had truly been in my cube. Long enough for the egg to die and be expelled. Longer than I had reckoned it. Uncaring of my food supply, I filled my bowl with water and rubbed the blood from my hips and legs. Then again, and cleaned the rest of me as best I could. Having been denied my child, I cared not at that moment if-I lived. I made no attempt to produce food for myself, but lay where I was before the north wall and slept. When I next awoke, the bleeding was truly stopped, and I needed only half a bowl to clean the streaks and clots from my upper thighs. I had just finished doing this, and was about to drink the remainder, when a noise behind me made me turn. They were standing there, on the other side of the black platform, that spectacular bronze woman and man who had first met me with collar and kiss when I arrived. The man's haughty, angular face bore a suppressed smile; his eyes were calm and wise, glowing with internal fire. She beside him was symmetrical perfection, with round full breasts and generous hips. Her face was the most beautiful I had ever seen; her dark hair glowed with a life of its own. "Welcome to Mi'ysten, which you have called Zredori, little sister," said the woman in a voice musical in both ear and mind. She spoke to me in archaic Silistran, a Stoth dialect, and spoke it with no hint of accent or flaw. I got slowly to my feet and regarded them, the black platform between us. I was still deep in my grief, weaving on my feet, unsteady. The bronze man came around the couch and took me by the arm. His hand was cool on my skin, his flesh smooth. I looked at his hand on my arm, bronze on copper, at the perfection of its form, at the ring he wore on his middle finger, the ring that was identical to the one I wore threaded through the chald at my waist. "You are not he," I said, looking up into those flickering fire-eyes. My eyes were level with the nipples on his thick-haired chest. "No." He smiled and spoke for the first time. "I am not. I am Raet." But I knew who he was. I knew that voice, and the accompanying mind-touch. I was not mistaken. I struggled to pull my arm from his grasp, but it was as iron. I tried to claw his face, mindless with fear and rage, but he caught my hand. "Would you prefer that I bound you, or removed your body from your control?" he queried me calmly, holding me now by both wrists. I shook my head mutely. I was not willing to again experience the paralysis I had undergone by his will under the Falls of Santha. The woman was beside us, peering anxiously into my face. She touched my hair, then my brow, with her cool hand. I felt my hate and fear receding, replaced by a passive calm. I had no choice but to do as they bid. I felt, for the first time, an anxious desire to please them, these beings who held my life in their hands. "You have been long enough here, Estri," the woman said. "I would take you to my tridoe—-my keep-but you must behave like an intelligent, civilized being." She looked around at the cube that had been my home. "And yet . . ." She hesitated. "And yet, that may be too much to ask." She brought from nowhere a pair of metal bracelets, joined by a short length of chain, and a longer chain of the same whitish metal. The chain she clipped to the band around my neck, the bracelets she snapped shut upon my wrists, held by Raet in front of me. But I did not struggle. In the end, they would have their way with me. I had no defense, no escape. Leashed and braceleted, I was led through a door that opened magically before us, out of the cube and onto the white walkway. Raet held the leash attached to my collar loosely in his left hand, and the woman, still unnamed, she who had called me 'little sister," held my right arm. She was a head taller than I. I saw the Hertekiean, his face pressed to the wall of his cube, staring after us. If my hands were free, I would have waved him tasa. We walked along the white way, between the rows of cubes with their isolated occupants, under the shifting sky. My lost child was strong in my mind, and the question of who had precipitated the egg into my womb; and my body, long celibate, was burning, aware of the bronze Raet on my left. "I would have given you that child, there at the Feast of Conception, but your guardians were too close around you, and kept me from you." I threw up all my mind shields. I was humiliated that he had caught my errant body's need. "The Baniese!" I accused. He smiled. I tightened my block. "That will do you little good," he said. So his reading was such that my shield was useless. I let it drop. "And if you had succeeded, Raet?" said the woman. "She would have been triply admixed, and so disqualified from the tests. And you would have won. It must rankle you that you did not." I could feel her grip tighten on my arm. The wave of hostility that came from her toward the bronze Raet made my head spin. "Little sister"—the superb woman spoke to me— "your scores were the highest of any of the children. Our father, in his choice of your mother, was well-vindicated." "Our father?" I asked. The rest of what she said was too obscure. "Estrazi had me by Tyiana. I am Esyia, your half- sister. And Raet, whom you have evidently met, is also my mother's son." Then Astria had been right. , My father's daughter's brother had sought me. A strong wind buffeted me. We were coming to the end of the stacked cubes. The view between the stacks wrenched at my sanity. "What tests?" I asked her. She and Raet exchanged glances. "I think it makes little difference now," he said to her. "It is still not within our function to discuss it with her," she said. "You brought it up," he reminded her. As they wrangled, we came to a place where the stacked cubes abruptly ended. The panorama before me strained my cognizance of reality. From a central point, triangular spokes of terrain radiated. Lush forest, shimmering with mist, great barren steppe, ice waste, rolling sea. My body felt their pull. I was glad for the bronzes' grasp upon me. I was drawn like metal scraps to a strong magnet. "Now you know part of the reason for the collar you wear," Raet said in my ear. "These are departure points"—he waved his hand at the spectacle before us—"for experimental climes, tangential realities. Within these areas do we refine our prototypes, before seating them in space-time. Their sequentiality is greatly quickened, hence the pull you feel. The molecules of your body, linear-conditioned, feel it. If we were not with you, nor the collar you wear upon your neck, you would be drawn into the closest of them, probably that rainforest there, to live out your span triple-timed. Once you became so entrapped, it is doubtful even we could find you before dissolution overtook your body." I shivered. Vaguely, I apprehended what he was saying. I could not, alone, walk safely upon the face of this world. I began to realize just how far advanced the bronzes were. And with that realization, my assessment of myself and reality as I had known it began to crack and crumble. Esyia waved her hand, and a section of the white way rolled back, revealing steps descending steeply into darkness. We made our way down them, and onto a landing before which were double doors. The doors opened at our approach. We stepped within the cubicle so revealed, and my stomach came up in my throat as I felt the floor moving down under me. "We could have come a quicker way, but for you," Raet said. "Did you find your transition to Mi'ysten uncomfortable?" I shuddered in remembrance of the agony I had experienced on the black platform. I nodded. "You see, Esyia? There is a flaw in their basic structure that no amount of admixing or evolution will cure. They remain locked in space-time because it is impossible for them to function out of it. Even this one, doubtless the best of the lot, cannot make even such a simple adjustment. I submit to you that such deficiencies are irreparable." His tone said he had won some great, long-standing battle, using me as example. I felt a great unease, as if by my reaction I had put myself in danger. "Do not worry, little one." Esyia's hand was on my temple, and peace returned to me. "They will never be able to sway the assessors now, not with your performance taken into account." The doors slid soundlessly open, and I did not find out who "they" were, or what assessors she meant. The scene revealed by the open doors was unremarkable, and I breathed a sigh of relief. A long corridor stretched before us, white and solid, with doors at regular intervals down its length. The floor was of some rusty stonelike material, solid and warm under my bare feet. We made our way along it. "Where is my father?" I asked. "At the star nurseries," Raet explained, as if such an answer made it all clear. "He is at a critical stage in his shaping, and will return when he has his project stabilized. You will stay with us, your choice of Esyia's tridoe or mine, until he does. That is, unless you would return to the cubes." That was no choice at all. Raet's hand was on the small of my back. I tried to ignore my body, surging at his touch. I had much reason to hate him, but I could find no hate in me. My mind raged at my weakness, but my body would not listen. What he had said—that he would have given me a child in Arlet—rang in my head. I longed to fill that void within me. I wondered if he might not be able to do so here, despite the fact that I had so recently lost one. "No," he said. I winced and concentrated upon keeping my thoughts under control. But they would not obey me. No he could not? Or no he would not? My mind demanded an answer. "No I cannot, but not for the reason you think." I caught his amused expression out of the corner of my eye. My skin felt hot and flushed. "Estrazi would doubtless reduce him to component atoms," Esyia put in. "Such a child, so admixed in but two generations, would upset his plans. If it had been done before the testing, the constants would have fallen out differently. There would have been no need to worry what effect such a child would have upon the future of your planet." Certainly they felt my confusion, but neither deigned to enlighten me. We stopped before a door, identical in my sight to dozens we had passed, and it opened obediently. Within, I saw sculptured gardens, under a summer sky. We walked between fancifully trimmed hedges of flowering bush, gold and pearl and green. The walk was flagged with slabs of iridescent stone, the air cool and clean, with pungent aliveness that tickled my nostrils. At the end of the long straight path, I could see an arabesqued, towered building, of some gold-veined white stone. Up the tiered steps we went, and into a mosaicked hall of breathtaking beauty. Esyia's tridoe made Astria seem some peasant hovel. Precious metals filigreed the door lintels, the walls were covered with hangings of vibrant intricate silks. They showed me through the tridoe: the kitchen, where a great table of some golden material was laid with platters of the same; the sleeping rooms, each more wonderful than the one preceding it; the large chamber that could seat three hundred. In the kitchen were no stoves, no stores, no plumbing. In the sleeping rooms were no facilities for grooming or toilet. I had been here long enough not to need to ask why. In that sleeping room of umber and ocher, which Esyia assigned to me, was a great couch of intaglioed sienna metal. I sat upon it, on the spread that bore the same pattern as my father's ring. Raet removed the leash from my collar. My hands were still bound in front of me. He looked down upon me. "Will you behave yourself?" he said severely. "It seems I have little choice." He looked at me with that expression of distrust I have come to expect from him, and touched the metal bracelets at my wrists. They fell away and hit the brightly patterned thick-piled earth-tone rug and were gone. He stood, muscles tensed, regarding me like the dorkat one finds in the parr-house among its slaughter: one can never tell what the wild and dangerous beast will do. "Are these quarters satisfactory?" Esyia asked softly, stepping between us. I nodded, but my mind knew my body's needs, and spoke its message. "Oh," she said, and circuited the large room. "How about here?" And where the keep narrowed into an alcove, a wall came into being. Since the retarded child could not dispose of her own waste or attend to her own cleanliness, mechanical means had been provided. I put my recently freed hands in my lap. I wished they would remove my collar. "That we will not do, for your sake as much as ours," said Esyia, coming to sit beside me. "We will come for you later, and share a meal," she said, and her body was gone from the room. I looked dumbly at the wrinkled depression where her bottom had in- dented the coverlet with her weight. Raet leaned against one of the chased bronze posts that rose from the couch to meet the muraled ceiling high above our heads. What can I say about him? That he was his father's son seemed a certainty. That I was so aroused by him as to make the misery he had caused me on Silistra inconsequential? That even Tyith's death was not meaningful enough to stem my need for him? All of that and more. That I cared not that he considered me at best a wild animal, incapable of rational thought? Doubtless. Trembling with eagerness, I went to him, honored beyond comprehension that he would deign to use me. That no child could come from this union, I had previously ascertained. But I wanted that meaningless couching more than I had wanted any other, and I despised myself for my need. Perhaps he used me out of pity, perhaps curiosity, perhaps to further put me in my place. That last he truly accomplished. I, so skilled in the needs of men, found myself barely able to satisfy him. His vitality was such that when I lay finally exhausted from my efforts, I understood why my mother had given up her life to bear a child to such a one. But I would not be allowed that sense of purpose, that rationalization, that Estrazi had- permitted my mother. With this couching, I had met my own lust head-on for the first time in my life. To do so is a shattering experience for a woman. To do so with a creature as superior to oneself as one is to the bondrex on the plain rubs salt into the open wound. When he had gone from the keep, by that instant exit the Mi'ysten prefer, I thought long upon what had occurred. Full of self-recrimination, I' paced off my assigned quarters. There were no windows in the ocher keep, nor would the door open for me. I was as much a prisoner as I had been in the crystal cube, but in a more urbane setting. I cannot blame them for being loath to let the beast roam their keep at will. I would not set a dorkat loose in the halls of Astria. "Flesh toy," he had called me, "come here." "We are all flesh," I had replied. "Ah, but we by choice, and you by design. Therin is a great difference." His voice had been husky, his eyes half-closed. God-man or not, the man in him knew and desired me. I held onto that one shred of comfort. For whatever reason, I excited him. When he was gone, I was consumed with fear that I could not do so again, that he might never again so use me. I found myself desperate for his acknowledgment. I doubted I would ever have his respect, but how he regarded me seemed more important than the next breath I would take—out of proportion to what had occurred. I was more right than I knew. I determined to ask Esyia if she could teach me a mind shield effective against him. I could not bear the thought that Raet had access to the emotional maelstrom whirling within me. We were in the kitchen, Esyia and I. She had come for me while I lay, drained and dozing, on the black couch-spread that bore my father's mark, and escorted me through the corridors into the kitchen with the great golden table. The walls, which had been sculptured winy rock when I had first seen them, were covered so thickly by green-leaved plants that the rock was merely the pattern in which the creeping shiny-leaved mat had conceived to grow. That any plants could have grown up along the walls in such profusion in the short time since I had been in that room was impossible. I went and ran my hand along their slick-smooth leaves. Up to my wrist I buried it in new green. The smell of growth was tangy in my nostrils. "Do you like it?" Esyia asked, pride in her voice. "I thought it a nice change." I nodded, running my hand through my tangled hair. She had suggested that I help her with the meal. There was little chance that I could help this woman with anything. When she had arrived to bring me to this greened kitchen, I had been dream- ing of Sereth Crill Tyris. I could not put the dream from my mind. In it he had been called to task, at Celendra's bidding, by the Day-Keepers, for not returning Tyith's body, nor mine, to Arlet, nor having proof that I still lived. I was greatly troubled, for in the dream the council had stripped from the Seven all his rank and privilege and turned him, chaldless and outlaw, out from Arlet. If it had not been for Sereth, and what he had taught me about myself, I surely would not have survived my couching with Raet with mind intact. Esyia came to me where I stood against the living tapestry that covered the walls of the lofty-ceilinged hall. She took my hand from my neck where I worried a thick knot of hair. Then she put both hands to the crown of my head and slowly brought them down. My scalp tingled, and every hair on my head raised itself away from its fellows and settled, tangle-free and shining, down against my back. I could feel the electricity dissipate, crackling around me. Esyia smiled at me. I took up a handful of my long bronze mane and stared at it incredulously. I shook my head, unbelieving. "Gould you teach me that?" I asked her. "Is that really what you want to learn?" she said, and led me to sit at the great golden table, she at its head and I beside her, on her right. The cushioned, carved chair was warm and yielding against my naked flesh. I leaned back gingerly, for the work that Raet's hands had done upon me was beginning to bear fruit. I could see the bruises darkening on my thighs, feel them tender on my back and rump. On my breasts the marks his teeth had made were raise