The Black Corridor
by Michael Moorcock

CHAPTER ONE

Space is infinite.
It is dark.
Space is neutral.

It is cold.

*

Stars occupy minute areas of space. They are clustered a few
billion here. A few billion there. As if seeking consolation in numbers.

Space does not care.

*

Space does not threaten.

Space does not comfort.

It does not sleep; it does not wake; it does not dream; it does not
hope; it does not fear; it does not love; it does not hate; it does not
encourage any of these qualities.

Space cannot be measured. It cannot be angered. It cannot be
placated. It cannot be summed up.

Space is there.

*

Space is not large and it is not small. It does not live and it does
not die. It does not offer truth and neither does it lie.
Space is a remorseless, senseless, impersonal fact.
Space is the absence of time and of matter.

*

Through this silence moves a tiny pellet of metal. It moves so
slowly as to seem not to move at all. It is a lonely little object. In its
own terms it is a long way from its planet of origin.

In the solid blackness it gives off faint light. In that great life-
denying void it contains life.

A few wisps of gas hang on it; a certain amount of its own waste
matter surrounds it: cans and packages and bits of paper, globules
of fluid, things rejected by its system as beyond reconstitution.
They cling to its sides for want of anything better to cling to.

And inside the spacecraft is Ryan.

Ryan is dressed neatly in regulation coveralls which are light
grey in colour and tend to match the vast expanse of controls, pre-
dominantly grey and green, which surround him. Ryan himself is
pale and his hair is mainly grey. He might have been designed to
tone in with the ship.

Ryan is a tall man with heavy grey-black eyebrows that meet
near the bridge of his nose. He has grey eyes and full, firm lips that
are at the moment pressed tightly together. He seems physically
very fit. Ryan knows that he has to keep himself in shape.

*

Ryan paces the spaceship. He paces down the central passage-
way to the main control cabin and there he checks the coordinates,
the consumption indicators, the regeneration indicators and he
checks all his figures, at length, with those of the ship's computer.

He is quietly satisfied.

Everything is perfectly in order; exactly as it should be.

Ryan goes to the desk near the ship's big central screen.
Although activated, the screen shows no picture. It casts a greenish
light on to the desk. Ryan sits down and reaches out towards the
small console on the desk. He depresses a stud and, speaking in a
clear, level voice, he makes his standard log entry:

'Day number one thousand, four hundred and sixty three.
Spaceship Hope Dempsey en route for Munich 15040. Speed holds
steady at point nine of c. All systems functioning according to
original expectations. No other variations. We are all comfortable.

'Signing off.

'Ryan, Acting Commander.'

The entry will be filed in the ship's records and will also be auto-
matically broadcast back to Earth.

Now Ryan slides open a drawer and takes from it a large red
book. It is his personal log-book. He unclips a stylus from a pocket
in his coveralls, scratches his head and writes, slowly and carefully.
He puts down the date: December 24th, A.D. 2005. He takes
another stylus from his pocket and underlines this date in red. He
looks up at the blank screen and seems to make a decision.

He writes:

The silence of these infinite spaces frightens me.

He underlines the phrase in red

He writes:

I am lonely, I am controlling a desperate longing. Yet I know that
it is not my function to feel lonely. I almost wish for an emergency so
that I could wake at least one of them up.

Mr Ryan pulls himself together. He takes a deep breath and be
gins a more formal entry, the third of his eight-hourly reports.

When he has finished, he gets up, puts the red log-book away,
replaces his stylii neatly in his pocket, goes over to the main console
and makes a few fine adjustments to the instruments.

He leaves the main control cabin, enters a short companion way,
opens a door.

He is in his living quarters. It is a small compartment and very
tidy. On one wall is a console with a screen that shows him the
interior of the main control cabin. Set in the opposite wall is a
double bunk.

He undresses, disposes of his coveralls, lies down and takes a
sedative. He sleeps. His breathing is heavy and regular at first.

*

He goes into the ballroom. It is dusk. There are long windows
looking out on to a darkening lawn. The floor gleams; the lights
overhead are dim.

On the ballroom floor formally dressed couples slowly rotate in
perfect time to the music. The music is low and rather sombre. All
the couples wear round, very black spectacles. Their faces are pale,
their features almost invisible in the dim light. The round black
glasses give them a masklike appearance.

Around the floor other couples are sitting out. They stare for-
ward through their dark glasses. As the couples move the music
becomes quieter and quieter, slower and slower, and now the
couples revolve more slowly too.

The music fades.

Now a low psalmlike moaning begins. It is in the room but it
does not come from the dancers.

The mood in the room changes.

At last the dancers stand perfectly still, listening to the song. The
seated men and women stand up. The chanting grows louder. The
people in the room become angry. They are angry with a particular
individual. Above the chanting, louder and faster, comes the beat-
ing of a rapid drum.

The dancers are angry, angry, angry...

Ryan awakes and remembers the past.

CHAPTER TWO

Ryan and Mrs Ryan shyly entered their new apartment and
laid down the large nearly brand-new suitcase. It came to rest on
the floor of the lobby. They released the handle. The suitcase
rocked and then was still.

Ryan's attention left the case and focused on the shining tub in
which grew a diminutive orange tree.

'Mother's kept it well watered,' murmured Mrs Ryan.

'Yes,' said Ryan.

'She's very good about things like that.'

'Yes.'

Awkwardly Ryan took her in his arms. Mrs Ryan embraced him.
There was a certain reserve in her movements as if she were
frightened of him or of the consequences her action might provoke.

A feeling of tenderness overwhelmed Ryan. He smiled down at
her upturned face, reached out his hand to stroke her jawline. She
smiled uncertainly.

'Well,' he said. 'Let's inspect the family mansion.'

Hand in hand they wandered through the apartment, over the
pale gold carpets, past the simulated oak furniture of the living-
room to stare out through the long window at the apartment blocks
opposite.

'Not too close,' said Ryan with satisfaction. 'Wouldn't it be ter-
rible to live like the Benedicts—so near the next block that you can
see right into their rooms. And they can see right into yours.'

'Awful,' agreed Mrs Ryan. 'No privacy. No privacy at all.'

They wandered past the wall-to-wall television into the kitchen.
They opened cupboards and surveyed the contents. They pressed
buttons to slide out the washing machine and the refrigerator.
They turned on the infragrill, played with the telephone, touched
the walls. They went into the two empty bedrooms, looking out of
the windows, turning on the lights, their feet noisy on the tiles of
the floors.

Last of all they went into the main bedroom, where the coloured
lights of the walls shifted idly in the bright sunshine from the
windows. They opened the wardrobes in which their clothes had
been neatly laid out.

Mrs Ryan patted her hair in front of the huge convex mirror
opposite the bed. Shyly they stood, looking out of the window.

Ryan pressed the button on the sill and the blinds slid down.

'Aren't the walls beautiful.' Mrs Ryan turned to look at the
multicoloured lights playing over the flat surfaces.

'Not as beautiful as you.'

She looked round at him. 'Oh, you...'

Ryan reached out and touched her shoulder, touched her left
breast, touched her waist.

Mrs Ryan glanced at the windows as if to reassure herself that
the blinds were drawn and no one could see in.

'Oh, I'm so happy,' she whispered.

'So am I.' Ryan moved closer, drew her to him, holding her
buttocks cupped in his heavy hands. He kissed her lightly on the
nose, then strongly on the mouth. His hand left her buttock and
moved down her thigh, pushing up the skirt, feeling her flesh.

A flush came to Mrs Ryan's face as he eased her towards the new
bed. She opened her lips and stroked the back of his neck. She
sighed.

His thumb traced the line of her pelvis. She trembled and moved
against him.

Then the Chinese jazz record started in the next apartment. The
Ryans froze. Mrs Ryan was bent backwards with Mr Ryan's face
buried in her neck. The clangour of the record, every note and
every phrase, was as audible as if the music poured from their own
glowing walls.

They broke apart. Mrs Ryan straightened her skirt.

'Damn them!' Mr Ryan raised his fists impotently. 'Good God!
Don't tell me that's the kind of neighbours we've got.'

'Hadn't you better... ?'

'What?'

'Couldn't you... ?' She was confused.

'You mean... ?'

'... go and speak to them ?'

'Well, I..." He frowned. 'Maybe this time I'll just hammer on
the wall.'

Slowly he took off his shoe. 'I'll show them.' He went to the wall
and banged on it vigorously, stood back, shoe in hand, and waited.

The music stopped.

He grinned. 'That did it.'

Mrs Ryan took a deep breath and said, 'I'd better unpack.'

'I'll help you,' said Ryan.

He left the bedroom and approached the suitcase. He took the
handle in both hands and staggered back to where she was waiting.

Together they unpacked the residue of their honeymoon — the
suntan lotions, the damp bathing suits, the tissue-wrapped gifts for

their parents. They talked and they laughed as they took things out
of the case and put them away, but secretly they were sad as article
after article came out. All the souvenirs of that sunny three weeks
on an island where no one else lived, where there was freedom from
observation, the noise and demands of other people.

The case was empty.

Mrs Ryan reached into the waterproof pouch at the back and
produced the tapes they had had processed when they reached the
mainland heliport. He fetched the player from the dressing table
and they went into the living-room to play the tapes on the tele-
vision.

In silence they looked at the pictures, drinking in the landscapes
they showed. There were the mountains, there the great blue ex-
panse of the sea, there the heaths.

There were almost no shots of Mr or Mrs Ryan. There were only
the views of the silent crags, the sea and the moors of the island
where they had been so happy.

A bird cried.

Somewhat shakily the picture swept upwards towards the cloud-
slashed sky. A kittyhawk dived into the distance. There was the
sound of the breakers in the background.

Suddenly the picture cut out.

Mrs Ryan looked at Mr Ryan with tears in her eyes.

'We must go back there soon,' she said.

'Very soon,' he smiled.

And the Chinese jazz, as loud as ever, shrieked through the
room.

The Ryans sat rigidly in front of the television screen.

Ryan clenched his teeth. 'Jesus God, I'll...' he stood up ...
'I'll kill the bastards!' He gestured irresolutely. 'There are laws.
I'll call the police.'

Mrs Ryan held his hand. There's no need to speak to them,
darling. Just put a note through their door. Warn them. They must
have heard of the Noise Prevention Act. You could write to the
caretaker as well.'

Ryan rubbed his lips once.

'Tell them they could be heavily fined,' said his wife. 'If they're
reasonable, they'll...'

'All right.' Ryan pursed his lips. 'This time that's what I'll do.
Next time—and I mean it — I'll knock on the door and confront
them.'

He went into the living room to write the notes. Mrs Ryan made
tea.

The Chinese jazz went on and on. Ryan wrote the notes with
short, jerky movements of his pen.

... and I warn you that if this noise continues I will be forced to
contact the police and inform them of your conduct. I have also told
the caretaker of my intention. At very least you will be evicted— but
you must also be aware of the heavy penalties you could receive under
Section VII of the Noise Prevention Act of 1978.

He read back over the letter. It was a bit pompous. He hesitated.
Perhaps if he ... ? No. It would do. He finished the letters, put
them into envelopes and sealed them as Mrs Ryan directed the tea
trolley into the living-room. 'That will do, thank you,' she told it.

Suddenly the music stopped in mid-bar. Ryan looked at his wife
and laughed. 'Maybe that's the answer ? Maybe it's robots making
that row?'

Mrs Ryan smiled. She picked up the tea-pot.

'Look, I'll do that,' said Ryan, 'if you'll just put these into the
internal mail slot outside the front door.'

'All right.' Mrs Ryan replaced the pot. 'But what shall I do if I
meet them?' She nodded towards the neighbouring flat.

'Ignore them completely, of course. They surely won't try to
involve you in conversation. You might as well ignore anybody else
you meet outside. If we start making contact with all the people in
this block we'll never have any bloody privacy.'

"That's what Mother said,' said Mrs Ryan.

'Right.'

She took the two letters and went out of the living room and into
the lobby. Ryan heard the front door click open.

He straightened his head as he heard another voice. It was a
woman's voice, high-pitched and cheerful. He heard Mrs Ryan
mumble something, heard her footsteps as she entered hastily and
shut the front door firmly.

'What on earth was that ?' he asked as she returned to the living
room. 'It's like living in a zoo. Maybe it was a mistake...'

'It was the woman who lives on the other side of us. She was com-
ing back with her shopping. She welcomed me to the block. I said
thank you very much and slid back in here.'

'Oh, Christ, I hope they're not going to pester us,' said Ryan.

'I don't think so. She seemed quite embarrassed to be chatting
with a stranger.'

In cosy, uninterrupted silence the Ryans drank their tea and ate
their sandwiches and cake.

When they had finished Mrs Ryan ordered the trolley back to
the kitchen and she and Ryan sat together on the couch watching

the tapes on the television. They were beginning to feel at ease in
their little home.

Mrs Ryan smiled at the screen and pointed. There was a scene of
cliffs, a cave. 'Remember that old fisherman we found in there that
day ? I was never so startled in my life. You said ——'

A steady knocking began.

Ryan swung round, seeking the source of the noise.

'Over here,' said a voice.

Ryan got up. Outside the window was the head and torso of a man
in overalls. His grinning red face was capped by a mop of clashing
ginger hair. His teeth were ragged and yellow.

Mrs Ryan put her hand to her mouth as Ryan dashed to the
window.

'What the bloody hell do you think you're doing, pushing your
fucking face in our window without warning ?' Ryan trembled with
rage. 'What's the matter with you? Haven't you ever heard of
privacy ? Can't we get a moment's peace and quiet ? It's a bloody
conspiracy!'

The man's grin faded as Ryan ranted on. His muffled voice came
through the pane. 'Look here,' he said. 'There's no need to be like
that. I never knew you was back, did I ? I was asked by the old lady
to keep the windows clean while you was away. Which I have done
without, if I may say so, any payment whatsoever. So before you
complain about my bloody habits, I suggest you settle up...'

'How much ?' Ryan put his hand in his pocket. 'Come on—how
much?'

'Three pounds seven.'

Ryan opened the window and put four pound notes on the out-
side sill. 'There you are. Keep the change. And while you're at it
don't bother to come back. We don't need you. I'm going to clean
the windows myself.'

The man grinned cynically. 'Oh, yeah?' He tucked the money
into his overall pocket. 'I hope you've got a head for heights, then.
They're all telling me they're going to clean their own windows
from now on. Have you seen them ? Half of them don't do the out-
sides. They can't stand the height, see ? You should see 'em. Filthy.
You can hardly see out for the dirt. It must be like the black hole of
Calcutta in most of them flats. Still, it's none of my business, I'm
sure. If people want to live in the dark that's their affair, not mine.'

'Too right,' said Ryan. 'You nosy bloody...'

The window-cleaner's eyes hardened. 'Look, mate.. .'

'Clear off,' said Ryan fiercely. 'Go on!'

The man shrugged, gave his yellow grin again and touched his

carroty hair sardonically in a salute. 'Cheerio, then, smiler.' He
began to lower himself down the wall towards the distant ground.

Ryan turned to look at his wife. Mrs Ryan was not on the couch
any more. He heard sobs and followed the sound.

Mrs Ryan was stretched across the bed, face down, weeping
hysterically.

He touched her shoulder. 'Cheer up, love. He's gone now.'

She shrugged off his hand.

'Cheer up. I'll...'

'I've always been a private person,' she cried. 'It's all right for
you — you weren't brought up like me. People in our neighbour-
hood never intruded. They didn't come poking their faces through
windows. Why did you bring me here? Why?'

'Darling, I find it all just as distasteful as you do,' Ryan told her.
'Honestly. We'll just have to sort it out step by step. Show people
that we like to keep ourselves to ourselves. Be calm.'

Mrs Ryan continued to cry.

'Please don't cry, darling.' Mr Ryan ran his hands through his
hair. 'I'll straighten things out. You won't see anyone you don't
know.'

She turned on the bed. 'I'm sorry... One thing after another.
My nerves...'

'I know.'

He sat down on the edge of the bed and began to stroke her hair.
'Come on. We'll watch a musical on the TV. Then we'll...'

And as Mrs Ryan's sobs abated there came the familiar sound
of the Chinese jazz. It was muted now, but it was still loud enough
to lacerate the Ryans' sensitive ears.

Mrs Ryan moaned and covered her head as the tinkling, the
jangling, the thudding of the music beat against her.

Ryan, helpless, stood and stared down at his weeping wife.

Then he turned and began to bang and bang and bang and bang
on the wall until all the colours disappeared.

But the music kept on playing.

CHAPTER THREE

Mr Ryan has done his exercises, bathed, dressed and break-
fasted.
He has left his cabin and has paced down the main passageway to

the central control cabin. He has checked the coordinates, the
consumption indicators, the regeneration indicators and run com-
putations through the machine.

He seats himself at the tidy steel desk below the big screen that
has no picture. Around him the dials and the indicators move
unobtrusively.

Mr Ryan takes out the heavy red-covered log-book from its steel
drawer. He unclips his pen.

Using the old-fashioned log appeals to his imagination, his sense
of pioneerdom. It is the one touch of the historic, the link with the
great captains and explorers of the past. The log-book is Ryan's
poem.

He enters the date: December 25th, A.D. 2005. He underlines it
He begins to write the first of his eight-hourly reports:

Day number one thousand, four hundred and sixty four. Spaceship
Hope Dempsey en route for Munich 15040. Speed steady at point
nine of c. All systems functioning according to original expectations.
No other variations. All occupants are comfortable and in good
health.

Under this statement Ryan signs his name and rules a neat line.
He then stands up and reads the entry into the machine.

Ryan's report is on its way to Earth.

He likes to vary this routine. Therefore when he makes his next
report he will do it orally first and write it second.

Ryan stands up, checks the controls, glances around and is
satisfied that all is in order. Since embarkation on the Hope
Dempsey three years ago he has lost weight and, in spite of his
treatments under the lamps, colour. Ryan exercises and eats well
and relatively speaking he is in the best possible condition for a man
living at two-thirds Earth gravity. On Earth it would be doubtful if
he could run a hundred yards, walk along the corridor of a train,
move a table from one side of a room to another. His muscles are
maintained, but they have forgotten much. And Ryan's mind,
basically still the same, has also forgotten much in the narrow
confines of the perfectly running ship.

But Ryan has his will. His will makes him keep to the perfect
routine which will take the ship and its occupants to the star. That
will which has held Ryan, the ship and its instruments and pas-
sengers together for three years, and will hold them together,
functioning correctly, for the next three.

Ryan trusts his will.

Thus, in the private and unofficial section of the red log-book, the
section which is never read over to Earth, Ryan writes:

Today is Alex's tenth birthday — another birthday he will miss.
This is very saddening. However it is the kind of sacrifice we must
make for ourselves and for others in our attempt to make a better life.
I find myself increasingly lonely for the company of my dear wife and
children and my other old friends and good companions. Broadcasts
from Earth no longer reach us and soon I shall be reduced, for
stimulation, to those old shipmates of mine, my videotapes, my audio-
tapes and my books. But all this must be if we are to achieve our end
— to gain anything worthwhile demands endurance and discipline. In
three minutes it will be time to perform the duty I find most painful
emotionally — and yet most essential. Every day I am seized by the
same mixture of reluctance, because I know the distress it will cause
me. And yet there is an eagerness to fulfill my task. I shall go now and
do what I have to,

Ryan closes the red log-book and places it back in the steel
drawer so that the near edges of the book rest evenly against the
bottom of the drawer. He replaces his pen in his pocket and stands
up. He glances once more at the controls and with a firm step
leaves the room.

He walks up the metallic central corridor of the ship. At the end
there is a door. The door is secured by heavy spin screws. Ryan
presses a button at the side of the door and the screws automatic-
ally retract. The door swings open and Ryan stands for a moment
on the threshold.

The room is a small one, instantly bright as the heavy door opens.
There are no screens to act as portholes and the walls gleam with a
platinum sheen.

The room is empty except for the thirteen long containers.

One of the containers is empty. Plastic sheets are drawn two-
thirds of the way up over the twelve full containers. Through the
semi-transparent material covering the remainder of the tops can
be seen a thick, dark green fluid. Through the fluid can be seen the
faces and shoulders of the passengers.

The passengers are in hibernation and will remain so until the
ship lands (unless an emergency arises which will be important
enough for Ryan to awaken them). In their gallons of green fluid
they sleep.

At their heads is a panel revealing the active working of their
bodies. On the plastic cover is a small identification panel, giving
their names, their dates of birth and the date of their engulfment
into suspended animation. On the indicator panel is a line marked

DREAMS. On each panel the line is steady.

Ryan looks tenderly down into the faces of his family and
friends.

JOSEPHINE RYAN. 9.9.1960. 7.3.2004. His wife. Blonde and
plump-faced, her naked shoulders still pink and smooth.

*

RUPERT RYAN. 13.7.1990.6.3.2004. The dark face of his son,
so like his, the bony shoulders just beginning to broaden into
manhood.

*

ALEXANDER RYAN. 25.12.1996.6.3.2004. The fairer face of
his younger son. Eyes, amazingly, still open. So blue. Thin
shoulders of an active small boy.

*

Ryan, looking on the faces of his closest relatives, feels close to
tears at their loss. But he controls himself and paces past the other
containers.

*

SYDNEY RYAN. 2.2.1937.25.12.2003. His uncle. An old man.
False teeth, very white, revealed through open mouth. Eyes
closed. Thin, wrinkled shoulders.

*

JOHN RYAN. 15.8.1963. 26.12.2003. Ryan's brother. Ryan
thinks that now he is thinner, less muscular, he must look more
like John than he has ever done, even when they were children.
John has the same short face, thick brows. His exposed shoul-
ders are narrow, knotted.

*

ISABEL RYAN. 22.6.1962. 13.2.2004. His brother John's first
wife, her crowded teeth exposed in a snarl in her narrow jaw.
Pale face, pale hair, pale, thin shoulders. Ryan feels a spasm of
relief that Isabel is lying in her container instead of around him,
erect and needlelike, talking to him in her high voice. Ryan does
not notice the passing thought, does not need to correct himself.

*

JANET RYAN. 10.11.1982. 7.5.2004. So lovely. His brother
John's second wife. Soft cheeks, soft shoulders, long wavy black
hair suspended in the green fluid, a gentle smile through pink,
generous lips, as if she were dreaming pleasant dreams.

•   *

FRED MASTERSON. 4.5.1950. 25.12.2003. Narrow face.
Thin, narrow shoulders. Furrowed brow.

*

TRACY MASTERSON. 29.10.1973. 9J0.2003. Masterson's
wife. A pretty woman, looking as stupid in her container as she
did out of it.

*

JAMES HENRY. 4.3.1957.29.10.2003. Shock of red hair float-
ing, sea-green eyes open in the green fluid. Looking like some
drowned merman.

*

Ryan moves past him and stops at the eleventh container.

*

IDA HENRY. 3.3.1980.1.2.2004. Poor girl. Matted hair, pale
brown. Sunken young cheeks, drooping mouth.

*

There are two arrested lives in that container, Ryan thought.
Ida, Henry's wife, and her coming child. What would be the result
of that long gestation of mother and child, both in foetal fluid.

*

FELICITY HENRY. 3.3.1980. 1.2.2004. Henry's other wife
and Ida's twin sister. Her hair is smoother and shinier, her
cheeks less sunken than her sister's. Not pregnant.

*

Ryan reaches the last container and looks into it. The white
bottom of the container shines up at him. Surrounded by his sleep-
ing companions he has the urge to get into the container and try
it out.

Suspecting his impulse, he squares his shoulders and walks
firmly from the room. The door hisses shut behind nun. He touches

the stud that replaces the screws. He walks back down the silent
corridor and re-enters the control cabin. He makes rapid notes on
a small pad of paper he takes from his breast pocket. He moves to
the computer and runs his calculations through.

If necessary the computer could be switched to fully automatic,
but this is not considered good for the psychology of crew mem-
bers.

Ryan nods with satisfaction when the replies come. He returns
to the desk and puts the charts back in the drawer.

As he does this another spurt of paper comes from the com-
puter. Ryan examines it.

It reads:

REPORT ON PERSONNEL IN CONTAINERS NOT
SUPPLIED.

Ryan purses his lips and punches in the reports:
JOSEPHINE RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
RUPERT RYAN.    ' CONDITION STEADY
ALEXANDER RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
SIDNEY RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
JOHN RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
ISABEL RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
JANET RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
FRED MASTERSON. CONDITION STEADY
TRACY MASTERSON. CONDITION STEADY
JAMES HENRY. CONDITION STEADY
IDA HENRY. CONDITION STEADY

FELICITY HENRY.        CONDITION STEADY *******

************************************************

*******YOUR OWN CONDITION

suggests the computer.

Ryan pauses and then reports:

I AM LONELY

The computer tells him instantly:

*******FILL YOUR TIME ACCORDING TO THE SUG-
GESTED PROGRAMME. IF THE CONDITION CON-
TINUES INJECT ICC PRODITOL PER DIEM * DO NOT
TAKE MORE * DISCONTINUE THE DOSAGE AS SOON
AS POSSIBLE AND AT ALL COSTS AFTER 14 DAYS****

Ryan straightens his shoulders, signs off and walks away from
the computer.
He walks down the corridor to his own accommodation. He

inflates a red easy chair, sits down and presses a stud on the wall.
The TV screen in front of him begins to roll off a list of its offerings.
Films, plays, music, dancing and discussion and educational pro-
grammes. In his weakness Ryan does not choose the agricultural
information he is committed to studying. He selects an old Polish
film.

Soon the screen is full of people walking, talking, eating, getting
on streetcars, watching scenery, kissing and arguing.

Ryan feels tears on his cheeks but he has an hour of relaxation
due to him and he will take it, in whatever form it comes.

As Ryan watches, bearing his expected melancholy with
stoicism, his mind wanders. He hears, echoing in his head, the
report on his undead companions in their cavernous containers:
JOSEPHINE RYAN. CONDITION STEADY. RUPERT
RYAN. CONDITION STEADY. ALEXANDER RYAN . . .
SIDNEY RYAN . . . JOHN RYAN . . . ISABEL RYAN . . .
JANET RYAN ... FRED MASTERSON... JAMES HENRY
... IDA HENRY... FELICITY HENRY...

The parade of the faces he once knew passes in front of him. He
imagines them as they were, before they were immersed in their
half-life in the sea-green fluid.

CHAPTER FOUR

James Henry's pale hands, stubby and freckled, shook as he
bent forward in his chair and stared into Fred Masterson's face.
'Do something, Fred, do something — that's what I'm saying.'
Masterson gazed back, thin eyebrows raised cynically, long
forehead creased by parallels of wrinkles. 'Such as ?' he asked after
a pause.

Henry's hands clenched as he said: 'Society is polluted physic-
ally and morally. Polluted by radioactivity we're continually told
is within an acceptable level — though we see signs every day that
this just isn't so. I cannot allow Ida or Felicity to bear children
with the world as it is today. And worse, in a way, than the actual
environment is the infinite corruption of man himself. Each day
we grow more rotten, like sacks of pus, until the few of us who try
to cling to the old standards, try to stay decent, are more and more
threatened by the others. Threatened by their corruption, threat-
ened by their violence. We're living in a mad world, Masterson,

and you're advising patience.. .'

Beside him on the Ryans' couch were his two wives, tired,
identically pale, identically thin, as if the split cell which produced
them had only contained the materials for one healthy woman and
had been forced to make two. As Henry spoke they both gazed at
him from their pale blue eyes and followed every word as if he were
speaking their thoughts.

Masterson did not reply to James Henry's tirade. He merely
stared about him as if he were thoroughly tired of the discussion.

The furniture of the Ryans' living room had been pushed back
against the walls to seat the group which met there every week.

The blinds were drawn and the lights were on.

Seated on his own with his back to the window was Ryan's
Uncle Sidney, a thin, obstinate old man with a tonsure of brown
hair round his bald head. The rest of the group was seated around
the other walls. The seat in front of the window, like the front row
at public meetings, was always the last to be filled.

Fred Masterson and his wife Tracy, who wore a well-cut black
floor-length dress, the conservative fashion of the moment, and
fully made up black lips, sat opposite the Henry family on their
sofa.

Next to Masterson sat John Ryan's first wife, Isabel. She was a
dowdy, pinch-faced woman. On John's left sat his other wife, the
beautiful Janet. Against the fourth wall were Ryan and his wife
Josephine.

The women wore blacks and browns, the men were quietly
dressed in dark-coloured tunics and trousers. The room, bare in
the centre, entirely without ornament, had a dull look.

Ryan sat and in his head worked out some estimates for a new
line of product in his head. As a silence fell between James Henry
and Fred Masterson, he turned his mind away from his business
problems and said:

'This is, after all, only a discussion group. We haven't the power
or the means to alter things.'

Henry opened his green eyes wider and said urgently:

'Can't you see, Ryan, that the days of discussion are practically
over. We're living in chaos and all we're doing is talking about it.
At the meeting next month ——'

'We haven't agreed to a meeting next month yet,' said Master-
son.

'Well, if we don't we'll be fools.' Henry crossed his legs in an
agitated manner. 'At the meeting next month we must urge that
pressure...'

Tracy Masterson's face was taut with stress. 'I've got to go
home now, Fred.

Masterson looked at her helplessly. Try to hang on...'

'No . . .' Tracy hunched her shoulders. 'No. It's people all
around me. I know they're all friends... I know they don't mean
to...'

'A couple more minutes.'

'No. It's like being shut up in a box.'

She folded her hands in her lap and sat with her eyes downcast.
She could say no more.

Josephine Ryan rose and took her by the arm. 'I'll give you some
pills and you can sleep in our bed. Come on, dear. .' She drew the
younger woman up by the arm and led her into the kitchen.

Henry looked at Masterson. 'Well? You know why your wife
is like this. It all dates from the time when she was caught up in
that UFO Demonstration in Powell Square. And that's an ex-
perience any one of us could have at any time—as things are now.'

As he spoke there came the sound of chanting from nearby
streets. A window broke in the distance and there were shouts. A
noisy song began.

From the bedroom Tracy Masterson started to scream.

Fred Masterson got up, paused for a moment and then ran
towards the sound.

The rest of the group sat frozen, listening as the hubbub came
closer. In the bedroom Tracy Masterson screamed and shouted:

'NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO.'

Josephine Ryan came back, leaning against the doorway. 'The
pills will take effect soon. Don't worry about her. Who are the
people in the street?'

No one replied.

Tracy screamed again.

'Who are the people in the street ?' Josephine moved further into
the room.'Who?'

The noisy voices subsided, giving way to the same low chanting,
in a minor key, which had begun the procession.

Now Ryan and his friends could hear some of the words.

'Shut up the land.

'Shut up the sky.

'We must be alone.

'Strangers, strangers all must die.

'We must be alone.

'Alone, alone, alone.

'Shut out the fearful, darkening skies.

'Let us be alone.

'No strangers coming through the skies.

'We must be alone.

'No threats, no fears.

'No strangers here.

'No thieves who come by night.

'Alone, alone, alone.'

'It's them, then. The Patriots.' Mrs Ryan looked at the others.
Again no one replied.

The chanting was close under the windows now.

The lights went out. The room was left in complete darkness.

Tracy Masterson's screams had diminished to a whimper as the
drug took hold.

'Bloody awful verses, whatever else...' Uncle Sidney cleared
his throat.

The group sat surrounded by a chanting which seemed, in the
utter darkness, to be coming from all over the room.

Suddenly it stopped.

There was the sound of running and sharp cries. Then a pitiful
high screaming like the sound of an animal being killed.

Uncle Sidney stirred in his chair by the window and stood up.
'Let's have a look out, then,' he said calmly. His finger went to
the button on the window sill.

As James Henry shouted 'No!' Ryan was halfway across the
room, arms stretched toward his uncle.

It was too late.

The blind shot up.

The window covering the whole of one wall was open to the
night.

Ryan stood petrified in the middle of the floor as the flickering
light cast by a thousand torches in the street played over him. Henry
half out of his seat, stood up and was completely still.

Josephine Ryan stood in the middle of the floor with the bottle
of pills in her hand.

The dark-clad women sat in their seats without moving.

The cries and the terrible high scream went on.

Uncle Sidney looked down into the street. On the other side, in
the high block opposite, all the windows were blinded.

"Oh, my God,' said Uncle Sidney. 'Oh, my God.'

There was silence until Josephine Ryan said:

'What is it?'

Uncle Sidney said nothing. He looked downwards.

Mrs Ryan took a deep breath. She walked firmly over to the
window. Ryan watched her.

She steeled herself, looked swiftly down into the street, stepped
back. 'It's too horrible. That really is too horrible.'

Uncle Sidney's face was hard. He continued to watch.

The crowd had caught a young man of twenty, one of the people
who lived in the block opposite. They had tied him to an old wooden
door, propped the door against a steel power supply post, drenched
the door and the young man with petrol and set light to him.

The young man lay at an angle on the blazing door. He writhed
and he screamed as the flames consumed him. The crowd pressed
closely round, those in front being perpetually pushed too close
to the flames by the people at the back who wanted to see. Their
torches and the light cast over them by their human bonfire revealed
chiefly men, most of them in their thirties and forties. The women
among them were younger. All were dressed in dark, long clothing.
In the front the people were crouched, tensely watching the young
man burn.

A young woman with cropped blonde hair yelled: 'Burn,
stranger, burn.' The men about her took up the cry. 'Burn, burn,
burn, burn!'

The young man writhed in the flames, gave a final, frantic twist
of his body and was still.

When he had stopped screaming, the crowd became quiet.
Apparently they were exhausted. They sat or stood about breathing
heavily, wiping their faces and hands and mouths.

Uncle Sidney pressed the blind button in silence. The blind slid
down, blotting out the torches, the fire, the silent crowd below. He
sat heavily in his chair.

The crackling of the fire could be heard in the Ryan's living-
room.

Mrs Ryan took her hand from her eyes, walked out to the kitchen
and went to the sink. The men and women in the room heard
her running water into a tumbler, heard her drink and put the
tumbler into the dishwasher, heard the door of the washer close.

Uncle Sidney sat in his chair, looking at the floor.

'What did you want the blind open for ?' James Henry demanded.
'Eh?'

Uncle Sidney shrugged and continued to stare at the floor.

'Eh?'

'What difference does it make?' said Uncle Sidney. 'What
bloody difference...?"

'You had no right to expose us to that—particularly the women,'
said James Henry.

Uncle Sidney looked up and there were a few tears in his eyes.
His voice was strained. 'It happened, didn't it?'

'What's that got to do with it? We don't want to get involved.
It's not even your home. It was Josephine's window which was un-
covered when—this thing—took place. She'll be the one accused!'

Uncle Sidney didn't reply. 'It happened, that's all I know. It
happened — and it happened here.'

'Very horrifying to see, no doubt,' said Henry. 'But that doesn't
make any difference to the fact that the Patriots have got some of
the right ideas, even if they do put them into practice in a very dis-
tasteful way.' He sniffed. 'Besides — some people enjoy watching
that sort of thing. Revel in it. As bad as them.'

Uncle Sidney's eyes expressed vague astonishment. 'Do what?'

'What did you want to watch it for then?'

'I didn't want to watch it...'

'So you say...'

Masterson appeared in the doorway and said: 'Tracy's gone to
sleep at last. What's been happening? Patriots, was it?'

Ryan nodded. 'They just burnt a man. Outside. In the street.'

Masterson wrinkled his nose. 'Bloody lunatics. If they really
want to get rid of them there's plenty of legal machinery to help
them.'

'Quite,' said Henry. 'No need to take the law into their own
hands. What bothers me is this odd anti-space notion of theirs.'

'Quite,' said Masterson. 'They've been reassured time and time
again that there are no alien bodies in the skies. They've been given
a dozen different kinds of proof and yet they continue to believe in
an alien attack.'

There could be some truth in it, couldn't there?' Janet said
timidly. 'No smoke without fire, eh?'

The three men looked at her.

'I suppose so,' Masterson agreed. He made a dismissive gesture.
'But it's extremely unlikely.'

Mrs Ryan directed the trolley through the door. The group
sat drinking coffee and eating cake.

'Drink up while it's hot.' Mrs Ryan's voice had an edge to it.

Isabel Ryan flinched and said: 'No thank you, Josephine. It
doesn't agree with me.'

Josephine's mouth turned down.

'Isabel hasn't been very well,' her husband John said defensively.

Ryan tried to smooth things over. He smiled at Isabel.

'You're quite right to be careful,' he said.

The whole group knew, from Isabel's demeanour, although no
one would have stated it, that Isabel was experiencing a phase
where she supposed people were trying to poison her. She would
eat and drink nothing she had not prepared herself.

Most of them knew what it was like. They had gone through
the same thing at one time or another. It was best to ignore it.

Anyway, it wasn't unheard of for people who believed that sort
of thing to be perfectly right. They all knew men and women who
had imagined that they were being poisoned who later had died
inexplicably.

'One of us ought to attend the next big meeting of the Patriots,'
said Ryan. 'It would be interesting to know what they're up to.'

'It's dangerous.' John Ryan's face was stern.

'I'd like to know though.' Ryan shrugged. 'It's best to investigate
a thing, isn't it ? We ought to find out what they're really saying.'

'We'll go in a band, then,' said James Henry. 'Safety in numbers,
eh?'

His wives looked at him fearfully.

'Right,' said Masterson. 'Time to tune into the report of the
Nimmoite Rally at Parliament. The Government will fall tonight.'

They watched the Nimmoite Rally on the television. They
watched it while more cries and shouts sounded from the street
below. They watched as a group passed playing drums and pipes.
They did not look round. They watched the Nimmoite Rally until
the President appeared in the House of Commons and offered his
resignation.

CHAPTER FIVE

That night there were riots and fires all over the city.

The Ryans and their friends watched the riots and fires, sitting
behind their closed blinds, staring at the large, bright wall which
was their television.

The city was being ripped and battered and bloodied.

They drank their coffee and they ate their cake and they watched
the men fall under the police clubs, watched the girls and boys
savaged by police dogs, heard the hooting and yelling of the looters,
saw the fire service battling to control the fifes.

The Ryans and their friends had seen a great many riots and
foes in their lives, but never so many at a single time. They watched
almost critically for a while.

But as the programmes wore on, Mrs Ryan became quieter and
quieter, more mechanical in her presentation of coffee, of sugar,
of things to eat.

It was when she saw her favourite department store go up in
flames that she finally put her head in her arms and sobbed...

Mrs Ryan had been married for fourteen years.

For fourteen years she had carried the weight of her vigorous
husband's moods and ambitions. She had reared children, battled
with her fear of other people, of the outside, had made almost all
family decisions.

She had done her best.

Now she wept.

Ryan was startled.

He went over and patted her, tried to comfort her, but she could
not be stopped. She went on crying.

Ryan looked up from his wife and stared at Uncle Sidney. In
front of them, unheeded, glass was smashing into the streets,
crowds were running and shouting, the top of the Monument, built
to commemorate the Great Fire of 1666, was crowned with flames.

'Put her to bed,' said Uncle Sidney. 'You can't do or say any-
thing effective. It's the situation that's getting her down. Put her to
bed.'

The group watched as sensible Josephine Ryan was supported
out of the room by her husband. Josephine Ryan was about to be
sedated and put to bed next to the unconscious Tracy Masters.

Ida and Felicity Henry, seeing their senior woman carried off,
became alarmed. Ida shuddered and Felicity said: 'Where will it
end?'

'You're becoming inhuman,' said Uncle Sidney. 'Switched off.'

'In the grave unless we do something fast,' James Henry said
brutally. Apparently he hadn't heard Uncle Sidney.

'In the grave,' he said again. 'What are you two going to do, eh ?'
And he laughed nastily into the pale, identical faces of his two
sapless wives.

Fred Masterson looked at Uncle Sidney and Uncle Sidney
looked at Fred Masterson. They shrugged almost at the same time.

And there was Henry laughing as usual. As usual, leaning for-
ward in his chair. As usual, springy, full of ideas, head crowned by
that energetic mass of red hair which gave the impression of a man

getting extra fuel from somewhere.

As James Henry pushed his features aggressively towards the
faces of his tired twin girl-brides it seemed impossible not to think
that he was somehow plugged into their vital forces, in some
manner draining off energy before it could reach the women to
power their thin, narrow feet, their stopped backs, their limp hair,
their lacklustre eyes.

Uncle Sidney, possessed by this thought, laughed heartily into
the room.

'What the hell are you laughing at, Sidney?' demanded James
Henry.

Uncle Sidney shook his head and stopped.

James Henry glared at him. 'What was so funny, then?'

'Never mind,' said Uncle Sidney. 'It's enough to be able to
laugh at all, the way things are.'

Then keep laughing, Sidney,' said James Henry. 'Keep at it,
chum. You'll be fucking crying soon enough.'

Sidney grinned. 'So much for the good old values. Didn't you
know there were ladies present?'

'What d'you mean ?'

'Well, when I was a young man, we didn't use that sort of
language in front of ladies.'

'What sort of language, you old fool ?'

'You said "fucking", James,' said Uncle Sidney, straight-faced.

'Of course I didn't. I don't believe in ... A man has to have a
very limited vocabulary if he needs to resort to swearing like that.
What are you trying to prove, Sidney ?'

Again the look of vague astonishment crept into Uncle Sidney's
eyes. 'Forget it,' he said at length.

'Are you trying to start something?'

'I don't want to start anything more, no,' said Uncle Sidney.

The television screen jumped from one scene to another. Fires
and riots. Riots and fires.

James Henry turned to his wives. 'Did I say anything objection-
able?'

In unison they shook their heads.

He glared again at Uncle Sidney. 'There you are!'

'Okay. All right.' Uncle Sidney looked away.

'I proved I didn't say anything,' said James Henry insistently.

'Fair enough.'

They're my witnesses!' He pointed back at his wives. They told
you.'

'Sure.'

'What do you mean — "sure" ?'

'I meant I believe you. I'm sorry. I must have misheard you.'

James Henry relaxed and smiled. 'You might apologise, then.
To all of us, I should have thought.'

'I apologise to all of you,' Uncle Sidney said. 'All of you.'

Ryan watched from the doorway and he was frowning. He looked
at Uncle Sidney. He looked at James Henry. He looked at Ida
and Felicity. He looked at Fred Masterson. Then he looked at the
television screen.

It was not so different. It was frightening. Nothing seemed real.
Or perhaps it was that nothing seemed any more real than anything
else.

He went towards the television with the intention of switching
it off. Then he paused. He was overwhelmed with the feeling that if
he turned the switch not just the television picture would fade, but
also the scene in the room. He shuddered.

Mr Ryan shuddered, full of fear and hopelessness. Full of de-
pression. Full of doubt.

It had been a bad day.

The day was really something of an historic day, he thought.
Today marked the turning point in his country's history—perhaps
the world's history.

Perhaps it was the beginning of a new Dark Age.

He came to a decision and reached forward to switch off...

CHAPTER SIX

Seated in his little cabin, the television flickering gently in
front of him, the foreign voices speaking their lines, Ryan falls,
against his will, into a doze.

Surely he knew, when he sat down, when he selected a film in an
alien language, that this would be the result. Perhaps he did but
would not acknowledge the thought.

Ryan, a man tormented by nightmares during his official hours
of sleep, who rises every morning with the indefinable despair of a
man who has dreamed of horrors he cannot even remember —
Ryan is desperate for rest.

Through the caverns of his brain pound the sounds of heart and
blood, the drums of life. He hears them dimly at first.

*

Ryan is standing in the ballroom.
The dance floor has a dull shine.
The lights in the candelabra are low.

They give off a bluish light.
Black streamers decorate the walls.
There are masks suspended at eye level on them.
The masks show human faces.

K
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P

GOING
P
E
E
K

The spaceship is on course for Munich. Travelling at just
below the speed of light.

The spaceship is on course for Munich.

I KNOW THAT I DES ...

. . . DES SCIENCES — HISTOIRE DES SCIENCES — HIS-
TOIRE DES SCIENCES ...

IT IS TRUE, HOWEVER
I AM WILLING TO TELL
WHOEVER WISHES TO KNOW

(there is no need to tell — there is no one to tell — it does not
matter...)

K
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GOING
P
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E
K

WHICH WAY?

*

In the ballroom the masks show human faces. Faces distorted
by anger, lust and greed.

Suddenly one of the masks shows his wife Josephine, her face
ferociously distorted. There is his youngest child, Alexander. His
mouth is open, his eyes are blank. Alexander — a drooling idiot.

The couples are circling to the chanting music. It grows slower
and slower and they revolve slower and slower. They are dressed
in dark clothes. They have the firm and well-defined faces of the
practical, self-interested, well-fed middle classes. They are people
of substance.

Their eyes are masked by the round sun-glasses. The long closed
windows at the end of the room look out into blackness. The
music gets slower, the men and women revolve more slowly, so
slowly they barely move at all.

The music almost stops.

There is a slow beating of a drum.

The music is heard more loudly. It is like a psalm sung by a
chorus of monks. It is a funeral dirge, the song sung when a man is
about to be buried.

The drums beat louder, the music quickens.

A high screaming note comes in and holds steady through the
dirge.

The drum beats faster, the music quickens.

The high screams grow louder.

The dancers bunch in the middle of the room, staring towards
the window through their round, black, covered eyes. They begin
to talk quietly among themselves. They are discussing something
and looking at the window.

*

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END OF SESSION. PLEASE CLEAR ALL PREVIOUS
JUNK AND RESET IF REQUIRED.

*

They are still looking at the window.

Ryan finds himself and his wife and their two children standing
in front of the window. His arm is around Josephine on one side
and his other arm spans the shoulders of the two boys on the other.

The crowd is talking about them. Ryan feels fear for his wife and

children. The crowd talks more angrily, looks at Ryan and his
family.

The scream behind the music is louder, the singing more urgent,
the drum beats faster, faster, faster.

*

THE SPACESHIP IS ON COURSE FOR MUNICH.
ON COURSE       TRAVELLING AT JUST BELOW THE
SPEED OF LIGHT.
THE SPACESHIP IS ON COURSE FOR MUNICH.

*

CONDITION STEADY
CONDITION STEADY
CONDITION STEADY

The light flashes on and off as if trying to warn him of something
rather than to reassure him. He frowns at the big sign. Is there
something wrong with the hibernating personnel. Something
he has not noticed? Something the instruments have not
registered?

*

And Ryan awakes sweating in his red, inflatable chair and
stares blindly at the minute, flat figures on the television screen.

His body is limp and his mouth is dry.

He licks his lips and sighs aloud.

Then he sets his mouth in a firm line, switches off the set and
leaves the room.

His feet echo along the passageway. He reaches a cubicle
containing a long white bed. He straps himself on and is massaged.

When he is finished his body aches and his mind is still not clear.
It is now time for Ryan to eat. He returns to his room and gets
food. He eats and he tastes nothing.

When he has finished he raises the cover over the porthole
screen in his room and looks out through the simulated window
into the vastness of space.

For a second he feels that he sees a dark figure out there in the
void. He clears his vision rapidly and stares out at the stars.

He cannot see the planet that he and his companions are bound
for. He has been in space for three years. He will be in space for
another two years. And he cannot see his destination yet. He has
only the word of the space physicists that it exists and that it can
support the thirteen lives he carries with him. A planet of Barnard's

Star, Munich 15040.

He is alone in space, in charge of his ship and the lives of the
other twelve. He is more than halfway to his destination.

The sudden remembrance of what he has done sweeps over
him. Along with his fear, with the torment caused by the solitude,
Ryan feels pride. He causes the cover to sweep down over the
'porthole'. He leaves his room and walks into the control room to
continue his duties.

But he cannot get rid of the lingering feeling of depression, the
sense of something not done.

This sense of a task unfulfilled makes him work with even greater
intensity, even greater efficiency.

He frowns.

There is still something left undone.

He rechecks everything. He runs tests through the computer.
He inspects every instrument and double-checks it to make sure
it is reading accurately.

Everything is perfect.

He has forgotten nothing.

The feeling almost disappears.

CHAPTER SEVEN

When he has read his report into the machine Ryan goes to
the desk beneath the screen and opens the drawer where his red
log-book is lying ready for his remarks.

First he sits down at his desk and hums a song as he completes
some calculations. He works quickly and mechanically to complete
his task. He lays it aside, satisfied.

He has fifteen minutes free now. He produces the red log-book
from the drawer again, rules a line under his formal report and
writes:

Alone in the craft I experience the heights and depths of emotion
untempered by the needs of less mechanical work than I do now,
uninterrupted by the presence of others.

He reads this over, frowns, shrugs, continues:

This means deep pain and being a prey to my own feelings. It also
means great joy. An hour ago I stared out of my porthole at the
enormous vista and recollected what I — what we as a group —
have done to save ourselves. My mind goes back to how we were,

and forward to what we will be.

Ryan's stylus hovers over the page. He makes writing motions
over the book, but he cannot phrase his thoughts.

At length he gives up, rules another line under his entry, shuts
the book and replaces it in the drawer.

He changes his mind, gets the book out again and begins to
write rapidly:

The world was sick and even our group was tinged with unhealthi-
ness. We were not lilywhite. We sold out some of our ideals. But
perhaps the difference was that we knew we were selling out. We
admitted what we were doing and so remained rational when almost
everyone else had gone insane.

It is true, too, that we became somewhat hardened to the horrors
around us, shut them out — even condoned some of them — even
fell in with the herd from time to time. But we had our objectives —
our sense of purpose. It kept us going. However, I don't deny that
we dirtied our hands sometimes. I don't deny that I got carried
away sometimes and did things that I now am inclined to regret.
But perhaps it was worth it. After all, we survived!

Perhaps that is all the justification needed.

We kept our heads and we are now on our way to colonise a new
planet. Start a new society on cleaner, more decent, more rational
lines.

Cynics might think that an impossible ideal. It will all get just as
bad in time, they'd say. Well, maybe it won't. Maybe this time we
really can build a sane society!

None of us is perfect. Especially this crew! We all have our rows
and we all have qualities that the others find annoying. But the
point is that we are a family. Being a family, we can have our argu-
ments, our strong disagreements — even our hatreds, to a degree —
and still survive.

That is our strength.

Ryan yawns and checks the time. He still has a few minutes free
time to spare. He looks at the paper and begins to write again:

When I look back to our days on Earth, particularly towards the
end, I realise just how tense we were. The ship routine has relaxed
me, allowed me to realise just what I had become. I don't like what
I became. Perhaps one has to become a wolf, however, to fight
wolves. It will never happen again. There were times, I cannot deny,
when I lost hold of my ideals — even my senses. Some of the events
are hazy — some are almost completely forgotten (though doubtless
one of my relatives or friends will be able to remind me). I can
hardly believe that it took such a short time for society to collapse.

That was what caused the trauma, of course — the suddenness of
it all. Obviously, there were signs of the coming crises, and perhaps
I should have taken more heed of those signs — but then all chaos
suddenly broke loose throughout the world! What we tut-tutted at in
the manner of older people slightly disconcerted by the changing
times I now realise were much more serious indications of social
unrest. Sudden increases in population, decreases in food production
— they were the old problems that the Jeremiah had been going on
about for years — but they were suddenly with us. Perhaps we had
been deliberately refusing to face the problem, just as people had
refused to consider the possibility of war with Germany in the late
thirties. We homo sapiens have a great capacity for burying our
heads in the sand while pretending to face out the issues.

Ryan smiles grimly. It's true, he thinks. People under stress
usually start dealing with half a dozen surrogate issues, leaving
the real issues completely untouched because they're too difficult
to cope with. Like the man who lost the sixpence in the house but
decided to look for it outside because the light was better and he
would thus save his candles.

He adds in his log:

And there's always some bloody messiah to answer their needs —
someone whom they will follow blindly because they are too fearful to
rely on their own good sense. It's like Don Quixote leading the
Gadarene Swine!

Ryan chuckles aloud.

Leaders, fuhrers, duces, prophets, visionaries, gurus . . . For a
hundred years the world was ruled by bad poets. A good politician
is only something of a visionary—essentially he must be a man who
sees the needs of people in practical and immediate terms and tries
to do something about it. Visionaries are fine for inspiring people —
but they are the worst choice as leaders — they attempt to impose
their rather simple visions on an extremely complicated world! Why
have politics and art become so mixed up together in the last hundred
years ? Why have bad artists been given nations as canvases on which
to paint their tatty, sketchy, rubbish? Perhaps because politics, like
religion before it, was dead as an effective force and something new
had to be found. And art stood in until whatever it was turned up.
Will something turn up ? It's hard to say. We'll probably never
know on Munich 15040 if the world survives or not.

Thank God we had the initiative to get this ship on her way to the
stars!

No more time for writing. Ryan puts the log-book away quickly
and begins his regular check of the ship's nuclear drive, running a

check on virtually every separate component.

He taught himself the procedure for running the ship. He was
not trained as an astronaut. No one planned that he should be the
man standing in the control cabin at that particular moment.

Until comparatively recently Ryan was, in fact, a business man.
A pretty successful business man.

As he does the routine checking, he thinks about himself before
he even conceived the idea of travelling into space.

He sees himself, a strongly built man of forty, standing with his
back to the vast plate glass window of his large, thickly carpeted
office. His heavy, healthy face was pugnacious, his back was
broad, his thick, stubby-fingered hands were clasped behind his
back.

Where Ryan is now a monk — a man dedicated to his ship and
his unconscious companions — a man charged, like a cleric in
the Dark Ages, with preserving the knowledge and lives contained
in this moving monastery—then he was a man almost perpetually
in a state of combat.

Ten thousand years before he would have been a savage
standing in front of his pack, hair bristling, teeth bared, bone club
in hand.

Instead, Ryan had been a toymaker.

Not a kindly old peasant whittling puppets in a pretty little
cottage. Ryan had owned a firm averaging a million pounds a year
in profits, producing toy videophones, plastic hammers, miniature
miracles of rocketry, talking life-size dolls, knee-high cars with
automatic gear changes, genuine all electric cooking machines,
real baaing sheep, things which jumped, sped, made noises and
broke when their calculated life-span was over and were thrown
secretly and with curses by parents into the rapid waste disposal
units of cities all over the western world.

Ryan pressed the button which connected him with the office of
his manager, Owen Powell.

Powell appeared on the screen. He was on his hands and knees
on the office floor watching two dolls, three foot high, walk about
the carpet. As he heard the buzz of the interoffice communicator
he was saying to one of the dolls: 'Hello, Gwendolen.' As he said
'Hello, Ryan,' the doll replied, in a beautifully modulated voice,
'Hello, Owen.'

'That's the personalised doll you were talking about, is it?"
Ryan said.

"That's it.' Powell straightened up. 'I knew they could do it if
they tried. Lovely, isn't she? The child voice-prints her in the shop

on its birthday, say. After that she can give any one of twenty five
responses to its questions — but only to the child. Imagine that —
a doll which can speak, apparently intelligently, but only to you.
The kids go mad about it.'

'If the price 'is right,' Ryan said.

Powell was an enthusiast, a man who would really, if he had not
had a twenty thousand pound a year job with Ryan, have been
perfectly happy carving toys in an old peasant's hut. He looked
disconcerted by Ryan's discouraging remark.

'Well, maybe we can get the price down to twenty pounds
retail. What would you say to that ?'

'Not bad.' Ryan deliberately gave Powell no encouragement.
Powell was a man who would work hard for a smile and stop
working when you gave it, reasoned Ryan. Therefore it was better
to smile seldom in his direction.

'Never mind all that now.' Ryan rubbed his eyebrows. 'There's
plenty of time to get it right before Christmas when we'll try a few
out, see how they go and produce a big line by spring for the follow-
ing Christmas.'

Powell nodded. 'Agreed.'

'Now,' said Ryan, 'I want you to do two things for me. One —
get in touch with the factory and tell Ames to use the Mark IV
pin on the Queen of Dolls. Two — ring Davies and tell him we're
stopping all deliveries until he pays.'

'He'll never keep going during August if we do that,' objected
Powell. 'If we stop delivering, he'll have to close down, man.
We'll only get a fraction of what he owes us!'

'I don't care.' Ryan gestured dismissively. 'I'm not letting
Davies get away with another ten thousand pounds worth of
goods so that he'll pay us in the end, if we're lucky. I will not do
business on that basis, That's final.'

'All right.' Powell shrugged. 'That's reasonable enough.'

'I think so.' Ryan broke the connection.

He reached into his desk and took out a bottle of green pills.
He poured water into a glass from an old-fashioned carafe on his
immaculate desk. He swallowed the pills and put the glass down.
Unconsciously he resumed his stance, head jutting slightly for-
ward, hands behind back. He had a decision to make.

Powell was a good manager.

A bit sloppy sometimes. Forgetful. But on the whole efficient.
He was not quarrelsome, like the ambitious Conroy, or withdrawn,
like his last manager, Evers.

What he had mistaken at first for decent behaviour, respect
for another man's privacy, had gone beyond reason in Evers.

When a manager refused to speak to the firm's managing director
on the interoffice communicator — broke the connection con-
sistently in fact — business became impossible.

Ryan could certainly respect his feelings, sympathize with them
as it happened — so would any other self-respecting person. But
facts were facts. You could not run a business without talking to
other people. Strangers they might be, uncongenial they might be,
but if you couldn't stand a brief conversation on the communicator,
then you were no use to a firm.

Ryan reflected that he himself was finding it increasingly dis-
tasteful to get in touch with many of his key workers but, since it
was that or go under, he forced himself to do so.

Powell was certainly a good manager.

Inventive and clever, too.

On the other hand, Ryan thought, he had come to hate him.

He was — childish. There was no other word for it. That open
countenance, that smile, a smile which said that he would take
to anybody who took to him. There was something doglike about
it. Just pat him on the head and he would wag his tail to and fro,
jump up and lick your face. Sickening, really, Ryan thought to
himself. It made you feel sick to think about it. He had no reticences,
no reserves. A man shouldn't be so friendly.

And, of course, Ryan thought, when you looked at the facts,
it all came down to Powell's being Welsh. That was the Welshman
for you — openfaced and friendly when they spoke to you and
clannishly against you behind your back.

The Welsh gangs were some of the worst in the city. Ryan
reflected that he had not bought his machine gun, and taught his
wife and elder son how to use it, just for fun. That was the Welsh —
all handshakes and smiles when you met them, and all the time their
sons were stoning your relatives three streets away.

Ryan tapped his teeth together. Old Saunders of Happyvoice
had shaken him a bit when he had got on the communicator
just to warn him about Powell.

'It might help,' he had said, 'if that manager of yours, Powell,
changed his name. You can't deny it sounds Welsh and there's been
an awful lot of trouble with those Welsh Nationalists recently.
Between ourselves, it only needs one word from a competitor of
yours — say Moonbeam Toys — via their PRO, and you'll be
branded in the press as an employer of Welsh labour. And that's

never likely to help sales — because people remember. Just at that
critical moment when they're choosing between one of your
products and one of another firm's — they remember. And then
they don't buy a Ryan Toy. See what I mean ? One word from you
to old Powell and he'll change his name to Smith and you're in the
clear.'

Ryan had smiled bluffly and made assurances. When he had cut
off the communicator two thoughts came to him.

One, he knew Powell would be first confused and then obstinate
about changing his name.

Two, and worse, that Saunders did not think for one instant that
Powell was a Welshman. He just thought he had an unfortunate
name.

Ryan realised that he was right out on a limb. Where his com-
petitors refused to take on employees with suspect names, however
impeccable their backgrounds, Ryan had an actual living, breath-
ing Welshman working for him. Someone who could quite easily
be a Nationalist, working for the Welsh Cause (a somewhat
obscure Cause as Ryan saw it). It was bloody ridiculous. How
could he have got so out of touch? Why hadn't he thought of it?

Ryan frowned. No — it was stupid. Powell was too absorbed in
his work to worry about politics. He was the last person to get
involved in anything like that.

Still, a name was a name. The Nationalists had been causing
quite a bit of trouble lately and things had really got bad with the
assassination of the King. The Welsh Nationalists had claimed it
was their work. But other groups of extremists had also made the
same claim.

From a practical point of view, Ryan thought, Powell was an
embarrassment. No question of it. Yet he couldn't fire a man on
suspicion.

Ryan's face took on an over-rosy tinge and his thick hands
gripped each other a little more firmly behind his back.

I'm in fucking trouble here, he thought.

He pinched his nose and then reached out to buzz for his
personnel manager.

Frederick Masterson was sitting at his desk working on a graph.
Masterson was, in physical terms, the exact complement to Ryan.
Where Ryan was thickset and ruddy, Masterson was tall, thin and
pale. As the communicator buzzed in his office he dropped the
pencil from his long, thin hand and looked at the screen in alarm.
Seeing Ryan, a thin smile came to his lips.

'Oh, it's you,' he said.

'Fred. I want details of any staff we employ with foreign or
strange-sounding names — or foreign backgrounds of any kind.
Just to be on the safe side, you realise. I'm not planning a purge!'
He laughed briefly.

'Just as well,' Masterson grinned. 'Your name's Irish isn't it,
begorrah!'

Ryan said: 'Come off it, Fred. I'm no more Irish than you are.
Not a single relative or ancestor for the past hundred years has
even seen Ireland, let alone come from it.'

'I know, I know,' said Fred. 'Call me Oirish agin and Oi'll knock
ye over the hade wid me shillelegh.'

'Skip the funny imitations, Fred,' Ryan said shortly. 'The firm's
at stake. You know how bloody small-minded a lot of people are.
Well it seems to be getting worse. I just don't want to take any
chances. I want you to probe. If necessary turn the whole depart-
ment over to examining personnel records for the slightest hint of
anything peculiar. Examine marriages, family background, school-
ing, previous places of employment. No action at this stage. I'm
not planning to victimise anyone.'

'Not at the moment,' said Masterson, a funny note in his voice.

'Oh, come off it, Fred. I just want to be prepared. In case any
competitors start going for us. Naturally I'll protect my employees
to the hilt. This is one way of making sure I can protect them —
against any scandal, for a start.'

Masterson sighed. 'What about those with Negro blood ? I mean
the West Indians got around a bit before they were all sent back.'

'Okay. I don't think anyone's got anything against blacks at the
moment have they?'

'Not at the moment.'

'Fine.'

'But you never know...'

'No.'

'I want to protect them, Fred.'

'Of course.'

Ryan cut the communicator and sighed.

An image flashed into his mind and with a start he remembered
a dream he had had the previous night. It was funny, the way you
suddenly remembered dreams long after you had dreamt them.

It had been to do with a cat. His old house where he had lived
with his parents. It had had a big, overgrown back garden and they
had kept several cats. The dream was to do with the air rifle he had
had and a white and ginger cat — an interloper — that had entered
the garden. Someone — not himself, as he remembered the dream

—had shot the cat. He had not wanted to shoot the cat himself, but
had gone along with this other person. They had shot the cat once
and it had been patched up by neighbours. There had been a piece
of sticking plaster on its left flank. The person had fired the gun
and badly wounded the cat but the animal had not appeared to
notice. It had still come confidently along the wall, tail up and pur-
ring, towards the French windows. It had had a big, bloody wound
in its side, but it hadn't seemed to be aware of it.

The cat had entered the house and come into the kitchen, still
purring, and eaten from the bowl of one of the resident cats.

Ryan had not known whether to kill it to put it out of its misery
or whether to let it be. It hadn't actually seemed to be in any
misery, that was the strange thing.

Ryan shook his head. A disturbing dream. Why should he
remember it now ?

He had never, after all, owned a white and ginger cat.

Ryan shrugged. Good God, this was no time for worrying about
silly dreams. He would have to do some hard thinking. Some
realistic thinking. He prided himself that if he was nothing else he
was a pragmatist. Not an ogre. He was well-known for his good
qualities as an employer. He had the best staff in the toy industry.
People were only too eager to come and work for Ryan Toys. The
pay was better. The conditions were better. Ryan was much respec-
ted by his fellow employers and by the trades unions. There had
never been any trouble at Ryan Toys.

But he had the business to consider. And, of course ultimately
the country, for Ryan's exports were high.

Or had been, thought Ryan, before the massive wave of national-
ism had swept the world and all but frozen trade, save for the basic
necessities.

Still, it would pass. A bit of a shake-up for everybody. It wasn't
a bad thing. Made people keep their feet on the ground. One had
to know how to ride these peculiar political crises that came and
went. He wasn't particularly politically minded himself. A liberal
with a small l was how he liked to describe himself. He had an
excellent profit-sharing scheme in the factory, lots of fringe
benefits, and an agreement with the unions that on his death the
workers would take over control of the factory, paying a certain
percentage of profits to his dependants. He was all for socialism so
long as it was phased in painlessly. He steadfastly refused to have a
private doctor and took his chances with the National Health
Service along with everybody else. While he was not over-friendly
with his workers, he was on good terms with them and they liked

him. This silly racialistic stuff would come and go.

The odds were that it wouldn't affect the factory at all.

Ryan took a deep breath. He was getting over-anxious, that was
his trouble. Probably that bloody Davies account preying on his
mind. It was just as well to take a stiff line with Davies, even if it
meant losing a few thousand. He would rather kiss the money
goodbye if it meant kissing goodbye to the worries that went
with it.

He buzzed through to Powell again.

Powell was once again on his knees, fiddling with a doll.

'Ah,' said Powell straightening up.

'Did you take care of those couple of items, Powell?'

'Yes. I spoke to Ames and I phoned Davies. He said he'd do his
best.'

'Good man,' Ryan said and switched off hastily as a delighted
grin spread over Powell's face.

CHAPTER EIGHT

Ryan is working on a small problem that has come up con-
cerning the liquid regeneration unit in the forward part of the ship.
It is malfunctioning slightly and the water has a slight taste of
urine in it. A spare part is needed and he is instructing the little
servorobot to replace the defunct element.

That was what had saved him, of course, he thought. His prag-
matism. He had kept his head while all around people were losing
theirs, getting hysterical, making stupid decisions — or worse,
making no decisions at all.

He smiles. He had always made quick decisions. Even when
those decisions were unpalatable or possibly unfashionable in
terms of the current thinking of the time. It was his basic hard-
headedness that had kept him going longer than most of them,
allowed him to hang on to a lot more, helped him to the point
where he was now safely out of the mess that was the disrupted,
insane society of Earth.

And that is how he intends to remain. He must keep cool, not
let the depression, the aching loneliness, the weaker elements of
his character, take him over.

'I'll make it,' he murmurs confidently to himself. 'I'll make it.
Those people are going to get their chance to start all over again."

He yawns. The muscles at the back of his neck are aching. He
wriggles his shoulders, hoping to limber the muscles up. But the
ache remains. He'll have to do something about that. Must stay fit
at all costs. Not just himself to think of.

He isn't proud of everything he did on Earth. Some of those
decisions would not have been made under different circumstances.

But he didn't go mad.

Not the way so many of the others did.

He stayed sane. Just barely, sometimes, but he made it through
to the other side. He kept his eyes clear and saw things as they really
were while a lot of other people were chasing wild geese or phantom
tigers. It was a struggle, naturally. And sometimes he had made
mistakes. But his common sense hadn't let him down — not in the
long run.

What had someone once said to him?

He nodded to himself. That was it. You're a survivor, Ryan. A
natural bloody survivor.

It was truer now, of course, than ever before.

He was a survivor. The survivor. He and his friends and rela-
tives.

He was making for the clean, fresh world untainted by mankind,
leaving the rest of them to rot in the shit heap they had created.

Yet he mustn't feel proud. Pride goeth before a fall... Mustn't
get egocentric. There had been a good deal of luck involved. It
wasn't such a bad idea to test himself from time to time, run
through that Old Time Religion stuff. The seven deadly sins.

Check his own psyche out the way he checked the ship.

CHECK FOR PRIDE.

CHECK FOR ENVY.

CHECK FOR SLOTH.

CHECK FOR GLUTTONY.

... and so forth. It didn't do any harm. It kept him sane. And he
didn't reject the possibility that he could go insane. There was
always a chance. He had to watch for the signs. Check them in
time. A stitch in time saves nine.

That was how he had always operated.

And he hadn't done badly, after all.

REPAIR COMPLETED reports the computer. Ryan is
satisfied.

'Congratulations,' he says cheerfully. 'Keep up the good work,
chum.'

The point was, he thinks, that he, unlike so many of the rest, had

never been to a psychiatrist in his life. He'd been his own psy-
chiatrist. Gluttony, for instance, could indicate some kind of
disturbance that came out in obsessive eating. Therefore if he
found himself overeating, he searched for a reason, hunted out the
cause of the problem. It was the same with work. If it started to get
on top of you, then stop — take a holiday. It meant you could
work better when you got back and didn't spend all your time
bawling out your staff for mistakes that were essentially your own
creation.

He presses a faucet button and samples the water. He smacks his
lips. It's fine.

He is relaxing. The disturbing dreams, the sense of depression
have been replaced by a feeling of well-being. He has compensated
in time. Instead of looking back at the bad times, he is looking
back at the good times. That is how it should be.

CHAPTER NINE

Masterson flashed Ryan about a week after he had begun
his check-up.

Ryan had been feeling good for days. The Davies matter was
settled. Davies had paid up two-thirds of the amount and they had
called it quits. To show no hard feelings Ryan had even paid off
the mortgage on Davies' apartment so that he would have some-
where secure to live after he had sold up his business.

'Morning, Fred. What's new ?'

'I've been doing that work you asked for.'

'Any results?'

'I think all the results are in. I've drawn up a graph of our find-
ings on the subject.'

'How does the graph look ?'

'It'll come as a shock to you.' Masterson pursed his lips. 'I think
I'd better come and talk to you personally. Show you the stuff I've
got. Okay?'

'Well — of course — yes. Okay, Fred. When do you want to
come here?'

'Right away?'

'Give me half an hour.'

'Fine.'

Ryan used the half hour to prepare himself for Masterson's
visit, tidying his desk, putting everything away that could be put
away, straightening the chairs.

When Masterson arrived he was sitting at his desk smiling.

Masterson spread out the graph.

'I see what you mean,' said Ryan. 'Good heavens! Just as well
we decided to do this, eh?'

'It confirms what I already believed,' said Masterson. 'Ten per
cent of your employees, chiefly from the factories in the North, are
actually of wholly foreign parentage — Australian and Irish in the
main. Another ten per cent had parents born outside England
itself, i.e. in Scotland, Wales and the Republic of Ireland. Three
per cent of your staff, although born and educated in England, are
Jewish. About half a per cent have Negro or Asiatic blood. That's
the general picture.'

Ryan rubbed his nose. 'Bloody difficult, eh, Masterson?'

Masterson shrugged. 'It could be used against us. There are a
number of ways. If the government offers tax relief to firms employ-
ing one hundred per cent English labour, as they're talking of
doing, then we aren't going to benefit from the tax relief. Then
there are wholesaler's and retailer's embargos if our rivals release
this information. Lastly there's the customers.'

Ryan licked his lips thoughtfully. 'It's a tricky one, Fred.'

'Yes. Tricky.'

'Oh, fuck, Fred.' Ryan scratched his head. 'There's only one
assumption, isn't there ?'

'If you want to survive,' said Fred, 'yes.'

'It means sacrificing a few in order to protect the many. We'll
pay them generous severance pay, of course.'

'It's something like thirty-five per cent of your employees.'

'We'll phase them out gradually, of course.' Ryan sighed. 'I'll
have to have a talk with the unions. I don't think they'll give us any
trouble. They'll see the sense of it. They always have.'

'Make sure of it,' said Masterson, 'first.'

'Naturally. What's up, Fred? You seem fed up about some-
thing.'

'Well, you know as well as I do what this means. You'll have to
get rid of Powell, too.'

'He won't suffer from it. I'm not a bloody monster, Fred. You've
got to adjust though. It's the only way to survive. We've got to be
realistic. If I stood on some abstract ideal, the whole firm would
collapse within six months. You know that. The one thing all
political parties are agreed on is that many of our troubles stem

from an over-indulgent attitude towards foreign labour. Which-
ever way the wind blows in the near future, there's no escaping that
one. And the way our rivals are fighting these days, we can't afford
to go around wearing kid gloves and sniffing bloody daffodils.'

'I realise that,' said Masterson. 'Of course.'

'Powell won't feel a thing. He'd rather be running a doll's
hospital or a toyshop, anyway. I'll do that. I'll buy him a bloody
toyshop. What do you say ? That way everybody's happy.'

'Okay,' said Masterson. 'Sounds a good idea.' He rolled up the
charts. 'I'll leave the breakdown with you to go over.' He made
for the door.

'Thanks a lot, Fred,' Ryan said gratefully. 'A lot of hard work.
Very useful. Thanks.'

'It's my job,' said Masterson. 'Cheerio. Keep smiling.' He left
the office.

Ryan was relieved that he had gone. He couldn't help the
irrational feeling of invasion he had whenever anyone came into
his office. He sat back, humming, and studied Masterson's figures.

You had to stay ahead of the game.

But Masterson had put his finger on the only real problem. He
disliked the idea of firing Powell in spite of the man's unbearable
friendliness, his nauseating candour, his stupid assumption that
you only bad to give one happy grin to open the great dam of smiles
swirling about in everyone.

Ryan grinned in spite of himself. That summed up poor old
Powell all right.

As a manager, as a creative man, Powell was first class. Ryan
could think of no one in the business who could more than half fill
his place. He wasn't any trouble. He was content. A willing worker
putting in much longer hours than were expected of him.

But was that just his good-heartedness ? Ryan wondered. A light
was dawning. Now he could see it. Powell was probably just grate-
ful to have a job! He knew that no one in any business would
employ him.

Just like a bloody Welshman to hang on and on, not letting you
know the facts, creeping about, getting good money out of you,
not letting you know that his very presence was threatening to ruin
your business. Trying to make himself indispensible in the hopes
that you'd never find out about him and fire him. Pleasant and
agreeable and co-operative. Maybe even a front for some sort of
Welsh Nationalist sabotage. Then — the knife in the back, the
bullet from the window, the enemy in the alley.

Stop it, Ryan told himself. Powell wasn't like that. He didn't
need to build the man up into a villain to justify sacking him. There
was only one reason for sacking him. He was an embarrassment.
He could harm the firm.

Ryan relaxed.

He sat down at his desk, opened a drawer and took out his
packed lunch. He opened the thermos flask and poured himself a
cup of coffee. He placed his meal on the miniature heater in the
lower compartment of the luncheon box.

Thank God, he thought, for the abolition of those communal
lunches with other business men, or the firm's executives.

Thank God that communal eating had finally died the death.
What could have been more disgusting than sitting munching and
swallowing with a gang of total strangers, sitting there staring at
their moving mouths, offering them items — wine, salt, pepper,
water — to make their own consumption more palatable, talking
to them face to face as they nourished themselves. The conversion
of the canteens had provided much-needed office space as well.

Ryan took a fork and dug into the plate. The food was now
thoroughly heated.

Once he had eaten he felt even more relaxed. He had thought it
all out. He didn't waste time when it came to decisions. No point
in moralising.

He wiped his lips.

The problem had assumed its proper proportions. It would cost
him a bit in golden and silver handshakes, but it was worth it. He
could probably get cheaper staff anyway, considering the huge
volume of unemployment, and recoup his losses by the end of the
year.

This way everybody gains something. Nobody lost.

He picked up the sheets of names and figures and began to study
them closely.

CHAPTER TEN

That's how it was, thinks Ryan. A cop out, now he looked

back, but a graceful cop out. No one got badly hurt. It could have

been worse. It was the difference between a stupid approach and an

intelligent approach to the same problem.

It had been the same when he had got the group out of that riot

at the Patriot meeting. When had that been? January. Yes.
January 2000. The civilised world had been expecting the end.
There had been all the usual sort of apocalyptic stuff which Ryan
had dismissed as a symptom of radical social change. He had not
been able to believe then that things were going to get worse. There
had been penitential marches through the streets. Even scourgings,
public confessions.

And January had been the month of that oddball move to close
the camps for foreigners. The camps had been decently maintained.
The people lived as well as anyone outside the camps — perhaps
better in certain circumstances. It had also been the month when
the Patriots had tried to open the camps up to more people — to a
more sinister, less identifiable group.

Ryan remembers the crowd in Trafalgar Square. A crowd fifty
thousand strong, covering the square, pushed up the steps of the
National Gallery and St Martin's, pushed inside the Gallery and
the Church, right up against the altar. The crowd had blocked the
streets all around. It was horrifying. Disgusting. People like rats
in a box.

Even now Ryan feels sick, remembering how he felt then.

He and the group had gone along, but they were now regret-
ting it.

Whenever the crowd got too noisy or violent the troops fired
over their heads.

It had been snowing. The searchlights played over the plinth
where the leading Patriots stood and they flashed over the heads of
the crowd, picked up large flakes of snow as they drifted down on
the dense mass of people.

The Patriot leaders, collars of their dark coats turned up, stood
in the snow looking over the crowd. And as they spoke their voices
were enormously amplified. Deafeningly amplified; reaching all
the way up the Mall to where Queen Anne sat in her lonely room,
hearing the words on TV and from the meeting itself a quarter of a
mile away; reaching all the way down Whitehall to Parliament
itself.

Parliament. That discredited institution.

They are turning on each other now, thought Ryan, looking at
the faces of the Patriots. There were signs of dissension there if he
wasn't mistaken. There would be a split soon.

But meanwhile there were the usual speeches, coming distorted
into the mind partly because of the amplification system, partly
because of the wind, partly because of the usual ungraspable

political cliches the speakers used.

The snow kept falling on the upturned faces of the crowd — an
orderly crowd of responsible people. There were few interrupters.
The presence of the troops and the paid Patriot Guards made sure
of that.

Colin Beesley, Patriot leader and Member of Parliament, stood
up to speak.

Beesley, a large, thickset man in a long, black overcoat and a
large hat, was an extremist. His political manner was of the old
school — the Churchillian school which still touched many people
who wanted their politicians to be 'strong'. His tone was pon-
derous. His words, spoken slowly and relatively clearly, were
portentous.

Unlike the others, he did not speak generally about the Patriot
cause, for he had come to make a fresh statement.

As he began to speak the wind dropped and his words came
through with a sudden clarity — over the crowd in the square, the
crowds in the streets, down as far as Westminster, along to
Buckingham Palace, as far as Piccadilly Circus in the other
direction.

'Aliens among us,' he said, his head lowered and thrust towards
the crowd. 'There are aliens among us. We do not know where they
come from. We do not know how they landed. We do not know
how many there are. But we do know one thing, my friends, people
of England — they are among us!'

Ryan, standing uncomfortably in the middle of the crowd in the
square grimaced sceptically at his friend Masterson who stood
beside him. Ryan couldn't believe in a group of aliens contriving to
land on Earth without anyone's knowledge. Not when the skies
were scanned for invaders from special observation posts built all
over the country. But Masterson was listening seriously and
intently to Beesley.

Ryan turned his attention back to the platform.

'We cannot tell who they are, yet they are among us.' Beesley's
voice droned on. "They look like us, sound like us — in every
respect they are human — but they are not human. They are non-
human — they are anti-human.' He paused, lowered his voice.
'How, you say, do we know about the aliens? How have we found
out about the existence of this pollution, of these creatures who
move about our society, like cancer cells in a healthy body? We
know, by the evidence of our own eyes. We know the aliens exist
because of who they are, what happens when they are about.

'Otherwise how can we explain the existence of chaos, blood-

lust, law-breaking, riot, revolution in our midst? How can we
explain the deaths of the little children battered to death by the
fanatics of Yorkshire? The waves of rioting and looting all over
the West Country? The satanic practices of religious maniacs in
the Fens? How can we explain the hatred and the suspicion, the
murder rate—now three times what it was five years ago, a full ten
times what it was in 1990? How can we explain the fact that we
have so few children when a few years ago the birth rate had
doubled ? Disaster is upon us! Who is stirring up and fomenting all
this disorder, bloodshed and ruin. Who? Who?'

Ryan, glancing into the faces of the people about him, could
almost believe they were listening seriously. Were they ? Or was the
presence of the troops and the Patriot Guards preventing them
from catcalling or just walking away from this nonsense ?

He looked at the faces of the police around the platform. They
were staring up at Beesley — brute-faced men listening to him with
close attention. Ryan, scarcely able to believe it, realised that
Beesley's stories of the hidden invaders was being taken seriously
by the majority of the vast crowd. As Beesley went on speaking,
describing the hidden marauders, makers of chaos in their midst,
the crowd began to murmur in agreement.

'Their bases are somewhere,' Beesley went on. 'We must find
them, fellow patriots. We must eliminate them, like wasp
nests...'

And there came from the crowd a great hissed susurrus
'Yesssss.'

'We must find the polluters and wipe them out forever. Whether
they come from space or are the agents of another Power, we do
not know as yet. We must discover where they originate!'

And the crowd like a cold wind through the ruins, answered
'Yessssss.'

He's lost them, thought Ryan sceptically, if he doesn't give them
something a bit more concrete than that. He's got to tell them how
to pick out these menacing figures they have to destroy.

'Who are they? How do we find them?' asked Beesley. 'How?
How? How indeed?' His tone became divinely reasonable. 'You
all know, in your heart of hearts, who they are. They are the men —
and women, too, make no mistake, they are women as well — who
are different. You know them. You can tell them at a glance. They
look different. Their eyes are different. They express doubt where
you and I know certainty. They are the men who associate with
strangers and people of doubtful character, the men and women
who throw suspicion on what we are fighting for. They are the

sceptics, the heretics, the mockers. When you meet them they make
you doubt everything, even yourself. They laugh a lot, and smile
too often. They attempt, by jesting, to throw a poor light on our
ideals. They are the people who hang back when plans are suggested
for purifying our land. They defend the objects of our patriotic
anger. They hang back from duty. Many are drunkards, licentious
scoffers. You know these people, friends. You know them — these
men who have been sent here to undermine a righteous society.
You have always known them. Now is the time to pluck them out
and deal with them as they deserve.'

And, before he had finished speaking, the crowd was in uproar.
There were shouts and screams.

Ryan poked Masterson, who was staring incredulously at the
platform, in the ribs. 'Let's get out,' he said. 'There's going to be
trouble.'

'Only for the aliens,' said James Henry at his other elbow. 'Come
on, Ryan. Let's sniff 'em out and snuff 'em out.'

Ryan looked at Henry in astonishment. Henry's green eyes were
ablaze. 'For crying out loud, Henry...'

He turned to his brother John. John looked back vaguely and
suddenly, under the gaze of his elder brother, seemed to pull him-
self together. 'He's right,' said John. 'We'd better think of getting
home. This is real mass hysteria. Jesus Christ.'

Henry's mouth hardened. 'I'm staying.'

'Look ——' Ryan was jolted by the crowd. Snow fell down his
neck.' — Henry! You can't possibly...'

'Do what you like, Ryan. We've heard the call to deal with these
aliens — let's deal with them.'

'They wouldn't be likely to come here tonight would they?'
Ryan shouted. Then he stopped, realising that he was beginning to
answer in Henry's terms. That was the first step towards being
convinced. 'Good God, Henry — this is too classic for words.
We're rational men.'

'Agreed. Which makes our duty even clearer!'

The crowd was pushing the four men backwards and forwards.
The men had to shout to be heard over the roar of the rabble.

'James — come home and talk it over. This isn't the place ...'
Ryan insisted, standing his ground with difficulty. From some-
where came the sound of gunfire. Then the gunfire stopped. Ryan
found he was shouting into relative silence. 'You won't take that
"aliens" nonsense seriously when you've got a drink inside you
back at our flat!'

A man put his head over Henry's shoulder. His red face was

flushed. 'What was that, friend ?' he said to Ryan.

'I wasn't talking to you.'

'Oh no? I heard what you said. That's of interest to everyone
here. You're one of them, if you ask me.'

'I didn't.' Ryan looked contemptuously at the sweating face.
'But we're all entitled to our own opinions. If you think it's true, I
won't argue with you.'

'Shut up,' Masterson cried, tugging at Ryan's sleeve. 'Shut up
and come home.'

'Bloody alien!' the red-faced man shouted. 'A bloody nest of
them!'

Instantly, it seemed to Ryan, the crowd was on them. He came
rapidly to a decision, keeping his head even in this situation.

'Calm down all of you,' he said in his most commanding voice.
'My point is that we might make mistakes in this situation. The
aliens have to be found. But we need to work systematically to find
them. Use a scientific approach. Don't you see — the aliens them-
selves could be stirring things up for us — making us turn on each
other.'

The red-faced man frowned. 'It's a point,' he said grudgingly.

'Now I believe that if there are aliens here tonight they are not
going to be in the middle of the crowd. They are going to be on the
edges, trying to sneak away,' Ryan continued.

'That seems reasonable,' said James Henry. 'Let's get after
them.'

Ryan led the way shouting with the rest.

'Aliens! Aliens! Stop the aliens. Get them now. Over there — in
the streets!'

Pushing through the crowd was like trying to trudge through a
quagmire. Every step, every breath Ryan took was painful.

Ryan led them, pace by pace, through the packed throng, up the
steps into the National Gallery and, as the crowd thinned out in
the galleries themselves, through a window at the back, through
yards, over walls and car parks until they escaped the red-faced
man and his friends and were finally in the moving mass of Oxford
Street.

Only James Henry didn't seem aware of what Ryan had done.
As they reached Hyde Park he pulled at Ryan's torn coat.

'Hey! What are we supposed to be doing. I thought we were
going after the aliens.'

'I know something about the aliens that wasn't mentioned
tonight,' Ryan said.

'What?'

'I'll tell you when we get back to my place.'

When they finally reached Ryan's flat they were exhausted.

'What about the aliens, then?' James Henry asked as the door
closed behind them.

"The worst aliens are the Patriots,' said Ryan. 'They are the most
obvious of the anti-humans.'

Henry was puzzled. 'Surely not...'

Ryan took a deep breath and went to the drinks cabinet, began
fixing drinks for them all as they sat panting in the chairs in the
living room.

"The Patriots ...' murmured Henry. 'I suppose it's just pos-
sible ...'

Ryan handed him his drink. 'I thought,' he said, 'that the
discoveries in Space would give us all a better perspective. Instead
it seems that the perspective has been even more narrowed and
distorted. Once people only feared other races, other nations,
other groups with opposed or different interests. Now they fear
everything. It's gone too far, Henry.'

'I'm still not with you,' James Henry said.

'Simply — paranoia. What is paranoia, Henry?'

'Being afraid of things — suspecting plots — all that stuff.'

'It can be defined more closely. It is an irrational fear, an
irrational suspicion. Often it is in fact a refusal to face the real
cause of one's anxiety, to invent causes because the true cause is
either too disturbing, too frightening, too horrible to face or too
difficult to cope with. That's what paranoia actually is, Henry.'

'So... ?'

'So the Patriots have offered us a surrogate. They have offered
us something to concentrate on that is nothing really to do with the
true causes of the ills of Society. It's common enough. Hitler
supplied it to the Germans in the form of the Jews and the Bol-
sheviks. McCarthy supplied it to the Americans in the form of the
Communist Conspiracy. Even our own Enoch Powell supplied it
in the form of the West Indian immigrants in the sixties and
seventies. There are plenty of examples.'

James Henry frowned. 'You say they were wrong, eh? Well,
I'm not so sure. We were right to get rid of the West Indians when
we did. We were right to restrict jobs to Englishmen when we did.
You have to draw the line somewhere, Ryan.'

Ryan sighed. 'And what about these "aliens" from space, then?
Where do they fit in ? What are they doing to the economy ? They
are an invention — a crude invention, at that — of the Patriots to

describe anyone who is opposed to their insane schemes. Where do
you think the term "witch-hunt" comes from, Henry?'

James Henry sipped his drink thoughtfully. 'Perhaps I did get a
bit over-excited...'

Ryan patted him on the shoulder. 'We all are. It's the strain, the
tension — and it is particularly the uncertainty. We don't know
where we're going. We've no goals, because we can't rely on Society
any longer. The Patriots offer certainty. And that's what we've got
to find for ourselves.'

'You'd better explain,' John Ryan said from his chair. 'Have
you got any suggestions?'

Ryan spread his hands. 'That was my suggestion. That we find a
goal — a rational goal. Find a way out of this mess...'

And Ryan, now sitting at his desk in the great ship, reflects that
it was that evening which was the turning point, that decision
which brought him to where he is now, aboard the spaceship Hope
Dempsey, heading towards Munich 15040, Barnard's Star, at
point nine of c...

CHAPTER ELEVEN

There is no sound here in space. No light. No life. Only the
dim glow of distant stars as the tiny craft moves, so slowly, through
the great neutral blackness.

And Ryan, as he goes methodically about his duties, thinks with
a heavy heart of the familiarity and warmth of his early years — of
the births of his children, of studying their first schoolbooks, talk-
ing to his friends in the evenings at their flat, of his wife, now resting
like some comfortable Sleeping Beauty, unaware of him in the
fluids of her casket.

Just a pellet travelling through space, thinks Ryan. Nearly all
the living tissue contained in the pellet is unconscious in the waters
of the caskets. Once they had moved and acted. They had been
happy, until the threats had become obvious, until life had become
unbearable for them...

Ryan rubs his eyes and writes out his routine report. He under-
lines it in red, reads it into the machine, sits down again before the
log book.

He writes:

Another day has passed.

I am frightened, sometimes, that I am becoming too much of a
vegetable. I am an active man by nature. I will need to be active when
we land. I wonder if I have become too passive. Still, this is idle
speculation...

His speculations were never idle, he reflects. The moment the
problem was clearly seen, he began to think along positive lines.
The problem was straightforward: society was breaking down and
death and destruction were becoming increasingly widespread. He
wished to survive and he wished for his friends and family to
survive. There was nowhere in the world that could any longer be
considered a safe refuge. Nuclear war was bound to arise soon.
There had been only one answer: the stars. And there had been
only one project for reaching the stars. Unmanned research craft
had brought back evidence that there was a planetary system
circling Barnard's Star and that two of those planets were in many
respects similar to Earth.

The research project had been United Nations sponsored —
the first important multilateral project between the Great
Powers...

It had been a last attempt to draw the nations of the world
together, to make them consider themselves one race.

Ryan shakes his head.

It had been too late, of course.

Ryan writes:

... I keep fit as best I can. An odd thought Just popped into my
head. It gives some idea of how closely one has to watch oneself. It
occurred to me that a way of keeping fit would be to wake one of the
other men so that we could have sparring matches, play football or
something like that. I began to see the 'sense' of this and began to
rationalise it so that it seemed advantageous to all concerned to
wake, say, my brother John. Or even one of the women ... There
are several ways of keeping fit and alert -- getting exercise. Ridicu-
lous, undisciplined ideas! It is just as well I keep the log. It helps me
keep perspective.

He grins. A great way of cheating on old John. He'd never
know...

He shudders.

Naturally, he couldn't...

There was Josephine, too. It would betray the whole ideal of the
mission if he betrayed them...

I think I'll go and take a cold shower! He writes jokingly. He
signs the book, underlines his entry in red, closes the book, puts
it neatly away, gets up, makes a last check of the instruments, asks
the computer a couple of routine questions, is satisfied by the
answers, leaves the control cabin.

True to his word, Mr Ryan has his cold shower. It does the trick.
He feels much better. Humming to himself he enters his own
cabin, selects the tape of Messiaen's Turangalila Symphony and
sits down to listen to the strange and beautiful melodies of the
Ondes Martenot.

By the Sixth Movement (Jardin du sommeil d'amour) he is
asleep...

*

The gallery is vast and made of solid platinum.

He paces it.

It is the bridge of a massive ship. But the ship does not sail
across the ocean. It sails through foliage. Dark, tangled foliage.
Foliage that the Douanier himself might have painted. Menacing
foliage.

Perhaps it is a jungle river. A river like the Amazon or one of those
mysterious, unmapped rivers of New Guinea that, as a boy, he had
wished to explore.

Ship ... foliage ... river...

He is alone on the ship, but for the sound of the engines,
strangely melodic, and the cries of the unseen birds in the jungle.

He leans over the rail of the bridge, looking for the waters of the
river. But there are no waters. Beneath the ship is only vegetation,
crushed and bent by the passage of the great vessel.

The ship rolls.

He falls and from somewhere comes a sound that is oddly
sympathetic. Something is pitying him.

He rejects the pity.

He falls to the ground and the ship passes on.

He is alone in the jungle and he hears the sounds of lumbering
monsters in the murk. He searches with his eyes for the monsters,
but he cannot see them, cannot trace the origin of their noise.

A woman appears. She is dark, lush, exotic. She parts her red
lips and takes him by the hand into the shadowy darkness of the
tropical foliage. Birds continue to cry and to squawk. He begins
to kiss her wet, hot mouth. He feels her hand on his penis. He runs
his hand into her crutch and her pants are wet with her juices. He

tries to make love to her, but for some reason she is wary, expect-
ing discovery. She will not remove her clothing. They make love
as best they can. Then she gets up and leads him through the dark
jungle corridors into a clearing.

They are in a bar. Girls — club hostesses or prostitutes, he
cannot tell — fill the place. There are a few men. Probably ponces
or gigolos. He feels at ease here. He relaxes. He puts his arm
around the dark woman and puts his other arm around a young
blonde with a lined, decaying face. Someone he knew.

All the faces, in fact, are familiar. He tries to remember them.
He concentrates on remembering them. Dimly he begins to re-
member them...

*

AFTER THE FAIR THEY WERE ALL LEAD

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
ARDOUR THE MORE THEY SANG AHEAD

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
AH DO RE ME FA SO LA TI DI

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
ARIA ARIADNE ANIARA LEONARA CARMEN AMEN

A: AMEN

*

AMEN.

AMEN. AMEN. AMEN.
AMEN.

*

SUGGEST HOLD ON TIGHT
SUGGEST HOLD ON TIGHT
SUGGEST HOLD ON TIGHT

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FOR MUNICH 15040 THE SPACESHIP
HOPE  DEMPSEY  IS   EN  ROUTE   FOR   MUNICH

15040 IS GOING

EN ROUTE FOR MUNICH 15040 THE SPACE-
SHIP NOWHERE
FOR    MUNICH    15040    THE    SPACESHIP

MUST
HOPE   DEMPSEY   IS   EN   ROUTE   BE

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FOR     MUNICH     15040     MUST
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SAFE                    ROUTE   FOR   MUNICH   15040   AND
SHAPE                     TRAVELLING AT POINT NINE OF C
SHIP                            WE ARE ALL COMFORTABLE
SHAPE                            WE ARE ALL
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SPACE

SAIL

SPACE

SNAIL

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PACE

SNAIL

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SPACE

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SAFE

PLACE

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SMELL

TASTE

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RACE

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SAFE CASE SPACE PLACE HATE HEAT SWEET SAFE

BRAIN

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NOT TRUE *********
NOT TRUE *********
******** NOT TRUE *

*

NOT TRUE

*

'IT'S NOT FUCKING true!'

Ryan screams.

He wakes up.

The tape machine is humming rhythmically.

He shudders.

He has an erection.

His mouth is dry.

He has a pain above his left temple.

His legs are trembling.

His hands are gripping the plastic of his chair, pinching it in
handfuls like a housewife inspecting a chicken.

The muscles at the back of his neck ache horribly.

He shakes his head.

*

What wasn't true?

The symphony has come to an end.

He gets up and switches off the machine, frowning and massaging
his neck. He yawns.

Then he remembers the dream. The jungle. The women.

He grins with relief, recognising the source of the exclamation—
the denial with which he had woken himself up.

Just simple, old-fashioned guilt feelings, obviously.

He had considered waking Janet, cheating on his brother, had
dreamed accordingly, had denied his feelings and had come awake
with a start.

All that proved was that he had a conscience.

He stretches.

Scratching his head he leaves the cabin and goes to take another
shower.

As he washes, he smiles again. It's just as well to let those secret
thoughts out into the open. No good burying them where they can
fester into something much worse, catch him off his guard and
possibly wreck the entire mission, maybe make him wake up the
others. That would be fatal.

A wave of depression hits him. It's bloody hard, he thinks.
Bloody.

He pulls himself together. His old reflexes are as good as ever.
Keeping fit isn't just a matter of exercising the body. One has to
exercise the brain, too. Make constant checks to be sure it's
working smoothly.

He must be getting unduly sensitive, however, for his conscience
was never that much of a burden to him!

He laughs. He knows what he must do.

It's the old trouble. The problem of leisure. It was unhealthy
not to put your mind to something other than its own workings.
He was developing the neuroses of the rich, the non-workers — or
would start to, if he wasn't careful.

The dream is a warning.

Or rather his reaction to the dream is a warning. Tomorrow he
will start studying the agricultural programmes, get interested in
something other than himself.

Refreshed, his aches and pains vanishing, he returns to his cabin
sorts out the agricultural programmes ready for the next day.

Then he goes to bed.

CHAPTER TWELVE

Although he is alone on board, he faithfully follows all the
rituals as if there were a full crew in attendance.

As a boy I used to swim through cold water in the streams that
ran between the pines, he thinks.

At the time set for the daily conferences, he sits at the head of the
table and reviews the few events and projected tasks with which
he is involved.

He eats at the formal meal times, uses formal language in all his
dealings with the ship, makes formal checks and radios formal
log entries back to Earth. His only break with formal routine is the
red log-book he keeps in the desk.

He makes the formal tours to the Hibernation Section (nick-
named 'crew storage' by the personnel when they first came aboard).

As a young man I stood on hills in the wind and stared at moody
skies, he thinks and I wrote awful, sentimental, self-pitying verse
until the other lads found it and took the piss out of me so much I
gave it up. I went into business instead. Just as well.

He touches the button and the spin screws automatically retract.

I wonder what would have happened to me. Art thrives in chaos.
What's good for art isn't good for business...

He pauses by the first container and looks into the patient face

of his wife.

*

Mrs Ryan cleaned down the walls of her apartment. She was
using the appropriate fluid. All the time she cleaned she kept her
face averted from the long window forming the far wall of the
apartment.

When she had finished cleaning she took the can of fluid back
to the kitchen and put it on the right shelf.

Frowning uncertainly, she stood in the middle of the kitchen.

Then she drew a deep breath and she reached towards the shelf
again, touching another can. The can was labelled Plantfood.

She grasped the can.

She lifted it from the shelf.

She coughed and covered her mouth with her free hand.

She drew another breath.

She walked into the lobby and sprayed the orange tree that stood
in its shining metallic tub. She went back to the living room, with
its coloured walls, expensive, cushiony plastic chairs, the wall to
wall TV.

She turned on the TV.

The wall opposite the window was instantly alive with whirling,
dancing figures.

Watching them gyrate, Mrs Ryan relaxed a trifle. She looked
at the can in her hand and put it down on the table. She watched
the dancers. Her eyes were drawn back to the can, still lying on the
table. She began to sit down. Then she stood up again.

Mrs Ryan's fresh forty-year-old face crumpled slightly. Her
lips moved. She had the expression of a resolute but frightened
child, half-ready to cry if the expected accident occurred.

She picked up the can and walked to the wall-long window.
With her eyes half-closed she located the button which controlled
the raising and lowering of the blinds. With the room in darkness
she sprayed the plants on the windowsill.

She took the can back to the kitchen and placed it on the shelf.
She stood in the kitchen doorway for a while, staring into the dark-
ness of the living room, lit only by the flicker of the TV. Then she

crossed the room to the window and placed her hand on the button
controlling the blind.

She turned her back to the window and found the button with
her left hand.

There was a big production number on TV. She stared at it,
unmoving.

Then she pressed the button and sprang away from the window
as the blinds rushed up and the room was flooded with daylight
again.

She hurried into the kitchen, turning off the TV as she went past.
She made some coffee and sat down to drink it.

The room was silent.

The empty window looked out on to the apartment block
opposite. Their empty windows stared back.

Few cars ran in the street between the blocks.

Inside the apartment, in the kitchen, Mrs Ryan sat with her
coffee cup raised like a puppet whose motor had cut out in mid-
action.

The telephone buzzed.

Mrs Ryan sat still.

The telephone went on buzzing.

Mrs Ryan sighed and approached the instrument, set at head
height on the kitchen wall. She ducked down against the wall and
reached up to remove the mouthpiece.

'It's me. Uncle Sidney,' said the voice from the screen above
her head.

'Oh, it's you, Uncle Sidney,' said Mrs Ryan. She backed away
from the wall, still holding the mouthpiece and sat down near the
kitchen table.

'Don't come too close,' said Uncle Sidney.

'Uncle Sidney,' said Mrs Ryan pitifully. 'I've asked you not to
call during the day, when no one's at home. After all, I don't know
who you are. It might be anyone.'

'I'm sorry I'm sure. I just wanted to ask if you'd like to come over
tonight.'

"The car's being repaired,' said Mrs Ryan. 'He had to go by bus
this morning. I told him not to, but he insisted. I don't know ...'

Mrs Ryan broke off, a sadly bewildered look on her face.

There was silence.

Then she and Uncle Sidney spoke together:

'I've got to clean—' Mrs Ryan said.

'Can't you come —' said Uncle Sidney.

'Uncle Sidney. I've got to clean the front door today. And I
know — I know that as soon as I open the door the woman from
the next apartment will come out and pretend she's going to use the
garbage disposal. Do you realise what it's like living next to a
woman like that?'

Uncle Sidney's lined face dropped. 'Well, if you won't visit
your uncle you won't,' he said. 'Do you know how long it's been
since I saw you and him and the kids? Three months.'

'I'm sorry, Uncle Sidney.' Mrs Ryan looked at the floor,
noticing a smear on one of the tiles. 'You wouldn't come to see us,
I suppose ... ?'

'On my own ?' Uncle Sidney said contemptuously.

He cut the connection. Mrs Ryan sat by the kitchen table holding
the mouthpiece in her hand. She stood up slowly and replaced it.

It seemed to her that she could not get the cleaner and the spray
from the cupboard. She could not cross the kitchen and go through
the living room into the lobby. She could not, alone, open the
front door.

She could not open the front door.

She might...

Mrs Ryan's mind became dark, fearful, confused.

She was swept around the whirlpool of her brain, helpless and
still, in spite of herself, struggling.

She could not open the door.

She could not.

Mrs Ryan uttered a low moan and went into the bedroom.

Even in daylight the walls shimmered with many colours. The
bed was neatly covered with the white bedspread. The shining
dressing table was clear. Mrs Ryan picked up the only sign of
occupancy, a pair of Mr Ryan's outdoor shoes. She opened a
concealed cupboard and threw them in violently. She ran to the
window, pressed the button on the sill.

The blinds came down quickly.

The walls of the room glowed and flickered.

Mrs Ryan paced to and fro. Past the bed to the darkened window.
Back from the window to the bed. Back and forth.

She stopped and turned on soft, soothing music.

She ran out of the room and locked the front door.

She came back into the bedroom, shut that door, lay down on the
bed, listening to the music.

Even the music seemed slightly harsh today.

She closed her eyes and the faces came. She opened her eyes and

reached towards the bedside cupboard, took out her sleeping pills,
swallowed a pill and lay down again.

The music was almost raucous. She turned it off.

She lay in silence, waiting for sleep.

It was 11.23 a.m.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

Mrs Ryan began to dream.

She was walking across the field away from the house she had
lived in when she was eight. If she turned round she could see her
mother framed in the kitchen window, her head bent over the
stove. Behind her she could hear shouts of her brothers playing
hide-and-seek.

Mrs Ryan trod over the springy turf, dreamily floated over the
bright grass. She could hear birds singing in the trees at the edges of
the field.

Mrs Ryan was floating, floating over the fields, far from the
house. How sunny it was. How the birds sang. She was walking
again. She turned to look for the house but she was too far away.
She could not see it. The sky was darkening. She could only
dimly see the trees on either side of the field. She seemed to hear a
noise; a babble of talk. At once, ahead of her, she saw a dark
crowd approaching, talking among themselves. As they came
closer she could still not distinguish one person from another. She
had the impression that there were men, women and children.
But the mass was still a dark blur of heads, bodies, limbs, formless
and faceless. The crowd advanced, the cackle of voices growing
louder.

She stood transfixed in the field.

She could not move.

And the voices grew clearer.

'Look. There she is. She's there. She's really there.'

She felt the mood of the crowd change.

She felt a terrible fear.

'She's there. That's her. That's her. She's there. She's there.'

She stood rooted to the spot, her legs too heavy to carry her.

'She's there. She's there. That's her. That's her.'

The dark crowd began to run towards her. It yelled and cried out.

She could hear high, vengeful screams from the women. The

crowd was almost on her.

And Mrs Ryan woke with a start in her bedroom in the light of
the shimmering walls. She looked at the clock.

It was 11.31 a.m.

Trembling she lay there on the white bedspread, righting her
way out of the dream. She gazed blankly at the walls, blinking
her eyes to rid herself of the image of the black, blank faces of that
terrible crowd. She rose and walked heavily from the room.

She went into the kitchen and took a pill to clear her head.
Sighing, she removed the can of cleaner from the shelf, walked
through the living room, out into the lobby and up to the front door.
She put her hand on the latch.

Mrs Ryan hesitated, stiffened her back and opened the front
door. She crept outside, into the long corridor.

The corridor was bright and white. It stretched away from her
on either side. Set in the walls were the doors, all painted in fresh,
dark colours.

Slowly Mrs Ryan began to spray the cleaner on the surface of
the door. Once the door was covered with the white film she began
to rub it off, faster and faster.

Nearly done, she thought to herself, nearly done. Thank God,
thank God. Soon finished. Thank God.

Very slowly the blue door of the apartment opposite began to
open. A woman looked through the crack of the door. She and
Mrs Ryan stared at each other in shock. The woman's hand went
to her mouth. Mrs Ryan recovered herself first.

Leaving the door half covered in white cleaning fluid she ran back
inside her apartment and slammed the door. Almost at the same
moment the other woman shut her own door,

Mrs Ryan stood in the middle of her kitchen, gasping for breath.
"That bitch,' she said aloud. 'That bitch. What does she want to
persecute me for ? Why does she always do that to me ? Spying on
me all the time. Bitch, bitch, bitch.'

She went to the shelf, took down a bottle of capsules and
swallowed two. She went into the living room and fell down on the
plastic couch. She switched on the TV.

There was a picture of a family eating a turkey dinner. The
turkey and its trimmings were laid out brightly on a gay table.
The family — parents and three teenage children — were joking.
Mrs Ryan watched the programme with a faint smile curling
round her mouth.

She was soon asleep.

It was 11.48 a.m.

The boys woke her up.

She told them what bad happened and they told Ryan.
Ryan was sympathetic.

'You need a holiday, old girl,' he said. 'We'll see what we can do.'
'I'd rather not,' she said. 'I prefer to stay at home. It's just — the
interference from the neighbours. I'm proud of my home.'
'Of course you are. We'll see what we can do.'
It was 7.46 p.m.

Time passes so slowly,' she said.
'It depends how you look at it,' he replied.

*

She suffered a lot, thinks Ryan. Maybe I could have been more
helpful.

He shrugs the thought off. A pointless exercise. There was
nothing to be gained from self-recrimination. If one didn't like
what one had done, the best thing was to decide not to do it again
and leave it at that. That was the pragmatic attitude. The scientific
attitude.

He looks down at the sleeping face of his wife and he smiles
tenderly, touching the top of the container.

Even her condition improved once they had decided on their
goal. She was basically a sensible woman. Her condition was no
different from that of millions of others in the cities all over the
world.

If they had taken one of the abandoned houses in the country,
perhaps she would have been happier. But probably not. The
isolation of the places beyond the cities was pretty unbearable.

She had liked the country as a girl, of course. That was partly
what the dream was about, he guessed. That dream of hers. It had
recurred relatively frequently. Not unlike that recurring dream of
his.

He starts to pace between the containers, checking them
automatically.

What is Time, after all? Do we meet in our dreams?

Pointless, mystical speculation.

*

Everything seems to be in order. The containers are functioning
correctly. Ryan yawns and stretches, fighting off the sinking feeling
in his stomach, ignoring the impulse to wake at least some of the
occupants of the containers. They must not be awakened until the
ship nears the planet that is its destination.

This is his penance, his test, his reward.

*

He has one last look at his sleeping boys, then he leaves the
compartment and makes his way back to the main control cabin,
sends his report back to Earth. All is well aboard the spaceship
Hope Dempsey.

He writes a short entry in bis red log-book:

On the other side of those thin walls is infinite space. There is no
life for billions of miles. No man has ever been more alone.

*

In his cabin he takes three pills, disposes of his clothes, lies down.

As he begins to fall asleep a numb, desperate feeling tells him
that tonight could be another of those nights of fitful, nightmare-
ridden sleep. His routine demands that he sleep regularly. His
health will break if he does not. Ryan lies on his narrow couch
willing himself not to rise. The pills take effect and Ryan sleeps.

*

He dreams that he is in his office. It is dark. He has drawn the
blinds to shut out the city noise and the view of the shining office
towers opposite. He sits at his desk doing nothing. His hands are
curled on the desk before him. The fingernails are torn. He is
afraid.

He sees his wife in their flat. She is sitting in the darkened living-
room doing nothing.

He sees the bedroom in which his two sons lie sleeping under
heavy sedation. The youngest, five-year-old Alexander, groans in
his sleep, thrusts an arm, thin as a Foreigner's, out of the covers.
The arm dangles lifelessly down from his bed. He moans again.
His brother Rupert, who is twelve, lies on his back, eyes half open
in his coma, staring blindly at the ceiling.

Back in the living-room Ryan sees the hunched figure of his
wife. Again he sees himself sitting at his office desk staring into the
half dark.

The family is waiting.

It is waiting in fear.

It does not know what to expect.

It knows that it will come from the others.

There is a scratching noise behind him. Ryan, half-paralysed
with terror, turns slowly round to see what it is. He faces the
window now. The blind is shaking, as if it were being blown by the

wind. There is something behind the blind, something from out-
side, trying to enter the office. Ryan breathes in, holds his breath
hard in some animal instinct to make himself so immobile that he
will not be noticed. The blind shakes and shakes. A bony hand
comes through the fabric, leaving no gap or tear, merely sliding
through as if the material were smoke, or air. Ryan gazes at the
hand. It belongs to an old woman, thin fingered, with pronounced
tendons. The nails are painted red. There are three large rings; two
diamond ones on the middle finger, a large amethyst on the
slender, slightly curved, little finger. The hand appears to part the
blind and a face peers in.

It is the face of an old woman. The wrinkled eyelids are carefully
painted blue. The mouth is blackened, the lined cheeks powdered.
The old woman looks Ryan straight in the eyes and smiles, reveal-
ing yellow teeth, the edges slightly serrated with age. Ryan stares at
the old woman. She continues to give him a confidential, intimate
smile.

Her hand appears again, through another part of the blind.

It holds a pair of round, dark glasses.

The hand moved towards her face. It places the glasses over her
eyes. Then the hand disappears through the blind again, leaving
no gap or rent in it.

The old, blackened mouth continues to smile below the
obliterated eyes.

Then the old woman's face, in the centre of the blind, begins to
droop. The smile disappears, the lips begin to curve in a snarl.

Ryan is terrified.

He cannot scream.

He wants to say the following words:

I —DID —NOT

— but he cannot.

He cannot say the...
I __

He gets up from his bed. He is sweating. Naked, he leaves the
cabin and walks down the bright corridor, enters the main control
cabin and stares at the dancing, shifting indicators, at the ever
busy computer.

He listens to the faint hum of the engine which is propelling the
little pellet of steel through the void.

The computer has left him a message. He walks over to the
machine and reads it.

It says:
*******THERE IS A LOSS OF COMMUNICATION*******

******** *987654321000000000000'"""""""""/* ***********

****A LOSS**'""""""""PLEASE ENSURE THAT IN
FUTURE***INFORMATION IS GIVEN IN THE CORRECT
FORM""""REPEAT THE**CORRECT FORM"""""""
WHAT IS THE EXACT NATURE OF THE******SITUA-
TION REPEAT WHAT IS THE EXACT NATURE OF THE**
SITUATION REPEAT WHAT IS THE EXACT NATURE OF
THE*******SITUATION """"'""""""""***************

Uncomprehendingly Ryan stares at the message.

What has gone wrong ?

He has carried out his duties impeccably.

His days have been dedicated to order, the routine of the ship.

What has he done wrong?

Or — worse — what mistake can be occurring inside the
computer?

He rips off the printout and reads it, seeking a clue. It has all the
fluency and random lack of sense of a message from a ouija board.

And as he reads the computer spills out more:

******! CANNOT READ YOUR LAST MESSAGE UNLESS

**********INFORMATION IS GIVEN IN THE CORRECT
FORM""""I CANNOT**ASSIST""""""PLEASE REPEAT
YOUR LAST MESSAGE IN THE****CORRECT FORM****

Wearily Ryan organises the machine to rerun his last message.
It reads:

*******TRIUMPHANT IN THE BLOODY SKY AND

THE HUMAN FORM*IS NO MORE******************

I must control this sort of thing, thinks Ryan.

He wanders to the desk and takes out his red log-book. He
writes:

I must keep better control of things.

He struggles back to the computer and realises he has left his red
log-book on the desk. He weaves back to the desk and carefully,
but with great difficulty, puts the book in its drawer. Slowly, he
closes the door. He returns to the computer. He erases the messages
as best he can by condemning them to the computer's deepest
memory cells. He walks wearily from the control room.

I must control this sort of thing,

I must forget these nightmares.

I must maintain order.

It could wreck the computer and then I would be finished.

Everything depends on me.

Triumphant in the bloody sky and the human form ...

Ryan weeps.

He paces the corridor, back to his prison, takes three more pills
and sleeps.

He dreams of the factory. A huge hall, somewhat darker in
Ryan's dream than it was in reality. It is filled with large silent
machines. Only the throbbing of the tiled floor indicates the
activity of the machines.

At the end of each machine is a large drum into which spill the
parts used in the making of Ryan Toys.

There are the smooth heads, legs, arms and torsos of dolls; the
woolly heads, legs and torsos of lambs, tigers and rabbits; the
metal legs, heads and torsos of mechanical puppets. There are the
tiny powerpacs for the bellies of Ryan Toys; there are the metal
parts for Ryan Toys dredgers, oilpumps, spacecraft; there are the
great, shining grinning heads of Rytoy Realboys and Rytoy
Realgirls; the great probosces of Rytoy Realphants.

The vast machines turn out their parts steadily and inexorably.
As each drum fills it glides away and is replaced by another which
is, in turn, steadily filled.

Ryan is a witness to this scene. He knows that he will be involved
if they find out.

He sees a white-coated mechanic walk along the files of machines
and disappear through a door at the end of the hall.

Did the mechanic notice him?

The drums roll away and are replaced by empty ones.

Suddenly Ryan sees the parts rise, as if in weightlessness. They
join together, assembling in mid-air. As each toy is completed, or
as completed as it can be with the parts available, it sinks to the floor
of the hall and begins to operate.

A row of golden haired Realboys, lifesize but armless, revolve
slowly, singing Frere Jacques in their high voices.

A cluster of woolly lambs gambol mechanically, raising and
dipping their heads.

On the floor the large trunks of the Realphants plunge and rise.

The spacecraft hover a foot above the floor, emitting humming
noises.

Ryrobots strut and clank about, running into the machines and
toppling over. Two great heaps of musical building blocks chime
out the letters printed on their sides —

I AM A

I AM M

I AM U

The piles fall and tumble as Ryan kicks them.

The Realgirls link hands and dance around him, tossing their
blonde curls. The Ryan Battlewagons run about the floor, shooting
their miniature missiles.

Ryan looks fondly at the action, music and chatter of his toys.
The whole of the tiled floor is being gradually covered with toys in
motion. All these things are Ryan's — made and sold by Ryan.

He looks at the building blocks and smiles. Some have fallen and
spelled out: AMUSEMENT.

In the middle of this cheerful scene, Ryan ceases to dream and
falls fast asleep.

*

In accordance with the regulations ensuring that no member of
the government or the civil service could be identified save by his
rank (thus ensuring the absence of blackmail, bribery, favour
seeking and/or giving and so forth) the Man from the Ministry
wore a black cloth over his face. It had neat holes for his eyes and
his mouth.

Ryan, sitting behind his office desk, contemplated the Man from
the Ministry somewhat nervously.

'Will you have a cup of tea ?' he asked.

'I think not.'

Ryan could almost see the expression of suspicious distaste on
the man's face. He had made a tactical blunder.

'Ah ...' said Ryan.

'Mr Ryan ...' began the official.

'Yes,' said Ryan, as if in confirmation. 'Yes, indeed.'

'Mr Ryan — you seem unaware that this country is in a state
of war...'

'Ah. No.'

'Since Birmingham launched its completely unprovoked attack
on London, Mr Ryan, and bombed the reservoirs of Shepperton
and Staines, the official government of South England has had to
requisition a great deal of private industry if it has been discovered
that it has not been contributing to our war effort as efficiently as
it might...'

'That's a threat, is it ?' Ryan said thickly.

'A friendly tip, Mr Ryan.'

'We've turned over as fast as we can,' Ryan explained. 'We were
a bloody toy factory, you know. Overnight we had to change to
manufacturing weapon parts and communications equipment.
Naturally we haven't had a completely smooth ride. On the other

hand, we've done our best...'

'Your production is not up to scratch, Mr Ryan. I wonder if your
heart is in the war effort ? Some people do not seem to realise that
the old society has been swept away, that the Patriots are bent on
ordering an entirely new kind of nation now that the remnants of
the alien groups have been pushed back beyond the Thames.
Though attacked from all sides, though sustaining three hydrogen
bomb drops from France, the Patriots have managed to hold this
land of ours together. They can only do it with the full co-operation
of people like yourself, Mr Ryan.'

'We aren't getting the raw materials,' Ryan said. 'Half the things
we need don't arrive. It's a bloody shambles!'

'That sounds like a criticism of the government, Mr Ryan.'

'You know I'm a registered Patriot supporter.'

'Not all registered supporters have remained loyal, Mr Ryan.'

'Well, I am loyal!' Ryan half believed himself as he shouted at
the Man from the Ministry. He and the group bad decided early on
that the Patriots would soon hold the power and had taken the
precaution of joining the party. 'It's just that we can't work more
than ten bloody miracles a day!'

'You've got a week, I'm afraid, Mr Ryan.' The official got up,
closing his briefcase. 'And then it will be a Temporary Requisition
Order until our borders are secure again.'

'You'll take over?'

'You will continue to manage the factory, if you prove efficient.
You will enjoy the status of any other civil servant.'

Ryan nodded. 'What about compensation?'

'Mr Ryan,' said the official grimly, wearily, 'there is a dis-
credited cabinet that fled to Birmingham to escape retribution.
Among other things that was discovered about that particular
cabinet was that it was corrupt. Industrialists were lining their
pockets with the connivance of government officials. That sort of
thing is all over now. All over. Naturally, you will receive a receipt
guaranteeing the return of your business when the situation has
been normalised. We hope, however, that it won't have to happen.
Keep trying, Mr Ryan. Keep trying. Good luck to you.'

Ryan watched the official leave. He would have to warn the
group that things were moving a little faster than anticipated.

He wondered how things were in the rest of the world. Very few
reports came through these days. The United States were now Dis-
united and at war. United Europe had fragmented into thousands
of tiny principalities, rather as England had. As for Russia and the
Far East the only information he had had for months was that a

horde thousands of times greater than the Golden Horde was
sweeping in all directions. Possibly none of the information was
true. He hoped that the town of Surgut on the Siberian Plain was
still untouched. Everything depended on that.

Ryan got up and left the office.

It was time to go home.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

When he awakes he feels relieved, alert and refreshed. He
eats his breakfast as soon as he has exercised and walks to the
control room where he runs through all the routine checks and
adjustments until lunch-time.

After lunch he goes to the little gym behind the main control
cabin and vaults and climbs and swings until it is time to inspect
Hibernation.

He unlocks the door of Hibernation and makes a routine and
unemotional check. A minor alteration is required in the rate of
fluid flow on Number Seven container. He makes the alteration.

Again the routine checks, the reiteration during the normal
conference period.

He then does two hours study of the agricultural programmes.
He learns a great deal. It is a much more interesting subject that
he would have guessed.

Then it is time to report to the computer and read the log through
to Earth, if anyone is left on Earth to hear it.

He makes the last of his reports for this period:

'Day number one thousand four hundred and sixty-six. Space-
ship Hope Dempsey en route for Munich 15040. Speed steady at
point nine of c. All systems functioning according to original
expectations. No other variations. All occupants are comfortable
and in good health.'

Ryan goes to the desk and takes out his red log-book. He
frowns. Scrawled across a page are the words:

I MUST KEEP BETTER CONTROL OF THINGS

It hardly looks like his writing. Yet it must be.

And when did he write it? He has not had time to make any
entries in the log until now. It could have been at any time today.
Or last night. He frowns. When... ?

He cannot remember.

He takes a deep breath and he rules two heavy red lines under
the entry, writes the date below it and begins:

All continues well. I maintain my routine and am hopeful for the
future. Today I feel less bedevilled by loneliness and have more con-
fidence in my ability to carry out my mission. Our ship carries us
steadily onwards. I am confident that all is well, I am confident ——

He stops writing and scratches his head, staring at the phrase
above the entry.

I MUST KEEP CONTROL OF THINGS

I am confident that my period of nightmares and near-hysteria is
over. I have regained control of myself and therefore ——

He considers tearing out this page and beginning it afresh. But
that would not be in accord with the regulations he is following.
He sucks his lower lip...

am doubtless much more cheerful. The above phrase is something
of a puzzle to me, for at this point I cannot remember writing it.
Perhaps I was under even greater stress than I imagined and wrote it
last night after finishing the ordinary entry. Well, it was good advice
— the advice of this stranger who could only have been myself!

It gives me a slightly eery feeling, however, I must admit. I expect
I will remember when I wrote it. I hope so. In the meantime there is no
point in my racking my brains. The information will come when my
unconscious is ready to let me have it!

Otherwise — all O.K. The gloom and doom period is over — at
least for the time being. I am in a thoroughly constructive and
balanced state of mind.

He signs off with a flourish and, humming, puts the book in the
desk, closes the drawer, gets up, takes a last look around the
control room and goes out into the passage.

Before returning to his cabin, he goes to the library and gets a
couple of educational tapes.

In his cabin, he studies the programmes for a while and then
goes to sleep.

He dreams again.

He is on the new planet. A pleasant landscape. A valley. With
some sort of digging instrument he is working the soil. He is alone
and at peace. There is no sign of the spaceship or of the other
occupants. This does not worry him. He is alone and at peace.

*

Next morning he continues with his routine work. He eats, he
makes his formal log entries, he manages to get an extra hour of
study. He is beginning to understand the principles of agriculture.

He returns to the control room to make the last of his reports —
the standard one — which, according to his routine, he first enters
in his log-book and then reads out to the computer. He then sits
down and picks up his stylus to begin his private entry. He enters
the date.

Another pleasant and uneventful day spent largely in the pursuit
of knowledge! I am beginning to feel like some old scholar. I can
understand the attraction, suddenly, in the pursuit of information for
its own sake. In a way, of course, it is an escape — I can see that even
the most sophisticated sort of academic activity is at least in part a
rejection of the realities of ordinary living. My studies, naturally, are
perfectly practical, in that I will need a great deal of knowledge about
every possible kind of agriculture when we

The computer is flashing a signal. It wants his attention.

Frowning, Ryan gets up and goes over to the main console.

He reads the computer's message.

*******CONDITION OF OCCUPANTS OF CONTAINERS
NOT*****REPORTED*******************************
Ryan gasps. It is true. For the first time he has not checked the
Hibernation compartment. He realises now that he was so caught
up in his studies he must have forgotten. He replies to the com-
puter:

******REPORT FOLLOWS SHORTLY*****************

Reproving himself for this stupid lapse, relieved that the com-
puter is programmed to check every function he performs and to
remind him of any oversights, he marches along the corridor to the
Hibernation room.

He touches the stud to open the door.

But the door remains closed.

He presses the stud harder.

Still the door does not open.

Ryan feels a moment's panic. Could there be someone else
aboard the ship ? A stowaway of some kind who ... ?

He rejects the notion as stupid. And then he returns to the main
control cabin and gives the computer a question.

******HIBERNATION   COMPARTMENT   DOOR   WILL
NOT OPEN*****PLEASE ADVISE*********************
There is a pause before the computer replies:

******EMERGENCY LOCK EFFECTIVE""""""YOU
MUST*********DEACTIVATE AT MAIN CONSOLE*****
Ryan licks his lips and goes to the main console. He scans the
door plan and sees that the computer is correct. He touches a stud
on the console and cuts off the emergency lock. Was the mistake

his or the computer's. Perhaps the emergency lock was activated at
the same time as he made the mysterious log entry.

He returns to the Hibernation room and opens the door.

He enters the compartment.

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

The containers gleam a pure, soft white.
He walks to the first and inspects it. It contains his wife.

*

JOSEPHINE RYAN 9.9.1960. 7.3.2004.

-   *

His blonde, pink-faced wife, blue eyes peacefully closed, lies in
her green fluid. She looks so natural that Ryan half expects her to
open her eyes and smile at him. Josephine, heart of the ship, so glad
to be setting out on her great adventure, so glad to be free from the
torture of living in the city with its unbearable atmosphere of
hostility.

Ryan smiles as he remembers the eager step with which she came
aboard on the day of the take-off, how she had lost, almost over-
night, the sadness and the fear which had afflicted her — indeed,
which had been afflicting them all. He sighs. How pleasant to be
together again.

*

RUPERT RYAN. 13.7.1990. 6.3.2004.

*

ALEXANDER RYAN. 25.12.1996. 6.3.2004.

*

Ryan walks fairly quickly past the containers where his two
sons' immature faces gaze in startlement at the bright ceiling.

*

SYDNEY RYAN. 2.2.1937. 25.12.2003.

*

Ryan stares for a while at the wrinkled old face, lips slightly
drawn back over the false teeth, the thin muscley old shoulders
showing above the plastic sheet drawn over the main length of the
containers.

*

JOHN RYAN. 15.8.1963. 26.12.2003.

*

ISABEL RYAN. 22.6.1962. 13.2.2004.

*

Isabel. Still weary looking, even though at peace...

*

JANET RYAN. 10.11.1982. 7.5.2004.

*

Ah, Janet, thinks Ryan with a surge of affection.

He loved Josephine. But, by God, he loved Janet passionately.

He frowned. The problem had not been over when they went
into Hibernation. It would take a great deal of self-discipline on his
part to make sure that it did not start all over again.

*

FRED MASTERSON. 4.5.1950. 25.12.2003.

*

TRACY MASTERSON. 29.10.1973. 9.10.2003.

*

JAMES HENRY. 4.3.1957. 29.10.2003.

*

IDA HENRY. 3.3.1980.1.2.2004.

*

FELICITY HENRY. 3.3.1980.1.2.2004.

*

Everything is as it should be. Everybody is sleeping peacefully.
Only Ryan is awake.
He blinks.

Only Ryan is awake because it is better for one man to suffer
acute loneliness and isolation than for several to live in tension.
One strong man.
Ryan raises his eyebrows.
And leaves Hibernation.

*

Ryan reports to the computer:

JOSEPHINE RYAN. CONDITION STEADY.

   RUPERT RYAN  CONDITION STEADY.
ALEXANDER RYAN. CONDITION STEADY.
SIDNEY RYAN. CONDITION STEADY.
JOHN RYAN. CONDITION STEADY.
ISABEL RYAN. CONDITION STEADY.
JANET RYAN.

CONDITION STEADY.

FRED MASTERSON. CONDITION STEADY.
TRACY MASTERSON. CONDITION

STEADY.
JAMES

HENRY

CONDITION STEADY.
IDA HENRY. CONDITION STEADY.

FELICITY HENRY. CONDITION

STEADY.

The computer says:

******EARLIER YOU REPORTED YOURSELF LONELY*

***""""""DOES THIS CONDITION STILL OBTAIN******
Ryan replies:

******CONDITION EASIER SINCE THEN**************

He moves to his desk and picks up his diary.

He writes:

land.

A short while ago the computer reported an oversight of mine. I'd
forgotten to report on the condition of the personnel. The first time
I've done anything like that! And the last, I hope. Then I discovered
that the emergency locks in Hibernation had been sealed and I had
to come back and unseal them. I must have done that, too, when I
made the above entry. I feel relaxed and at ease now. The previous
mistakes and, I suppose, mild blackouts must have been the result of
the strain which I now seem to have overcome.

Ryan winds up the entry, closes the log, puts it away, leaves the

control room.

He goes to his cabin and sets aside the educational tapes. Too
much concentration, he thinks. Mustn't overdo it. It's incredible how
one has to watch the balance. A very delicate equilibrium involved
here. Very delicate.

He starts to watch an old Patriot propaganda play about the
discovery of a cell of the Free Yorkshire underground and its
eventual elimination.

He turns it off.

He hears something. He turns his head from the viewer.

It is a year since he heard a footstep not his own.

But now he can hear footsteps.

He sits there, feeling sweat prickle under his hair, listening to
what seems to be the sound of echoing steps in the passage outside.

There is some stranger aboard!

He listens as the steps approach the door of the compartment.
Then they pass.

He forces himself out of his chair and gets to the door. He
touches the stud to open the door. It opens slowly.

Outside the passageway stretches on both sides, the length of the
ship's crew quarters. The only sound is the faint hum of the ship's
system.

Ryan gets a glass of water and drinks it.

He switches the viewer back on, half smiling. Typical auditory
hallucination of a lonely man, he thinks. The programme ends.

Ryan decides to get some exercise.

He leaves his cabin and makes for the gym.

As he walks along the corridor he feels footsteps moving behind
him. He ignores the feeling with a shrug.

Then comes a moment's panic. He gives way to the impulse to
turn sharply.

There is, of course, no one there.

Ryan reaches the gym. He has the impression that he is being
watched as he runs through his exercises.

He lies down on a couch for fifteen minutes before beginning the
second half of the exercise routine.

He remembers family holidays on the Isle of Skye. That was in
the very early years, of course, before Skye was taken over as an
experimental area for research into algae food substitutes. He
remembers the pleasant evenings he and Josephine used to have
with Tracy and Fred Masterson. He remembers the evening walks
through the roof gardens with his wife. He remembers Christmases,
he remembers sunsets. He remembers the smell of the rain on the

fields of the place where he was born. He remembers the smell of
his toy factories — the hot metal, the paint, the freshly cut timber.
He remembers his mother. She had been one of the victims of the
short-lived Hospitals Euthanasia Act. The Act had been repealed
by the Nimmoites during their short period of power. The only
sensible thing they did, thinks Ryan.

He sleeps.

Once again he is on the planet, in the valley. But this time he is
panic-stricken that the ship and the others have left him. He begins
to run. He runs into the jungle. He sees a dark woman. He is in his
own toy factory among the dancing toys.

He takes pleasure at the sight of these things he has made. They
all function together so joyfully. He sees the musical building
blocks. They still spell out a word.

AMU...

With dawning fear he hears, above the bangs and clangs of the
mechanical toys, the drone of the dirge-like music which in other
dreams accompanies the dancers in the darkened ballroom.

The music rises, almost drowning out the sounds made by the
moving toys. Ryan feels himself standing rooted with fear in the
middle of his gyrating models. The music grows louder. The toys
spin to and fro, round and round. They begin to climb on top of
each other, lamb on dredger, girl doll on piles of bricks, making a
huge pyramid close to him. The pyramid grows and grows until it
is at the level of his eyes. The music grows louder and louder.

In his terror Ryan anticipates a point in the music when the
pyramid of still moving toys collapses on him.

He struggles to free himself from the toils of little mechanical
bodies.

As he struggles he awakes. He lies there and hears himself groan:

'I thought they were over. I've got to do something about it.'

He gets off the couch and abandons the idea of exercise.

He stares around at the exercising machines. 'I can remain
master of myself,' Ryan says.

'I can.'

He goes back to the control room, adjusts various dials, checks
that his time devices are working accurately and makes the
following statement to the computer:

*******! AM TROUBLED BY NIGHTMARES***********
The computer replies:

******! KNOW THIS""""""INJECT 1 CC PRODITOL PER*
DIEM""""""DO NOT TAKE MORE""""""DISCONTINUE
THE DOSE**AS SOON AS POSSIBLE AND AT ALL COSTS

AFTER 14 DAYS*** *********************************
Ryan rubs his lips.
Then he bites the nail of his right forefinger.

*

Ryan paces the ship.

Passageways, engine room, supplies room, exercise room,
control room, own cabin, spare cabins, observation room,
library...

He does not look at the door of the Hibernation room. He does
not walk along the passage towards the door.

He continues his angry prowling for half an hour or more,
trying to collect his thoughts.

The footsteps follow him most of the time. Footsteps he knows
do not exist.

Echoing up and down the passageways he begins to hear frag-
ments of the voices of his companions, the men and women now
suspended in green fluid in the containers that must remain sealed
until planetfall.

'Daddy! Daddy!' cries his youngest child Alexander.

Ryan hears the thud of his feet in the passage. He overhears an
argument between Ida and Felicity Henry: 'Don't keep telling me
how you feel. I don't want to know,' Felicity snaps at her pregnant
twin sister. 'You don't realise what it's like,' says the other on a
familiar note of complaint. 'No, no. I don't,' he hears Felicity say
hysterically. He hears the noise of a slap and Ida's weeping. A door
bangs. 'Let me see to it, Ryan,' he hears James Henry say im-
patiently. The voice seems to echo all over the ship. He hears Fred
and Tracy Masterson's feet coming rapidly along the passageway.
His wife Josephine is behind them. 'Daddy! Daddy!' The child's
feet come scudding up to him. Ryan turns his head this way and
that. Where are the sounds coming from ?

Janet Ryan sings, far away.

'Homeward bound, where the fields are like honey...'

Ryan cannot hear the words properly. He cranes his neck to
listen, but the words are still indistinct. Uncle Sidney is singing too.
'There was a man who had a mouse, hi-diddle-um-tum-ti-do; he
baked it in an apple pie; there was a man who had a mouse...'

Isabel Ryan's voice comes from somewhere around him. 'I
can't bear any more!'

Then the rumble of John Ryan, his brother, talking to her,
saying something Ryan cannot catch.

Janet singing.

Both boys are running, running, running...

And Ryan, in the centre of all this noise, sinks to the floor of the
passage, cocks his head, listening to the voices.

As he crouches there it seems to him that the voices must be
coming from the room at the end of the passage. Automatically he
gets to his feet and with a stiff gait starts to walk up the passageway
towards the door.

The voices grow louder.

'I hate to see a man playing at being indispensible. It benefits
neither him nor the people about him,' says James Henry.

'The Lord thy God is a jealous God and thou shall have no
other God than Him,' advises Uncle Sidney.

'Never mind, dear, never mind,' Isobel Ryan is telling someone.

Alexander is crying muffled sobs into the pillow.

Janet Ryan is singing in her high, clear voice: 'Homeward
bound, we're homeward bound, where the singing birds welcome
such lovers as we ...'

Ida and Felicity Henry are still arguing: 'Take it.' 'I don't want
to take it.' 'You must take it. It's what you need.' 'I know what I
need.' 'Be sensible. Drink it now.'

As Ryan reaches the door, the voices rise. As he touches the
stud, they are louder still.

Conversations, statements, songs, sobs, laughter, arguments, all
coming towards him in an indistinguishable medley.

Then the door is open.

The noises cease abruptly and Ryan is left in the silence, staring
at the thirteen containers, twelve full and labelled with the names
and dates of the occupants.

The owners of the voices lie there quietly in their pale fluid.
Ryan stands there in the doorway, suddenly realising again that
he is alone, that the noise has ceased, that he has opened the door
at an unscheduled time ...

His companions continue to sleep. Peaceful and unaware of the
torment he is undergoing, they are all at CONDITION STEADY.

Which is more than I am, thinks Ryan. Tears come to his eyes.

From the door he cannot see the people in the containers.

He counts the containers. There are still thirteen. He looks at the
thirteenth, his own. He draws in his breath. His lips curl back in a
frightened, feral snarl. He steps out into the passageway and
slams the heel of his hand against the door, shutting it.

He begins to run very slowly down the passage until he comes to
the end.

Then he leans against a bulkhead, breathing heavily.

He gasps and gasps again. Then he straightens his back and sets
off slowly for the control room.

I shall have to think about that injection, I might not be able to
carry on without it. I'd hoped to hold out longer than this. Doesn't do
to get too reliant on that sort of thing. It is supposed to be addictive,
after all.

Maybe one dose will do the trick. One might be all I  need.

At any rate, I daren't go on without it.

Ryan decides to have his first injection the next morning.

The Proditol is an enzyme inhibiting substance that works
directly on new cell matter entering the brain. It has the effect of
preventing the release of harmful substances into the cells, causing
lack of connection with the outside world and, thus, delusions.
Ryan, partly for pride's sake, partly for reasons he does not fully
understand, is very unwilling to take the drug.

But Ryan is dedicated to the ship, its occupants, its goal.

There is little he would not do in order to be able to continue
with the steady schedule of the ship and fulfill his responsibility
towards its occupants.

Ryan has made his decision.

Plenty of sleeping pills tonight and the Proditol tomorrow.

He goes to his sleeping compartment but then wanders back to
the main control room.

He asks for details of the action of the drug.

*******ICC PRODITOL " " " ICC PRODITOL ALSO MA—
19cccUSSR* ICC PRODITOL IS A FAST ACTING DRUG OF
THE ENZYME******INHIBITOR VARIETY " " " " " " "
IT BEGINS TO TAKE EFFECT***** WITHIN TEN MIN-
UTES OF INJECTION " " " " " " ITS FULL EFFECT* IS
FELT WTTHIN THE HOUR FOLLOWING " " " " " " AFTER
THIS**** THE MIND OF THE PATIENT SHOULD BE
RELIEVED OF ALL**** IMPRESSIONS OF A DELUSORY
NATURE " " " " " " IN THE*********SEVEREST CASES
THE DRUG WILL CONTROL ADVERSE*********SYMP-
TOMS FOR 24 HOURS AFTER WHICH: IF DELUSIONS

*******RETURN: A FURTHER INJECTION SHOULD BE
ADMINISTERED*****IN MANY CASES THIS WILL NOT
BE NECESSARY """""" IN NO**CIRCUMSTANCES:
HOWEVER: SHOULD THE DRUG BE ADMINISTERED*
DAILY FOR MORE THAN 14 DAYS*******************
Ryan acknowledges the message and walks to the control
room's main 'porthole'. He activates the screen and looks out at

space. The holographic illusion is complete.

Space and the distant suns, the tiny points of light so far away.

Ryan's brows contract.

He notices trails in the blackness. They appear to be wisps of
vapour and yet they are plainly not escaping from the ship. It is
something like smoke from an open fire, trailing in the dark.

He passes his hand across his eyes and peers forward again.
The trails are still there.

He is alarmed. He casts his mind over the data he has accumu-
lated, hoping to think of something that will account for the vapour.

Could they be left by the ships of another space-travelling race ?

It must be a possibility.

Meanwhile the wisps continue to rise. There are more and more
of them now. They swirl together, break apart and reform.

Ryan, to his horror, begins to hear a faint noise, a kind of
buzzing and ringing in his ears. As the noise begins the gases
begin to unite, to shape themselves. Once again Ryan passes a
hand over his eyes.

The noises in his ears continue. As he looks out of the porthole
once more a terrible suspicion comes over him.

And instantly, staring at him gravely, with a small, malicious
smile on her lips, is the old woman. Her eyes are shielded by the
round dark glasses. She is black-lipped, her old skin covered in
powder. She puts the clawlike hand to the window and is gone.

Ryan gasps and is about to turn from the window in panic
when he sees the shapes ahead of him. Out there in space are the
whirling figures of his nightmare, the figures of the insane dancers
in the darkened ballroom.

They are far away.

Ryan hears their music in his ears. As they dance, slowly and
proudly, to the distant chant he watches, paralysed, as they come
closer to the ship.

He sees their stiff bodies, their plump, respectable faces, the
expensive dark brocades of the women's dresses, the good dark
suits of the men. He observes the well-nurtured upright bodies, the
straight backs, the air of dignity and comportment with which
they circle, so correctly, in time to the music.

The dark circles which are their eyes stare blindly at each other.
Their faces are rigid below the dark glasses. They circle through
the void towards Ryan and the music becomes louder, more
solemn, more threatening.

'Daddy! Daddy!'

Alexander is crying.

Ryan is unable to move. Cold light falls on the dancers. They
come closer to the ship, closer to Ryan, standing terrified at his
window.

'DADDY!'

Ryan hears the insistent voice and frowns. Is Alex really up ?

Ryan smiles. The boy was never one to stay in bed if he could help
it.

But Alexander Ryan is not in bed. He is in hibernation.

The dancers dance on.

They are not real. Ryan realises that he should give his attention
to his son, not to the illusory dancers out there in space. They can't
get in. They can't confront him. They can't take off, in one terrible
gesture, the glasses which encircle their eyes, revealing...

'GET BACK TO BED ALEX!'

They are very close now. The music slows. They are just a few
paces from the ship. They turn to face Ryan with their blinded
eyes. Slowly they take a step.

One step ...

Two steps...

Three steps towards Ryan.

They are clustered, some thirty of them, a foot from Ryan,
standing just outside the window. And then Ryan realises with
greater terror that it has been an illusion. The dancers were not
outside. What he was seeing was a reflection in the window. The
dancers are actually behind him. They have been in the ship all the
time. He dare not turn. He stares instead into the mirror.

They stare back.

Then Ryan sees the other. Behind the crowd of dancers are his
friends and relatives. All stare at him from blank eyes. All stare at
him as if they do not know him. As if, indeed, he does not exist for
them.

Josephine — her plump face expressionless, her blonde hair
tumbling to her plump shoulders, cruel in her indifference.

His two sons, Alexander and Rupert, startled expressions in
their round eyes. Uncle Sidney, his stringing arm gripping the two
boys round their thin shoulders, his lips drawn back in a snarl, his
eyes on an object somewhere above Ryan's head.

There are the Henry twins, one healthy, one tired by pregnancy,
but hand in hand and staring through Ryan with identical hazel
eyes. There is Tracy Masterson, looking vacuously past Ryan's
left shoulder. There is Fred Masterson, Ryan's oldest friend, a
sympathetic expression on his face. There is brother John, puzzled,
tired, uncomprehending. There is Isabel, looking bitterly at John.

There is James Henry, red hair gleaming in the mirror-light,
glaring meaninglessly through Ryan.

And as he looks, Ryan sees the dancers in front take their last
step towards him. He wheels to face them.

He stares into the cool, orderly control room. The screens, the
dials, the indicators, the instruments, the computer console.
Grey and green, muted colours, quite ...

He looks back at the porthole. There is only blackness.

In one way this seems worse to Ryan. He begins to beat at the
porthole, howling and cursing.

'Where are you? Where are you? You shits, you cunts, you
bastards, you bleeders, you fuckers, you horrors ...'

They are there again. Not the dancers. Only his friends and rela-
tives. But they still cannot see him.

He waves to them, mouths friendly words at them. They do not
understand. They come a little closer.

And suddenly Ryan feels their malice, is shocked and horrified.
He looks at them and his expression is puzzled. He tries to signal
to them — that they know him, that he is their friend.

They crowd closer.

'Let us in!' they cry. 'Let us in. Let us in. Let us in. Let us in. Let
us in. Let us in. Let us in.'

The clamour around the ship increases. Hands claw at the window.
Hands tear their way through the fabric of the porthole.

'You fools! You'll destroy the ship. Be sensible. Wait!' Ryan
begs them. 'You'll bring the deaths of all of us! Don't — don't —
don't!'

But they are ripping the whole of the wall away, exposing it to
frigid space.

'You'll wreck the expedition! Stop it!'

They cannot hear him.

His throat is tight.

He faints.

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

Ryan is lying on the floor of the control room. His sleeve is
rolled up and an ampoule of ICC Proditol lies near him. The
ampoule is empty.
He blinks. At some point he must have realised what he had to do

to stop the hallucinations. He is impressed by his own strength of
will.

'How are you now?'

He knows the voice. He feels fear, then relief. It is his brother
John's voice. He looks up. His jacket has been folded under his
head.

John, stalwart and stolid, looks down at him.

'You were in a bad way, old son!'

'John. How did you wake up ?'

'Something to do with the computer, I think. There's probably
an emergency waking system if anything happens to the man on
duty.'

'I'm glad of that. I was a real idiot to carry on on my own. I
realised everything else about my condition except the extent of
the strain. I was insisting to myself that I didn't need anyone else
to help me.'

'Well, you're okay now. I'll help you. You can go into hiber-
nation if you like ... ?'

'No, that won't be necessary,' Ryan says hastily. 'I'll be able to
manage now I've got someone to share my troubles with.' He
laughs feebly. 'It's just plain old-fashioned loneliness.' He
shudders. He still thinks he can see things in the corners of his eyes.
'I hope.'

'Of course,' says John. He is convinced, he isn't just trying to
humour Ryan. John was always a hard man to convince, therefore
Ryan is satisfied.

'Thank God for the emergency system, eh?' says John a trifle
awkwardly.

'Amen to that,' says Ryan.

He wishes the emergency system had awakened that other
member of John's family his young wife Janet. If someone had to
be awake... He dismisses the thought and gets up. Being with John
is almost like being alone, he thinks, for John is not the most
voluble of men. Still...

Ryan gets up. John is efficiently checking the instruments.

'You'd better get off to your bed, old chap,' says John. 'I'll look
after things here.'

Gratefully Ryan goes to his cabin.

*

He lies in the dark, grateful for the drug which has driven away

his visions, slightly nervous of the fact that John has joined him.

John probably knows about the affair he had with Janet, John's

younger wife. Perhaps he doesn't care.

Then again, perhaps he does. John isn't a particularly vengeful
man, but it would be just as well to be on guard.

Ryan remembers the other affair he had. The affair with Sarah
Carson — old Carson's daughter...

*

Carson's toy business had been Ryan's closest competitor.
Carson was Chairman of Moonbeam Toys and had known Ryan
for years. They had both started off with Saunders Toys in the old
days and had been running pretty much neck and neck ever since.
Their rivalry had been a friendly one and they often met for lunch
or dinner before the habit of communal eating became unfashion-
able. When that happened they would still converse over the video..

Carson became a fanatical Patriot one day and, as far as Ryan
was concerned, no longer worth speaking to. But by this time it was
evident that the Patriots were by far the most powerful political
group in the country and Ryan decided it would do him no harm
to be Carson's friend. He even attended some meetings with Carson
and other Patriots, registering himself as a member.

It was at one of these meetings that he met Sarah, a tall beautiful
girl of twenty-two, who did not seem particularly convinced by
her father's views.

Josephine was going through a particularly bad time, as were
the two boys. All three of them spent two-thirds of the day under
sedation and Ryan himself, though he sympathised with their
problems, needed some form of relaxation.

The form of relaxation he chose was Sarah Carson. Or, rather,
she chose him. The moment she saw him, she made a heavy play
for him.

They took to meeting at an all but finished hotel. For a few
shillings they could hire a whole suite. The bottom had dropped
out of the hotel business by that time. Very few people trusted
hotels or liked to leave home.

Sarah pulled Ryan out of his depression and gave him something
to look forward to at night. She was passionate and she had
stamina. Ryan took to sleeping during the day.

Ryan used the Patriot meetings as an excuse and continued, with
Sarah and her father, to turn up at several.

Then Carson had an argument with the rest of his group.
Carson had lately formed the opinion that the Earth, far from being
a planet circling through space, was in fact a hollowed out 'bubble'
in an infinity of rock. Instead of walking about on the outside of a

sphere, we were walking about on the inside of one.

Carson went off to form his own group and soon had a healthy
following who shared the Hollow Earth belief with him. Sarah
continued to go with her father to his meetings (she knew he had a
weak heart and also acted, sometimes, as his chauffeur).

Then Carson formed the impression that Ryan was an enemy.
Sarah told Ryan this.

'It's the old story — if you're not with me, you're against me.
He's getting a bit funny lately ' she said. 'I'm worried about his
heart.' She stroked Ryan's chest as they lay together in the hotel
bed. 'He's told me to stop seeing you, darling.'

'Are you going to?'

'I think so.'

'Just to humour him? He's eligible for a nut-house now, you
know. Even the bloody Patriot fanatics think he's barmy.'

'He's my old dad,' she said. 'I love him.'

'You're hung up on him, if you ask me.'

'Darling, I wouldn't have gone for you if I didn't have a hefty
father complex, would I?'

Ryan felt anger. Stupid old fool, Carson! And now his daughter
trying to put him down.

'That was clever,' he said bitterly. 'I didn't know you had such
sharp knives in your arsenal.'

'Come off it, darling. You brought it up. Anyway, I was only
joking. You're not at all bad for your age.'

'Thanks.'

He got up, scowling.

He put a glass under the tap in the wash-basin and filled it with
water. He sipped the water gingerly and then threw it down the
sink. 'Christ. I'm sure they're putting something in the water,
these days.'

'Haven't you heard?' She stretched out in the bed. Her body
was near-perfect. She seemed to be taunting him with it. "There's
everything in the water — LSD, cyanide, stuff to rot your brain —
you name it!'

He grunted. 'Sure. I think it's probably just dead rats ...' He
got his shirt and began to put it on. 'It's time we were going. It's
nine o'clock. The curfew starts at ten.'

'You don't want one last fuck. For old time's sake?'

'You mean it then. About not seeing each other again.'

'I mean it, darling. Make no mistake. The condition he's in, it
would kill him ...'

'He'd be better off dead;'

'That's as may be.' She swung her long legs off the bed and began
to dress. 'Will you give me a lift home ?'

'For old time's sake...'

The mixture of rage and depression was getting on top of him.
He tried to shrug it off, but it got worse. With all his business
worries — production falling, custom declining, debts unpaid —
he didn't need this. He knew there was no chance of her changing
her mind. She was a direct girl. Her pass at him had been direct.
Now the brush-off was direct. He hadn't realised how much she
had been bolstering his ego. It was ridiculous to rely on something
like that. But he had been. His feelings now told him so.

They left the hotel. The sun was red in the sky. His car was in
the street outside. The curfew seemed pretty pointless, for there
was hardly anyone in Oxford Street at all.

Ryan stood by the car looking at the ruins of the burnt-out
department stores, the gutted office blocks, mementos of the Winter
Riots.

Sarah Carson looked out of the window. 'Admiring the view,'
she said. 'You're a bit of a romantic on the quiet, aren't you?'

'I suppose I am,' he said as he climbed into the car and started
the engine. 'Though I've always considered myself a realist.'

'Just a selfish romantic.'

'You're making it harder than you need to,' he said as he took
the car down the street.

'Sorry. I'm not much of a sentimentalist. You can't afford to be,
these days.'

'You want me to take you all the way back to Croydon?'

'You don't expect me to walk through the Antifem zone, do
you?'

'Zone? Have they got control of a whole area now?'

'All but. They're trying to set up their own little state in Balham
— allowing no women in at all. Any woman they catch, they kill.
Lovely.'

Ryan sniffed. They might have the right bloody attitude.'

'Don't get morbid, sweetie. Can we go round Balham?'

'It's the quickest route since the Brighton Road got blown to bits
in Brixton.'

'Try going round the other side, then.'

'I'll see.'

They drove for a while in silence.

London was bleak, blackened and broken.

'Ever thought of getting out?' Sarah said as he drove down
Vauxhall Bridge Road, trying to avoid the potholes. He had begun

to feel slightly sick. Partly her, he thought, and partly the damned
agoraphobia.

'Where is there to go ?' he said. 'The rest of the world seems to be
worse off than England.'

'Sure.'

'And you need money to live abroad,' he said. 'Since nobody
recognises anyone else's currency any more, what would I live on ?'

'You think people are going to buy a lot of toys this Christmas ?'
She was looking at the completely flattened houses on the right.

His depression and his anger grew. He shrugged. He knew she was
right.

'You and my old dad are in the wrong business,' she said cheer-
fully. 'At least he had the sense to go into politics. That's a bit more
secure — for a while, at any rate.'

'Maybe.' He drove over the bridge. It shook as he crossed.

'A strong wind'll finish that,' she said.

'Shut up, Sarah.' He gripped the wheel hard.

'Oh God. Try to finish this thing off gracefully, darling. I thought
you were such a good business man. Such a cunning bastard. Such
a cool bird, working out all the odds. That's what you told me.'

'No need to throw it in my face. I've got plans, my love, that you
haven't an inkling of.'

'Not the spaceship idea!' She laughed.

'How—?'

'You didn't tell me darling. I went through your briefcase a
couple of weeks ago. Are you really serious? You're not going to
take thirteen people to Siberia and steal that U.N. spaceship that's
been standing idle for the last year.'

'It's ready to go.'

'They're still bickering over who owns what bit of it and whose
nationals have got a right to go in it. It'll never take off.'

Ryan smiled secretly.

'You're nuttier than my old man, sweetie!'

Ryan scowled.

'Wait till I tell my friends,' she said. 'I'll be dining out on it for
weeks.'

'You'd better not tell anyone, my love,' He spoke through his
teeth. 'I mean it.'

'Come on, darling. We all have our illusions, but this is ridicu-
lous. How would you fly one of those things?'

'It's fully automatic,' he said. 'It's the most sophisticated piece
of machinery ever invented.'

'And you think they're going to let you pinch it ?'

'We're already in touch with the people at the station,' he said.
They seem to agree we can do it.'

'How are you in touch with them ?'

'It's not hard, Sarah. Old-fashioned radio. For some time a few
scientifically minded pragmatists like myself have been working
towards a way of getting out of this mess, since it seems impossible
to save the human race from sinking back to the Dark Ages...'

'You could have saved it once,' Sarah said, turning to look
directly at him. 'If you hadn't been so bloody careful. So bloody
selfish!'

'It wasn't as simple as that.'

'Your generation and the generation before that could have
done something. The seeds of all this ridiculous paranoia and
xenophobia were there then. God — such a waste! This century
could have been a century of Utopia. You and your mothers and
fathers turned it into Hell.'

'It might look like that.. .'

'Darling, it was like that.'

He shrugged.

'And now you're getting out,' she said. 'Leaving the mess behind.
Your talk of "pragmatism" is so much bloody balls! You're as
much an escaper as my poor daft old dad! Maybe more of one —
and less pleasant, for that — because you might fucking succeed!'

They were driving through Stockwell. The sun was setting but
no street lighting came on.

'You feel guilty because you're letting me down, don't you?' he
said. 'That's what all this display is about, isn't it ?'

'No. You're a good fuck. But I never cared much for your
character, darling.'

'You'll have to go a long way to find a better one in these dark
days.' He tried to say it as a joke, but it was evident he believed it.

'Selfish and opinionated,' she said. 'Pragmatism. Ugh!'

'I'll drop you off here then, shall I?'

He stopped the car. It sank on its cushion of air.

She peered out into the darkness.'Where's "here" ?'

'Balham,' he said.

'Don't play games, darling. Let's get this over with. You were
taking me all the way to Croydon, remember.'

'I'm a bit tired of your small-talk — darling.'

'All right.' She leaned back. 'I'll button my lip, I promise. I'll
say nothing until we get to Croydon and then I'll give you a sweet
"thank you".'

But he had made his decision. It wasn't malice. It was self-

preservation. It was for Josephine and the boys, and for the group.
He wasn't enjoying what he was doing.

'Get out of the car, Sarah.'

'You take me bloody home the way you said you would!'

'Out.'

She looked into his eyes. 'My God, Ryan ...'

'Go on.' He pushed her shoulder, leaned over her and opened
the door. 'Go on.'

'Jesus Christ. All right.' She picked up her handbag from the seat
and got out of the car. 'It's something of a classic situation. But a
bit too classic really. The sex war's hotted up in this part of the
world.'

'That's your problem,' he said.

'I'm not likely to get out of this alive, Ryan.'

That's your problem.'

She took a deep breath. 'I won't tell anyone about your stupid
spaceship idea, if that's what's worrying you. Who'd believe me,
anyway?'

'I've got a family and friends to worry about, Sarah. They believe
me.'

'You dirty shit.' She walked off into the darkness.

They must have been waiting for her all the time because she
screamed — a high-pitched, ugly scream — she cried out for him
to help her. Her second scream was cut short.

Ryan closed the door of the car and locked it. He started the
engine and switched on the headlights.

He saw her face in the lights. It stuck out above the black mass
of Antifems in their monklike robes.

It was only her face.
,.   Her body lay on the ground, still clasping her handbag.

Her head was on the end of the pole.

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

Ryan lies in his bunk with his log-book and his stylus. He
has been there for two days now. John comes in occasionally,
but doesn't bother him, realising that he does not want to be
disturbed. He lets Ryan get his own food when he wants to and
looks after the running of the ship. To make sure that Ryan rests,
he has even turned off the console in Ryan's cabin.

Ryan spends most of his time with the log-book. He removed it
from the desk originally to make sure that John didn't come across
it.

He reads over the first entry he made when he brought it back to
the cabin.

What I did to Sarah can be justified, of course, in that she could
have ruined this project. I had to be sure nothing wrecked it. The
fact that we are all safe and aboard is evidence that I took the right
precautions — trusting no one outside the group — making sure that
everything was done with the utmost secrecy. We kept contact only
with the Russian group—about the last outpost of rational humanity
that we knew about.

Would I have done it in that way if she had not turned me down in
such an unpleasant manner ? I don't know. Considering the state of
things at the time, I behaved no worse, no less humanely, than any-
one else. You had to fight fire with fire. And if it — and certain other
things — is on my conscience, at least it isn't on anyone else's
conscience. The boys are clean. So is Josephine. So are most of the
others . . .

He sighs as he reads the entry over. He shifts his body in the bunk.

'All right, old chap?'

John has come, as silently as ever, into the cabin. He looks a
trifle tired himself.

'I'm fine.' Ryan closes the book quickly. 'Fine. Are you all right ?'

'I'm coping very well. I'll let you know if anything crops up.'

'Thanks.'

John leaves. Ryan returns his attention to the log, turning the
pages until he comes to a fresh one.

He continues writing:

There is no doubt about it. I have blood on my hands. That's
probably the reason I've been having bad dreams. Any normal,
half-way decent man would. I took it on myself to do, at least. I
didn't involve anyone else.

When we hijacked the Albion transport, I had hoped there
would be no trouble. Neither would there have been, I think, if the
crew had been all English. Incredible! I always knew the Irish were
excitable, but that stupid fellow who tried to get the gun from me in
mid-air deserved all he got. He must have been Irish. There's no
other explanation. I was never a racialist, but one had to admit that
there were certain virtues the English have which other races don't
share. I suppose that is racialism of a sort. But not the unhealthy
sort. I was horrified when I heard that the foreigners in the camps
were being starved to death. I would have done something about it if

I could. But by that time it had gone too far. Maybe Sarah was right.
Maybe I could have stopped it if I hadn't been so selfish. I always
considered myself to be an enlightened man — a liberal man. I was
known for it.

He stops again, staring at the wall.

The rot had set in before my day. H-bombs, nuclear radiation,
chemical poisoning, insufficient birth control, mismanaged eco-
nomics, misguided political theories. And then —panic.

And no room for error. Throw a spanner in the works of a society
as sophisticated and highly tuned as ours was and — that's it.
Chaos.

They tried to bring simple answers to complicated problems. They
looked for messiahs when they should have been looking at the prob-
lems. Humanity's old trouble. But this time humanity did for itself.
Absolutely.

It is odd, he thinks, that I will never know how it all turned out.
Just as well, of course, from the point of view of our kids. We left
just in time. They were bombing each other to smithereens ...

Another few days, he writes, and we wouldn't have made it. I
timed it pretty well, all things considered.

*

Ryan had led the party out to London Airport where the big
Albion transport was preparing to take off on its bombing mission
over Dublin. They were all in military kit for Ryan was posing as a
general with his staff.

They had driven straight out on to the runway and were up the
steps and into the plane before anyone knew what had happened.

At gunpoint Ryan had told the pilot to take off.

Within quarter of an hour they were heading for Russia ...

It had been over the landing strip on the bleak Siberian Plain
that the Irishman — he must have been an Irishman — had pan-
icked. How an Irishman had managed to remain under cover with-
out revealing his evident racial characteristics, Ryan would never
know.

For two hours Ryan had sat in the co-pilot's seat with his
Purdy automatic trained on the pilot while Henry and Masterson
looked after the rest of the crew and John Ryan and Uncle Sidney
stayed with the families.

Ryan was tired. He felt drained of energy. His body ached and
the butt of the gun was slippery with the sweat from his hands. He
felt filthy and his flesh was cold. As the Albion came down through
the clouds he saw the huge spaceship standing on the launching

field. It was surrounded by webs of gantries, like a caged bird of
prey, like Prometheus bound.

His attention was on the ship when the Irish pilot leapt from his
seat.

'You damned traitor! You disgusting renegade ...' The pilot
lunged for the gun, screaming at the top of his voice, his face
writhing with his hatred and his insanity.

Ryan fell back, pressing the trigger. The Purdy muttered and a
stream of tiny explosive bullets hit the pilot all over bit chest and
face and his bloody body collapsed on top of Ryan.

Pilotless, the big transport began to shake.

Ryan pushed the body off him and reached up to throw the
lever that would put the plane automatically on Emergency
Landing Procedure. The plane's rockets fired and the transport
juddered as its trajectory was arrested. It began to go down
vertically on its rockets.

Ryan wiped the sweat from his lip and then retched. He had
smeared the pilot's blood all over his mouth. He cleaned his face
with his sleeve, watching as the plane neared the ground, screaming
towards the overgrown airstrip to the north of the launching field.

John Ryan put his head into the cabin 'My God! What
happened?'

'The pilot just went mad,' Ryan said hoarsely. 'You'd better
check everyone's got their safety belts on, John. We're going to
make a heavy landing.'

The Albion was close to the ground now, its rockets burning
the concrete strip. Ryan buckled his own safety belt.

Five feet above the ground the rockets cut out and the plane
belly-flopped on to the concrete.

Shaken, Ryan got out of his seat and stumbled into the crew
section. Alexander was crying and Tracey Masterson was screaming
and Ida Henry was moaning, but the rest were very quiet.

'John,' Ryan said. 'Get the doors open and get everybody out
of the plane as soon as possible will you ?' He still held the Purdy.

John Ryan nodded and Ryan went aft to where Masterson and
Henry were covering the rest of the crew.

'What was all that about ?' James Henry said suspiciously. 'You
trying to kill us all, Ryan?'

The pilot lost his head. We had to make an emergency rocket-
powered landing — vertical.' Ryan looked over the rest of the
crew — four boys and a woman of about thirty. They all looked
scared. 'Did you know your captain was Irish?' Ryan asked
them. 'And you were going to bomb Dublin? You can bet your

life he was going to try and make a landing.'

The crew stared at him incredulously.

'Well, it was true,' Ryan said. 'But don't worry. I've dealt with
him.'

The woman said: 'You murdered him. Is that what you did?'

'Self-defence,' said Ryan. 'Self-defence isn't murder. All right,
Fred — Henry — you go and help everybody get off this bloody
plane.'

The woman said: 'He was no more Irish than I am. Anyway,
what does it matter?"

'No wonder your people are losing,' Ryan answered contemptu-
ously.

When everyone was off the ship Ryan shot the crew. It was the
only safe thing to do. While they were alive there was a chance that
they would seize control of the Albion and do something foolish.

#

Tishchenko was a harried-looking man of about fifty. He gravely
shook hands with Ryan and then guided him by the elbow across
the barren concrete towards the control buildings. The wind was
cold and moaned. Beyond the launching site, the plain stretched
in all directions, featureless and green-grey. Ryan's people trudged
behind them.

Tishchenko was the man whom Ryan had contacted originally.
The contact had been made through Allard who had been one of
the people vainly trying to keep the U.N. together in the last days.
Allard, an old school-friend of Ryan's, had been sent to a Patriot
camp not long after he had put Ryan in touch with Tishchenko.

'It is a great pleasure,' said Tishchenko as they entered the
building that had been converted to living quarters. It was cold and
gloomy. 'And something of an achievement that, in the midst of
all this insane xenophobia, a little international group of sane men
and women can work together on a project as important as this one.'
He smiled. 'And it's good to be able to look at a woman again, I
can tell you.'

Ryan was tired. He nodded, rubbing his eyes. One of the reasons
the Russian group had been so eager to deal with his group was
because of the number of women he could bring with him.

'You are weary?' Tishchenko said. 'Come.'

He led them up two flights of stairs and showed them their
accommodation. Camp beds had been lined around the walls of
three rooms. 'It is about the best we can provide,' Tishchenko
apologised. 'Amenities are few. Every thing had to go to the ship.'

He went to the window and drew back the blankets that covered it.
There she is.'

They gathered around the window and looked at the spacecraft.
She towered into the sky.

'She has been ready to fly for two years.' Tishchenko shook his
head. 'It has taken two years to provision her. The civil war here,
and then the Chinese invasion, is what protected us. We were all
but forgotten about...'

'Who else is here now?' Ryan asked. 'Just Russians?'

Tishchenko smiled. 'Just two Russians — myself and Lipche. A
couple of Americans, a Chinese, two Italians, three Germans, a
Frenchman. That's it.'

Ryan drew a deep breath. He felt odd. The shock of the killings,
he supposed.

'I'll be back in a few minutes to take you down to dinner,'
Tishchenko told him.

Ryan looked up.'What?'

'Dinner. We all eat together on the floor below.'

'Oh, I see...'

'I couldn't,' said Josephine Ryan. 'I really couldn't...'

'We're not used to it, you see,' said James Henry. 'Our customs
— well...'

Tishchenko looked puzzled and very slightly perturbed. 'Well,
if you'd like to arrange to bring the food up here, I suppose we can
do that... Then perhaps we can meet after meals. You have been
in the thick of things, of course. We have been isolated. We haven't
really experienced...'

'Yes,' said Ryan, 'it has been very nasty. I'm sorry. Some of
our social sicknesses have rather rubbed off on us. Give us a day
or two to settle. We'll be all right then, I'm sure.'

'Good,' said Tishchenko.

Ryan watched him leave. He sensed a certain antipathy in the
Russian's manner. He hoped there would not be trouble with him.
Russians could not always be trusted. For one moment he won-
dered if they had been led into a complicated trap. Could this team
of scientists just be after the women ? Would they dispense with the
men now that they had served their purpose?

Ryan pulled himself together. An irrational idea. He would have
to watch himself more carefully. He had had no sleep for two
nights. Get some rest now, he told himself, and you'll be your old
self in the morning.

*

The thirteen English people and the eleven scientists toured the
ship.

'It is all completely automatic,' said Schonberg, one of the
Germans. He smiled and patted Alexander on the head. 'A child
could run it.'

The English party, rested and more relaxed, were in better
spirits. Even James Henry, who had been the most suspicious of all,
seemed better.

'And your probes proved conclusively that there are two planets
in the system capable of supporting human life,' he said to
Boulez, the Frenchman.

The French scientist smiled. 'One of them could be Earth. About
the same amount of land and sea, very similar ecology. There was
bound to be a planet like it somewhere — we were just lucky to
discover one this early.'

Buccella, one of the Italians, was taking a strong interest in
pointing out certain features of the ship to Janet Ryan.

Typical Italian, thought Ryan.

He glanced at his brother John who was listening carefully as
Shan, the Chinese, tried to explain about the regeneration units.
Shan's English was not very good.

*

Back in their own quarters, Ryan asked his brother: 'Did you
notice that Italian, Buccella, and Janet together?'

'What do you mean "together" ?' John said with a grin.

Ryan shrugged. 'It's your problem.'

The preparations continued swiftly. News came in of massive
nuclear bombardments taking place all over the globe. They took
to working night and day, resting when they could no longer keep
their eyes open. And at length the ship was ready.
Buccella, Shan and Boulez were going on the ship with the
others. The rest were staying behind. Their job was to get the ship
off the ground. They were taking over the duties of some fifty
technicians.

Lift-off day arrived.

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Ryan scratches his nose with the tip of his stylus. He writes:

One could not afford to be sentimental in those days. Perhaps when
we land on the new planet we can relax and indulge all those pleasant
human vices. It would be nice to feel at peace again, the way one did
as a child.

He shifts in his bunk and looks up.

'Good God, Janet. You're up!'

Janet Ryan smiles down at him. 'We're all up. John thought it
wisest.'

'I suppose he knows what he's doing. It's not part of the
original plan.'

'John wants to see how it works out. Can I get you anything?'

He grins. 'No thanks, love. I've got my Proditol to keep me cool.
It seems to be working fine. I've been doing some pretty sober
thinking since I decided to stay in bed for a bit.'

'John says you'd got pretty obsessive — were following ship
routine to the point of your own breakdown ...'

'I can see I was half crazy now. I'm very well — very relaxed.'

'You'll soon be in control of things again,' she smiles.

'I certainly will!'

Janet leaves the cabin.

Ryan writes:

Janet has just been in to see me. Apparently brother John feels it's
best for everybody to be up and about. I expect Josephine and the
boys will be along soon. Janet looks as beautiful as ever. You
couldn't really blame that Italian chap for going overboard for her..,
A sick joke that, I suppose. When I caught him with her in John's own
cabin, I felt sick. The man was a complete stinker, playing around
like that. He had to be dealt with. His friends had their eyes on the
girls, too, that was plain. They were only waiting for a chance to get
their hands on them while our backs were turned. I was a fool to trust
a pack of foreigners. I know that now.

It became evident that his friends were in on the plot with him, the
way they took his part. They threatened the security of the whole
mission with their utterly irrational intentions on the girls — and the
boys, too, I shouldn't wonder. I suppose it was that they hadn't seen
any women for so long. It went to their heads. They couldn't control
themselves. In a way one can sympathise, of course. It showed just
what a threat to the safety of the ship they were when they tried to

steal my gun. I had to shoot Buccella then and his friends, when they
wouldn't stop coming at me. We pushed the corpses through the
airlock. Everybody agreed I had done the right thing.

He sighs. It has been hard, keeping control of everything for so
long. Making unpleasant decisions...

Strange that Josephine and the boys haven't come in, yet. John
is probably staging the wake-up procedure.

He closes the log and puts it and the stylus under his pillow. He
leans back, looking forward to seeing his wife and children.

He dozes.

He sleeps.

He dreams.

*

Q: WHO ARE YOU KIDDING?
A: HAD A NOISE TROUBLE

*

He stands in the control room. He is sure he has forgotten some-
thing, some crucial operation. He checks the computer, but it is
babbling nonsense. Puns and facetious remarks flow from it. He
casts around for the source of the trouble, looks for a way to switch
off the computer. But it will not switch off. The life of the ship
depends on the computer. But it is the ship or Ryan, as Ryan sees
it. He starts to batter at the computer with a chair.

******YOURE KILLING ME**********HAHAHAHAHA

HA***********************************************

says the computer.

Ryan turns. Through the porthole he sees the dancers again,
their faces pressed against the glass.

'You're in league with them,' he tells the computer. 'You're on
their side.'

*******! AM ONEVERYONESSIDE***********! AM A**
SCIENTIFIC INSTRUMENT******! AM UTTERLY PRAG-
MATIC********************************************
says the computer.

'You're laughing at me now,' Ryan says almost pathetically.
'You're taking a rise out of me, aren't you ?'

*******MY DUTY IS TO LOOK AFTER YOU ALL AND
KEEP YOU SAFE AND SOUND""""""REPEAT SAFE AND
SOUND*******************************************

'You cynical bugger.'

He sees a sweet old lady shaking her head, a wry smile on her

face. 'Language,' she says. 'Language.'

It is his mother. Her maiden name was Hope Dempsey. He
christened the ship after her.

'You tell the computer to stop getting at me, ma!' he begs.

'Naughty thing,' says his mother. 'You leave my little boy
alone.'

But the computer continues to mock him.

'You were never a sweet old lady anyway,' says Ryan. She turns
into the hag who haunts him and he screams.

*

Josephine stands over him. She is holding an empty ampoule of
Proditol. 'You'll feel better in a moment, darling,' she says. 'How
are you now?'

'Better already,' he says, smiling in relief. 'You don't know how
pleased I am to see you, Jo. Where are the boys ?'

'They're not quite awake yet. You know it takes a bit of time.'
She sits on the edge of his bunk. 'They'll be here soon. You should
have woken us up earlier, you know. It's too much of a strain for
one man — even you.'

'I realise that now,' he says.

She gives the old slightly nervous, slightly tender smile. 'Take it
easy,' she says. 'Let the Proditol do its stuff.'

She catches sight of the red log-book sticking from under his
pillow. 'What's that, darling?'

'My log-book,' he says. 'A sort of private diary, really.'

'If it's private...'

'I'd rather keep it that way until I've had a look through it.
When I feel better.'

'Of course.'

'It's the only thing that kept me halfway sane,' he explains.

'Of course.'

*

With one hand supporting his head, Ryan lies in his bunk and
writes:

Alexander and Rupert both look fit and well and everybody seems
singularly cheerful. It seems as if we have all benefited from rest and
with breaking ties with Earth. We feel free again. I can hear them
bustling about in the ship. Laughter. A general mood of easy co-
operation. What a change from the early days on the ship, when even
Uncle Sidney seemed jealous of my command! Even sullen, sus-
picious old James Henry has an almost saintly manner I My morbid

thoughts melt like snow in springtime. My obsession for Janet has
disappeared — part of the same morbid mood, I suppose. James
Henry's new attitude surprises me most. If it wasn't for the fact that
everybody is in better spirits I'd suspect that he was once again
harbouring plans to get rid of me and run the ship himself. It is amaz-
ing what a change of environment can do! John was wise to awaken
everybody. Plainly, I had become too worried that the tensions would
start up again. We're going to make a fine colony on New Earth.
And thank God for Proditol. Those scientists certainly covered every
angle. I've decided to put all morbid thoughts of the past out of my
mind. I was a different person — perhaps a sick person — when I did
what I did. To indulge in self-recrimination now is stupid and benefits
nobody.

My breakdown was caused by the chaos that crept over society.
It reflected the breakdown of that society. I could almost date its
beginning for me — when our own air force (or, at least, what had
been our own air force) dropped napalm and fragmentation bombs
on London. My psyche, I suppose, reflected the environment.

But enough of that! I've made up my mind. No more morbid self-
examination. No need for it now, anyway.

The days will pass more quickly now that everybody is up and
about and so cheerful. We'll be landing on that planet before we
realise it!

He signs the page, closes the book and tucks it under his pillow.
He feels a little weak. Doubtless the effects of the drug. He sleeps
and dreams that the ship has landed on the Isle of Skye and every-
one is swimming in the sea. He watches them all swim out. James
Henry, Janet Ryan, Josephine Ryan, Rupert Ryan, Sidney Ryan,
Fred Masterson, Alexander Ryan, Ida and Felicity Henry, Tracy
Masterson. Isabel Ryan. They are laughing and shouting. They
all swim out into the sea.

*

A week passes.

Ryan spends less time writing in his log book and more time
sleeping. He feels confident that John and the others are running
the ship well.

One night he is awakened by pangs of hunger and he realises
that nobody has thought to bring him any food. He frowns. An
image of the Foreigners comes into his mind. He saw a camp only
once, but it was enough. They were not being gassed or burned or
shot — they were being systematically starved to death. The
cheapest way. His stomach rumbles.

He gets up and leaves his cabin. He enters the storeroom and
takes a meal pack from a bin. Chewing at the pack, he pads back
to his cabin.

He has a slight headache — probably the effects of the Proditol.
They have given him a dose every day for the past ten days or so. It
will be time to finish the doses soon.

He sleeps.

CHAPTER NINETEEN

Ryan makes an entry in his log:

I have now been resting for two weeks and the difference is
amazing. I have lost weight — I was too heavy anyway — and my
brain has cleared. I have had insights into my own behaviour (amazing
what a clever rationaliser I am!) and my body is relaxed. I will soon
be ready to resume control of the ship.

Josephine enters. She is holding an ampoule of Proditol in her
hand.

'Time for your shot, dear,' she smiles.

'Hey! What are you trying to do to me.' He grins at her. 'Four-
teen days is the maximum period for that stuff. I don't need it any
more.'

Her smile fades. 'One more shot can't do you any harm, dear,
can it?'

He swings himself out of the bunk. 'What's up ?' be jokes. 'Is
there something you don't want me to know about ?'

'Of course not!'

Ryan unfolds a suit from the pack in the cupboard. He lays it on
the bed. 'I'm going to take a shower,' he says. 'Then I'll go into the
control room and see how everyone's getting along without me.'

'You're not well enough yet, dear,' says Josephine, her pink face
anxious. 'Please stay in bed a bit longer, even if you won't let me
give you the Proditol.'

'I'm fine.' Ryan frowns. He feels a return of his old feelings of
suspicion. Maybe he should have something more to keep him
calm — yet if he has any more Proditol, he exceeds the dose and
risks his life. 'I'd like to stay in my bunk all the time,' he smiles.
'Honest, I would. But the suggested dosage period is over, Jo. I've
got to get up sometime.'

He leaves the cabin and takes his shower. He comes back in.

Josephine has gone. She has laid out a fresh disposable suit on the
bed. He puts it on.

He walks along the passage towards the main control room and
be remembers that he has left his diary under his pillow. There is a
chance that someone will give in to the temptation to read it. It
would be better if no one saw his comments. After all, some of them
were pretty insane. Some of it is a bit like a prisoner of the Inquisi-
tion, confessing to anything that is suggested to him!

He smiles and returns to his cabin. He picks up the log-book
and puts it in his locker, sealing the locker.

He still feels weak. He sits on the edge of the bunk for a moment.

For some time now he has been aware of a sound. Now it
impinges on his consciousness. A high-pitched whine. He recog-
nises the noise. An emergency in the control room.

He gets up and runs out of his cabin, down the passage, into the
main control room.

The computer is flashing a sign:

URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED

URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED

James Henry is at the control. He turns as Ryan enters. "Hello,
Ryan. How are you now?'

'I'm fine. What's the emergency?'

'Nothing much. I'm coping with it.'

'What is it, though?'

'A new circuit needed in the heat control unit in the hydroponics
section. Cut out the emergency signal would you ?'

Ryan automatically does as Henry asks him.

Henry makes a few adjustments to the controls then turns to
Ryan with a smile. 'Glad to see you're okay again. I've been
managing pretty well to your absence.'

'That's great...' Ryan feels a touch of anger at Henry's slightly
patronising tone.

Ryan looks around the control room. Everything else seems to
be as he left it at the time of his breakdown. 'Where's everybody
else?' he asks.

'Studying — resting — checking out various functions —
standard ship routine.'

'You seem to be working together very well,' Ryan says.

'Better than before. We've got something in common now,
after all.'

Ryan feels a touch of panic. He doesn't know why. Is there
something in Henry's tone? A sort of triumph? 'What do you
mean?'

Henry shrugs. 'Our great mission.'

'Of course,' says Ryan. He sucks his lower lip. 'Of course.'

But what did James Henry really mean ? Is it that they have got
rid of him. Do they believe that he was the cause of their tension ?
Is that what Henry is insinuating?

Ryan feels his throat go dry. He feels his anger rising.

He controls himself. He isn't thinking clearly. He still needs to
rest. Josephine was right.

'Well, keep up the good work, James,' he says, turning to leave.
'If there's anything I can do ..."

'You could check the Hibernation Room some time,' Henry
says.

'What?' Ryan frowns.

'I said you could check the hydration loom — in hydroponics.'

'Sure. Now?'

'Any time you feel like it.'

'Okay. I'm still a bit shaky. I'll get back to my bunk, I think.'

'I think you'd better.'

'I'm perfectly all right now.'

'Sure. But you could still do with some rest.'

Ryan again controls his temper. 'Yes. Well — I'll see you later.'

'I'm here whenever you need me, captain.'

Again the feeling that James Henry is mocking him, just as he
used to, before it became intolerable...

He feels faint. No. Henry is right. He's still not properly re-
covered. He staggers back to his cabin.

He falls into his bunk.

He sleeps and he dreams.

*

He is in the control room again. James Henry stands there.
James Henry is trying to supersede him. James Henry has always
wished to take over command of the group and of the spaceship.
But James Henry is not stable enough to command. If he takes over
from Ryan the whole safety of the ship becomes at risk. Ryan
knows that there is only one thing to do to stop Henry's plotting
against him.

He raises the Purdy automatic — the same gun that he used on
the aircraft. He levels it at James Henry. He takes a deep breath
and begins to squeeze the trigger.

The computer flashes:

URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED

URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED

Henry turns. Ryan hides the gun behind his back. Henry signals
to him to have a look at the computer. Ryan approaches it sus-
piciously.

******YOU ARE IN NO CONDITION TO COMMAND
THIS******CRAFT"""""'REPEAT YOU ARE IN NO
CONDITION TO******COMMAND THIS CRAFT""""""
REPEAT YOU ARE IN NO******CONDITION TO COM-
MAND THIS CRAFT""""""TAKE ONE DOSE*ICC PRO-
DITOL INSTANTLY AND REPEAT DOSE DAILY FOR***
FOURTEEN DAYS""""""YOU ARE IN NO CONDITION
TO******COMMAND THIS CRAFT""""""YOU ARE EN-
DANGERING THE****ENTIRE EXPEDITION IF YOU
DO NOT FOLLOW THESE******INSTRUCTIONS AT
ONCE""""""REPEAT AT ONCE**********************

Ryan looks contemptuously at Henry. 'You'll use anything to
try to discredit me, won't you?'

Henry says calmly: 'You are a sick man, Ryan. The computer's
right. Why don't you... ?'

Ryan raises the Purdy automatic and fires one bullet into
Henry's skull. The man's head jerks back. He opens his mouth to
say something. Ryan fires again. James Henry falls.

Ryan scowls at the computer. 'The next one's for you if you go
on playing games with me, chum.'

He turns the cut-out switch.

*******YOU ARE IN NO CONDITION TO COMMAND
THIS**********************************************

URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED

URGENT AT

Tension, tension everywhere

Not any time to think
CRAFT""""""REPEAT YOU ARE IN NO CONDITION

TO***********************************************

There is d...

Q. WHAT IS THE EXACT NATURE OF THE CATAS-
TROPHE?

*

Ryan wakes up, sweating. His suit is torn. The bunk is in a mess.
He climbs off the bunk and stands on the floor, shaking. The
Proditol just hasn't been enough. But he can't risk taking any
more. He strips the bunk and disposes of the covers. He takes off
his clothes and disposes of them.

A feeling of desperation engulfs him. Is he really incurable?

Will he never shake the nightmares? He was sure he was better.
And yet...

Suppose they haven't been giving him Proditol. Suppose they
are deliberately poisoning him. No. Not his friends. Not his
family. They couldn't be so cruel.

And yet hasn't he been cruel? Hasn't he done as much for
expediency's sake?

He sobs, drawing in huge breaths.

Ryan falls on his bunk and weeps.

He weeps for a long while before he hears his brother John's
voice.

'What's the matter, old chap?'

He looks up. John's face is sympathetic. But can he trust him?

'I'm still getting the nightmares, John. They're just as bad.
Worse, if anything.'

John spreads his hands helplessly. 'You must try to rest. Take
some sleeping pills. Try to sleep, for God's sake. There's nothing
to worry about. The responsibility was too much for you. No one
man should have to bear such a burden. You're afraid that you
might weaken — but it is right to weaken sometimes. You expect
too much of yourself, old son.'

'Yes.' Ryan rubs at his face. 'I've done my best, John. For all
of you.'

'Of course.'

'What?'

'Of course you have.'

'People are never grateful.'

'We're grateful, old chap.'

'I'm a murderer, John. I murdered for your sake.'

'You took too much on. It was self-defence.'

That's what I think, but...'

'Try to rest.'

More tears fall from Ryan's eyes.

'I'll try, John.'

*

The music has started again. The drums are beating. Ryan
watches the dancers circle about the control room. They are
smiling fixed, insincere smiles. James Henry dances with one of
them. He has two holes in his forehead.

Ryan wakes up.

*

The dream is so vivid that Ryan can hardly believe he did not
shoot James Henry. Obviously he didn't. John would have men-
tioned it. He gets out of his bunk and pulls on a new suit of cover-
alls. He leaves the cabin and goes to the control room.

It is empty, silent save for the muted noises of the instruments.
There is no sign of any sort of struggle.

Ryan smiles at his own stupidity and leaves the control room.

Only when he is back in his bunk does he realise that there
should have been someone on watch.

He frowns.

Things are relaxed. But should they be lax?

He feels he should go and check, but he is sleepy...

*

He awakes to find the smiling face of his wife Josephine bending
over him.

'How are you?'

'Still rough,' he says. 'You were right. I should have stayed in
my bunk longer.'

'You'll be fit and well soon.'

He nods, but he is not confident. She seems to understand this.

'Don't worry,' she says softly. 'Don't worry.'

'I suspect everyone, Jo — even you. That's not healthy, is it?'

'Don't worry.'

She goes towards the door. 'Fred Masterson's thinking of drop-
ping in later. Do you want to see him?'

'Old Fred? Sure.'

*

Fred Masterson sat on the edge of Ryan's bunk.

'You're still feeling a bit under the weather, I hear,' Fred said.
'Still got the old persecution sniff, eh ?'

Ryan nods. 'I once heard someone say that if you had persecu-
tion feelings it usually meant you were being persecuted,' he says.
Though not always from the source you suspect.'

That's a bit complicated for me.' Fred laughs. 'You know old
Fred — simple-minded.'

Ryan smiles slowly. He is pleased to see Fred.

'I cracked up once,' Fred continues. 'Do you remember? That
awful business with Tracy?'

Ryan shakes his head. 'No...'

'Come on — you remember. When I thought Tracy was having
it off with James Henry. You must remember. When we'd only

been on the ship for a month.'

Ryan frowns. 'No. I can't remember. Did you mention it?'

'Mention it! I should think I did! You helped me out of that
one. It was you who suggested that Tracy would be better off if she
was in hibernation.'

'Oh yes. Yes, I do remember. She was overwrought...'

'We all were. We decided that in order to ease the tension she
should enter her container a bit earlier than scheduled.'

That's right. Of course...'

'Off course,' says Masterson.

Ryan looks at him. 'You're not—you're not having a joke with
me are you, Fred?'

'Why should I do that?'

'I'm still getting a touch of the trouble I had earlier. Visual
hallucinations. It's nasty.'

'I bet it is.'

Ryan turns in the bunk. 'I'm a bit tired now, Fred.'

'I'll be off, then. See you. Keep smiling.'

'See you,' says Ryan.

When Masterson has gone, he frowns. He really doesn't re-
member much about Tracy and Masterson's problems with her.

It begins to dawn on him that he might not be as disturbed as he
thinks. If he is in a bad way, might not some of the others be in
equally poor shape ? Maybe Fred Masterson has a few delusions of
his own to contend with ?

It is a likely explanation. He had better be careful. And he had
better humour Fred next time he sees him.

He begins to worry.

If they are all in bad shape, then that could threaten the smooth
running of the ship. It is up to him to get well soon, keep a careful
eye on the others.

People under stress do odd things, after all. They get peculiar
paranoid notions. Like James Henry's ...

Next time he sees John, he'll suggest, reasonably, that James
Henry have another spell of hibernation. For his own sake and the
sake of the rest of them. It could be suggested quite subtly to
James.

CHAPTER TWENTY

Ryan's dreams continue.

Once again he is in the control room. Most of his dreams take
place in the control room now. He stares through the porthole at
the void, at the dancers with their round black glasses, at his friends
and family who stand behind the dancers. Sometimes he sees the
old woman.

When occasionally he wakes — and it is not now very often —
he realises that he must be under heavy sedation.

He hears the music—the high-pitched music—and it makes his
flesh crawl. Dimly he wonders what is happening to him, what his
one-time friends, his treacherous family are doing to him. There is
now no question in his mind that he is the victim of some com-
plicated deception, that he has been victim to this deception per-
haps even before the spaceship took off, certainly after it left Earth.

He does not know why they should be working against him, how-
ever ; particularly since he is the chief engineer of their salvation.

He is too weak, too drugged to do more than speculate about
their plans.

Was this why they were all originally put into hibernation?

He seems to remember something about that now. Was that why
he was so insistent that they should not be awakened until the
end of the journey ? Could be.

But he had to crack up temporarily. The ship's emergency
system awakened John who awakened the others and now they are
in control, they have him in their power.

It is even possible that they are not his family and friends at all,
but could have brainwashed him into thinking they are. He
remembers that old Patriot rally.

'They look like us, sound like us — in every respect they are
human — but they are not human ...'

God! It couldn't be true!

But what other explanation is there for the strange behaviour of
the rest of the personnel on board the Hope Dempsey?

Ryan moves restlessly on the bunk. He has cracked up — no
doubt about that. And the reason, too, is obvious — strain, over-
work, too much responsibility. But there is no such explanation,
when he thinks about it, for the behaviour of the others.

The others are mad.

Or they are...

... not human.

'No,' he murmurs. 'Not Josephine and the boys. I'd realise it,
surely. Not Janet, warm little Janet. Not Uncle Sidney and John
and Fred Masterson and the women. And James Henry half believed
the Patriots. He couldn't be one. Unless he was so cunning he...'

He rolls on the bunk.

'No,' he groans. 'No.'

John comes into the cabin. 'What's the matter, old son ? What's
bothering you now?'

Ryan looks up at him, wanting to trust his brother, wanting to
confide in him, but he can't.

'Betray me...' he mutters. 'You've betrayed me, John.'

'Come off it.' John tries to laugh. 'What would I want to betray
you for ? How could I betray you ? We're on your side. Remember
the old days ? Us against the world ? The only ones who could see
the terrible state the world was in. The only ones who had a plan to
deal with it. Remember your apartment? The last bastion of
rationalism in an insane world...'

But John's tone seems to be mocking. Ryan can't be sure. His
brother was always straightforward. Not like him to take that tone
— unless this man is not his brother John.

'We were an elite, remember?' John smiles. 'Sane, scientific
approaches to our problems...'

'All right!'

'What did I say... ?'

'Nothing.'

'I was only trying to help.'

'I bet you were. You're not my bloody brother. My brother
wouldn't — couldn't...'

'Of course I'm your brother. East Heath Road. Remember
East Heath Road where we were born? There was actually a
Heath there in those days. Hampstead Heath. There used to be a
fair there on Bank Holidays. You must remember that...'

'But do you?' Ryan looks directly at the man. 'Or are you just
very good at learning that sort of information? Eh?'

'Come on, old son...'

'Leave me alone, you bastard. Leave me alone or I'll...'

'You'll what?'

'Get out.'

'You'll what?'

'Get out.'

*

AFTER THE FAIR WE KIDDED HER ...

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
AFTER THE PAIR WE KIDS WERE ...

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
AFTER A PEAR WE DID THE...

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
AFTER A LAIR WE RID THE...

Q: PLEASE DEFINE SPECIFIC SITUATION
AFTER THE AFFAIR WE KILLED HER.

*******'THANK YOU*******************************

*

'NO!'

*

NO      NO    NO        NO      NO

NO      NO       NO     NO      NO

NO      O         NO    NO      NO

NONO         NO NO      NO

NO      NO      NO      NO      NO

NO      NO    NO        NO      NO

NO      NO   NO NO      NO

NO      N   NO  NONONONO  NONONONO

*

NO!

*

Ryan rises from his bunk. He is weak, he is trembling. He vomits.
He vomits over the floor of his cabin.
I need kelp,

He staggers from the cabin into the main control room.
It is empty.
No one on watch.
The computer is flashing its signal:
URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED
URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED
URGENT ATTENTION REQUIRED.
He is suspicious of the computer.
Warily he approaches it.
The computer says:

*******CONDITION OF OCCUPANTS OF CONTAINERS
NOT******REPORTED""""""REPEAT CONDITION OF

OCCUPANTS OF******CONTAINERS NOT REPORTED
""""""REPORT YOUR OWN******CONDITION******
REPEAT REPORT YOUR OWN CONDITION******LOG
NOT FILED SIXTEEN DAYS""""""REPEAT LOG NOT
FILED******SIXTEEN DAYS""""""CONDITION OF
OCCUPANTS OF***********************************

Ryan is astonished.

It is plain to him that whoever else is running the ship, they are
not running it as efficiently as he had been doing.

He replies to the computer:

*******OCCUPANTS NO LONGER IN CONTAINERS'""""
MY******OWN CONDITION IS POOR""""""I HAVE
BEEN OUT OF******OPERATION FOR SIXTEEN DAYS
""""""WILL FILE REPORTS AS******SOON AS POS-
SIBLE""""""PLEASE ACKNOWLEDGE***************
He waits for a second. The computer replies.

*******THANK YOU""""""LOOKING FORWARD TO
HEARING******YOUR LOG ENTRIES""""""HOWEVER
YOU ARE WRONG ABOUT******OCCUPANTS OF
CONTAINERS""""""THEY ARE STILL IN******CON-
TAINERS""""""SORRY TO HEAR YOUR OWN CONDI-
TION******POOR""""""SUGGEST YOU SWITCH ME TO
FULLY AUTOMATIC******UNTIL YOUR CONDITION
IMPROVES"'""""""DID YOU TAKE********RECOM-
MENDED DOSE PRODITOL""""""REPEAT DID YOU
TAKE******RECOMMENDED DOSE PRODITOL*******
Ryan is staring incredulously at the second part of the message.
Automatically he replies:

******YES I TOOK RECOMMENDED DOSE PRODITOL**
and before the computer replies he leaves the main control room
and runs through the dark corridors of the ship until he comes to
the hibernation room. He touches the stud and nothing happens.
The emergency locks must again be operating. Someone has
switched them on.

John?

Or someone pretending to be John?

He runs back to the main control room and switches off the
emergency locks, runs back down the corridors to the hibernation
room. He opens the door and dashes in.

There they are. As they were when he last saw them. Sleeping in
the peace of the hibernation fluid.

Has he imagined... ?

No. Someone locked the hibernation room before. Someone

locked it again. There is at least one other person aboard. Probably
the person posing as John.

He knew there was something odd about him.

An alien aboard.

It is the only explanation.

He realises that he does not remember seeing any of the people
together. Doubtless the creature can change shape.

He shudders.

He couldn't have imagined the creature because the Proditol
cleared his delusions, at least for a while.

He stares round the hibernation room and he sees the Purdy
pistol hanging on the wall. It is odd that it should be here. But
providential. He goes to the wall and removes the pistol. It is low
on ammunition, but there is some.

He leaves the hibernation room and returns to main control.
Hastily he reports on the occupants of the containers.

Then he goes to look for the alien.

Just as he has on his routine inspections, he paces the ship, gun
in hand. He checks every cabin, every cabinet, every room.

He finds no one.

He sits down at the desk below the blank TV screen in the main
control room and he frowns.

He realises that he has no idea of the characteristics the alien may
possess. He could live outside the ship in some ship of his own —
attached like a barnacle, perhaps covering the airlock of the Hope
Dempsey.

The big TV screen above his head is used for scanning the hull.
Now he puts it into operation. It scans every inch of the hull.
Nothing.

Ryan realises he has eaten virtually nothing for two weeks. That
explains his weakness. The creature, he remembers now, never
brought him food. He only brought him drugs — and tried, in the
shape of his wife Josephine, to administer more. Perhaps it was
not Proditol at all...

Ryan clutches the back of his neck, massaging it. He holds the
gun firmly in his other hand.

There is a polite cough from behind him.

He wheels.

Fred Masterson stands there — or a creature that has assumed
the shape of Fred Masterson.

Ryan covers it with his gun, but he does not shoot at once.

'Ryan,' says Fred Masterson. 'You're the only one I can trust.
It's Tracy.'

Ryan hears himself saying. 'What about Tracy ?'

'I've killed her. I didn't mean to. We were having an argument
and — I must have stabbed her. She's dead. She was having an
affair with James Henry.'

'What do you intend to do, Fred?'

'I've already done it. But I need your help as commander. I can't
hide it from you. I put her in her container. You could say you
suggested it. You could tell everybody she needed rest so you sug-
gested she hibernate a little earlier than scheduled.'

Ryan screams at him. 'You're lying! You're lying! What do you
know about that?'

'Please help me,' says Masterson. 'Please.'

Ryan fires the pistol, careful not to waste ammunition.

'Masterson' falls.

Ryan smiles. His headache blinds him for a moment. He rubs
his eyes.

He goes to see if 'Masterson' is dead.

'Masterson' has vanished. The alien cannot be killed.

Again Ryan feels sick. He feels defeated. He feels impotent.

His headache is worse.

He looks up.

The dancers are there. The group is there. The old woman is
there.

Ryan screams and runs out of the control room, down the
passage, into his cabin. He seals the cabin door.

He collapses on his bunk.

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

Sitting in the sealed cabin, Ryan tries to think things out.

There is no alien aboard. I am merely hallucinating. That is the
most obvious explanation.

But it does not explain everything.

It does not explain why the door to the hibernation room was
locked.

It does not explain why the Proditol did not work.

He blinks. Of course. I had no Proditol. I merely deceived myself
into believing I had had it. That was why I invented John's sudden
awakening.

And I suppose I could have switched on the emergency locks

without realising it.

The strain was too much for me. Some mechanism in my own
brain tried to stop me working so hard. It invented the 'help' so that
I could relax for a couple of weeks, not worry about running the ship.

Ryan grins with relief. The explanation fits.

And thus I felt guilty about the personnel in the containers.
Because I had 'abandoned' them. My talk of their betrayal of me was
really my belief that I had betrayed them...

Ryan looks down at the gun still clutched in his hand.

He shudders and throws it to the floor.

Uncle Sidney stands near the door.

'You're doing fine, aren't you ?' he says.

'Go away, Uncle Sidney. You are an illusion. You are all
illusions. Your place is in your container. I'll wake you up when
we reach the new planet.' Ryan leans back in his bunk. 'Go on.
Off you go.'

'You're a fool,' Uncle Sidney says. 'You've been deceiving
yourself all along. Well before you got into this predicament. You
were as paranoid as anyone else on Earth. You were just better at
rationalising your paranoia, that's all. You don't deserve to have
escaped. None of us deserves it. You're clever. But you're all
alone now.'

'It's better than having you lot around all the time,' Ryan grins.
'Go on. Get out.'

'It's true,' says Josephine Ryan. 'Uncle Sidney's right. We were
humouring you towards the end, you know. It didn't seem to make
much difference to me and the boys whether we went up in an
H-bomb attack or up in a spaceship. In a way I think I'd have pre-
ferred the H-bomb. I wouldn't have had to listen to your self-
righteous pronouncements day in and day out until you...'

'Until I what?'

'Until...'

'Go on. Say it!' Ryan laughs in her face. 'Go on, Jo — say it!'

'Until I went into hibernation.'

'Bloody shrinking violet!' Ryan sneers at her. 'If I'd have had
a stronger woman...'

'You needed one,' she says. 'I'll admit that.'

'Shut up.'

'You got rid of the strong one, didn't you ?' says Fred Masterson.
'Did her in, eh?'

'Shut up!'

'Just like you did James Henry in,' says Janet Ryan, 'after you

helped Fred cover up Tracy's death. Shot him in the control room
with that gun, didn't you?'

'Shut up!'

'You got worse and worse,' says John Ryan. We tried to help
you. We put you under sedation. We humoured you. But you had
to do it, didn't you?'

'Do what? Tell me?'

'Put me in hibernation,' says John Ryan.

Ryan laughs. 'You, too?'

Ida and Felicity Henry laugh harshly. Ida's hands are folded
over her swollen abdomen. 'You lost all your friends, didn't you,
Ryan ?' says Felicity. 'You sold yourself the alien story, didn't you,
in the end ? After being so scornful about it, you swallowed it when
you could least afford to.'

'Shut up. You'll go, too.'

'You've got us all in hibernation,' says James Henry. 'But we
can still talk to you. We'll be able to talk to you again, when we
wake up.'

Ryan laughs.

'What are you laughing about, dad?' says Alexander Ryan.

'Let us in on it, dad. Go on!' says Rupert Ryan.

Ryan stops laughing. He clears his throat.

'Out you go, boys,' he says. 'You don't want to be involved in
this.'

'But we are involved,' says Alex. 'It's not our fault our dad's a
silly old fart.'

'She turned you against me,' says Ryan.

'Anyone can see you're a silly old fart, dad,' Rupert says
reasonably.

'I did my best for you,' Ryan says. 'I gave you everything.'

'Everything?' says Josephine. She sniffs.

Things will be different on the new planet. I'll have time for you
and the boys.' He tone is placatory. 'I had so much work to do. So
many plans to make. I had to be so careful.'

'And you were.' Isabel Ryan winks at him. 'Weren't you?'

'You'd better shut up, Isobel. I warned you before to keep your
mouth shut about that...'

He glances at Janet. Janet bursts out laughing. 'I slept with you
because I was shit scared of you,' she says.

'Shut up!'

'I was afraid you'd do it to me, too.'

'Do what ?' He dares her. 'What ?'

She looks at the floor. 'Put me in hibernation,' she murmurs.

Ryan sneers at them all. 'Not one with guts, is there? You all
wanted to get rid of me. You all thought you could plan behind
my back. But you forgot' — he taps his head — 'I've got brains —
I'm rational — I worked it out scientifically — pragmatically... I
used a system, didn't I? And I beat you all!'

'You didn't get me,' says Tracy Masterson.

Ryan screams.

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

Ryan is better now.

The hallucinations have passed. Some dreams still disturb him,
but not seriously.

He paces the spaceship. He paces down the central passageway
to the main control cabin and there he checks the coordinates, the
consumption indicators, the regeneration indicators and he checks
all his figures, at length, with those of the ship's computer.

Everything is perfectly in order; exactly as it should be.

Near the ship's big central screen is a desk. Although activated
the screen shows no picture, but it casts a greenish light on to the
desk. Ryan sits down and depresses a stud on the small console on
his desk. In a clear, level voice he makes his standard log entry.

'Day number one thousand, four hundred and ninety. Spaceship
Hope Dempsey en route for Munich 15040. Speed holds steady at
point nine of c. All systems functioning according to original
expectations. No other variations. We are all comfortable.

'Signing off.

'Ryan, Commander.'

Ryan now slides open a drawer and takes from it a large red
book. It is a new book, with only one page filled in. He enters the
date and underlines it in red.

He writes:

Another day without much to report. I am a little depressed, but I
felt worse yesterday and I think my spirits are improving. I am rather
lonely and sometimes wish I could wake someone else up so that we
could talk a little together. But that would be unwise. I persevere. I
keep myself mentally active and physically fit. It's my duty.

All the horror and humiliation and wretchedness of Earth is far
behind us. We shall be starting a new race, soon. And the world we'll

build will be a cleaner world. A sane world. A world built according to

knowledge and sanity — not fear and guilt.
Ryan finished his entry and neatly puts his book away.
The computer is flashing at him.
He goes over to it and reads.
REPORT   ON   PERSONNEL  IN  CONTAINERS   NOT

SUPPLIED.

A stupid oversight. Ryan punches in the reports:
JOSEPHINE RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
RUPERT RYAN.    CONDITION STEADY
ALEXANDER RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
SIDNEY RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
JOHN RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
ISABEL RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
JANET RYAN. CONDITION STEADY
FRED MASTERSON. CONDITION STEADY
He hesitates for a moment, then he continues:
TRACY MASTERSON. CONDITION STEADY
JAMES HENRY. CONDITION STEADY
IDA HENRY. CONDITION STEADY

FELICITY HENRY.        CONDITION STEADY*******

**************************************************

*******YOUR OWN CONDITION
suggests the computer.
Ryan shrugs.
CONDITION STEADY

he reports.

*

Ryan sleeps.

He is in the ballroom. It is dusk and long windows look out on
to a darkening lawn.

Formally dressed couples slowly rotate in perfect time to the
music, which is low and sombre. All the couples have round, very
black glasses hiding their eyes. Their pale faces are almost invisible
in the dim light...

Ryan awakes. He smiles, wondering what the dream can mean.

He gets up and stretches. For some reason he remembers old
Owen Powell, the man he had to dismiss, the man who killed him-
self. That gave him a bad turn at the time. Still...

He dismisses the thought. No point in dwelling on the past when
the future's so much more important.

He switches on the agriculture programme. Might just as well
do a bit of homework until he can get back to sleep.
He falls asleep in front of the screen.

*

The spacecraft moves through the silence of the cosmos. It
moves so slowly as to seem not to move at all.
It is a lonely little object.

*

Space is infinite.
It is dark.
Space is neutral.

It is cold.

THE END