Simon Hawke - Psychodrome 02 - The Shapechanger ScenarioPSYCHODROME 2: 
THE SHAPECHANGER SCENARIO 
Coyright © 1988 by Simon Hawke. 
Ebook ver. 1.0 


For Ginjer Buchanan, with thanks 


PROLOGUE 


It's hard enough being a psycho without having a paranoid looking over your 
shoulder all the time. The paranoid's name was Coles-at least, that was the 
name 
I knew him by. He was good. He was so good, he could insinuate himself into 
my 
mind without my even knowing he was there. But I was getting better. So far, 
I'd 
caught him at it twice. The trouble was, I didn't know how many times I 
hadn't 
caught him at it and that was making me paranoid. Of course, professional 
psychos aren't supposed to let things like that bother them. Amateurs 
generally 
don't last long in the high-risk scenarios of Psychodrome. Most of them quit 
after their first round, assuming they survive it. You either learn fast or 
you 
die. Or perhaps you only go insane. It depends on whether you're dealing with 
something that's real or a programmed hallucination. How do you know? Well, 
that's just the trouble, you don't. Once the Psychodrome computers start 
interfacing with your mind, all sorts of strange things start to happen. 
As a pro, I was still fairly new at the game, though after fighting as a 
corporate mercenary on an undeveloped planet, being stalked by gangsters of 
the 
Yakuza in Tokyo, trailed across half the universe by genetically engineered 
assassins, and almost eaten by an ambimorph on a quarantined world, the 
novelty 
was starting to wear a little thin. Not that Coles really gave a damn. You 
tend 
not to give a damn when you're one of the people who controls things. 
And Coles controlled a lot of things. At the moment, he was controlling me in 
a 
little game that could easily turn deadly and the fact that I had Rudy Breck 
as 
backup was no small consolation. Breck used to be a major in the Special 
Service, or the SS, as they're more commonly called-genetically engineered 
commandos, created from a matrix of human and animal genetic material, known 
as 
hybreeds. Conceived in a Petri dish, raised in a creche, and trained for 
mayhem 
from the moment they can crawl. Breck had retired from the service to play 
Psychodrome professionally. Their loss, my gain. I was starting to lose count 
of 
all the times he'd saved my life. 
Breck was supposed to be somewhere close behind me, in position to move in 
quickly if the bait was taken. Since I was the bait, I would have felt a 
little 
more secure if he were close enough for me to see him. For all I knew, he had 
stopped off somewhere for a drink. That was the trouble with Breck, you could 
never count on him to react quite the same way a normal human being would. 
His 
strength and reflexes were far superior to those of ordinary men, but certain 
things were missing. Fear, for instance. The instinct for self-preservation 



was 
not one of the ingredients that went into an SS hybreed matrix. The emotion 
of 
fear and the instinct for self-preservation in the face of danger were 
entirely 
lacking in him. With Breck, self-preservation was merely a matter of 
self-interest, not instinct. A subtle difference, perhaps, but an important 
one. 
I was getting knots in my stomach and feeling chills running up and down my 
spine, but Breck was probably strolling along casually somewhere behind me in 
this rat's maze of screamers, whistling to himself while he checked out the 
sights. There were a lot of sights to be checked out on the Lower East 
Side-or 
the Downside, as the locals called it-and some of them could be pretty scary. 
Both the sights and the locals. 
Almost every major city had a neighborhood where only the truly desperate or 
the 
seriously crazed ever ventured out at night. On New York City's Downside, it 
was 
always night. Sunlight never penetrated down to the lower levels of the city. 
Streetlights provided some illumination and multicolored laser signs strobed 
over doorways you really wouldn't want to go through unless you were a twist, 
but mostly, there were small pools of light around the street lamps 
surrounded 
by large areas of shadow through which people moved like scuttlefish. Jack 
the 
Ripper would have felt very much at home here. 
I'd spent a few years on the Ginza Strip of Tokyo and I'd also seen the 
ground 
level of that city, a squalid, ugly, fearsome warren known as Junktown. I had 
even spent some time in Tokyo's Combat Zone, a place so wild and depraved 
that 
it had been sealed off to keep the screamers in. The seamy side of life was 
nothing new to me, so the prickly feeling at the back of my neck wasn't just 
a 
sense of apprehension at being in a nasty neighborhood. It was the certain 
feeling that I was being stalked. 
I was moving through a ghetto teeming with all sorts of predators. That would 
have made the stalker difficult to spot in any case, but there was a good 
chance 
that this stalker was an ambimorph, which meant he would be impossible to 
spot 
until he-or it, since shapechangers do not have gender-was right on top of me. 
I could imagine people tuning in right now, coming home from work and turning 
on 
their psy-fi sets, plugging into the net and selecting a vicarious adventure 
from any one of dozens that Psychodrome was running-maybe even mine-and for a 
while, they'd be able to tune into one-way telempathic contact with a psycho 
star and experience a fantasy. 
I thought of Stone, who had once performed on the lust channels because she 
was 
turned on by the idea of having sex with billions of people at the same time. 
The thrill had eventually worn off and she had switched to high-risk game 
scenarios, searching for a stronger fix. She never really knew what she was 
looking for. For a while, she thought it might be me, but she had died before 
she could find out for sure. I wondered if the same thing that had killed her 
was now stalking me. 
The home audience sharing my experience was getting a good heady dose of 
sudden 
fear and an adrenaline rush-emotions and reactions that were modulated 



carefully 
by the fail-safe biofeedback sensors on their psych-fidelity sets. It 
wouldn't 
do to give some excitable old fart a coronary just because my heart was 
pounding 
like a trip hammer. For them, it was all show. Shared perceptions with 
cybernetic safeguards. For me, it was the real thing. 
"Coles?" I said. 
He could hear me back at Game Control, but the home audience would never hear 
me 
say his name. That was because the home audience only knew about the surface 
levels of the game. They did not suspect that they were much more than 
spectators. In a way, they were participants, only they didn't even know it. 
So 
far as the home audience was concerned, Coles did not even exist. So far as 
Psychodrome International, Inc., was concerned, Coles did not exist. So far 
as 
every government agency you could reach through normal channels was 
concerned, 
Coles did not exist. Sometimes I wondered if even Coles knew he existed, if 
he 
actually saw a reflection when he looked into a mirror. In any case, he 
apparently did not exist for me right at that moment, because there was no 
answer. Perhaps he wasn't there. Perhaps he wasn't as omnipotent as he often 
seemed. Or perhaps he simply didn't want to talk to me. 
"Coles, damn it . . ." 
I wished I knew where Breck was. I hoped to hell he was somewhere close. Real 
close. I felt as if crosshairs were centering on the back of my neck. I had 
that 
feeling you get sometimes when someone is staring at you intently across a 
crowded room. You sense it somehow and you turn, your eyes meet . . . 
Yellow eyes. Red-flecked, yellow eyes with vertically slit pupils. Iridescent 
snakeskin stretched taut across high cheekbones. Upper lip protruding 
slightly 
over modified incisors. Tall, spikey crest of feathery white hair streaked 
with 
silver, ending in a long pony tail cascading down the back. Sleek, black, 
metal-studded skinjac with chain-mail epaulets; silver and black lycras and 
black, high-heeled boots. A cyberpunk. But unlike most of them, whose biomods 
were merely artifice- trendy weekend monster makeup easily removed when it 
was 
time to go to work-this one had gone the hardcore route with cosmetic 
surgery. 
They called it getting "hardwired." He grinned at me and gleaming alloy 
hydraulic fangs slid out of his two large, hollowed-out incisors. 
Was this an ambimorph I was confronting or was it only some hardcore kid 
looking 
to finance his next score? Either one was dangerous, it was just a matter of 
degree. The safest thing would be to frag the punk, whether he was an 
ambimorph 
or not, but Coles wanted a live shapechanger. And that meant there was a good 
chance he'd wind up with a dead psycho- namely one Arkady O'Toole, yet 
another 
casualty of the ratings war. 
The cyberpunk and I stared at each other like two competing predators 
circling 
before a fight for turf. Neither of us moved as the sea of people flowed 
around 
us. I couldn't see Breck anywhere, but I spotted two more cyberpunks slowly 
closing in from my left and right. One had himself done up as a pussycat, 



complete with lion's mane and whiskers; the other one looked like something 
you'd find on a used cyborg lot. Maybe all three were no more than what they 
appeared to be, but maybe one of them was a shapechanger who, in his 
cyberpunk 
disguise, had joined up with a couple of wild boys to take me out. Either way, 
I 
was in trouble. Snakeskin started to move toward me through the crowd, his 
hands 
in the pockets of his skinjac. I didn't think he was just trying to keep them 
warm. 
I ducked down into a-stairwell leading to a doorway below the sidewalk level. 
A 
laser sign over the entrance depicting a writhing double helix alternately 
flashing blue and purple read, "Blue Genes." I paid the cover and walked into 
a 
wall of sound. 
A band up on the small stage was filling the club with enough volume to 
poleax 
an elephant. The lead singer was snarling through an implanted vocoder throat 
mike, rhyming "insect eyes" with "mesmerize." I didn't catch the rest of the 
lyrics. They would have been difficult to understand in any case, since the 
band's sound engineer chose that moment to switch the singer's throat mike 
from 
multiplex-overlay human mode to something that sounded like a mosquito big 
enough to eat the Bronx. 
The rest of the band was pounding out a driving beat that sounded like the 
screaming inner workings of a giant machine about to explode. The musicians 
were 
shirtless, their fingers dancing over keyboards that were hardwired into the 
puckered, livid white skin of their skinny chests. In addition to getting 
themselves hardwired for sound, cyberpunk musicians often spent the extra 
money 
to hook up their instruments to their pleasure/pain centers as well, 
obviating 
the necessity for drugs by giving themselves the ability to orchestrate their 
own highs. It gave a whole new meaning to the phrase, "playing with yourself." 
I threaded my way through the undulating bodies on the dance floor, looking 
for 
the back way out. I figured it would be behind the stage, where the musicians 
changed and the bar took its deliveries. I glanced over my shoulder and saw 
Snake-skin moving through the crowd, looking for me. 
I spotted a door in the back, near the stage, marked "Employees Only." A 
muscular young man with red and black hair leaned against the wall beside the 
door. He was dressed in skintight orange and black lycras with a flame 
pattern. 
His head was nodding slightly in time to the music. He spotted me heading 
toward 
the door and stood in front of me, blocking my way with a hand on my chest. I 
didn't have time to argue with him and the music was too loud in any case, so 
I 
grabbed his arm, spun him around, and slammed him against the door, using his 
body to push it open. Once inside, I shoved him into a pile of boxes and made 
for the back door that led into the alleyway behind the club. 
I kicked the door open and bolted out into the alley, straight into the arms 
of 
the other two cyberpunks. The door behind me opened once again and Snakeskin 
came out into the dark alley. They'd suckered me. Snakeskin had followed me 
into 
the club while the other two had cut around the back. They proceeded to slam 
me 



against the building wall a few times to take some of the fight out of me. 
Snakeskin grinned, opening his mouth and hissing like a cobra, teeth bared. 
His 
trick fangs slid out again, curved and-needle-sharp. 
I didn't know where the hell Breck was and I didn't have time to worry about 
it. 
There's only one thing to do when the odds are against you and you can't run 
away. Attack and attack hard. Of course, running away was vastly preferable, 
but 
the cyberpunks had me by both arms and they showed no inclination to let go. 


leaned back against them suddenly, kicked out, and caught Snakeskin under the 
jaw with my right foot. His teeth clicked together and he fell back, blood 
streaming from his mouth where his alloy snake fangs had impaled his lower 
lip. 
The cyberpunks who held me recovered quickly and ran me at the wall. I barely 
had enough time to turn my face aside before they slammed me against the 
brick. 
It felt like doing a belly flop into a swimming pool that had no water in it. 
I was so scared, I didn't think about how much it hurt. I only knew that if I 
didn't do something drastic right away, it was going to hurt much worse. They 
yanked me back and ran me at the wall again. I leaned back against them at 
the 
last minute and ran two steps up the wall, flipping over backward to land 
behind 
them. It actually worked and they lost their grip on me. Unfortunately, 
unlike 
all the swashbuckling heroes who always land on their feet after trying such 
stunts, I went over backward and fell right on my ass. 
I rolled and clawed my gun out of its holster underneath my jacket. To hell 
with 
Coles and his bring-'em-back-alive instructions. My first shot went wild, 
whining off somewhere down the alley, but my second one struck one of the 
punks 
right in the chest, exploding on penetration and making salsa out of his 
entire 
upper torso. I missed with my third shot and the other punk took off down the 
alley. I got to my feet, aimed carefully, and squeezed off another round. It 
caught him in the back and he went down. 
Then I heard something move behind me. I spun around, saw Snakeskin lunging 
at 
me, and fired. The bullet hit the wall behind him and exploded. Suddenly he 
wasn't there anymore. He had simply disappeared. 
For a moment, it didn't sink in. I stood there in a daze, staring at the spot 
where he had been a second earlier. Then I realized he must have shapechanged 
and even as I realized that, I felt something wind itself around my legs. 
I looked down and saw the head of the cyberpunk on the body of a serpent 
thicker 
than my thigh winding rapidly around my legs, climbing up my body. I froze 
with 
horror and then my arms were pinned against my sides, the coils crushing me, 
the 
head with its obscene travesty of a human face drawn back, fangs gleaming, 
dripping poison-
I screamed. 


"No, no, no'." said Coles, bending over me and grasping me by the shirtfront, 
shaking me. 
I was still screaming. He slapped me twice across the face, hard enough to 
make 



my head ring, but it had the desired effect of snapping me out of it. 
"You froze'." said Coles. "You panicked!" 
I gasped, trying to stop hyperventilating. My heart was beating like a wild 
thing trying to claw its way out of my chest. The scan crew was anxiously 
monitoring my readouts. They could have helped by inducing a calming alpha 
state, but Coles wasn't going to let me off the hook that easily. 
"You panicked and you died!" said Coles, grabbing me by the shirtfront and 
shaking me again, lifting me half off the laboratory couch. He grimaced in 
disgust and let me go. "Damn you, O'Toole, you're going to be no use to me at 
all if you panic at the slightest provocation!" 
I stared at the son of a bitch, hating him. 
"Mistake number one," he said, ticking them off on his fingers, "you ducked 
into 
that club, putting yourself on the defensive and giving the initiative away. 
Mistake number two, you failed to take advantage of the people in the club to 
outflank the opposition. Instead, you continued to retreat, continued to 
remain 
on the defensive, and you ran right into a trap. Mistake number three, you 
caved 
in to pressure and disregarded my instructions by shooting to kill. Mistake 
number four, you allowed your emotions to overwhelm you and you left yourself 
exposed. Mistake number five, you hesitated when the cyberpunk shapechanged, 
a 
mistake you compounded by freezing when you saw the snake climbing up your 
legs, 
thereby giving it enough time to pin your arms. And any chance you might have 
had left then, you simply threw away by giving in to terror. How many times do 
I 
have to tell you? You go on the defensive, you lose the initiative and give 
up 
half the battle. You panic, you die." 
"Sir," said one of the technicians on the scan team, "the subject's blood 
pressure is dangerously high. We're registering critical stress levels. I 
urgently recommend that he be taken down before-" 
"Hell, do whatever you want," said Coles impatiently, dismissing me with an 
irate gesture. "By all means, put him on downtime before he self-destructs. 
I've 
got no use for him the way he is right now." 
They started bringing me down even before he finished speaking and Coles 
slowly 
receded into a dim haze as they eased me into downtime, turning off my mind 
before it built up a critical mass of stress and started a chain reaction of 
delusions no one could control. The last conscious thought I had before I 
drifted off into limbo was that it might be nice if they just left me there, 
suspended in a thoughtless, dreamless, nearly lifeless state, where neither 
reality nor nightmare could intrude. Perhaps deep down, that's what every 
psycho 
really wants. 


ONE 


"I heard you died," said Breck, laconically. 
He stood looking down at me with a wry smile, his flaxen blond hair in 
disarray. 
The cracked-ice intensity of his blue eyes was heightened by his use of bang, 
a 
hybrid plant developed from a mutated strain of noncarcinogenic tobacco and 
an 
offworld herb called bangalla. Smoking it had the effect of stimulating 
adrenaline production, increasing visual acuity, and amplifying tactile 



perceptions. Smoking bang would make an ordinary human being burn out and 
self-destruct, but then Breck wasn't an ordinary human being. Prolonged use 
of 
bang also had the curious side effect of making the eyes lambent. With Breck, 
whose hybreed matrix gave him cat's eyes to begin with, it had the 
disconcerting 
effect of making his eyes strobe when the light hit them just right. 
"Shall we drink to my demise?" I said, sitting up slowly and rubbing my 
temples. 
I glanced around at the scan team and noticed that they weren't the same 
psychocybernetic engineers who were on duty when Coles brought me out of the 
hallucinact. "How long have I been down, Cass?" I asked the crew chief. 
"About eight hours," she said. 
"Nothing like a good night's sleep," I said, though strictly speaking, 
downtime 
wasn't really sleep. It was a psychocybernetic trance state. A way to turn 
people off when you didn't need them for anything. "So what's the prognosis, 
Miss Daniels? My readings all okay? Nothing in the red? No maintenance 
service 
required?" 
"No therapy is indicated," she said, consulting my chart printout. "I'd 
advise 
against consuming alcoholic beverages, though I doubt you'd listen. At least 
try 
to stop short of getting completely intoxicated. It really throws the 
readings 
off." 
I stared at her and mentally undressed her. She was wearing a loose-fitting 
white laboratory jumpsuit, but one of the monitor screens behind her suddenly 
showed her standing there in a sheer black lycra bra and bikini panties, dark 
stockings and spike heels. I wasn't on line, so the image stayed in the 
control 
room, but it wouldn't have been broadcast anyway. Not even psychocybernetic 
engineers can totally control the output of a human mind-at least, not yet-so 
there's always a slight delay between the biochip reception and the tachyon 
broadcast, allowing for some highly sophisticated editing. One of the other 
engineers cleared his throat softly. She turned around, saw the screen, and 
raised an eyebrow. 
"You flatter me, O'Toole," she said, in a disinterested, clinical sort of 
tone. 
"Unfortunately, I'm not quite as narrow-waisted as you seem to imagine. The 
result of a sedentary job with too little time for exercise, I'm afraid. And 
aside from considerations of style, if I were to wear shoes like that, it 
would 
lead to serious orthopedic problems." 
The image on the screen broke up into snow briefly before resolving itself 
once 
more into what I actually saw before me, an attractive and apparently 
completely 
humorless young woman in a white laboratory jumpsuit. It's hard to maintain a 
decent fantasy without at least some cooperation. 
"Besides," she said, and for a moment I could have sworn I saw the barest 
trace 
of a smile, "you left out my tattoo." 
"She isn't normally so personable," Breck said as we were leaving. "I think 
she 
rather likes you." 
"You think she really has a tattoo?" I said. 
"A black king scorpion on her left inner thigh," Breck said, with a perfectly 
straight face. 



I stopped and stared at him. 
"Only joking," Breck said, with a smile. "For all I know, it's a snake and 
dagger on her biceps. However, I would resist the temptation to find out for 
sure if I were you. Considering her position, she probably knows more about 
you 
than you know about yourself." 
"That's a large part of what makes it so tempting," I said, grinning. 
Breck sighed. "You still have a great deal to learn, O'Toole." 
He was undoubtedly right. Compared to Breck, I was a rank beginner at the 
game. 
Unfortunately, novices tend to make mistakes and Psychodrome can be very 
unforgiving. 
My involvement started as an accident. Perhaps even a lucky accident. The 
jury 
was still out on that one. I was born on Mars, in Bradbury City; Irish on my 
father's side, Russian on my mother's. My father was a hard-drinking, 
hard-gaming, two-fisted wild man named Scan O'Toole. My mother, Irina, was a 
long-suffering, self-effacing, beautiful and moody woman who believed that 
nothing really good would ever happen to her until she hit the afterlife and 
even then, who knew? My dad was ruled by leprechauns and she was spooked by 
generations of Russian Orthodox archbishops. A mismatch of a marriage if 
there 
ever was one, but it lasted due to equal parts of stubbornness and love. As a 
result of this somewhat unlikely mixture, I never did get settled all the 
way. 
Archbishops and Little People didn't get along too well. The Irish part of me 
believed in luck, but my Russian half kept telling me I'd never get it. 
I came to Earth as a freshly mustered-out serviceman looking for some fun on 
Tokyo's Ginza Strip. I suppose I must have had some, because the morning after 
I 
arrived, I woke up in a Junktown slum with almost all my money gone, a tattoo 
of 
a dragon (never mind where), and a brand-new wife who was perhaps all of 
fourteen. As things turned out, the marriage wasn't legal because Miko and 
her 
family were non-regs. If you're non-registered, then you're not legally a 
citizen and you haven't any rights. How can you have rights if you don't 
exist? 
Of course, I didn't know about that then, because on Mars and on the 
outworlds, 
people are still too valuable a commodity to ignore. Only Mother Earth 
neglects 
her children. All I knew was that I had, as my father would have said, really 
farted during vespers this time. I've been in straits considerably more dire 
since, but at the time, things seemed pretty grim. And they proceeded to get 
grimmer. 
I'd always been a hustler, but unlike my dear father-roast his soul-I was 
strictly small-time. The terrifying prospect of living out the remainder of 
my 
days in Junktown, saddled with a child wife and her starving non-reg family, 
made me throw caution to the winds. I did what any self-respecting Irishman 
would do when he was truly up against it. I went looking for a game of poker. 
I 
found one. And I made a very serious mistake. I won. 
I know it flies in the face of logic, but there is such a thing as a hot 
streak. 
Most gamblers live for it; however, if you're not very careful, it can 
utterly 
destroy you. I don't know what causes it, but when it strikes, you know it 
without the faintest scintilla of a doubt. It's magic. It's as if a ghostly 



finger taps you on the shoulder and the voice of Fate whispers in your ear, 
"Okay, kid, this is it. It's your turn to be God." 
At any other time, I would have known better and exercised restraint, but at 
any 
other time, I wouldn't have been there to begin with. Those guys were way too 
heavy for me. The secret to handling a hot streak and coming out ahead is 
knowing when to stop. It's a principle that every gambler knows. However, 
there 
is a lesser known corollary that separates the winners from the losers in the 
long run. And in some cases, it separates the living from the dead. Unless 
you're in a large casino, which likes to have a big winner now and then 
because 
it draws in all the losers, don't ever win too big. Engrave that on your 
greedy 
little heart. The smart hustler is not a barracuda. He lives on little bites. 
He 
just moves around and makes a lot of them. I wasn't smart. I knew that I was 
on 
a streak and I got greedy. And I bit off a lot more than I could chew. 
The guy who got chewed up the worst was a sore loser named Hakim Saqqara, who 
just so happened to be a warlord of the Yakuza. If I'd known that when I took 
his money, I probably would've committed hara-kiri on the spot. It would've 
saved everyone a lot of time and trouble. If he felt like it, he could have 
had 
me killed that very night, but I had pricked his pride and he wanted to draw 
his 
satisfaction out a bit. He decided to continue the game, so to speak, away 
from 
the table. So he waited. He gave me time to parlay my winnings into a 
comfortable life-style. The money I pulled off him allowed me to buy citizen 
registrations for Miko and her family and loan her enough funds to buy an 
education so she could get a job. I never thought I'd see it back, but I 
didn't 
really give a damn. I'd had a run of bad luck and I had somehow managed to 
turn 
it all around. Then Saqqara made his move and gave me an education in major 
league hustling that I'll never forget. 
By the time he was finished with me, I was so well and truly on the hook to 
him 
that when he snapped his fingers, I was in the air before he finished saying, 
"Jump." He took me for everything I had. In the process, I learned a bit too 
much about him, so when he decided I had nothing left to lose and could be no 
further use to him, he told his boys to drop me in the bay. Without a doubt, 
I 
would have wound up fish food if the leprechauns hadn't delivered a miracle. 
My number was selected in the Psychodrome lottery. 
Now Psychodrome was never my idea of entertainment. I found reality 
challenging 
enough, thank you, I didn't need fantasy tripping. I hadn't even bought the 
damn 
ticket. Before we parted company, my wife Miko once mentioned picking up a 
couple of tickets for us and I had forgotten all about it until mine was 
drawn 
for the grand prize-a chance to play an adventure game scenario with a couple 
of 
Psychodrome's hottest stars. There I was, trying to hide out from Yakuza 
assassins and the next thing I knew, I was famous. All I wanted was to go 
someplace where no one knew my name and suddenly everybody knew my name. 
I didn't have a lot of options. I was broke, without even enough money to buy 
another meal. I had been all the way up and down the scale. I'd gone from an 



ex-serviceman with some money to burn to a pauper down in Junktown to a high 
roller on the Ginza Strip to a stockbroker in Hamamatsu. And then the 
downward 
slide had started as Saqqara wrapped his tentacles around me and in five 
short 
years I was right back where I'd started, no worse off than before, except 
for 
one slight detail. There was a contract out on me. Psychodrome was a way out. 
If 
I had known back then what I was letting myself in for, I might've stayed in 
Tokyo and taken my chances with the Yakuza. 
There were different levels to the game known as "the ultimate experience." 
Some 
of them provided harmless fantasies built around luxury and pleasure. 
Whatever 
turns you on. Others provided adventure, challenge, and great risk. Players 
rich 
enough to afford the entry fees could choose their own scenarios from the 
adventures Psychodrome had to offer. The less fortunate could buy tickets in 
the 
lottery, with the grand prize being the chance to play. However, there was a 
catch. Winners of the lottery didn't get to choose their game scenarios and 
they 
had no control over their experiences. In that respect, there were two levels 
to 
Psychodrome; one in which wealthy players got to use the game for 
interactive, 
exhibitionistic entertainment and one in which the game got to use the 
players. 
Those who fell into the latter category were generally diehard thrillseekers, 
gamblers, or desperate individuals. In other words, people very much like me. 
And there's never been a shortage of such people. 
Players about to embark upon "the ultimate experience" were taken to the 
headquarters of Psychodrome International, the megacorporate entity which 
operates the game. There, the prospective player was given a full medical and 
psychological examination and a definitive player data base was assembled. 
The 
player was then taken into surgery, where a special semiorganic, 
psychocybernetic biochip was implanted into the cerebral cortex. Permanently. 
You couldn't take it out even if you could afford psychocybernetic surgery. 
The 
chip grew directly into the brain matter like a rooting seedling. It gave the 
player the ability to interface directly with the Psychodrome computer banks, 
as 
well as with Psychodrome's playermaster satellite network. 
The game began when the players were transported to a selected, location 
where 
they were supposed to interact with people and situations they encountered in 
order to achieve specific game objectives. It was possible to win, but still 
more possible to lose. And losing could mean death. Which made for great 
entertainment, you see. The game scenarios could be located anywhere on Earth 
or 
on another world or from a fantasy hallucinact devised by Psychodrome. In 
other 
words, it could be real or a programmed hallucination. Only the playermaster 
knew for sure. 
As the players pursued their game objectives, the playermaster was capable of 
interfacing with them to provide guidance or game clues, but never direct 
assistance. If you got into a jam, it was up to you to figure out how to get 
out 



of it. And the fun part was that the playermaster satellite network enabled 
instantaneous tachyon transmission of your experiences to Psychodrome Game 
Control for broadcast on mass media psych-fidelity entertainment channels. 
People using their psy-fi sets at home could follow the adventures of their 
favorite players and experience the game with them by plugging into the net. 
Psy-fi entertainment systems allowed them to achieve an electronic sensory 
link 
with the players. Each player's experience was broadcast on a separate 
channel 
of the system. By switching channels, the home audience could switch players, 
vicariously "becoming" those players. Sort of like renting someone else's 
body 
to have a fantasy adventure, sharing all the sensory experiences from the 
safety 
of your living room. Or bedroom. Like I said, whatever turns you on. And if 
things got a bit too hairy, the fail-safe biomonitors built into the system 
would protect you from becoming too excited. 
Home viewers were also capable of some limited interaction with the players 
by 
voting on selected game options. The vote was electronically tallied and the 
results instantaneously transmitted to the players via tachyon beam. The 
players 
then had the option of following the advice of the home audience or not. 
However, since ratings were important, there was a certain amount of pressure 
on 
the players to please the audience. And they could be a bit bloodthirsty on 
occasion. 
Realized game objectives resulted in fabulous cash prizes, as did accumulated 
"experience points." Psychodrome professionals-psychos-were cult figures 
living 
out a life of fantasy most people could only dream about (or experience 
vicariously). It wasn't the sort of career I would have selected for myself, 
but 
as somebody once said, life is just what happens to you while you're busy 
making 
other plans. Besides, what gambler can resist the lure of a big game? And 
though 
Psychodrome seemed to be the biggest game around, it turned out that there 
was 
an even bigger game being played out behind the scenes- the clandestine game 
that Coles seemed to be running. 
I had always assumed that there was someone running Coles, because the 
thought 
of Coles being accountable to no one but himself was a bit too unsettling to 
deal with. There had to be an order to things. Even Einstein had insisted 
that 
God didn't play dice with the universe. Of course, Einstein dealt with things 
on 
a far larger scale than I did, but if Coles wasn't God in my own small corner 
of 
the universe, he was certainly one of His Four Horsemen. He was one of Them, 
the 
mysterious and omnipotent They you're always hearing about, the ones who run 
things, the ones with all the power. He appeared out of nowhere, waltzed 
right 
into Game Control, and started giving orders. 
I'd always wondered about Psychodrome International wiring all those people 
up. 
The biochip was presented to the world as the latest thing in cybertech, a 
boon 



to all humanity. There was nothing like a brain/computer interface for 
increasing human potential. Take a short nap and wake up with a college 
education, or fluency in a foreign language, or have yourself programmed with 
an 
advanced-level technical course. All you had to do was pay for the data, 
competitively priced; the computer time, expensive; and the implantation of a 
biochip, a mere king's ransom. 
The operation was a relatively simple one for a psychocybernetic surgeon to 
perform and the actual cost of manufacturing a biochip, even allowing for a 
whopping profit, was still considerably less than what they charged. But then 
when something is ruinously expensive, it becomes that much more desirable to 
those who can afford it-namely, the rich and powerful, the movers and the 
shakers. If you want to hook that crowd, price your product accordingly and 
they'll line up for blocks to get one. And if you offer it as a grand prize in 
a 
glamorous lottery, a prize that not only lets you participate in the 
adventure 
of a lifetime, but gives you a biochip to keep forever as a souvenir, 
something 
that can increase your life potential (providing you can pay to have it 
programmed), well, you can sell all the tickets you can print. Everybody, but 
everybody, played the lottery. 
However, on the other hand . . . 
Inevitably, over a period of time, you'd have more and more people with 
biochips 
permanently implanted in their brains, which not only allowed their minds to 
interface with a computer, but could also conceivably allow someone to 
broadcast 
coded signals to their biochips and access their minds. Without their even 
knowing it. Of course, only a paranoid would think like that. 
Enter Mr. Coles. 
I never would have met Coles or learned how insidious Psychodrome could be if 
it 
hadn't been for a gaming round that took me to a planet called Draconis 9. 
The 
dominant form of life on Draconis 9 were creatures known as ambimorphs-in 
other 
words, shapechangers. 
The first corporate development team to set foot on Draconis 9 did what 
humans 
always do whenever they encounter a new wilderness. They started killing 
things. 
Until the humans came, the ambimorphs were simple creatures who survived by 
instinct. But after ignorant humans started killing them, the ambimorphs' 
instinct for survival led them to imitate the strange new predators. They 
took 
human form and mutated in the process, becoming sentient. And that's when 
they 
became a real problem. 
Breck had been with the Special Service unit sent to rescue the humans on 
Draconis 9. The mission had been a miserable failure. There had been no way 
to 
differentiate between the humans and the shapechangers. The ambimorphs were 
one-way telepaths. They communicated by reading one another's minds. And 
their 
shapechanging was more than superficial. They not only took on human form, 
they 
became human. They were so plastic a life form that one of them could read my 
mind and take my shape and become completely indistinguishable from me. It 
would 



sound like me. It would act like me. It would know everything I knew. It 
would 
duplicate my biology and essentially become another "me." And it could take 
any 
other form at will, with lightning speed. 
No one knew how they could do it. No ambimorph had ever been captured alive 
and 
studied. Dead ambimorphs did not revert back to whatever their "natural" form 
was. They became fixed somehow in whatever shape they had taken on before 
they 
died and even a detailed autopsy could not penetrate the secret of their 
morphology. They had been harmless, uncomplicated, unreasoning beings with a 
bovine placidity-until they encountered us. Then, just to survive, they 
changed 
and became the most terrifying life form in the universe, chameleons with 
human 
cunning and, worse still, human instincts. We had created the enemy and he 
was 
us-only it was a superior design. 
Draconis 9 was quarantined. A military base was established in orbit above 
the 
planet to maintain the quarantine and it might have ended there except that 
there was something on Draconis 9 that people wanted-fire crystals. 
Demand for the crystals as rare ornamental and industrial gems led to the 
formation of the Draconis Combine, a multinational conglomerate with enough 
clout to circumvent the quarantine and establish orbital habitats above 
Draconis 
9, housing a new species of professional who was part adventurer, part 
gambler, 
part mercenary, and part scum-the crystal hunter. They went down to the 
surface 
of Draconis to hunt their crystals and kill each other to protect their digs 
and 
annihilate anything living that came close to them, just in case it was an 
ambimorph. They went down equipped with state-of-the-art weapons and skimmer 
sleds and specially coded transceivers so they could be scanned when they 
came 
back, have their humanity verified, be placed into protective quarantine, and 
exhaustively examined just to make sure no ambimorphs got through. Well, it 
didn't work. The shapechangers broke the quarantine. 
Coles, in his infinite deviousness, had directed Psychodrome to announce the 
creation of a brand-new, continuing adventure game scenario. "Coming up 
soon-Alien Invasion! Tune in and share the fantasy! Stalk the ambimorphs who 
walk among us! Join the elite team mobilized to save the human race!" It was 
billed as the most realistic game scenario the company had ever run and only 
a 
small group of people knew that it was real. Trust Coles to find the perfect 
way 
to desensitize the public to an alien invasion. Make it into a media event. 
Breck and I were part of an inner group of psychos answering only to Coles. I 
don't recall ever being asked to join. At first, it scared me silly. And then 


started to get excited about it. I tried to tell myself that it was only my 
gambler's instinct responding to a challenge, the lure of the big game, the 
charge in laying it all right on the line. I really wanted to believe that. 
But 
there was a little chip inside my brain, a miracle of modern psychocybernetic 
engineering, and ever since they'd put it in there, I never really knew for 
sure 
where my ideas came from anymore. But, of course, psychos aren't supposed to 



let 
things like that bother them. 
Breck lit up a bang stick and leaned back in his chair, inhaling the vaguely 
minty smoke and holding it in his lungs a moment before exhaling slowly. He 
claimed the devilish stuff actually relaxed him. I tried not to inhale too 
deeply. The last thing I needed was a contact adrenaline rush that would make 
me 
start climbing up the walls. Breck ordered a beer and I asked the waitress 
for 
an Irish whiskey. It was ruinously expensive, what with the import tariffs, 
but 
there simply was no adequate domestic substitute. Just as there was no 
adequate 
substitute for cocktail waitresses. 
The unemployment statistics being what they were, any service establishment 
using robotics was liable to get boycotted, if not trashed, so most places in 
the city had disposed of their robots and gone back to using human help. And 
they made an astonishing discovery-people actually preferred being waited on 
by 
people. There were fewer mistakes involved in taking orders, it made the 
atmosphere more congenial, and customers were far less likely to assault a 
human 
waiter than to demolish a robot server, so the overhead went down. Besides, 
no 
robot could beat a cocktail waitress with great legs. 
Solo's wasn't very crowded yet. The action didn't really pick up until after 
midnight, so we didn't draw a great deal of attention. Breck only signed 
about 
ten or fifteen autographs. I signed five, but then I wasn't as big a star as 
Breck was. Not that I minded very much. I watched the way they approached 
him, 
the expressions on their faces a mixture of awe, lust, and envy. It made me 
nervous. 
It's only natural to want people to like you, to accept you for who and what 
you 
are, but you want it on your terms. You want to be able to decide how much of 
yourself you're going to reveal at any given time and you want to control how 
close you're going to let other people get. Psychos didn't really get to do 
that. We had more than just a sensory link with the home audience, we had an 
emotional link, as well. It wasn't true telepathy, but someone plugging into 
the 
net and tuning in a psycho often got more than just sight, sound, smell, and 
feel. Some psychos "projected" better than others. There was a greater sense 
of 
empathy. Apparently, I let a great deal of my self seep through and people 
who 
tuned in on me not only got the sensation of sharing my experiences, they got 
a 
strong sense of what it felt like to be me. 
I found that out the hard way. I'd fallen in love with Stone Winters and kept 
it 
to myself, but when she plugged into a rerun of one of our adventures and 
tuned 
me in so that she could see how her game partner reacted, she experienced my 
feelings about her. And during the broadcast, so did everyone else who tuned 
me 
in. I started receiving fan mail from women who liked the way my feelings 
felt. 
It was embarrassing, to say the least, but there was nothing I could do about 
it. Blame it on my heritage, I was apparently one hell of an emoter. 



Breck was different. Rudy was larger than life. He gave them a sense of what 
it 
felt like to be a hero, a swashbuckler who quite literally knew no fear. He 
was 
immensely popular because he gave his audience a chance to experience what it 
felt like to have power in their world. It wasn't really theirs, it was 
Rudy's, 
but for a while, they got to share it with him. It made their desperate 
working 
lives a bit more bearable. Perhaps that was a good thing in some respects, a 
beneficial therapy, but on the other hand, coming home from a long grind at 
the 
office and "becoming" Rudy Breck was a heady experience. 
Someone who did not possess Breck's physical perfection, his superior hybreed 
strength and reflexes, his "leap into the jaws of death and devil take the 
hindmost" approach to life could tune him in and get a fix of what that felt 
like-only with safety valves incorporated into the delusion. No real danger, 
no 
real stress, no risk, no pain, no gamble. It could be incredibly addictive, 
turning people into passive receptors, dreamers whose fantasies became more 
real 
to them, more meaningful, than the lives they actually led. It was both sad 
and 
scary. And I was part of it, somewhere in the middle, not quite sure where I 
fit 
in. 
"You're looking very pensive," Breck said, glancing at me over his beer glass. 
I tossed back the whiskey. I had promised myself I wouldn't drink anymore, 
but 
an Irishman trying not to drink is like a politician trying to be sincere. 
It's 
against the laws of nature. "I was thinking about the life we lead," I said. 
"It 
doesn't really belong to us, does it? It belongs to Coles; it belongs to the 
company; it belongs to the audience, to everyone except us." 
Breck made a wry face. "You're not going to get drunk again, are you, 
O’Toole? 
You always become maudlin when you're drunk." 
I sighed. "I'm just tired, Rudy. I don't think I've had more than six hours 
to 
myself since I got back from Tokyo. If Coles isn't running us ragged, he's 
got 
me on downtime or he's staging hallucinacts in which I'm dying half the time 
and 
I can't tell the difference between what's real and what isn't anymore. I'm 
on 
the verge of overload. And in answer to your question, yes, I'm going to get 
drunk." 
'There's nothing more tedious than someone who's half Russian, half Irish, 
and 
all drunk," said Breck. "The last time you were in your cups, you got up on a 
table and made an incomprehensible speech about the virtues of ethical 
conduct. 
Then you sang a little song, received a great round of applause, and passed 
out 
on the floor. I had to carry you home and put you to bed. I wouldn't have 
minded 
so much if I hadn't been reprimanded by Coles for not keeping a tighter rein 
on 
you, as if that were my responsibility." 



"A man's got to unwind somehow," I said weakly. 
"Yes, unwind, not cease running altogether," Breck said. He pointed his index 
finger at me. "I'm watching you this time, O'Toole. The minute you start 
running 
your sentences together, I'm cutting off your booze." 
"He doesn't do it to you, does he?" 
Breck frowned. "Who doesn't do what to me? What are you talking about?" 
"Coles! Who else?" 
"Ah, the hallucinact training sessions, you mean." He shook his head. "No, 
he's 
been having scan crews working round the clock, debriefing me, trying to 
prime 
my subconscious so they can reconstruct that miserable mission to Draconis 9 
all 
those years ago. It's an experience I dearly wish I could forget and he's 
been 
making me relive it. All he's doing to you is trying to bring you up to 
speed; 
something you should probably thank him for, believe it or not. It will 
increase 
your 'survivability quotient,' as he puts it. Bureaucrats seem to have a 
language all their own, don't they? In any case, buck up. At least you've 
still 
managed to retain your sanity. That puts you ahead of the game." 
"You could die playing this game," I said. "And I sure don't feel like I'm 
ahead. I feel as if I'm losing touch with my own reality." I drained the 
glass 
and ordered another whiskey. 
"On the contrary," Breck said. "Your own reality is the one thing you're not 
losing touch with. Do you remember the advice I gave you when we first met? 
You 
were worried about how to tell if what you were about to experience would be 
real or a programmed hallucination and I told you not to concern yourself 
with 
that, to treat each and every experience as if it were absolutely real, 
because 
if you allowed yourself the luxury of doubt, your mind would cling to that 
doubt 
in moments of extreme stress and that could kill you." I nodded. "I remember. 
I 
didn't even know the half of it then." 
"What happened in your last hallucinact?" said Breck. 'The ambimorph got me," 
I 
said, staring down at the table. "I screwed up and I died." 
"But did you ever doubt that you were really about to die?" 
I frowned and shook my head. "No. It seemed so real..." 
"Precisely," Breck said. "Even after repeated training sessions in 
psychocybernetic computer simulations designed to subject your mind to 
continually increased levels of stress, you still maintained your grasp on 
your 
perceived reality. You stayed grounded, in other words. You did not retreat 
into 
denial. Even faced with what appeared to be imminent death, you continued to 
integrate your perceptions into your own reality, instead of allowing your 
sense 
of reality to disintegrate." 
I stared at him. "But don't crazy people do exactly the same thing? If what 
you 
perceive isn't real and you act on that, is that sanity?" 
Breck smiled, "It depends on how you respond to what you perceive," he said. 



"Schizophrenics, for example, tend to have completely unpredictable 
responses. 
If you react to your sensory input in a normal manner, it doesn't matter if 
your 
perceptions are based on something that isn't real. The brain is essentially 
a 
computer and a computer is only as good as its input. If Coles inputs a 
hallucinact in which you are about to die, what matters is how you react to 
that 
situation, not whether or not the situation is actually real. Because your 
perceptions are all you have to go on. You might say a hallucinact bypasses 
your 
'reality circuit.' Since it's the only input you're receiving, it becomes the 
only reality you can respond to." 
"You mean as in 'garbage in, garbage out'?" 'That's a rather peculiar way of 
putting it, but in principle, it's essentially correct. Another way to look 
at 
it is to think of it as problem solving. All life is, after all, is a series 
of 
problems that we have to solve. A hallucinact is merely a model of the real 
thing. Both require the same problem-solving approach. However, if you start 
to 
doubt your own perceptions, questioning your input, then that becomes the 
equivalent of ignoring the problem. That doesn't mean it's going to go away." 
"I understand that part of it," I said, "but what has me worried is that 
Coles 
seems intent on confusing my sense of reality. He'll send us out on a 
real-life 
exercise, then he'll program a hallucinact that mimicks that reality and I 
never 
know which one it will be." 
"Would you believe that it doesn't really matter?" ; "Now that's crazy," I 
said. 
"Not from his point of view," Breck said, with a shrug. "The most effective 
way 
of training someone to cope with life or death situations is to place them in 
life or death situations. That's why the Asian martial arts purists always 
trained with real edged weapons and why the Special Service always trains 
with 
live ammo. Coles is getting you accustomed to facing death. Once you become 
accustomed to it, the threat itself doesn't affect your response time 
anymore. 
It's a rather novel way to use hallucinacts. The service should probably look 
into it. It's certainly more economical than going on maneuvers." 
"But if I keep encountering life-threatening situations in hallucinacts and 
waking up to find out that it was all a' psychocybernetic dream, then won't 
that 
have the effect of desensitizing me to the idea of dying?" 
"That seems to be the general idea," Breck said, nodding. 
"But fear is a function of self-preservation." 
Breck shrugged. "I wouldn't know. Personally, I'd rather depend on knowledge 
and 
ability for my survival." 
I couldn't argue with the man. He'd been through more hell than I would ever 
see 
and he'd survived it. But then, that was what he'd been designed to do. He was 
a 
high-performance model and I was strictly economy class. I wondered why Coles 
bothered. A man in his position could easily recruit more hybreeds like Breck 
or 



even ordinary humans, who were much more suited to the task than I was. Why 
me? 
It couldn't have been simply because I knew too much not to be on the inside. 
I 
had no illusions that my civil liberties would mean anything to a man like 
Coles. If he thought it would be more cost effective to wipe me like a slate, 
he 
wouldn't hesitate a moment. 
I worried away at it oh the way back to the hotel. I had stopped at the point 
where I had a pleasant buzz on instead of getting drunk, and that was 
fortunate, 
because when I got home, I found out I had company. 
As I walked in the door, Cass Daniels came out of my bedroom, wearing my 
black 
silk robe and carrying two glasses of champagne. She leaned against the 
doorframe and held one glass out to me. As I took it, the robe fell open and 
I 
saw that she was wearing a sheer black lycra bra and panties, dark stockings 
and 
spike heels. 
"Was this more or less what you had in mind?" she said, raising her eyebrows. 
It felt as if there were something stuck inside my throat. I drained the 
glass 
in one gulp. She sipped her drink and watched me over the rim of the glass. 
"Cass ..." I said. 
She approached me, holding the glass in her left hand and putting her right 
hand 
on my chest. She smiled as she started to undo my shift. "I thought we should 
get better acquainted," she said huskily. "All you really know about me is 
that 
I'm one of the scanning engineers at Game Control." She looked up at me and 
smiled. "But I know a great deal about you." 
Her lips came closer, her slowly moving hand dropped lower as it stroked 
gently 
and there was something nibbling away at the back of my mind, only I was 
having 
trouble paying attention. I felt her warm breath as her lips brushed my cheek 
and she pressed herself against me. 
"Wait," I said. Inexplicably, I suddenly felt paranoid and backed away from 
her, 
trying to catch my breath. 
"Why?" she said, letting the robe slip to the floor and reaching around to 
unfasten her bra. 
She looked exactly as I had imagined she would look without that 
loose-fitting 
jumpsuit. Exactly the way I had pictured her in my mind. Only I suddenly 
recalled her saying that she was actually somewhat heavier around the middle. 
I 
didn't see any love handles. And there was no tattoo. Perhaps she had been 
joking, but I suddenly wondered what would happen if I called Game Control. 
Would I find out that she was still on duty? 
She suddenly threw the glass aside and opened her mouth in a snarl. Gleaming 
hydraulic fangs slid out of her incisors. Her skin became iridescent and 
developed scales. She was turning into a nightmare plucked right out of my 
mind. 
Without thinking, I clawed for my gun and fired. The bullets passed through 
empty air where she had been an instant earlier and exploded against the wall. 
And then I felt something climbing up my leg. 
The thick serpent's body with the travesty of a human female head coiled 
around 



me and I wanted to scream, but instead I jammed my gun right into its gaping 
maw 
and squeezed the trigger. The back of the creature's head exploded, and I 
kept 
firing until the magazine was empty. 
I fell to the floor, trapped by the serpent coils as the creature stiffened 
in 
death. I hammered against its body with my empty gun, trying to free myself. 
After struggling for a few minutes, I managed to extricate myself from the 
coils 
and I stood over the thing, covered with its blood and breathing heavily. 
"All right, Coles, damn you," I said through clenched teeth, "this time I 
didn't 
die!" 
Only Coles did not respond. And the scene did not dissolve around me and I 
didn't come out of it lying on a laboratory couch at Game Control. I was 
still 
in my hotel room and there was an alien creature lying dead on my carpet and 
I 
had its blood all over me. 
I was still shaking when Breck broke down the door. 


TWO 


The entire floor of my hotel had been secured so fast, my neighbors must all 
have been in shock. So far as they would ever know, someone had made an 
attempt 
on my life and I'd shot him in self-defense. They'd see the body bag being 
removed, but they'd never suspect what sort of thing was actually inside it. 
I 
wondered how they'd have reacted if they had known. 
"I wish you hadn't killed it," Coles said, his voice manifesting itself in my 
mind. 
"Well, now what the hell was I supposed to do?" I said out loud, still 
feeling 
badly rattled. The men sealing the body bag glanced at me. They hadn't heard 
Coles, of course, and they looked puzzled for a moment, then they figured out 
what was going on and wordlessly went back to their task. 
"I didn't mean that as a criticism," said Coles. "I was merely expressing 
regret 
that we missed an opportunity to capture one of them alive. It obviously 
intended to kill you and take your place. If it had succeeded and we weren't 
monitoring you, your death would not have registered before the creature 
could 
assimilate your biochip and it might have penetrated our security. We were 
very 
lucky. It was a close call." 
"Yes, I'm so relieved that 'we' came out of it all right," I said. 
"I want you both to report in immediately," Coles said. "I don't want either 
of 
you talking to the news media, so I'm having you picked up in the lobby. Not 
a 
word to anyone. Understood?" 
"Understood." 
I watched the men carry the sealed body bag out into the hall. "Doesn't seem 
to 
bother them," I said. "You'd think they bagged human-headed serpents every 
day." 
Breck glanced at me. "Are you all right?" 
"Yeah, I'll live. I'll probably have nightmares for a while, but these days, 



what's the difference? Awake or asleep, reality or hallucination, seems like 
it's all the same damn thing." 
"You mean it isn't?" Breck said, grinning and flexing his nysteel fingers. He 
had lost his real arm in the service and the prosthesis had some interesting 
modifications built into it, such as the knife blades that sprang like 
stilettos 
out of his artificial fingers. Not to mention that the nysteel alloy itself 
was 
damn near indestructible. One shot with it was all it had taken to pulverize 
my 
door. 
"You ruined my door with that damn thing," I said. 
"Sorry. I didn't mean to knock quite so hard." 
I grimaced ruefully. "I guess I should stop complaining about the scan crews 
monitoring us on our own time. For all the damn good it did. If I hadn't shot 
that creature, their monitoring my readouts wouldn't have helped me much. You 
would've arrived too late. No one saved my ass this time but me." 
Breck raised his eyebrows. "Are you quite certain of that?" 
I glanced at him sharply. "What do you mean?" 
"Game Control scanners registered abnormal levels on your readouts, resulting 
in 
a signal alarm that alerted them to tune you in. I suspect that confronted 
with 
the spectacle of Cassandra Daniels in her scanties, or what you thought was 
Cassandra Daniels, you reacted with predictable excitement. Add the fact that 
you'd been drinking, which affects the bio signals, and the result was an 
abnormal readout of some sort. The real Miss Daniels, still on duty back at 
Game 
Control, thought it prudent to tune you in and check on your activities. 
Imagine 
how surprised she must have been when she tuned in and saw that you were 
about 
to make love to her] The ambimorph apparently plucked your current fantasy 
straight out of your mind the moment you walked in. However, the significant 
thing about all this is that the creature didn't pick up on the fact that you 
were being monitored, either because it couldn't or because it was too intent 
on 
plucking a familiar and compelling image from your mind to throw you 
immediately 
off guard. It suggests that ambimorphs are not infallible mind readers. And 
that's encouraging news." 
1 was slow on the uptake. "Wait a minute. If Cassandra tuned me in and saw 
what 
was happening, why didn't she contact me?" 
Breck looked amused. "What makes you think she didn't?" 
I suddenly remembered that nagging little feeling at the back of my mind, 
that 
insistent, prodding sensation which had burst into a powerful attack of 
paranoia, and I realized what must have happened. 
"She knew you were in trouble," said Breck, "and distracted by a rather 
powerful 
sexual stimulus. Rather than throw you off balance by using voice contact, 
which 
might well have caused a fatal hesitation on your part, she simply activated 
your strongest defense response and amplified it. You did all the rest. I 
think 
it was an excellent judgment call on her part. She saved your life." 
I stared at him, stunned. I'd been wondering why Coles bothered with someone 
like me, when he could easily have recruited more hybreeds like Breck, with 
superior strength, responses, and powers of concentration. The answer, of 



course, was that someone like Breck would be a lot harder to manipulate. 
Breck 
was "wired differently." Coles could not tiptoe through his mind without 
Breck 
knowing it. The degree of mental discipline and control that came so easily 
to 
Breck was excruciating work for me. I was getting better at it, but Breck, 
being 
a hybreed, would always have the edge. Consequently, Breck was a good choice 
as 
an operative, but a poor choice as a subject for experimentation to see how 
much 
cybertech could do applied to ordinary humans as behavior modification. 
I began to see that I was much more than a covert government agent playing 
Psychodrome professionally as a cover. I was an experimental prototype, as 
well. 
When Coles learned where all my buttons were and how to push them, he could 
do 
the same thing more easily with others-and in such a manner that they would 
never be aware of it. It was as if I were the vehicle and Coles and his 
people 
were sitting behind the wheel-learning how to drive. 
"I see," I said softly, trying not to think about the worst nightmares of 
George 
Orwell. "I suppose I'm going to have to thank Cass Daniels for pushing the 
right 
button." 
Breck gave me a wry smile. "Just make certain that it's really her this time." 
There had been some changes at the corporate headquarters of Psychodrome 
International since Coles and his people took over. They were subtle changes 
for 
the most part, such as the security system that relied not only on hidden 
scanners, but on human receptionists and guards plugged into the security 
matrix, their senses monitored by Security Control. 
To the casual observer, the lobby of the building looked no different than it 
had before the advent of what some of us referred to as "the change in 
management." (Personally,.! wasn't at all convinced that there had been a 
change 
in management. I had a sneaking suspicion that Coles might have been running 
things all along. I know, paranoia. ..) Entering through the front doors from 
the courtyard plaza, you came into the cavernous atrium. The centerpiece was 
the 
massive multiplex holocube display. The huge cubes were clustered like quartz 
crystals, each containing constantly changing scenes, slices of experience 
from 
past interactive game scenarios. The whole thing was suspended over a 
reflecting 
pool which, depending on the time of day, was either placid or had colored 
fountains playing in it. 
Beyond this garish testament to our corporate image, there was the 
information 
desk, staffed by a covey of bright, young, helpful people whose primary 
function 
was to be polite, cheerful, and attractive without being terribly 
accommodating. 
If you were able to convince them that you had legitimate business somewhere 
in 
the vast corporate hive, they would point you in the right direction, usually 
down one of the side corridors leading to a bank of lift tubes. However, by 
the 



time you'd gotten that far, you'd already been scanned about a dozen 
different 
ways, examined by both automated and human sensors. 
While that charming young receptionist was soothing you with her seductive 
voice 
and perhaps even flirting with you a little, she was making direct eye 
contact 
and her visual impression was being instantaneously transmitted via her 
biochip 
to Security Control, where computer enhancement of the image enabled a 
reading 
of your retinal pattern for identification. Your voice print was checked as 
the 
receptionist listened to you speak and the scanners hidden in her desk made 
certain you weren't carrying anything antisocial on your person. More of the 
same took place inside the lift tubes, which were equipped with concealed 
antipersonnel weapons capable of tracking and zeroing in on individual 
passengers and rendering them either unconscious or dead without harming the 
person standing next to them. If necessary though, the entire tube could be 
destroyed. Needless to say, all but a handful of employees were ignorant of 
these procedures, just as only a handful of employees knew that there was 
something .more to Psychodrome than entertainment. In other words, we were so 
paranoid, we didn't even tell our own people what we were doing. 
So far as I knew, Coles never left the upper levels of the building. Perhaps 
he 
felt safer there or maybe he wanted to be right on top of things twenty-four 
hours a day. Probably both. The maximum security floors of the building were 
prohibited to anyone who wasn't implanted with a biochip. Everyone with 
clearance for access to those floors was now monitored by automated scanner 
banks around the clock. At the first abnormal reading, as had happened in my 
case, alarms went off and a scanning engineer on duty tuned in immediately. 
Coles was serious. I wondered if he was serious enough to have had himself 
implanted with a biochip, as well. I guessed he probably had. Fanatics like 
Coles tended to be true believers in the system. If it were up to him, he 
would 
probably have a biochip implanted in every infant that was born. 
He was waiting for us in his office on the top floor. It was all done in 
black. 
Black carpeting, black walls, black ceiling, black furniture, black fixtures 
and 
accessories ... it was like the inside of a womb. I always felt slightly 
disoriented in his office, a little claustrophobic, as if I were visiting a 
mole 
in its lair. 
"Come in, gentlemen," Coles said, from behind his big black desk. "Have a 
seat. 
I'd like you to see something." 
He pressed a tiny sensor panel in the console set flush with the desktop and 
a 
panel in the wall slid up to reveal a holoscreen. 
"The footage you're about to see," said Coles, "was obtained from an 
independent 
producer who was attempting to sell it to the news media. Fortunately for us, 
they didn't bite. They thought he was trying to pull a hustle with some 
special 
effects." 
The scene flashed on abruptly, showing a beautiful young woman standing on 
the 
guardrail of a span way, against the background of the midtown towers, high 
above the lower levels of the city. She was clearly about to jump. Breck and 



I 
I 
t 
really Stone. It was the ambimorph that had returned to Earth with us by 
assuming her identity. 
What we were watching on the screen had taken place moments after the 
creature, 
still in the shape of Stone Winters, had escaped from the very building we 
were 
in. Game Control had still been receiving signals from the biochip the 
shapechanger had assimilated when it had eaten Stone and I knew what was 
coming 
up next. The creature had panicked at the sight of all the vehicles bearing 
down 
upon it as it fled out onto the spanway and it had leaped over the guardrail, 
shapechanging as it fell. 
We were on its trail when it happened. Game Control had been receiving 
signals 
from the biochip and Coles had fed the transmission directly to Breck and me. 
I 
recalled the terrifying sensation of falling, followed by the feeling of 
winged 
flight, the transformation taking place so quickly that there was no 
sensation 
whatsoever of the change. What we had experienced through the medium of the 
biochip interface with the creature, we were now about to see for the first 
time. 
"This was an absolute fluke," said Coles as he froze the image on the screen. 
"This guy was shooting a series of background scenes for an ad agency 
campaign 
and he just happened to catch this." He started the footage once again, 
reversing it so that it rewound to the scene an instant before the cameraman 
had 
seen "Stone" up on the spanway. "All right, now here's where he spotted what 
he 
thought was a woman about to commit suicide." 
He resumed running it once more and we saw the blurring effect as the 
cameraman 
quickly panned up to the spanway, catching "the woman" poised on the 
guardrail. 
A second later, she jumped. 
"Now hold on to your seats," said Coles. 
The camera followed as "she" fell, tumbling like a high diver out of control, 
and then suddenly, incredibly, the falling figure exploded, bursting apart 
into 
a flock of small birds, pinwheeling around one another and then grouping 
together into a flight that went soaring out of frame as the picture tilted 
crazily"
Here's where he dropped the camera," said Coles, stopping the holographic 
footage, and then reversing it. He ran it from the fall and froze the image 
at 
the instant of the transformation. The process had been too fast even for a 
holocamera to capture. One moment, a falling woman. The next, a human figure 
exploding into birds. 
"My God," I whispered. 
"Amazing," said Breck, staring at the screen. "So that was how it seemed to 
achieve the impossible and alter its mass. It never altered its mass at all, 
it 
simply rearranged it by separating into discrete entities, linked by one 
intelligence! I never dreamed that they could do that!" 
"What about the people who saw this?" I said. "What about the cameraman? How 



did 
you intend to keep them quiet?" 
Coles shrugged. "I have no intention of trying to keep them quiet. They can 
talk 
about it all they please. They're even welcome to talk about how we seized 
their 
footage. The news media have already decided it's a Psychodrome publicity 
stunt." 
"But what if somebody believes them?" 
"People believe all sorts of irrational things," said Coles. "They see 
ghosts, 
they speak with Jesus Christ, they wrestle with the devil, they're kidnapped 
by 
little green men in flying saucers . . . Aliens walking among us is hardly 
something new. I doubt even the sensational press would find it very 
interesting. On the other hand, our xenobiologists find this utterly 
fascinating. The fact that the ambimorphs can do this seems to support the 
theory that they reproduce asexually, by fission." 
"You mean mitosis?" Breck said. 
Coles shook his head. "I don't know. I'm wary of sticking a convenient label 
on 
it until we know for sure exactly what it is they do and how they do it. It 
could be a form of cell division we've never even seen before. Our people 
believe it's possible that what we're dealing with here is not a species of 
individual creatures, but that each ambimorph is a sort of 'colony.' As you 
said, Breck, discrete entities linked by a common intelligence. But also 
linked, 
apparently, by something more than that, something like a common nervous 
system, 
possibly based on enzymes or even something on a particle level, 
micro-molecular. A dead ambimorph becomes fixed, rather like water freezing 
into 
a solid block of ice. The cells, I guess you'd call them, aren't completely 
independent. They can sustain a certain amount of damage, but past some 
point, 
trauma becomes irreversible. We know they can be killed. What we didn't know 
is 
that we could be dealing with interdependent, symbiotic communities of 
creatures 
that behave together in an individual manner." 
"You mean like a hive?" I said. 
Coles raised his eyebrows. "Perhaps. That's an interesting way of putting it. 
Of 
course, we won't know any of this for certain until we can manage to get our 
hands on a live ambimorph. Which brings me to the main reason why I sent for 
you. Have either of you ever heard of a place called Purgatory?" 
Purgatory. 
Just the mention of the name was enough to make my stomach start contracting. 


had once spent three months on Purgatory while I was a supply sergeant on a 
service freighter and those three months had been three of the most miserable 
months I'd ever spent anywhere, including the Ginza Strip, Junktown, and that 
bug-infested swamp of a planet where I received my baptism of fire as a 
psycho, 
fighting with a brigade of corporate mercenaries. 
I'd heard of a place called Purgatory, all right. I was twenty years old and 
the 
barge we charitably referred to as a "ship" had limped into port at Purgatory 
Station, where our chief engineer finally conceded that it would take more 
than 



a crescent wrench and some electrician's tape to effect repairs. What it took 
was an overhaul of the drive system, which tied up engineering for about 
three 
weeks, and debugging a small glitch somewhere in the navigational computer, 
which only took a little over two months. Those of us who were not in 
engineering or systems maintenance had nothing to do except mickey mouse 
make-work and we'd already been doing that for months. So the skipper decided 
to 
break down and give us shore leave on the planet surface. 
Five of us never made it back. 
We never did find out what happened to them. They had been drinking-there 
wasn't 
much else to do on Purgatory-and they had taken a jet-powered desert sled out 
beyond the confines of the military ground base. They had been careening 
around 
the desert, shooting up the bleeding cactus, when they ran out of fuel. A 
search 
party from the ground base made several flyovers and they finally located 
their 
desert sled, but there was no sign of our men. No one seemed surprised. 
Their bodies were never recovered. Possibly because there were no bodies to 
recover. They might have encountered one of several predatory species who 
lived 
out on the high desert plains. They might have died of exposure and been 
recycled by the efficient little scavengers of Purgatory, who wasted nothing, 
not even the bones. Or they might have been taken by the natives, nomadic 
tribes 
whose life in the high country was so harsh that they could always use an 
extra 
hand or two. Having found the abandoned sled and no sign of our men within a 
fifty-mile radius, the ground-base commander had simply shrugged and said, 
"Forget it." 
Our skipper gave us a choice. Go back up to the orbital station and our ship 
or 
remain confined to the ground base. 
The ground-base commander didn't much care what we did. As far as he was 
concerned, if we were stupid enough to go out into the desert and get lost, 
that 
was our own lookout. He had other things to worry about, such as the fact 
that 
it looked as if he was never going to get his transfer. So he did a lot of 
drinking. 
I wound up doing a great deal of it with him, watching my crewmates, one by 
one, 
succumb to the endless heat and drudgery and take the shuttle back up to the 
ship rather than go bugfuck. I was determined to make the most of my 
groundside 
liberty as long as we were there, because I knew it would be a long time 
before 
I got my feet on solid ground again, but a choice between staying aboard ship 
or 
ground liberty on Purgatory was like a choice between a killer migraine or an 
infection of the urinary tract. 
I couldn't imagine why in God's name Coles would send us to a place like 
Purgatory. There was nothing there except for a few refineries and a toxic 
waste 
dump or two. However, as I learned from Coles, it seemed that Purgatory had 
experienced some growth in recent years and the high pay scales and harsh 
conditions had made it a natural recruiting ground for the Draconis Combine. 
After a few years spent on Purgatory, workers had more than enough cash to 



stake 
themselves to a crystal hunter's gamble in the Combine's Fire Islands' 
habitats 
and they were desperate for a thrill. All too many of them wound up getting 
more 
thrills than they had bargained for. 
The Combine operated frequent flights between Purgatory and the Fire Islands. 
The Draconis Combine was not above "selling contracts"-a polite euphemism for 
indentured servitude. There was always a need for laborers on Purgatory and 
the 
Combine liked to maintain a decent turnover in the habitats. It was all too 
easy 
to get suckered in by dreams of easy money and adventure in the Fire Islands. 
Once you got there, you might decide that a crystal hunter's life was far too 
violent for you and then you wanted out. That was when you fell prey to the 
human sharks who inhabited the Islands. If you were lucky, you got out on a 
turnaround. If you weren't, you found out what slavery was all about. If you 
were lucky, you were "turned around" and had your contract sold-most likely 
to 
one of the companies on Purgatory. It was a vicious cycle that trapped a lot 
of 
people. There was virtually no escape. Once the value of your contract and 
the 
freight had been worked off, you were then free to go anywhere you liked. 
However, first it would be necessary to save up for the fare, and meanwhile, 
you 
had to eat, so you signed another contract . . . 
It was a profitable system for the Combine for many years, but the Fire 
Islands 
habitats were under quarantine now. Am-bimorphs who had broken the quarantine 
would have been more likely to wind up on Purgatory than anyplace else. From 
there, given enough money, they could have gone almost anywhere. However, it 
seemed that some of them had stayed. 
There had been an explosion at one of the refineries. A huge cracking tower 
had 
been demolished and the fire had damaged much of the plant before it was 
brought 
under control. It had been no accident. Explosive charges had been 
strategically 
placed, and just before the tower had blown, a plant foreman had ordered 
everyone away from the site. They later found him, bound and gagged in a 
storage 
closet. He swore that he had been struck from behind and that he had come to 
inside the closet, where he had been unsuccessfully struggling to escape his 
bonds for hours. And despite eyewitness testimony that he was the one who had 
warned everyone out of the area, the foreman denied having done any such 
thing, 
insisting that someone was trying to frame him. 
It looked like it was time to play another "game." 
The playermaster Coles had assigned to run the operation was our old friend 
Tolliver Mondago. Coles had far too many irons in the fire to personally run 
field agents on a mission. Mondago would make sure that Coles was kept 
informed. 
Personally, I didn't know who was worse, Coles or Mondago. Mondago had a lot 
to 
answer for. That crazy old man had almost killed us last time. I often 
worried 
about telling the difference between reality and programmed hallucination, but 


wasn't sure Mondago knew there was a difference. And Coles would only part 



with 
so much information-as usual, the operative term was "need-to-know." 
Personally, I needed to know a lot more than I was being told. I didn't know 
if 
Coles was playing it by ear or just close to the vest. Probably both. I 
didn't 
know if Mondago knew more than he was willing to tell us or if he, too, was 
being made to function purely on a need-to-know basis. Again, probably both. 
For 
that matter, I didn't even know if this was going to be a real mission or 
merely 
another elaborate hallucinact the home audience would share with me. It was a 
hell of a way to train agents and run a covert operation-with live coverage 
on 
mass media entertainment channels. 
The audience would be sitting at home, plugged into their psy-fi sets, 
vicariously participating in what they thought was an interactive fantasy 
adventure game. Only it would be for real-appropriately edited, of course. 
And 
as they plugged in and watched and heard and smelled and felt, Coles would 
undoubtedly be plugging in to them at the same time, feeding them subliminal 
programs and propping them for future use as they enjoyed their 
entertainment. 
He'd be learning how to push their buttons. It was the new ecology. Eat or be 
eaten, beat or be beaten. Use or be useless. 
I came out of downtime as the ship made its approach to Purgatory Station. I 
didn't remember going down. And I had no idea how long I had been down. The 
last 
thing I remembered was sitting in a comfortable black leather chair in 
Coles's 
black, dimly lit office. Someone flicked a switch and turned me off and now I 
was coming out of it trillions of miles away. 
There were no viewports in the supercargo compartments Breck and I were 
traveling in, tiny individual passenger cubicles not much larger than the 
inside 
of a coffin, but I was able to see Purgatory Station by turning on the small 
monitor screen built into the bulkhead. There wasn't enough room in the 
compartment to sit up, so I turned over on my side and propped my head up on 
my 
elbow, watching the tiny screen as we made our docking approach. 
There wasn't much to see. Purgatory Station was a small island habitat, a 
sphere 
about one mile in diameter with external radiators at its poles that removed 
heat from the interior of the station and solar mirrors that directed 
sunlight 
inside through windows near the rotational axis. Like most such stations, it 
was 
equipped with tachyon drive. It had functioned as a starship until it reached 
its destination and then it became a permanent orbital habitat. If necessary, 
it 
could become a starship once again, but leaving orbit would mean leaving 
behind 
the various smaller work stations and cylinders that had been constructed 
around 
it over time and linked to it with skyhooks. There were a lot more of them 
than 
when I had been here as a young noncom in the supply corps, berthed aboard a 
freighter we used to call "The Slop Bucket." 
Our pilot then wasn't much better than our pilot now. Docking was 
accomplished 



with all the dexterity of a drunk trying to thread a needle, but we 
eventually 
made it and locked on. We left the ship and transferred to a shuttle that 
would 
take us to the planet surface. The cargo would follow later, in several 
shifts, 
and anyone who had brought a lot of luggage would have a long wait until they 
could collect it at the ground-base spaceport terminal. Fortunately, Breck and 


were traveling light. 
As we made our descent to Purgatory, I saw that nothing had really changed. 
It 
was still a wild, desolate world of low mountains and high plains which 
leveled 
off toward the equator into vast deserts that seemed to go on forever. There 
were a couple of oceans on Purgatory, much smaller than those on Earth, and 
there were a few lakes nestled in mountain valleys. Someday, there would 
probably be cities, but for the present, there was nothing here except for a 
number of sprawling refineries and industrial plants that were the sole 
reason 
for human presence on the planet. 
You could make a flyover of the barren plains and see miles upon miles of 
nothing and then, suddenly, you'd see giant islands of metal rising up out of 
the ground like surreal sculptures, surmounted by dense clouds of pollution. 
The 
unmistakable footprints of man. Having almost poisoned our own world beyond 
recovery, we were now dumping our waste into other people's yards. 
There had been a lot of construction since I had spent three lonely, 
maddening 
months here all those years ago. Small developments had grown up around the 
plants, scatterings of clustered workers' housing all looking absolutely 
identical, interconnected by plastic tubeways. The shuttle landed and we 
disembarked. I was immediately struck by a blast of desert heat and the 
stench 
of pollution. 
Breck sniffed the air and grimaced. "Travel halfway across the universe," he 
said, "and you arrive at a place that smells just like New Jersey." 
We hurried across the tarmac and into the air-conditioned coolness of the 
terminal. We were supposed to meet a man named Grover Higgins. I imagined 
some 
corporate type stamped out with a cookie cutter, glib and superficial, a PR 
man 
with red eyes and ruptured capillaries in his nose from too much drinking. 
Someone who had suffered a long fall from the climb up the corporate ladder 
and 
was stuck out in the middle of nowhere, desperate to make good and get out. 
Grover Higgins turned out to be not at all what I expected. 
The man who greeted us as we came into the terminal was in his late forties, 
about five-ten and a well-built hundred and eighty pounds, with thick, dark 
brown hair and sleepy, deeply set brown eyes. He was darkly tanned and his 
hair 
was streaked from sun bleaching. His skin had the weathered look of a man who 
had spent a great deal of time outdoors. He had a slow and easy dimpled smile 
and a relaxed, informal way about him. He was dressed in lightweight khakis 
and 
well-worn leather boots. 
"Mr. Beck, Mr. O'Toole? I'm Grover Higgins." His hands were callused and his 
handshake very firm. The hands of a real working man, not an office 
button-pusher. "Hope the flight out wasn't too bad," he said. "That all you 
brought with you?" 



"Yes, just our hand luggage," Breck said. 
"I find it's always best to travel light, myself," he said. "How about a bite 
to 
eat and a drink or two or three?" 
"Sounds fine to me," I said. 
He led us to a little cart and beckoned us in. "Hop aboard." 
He sat behind the tiller and the cart whispered off quickly across the 
terminal, 
heading toward a tubeway. The tinted plastic cut out the sun's glare and the 
cool air inside the tube was a marked contrast to the heat outside. The tube 
ran 
from the terminal toward the plant, with several branching off points along 
the 
way, where the tube corridors radiated out from traffic circles like spokes 
from 
a wheel. Other open carts zipped by us, but we didn't see a single 
pedestrian. 
Apparently, the people on Purgatory didn't walk any more than they had to and 
they spent most of their time insulated from the outside environment, which 
made 
me even more curious about Higgins with his outdoorsy look. He didn't seem to 
fit in. 
"We'll be eating at my place if it's all right with you," he said. "Not that 
we 
don't have any bars or restaurants, but I think I can promise you better food 
than that. I'm a pretty decent cook." 
"I hope you won't go to any trouble on our account, Mr. Higgins," said Breck. 
"It's no trouble. I like to cook and I thought you might prefer a quiet place 
to 
eat and talk a bit. Our bars tend to be a little on the rowdy side and you 
being 
celebrities, I thought you might not want to attract a crowd right off." 
"That's very thoughtful of you," Breck said. 
"Like I said, no trouble at all." 
The cart swung around and shot off down another branch of the tubeway, 
heading 
toward a cluster of residential buildings nestled in a slight depression. He 
parked the cart at the end of the tubeway and we went into the village. 
It was designed as a residence mall, with all the individual dwellings 
clustered 
together into one huge, multileveled structure. The entire village was sealed 
off from the outside. The climate control systems kept the temperature inside 
quite cool, as if in overcompensation against the heat outside. The corridor 
opened out onto large wide, multileveled walkways with tinted skylights 
overhead. The interior of the mall was generously landscaped and heavily 
planted 
with trees, vines, flowers and shrubs, sweet-smelling herbs and mosses, rock 
gardens and artificial streams and waterfalls. 
"Looks like a damn rain forest, doesn't it?" said Higgins. 
"It's like living in a terrarium. I try not to spend a lot of time here." 
As I wondered where he spent most of his time, he led us up to a door and 
opened 
it by placing his palm against the sensor pad. As we entered, he called out 
to 
someone in a language I had never heard before. 
The woman who came out to greet us was dressed in a knee-length khaki skirt, 
a 
plain white cotton blouse, and knee-high, soft leather boots. Her hair was 
thick 
and dark, almost like a horse's mane, naturally streaked with gray and silver 



highlights. Her skin was the color of coffee with a lot of cream in it, a 
light 
caramel shade, and her eyes were golden. She moved with a sinuous grace that 
made me think of a large predatory cat-a mountain lion. 
"This is my wife, Tyla," Higgins said. "She's tribal." 
..Which meant, of course, that she wasn't human. 
THREE 
That "God made man in His own image" was a conceit we've had for a long time, 
despite the imprecision of the statement. Man was a varied species-some of us 
were black and some were white; some were brown, some were red, and some were 
yellow; some of us had sharp features, some had flat and broad ones; some 
eyes 
were slanted, some were round, some almond-shaped . . . Precisely which of 
the 
many images of Man was God's? 
That old debate was complicated further the first time we encountered races 
that 
weren't human, but that looked disturbingly familiar. It sure did upset a lot 
of 
folks. It disappointed all those people who had clung to the notion that 
humanity was unique in the universe. And it provided much fuel for 
theological 
debate, as well as for some arguments that weren't exactly theological, such 
as 
the old chestnut about how we were "planted" on Earth by some 
extraterrestrial 
superrace of ancient astronauts who had apparently wandered around the 
universe, 
scattering people like cosmic Johnny Appleseeds. Of course, what makes old 
debates old is that they never really get resolved. The discovery of 
intelligent 
races on other worlds didn't change anything as far as that was concerned. 
We did what we usually do when we encounter strangers. We acted like a bunch 
of 
busybodies, sending out ambassadors and missionaries, followed by embassies 
and 
military bases and settlements and fast-food outlets. Sometimes we were 
welcome, 
sometimes we weren't. Either way, the arguments continued. Personally, I've 
never bothered with the truly weighty questions. I'm a fairly simple guy and 
I've always tried to stick to issues I could understand. 
When it comes to Truth-with-a-capital-T, I don't really know, you see. 
However, 
I do know the difference between faith and knowledge and after where I've 
been 
and what I've done, I don't take anything on faith. I figure that since I've 
got 
considerable doubt about the issue in my mind, then if there is a God, that 
must 
have been the way He made me. I'm neither prejudiced nor insecure. For all I 
know, maybe God did make us in His own image, but that doesn't necessarily 
mean 
the image referred to is physical. Virtually all of the humanoid races we'd 
encountered had some sort of spiritual mythos, a sensibility beyond the 
rudely 
physical. Call it God if it makes you comfortable, call it Nature or call it 
Being, any way you look at it, we all came from the same ingredients. On 
Earth 
alone, there were so many of us who were different in so many ways, yet 
roughly 



similar in essence, that perhaps we shouldn't have been surprised to find the 
same basic design occurring elsewhere under similar conditions. 
There was no question that Tyla wasn't human, but on the other hand, she 
looked 
a lot more human than some people I have known-some cyberpunks, for instance. 
Her fingers had short, catlike claws, though they were retracted when she 
shook 
our hands; her canine teeth were long and sharp, bringing to mind the image of 
a 
vampire; and her grip was very strong. Her hair was thick and coarse, yet 
beautiful in a savage way. She looked like some surrealist's impression of an 
Apache. The most striking things about her were the tawny color of her skin 
and 
those incredible golden eyes. There was an otherworldly beauty about her, 
which 
seemed a ridiculously obvious observation, since she was otherworldly and we 
were the aliens here, but no other expression would suffice. 
She shook hands with me first, very formally and correctly, as if it were 
something she had learned recently, and she was puzzled for a moment when 
Breck 
offered her his gloved right hand. She took it and frowned, glancing at him 
uncertainly as she felt the hard, smooth nysteel inside the glove instead of 
flesh. Confused, she glanced at Higgins. 
"I'm sorry," Breck said, removing his glove. 
Tyla gasped and took his metal hand in both of hers, looking at it with 
wonder. 
"You'll have to excuse her," Higgins said, a little awkwardly. "She's never 
seen 
a prosthesis before." He spoke to her briefly in her native tongue, a 
rolling, 
lilting, musical-sounding series of quick, short syllables. She glanced up at 
Breck and reluctantly released his artificial hand. 
"Please tell her it's all right," Breck said. "I'm not sensitive about it. I 
don't mind if she examines it." 
Higgins spoke to her again and she glanced from him to Breck, then back to 
Breck's artificial hand. 
"It's all right," Breck said, holding it out for her to inspect. 
She touched it and gently ran her fingers over it, fascinated by its cool, 
polished smoothness. She felt his wrist and then his forearm, glancing up at 
him 
with alarm as she realized that the entire arm was made of nysteel. Then she 
turned his hand over and stared raptly at the articulated metal, the complex 
apertures built into the palm, the strange slits in the tips of the fingers 
... 
she frowned and looked up at him questioningly. 
"Watch," said Breck, taking his hand away and holding it up in front of him, 
fingers extended stiffly. In rapid succession, the six-inch gleaming nysteel 
blades shot out of his fingertips with sharp pneumatic sounds and locked into 
place. 
Her eyes grew very wide. She looked down at her own hand, exposed her own 
claws, 
then looked back up at Breck's considerably more lethal ones. With a smile, 
Breck retracted his blades in quick succession. They vanished up into his 
forearm, allowing him to flex his fingers once again. She turned to Higgins 
and 
launched into a brief torrent of her native speech, reminiscent of the 
lilting, 
singsong cadence of Mandarin mixed with the quickness of Japanese and the 
sibilant and hard consonants of a Semitic dialect. Higgins answered her in 
kind 



and she turned back to Breck, staring at him intently, searching his face as 
if 
seeking some sort of explanation there. 
"Uh, I told her you were from a tribe of great warriors," Higgins said, "and 
that you were injured in a battle and had your flesh and blood hand replaced 
with one that was a weapon, so that you could continue being a warrior." He 
added, somewhat apologetically, "I couldn't really explain about hybreed 
commandos. I had to put it in terms she could relate to. It was the best I 
could 
do." 
"And perfectly appropriate," said Breck, with a smile. 
Tyla spoke briefly to Breck and Higgins stiffened slightly and was about to 
say 
something to her, but Breck caught it and quickly asked him what she said 
before 
Higgins could speak. 
"She asked a question we would normally consider in poor taste," said 
Higgins. 
Breck gave him a prompting look. Higgins looked slightly ill at ease. I 
suddenly 
had the insight that she wasn't the reason he was uncomfortable, we were. 
"She 
doesn't mean to be rude," he said. "It's just that her people tend to be very 
direct. She, uh, wanted to know what happened to the other great warrior, the 
one who took your arm." 
Breck suppressed a smile. "Tell her I took my arm back from him and beat him 
to 
death with it. It isn't literally true, of course, but it's true enough in 
the 
metaphorical sense. I exacted my pound of flesh, if you'll forgive the pun." 
Higgins stared at Breck for a moment, then turned to his wife and translated. 
Tyla's eyes grew wide again and she looked at Breck with new respect. 
Dinner was excellent, made from Earth vegetables grown in hydroponic 
greenhouses. There was some meat, as well, which Higgins served with a 
disclaimer, saying he didn't know if we ate meat or not, but if we did, we 
might 
be curious to try some local game. 
It certainly smelled gamey. I tried a small piece; as did Breck. It was tough 
and slightly salty, of a consistency not unlike beef jerky. The flavor wasn't 
all that bad, despite the smell. It wasn't venison or beefsteak, but it was 
passable fare if you didn't mind chewing relentlessly. 
"Interesting flavor," Breck said. "What exactly is it?" 
"Sort of a cross between a wild boar and a rodent," said Higgins. "It's 
hunted 
by the native tribes. It's a staple in their diet." 
"Your wife isn't eating with us?" I said. 
'Tribal women don't eat with their men," said Higgins. 
I raised my eyebrows. "Well, just because they treat their women as 
second-class 
citizens, doesn't mean we have to," I said. "Can't we ask her to join us?" 
Higgins smiled. "I'm afraid you misunderstood. It isn't a matter of her being 
a 
'second-class citizen,' as you put it. It's the other way around. The tribes 
of 
Purgatory are matriarchal. Besides, they never cook their food. They eat it 
freshly killed. Tyla is as offended at the idea of roasting meat as you might 
be 
at the sight of her tearing at her kill, with blood running down her chin." 
"Oh," I said, feeling a little foolish. "I see." 
"Have many of the people here married natives?" Breck said. 



"No, I'm the only one," said Higgins, "which makes me a bit of an outsider. 
The 
tribes tend to keep their distance, you see. We're quite a puzzle to them. 
They 
don't understand why we want to wall ourselves off from the environment-or at 
least they didn't until they started seeing what we're doing to it. The 
people 
here call them Nomads. That's when they're not calling them something worse. 
There's not much contact between humans and natives. A lot of the people here 
think they're little more than animals, primates of a sort. They couldn't be 
more wrong, but they're not interested in listening to me. I'm just the token 
treehugger around here. Corporate environmental counselor and xenobiologist. 
Most of them think I'm crazy. Some of them won't even talk to me. After all, 
it's my job to make life difficult for them." He grimaced wryly. "A job 
without 
much point, actually. It's like pissing in the wind. I keep submitting my 
reports and recommendations and they keep doing everything they can to ignore 
them. But, hey, I'm here! That proves their corporate concern for an alien 
environment." 
"I take it you spend a great deal of your time with the natives," Breck said. 
"Well, I find there's a lot to be said for their way of life. And I find them 
fascinating. I have to work here, but I try to spend time with Tyla's tribe 
whenever I can. Tyla very rarely comes here. She came this time as a favor to 
me, because you were coming." 
"You mean you live apart, you here and Tyla with her tribe?" I said. 
"Much of the time we live apart, yes. But Tyla has other husbands. Sixteen, 
to 
be exact, not counting me." 
"You're one of seventeen husbands?" I said. 
"Their females give birth in litters and there are usually more males among 
the 
offspring than females," Higgins explained. "In a human society, an imbalance 
as 
large as theirs would cause problems, but the Nomads have a very 
accommodating 
biology. Their females are fertile virtually all the time, whereas the males 
have cycles. And since these periods occur at different times, depending on 
the 
male's stage of development, the females normally bond with a number of 
males, 
usually of different ages." 
"You mean the females rotate their males?" I said. 
"Well, not exactly, though I suppose you could look at it that way. A female 
could be mating with several different males simultaneously . . . well, not 
actually at the same time, but during the same cycle, especially if she is of 
high rank in the tribe. However, this doesn't seem to cause any trouble among 
the males. I suspect it's because it takes far more stamina than any one male 
has to keep a female satisfied." 
"You mean she ..." I cleared my throat. "That is, they . . . the females . . 
. 
wear the males out?" 
"Well, I've only mated with Tyla once and it almost crippled me," Higgins 
said 
matter-of-factly, as only a scientist could. "I still have the scars. Since 
then, as a matter of self-preservation, our relationship has been essentially 
platonic." 
The ensuing silence fell like an anvil. 
"Excuse me," Higgins said apologetically. "I didn't mean to be tactless or 
crude. I tend to be socially awkward on occasion. Tyla's people are a great 
deal 



more direct than we are and I sometimes find it difficult to switch modes. 
You 
see, my marriage to Tyla isn't quite the same thing as a human marriage, 
which 
is not to say that I regard it as anything less. But it's a different sort of 
relationship. 
"By our human standards, I'm not legally married to Tyla, since it was a 
tribal 
marriage. And in any case, there's certainly been no legal precedent. The 
situation poses an ideal opportunity to observe at close hand the customs and 
lifeway of an alien species. If I weren't an ethical man, then once I was 
finished with my studies, I could easily leave and not feel in any way bound 
by 
the tribal ceremony. However, I recognize that while their marriage customs 
are 
different from ours, they don't take them any less seriously than we do. I 
could 
even argue that they take their form of marriage a great deal more seriously 
than we take ours, since they bond for life. They'd never understand the 
concept 
of divorce. But while mating is an important part of their bonding, it's by 
no 
means an imperative. 
"For instance, Tyla's mother is still in the prime of life, yet three of her 
husbands are well past their prime. The cycle doesn't come upon them anymore. 
One of them is very old, indeed, the senior husband of another marriage whose 
matriarch had died. Death of the wife releases a male for remarriage, but in 
this case, the male was extremely old, no longer capable of reproduction and 
only minimally capable of sharing in the workload. Tyla's mother married him 
nevertheless, adopting him, in a manner of speaking, into her marriage. 
Rather 
like bringing an orphan into the family. 
"You see," he continued, "in a sense, the matriarchal structure of the tribes 
places every female in a marriage in the role of both wife and mother to her 
husbands. Which is not to say that the husbands are necessarily subservient. 
Once you've seen a Nomad male, I don't think you could come to that 
conclusion. 
The wife is not an autocrat. She's treated with the respect and veneration we 
might give an elder, the founder of the family- even though she very often is 
not the senior in chronological terms. She's the family arbiter. The children 
are all held in common within a marriage, sharing all the husbands as 
fathers. 
Female children within the marriage have a certain share in their mother's 
ranking." 
Higgins grinned. "Imagine what it's like to court a young woman with six 
fiercely protective older brothers and you might have some idea of what it 
means 
to become involved with a Nomad female, only she might have a dozen or more 
fiercely protective brothers and as many fathers. The female has the final 
say 
in the matter-the mother rarely interferes-but if the males in the family are 
all against you, the odds of your being accepted into the marriage are 
extremely 
small. In fact, if their disapproval is strong enough, you may not even 
survive." 
"So, apparently, you made a good impression on the relatives," said Breck, 
smiling and sipping his wine. 
"Well, more specifically, I made a good impression on the tribal matriarch, 
Tyla's grandmother. The marriage was really her idea, though Tyla volunteered 
for it." 



"I don't follow," I said. "You mean your marriage to Tyla was . . . what 
would 
you call it, arranged? I thought you said the senior females didn't 
interfere." 
"Normally, they don't, but in this case, it was different. I had established 
a 
rapport with the tribe over a period of time and Dyla, the tribal matriarch, 
called all the females in the tribe together and asked if any of them would 
be 
willing to accept me into marriage. And it was very much a request, not an 
order. Tyla volunteered." 
He grinned. "I've always wondered if she was the only one, but she won't tell 
me. We both treat the marriage seriously, but we obviously didn't marry for 
love. We have respect and affection for each other, but even as I'm observing 
them, they're observing me. They've always kept their distance from humans 
before, but now it seems they want to learn a little more about us." 
"Because they're starting to perceive humans as a threat?" I said. 
"Partly," Higgins replied, "but there's another reason, which bears directly 
on 
your coming here. Their gods have started appearing to them in physical 
manifestations, directing them to increase their contact with humans and 
learn 
more about us." 
"Their gods?" said Breck. 
"The Nomads have a very spiritual relationship with their environment," said 
Higgins. "They worship nature spirits. To put it in our terms, they believe 
that 
each element in nature has a spirit or a soul-plants, animals, minerals . . . 
Well, there have been reports circulating throughout the tribes of nature 
spirits manifesting themselves to tribal matriarchs. Animals suddenly 
standing 
upright and transforming themselves into the aspect of people-tribal people, 
that is-speaking to them in their own language and then changing back again 
before their eyes." 
Breck and I exchanged glances. 
"The tribes believe each living thing is possessed of a spirit," Higgins 
continued, "and they extend that definition to things we would ordinarily 
consider inanimate, such as rocks, water, mist, and the ground itself. To 
them, 
everything in nature is imbued with 'spirit force.' Their rituals reflect 
this 
sort of anthropomorphism. However, while they believe that one is capable of 
communing with the elements, there is no basis in their spiritual mythos for 
a 
literal communion, where the spirit forces actually start talking back to 
them. 
Nor is there any basis in their folklore for manifestations such as I've been 
hearing about. And it's not in their nature to lie or exaggerate. I'd already 
started having some suspicions and the recent sabotage at the refinery seems 
to 
confirm them." 
He paused, watching us carefully for a reaction. "I think the quarantine of 
Draconis 9 has been broken. I believe there are ambimorphs on Purgatory. 
Which 
means there could be am-bimorphs on the colony worlds, as well. Perhaps even 
on 
Earth." 
Neither Breck nor I said anything. 
Higgins refilled our wine glasses, then poured himself another glass, as 
well. 



"So ... I made my reports through the necessary channels, and forwarded 
copies 
to the corporate headquarters and Bureau of Extraterrestrial Resource 
Management, discreetly voicing my suspicions, and I was told that I'd become 
a 
raving paranoid, that I've been spending far too much time out in the 
wilderness 
with the tribes, that I've gone native and started to lose touch with 
reality, 
and that what I really needed was a long rest. Perhaps even to be relieved of 
my 
post here and sent back home to recuperate." 
He sipped his wine and watched us over the rim of his glass. "Only I wasn't 
relieved, as you can see," he continued, after a brief pause. "In spite of 
what 
seemed to me to be a disproportionately strong reaction to my reports. 
Instead, 
I received notification of acknowledgment concerning my reports and 
assurances 
that they were being carefully reviewed. Now, ordinarily, I might have been 
inclined to consider this sort of reaction placatory, except for the fact 
that 
it was so out of synch with the initial response. And then suddenly I was 
notified that my reports had been classified 'Top Secret,' and I was to 
discuss 
them with no one. I was also informed that I'd be contacted and that I should 
stand by for further instructions. All this in a military courier pouch, 
classified, for my eyes only, destroy when read." 
He set down the wine glass and gave us a level stare. "And who should turn up 
but a couple of Psychodrome stars, of all things. Not quite what I expected. 
Yet 
one of them is an SS hybreed, a former senior officer with a distinguished 
military record." He glanced from Breck to me. "And you're a former 
serviceman, 
as well. Merely an interesting coincidence, perhaps?" 
He leaned back in his chair and folded his arms. "So where exactly do we 
stand 
here, gentlemen? Has somebody decided to incorporate my so-called paranoid 
delusion into an escapist fantasy game scenario or is it all some sort of 
subterfuge? Are we playing a game here? Is that what this is?" 
"Even if it was, we'd probably tell you it wasn't," said Breck. "After all, 
if 
this was merely a game, a Psychodrome fantasy adventure, then part of our job 
would be to make it appear as realistic as possible for the benefit of our 
home 
audience." He shrugged. "On the other hand, if this was a 'subterfuge,' as 
you 
put it, and we were actually dealing with reality here, then we'd probably 
want 
to make it seem as if it were nothing but a game, because we wouldn't want to 
panic everyone, would we? You see, any answer I gave you would be suspect." 
Higgins sat silent for a moment, rubbing his chin. "Are you telling me that 
Psychodrome is actually going to broadcast all this as a game scenario? Is 
that 
what you're saying?" 
"We could be live on the psy-fi channels at this very moment," Breck said. 
"Which doesn't mean that we're not taking you seriously. You did receive your 
orders in a military courier pouch, didn't you?" 
Higgins shook his head, frowning. "I don't understand. You mean the game 
scenario is just a cover? How can you possibly hope to keep something like 



this 
a secret, especially if you're incorporating it into a psych-fidelity 
broadcast? 
Do you seriously expect to convince people that none of this is really 
happening? That's crazy!" 
"Perhaps," said Breck, "but there's a certain logic to this particular form 
of 
insanity. You see, people are to a large extent conditioned by what they 
experience through psy-fi. They often tend to confuse it with reality. You 
have 
no idea how many times people have approached me, strangers acting as if we 
were 
old comrades in arms, clapping me on the back and wanting to reminisce about 
some adventure we had shared. Of course, they never actually shared any 
adventures with me, but they 'experienced' it with me through psy-fi. It 
seemed 
real to them, not only because the feelings they experienced-albeit 
passively-were real, but because they wanted it to seem real. And they really 
did experience my feelings and perceptions vicariously. They're reacting 
based 
on those vicariously shared feelings and perceptions and it's part of my job 
as 
a psycho to play along. Yes, I tell them, as if they really were old comrades 
in 
arms, certainly I remember, wasn't it something? Didn't we have a hell of a 
time?" 
"But this is no game," protested Higgins. "This is really happening." 
"All the adventures we psychos have really do happen," Breck said, with a 
slight 
smile. "Except for the hallucinacts, of course. However, we always treat 
those 
as if they were actually happening too, because we usually don't have any way 
of 
knowing if they're really happening or not. So if it's real to us, it seems 
real 
to the home audience and only later on we might find out that it was all an 
elaborate illusion. The home audience might never know. In fact, what we're 
experiencing right now may be nothing more than an elaborate psychocybernetic 
illusion, yourself included, only we won't know that for certain unless we 
wake 
up when it's all over." 
"Bullshit, Breck," Higgins said. "I know I'm real and no amount of head games 
will change that. I know what's really happening." 
"I'm sure you do," said Breck, with a mocking smile, "but what difference 
does 
that make?" 
Higgins frowned. He had no appreciation for Breck's cynical sense of humor. 
"I 
don't understand. What do you mean?" 
"Well, ask yourself," said Breck, "what has more impact-an event that takes 
place, or the way that event is reported to have taken place? I will give you 
an 
updated version of an old Zen koan. Imagine that a tree falls in the forest 
and 
there is no one there to hear it fall except yourself and a psy-fi crew. You 
hear the tree fall with a not terribly dramatic thud, but the psy-fi crew 
enhances the effects considerably and the world hears it fall with a 
resounding, 
roaring, echoing crash. Which of the two 'realities' will the world accept?" 
Higgins said nothing. 



"You see?" said Breck. "Under such circumstances, your knowledge of reality 
wouldn't mean a thing. The public would know what 'really' happened, wouldn't 
they? After all, they were there, they experienced it through psy-fi. And the 
interesting thing about psy-fi reality is that it's very pliable. By now, 
we've 
been interacting with you long enough for Game Control to have created an 
effective computer vocal matrix for you. That means as we're sitting here 
having 
this discussion, Game Control could be running a computer-generated 
simulsynch 
and the home audience would see us sitting here, only they might hear us 
talking 
about the weather or the dinner we've just had. Our psychocybernetic 
engineers 
are rather good at editing reality. On the other hand, they might decide to 
run 
it as is. After all, this is only a game. Isn't it?" 
"You people are scary," Higgins said softly. 
"For whatever it's worth," I said, "I find it pretty scary, too." 
"But you go along with it." 
"That's right." 
"Why?" 
It was a good question. "I'm honestly not sure I could explain that to you, 
Mr. 
Higgins." 
I wasn't all that sure I could explain it to myself. For one thing, I wasn't 
convinced I had a choice. Maybe it was all a matter of momentum, play or pay. 
Once you were in, you were never really out again, like all those people who 
had 
biochips implanted in their brains that Coles could access anytime he chose. 
But 
that was only part of it. Another part of it was my gambler's instinct and 
the 
fever of the game. I had bought into the game the moment I walked into The 
Pyramid Club and sat down at that table with Hakim Saqqara. Or maybe it had 
started even earlier, when I enlisted in the service and left Mars, looking 
for 
a way to get out of the giant shadow cast by Scan O'Toole. Either way, the 
cards 
had been dealt and there was nothing left to do but play them. Just the way 
they 
fell. 
"What happens if more incidents like the explosion at the plant occur?" said 
Higgins. "Are innocent people going to be blamed? Surely you can't control 
the 
news media? How can things like that be covered up?" 
"Once again, you're asking questions I really don't know how to answer," 
Breck 
said. "For one thing, such decisions are not ours to make. After all, we're 
only 
here to play the game." He smiled. "However, one might suppose that if 
am-bimorphs were responsible for the explosion at the plant, it could be 
because 
they wanted to announce their presence and were trying to see how far we can 
be 
pushed. It's significant that everyone was warned to vacate the premises well 
in 
advance of the explosion so that no one was hurt. If the ambimorphs were, 
indeed, responsible, they also very considerately provided us with a 
convenient 



scapegoat. The plant foreman." 
Higgins frowned. "You mean, they did it that way on purpose? I don't 
understand. 
Why would they want to do that?" 
"Maybe they wanted to leave us a way out," I said. "They don't want to force 
us 
to employ strategic weapons on Draconis 9. The threat that we'll sterilize 
their 
home world is the only thing that prevents widespread terrorism on their 
part, 
an all-out war waged from within. But they'll keep pushing, as with the 
explosion at the plant, trying to force us to accede to their demands." 
"Then, for God's sake, why not negotiate?" said Higgins. 
"Because their terms would necessarily be unacceptable," said Breck. 
"How can you know that?" 
"It's obvious. They'd want control over their own destiny, which does not 
seem 
like a lot to ask, but unfortunately, the only way they could ensure our good 
faith would be by their continued presence among us. And that would be 
unacceptable, you see. Yet, even if the ambimorphs agreed to return home, how 
would we ever know they hadn't left infiltrators behind? We cannot trust 
them, 
you see, and they cannot trust us." 
"So what's the alternative?" said Higgins. 
Breck shrugged. "There doesn't seem to be any. We must try to maintain the 
standoff somehow, at least until a way can be found to detect their presence 
among us. In the meantime, they will undoubtedly continue to make that 
presence 
felt. It's very much a war of nerves." 
"It doesn't seem to me as if it's a war that we can win," said Higgins. "Even 
if 
you come up with a way to detect an ambimorph masquerading as a human, what 
are 
you going to do, screen every single human? It's impossible! You simply can't 
control people like that!" 
"They're working on it," I said. 


FOUR 


After dinner, Higgins drove us to our hotel, located at the hub of Center 
City, 
the industrial complex. With the exception of visiting company officials and 
newly arrived workers not yet assigned to housing, it didn't see much 
business. 
We stayed there only long enough to unpack. We had one bag apiece, each 
containing a plasma pistol and a small, lightweight plastic semiauto 
chambered 
for stunners and the small, jet-powered fragmentation rounds. The polymer 
holster rigs, spare magazines, and disposable charge paks left barely enough 
room for a change of clothes. 
"Looks like you take your 'game' pretty seriously," said Higgins. 
"Some games are more serious than others," Breck said. He slipped the heavy 
plasma pistol into his shoulder rig, snugged the semiauto into the cross-draw 
holster on his belt, then put on an elegant, three-quarter-length black coat, 
fashionably cut and tailored loosely to conceal the bulges. "And I, for one, 
don't like to lose," he added. 
"Who's the plant foreman accused of the sabotage?" I said. 
"Gil Cavanaugh." 
I glanced at Breck. "I think we should see him first." 
"I agree," said Breck. "And then, Mr. Higgins, perhaps you'd be kind enough 



to 
show us some of the local nightlife, such as it is." 
"I was hoping to get an early start in the morning," Higgins said. "Tyla has 
agreed to take us out to her tribe and-" 
"It's early, yet," said Breck. "I'd like to get a feeling for the mood of the 
workers here in light of what's occurred. Ask your wife if she'll accompany 
us." 
Higgins shook his head. "I don't think that would be a very good idea. I 
haven't 
exactly endeared myself to the people here. My relationship with Tyla has 
only 
made things worse. I'll show you around if you like, but it wouldn't be smart 
to 
bring Tyla along. It would be inviting trouble." 
'Trouble is precisely what I wish to invite," Breck said. "If there are any 
ambimorphs among the workers here, I not only want them to know we're here, I 
want them to know we're going out to contact the natives tomorrow. We'll look 
after your wife, don't worry. She'll be perfectly safe with us." 
"It's not my wife I'm worried about," said Higgins. 
Breck raised his eyebrows. 
Higgins shrugged. "All right, I'll take you over to see Cavanaugh and then 
I'll 
drop you off at what we call the 'Red Zone.' I'll go get Tyla and meet you at 
a 
bar called Cody's Place. It isn't hard to find. Just ask anyone." 
Gil Cavanaugh was a very angry man. He was also a very big man, with a face 
like 
a russet potato, wide and ruddy, the sort of face on which every thought and 
emotion were plainly written. I didn't think it looked like the face of a 
saboteur. 
"I'm not going to let 'em pin this on me, the bastards!" he shouted, slamming 
his hand down on the table. "I told 'em, put me on the goddamn machines, 
gimme 
the test and see if I'm lyin'!" 
"Settle down, Cavanaugh," a tinny voice came from a speaker mounted below the 
single high window. The room was bare save for a table and four chairs. We 
sat 
on one side of the table, Cavanaugh sat on the other. There was nothing 
separating us, but Cavanaugh was wearing magnacuffs which could be activated 
at 
a moment's notice. 
"You keep your mouth shut, Evans, I'm talkin' to these people!" Cavanaugh 
thundered, pointing a meaty finger up at the guard's window. 
"Just settle down, all right, Gil?" said Evans wearily. 
"All right! All right!" He scowled up at the window, then continued at a 
slightly lower volume. "Anyway, I took the test and I passed the goddamned 
thing! I wasn't lyin', see? But that's not enough for 'em, the sons o' 
bitches! 
They figure I came up with some way to beat the damn machine. Me, a simple 
workin' stiff, what do I know" about crap like that? I'm no cybernetics 
engineer! Listen, I tell 'em, what the hell do you think I did, planted the 
explosives, then beaned myself with a goddamn wrench and tied myself up while 


was unconscious? Feel the size of that lump there! Damn near split my head 
open! 
So you know what they came back with? 'We know you didn't pull this off 
alone,' 
they said. 'You've got an accomplice. Tell us who he is and it'll go easier 
on 
you,' they said. 'Confess,' they said. Confess? Confess my ass! Confess to 



what? 
I didn't do a goddamn thing!" 
"Cavanaugh, I'm warning you-" Evans's voice came through the speaker overhead. 
"Fuck you, Evans!" Cavanaugh hollered, leaping to his feet and sending his 
chair 
crashing to the floor. He pointed up at the window. "Corporate security, my 
ass! 
You're just a cheap, imported armbreaker, you union bustin' son of a-" 
The guard activated the magnacuffs and Cavanaugh's braceleted wrists suddenly 
snapped together with a hard click. He doubled over sharply as the cuffs 
slammed 
against the metal magnaplate in the belt around his waist. 
"AAARRGH! Evans, you weasely little runt . . . !" His muscles bunched as he 
strained against the cuffs. "You wait till I get outta here, I'll rip your 
goddamn head off!" 
"Release him, please, Mr. Evans," Breck said. 
"I don't think that would be a very good idea, Mr. Breck," Evans's voice came 
through the speaker. "You've got him all excited. The state he's in right now, 
I 
couldn't answer for-" 
"Release him, please." 
The cuffs were turned off and Cavanaugh straightened up, glowering at the 
guard 
behind the window. He glanced at Breck and muttered, "Thanks." 
"Please sit down, Mr. Cavanaugh," Breck said. "There's no need for these 
histrionics. We're inclined to believe you." 
"Yeah?" he glanced at Breck uncertainly. 
"Yes. We have good reason to think you're probably telling the truth. 
However, 
we cannot help you at the moment. To do that, we would have to prove that you 
did not sabotage the plant and that would be difficult, as there are numerous 
witnesses who saw you." 
"I don't care how many witnesses say they saw me, I didn't do it!" 
"What do you think happened, Gil?" I said. 
"How the hell should I know? I'm bein' set up, that's all I can tell you! If 
people are sayin' they saw me do it, then they've been paid off. Wouldn't 
surprise me one bit. Between that damn treehugger try in' to shut us down and 
the company try in' to stop us from startin' up a union, that's the only 
explanation I can think of." 
"Well, I can think of another possible explanation," Breck said. "Tell me, 
did 
you happen to notice anything unusual before you were struck unconscious? 
Anything at all?" 
Cavanaugh frowned and shook his head. "No, nothin' special. Why?" 
"Were there any new people on your shift?" 
Cavanaugh shook his head again. "No, it was the same crew I've been workin' 
with 
for months." 
' 'Was anyone not where they were supposed to be?" I said. 
Cavanaugh shook his head. "No. Not that I know of. Why? What are you gettin' 
at?" 
"We're attempting to find out if any of your coworkers were in a position to 
assault you," Breck said. 
"There wasn't anybody near me that I could see," said Cavanaugh. "You think if 
I 
saw someone comin' at me with that wrench, they'd have knocked me out? The 
bastard snuck up on me. Believe me, I wish there was something I could tell 
you, 
but if I didn't see anything, I didn't see anything. One minute I was just 
doin' 



my job, and the next I was out on the floor." 
"Can you think of anyone who might have wanted to do you an injury?" Breck 
said. 
"Someone you had quarreled with, not necessarily related to your efforts with 
forming a union. Something personal perhaps?" 
"Hey, on a job like this, you have your arguments, you have your fights. You 
go 
out after work and have a few, somebody mouths off and you dance around a 
little. It's no big deal. It happens all the time. You don't go hangin' 
something like this on anyone for that." 
"So what you're telling us, Mr. Cavanaugh, is that you really can't help us 
prove you're innocent," I said. 
"I don't have to prove I'm innocent, for God's sake, I didn't do it! They 
have 
to prove I'm guilty, don't they?" 
"They've apparently got a hell of a case," I said. "Your own friends have 
testified against you." 
"Yeah, that's what they tell me," Cavanaugh muttered morosely. "I don't 
understand it. Someone must've got to 'em somehow, threatened 'em, paid 'em 
off, 
I don't know, what can I say?" He turned to Breck, anxiously. "You said you 
had 
another explanation for all this?" 
"A possible explanation," said Breck, "but it would be very difficult to 
prove. 
We'd have to prove that what your fellow workers saw was not you, but 
someone-or 
some thing-who looked exactly like you. A creature capable of assuming your 
appearance, of reading your mind and knowing exactly where to find the 
explosive 
charges and how to place them for optimum results. In other words, Mr. 
Cavanaugh, a Draconian am-bimorph. A shapechanger." 
Cavanaugh's jaw dropped. "That's impossible," he said. "That would mean they 
broke the quarantine!" His eyes narrowed. "Wait a minute! This is all part of 
that new game of yours! Is that what this is all about? That's why you're 
takin' 
an interest in my case, isn't it? You're tryin' to use me in your goddamn 
game!" 
He started to get to his feet. 
"Sit down," Breck said firmly. "Even if we were only helping you to add 
realism 
to our game, what difference would it make? You need all the help that you 
can 
get. And from where I sit, it doesn't look as if you're getting any. Right 
now, 
we are all you've got. As to whether or not this is a game, judge for 
yourself. 
Your own friends saw you order everyone out of the plant. Perhaps some of 
them 
could have been paid to frame you. It's certainly possible. But all of them? 


don't know these people, but you do. You've worked with them. What do you 
think?" 
"You're sayin' this is for real?" 
"You tell me," Breck said. "But in order to convince your accusers, we'll 
need 
to prove two things to our own satisfaction first. We'll be leaving first 
thing 
in the morning, to investigate reports of what could be ambimorphs among the 
Nomad tribes. We've heard enough to make us think there are. But we need 



proof." 
"You said you'd need to prove two things to get me off," said Cavanaugh. "So 
what's the second?" 
'That could be even more difficult," said Breck. "We'd have to prove that you 
are really human." 
"Were you serious in there?" Higgins had watched and listened with Evans in 
the 
guardroom. "You actually suspect that Cavanaugh may not be human?" 
"I allowed that suspicion to enter my mind, yes," said Breck. "That way, in 
the 
event that Cavanaugh isn't really Cavanaugh, he now knows that we suspect him 
of 
being an ambimorph. And now that he also knows our plans, it may force his 
hand. 
Unless, of course, he's really what he seems to be, in which case we'll have 
to 
try and flush our quarry elsewhere." 
"So then it wasn't just a ploy; you really do suspect him?" 
"I suspect everyone, Higgins," Breck said. He turned to him and smiled. "Even 
you." 
"Well, that's certainly reassuring." 
"Don't sound so affronted. It's nothing personal," said Breck. 
"You realize, of course, that Evans heard everything you said. That was 
intentional, wasn't it? You want it to get around. You're setting yourselves 
up 
as targets. And that means I'll be a target too, because I'm with you." 
"We are all targets, Higgins," Breck said. "That is the nature of the game. 
Anyone can be a victim." 
"So everyone should be suspected," Higgins said, shaking his head. "I 
couldn't 
live like that. I'd become a raving paranoid." 
"Paranoia has its uses," Breck said. "A useful psychosis," Higgins said 
wryly. 
"There's a new idea." 
"In an insane world, sanity has its drawbacks," Breck said with an ironic 
smile. 
Higgins didn't seem to find Breck's remark amusing. For that matter, neither 
did 
I, largely because it was the sort of black humor that was derived from 
truth. 
Gallows humor, as it was sometimes called. We were all going to swing 
together, 
so we might as well have a good last laugh. 
Real psychos, as opposed to the entertainment kind, were all too often merely 
people who couldn't handle the psychosis of society. They caved in to the 
pressure and became buried in their own delusions, which were different from 
those of society only in degree. Sanity was relative. It all came down to how 
much you could handle. Survival of the fittest translated into how much 
madness 
could you take? 
It was all a matter of conditioning, something Coles was expert in. He was a 
product of the system, a system that insidiously conditioned us all through 
the 
news and entertainment media to gradually accept greater and greater levels 
of 
abnormality as being normal. More violence, more death, more decadence, more 
editing of our reality by those we placed in charge of us. It was a chain 
reaction, out of control and growing exponentially. Like grading on a curve, 
the 
scale of sanity kept moving farther and farther into the red zone of 



psychosis, 
but since we were all taking that trip together, nobody really noticed. 
The ones who broke down, we labeled mad because they couldn't take our level 
of 
insanity, which became "sanity" by virtue of being shared by the majority. I 
empathized with those who didn't want to play the game. Who was to say they 
weren't the sane ones, the ones who saw what we were doing to ourselves and 
opted out in the only way they could? 
Part of our audience was going to believe that all of this was real; part 
would 
think it was a game, only a harmless psychocybernetic entertainment; and part 
wouldn't have known the difference either way, perhaps because they had 
stopped 
caring. It was that last segment of the audience Coles was trying to expand, 
because they were the ones whose realities would be the easiest to 
manipulate, 
who would be the easiest to control. Was there a worse sin in the modern 
world 
than to be useless? No, it was far better to be used. Much like Cavanaugh, 
who 
was being used by both sides. And much like me. After all, I was to some 
extent 
a product of their fantasies. I couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't 
anymore, so it all became reality to me. It made me wonder, was that insanity 
or 
merely self-defense? 
The Red Zone reminded me a little of the Ginza Strip, only on a far smaller, 
more compartmentalized scale. Like the workers' residential villages, it was 
laid out in a tri-level mall on the west side of the industrial hub known as 
Center City. Only here, there was no effort made to create a "balanced living 
environment," as the planners liked to put it. The Red Zone was definitely 
unbalanced. 
The atmosphere was raucous. Flashing lights and blasting music competed with 
the 
amplified shouting of the pitchmen as they tried to snag passersby into their 
saloons. Feral-looking hookers cruised the mall, cyberpunked to the core, 
charging all the trade could bear-which was considerable-thinking to score 
big 
and return to whatever urban warren they had come from. They'd probably wind 
up 
just as lost in that dream here as they would have been at home. Few of them 
would ever make it out again. 
Company-town morality ruled in the Red Zone. Enterprising business people 
came 
in and for a small licensing fee paid to the consortium, a rental and utility 
agreement, and a percentage of the gross, they opened up establishments to 
service the workers-in much the same way that stallions serviced mares. The 
consortium paid its employees generous wages to offset the hardships of 
working 
on Purgatory. The Red Zone furnished entertainment and the means for the 
consortium to recover some of those generous wages. The consortium could 
afford 
to pay the workers well partly because, one way or another, much of that 
money 
went right back into the company coffers. 
As Higgins had promised, we found Cody's Place without any trouble. It was 
located at the far end of the mall, on the third level. Cody's Place was a 
bit 
different from most of the other funplexes on the mall. For one thing, it 
didn't 



have a flashing sign or speakers blaring music or a pitchman or any kind of 
video display. There were no nymphettes cavorting in the windows; in fact, 
there 
were no windows. There was just a black wall with the words "Cody's Place" 
painted on in large gilt letters. The door was an unpretentious metal slab 
and 
there was a glassed-in notice posted on the outside that read, 
"NO HUSTLERS, NO HOOKERS, NO CREDIT. PATRONS WILL BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR 
BREAKAGE." 
"I suspect this place has what they call 'character,' " said Breck. 
We opened the door and went inside. 
The bar was immediately to our left and it ran the length of the entire 
establishment. You could have held races on it. If it came in a bottle and 
was 
alcoholic, it looked like Cody's had it. There were several bartenders, both 
male and female, and they were all being kept busy by a mixed crowd of 
laborers 
just off shift. It wasn't a gaming establishment, but there were a number of 
friendly card games going on at several of the tables. I stifled my natural 
urges and swore that I would merely observe. A holojuke was playing a 
plaintive 
ballad as the life-size, three-dimensional images of the singer and her 
backup 
band were projected on the stage. 
Some men and women were gathered around several arcade games in the corner, 
one 
of which featured a realistic-looking robot cowboy that urged you to "Slap 
leather, hombre." If it beat you to the draw, you caught a sonic pulse from 
its 
gun that was like being struck hard in the chest with someone's fist, 
whereupon 
the robot grinned, spat a stream of ersatz tobacco juice into a brass 
spitoon, 
and said, "Eat dirt, greenhorn." If you beat the robot, it went flying 
backward, 
struck against a wall, slid down to the floor, and said, "You got me, Doc." 
Then 
it picked itself back up again to urge the next player to "Slap leather, 
hombre." 
"Yup," said Breck. "Character." 
"Help you, gentlemen?" said the pretty blonde behind the bar. 
"Irish whiskey," I said. 
"Your best dark ale," said Breck. 
"Comin' right up." She brought the drinks. "You fellas aren't new, are you?" 
"Actually, we're only visiting," I said. 
"Visiting? You're kidding. Who visits Purgatory? I've been here six months 
now 
and it feels like six years." 
"I know the feeling," I said. 
I felt like telling her that if she thought it was bad now, she should have 
seen 
it before the construction of the tubeways and the malls, before there was 
anything like the Red Zone or a "planned living community," when there was 
only 
a small military base with a despondent drunk for a commander, a couple of 
isolated industrial plants, and a cluster of modular workers' housing tacked 
onto the soldiers' barracks. And beyond that, miles and miles of nothing. 
There 
were still miles and miles of nothing; only now the steel islands of human 
industry were much larger and the air around them was much dirtier, though 



the 
inhabitants were well protected within their closed environments. 
She glanced from Breck to me with a slight frown. "I swear you guys look sort 
of 
familiar. Wait a minute ... I know you!" 
Here it comes, I thought, Breck's swashbuckling charm strikes again. 
"Aren't you Arkady O'Toole, the psycho star?" 
Breck grinned and raised his glass to me. 
"Yes, I am," I said, astonished at being singled out over Breck. 
"And you're Rudy Breck, aren't you?" she said, glancing from me to him and 
back 
again. "I can't believe it!" She grabbed my hand in both of hers. "Can I have 
your autograph? What are you doing here?" 
"Well, we-" 
"Wait a minute! You're staging one of your adventure games, aren't you? Of 
course, why else would you be here? I can't believe it! Are we on right now?" 
"Well, actually, we are-" 
"Oh, my God! Hey, people, listen up! You'll never believe this! We're on 
Psychodrome!" 
We immediately became the center of attention. People crowded around us, 
shaking 
our hands, asking for our autographs, wanting to buy us drinks. It took a 
while 
to get the whole thing sorted out. We wound up sitting on the bar so everyone 
could see us, surrounded by the patrons and answering their questions. A lot 
of 
them were familiar with the alien invasion "game" that the company had been 
promoting. Coles, never one to waste an opportunity, had broadcast some of my 
hallucinact training sessions as "coming attractions." They wanted to know if 
we 
were going to stage an invasion scenario on Purgatory. 
"Here to hunt some shapechangers?" one big guy said, with a wink. 
"Hey, Rudy," said another bruiser, as if he'd known Breck all his life, "what 
do 
these ambimorphs look like?" 
"They could look like anyone ... or anything," said Breck. "We heard there 
may 
have been some sightings among the native tribes. We're leaving in the 
morning 
to check out those reports." 
"Hell, they start with those screwy ceremonies of theirs, they're liable to 
see 
anything," someone else said, to accompanying laughter. 
We could have sat there, like a couple of boys who had cried wolf, insisting 
that it wasn't just a game, that it was real, that the shapechangers of 
Draconis 
had actually broken the quarantine and could even be standing among us at 
that 
very moment, and they would have laughed and played along with it in the 
spirit 
of the game, figuring we had to play it as if it were for real. 
The fact that it was for real didn't seem to matter. If a squad of ambimorphs 
had walked into that bar, shapechanged in front of everyone, and slaughtered 
half the people there, the surviving witnesses would probably never have been 
believed, so strong was the momentum of the alternate reality Coles had 
created. 
Common sense seemed to indicate that it had to break down somewhere. The lie 
would have to become too cumbersome and the truth would have to come out 
eventually; only I didn't think Coles cared about that very much. Like most 
bureaucrats, he'd deal with the truth only if and when he had to. Meanwhile, 



he 
would manufacture lies and stall. Power brokers always played for time, 
because 
time could purchase power, which could buy more time and so on. The trouble 
was, 
time was not an unlimited commodity. Sooner or later, it ran out. 
The crowd kept getting bigger as word of our arrival spread and Cody, 
himself, 
appeared to take charge of the situation. The owner of Cody's Place was a 
dark, 
wiry, sharp-featured man named Cody Jarrett, a five-foot-five bundle of cocky 
energy who spoke in sharp staccato bursts and easily dominated the roomful of 
roughnecks, despite being fully half their size. 
"We missed you guys at the hotel," said Jarrett. "When we heard you'd arrived, 
a 
bunch of us went out to give you a proper welcome, but you never showed." 
"Sorry, we had dinner with a friend," I said. 
"Oh, you mean some inconsiderate shit wined and dined you while we all cooled 
our heels waiting? Whom do we have to thank for this?" 
"A gentleman named Grover Higgins," Breck said. 
Our audience stopped smiling. 
"You should be more careful about who you call your friends," said a huge 
barrel-chested man with a shaved head. "Out here, a man's judged by the 
company 
he keeps." 
"That's enough, Strang," said Jarrett. He turned to us with an apologetic 
shrug. 
"Your friend, Higgins, hasn't exactly gone out of his way to get along with 
people here." 
"He mentioned something about that," Breck said. "The way he tells it, it 
seems 
as if he's only doing his job." 
"There're different ways to get a job done," said Strang. 
"I only know two," Higgins said. "A right way and a wrong way." 
He stood outside the circle with Tyla by his side. People made way for them, 
some staring at Tyla with more than just surprise at seeing a Nomad female in 
their midst. She stared back at them with equal frankness, imperious 
challenge 
in her golden eyes. 
"If you're going to mouth off about me, Strang," Higgins said, coming to 
within 
about a foot of him, "why don't you do it to my face?" 
"Come on now, that's enough, boys." Jarrett tried to intervene by standing 
between them. The gesture lacked something. He only came up to Higgins's chin 
and Strang looked over him without any trouble whatsoever. I wasn't even sure 
he 
saw him. 
"What're you gonna do, write me up in one of your reports?" Strang said with 
a 
sneer. 
"My job is to make sure the operations here are in compliance," Higgins said 
evenly. "If they're not, I have to report it. You've got your job, Strang, 
and 
I've got mine." 
"Bull," said Strang. "You just want to shut us down so you and your scientist 
friends can have this piece of rock all to yourselves." 
"Come on, boys, simmer down," said Jarrett. "Sit down and have a drink." 
"Why don't you tell the truth?" said Strang, ignoring Jarrett. "You don't 
really 
give a damn about compliance. You're glad that cracking tower blew! I 



wouldn't 
be surprised if you even had a hand in it. You've been out to shut us down 
ever 
since the day you got here." 
'That isn't true," Higgins protested. "You know I-" 
"Guys, look-" said Jarrett, vainly trying to get their attention. 
"The hell it isn't. It's because of guys like you that workin' men like us 
have 
to bring our families out to some miserable piece of rock like Purgatory just 
to 
make a living. You shut us down on Earth and now you even want to close us 
down 
out here. And for what? For a bunch of stinkin', savage, subhuman-" 
Higgins reached right over Jarrett and punched Strang in the face. Strang 
reeled 
back, recovered quickly, shoved Jarrett aside, and delivered a roundhouse 
blow 
to Higgins's jaw. As Higgins went down, Tyla lunged at Strang with a snarl 
and 
laid his face open with her claws. Strang howled with pain and rage, seized 
her, 
and threw her clear across the room. 
She flipped in midair and landed crouched on the balls of her feet in the 
middle 
of the stage. She looked as if she would have come right back at Strang, only 
landing in the middle of a holographic projection confused her. The singer 
strutted across the stage and passed right through her. Tyla leaped backward, 
glanced down at herself in shock, and then reached out to touch one of the 
projections, jerking her hand back when she found that it was insubstantial. 
By 
the time she had recovered from her shock, Higgins had plucked a beer bottle 
off 
the bar and broken it over Strang's head. 
One of Strang's buddies took exception to this cavalier christening of his 
friend and punched Higgins. Jarrett tried to intervene and got his nose 
bloodied 
for his trouble. Some friends came to his rescue and the donnybrook erupted in 
a 
cacophony of yells, grunts, smashing glass, and breaking furniture. For a 
moment, I had a ringside seat atop the bar, but then I felt myself being 
pulled 
over backward and the next thing I knew, I was flat on my back on the floor 
behind the bar, with the pretty blonde bartender crouching over me. 
"These things can get a little noisy sometimes," she said, her eyes bright, 
her 
voice sultry. "It's much quieter down here." 
Her face was inches from mine. She moistened her lips. Suddenly her features 
swam and seemed to melt. Her nose became a snout, her teeth lengthened into 
feline fangs, her smooth skin became tawny fur. A deep growl rumbled from her 
throat as the hands holding down my shoulders turned into huge paws . . . 
There was a sudden jarring impact on the creature's back and the 
blood-chilling 
growl became an agonized, high-pitched yelp as five razor-sharp nysteel 
blades 
ripped through its chest, spattering me with blood. 
The creature wrenched itself off Breck's blades and collapsed beside me, its 
transformation to feline predator not yet complete. With its last breaths, it 
changed back to the form of the pretty blonde bartender, her chest and back a 
bloody ruin, her lips flecked with red foam. She stared at me with utter 
loathing, then coughed twice, blood bubbling up from her throat, and died. 



"Don't just lie there, O'Toole," said Breck, leaning over the bar and 
extending 
his left hand to me. "Come on!" 
He pulled me to my feet and, with only one hand, lifted me effortlessly over 
the 
bar. The riot was still in progress and I couldn't even tell which side was 
which, much less who was winning. Breck pulled me toward the exit, shoving 
people out of his way as he plowed through the crowd like a juggernaut. I 
didn't 
see Higgins or Tyla anywhere. 
"Where's Higgins?" I shouted as we burst through the door. 
A number of people passing by recoiled from Breck as he stood there, looking 
around wildly, blood dripping from the slender blades on his artificial hand. 
"There!" He pointed with his knives and I saw Higgins in the distance, racing 
along the mall. We took off after him. 
I didn't have the slightest idea of what was going on. I kept thinking about 
how 
close I'd come to being killed again. Breck had saved my life once more. He 
easily outdistanced me, running with astonishing speed. He caught up to 
Higgins 
and passed him. I sobbed for breath, pumping my arms and legs for all I was 
worth, dodging around people or knocking them over. I heard the high-pitched, 
whining sound of Breck's semiauto firing the stunner darts. 
As I turned the corner into a wide circular atrium, I saw people running in 
the 
opposite direction, screaming and shouting. Breck stood against the railing 
of 
the promenade to my left. Three stories down, on the ground level, a fountain 
spouted up from the center of a wide pool, shooting long plumes of water 
toward 
the skylight. Across from Breck and to my right, Higgins was running around 
the 
promenade toward the far side, where Tyla lay sprawled at Strang's feet. 
' 'Stay back, Higgins!'' shouted Breck, leveling his weapon. 
He fired again just as Strang leaped over the railing. His body became dark 
and 
blurry as it fell, as if it had been atomized into thousands of particles, 
and 
then it burst apart into a black, buzzing cloud of insects that circled the 
fountain, heading straight toward Higgins. 
I drew my plasma pistol and fired. 
The white-hot charges sizzled through the fountain, sending out clouds of 
steam, 
incinerating most of the insects as they flew toward Higgins. The rest, all 
that 
remained of the whole that had been Strang, rained down like gravel into the 
pool below. 
I came up beside Higgins. He was bending over Tyla. 
"Is she all right?" 
Higgins nodded as she stirred slightly. "She was just knocked unconscious. 
She 
saw Strang run and she went after him. Only it wasn't Strang, was it?" He 
looked 
over the railing, down at the fountain, and he shook his head. "How the hell 
do 
you fight creatures like that?" 
"For the moment, fighting them is the least of our concerns," said Breck as 
he 
came up to us. "Fighting them is not impossible. What I'd like to know is how 
we're going to capture one." 



"Capture one?" said Higgins. "Are you crazy?" 
"No, merely a psycho, Mr. Higgins." Breck grimaced wryly. "Capturing an 
ambimorph is what we came here to do, though no one bothered telling us 
exactly 
how we are supposed to do it. In any case, we'd best pick up our bags at the 
hotel and be on our way about it now, instead of waiting for the morning. If 
we 
remain here, I may be charged with murder." 
"Murder?" 
"I had to kill that pretty young bartender," Breck said. "She wasn't human, 
you 
see, but I'm afraid that only O'Toole and I could testify to that, since the 
creature managed to change back to human form before it died." 
"Jesus, that's unbelievable," said Higgins. 
"Precisely," said Breck. 
"But if both you and O’Toole testify that she was an am-bimorph, and if I 
testify to what just happened here-" 
"Don't be absurd," said Breck. "I have no intention of standing trial. Who 
would 
listen seriously to our testimony? We psychos don't even know what's real and 
what isn't. Besides, everyone knows that this is just a game." 


FIVE 


The desert sled skimmed several yards above the ground, its jet engines 
kicking 
up thick clouds of dust behind us. The brightly lit steel islands receded in 
the 
distance, plumes of flame shooting up above the roiling black clouds over the 
cracking towers. It was like leaving one world and entering another. The sky 
was 
streaked with indigo, orange, and red-violet as we hurtled toward the sunset 
at 
over 200 miles per hour, Higgins watching the softly glowing instrument 
panel, 
following a course plotted into the sled's navigational computer. 
The screen before him showed the forward scanner's guidance display. Objects 
in 
our path appeared as blips on the green grid. Higgins moved the joystick with 
a 
supple wrist, effortlessly skirting the blips, which became briefly visible 
through the cockpit canopy as we passed them-large, dark, shadowy projections 
sticking straight up out of the ground. The "bleeding cacti" of Purgatory. We 
passed several of them very closely and I glanced uneasily at Higgins. If we 
hit 
one at our speed, the collision itself might not damage the sled, but it 
would 
send it slewing out of control, almost certainly resulting in a fatal crash. 
However, Higgins seemed to know what he was doing. 
I sat beside him in the front; Breck was with Tyla in the back. Except for 
the 
glow from the instrument panel, the interior of the cockpit was dark. 
Outside, 
it was getting darker still. 
The red-golden, violet-orange streaks in the night sky were fading rapidly. 
"You fellas mind a little fresh air?" Higgins said. "I sure could use some." 
"It's all right with me," said Breck. 
"Sure, why not?" I said, figuring that he was going to open a few vents. 
Instead, he flipped a switch and the entire cockpit canopy retracted. The 
aerodynamically shaped windshield kept our faces from blowing off, but I was 



unprepared for the sudden howling blast of wind. 
Higgins inhaled deeply. Tyla sat up, raising her chin and sniffing at the 
airstream. "God, I love it out here," Higgins shouted over the blast. "A man 
can 
feel like a man, instead of like some rat in a maze!" 
I suddenly noticed dozens of blips appearing on the screen and my stomach 
tightened as Higgins banked the sled sharply, heading directly toward the 
blips 
instead of maneuvering to go around them. 
"What the hell are you doing!" I yelled. 
"Ever do any skiing back on Earth?" Higgins yelled back. 
"What?" 
"Watch this!" 
He hit a switch and four powerful floodlight beams stabbed out into the 
darkness, illuminating the desert dead ahead. We were headed straight for a 
veritable forest of bleeding cactus. They were huge, standing like garish, 
twisted specters in the desert, spidery arms flung wide as if to snatch at us 
as 
we passed. The smaller, younger plants were without "arms" and no thicker 
than 
my wrist, but the largest cacti grew as tall as fifty and sixty feet, and 
were 
as big around as the body of our sled. 
"Higgins, are you crazy?" I shouted over the wind blast. "We can't go through 
there!" 
He laughed. 
"Higgins!" 
We plunged into the cactus forest, Higgins working the joystick quickly with 
sharp, deft movements of his wrist as the sled slalomed through the clumps of 
giant plants, the headlight beams sweeping crazily back and forth like laser 
turrets as we banked sharply first one way, then the other. Dozens of times, 
it 
looked as if disaster was imminent, but Higgins always pulled out just in 
time, 
maneuvering the sled expertly, turning at the last second, standing it on its 
side, and zooming through the narrow gaps between the plants, once scraping 
by 
so close that we abraded the meaty pulp off one of the large black cacti and 
the 
thick red sap that gave the plants their name splattered the body of the 
sled. 
After what seemed like a heart-stopping eternity, we were out of the dense 
forest and back on the open desert, heading toward the foothills. 
Higgins threw back his head and gave a Texas cheer. "Eeeee-hah!" 
I let out my breath slowly. "Higgins, you're a maniac." 
He grinned at me. "And you're a couple of psychos. Fine bunch we make!" The 
sled 
gave a sudden lurch. "Uh-oh ..." 
He instantly became serious and stabbed at the console, rapidly flicking 
switches on and off, checking the instruments, his mouth drawn in a tight 
grimace. I wasn't reassured by the sight of all the flashing lights that had 
not 
been there before. 
"What the hell is happening?" I yelled at him, over the wind blast. 
"We've got a problem!" he shouted back. 
He hit the switch to slide the canopy back over us again, cutting out the 
wind 
blast and making the various little flashing lights and warning alarms that 
much 
more ominous as their rapid beeps became audible. 



"Looks like we're running out of fuel," he said. 
"What? Out here in the middle of nowhere?" 
"I can't understand it," he said. "The gauge shows full. And the stabilizers 
aren't responding, either." 
He was struggling with the joystick as the sled pitched wildly, its jets 
spurting, cutting out. He grimaced as the controls became leaden and 
struggled 
to keep the sled's glide under control as it rapidly lost momentum. 
"Shit, hang on!" he said through clenched teeth. 
The undercarriage scraped, the sled rebounded, scraped again, and Higgins 
barely 
managed to get the nose elevated slightly before the tail section caught and 
slammed the body of the sled into the ground, sending out plumes of dust and 
dirt as it plowed a long furrow in the desert before coming to a shuddering 
stop. 
Higgins leaned back against his seat, blood running down his face from a cut 
on 
his forehead. He took a ragged breath and let it out in a long and heavy 
exhalation. "Damn. We made it. I was afraid we'd tumble when we hit. That 
would've been a real mess. Is everybody all right?" 
"We're all right back here," said Breck. "O'Toole?" 
"Barely," I said. I turned on Higgins furiously. "Well, that sure was fun! 
Your 
stupid stunt going through that cactus forest was what probably damaged the 
damn 
sled!" 
"No way," said Higgins emphatically. "We only scraped by a couple of those 
plants, just barely touched 'em. That wouldn't have been enough to rupture 
any 
of the fuel cells or cause a failure in the stabilizer system. Besides, the 
gauge was showing full! I can't understand it. I checked the sled myself this 
morning!" 
"But I suppose anyone could've gotten to it since then," said Breck. 
"Are you saying someone sabotaged it?" 
"Someone or some thing," said Breck. "What sort of shape are we in?" 
"Not good." Higgins stabbed at the buttons on the console. It was dead. He 
shook 
his head. "This sled isn't going anywhere. We've torn up the entire 
undercarriage. It's nothing but a pile of junk now." 
He released the canopy, but it wouldn't open all the way. He swore and 
hammered 
at it several times, but it wouldn't budge. 
"Great! We'll fry in here when the sun comes up." 
"Allow me," Breck said. 
He rose up in his seat, grabbed hold of the canopy, grunted, and shoved with 
all 
his might. There was the sound of metal buckling in protest, then it scraped 
back with a grating whine into the fully retracted position. I felt the cool 
night air on my face. The silence was eerie. 
Higgins jumped down lightly to the ground, Breck and Tyla followed. I climbed 
down out of the cockpit, thinking back to the last time I was on Purgatory, 
when 
those crewmates of mine had gotten drunk and taken a sled out into the 
desert.,. 
Higgins reached inside the cockpit and pulled out his small backpack, then he 
tossed our packs down. "Might as well start walking," he said. 
"Wait a minute," I said. "What are you talking about? We're miles from 
anywhere! 
Wouldn't we be better off staying with the sled?" 
"What for? There won't be any help coming," Higgins said, hiking the pack up 



onto his shoulders. "The locator beacon's out and we don't have any radios. 
Your 
people at Psychodrome could send for help, but even with tachyon broadcast, 
by 
the time anyone got out here to pick us up, about a dozen different things 
could 
happen to us, none of them very pleasant. We've got some nocturnal predators 
out 
here that could be dangerous, but the ones active during the day, you really 
wouldn't want to meet, believe me. We'd best try to make the high country 
before 
daybreak." 
I could barely see the hills against the night sky. "We'll never make it," I 
said. 
"Of course we will," said Higgins. "Remember, Tyla's people have lived out 
here 
for generations. She'll get us through." 
I glanced at her, standing casually off to one side as if nothing unusual had 
happened, looking almost bored by our discussion. She was barefoot, dressed 
only 
in a hide skirt that was belted at the waist and fastened at the shoulder, 
leaving the opposite shoulder and both arms bare. It was crudely made from 
the 
skin of some native animal, light-colored, thin and supple, cut high on one 
hip 
to allow for freedom of movement. It was a garment meant to be purely 
utilitarian and not in the least bit decorative, though she looked terrific 
in 
it. Her lush, manelike hair hung long and loose, blowing in the wind. In the 
moonlight, her shadowed form standing with legs slightly apart, hair rippling 
in 
the wind and arms hanging loosely at her sides, she seemed like an archetype 
of 
the primal female. She certainly didn't seem worried. But then, she wasn't 
human, either. 
"He's right," said Breck, checking his weapons and shouldering his pack. "It 
will be easier traveling on foot at night than during the day. Let's not 
waste 
any time. It seems someone doesn't want us to contact Tyla's tribe. Since we 
already know there are ambimorphs on Purgatory, I wonder what it is they 
don't 
want us to find out." 
"I'll settle for finding out how we're going to get out of this alive," I 
said. 
We started walking, heading toward the distant hills. Tyla led the way. She 
had 
a graceful, easy walk, springy and absolutely soundless. She placed one foot 
almost directly in front of the other, holding her body upright, sniffing the 
air on occasion as she walked. By contrast, I felt clumsy. The two small 
bright 
moons of Purgatory made the night a cool, shadowy blue rather than an 
impenetrable black. The figures of Tyla and Breck looked like ghostly shadows 
moving ahead of me. Higgins walked in the rear with me, no doubt to make sure 


didn't straggle and get lost. 
I was in good condition-or at least I thought I was-but after a while, the 
seemingly easygoing pace set by Tyla started to feel exhausting and I began 
to 
fall behind. Breck, of course, had no trouble keeping up with her. She could 
have sprinted and he'd probably have been able to run rings around her. 



However, 
what little solace my ego could have derived from the fact that Breck was 
superhuman and Tyla wasn't human at all was dissipated by Higgins, who wasn't 
tiring anywhere near as quickly as I was. Several times, he had to call out 
to 
Tyla in her native tongue as she and Breck started to get too far ahead. Then 
they'd stop and wait for us-for me-and I'd feel humiliated at the easy way 
she 
stood there, head cocked, watching me as I closed the distance between us. 
Then 
she would turn and go on at what seemed to be a slower pace, only to have me 
start falling behind again after about a mile or two. 
Under other circumstances, I might even have enjoyed it. A little. Maybe. The 
ground sloped very gently upward as we headed toward the foothills. The wind 
was 
brisk and it was subtly perfumed with the piquant smells of the flowering 
scrub 
brush all around us and the short, grasslike growths with delicate stalks 
surmounted by whispy blooms rising out of the centers of the clumps. All 
around 
us was a lovely surreal vista in hues of blue and black and purple, eerie and 
peaceful save for the occasional piercing cry of some nightflyer giving 
warning 
of our presence. But I would have appreciated the primeval beauty of the 
Purgatory landscape more if we'd been able to turn back when we got tired. 
Anyone tuning in to me would be feeling the apprehension of civilized urban 
man 
out of his element in the wild. The uncertainty of not knowing if we were 
going 
to make it, despite what Higgins said. The exhaustion of strenuous exercise 
in 
an atmosphere I wasn't used to. The surge of adrenaline with every sound that 
broke the utter stillness of the night. The fear of what might be lurking out 
there in the darkness. 
Every now and then, Tyla would stop, her head held high, moving slightly back 
and forth, her nostrils flaring. She would hold her arm out, silently 
motioning 
us to keep still. Then, when the unknown danger had passed, we would go on 
again. After the first time, I asked Breck if he had smelled anything at all. 
He 
shook his head, saying, "It's difficult to separate the unfamiliar smells." 
The 
second time it happened, he shook his head again, frustrated at her ability 
to 
discern an odor he could not, and the third time, he finally sensed something. 
"It's very faint," he said, sniffing the breeze. "Something rather musky. I 
was 
barely able to pick it up at all. It had to be a good distance away, because 


could neither see nor hear anything. Her olfactory sense must be incredible. 
Do 
you have any idea what it was, Higgins?" 
"If it was musky, it was probably a herd of unicorns," he said. 
"A herd of what?" I said. 
"Well, that's what we call them, anyway," Higgins said. 
"It's a one-horned, antelopelike creature, quite small, only about knee-high, 
with long, very shaggy hair that stinks like you wouldn't believe. They're 
night 
grazers." 
"They don't sound very dangerous," I said. 



"Unless they charge and try to stick you with their horns, they aren't 
really. 
However, if you get a good whiff of one, the smell alone is liable to make 
you 
want to chop your nose off. It's also an irritant that gets into your eyes 
and 
mucous membranes. Burns like hell. The Nomads have learned to give them a 
wide 
berth. But the real danger is the sandcats that prey on the herds." 
"Those are the nocturnal predators you mentioned?" I said, shifting the 
weight 
of my pack slightly as we walked. 
Higgins nodded. "They're large, roughly the size of a lion or a tiger, only 
longer and leaner, built closer to the ground. They're all muscle and they're 
fast as hell. If one of them takes off after you, you'd better be a damn good 
shot, because you're not going to get a second chance. Incredibly ugly 
brutes." 
"I think I've seen one," I said. 
"What? Where?" 
"No, no, not out here," I said quickly. "I meant the am-bimorph that attacked 
me 
back at Cody's Place. It assumed a shape like what you just described before 
Breck killed it." 
"Then you were very lucky," Higgins said. "A sandcat could rip you apart in 
seconds. These ambimorphs must be amazing creatures. It seems to go against 
every scientific principle we know that they can take virtually any form, 
with 
no discernible difference, even on the microscopic level. It's got to take an 
incredible amount of energy for any creature to undergo a change like that." 
"I guess so. Why? What are you getting at?" 
"Simply that they have to have some limitations. No living thing I know of 
has 
an inexhaustible supply of energy and the mind boggles at the amount of 
energy 
that must be required for the ambimorphs to transmutate the way they do. They 
must have absolutely fantastic metabolic rates. And logic would suggest that 
the 
more they transmutate or shapechange, the more energy they'd need. You said 
they 
reproduce by fission?" 
"Our people originally thought it could be something like binary fission," I 
said, "as with unicellular organisms, but now it looks as though they're not 
actually independent entities at all. The latest theory is that they're a 
sort 
of 'hive' of microscopic protoplasmic creatures, existing in a complex 
symbiotic 
relationship and functioning as a unit." 
"In a sense, that's exactly what we are, as well," said Higgins, with a 
smile. 
"Our cells are simply not as flexible. I keep thinking about that footage you 
told me about, where the am-bimorph in human form suddenly seemed to explode 
into a flock of birds . . . exactly the same way Strang changed into a swarm 
of 
insects. Maybe that was more than transmutation. Has it occurred to you that 
it 
could have been the creature reproducing itself?" 
I stared at him. "No. It couldn't be." 
"Why not?" 
"Because Breck and I both saw the creature shortly afterward. And it didn't 
look 



any different. I mean ... it wasn't smaller or anything ..." 
My voice trailed off. 
"You see my point, don't you?" Higgins said excitedly. "How would you know? 
It 
may be a multicellular organism that behaves as if it's unicellular, dividing 
like bacteria, by geometric increase, only at a much faster rate than any 
bacteria we've ever seen!" 
"What are you saying, that the damn things are a disease!" 
"No, what I'm suggesting is that it's possible they reproduce by multiple 
division, very much the same way that bacteria do. Similar to a disease, if 
you 
like." 
"But if an ambimorph reproduced by multiple division," I said, "then it would 
follow that it would have to be much smaller after reproduction, wouldn't it? 
It 
couldn't possibly divide and still retain the same mass." 
"No," said Higgins, "but how would you know simply by looking at it? There's 
more to mass than size, you know. There's also density." 
I frowned. "What do you mean?" 
"Take that ambimorph you saw back on Earth, the one that divided into a flock 
of 
birds and then re-formed once again in human shape. You say you saw it both 
before and after the transmutation. But suppose one or two of those birds 
didn't 
rejoin with the others to re-form into the same body once again? The 
difference 
in mass would have been very slight, perhaps not even noticeable, and even if 
there was a noticeable decrease in mass, the creature might have altered its 
density slightly to compensate for the loss." 
I walked on for a few steps without saying anything, profoundly disturbed by 
the 
implications of what Higgins was suggesting. 
"It's possible, isn't it?" said Higgins, the xenobiologist in him excited by 
the 
theory. "Then whatever part did not re-form with the main body would be much 
smaller. There would have to be enough of it to sustain a separate existence, 
because some of those insects Strang changed into-the ones who weren't 
incinerated by your blast-fell dead into the fountain, so we know there has 
to 
be some sort of minimum mass for the creature to sustain total separation 
from 
the parent colony, but the result would be a baby ambimorph! 
"It could survive by adopting protective coloration," Higgins continued with 
excitement, "taking the shape of smaller creatures and avoiding unnecessary 
transmutation to conserve its strength while it grew . . . and considering 
what 
their metabolic rates must be and the amount of energy they must consume, 
their 
growth rate must be phenomenal! Considering all the energy they must burn up, 
how long could their lifespan be? There has to be a powerful reproductive 
imperative. They'd probably die if they didn't reproduce. Listen, O'Toole, 
that 
ambimorph you encountered back on Earth . . . after it had re-formed again, 
back 
into human shape, was there anything about it, the way it looked or acted, 
that 
suggested it could have been in a weakened condition?" 
I remembered how Breck and I had trailed it, how Breck had run on ahead of me 
and entered the slum building the creature had gone into. It had taken on the 
form of a cyberpunk, connected with a young cyberpunk girl, and gone back 



with 
her to her apartment in the box warrens on the ground level of the city. A 
place 
to hide out and recuperate after reproduction? Breck had already gone inside 
by 
the time I got there. As I arrived, out of breath, I saw the cyberpunk girl 
leaving. 
Breck had gone in; she had come out. I ran after her, drawing my gun and 
aiming, 
I yelled and she had turned around . . . and it was Stone's face that had 
looked 
back at me. Only Stone was dead. It all came back to me. 
"Arkady! Don't! It's me, Stone!" 
Coles was screaming in my mind, "O'Toole! Don't kill it! I want that thing 
alive!" 
The creature spoke in Stone's voice. "Let me go, Arkady. Please. They'll hurt 
me." 
It hadn't changed. Like "Strang," it could have transmutated into a cloud of 
insects and swarmed away. It could have turned into a flock of birds or some 
other sort of creature, they could change so quickly, but it hadn't. It had 
stood there, helpless, pleading with me and only Saqqara's assassins striking 
at 
that precise moment had allowed it to escape. It had not tried to fight back, 
nor had it killed Breck, choosing instead to knock him out and flee. Why? 
Because it had been in a weakened condition from reproducing? I remembered 
what 
the shapechanger had told us back on Draconis, about how consuming human 
flesh 
had made it violently ill. Maybe that was all that had saved Breck, its 
weakness 
and its fear of being incapacitated. 
Had the creature used up its last reserves of strength by assuming Stone's 
form 
in a desperate gamble for its life? It had made only a partial change, only 
the 
face, since it had already been in the shape of a human female. Did it choose 
that tactic simply because it was the only option left to it, because it had 
strength enough only for a partial transformation? 
"There was something, wasn't there?" said Higgins, watching me intently as he 
walked beside me. 
"Yes," I said, slowly, "there was." 
"I knew it! God, I wish I could examine one of those creatures!" 
"I know someone who feels much the same way you do," I said, thinking of 
Coles. 
I had a feeling that if we ever got back alive, Higgins would probably come 
to 
regret his wish. 
After a while, even the loquacious Higgins abandoned conversation in favor of 
conserving his energy. We'd been walking for hours, but it seemed like days. 
Sometimes we followed a desultory course, stopping for a while to let 
something 
pass by in the night that only Tyla could sense or making a detour around an 
unseen herd of night grazers, but for the most part, we kept heading steadily 
toward the high country. 
The desert plains of Purgatory had a desolate magnitude about them that 
brought 
back memories of the red dust plains of Mars. I had spent much of my life in 
cities, but there was something about the vastness of a sweeping desert 
vista, 
the trackless scope of unpopulated country stretching out to the horizon that 



always instilled silence. It was humbling. It seemed somehow inappropriate 
for 
man to make his paltry noise out in the midst of all that pristine wilderness. 
Perhaps that was why we always congregated in cities, responding to some 
primeval herding instinct. Maybe it was because we were frightened by the 
wilderness, not so much by the dangers there-because there were far more 
dangers 
in our cities-but because the wilderness put us in our place. It was 
difficult 
to stand out in the middle of a desert and say, "I am the Master." Your voice 
would sound so small. 
There could be thousands of miles of virgin, unpopulated country available 
all 
around us, and yet most of us always gravitated to the skyscrapers and the 
slums, the concrete and the steel, the pulsating, sweating, heaving 
multitudes 
choking in their own effluvium, pressing in on one another, living like 
insects 
in a hive, all for the illusion of security and fellowship. The city made its 
own rules and forgot about the rules of nature. It became a ravening beast, 
its 
pulse abnormally fast, its reactions unnatural, its sexuality perverse, its 
mind 
twisted. When there are too many ants in a colony, they all go mad. The 
loneliest, saddest people I've met have always lived in cities. 
My ancestors were Irish and Russian, both peoples with a passionate 
involvement 
with the land, a feeling for it, a love as profound as that for family and 
self. 
Somewhere in the distant past, my people had worshiped at Druidic altars and 
galloped on horseback across vast steppes. They had farmed and hunted. When 
the 
game was scarce, they went hungry. When the drought came, they starved. Their 
connection with the land was tangible, if at times brutal. But as we built 
our 
cities and exerted our collective will against the wilderness, we lost that 
connection with the land. And in so doing, we had lost a part of ourselves, 
as 
well. 
We would either live or die. We would do our best to live, and with Tyla's 
help, 
we had a far better chance than we would've had on our own. The terror of (he 
city dweller out in the wild and away from everything familiar had abated and 
in 
its place there came a quiet acceptance, a serenity, a sense of peace. It was 
as 
if the vastness of the desert had reminded me of my insignificance and, 
properly 
humbled, I had once more assumed my proper place in the natural scheme of 
things. I wasn't "master" of anything. I was, instead, merely a part of 
everything. There was a certain inexpressible joy in that realization, a true 
feeling of community that people always seek in cities and never really find. 
It was almost dawn by the time we reached the foothills. We had walked 
briskly 
all night and made surprisingly good time. I was absolutely exhausted, but I 
had 
to give Coles credit. If it weren't for all the hell he'd put me through, 
both 
physically and mentally, I doubt I would have made it. The others would've 
had 



to carry me. 
Tyla heard it first. She stopped and pointed back the way we came. I couldn't 
hear anything at all. Neither could Breck, at first, but then he heard it, 
too. 
Moments later, so did Higgins and I. It was the faint, far-off sound of a jet 
engine. It might almost have been the wind. But then we saw the silvery 
sparkle 
of light reflected off a desert sled as the sun started to come up over the 
horizon. 
"He's circling," Higgins said. "Right where our sled crashed. By now, the 
wind 
will have erased any tracks we left, but he'll figure out we've headed for 
the 
high country. He'll probably fly a few widening circles around the wreck, 
then 
he'll start heading this way. It might be a good idea if we got out of sight." 
"And it might be an even better idea if we didn't," Breck said. "Since you're 
a 
competent outdoorsman, Higgins, I assume that one of these packs contains 
something in the way of an emergency shelter?" 
"Well . . . yes, I'm packing a collapsible, reflective dome shelter, but-" 
"Excellent," said Breck. "If you're quick about setting it up, it should 
reflect 
quite nicely as the sun climbs over the horizon." 
"But that would only attract . . . oh, I see." 
Breck smiled. "Precisely." 
A few moments later, Higgins had the shelter erected. It was a silver nyflex 
dome big enough to comfortably sleep two; four if comfort wasn't a major 
concern. Obviously, Higgins hadn't counted on using it, but being a competent 
outdoorsman, as Breck had observed, he had packed it as a prudent safety 
measure. 
"What happens now?" said Higgins as he finished setting it up. 
"Now ... we wait," said Breck. "Let's see what he does when he spots the 
reflection off the dome." 
"You think it's an ambimorph in that sled?" said Higgins. "Our saboteur?" 
Breck nodded. "I'm sure of it. Unless you can think of any other reason why 
someone would wish to follow us out here." 
"I hate to bring it up," I said, "but I can think of one. Someone could have 
followed us with the express purpose of arresting you for murder. The people 
back there wouldn't have any way of knowing that bartender you killed was an 
ambimorph. If there are other shapechangers present in the city, they'll be 
certain to exploit that situation. And it's entirely possible that someone 
familiar with the terrain might have found us without the aid of a locator 
beacon." 
"How?" asked Higgins, frowning. 
"Simple. They could tune in to the broadcast of the game." 
Higgins stared at me with astonishment. "They could what! Wait a minute, let 
me 
get this straight," he said. "I want to make sure I understand this lunacy 
I've 
gotten myself mixed up in. You and Breck are Psychodrome players, but you're 
also working for the government. However, since that's supposed to be a 
secret, 
you've made it part of your alien invasion game, only the invasion is 
actually 
real, which nobody's going to believe because it's part of the game to act as 
if 
it's real. So, supposedly, what's happening isn't really happening, except it 
is, right? And anyone with a psy-fi set can tune in on this craziness?" 
"That's about it," I said. 



"But. . . but when you explained about editing and enhancement for broadcast 
purposes, I assumed you meant that steps would be taken to protect your 
mission." 
I shook my head. "Not necessarily. They edit primarily to protect the home 
audience from reality. And for maximum dramatic impact when they broadcast 
the 
condensed version in a rerun. You see, Higgins, the more danger we're in, the 
more interesting it is for the home audience. That's the bottom line, because 
if 
we get good ratings, more people will tune in. If more people tune in, the 
game 
becomes more popular. The more popular the game becomes, the more people will 
enter the lottery, the more biochips will be given out as prizes, which means 
more minds and bodies for our friend Coles to play with. He calls it 
'increasing 
the data base.' He'd probably like to do it more quickly, but if he started 
handing out biochips by the thousands, it might look a little funny. Instead, 
what he's trying to do is pick his winners carefully, utilizing things like 
demographics, position in the business community, political affiliation, and 
so 
forth. Of course, this part of our conversation will probably be edited out 
for 
broadcast and redubbed with simulsynch. That's the sort of reality people 
have 
to be protected from. So as far as the home audience is concerned, we 
probably 
aren't even having this conversation. I wonder what we're really saying?" 
Higgins turned to Breck. "Is he serious?" 
"I'm afraid so." 
"But . . . that's crazy!" Higgins stared at us with disbelief. "Don't you 
realize what that means? It means you're being used as Judas goats! It means 
that any ambimorph with access to a psych-fidelity set can tune you in!" 
He pointed to the silvery speck of the desert sled in the distance, gradually 
getting larger as it approached. "Whoever or whatever that is only needs a 
communication link to someone tuned into you right now to know exactly what 
you' 
re planning!" 
"Makes it a bit more challenging, doesn't it?" said Breck, watching as the 
craft 
approached. 


SIX 


The jet-powered desert sled came out of the sun, heading straight for the 
reflective dome tent. As it banked sharply, turning its canopy toward us, 
Higgins followed it with binoculars. 
"It's Jarrett!" he said. 
"I think we can safely assume that it most definitely isn't Jarrett," Breck 
said 
as we hid in some rock outcroppings a short distance from the dome. "Not 
unless 
Jarrett has some sort of official law-enforcement status here." 
"No," said Higgins, glancing at Breck and then putting the binoculars back up 
to 
his eyes. "Blaisedell's Chief of Security. You met him when we went to visit 
Cavanaugh. If he had a warrant out on you, he'd serve it himself. He wouldn't 
send Jarrett. And if he came after you, he sure as hell wouldn't come alone." 
"I didn't think so," Breck said. 
The sled banked sharply and circled round the dome. 
"He's retracted the canopy," said Higgins. "He's-" 



A burst of automatic weapons' fire sounded above the whine of the jet engines 
and the fragmentation rounds plowed into the dome shelter, exploding as they 
hit. 
"Now," said Breck, bringing his pistol up, "as our friend lands so that he 
can 
survey the damage ..." 
The sled set down with a diminishing whine of engines beside the wreckage of 
the 
shelter. Jarrett jumped down from the cockpit and came toward what was left 
of 
the shelter, holding an assault rifle at the ready. Breck stood up and 
rapidly 
fired three stunner darts into his back. Jarrett spun around and fired a 
burst 
in our direction. The rounds exploded as they hit the rocks, sending shards 
and 
chips of stone flying everywhere. Breck tried to fire once more and Jarrett 
opened up again, forcing him to duck back down. I edged around the 
outcropping 
on the other side, leveled my gun and fired twice. The fragmentation rounds 
took 
Jarrett in the chest, spinning him around as they exploded. He fired as he 
fell 
and the frag bullets stitched the body of the sled, struck the fuel cells, 
and 
the whole thing exploded into flame. 
"Damn you, O'Toole!" swore Breck, "I was trying to take him alive!" 
I glanced down at the grip indicator of my gun and saw a strip of red showing 
through the clear plastic. Red magazine. Fragmentation rounds. I thought I'd 
loaded stunners. 
"I'm sorry," I said, lamely. "I thought I... Holy Christ!" 
I stared wide-eyed as the ground around Jarrett's body churned and what 
looked 
like hundreds of fist-sized, hairy, multilegged creatures erupted to the 
surface. They looked like a cross between tarantulas and hermit crabs. They 
swarmed over the body, covering it completely in a black, writhing, hairy 
blanket. There was an incredible sound, like hundreds of walnuts cracking, 
and 
moments later, they had burrowed back down beneath the surface, leaving 
nothing 
behind. Not even bones. 
"My God," I said. "What were those creatures?" 
"Sandstriders," Higgins said. "They burrow underground at night and then come 
up 
and swarm over the surface toward their prey." 
"We were standing right there just a little while ago," I said, swallowing 
hard. 
"That's right," said Higgins, uneasily. "And we're standing way the hell too 
close right now. We'd better move it." 
"My apologies, O'Toole," said Breck as we hurried away. "You may not have 
intended it, but you just saved our lives. "It's a pity about the sled, 
though." 
"At least Jarrett, or the shapechanger, didn't realize it was a trap," said 
Higgins. "What if he had been in communication with another ambimorph who was 
tuned in on the game?" 
"It might have been interesting," said Breck. "And if they were tuning in on 
us, 
it would certainly have been worth knowing. However, I think they'd shy away 
from that idea. I don't think they're certain yet how vulnerable they would 
be 



if they plugged into the net. For that matter, I don't think we're sure of 
that, 
ourselves." 
"I'm having a hard time keeping all this straight," said Higgins, "but it 
occurs 
to me that if people could follow our experience right now by tuning in to 
either of you guys through the psy-fi network, then wouldn't they have been 
able 
to see the bartender transforming herself into a sandcat? That means they'd 
know 
she was an ambimorph, wouldn't they? Surely that would clear you?" 
"It isn't something I would care to bet on," said Breck. "If anyone on 
Purgatory 
was tuned in at precisely the right time, and if they believed that what they 
were seeing was actually real as opposed to a psychocybernetically achieved 
special effect, then perhaps it might have cleared me. But I don't think a 
court 
of law would be convinced that anything experienced on Psychodrome was 
representative of reality." 
"But what about the body?" Higgins said. "Certainly they can't doubt that 
reality!" 
"It's the body of a human female," said Breck. "And no autopsy would be able 
to 
prove otherwise." 
"But unless she was an ambimorph,-what reason would you possibly have for 
killing her?" asked Higgins. 
"Some of them will think I simply went berserk," Breck said. "After all, I am 
a 
hybreed who has been trained to kill and everyone knows that genetically 
engineered killing machines such as myself occasionally slip a cog, 
especially 
given the high incidence of Psychodrome players going insane. Of course, 
there 
may be others who will think the alien invasion game is real, especially if 
they 
witnessed the girl's transformation on psy-fi." He smiled. "It all depends on 
which brand of reality you subscribe to. In any case, none of it amounts to 
proof. I imagine it will prove somewhat controversial." 
"Aren't you even worried?" Higgins asked. 
"I never worry," Breck replied, with a shrug. "What would it accomplish?" 
"But you could wind up facing a murder charge!" 
"Quite possibly." 
"And that doesn't bother you?" 
"At the moment, we have other things with which to concern ourselves. Such as 
the fact that your wife seems to have disappeared." 
Higgins spun around, looking all around him. There was no sign of Tyla. 
"She was here a minute ago," I said. 
"You didn't see her leave?" said Breck. 
I shook my head. 
"Neither did I," he said. "Now that may be cause for worry." 
Higgins turned on Breck. "What are you saying? You don't think that... Now 
wait 
a minute! You're not seriously suggesting that Tyla could be one of them? Oh, 
come on! That's ridiculous!" 
"Is it?" 
"Don' t be absurd! She must have gone to hunt for food or..." 
"Or?" 
"For God's sake, Breck, I've lived with her! You can't seriously believe that 
she could be one of those creatures!" 
"I've told you once before, Higgins," Breck said, "I suspect everyone. Even 



you." 
"You're crazy. Tyla! Tyla!" His voice echoed in the rocks above. There was no 
answer. He glanced from me to Breck and back again. For the first time, I saw 
uncertainty in his face. He didn't want to think about it, but he was only 
human 
and Breck had planted a frightening, horrible suspicion in his mind. 
"You said yourself that you lived apart much of the time," said Breck. "How 
do 
you know that it was really Tyla who came back to you this time?" 
"You think I wouldn't know my own wife?" Higgins looked around anxiously, 
then 
called her name again. 
The answering call came from high up in the rocks. 
"There!" he said triumphantly, visibly relieved. "I knew she hadn't run out 
on 
us! She must have found us shelter up there or some food." 
He started climbing quickly up the slope. Breck and I followed. 
"What do you think?" I said. 
"I think we should take turns sleeping tonight," said Breck. 
Tyla had found a small cave in a large group of rock outcrop-pings higher up 
in 
the foothills. It provided some welcome shelter from the savage heat. As the 
sun 
climbed higher in the sky, I was extremely grateful that we had walked all 
night 
and not stayed on the desert. We would have cooked down there. Not to mention 
the possibility of being eaten alive by creatures like those sandstriders. 
Higgins spread out his bedroll and settled down on the rock floor with Tyla, 
who 
curled up beside him. Breck volunteered to take the first watch, since I was 
exhausted. I spread out my own bedroll, on loan from Higgins, and stretched 
out 
my aching legs. Breck took up position near the entrance to the cave. 
"Breck," said Higgins quietly, his voice echoing slightly in the confines of 
the 
cave. 
"Yes?" 
"How do I know that you 're not one of them?" 
Breck smiled. "You're learning, Higgins. We'll make a psycho of you yet." 
I closed my eyes and wondered where the whole damn thing would end. What 
would 
we find out here in the middle of this godforsaken no-man's-land? And how 
would 
we get back? I felt that we were stumbling in the dark, improvising as we 
went 
along. How the hell were we supposed to capture an ambimorph alive? And how 
were 
we supposed to deliver it to Coles? We'd had several chances already and we'd 
blown every one. 
I thought about Kami, a young woman I had known back when she was the leader 
of 
a gang of wild scooter bandits in Tokyo. She'd moved up in the world a bit 
since 
then. She was now known in the Japanese underworld as the Tiger Lady, 
operator 
of The Pyramid Club, the plushest casino on the Ginza Strip, and through her 
position as shogun of the bushido gangs, she controlled over a dozen more. 
The 
empire that had once been Hakim Saqqara's was now hers. I'd had something to 
do 



with that and she had made it clear that I was welcome there to share it with 
her anytime I chose. I wished I was there right now. 
There had been a time, not very long ago, when the life that Kami led seemed 
frighteningly violent to me. I had told myself I was too old for taking up 
with 
a gang of scooter bandits and zooming around high above the streets of Tokyo 
on 
a jet-powered skimmer, terrorizing the "zens." That sort of life seemed very 
tame now compared with what I was involved in. At least Kami's world was 
simple 
and brutally direct. Mine had become about as unpredictable as possible. And 
far 
more violent than I could have dreamed. 
I opened my eyes and saw a dark figure in a long flowing coat that billowed 
like 
a cape. He stood at the entrance to the cave, silhouetted against the light. 
I 
looked for Breck, but he was nowhere in sight. Higgins and Tyla were both 
gone. 
I sat up quickly, reaching for my gun, but my weapons had disappeared, as 
well. 
The sun made a blinding aura around the shadowy figure standing motionless at 
the mouth of the cave, watching me. He took a couple of steps forward, 
seeming 
to glide across the rock floor of the cave. As he came closer, I could see 
the 
long white hair falling to his shoulders, the gaunt face etched with age, the 
dark and penetrating eyes, the blood ruby amulet of the playermaster on a 
chain 
around his neck... 
"Mondago," I said. 
He smiled, standing over me, and though his lips did not move, I heard his 
familiar deep sepulchral tones as he spoke inside my mind. "How are you 
bearing 
up, O'Toole?" 
I realized I was asleep. Mondago always had a flair for the dramatic. He 
liked 
to contact players in their dreams, making his entrances in clouds of mist, 
appearing like a specter from beyond. He was another one for tiptoeing 
through 
people's minds without their knowing it. He'd done it to me on at least 
several 
occasions that I knew of. Now here he was again, appearing in my dream like 
an 
unwelcome guest come to spoil the weekend. 
"What do you want, Mondago?" I said irritably. "I'm tired. Let me sleep." 
"You are sleeping, my dear boy. And quite soundly, I might add. Judging by 
your 
readouts, it would take something on the order of a cannon to wake you up 
right 
now." 
"Fine, get to the point, Mondago. I was having a perfectly nice dream when 
you 
showed up." 
"Ah, yes, that fascinating young bandit queen of yours. Quite charming, in a 
rather feral way. You seem to have unusual tastes in women." 
"Mondago ..." 
"Yes, yes, very well, I'll come right to the point. There have been a number 
of 
interesting new developments Coles thought you should be aware of. In light 



of 
what we've learned through your experience here, Purgatory is going to be 
placed 
under quarantine. This is all highly classified, of course, and the 
quarantine 
will not be officially declared until after you've left, but the orbital 
station 
will be refitted as a military garrison and everyone on Purgatory will 
essentially be held incommunicado until such time as we can devise a 
foolproof 
method for differentiating between a human and an ambimorph." 
"Short of implanting everyone with biochips from birth and monitoring them 
from 
the moment they can crawl, you mean?" 
"I will assume the question was rhetorical," Mondago said, ignoring my 
sarcasm. 
"As I was saying, the quarantine will be officially put in place after you 
and 
Breck have left, but you will not be leaving alone. Coles would like Mr. 
Higgins 
to accompany you." 
"Wait a minute," I said, "why Higgins? And what if he doesn't want to go? 
He's 
got a wife here, you know." 
"Who apparently has more than her share of husbands already ," Mondago said 
dryly. "One more or less would probably make little difference. Impress Mr. 
Higgins with the importance of his leaving with you. His ideas on the subject 
of 
ambimorphs have aroused a good deal of interest here. We would like to have 
him 
on our research staff.'' 
"Does he have a choice?" 
"Not really, no. We could arrange for him to be shipped home, but we would 
prefer his voluntary cooperation. People tend to be more productive when 
they're 
working of their own free will." 
"That's a hell of a radical thought for somebody who works for Coles." 
"Yes, I suppose it is, at that. In any case, it would be best if you were the 
one to bring the matter up. Higgins seems to have a slight antipathy for 
Breck. 
He might take it better coming from you. Do try to convince him." 
"I'll see what I can do." 
"Good. I doubt it will be all that difficult. He is a scientist, after all. 
He'll probably jump at the chance. Meanwhile, you recall the ambimorph you 
knew 
as the crystal hunter, Nikolai Razin, the one who came back from Draconis 9 
with 
you as-" 
"As Stone, yes, I remember. Christ, Mondago, how the hell could I forget?" 
"Well, we were able to track it for a time until it apparently learned how to 
control the signals from the biochip it had assimilated from Miss Winters." 
Assimilated. He meant that the creature had absorbed her and ingested her 
biochip, as well. For a while. Game Control had received intermittent signals 
from Stone's biochip, but then the signals had become erratic, fluctuating 
wildly, suggesting that the creature was learning how to control the biochip, 
something that was supposed to be impossible. Eventually, they had lost the 
signals altogether. 
"We've started receiving signals from that biochip again," Mondago said. 
It was startling news. I was convinced that the ambimorph Breck and I 
referred 



to as "Nikolai Razin," after the crystal hunter whose identity it had 
assumed, 
was perhaps the most dangerous of them all. It had come very close to 
penetrating our security and it was the only ambimorph to have ever been 
inside 
the Psychodrome headquarters complex. "Then you've found the creature?" I 
said, 
excited. 
"Not exactly" said Mondago. "More like it's found us. The biochip is not 
responding to an activating signal from Game Control. The creature, which we 
have code named Chameleon, has learned how to activate its biochip at will 
and 
transmit selectively, directly to our satellite network." 
"Does that mean you can't trace it?" I said. 
"No, as long as the signal is identified in time and we can get a fix on it, 
we 
are capable of tracing it with some limited success, depending largely on how 
long Chameleon is transmitting. But what is far more significant and ominous 
is 
the fact that Chameleon is now capable of transmitting signals that can 
completely bypass Game Control." 
I still didn't understand. "What are you telling me? You mean you can trace 
the 
signal if you can lock in on it in time, but you can't control it?" 
"Unfortunately, no, we cannot. We are still trying to find ways to block it. 
Chameleon has been sending us transmissions which are essentially the 
equivalent 
of test patterns, as if it were arrogantly showing us what it has learned to 
do. 
Although we've had no direct evidence of it as yet, theoretically, what this 
means is that it's possible for the creature to use our satellite network to 
tap 
into psych-fidelity broadcasts." 
It finally sank in and I was stunned. "Are you saying it can make direct 
telempathic contact with anyone tuned in to the channel it's tapped into?" 
"Exactly." 
"Holy shit." 
"Coles used somewhat stronger terminology himself. You can appreciate how 
this 
has caused the situation to escalate alarmingly. If one ambimorph can learn 
to 
do this, no doubt others can. This opens up the possibility for 
psychocybernetic 
terrorism, with the victims being accessed through the media." 
"But what about the fail-safe systems, the biomonitors built into psy-fi 
sets? 
Won't they protect the user?" 
"We don't know. Obviously, we're hoping that they will, but the fail-safes 
are 
designed so that the biomonitors will register unacceptable levels of stress 
and 
block out that part of the transmission or shut the entire system down. For 
example, if someone who is tuned into Mr. Breck performing some feat of 
daring 
becomes too frightened and experiences increased respiration and accelerated 
heartbeat and so forth, the biomonitors will register that and the fail-safe 
systems will react accordingly. So we can protect our audiences from their 
own 
physical reactions. But can we protect them from their emotional reactions? 
Can 



we prevent ambimorph terrorists from instilling ideas within their 
subconscious 
minds that will fester and break out only after the psy-fi set had been 
disconnected?" 
"And you know that can be done because you people have been doing it 
yourselves, 
haven't you?" I said, "All along, you've been feeding the home audience some 
subconscious programming along with their entertainment. And I've been part 
of 
the program, God help me. Well, now it looks as if Game Control is about to 
lose 
control. I don't know if I should laugh or cry." 
"I cannot give enough emphasis to the importance of your assignment, 
O'Toole," 
Mondago said intensely. "We must have a live ambimorph to study. It is 
absolutely imperative. We have every available undercover team out in the 
field, 
attempting to capture one. So far, you and Breck have had the most contacts. 
And 
you also have the most experience." 
"I gather the other teams aren't doing too well," I said. 
Mondago was silent for a moment. "We have lost touch with nine of them." 
I swallowed hard. "Completely?" 
"Completely. Termination signals have been received. Shortly after that, 
their 
biochips began transmitting once again, indicating that they had been 
assimilated by the ambimorphs. And then, as happened with Chameleon, we lost 
them." 
"God." 
"You must bring back an ambimorph, O'Toole. Alive. At any cost. Any cost, is 
that understood?" 
"Oh, it's understood, all right. But you mind telling me how?" 
He became insubstantial and faded away. 
I opened my eyes with a start and sat up abruptly. I was sweating. I looked 
around. Higgins and Tyla were still asleep, curled up together in the back of 
the small cave. Breck sat leaning against the wall at the mouth of the cave. 
He 
heard me sit up and glanced toward me. 
"What is it? Are you all right?" he said. 
"How long have I slept?" 
"About four hours." 
I sighed and got out of my bedroll. "I guess that's enough. I might as well 
take 
over the watch. Go get some sleep. You're about to have a really rotten 
dream." 


SEVEN 


There's a certain type of person to whom the idea of "roots" is meaningless. 
I'd 
met a lot of them because the currents of my life were such that I always 
wound 
up floating with the drifters. Breck was like that, though he was really sort 
of 
an exception, because he never had a home and family to start with-unless you 
can call a hybreed creche a home and I certainly can't. It's not the same. 
That's why hybreeds tend to feel a sort of extended family closeness toward 
one 
another, even if they've never met before. There's something in there, deep 
in 



the human part of their genetic matrix, that drives them to seek the families 
they never knew. No, Breck was different. I was thinking of another type of 
person altogether, one who grew up in the normal circumstances of family and 
home, community and friendship, and who for one reason or another wound up 
rejecting them. 
The corporate mercenaries I had fought with during my first Psychodrome 
adventure were such people. Some had families at home that they would 
probably 
never see again, some had been driven to the corporate wars by desperate 
circumstances, but by far the vast majority of them-the hardened pros who 
were 
the real survivors-were truly isolated men. And, sometimes, women. They lived 
in 
their own little self-contained worlds. They had no need of home or family. 
They 
had no lovers, only sex partners. No friends, only comrades. They had no 
roots. 
No past. At least, no past that mattered. And no real future, either. They 
claimed to like it that way, but I noticed that they didn't really much like 
anything. 
In the Middle Ages, mercenaries were known as "free companions." From the 
Latin 
com, meaning together, and panis, meaning bread. In other words, a companion 
was 
someone to break bread with and if you were a mercenary, you were free to 
choose 
which soldiers you'd break bread with. You were also free of love, free of 
familial ties, and free of care. You broke bread together and you fought 
together and there ended your responsibilities. But since there was no such 
thing as a free lunch, that kind of freedom had a price. Paid in the coin of 
loneliness. 
I stared down at the rocky slope, letting my gaze travel out across the 
sun-baked desert that stretched out unbroken for as far as the eye could see. 
It 
was a lonely place. Somewhere beyond the cobalt-blue horizon, there were huge 
surreal-looking islands built of steel and glass, with noxious black clouds, 
like storms hot through with flames, hovering above them. Purgatory, indeed. 
I 
felt like a lost soul. 
I had never consciously rejected the idea of having roots, of having a home 
and 
family. A place to settle down. The very phrase bespoke a sense of calm and 
peacefulness. Settle down. Relax. Apparently, that was not for me. Not yet. 
Perhaps, not ever. That little biochip was in my brain to stay. It seemed 
ironic. Here I was, huddled in a tiny cave over a trillion miles away from 
anything I knew, and I was feeling lonely-all the while, millions, perhaps 
billions, of people were sharing my experience. 
"Wake up, O'Toole," Breck said. "You were a million miles away." 
"More like a trillion," I replied. "What's the matter? Can't you sleep?" 
He looked at me strangely. "I rarely have difficulty sleeping," he said. 
"I've 
slept three hours. It's enough." 
I stared at him. "What are you talking about?" 
"It's a good thing you weren't under my command when you were in the 
service," 
Breck said dryly. "I would have skinned you alive for falling asleep on guard 
duty." 
"But I never fell asleep!" I protested. "I've been awake all the time, just 
sitting here and thinking ..." 
"And you were not aware that over three hours had passed?" said Breck. 



I shook my head. "What is this, a joke? I relieved you no more than ten or 
fifteen minutes ago! I've been awake all the time!" 
"And you haven't noticed anything unusual? You're telling me that absolutely 
nothing's changed since you relieved me?" Breck said. 
I shook my head, feeling utterly confused. "No, of course not. Why? What are 
you-" 
"You did not see Tyla leave?" he said softly. 
"What?" 
I scrambled to my feet so fast I almost smashed my head on the low ceiling at 
the entrance to the cave. I glanced back into the cave, and after a few 
seconds, 
my eyes became accustomed to the change in light and I saw Higgins curled up 
on 
the ground, asleep. Alone. There was no sign of Tyla. 
I stared at Breck, utterly bewildered. "I know I didn't fall asleep," I said. 
"I 
couldn't have! There has to be another exit from the cave." 
"There isn't," Breck said curtly. 
"But she couldn't have gotten past me without my seeing her!" 
"No, not if you were awake," said Breck. 
"What's going on?" said Higgins, getting up and stretching. 
"Your wife seems to have wandered off again," said Breck. "She has a 
disconcerting habit of coming and going as she pleases." 
"Maybe that's because she's free to come and go as she pleases," Higgins said, 
a 
slight edge to his voice. "Or were you under the impression that she had to 
ask 
your permission?" 
"Now look here, Higgins-" Breck began, but Higgins didn't let him finish. 
"No, you look here, Breck. I’ve had about enough of your paranoid 
insinuations! 
If it wasn't for Tyla, you wouldn't even be here now. You would've died out 
there on the desert. And if Tyla was a shapechanger, she's had more than 
ample 
opportunity to kill us all. If anyone's got reason to be distrustful, believe 
me, friend, it isn't you. I've lived with Tyla and her tribe. I don't know 
you 
from Adam. And what's more . . ." He stopped himself, his gaze focusing 
behind 
us, and we turned quickly to see Tyla standing there and watching us. 
She had come up on us without a sound and she stood at the entrance to the 
cave, 
an animal carcass slung over her shoulders. There was blood on her mouth. She 
dumped her kill onto the ground at the cave entrance, then turned and walked 
away. 
Higgins brushed past us, handing Breck his knife. "You carve," he said. "I'll 
get some wood." 
I had no idea what it was we ate and I was so hungry, I didn't even care. 
Higgins cooked the beast over a fire made from the scrub brush that grew in 
scraggly clumps among the rocks. The wood gave the meat a pungent, extremely 
smoky flavor. I felt like some Neanderthal as I sat near the entrance to the 
cave and tore into a roast haunch, the juices dribbling over my lips onto my 
chin, the grease making my fingers sticky. I never was much of a meat eater 
and, 
given a choice, I'd take seafood or veggies anytime. For all I knew, the 
roast 
mystery meat would either kill us or give me incapacitating stomach cramps, 
but 
at that moment, if Higgins had told me it was some sort of giant slug, I 
would 



have eaten the damn thing just the same. I wondered if the majority of my 
home 
audience was experiencing disgust at my gustatory sensations or a vicarious 
thrill at the way I tore into my meat as if I were some primal savage. 
In any case, I managed to survive the dinner. Or breakfast, or whatever meal 
it 
was. My time sense was thoroughly screwed up. Especially since I had somehow 
lost about three hours. I didn't understand that. And I sure as hell didn't 
like 
it. Breck did not pursue the issue. Perhaps, since no harm seemed to have 
come 
of it, he had decided to forget about it. I was, after all, only an ordinary 
human. Higgins, who was more accustomed to the terrain than I was, had slept 
like a dead man our trek. Maybe Breck thought he was being too hard on me. But 
I 
could not forget about it. It preyed on my mind as we resumed our journey in 
the 
afternoon. 
According to Breck, I had slept about four hours. During that time, I had 
been 
dream-briefed by Mondago. Then I awoke, relieved Breck, sat down with my back 
against the rocks at the cave entrance, and ten or fifteen minutes later, 
Breck 
was telling me that I had fallen asleep on watch and about three hours had 
gone 
by. 
I didn't believe it. 
Not that I thought Breck was lying to me. I knew he wouldn't do that and 
besides, when I looked at the position of the sun, it was clear that much 
more 
than ten or fifteen minutes had gone by. No, what I did not believe was that 
I 
fell asleep. True, I was exhausted, but I'd gotten by on far less sleep 
before 
without nodding off like that. It was possible that I might have dozed off 
without realizing it, but when Breck spoke to me, there had been no sensation 
of 
waking up, that startled feeling when someone wakes you suddenly after you've 
nodded off. I had, in fact, never nodded off. I was convinced of it. From the 
moment I relieved Breck till the moment he spoke to me some three hours later, 
I 
had experienced complete continuity of thought and consciousness-and somehow 
it 
had been "compressed" so that it seemed like only ten or fifteen minutes. 
No, I had not fallen asleep. Something had been done to me. The question was, 
by 
whom? 
If it was Mondago, who was presumably at the controls, then it was some sort 
of 
new wrinkle that he .had never tried before and I could see no purpose to it. 
Breck had told me that, with time, I would become much more aware of 
interface 
and he was right. I didn't think that anyone at Game Control, not even Coles, 
could pull a stunt like that without my at least being aware of something 
being 
done, even if it was only after the fact-as had happened when Cass Daniels 
activated my natural defensive mechanisms and amplified them into an attack 
of 
paranoia which had saved my life. Later on, when I had a chance to think 
about 



it, I could pinpoint the exact moment when it happened and I could recall the 
feeling. But this time, there was nothing. 
It gnawed at me as we climbed higher up into the hills. If someone back at 
Game 
Control was playing with my perceptions, what purpose would it serve? Why 
interfere with an operative out on a mission? Unless, of course, this wasn't 
really happening at all and it was simply one more hallucinact, with Coles 
pressing some new buttons so he could see what happened. I had to admit that 
was 
a possibility, but I could not afford to consider it a probability. I had to 
act 
on the information of my senses-whether it was happening objectively, in real 
life, or subjectively, in my mind, it had to be real for me or else I might 
not 
survive it. At least not with my sanity intact. 
Breck had once told me, with characteristic black humor, that psychos could 
not 
afford to doubt the reality of their perceptions. It was an involuted pun, 
one 
that grimly underscored the thin line between a Pyschodrome pro and a 
psychotic. 
The only difference between our sort of psycho and the real thing was that we 
were better able to handle alternate realities-at least until we crossed over 
that line. I could not consider that a possibility. That way, literally, lay 
madness. 
That left one other explanation. If it wasn't Game Control, and if I wasn't 
going crazy, then it could only have been Tyla. We knew that shapechangers 
could 
read minds. And at least one of them-the ambimorph Coles had code named 
Chameleon-was learning how to use a biochip to send. Tyla could be an 
ambimorph. 
Or maybe it was Higgins. 
What did we really know about him, anyway? It occurred to me that this whole 
thing could be a trap. What if both Higgins and Tyla were shapechangers? What 
better way to divert suspicion from themselves than to have staged that 
confrontation in the Red Zone? The Purgatory settlements had to be infested 
with 
the creatures. And all we had to do was catch one. I felt as if I'd been given 
a 
speargun and told to bring home a fish for dinner-then dumped into the middle 
of 
a school of sharks. 
I had to talk to Breck. I had to convince him that I hadn't simply fallen 
asleep 
on watch. But I had to have a chance to talk with him alone and that would be 
difficult with Tyla and Higgins around. Supposedly, Tyla didn't speak our 
language. However, we had only Higgins's word for that. And if she was a 
shapechanger, she wouldn't need to speak our language. She could simply read 
our 
minds. She could be reading my mind even now . . . 
I stopped short, my heart pounding, my stomach suddenly in knots as paranoia 
washed over me in waves. It was insane. There was absolutely no defense. How 
could you hope to prevail over an enemy who knew what you were thinking? 
"O'Toole?" said Higgins, looking at me strangely. "You all right?" 
"Yeah . . . sure," I said, wondering if he could read my mind, if he was 
human 
or a creature that could assume any shape at will, leading Breck and me to 
some 
ungodly fate out in the wilds of Purgatory. 
"You sure?" he said. "You look a little pale. You want to rest?" 



"No. Let's go on." 
Breck was watching me, the expression on his face unreadable. Did he know what 


was thinking? Was he thinking the same thing? Or was he using his formidable 
.mental discipline to mask his thoughts in a way that I could not? 
As I hurried to catch up with the others, I wondered what my audience at home 
was thinking. Their interface with me wasn't telepathic, after all, but 
telempathic, which meant that they could share perceptions with me and a 
great 
many of my feelings, too. As I had learned, some psychos "projected" far more 
strongly than did others and I was one of them. So even though my home 
audience 
did not know what I was thinking, they could undoubtedly infer a lot about my 
thoughts from the emotions that I projected through the interface. And in 
that 
sense, I wondered if I was not a two-edged sword for Coles, on one hand 
acting 
as his eyes and ears-the ultimate intelligence agent, a sort of remote, 
ambulatory sensor bank through which he could pick up information-and on the 
other, an unpredictable human link between a home audience that did not 
suspect 
how it was being manipulated and a secret agency that was hiding in plain 
sight, 
playing a deadly game within a game that was far more ominous than anybody 
realized. 
The day grew late and the sun began to sink behind the hills, staining the 
sky 
incarnadine and violet. We made camp in a little valley created by a ridge, a 
rocky outcropping that rose up several hundred feet, curled around in a 
semicircular shape and leveled off gradually at either end. It was a spot 
protected from the mountain winds, which made our situation somewhat more 
comfortable. We stacked rocks to create improvised bunkers that were open on 
the 
top and we put our bags down inside these makeshift shelters, on top of beds 
made of piled scrub-tree branches. It wasn't until Higgins started to make a 
fire that I noticed Tyla had gone off again. She reappeared by the time 
Higgins 
had the fire going, threw down the freshly killed carcass of a creature that 
looked like a cross between a small antelope and a hairy mountain goat, and 
imperiously departed once again somewhere off into the darkness, where she 
wouldn't have to witness the distasteful spectacle of males eating, and 
ruining 
perfectly good flesh by roasting it. I was beginning to feel seriously 
inadequate. 
"You want me to take the first watch?" Higgins said after we had eaten. "Or 
wouldn't you feel comfortable unless one of you. was awake and watching me?" 
I glanced at him sharply. He met my gaze with a wry smile. 
"I don't have to be a mind reader to know what you're thinking," he said. "In 
your place, I'd be thinking the same thing. Is he or isn't he?" 
"And what would you conclude?" said Breck, leaning back against a rock and 
lighting up a bang stick with a glowing twig from the campfire. 
"I'd think that if I mm an ambimorph, then I probably wanted you alive, since 
I've had ample opportunity to kill you." His eyes glinted with amusement. "It 
wouldn't necessarily convince me that I wasn't an ambimorph, but it might at 
least keep me from losing any sleep over it." 
Breck grinned. "There's a certain fatalistic logic to that," he said. "But to 
play the devil's advocate, what keeps you from losing sleep over the fact 
that 
O'Toole and I might not be what we seem?" 
"The same reason," Higgins said, with a shrug. "If you wanted me dead, you'd 



hardly have needed to go to so much trouble. And if you were shapechangers 
who 
had successfully assumed the identities of a couple of government agents, I 
can't think what in hell you'd need me for." 
"Good point," said Breck, nodding. 
"Paranoia's a lot like a disease, isn't it?" said Higgins thoughtfully. "It's 
catching." 
"It can be," Breck replied, inhaling deeply on his bang stick. "However, your 
wife seems to be immune to it." 
"Her people don't worry about things the way we do," Higgins said. "Not so 
I've 
noticed, anyway. Their lives seem to have more immediacy than ours. They 
simply 
take things as they come." 
"Such as these sudden manifestations of their gods?" said Breck. 
Higgins was silent for a moment as he stared into the embers of the fire. 
"I'm 
not really sure what they think about that. Outside of what Tyla's told me, I 
haven't been able to get much of a reading on that situation." 
"What do you mean?" I said, frowning. "I'd think you, of all people, would be 
in 
the best position to know how they felt about that." 
Higgins shook his head and added some wood to the fire. "You're assuming 
they're 
as open with their feelings and opinions as we tend to be. They're not. In 
some 
ways, they're a lot more direct than we are, but in other ways, they're a 
great 
deal more private." He glanced at Breck. "Questions we might consider too 
personal, such as her questions about how you lost your arm, are perfectly 
acceptable among them. But questions that ask for value judgments, that's a 
different story. You won't get very far." 
"You mean they don't think in abstract terms?" I said. 
"No, I didn't say that," said Higgins. "I meant that abstract thoughts are 
highly personal to them. Different people-and different cultures-have 
different 
thresholds of privacy. Tyla's people are simply private about different 
things." 
"So what are you saying, that Nomads keep their opinions to themselves?" I 
said. 
"I guess you could put it that way," said Higgins, with a smile. "You could 
say 
that they call them as they see them, but they take great pains not to be 
judgmental. There's a very formal sort of courtliness about them, which 
admittedly sounds strange when you're talking about primitive 
hunter-gatherers, 
but I can't describe it any other way." 
"I wonder what they think of us?" said Breck. 
"They don't understand us," Higgins said sadly. "We just don't think the 
same." 
He sighed. "They don't realize what's going to happen to them." He suddenly 
changed the subject. "Well, so what's the deal? Do you want me to take a 
watch 
or should I just get a good night's sleep while you two soldiers take turns 
standing guard over me?" 
"Take the first watch," Breck said. "I'll stand the second." 
I glanced at him, but I didn't say anything. I just stayed awake until 
Higgins 
woke Breck to relieve him. I waited until Higgins had crawled back into his 
stacked rock shelter, then I quietly crawled out and joined Breck at the 



campfire. 
"We need to talk," I said softly. 
"You think I made a mistake, trusting him to stand watch?" said Breck. 
"It's not like you," I said. 
"No, it isn't, is it?" he said. And then he grinned. "I was awake all the 
time. 
Actually, I rather like him, but I still don't trust him." 
"Well, that wasn't what I wanted to talk to you about anyway." 
"I know. You were going to insist that you hadn't fallen asleep last night, 
that 
either Tyla or Higgins had somehow hypnotized you or something to that 
effect. 
Yes, I know. And I believe you." 
I stared at him in the firelight. "Then why did you-" 
"Discipline, O'Toole, discipline. I wanted to think that you had fallen 
asleep, 
in the event that anyone was eavesdropping, in a manner of speaking. Notice 
that 
Tyla still has not returned. Higgins doesn't seem to find that unusual. 
Perhaps 
she's out stalking or baying at the moon, but whatever she's doing, I feel 
somewhat safer with my thoughts when she is not around." 
"Are you saying she's a telepath?" I said. "She's one of them, an ambimorph?" 
"It's possible," said Breck, "but somehow I don't think so. Earlier, I felt a 
sort of ... tug. Very hesitant and crude, but definitely probing. Even Coles 
is 
more subtle than that. And if it was an ambimorph, you can rest assured I 
wouldn't have felt anything at all. No, I'm inclined to accept Tyla at face 
value. However, there is no question that she's telepathic to some degree. 
Which 
raises some interesting questions. Is this something all the Nomads share or 
is 
she an anomaly? And why didn't Higgins tell us about it? Or does he even 
know?" 
"I don't like the way she keeps wandering off," I said. 
"I wouldn't complain about it too much," Breck said. "She's kept us fed." 
"And that's another thing," I said. 
Breck glanced at me and raised his eyebrows. "You'd prefer going hungry?" 
I grimaced. "That's not it. It's just the way she does it. Shows up with some 
dead animal and throws it down on the ground before us like we're a bunch of 
dogs or something. Here, boys, have some meat. Here's some bones for you." 
Breck-repressed a smile. "I see," he said, with mock solemnity. "You'd rather 
she prepared it properly, skinned it and cut it up into nice steaks and 
chops, 
asked you how you liked it done, and then served it to you on a plate with 
some 
potatoes on the side, so you could wolf it down, belch, and say, 'What's for 
dessert, dear?' " 
"Christ, is that what I'm doing?" I said. "My male ego's being threatened?" 
"Perhaps just little, eh?" said Breck. 
"Perhaps," I said sourly. 
"O'Toole, sometimes I have a hard time understanding you," said Breck. "That 
rather lethal young woman back in Tokyo is about as subservient as a shark 
and 
she could break you in half without even working up a sweat. We've both seen 
her 
kill with her bare hands, yet she doesn't threaten you and Tyla does?" 
"Kami never threw my food down on the floor," I said. 
Breck shook his head in exasperation. "Go to sleep, O'Toole. I have more 
important things to think about than your tender sensibilities. Get some 



rest. 
I'll wake you in about four hours." 
I didn't remember falling asleep. In fact, I wasn't even sure I had fallen 
asleep. I remembered Breck waking me to take my turn on watch. I remembered 
adding some wood to the fire and settling back against a rock to chew on some 
of 
that roast hairball or whatever it was Tyla had brought us for our supper, and 


remember sitting there and sort of drifting, resting and feeling 
unaccountably 
relaxed, my attention occupied with the utter impossibility of our situation 
and 
other cheery thoughts like that and then suddenly it was starting to get 
light 
and it couldn't possibly have been starting to get light because I knew damn 
well that dawn wouldn't come for about another three hours. Yet the sky was 
starting to get smoky gray and streaked with the silver aura of predawn light 
and the morning mist was thick upon the ground. I told myself that I couldn't 
have fallen asleep, I simply couldn't have, and I stared dumbfounded at the 
cold 
ashes of the fire, which had been burning brightly only moments ago-or what 
seemed like only moments ago- and then I saw them standing there like 
specters 
in the mist, motionless, like dead warriors descended from Valhalla. 
I didn't move. I sat there, staring at them, ethereal barbarians wreathed in 
the 
chilly morning mist. Long, thick, silver-streaked black hair falling to just 
above their waists, framing bronze-colored faces with gaunt, chiseled 
features 
and prominent jaws; curved vampirelike fangs protruding slightly over their 
lower lips; eyes of gold that seemed to glow as if illuminated from behind by 
some hellish fire in the brain. 
They were dressed in furs and skins, armed with long-shafted, stone-tipped 
spears and crude stone axes. I recalled what Higgins said about the 
matriarchal 
structure of the Nomad tribes. 
Something about how once we'd seen a Nomad male, we'd never again think of 
them 
as being subservient. I saw them, and I understood. 
I had no idea how long they had been standing there. For that matter, I had 
no 
idea how long I had been sitting there. I had once again experienced that 
peculiar time-compression, as if I'd been somehow frozen in a limbo while the 
rest of time went on without me. For a moment, no, longer than a moment, I 
wasn't sure if I was awake or if it was a dream. It was a moment stuck in 
time. 
I sat there, motionless, staring at them with wonder as they stood silently 
in 
the gently undulating mist, watching me. The scene must have resembled a 
Biblical engraving by Doré, a sleeping prophet visited by angels. 
"Breck . . ."I said, not very loudly, and then I cleared my throat and said 
his 
name again, a little louder, though I was suddenly afraid to raise my voice. 
"Breck!" 
I heard a sound behind me and I turned to see Breck sitting up behind his 
stacked rock shelter, his plasma pistol in his hand, and then Higgins was 
beside 
him, saying, "Don't!" 
Tyla walked out past me toward her tribesmen and stopped before them. I had 
no 



idea when she had returned. She came up to the male who stood closest to 
me-there were about fifteen of them in all-and she flowed into his arms, 
pressing up against him, her hands running up and down his flanks, and for a 
moment, I thought that they were kissing, but they weren't. They were 
sniffing. 
Not like animals investigating one another with short, quick inhalations, but 
more like oenophiles languorously smelling the bouquet of an exquisite 
vintage 
wine. He closed his eyes as she rubbed her cheek against his, and with his 
lips 
slightly parted, his sharp fangs gleaming, he gently inhaled her natural, 
musky 
scent while she buried her face in his long mane. It was the most erotically 
sensual display I'd ever seen and I simply had to look away. 
"Her senior husband," Higgins said, beside me. "His name is Garr. I'll greet 
him 
first, but don't do what I do. The proper greeting between unrelated males is 
right hand held up, palm out, as if you were taking an oath. Wait for him to 
touch your fingertips, then maintain contact until he takes his hand away. 
It's 
important that you look directly into his eyes, nowhere else. If this were 
his 
camp, you would go to him, but since it's our camp, wait till he approaches 
you." 
I waited until Tyla brought Garr over to where we stood. The others all 
remained 
standing where they were. None of them had moved so much as a muscle. They 
looked like statues. Higgins stepped forward and placed his hand flat against 
Garr's chest, over his heart. Garr performed the same gesture and they stood 
there for a moment, hands on each other's chests, and then Tyla brought Garr 
to 
stand in front of me. She glanced quickly at Higgins and he nodded-I guess to 
let her know that I'd been instructed properly-and I held up my right hand, 
as 
if I were about to swear to tell the truth and nothing but, so help me God. 
Garr raised his own right hand and gently touched fingertips with me. The 
directness of that golden gaze was disconcerting, but I managed to maintain 
eye 
contact. I'd known some champion deep gazers in my time, such as Hakim 
Saqqara, 
who could literally make shivers run up and down your spine with just one 
look, 
and my friend Kami, who could lock eyes with you and stare right down to the 
bottom of your soul. If it hadn't been for that kind of practice in the past, 
I 
don't think I'd have been able to meet Garr's golden gaze without looking 
away. 
But it was Garr whose concentration wavered when he went to touch fingertips 
with Breck. 
Breck had taken off his glove and he kept his face perfectly expressionless 
as 
he held up his hand for Garr to touch. It was interesting to watch. 
Apparently, 
Tyla hadn't briefed her senior husband, as if she wanted to see how he'd 
react. 
He was a trooper. I had no idea how, but he was able to tell at once that 
Breck 
was somehow different from Higgins and me. Perhaps there was a subtle 
difference 
in our scent or something, but he knew somehow that Breck was a different 



breed. 
Or hybreed, to be more precise. I could see the flicker of uncertainty as, for 
a 
split second, he hesitated, then he stretched out his hand . . . and 
absolutely 
froze when he realized that Breck's hand wasn't flesh and blood. 
For a moment, he was thoroughly at sea. He had no idea what to do. He wasn't 
human, but the expression on his face was unmistakably one of complete 
dismay. 
Breck remained utterly motionless, his face deadpan. I could see that Garr 
was 
dying to ask Tyla what the hell was going on, but it seemed that form 
prevented 
it. It was fascinating. Tyla had no compunctions whatsoever about asking 
Breck 
what the deal with his hand was and Higgins had warned us that the Nomads 
were 
direct, but here, quite clearly, something else was happening. I held my 
breath. 
Then Garr slowly touched Breck's nysteel fingers, very gently, and the 
expression on his face was one of profound sorrow. Then he took his hand away. 
I heard Higgins exhale heavily beside me. "Fool," he whispered savagely. "I'm 
a 
complete and utter fool! Would you believe I forgot all about his hand?" 
"Is everything all right?" I said, under my breath. 
"I honestly don't know," said Higgins. "Tyla threw Garr a curve by not 
telling 
him about it. Did you see how she was watching him? She did it on purpose." 
"Why?" 
Garr spoke before Higgins could reply. His voice was startlingly deep and 
sonorous, his words were addressed to Breck, though of course neither Breck 
nor 
I could understand them. There was very little known about the Nomads of 
Purgatory and there were no language programs that Coles could have fed us. 
Higgins translated. "He humbly apologizes for hesitating in his greeting," he 
told Breck. "He says that he perceived at once you were a warrior, but that 
your 
... uh ... your 'carved hand' is an, uh, artifact he had never before seen 
and 
he was startled. He apologizes again for his rudeness and expresses his 
deepest 
sorrow at your . . . your having been rendered ... uh ... hell, Breck, he 
doesn't understand . . ." 
"What?" said Breck. 
"At your having been rendered crippled and useless," Higgins finished 
awkwardly. 
Breck was about to reply, but Tyla spoke first. Her tone was sharp, but it 
did 
not seem to be a rebuke. More like a correction. Garr glanced from her to 
Breck, 
a slight frown on his features. 
He said something and Higgins translated. 
"He's speaking to Tyla," Higgins said. "He said, but humans have no claws. 
How 
can this one, who has not even a hand, possess claws sharper than mine?" 
Tyla said one word to Breck. 
"Show him," Higgins translated. 
Breck wordlessly held up his hand and rapidly snicked out his blades, one 
after 
the other. Garr's eyes grew wide and he sucked in his breath sharply. He 



stared 
at Breck with wonder, reached out for his hand, then hesitated, speaking to 
Breck once again. 
"Is it permitted?" Higgins translated. 
"Tell him he's welcome, but to be careful," Breck said. "The blades are 
razor-sharp." 
Higgins translated to Garr and slowly, almost reverently, Garr took Breck's 
artificial hand in both of his, feeling it, lightly touching the incredibly 
strong nysteel blades. As he examined it, the others all approached, staring 
with equal fascination. Tyla spoke to them. 
"Oh, hell," said Higgins. 
"What is it?" Breck said. 
"She's telling them the story of how you lost your arm. She's passing on your 
rather facetious comment about how you used it as a weapon and beat to death 
the 
man who took it from you. Only she's embellishing somewhat on the details, 
I'm 
afraid." 
Breck grinned. 
"She's also telling them that you have the true soul of a warrior. That when 
you 
lost your arm, you had it replaced with one that was a weapon, so that you 
could 
continue to be useful to the tribe. She says that is the true test of a 
warrior, 
one who continues to fight for the good of the tribe until there is nothing 
left 
of him at all." 
"I've heard that somewhere before," said Breck. 
"I'm sure you have," I replied wryly. "Probably from Coles." 


EIGHT 


It was probably a good thing that Purgatory was going to be placed under 
quarantine, because otherwise I shudder to think what would have happened to 
the 
Nomads. Humanity would have descended upon them with a vengeance. Already, we 
had started dumping our garbage on their world; we'd brought in some of our 
dirtiest industries, our most toxic wastes, and given time, we would have 
started exporting our most undesirable product-people. 
True, there were already people on Purgatory, but they were there only for 
the 
money and they didn't really give a damn about the natives. That made them 
far 
less dangerous than the ones who would have really cared about the Nomads. 
The 
lure would have been irresistible. Here were savages to civilize, primitives 
to 
save. We have always been real big on saving. We'd been saving each other for 
centuries and considering how seriously we'd been at it, you'd think we'd 
have 
gotten the whole job done by now. But we hadn't, partly because the various 
savers could never get their act together collectively- which was, you'll 
pardon 
the expression, a blessing-and partly because some of us didn't feel like 
being 
saved. But there were very few of us who seemed at peace simply being the way 
we 
were. The sad fact was that most of us required answers to some of life's 
more 



complicated questions and it was upsetting to hear that in a complex world, 
there were no simple answers. Simple answers were infinitely more attractive. 
You could get more people to listen to a simple answer, because a complex one 
confused them and their attention span was ludicrously short at best. So keep 
it 
simple, set your hook and reel 'em in. 
Clearly, the Nomads needed saving. They needed the benefits of our civilizing 
influence and our spiritual guidance. Their lives were elegantly in harmony 
with 
their surroundings. Something was obviously wrong here. What they needed was 
modern clothing, box warren apartments, mass transit, fast food, and 
biochips. 
In time, we would have given it all to them and, in the process, taken away 
their culture and their land. The am-bimorphs were probably the best thing 
that 
ever happened to them. 
This was seditious thinking for a man in my position, a psychic cog in the 
machine of the multinational overmind, but then I was a reluctant cog at best 
and the fact that I was still able to think seditious thoughts was one of the 
few things that kept me sane. But, unless you had all the sensitivity of a 
real-estate developer, it was hard not to think such thoughts when confronted 
with the lifeway of the Nomads. 
Their camp was in a high valley ringed by mountains and as we descended the 
trail that led down to the verdant valley floor, winding along a swiftly 
flowing 
river fed by a roaring cataract, it felt as if we were stepping back in time 
to 
a period in Earth's prehistory. Their "houses"-low, dome-shaped shelters made 
of 
hides and scrub thatch-brought to mind some old Celtic village from the 
Bronze 
Age. The dwellings were spaced fairly wide apart, in a rough circle around a 
larger central structure that was probably used for tribal meetings. A crude 
sort of earthworks had been thrown up around the camp, which seemed to 
indicate 
some competition among the tribes, or perhaps it was only there to keep the 
beasties out. We went in through the main gate and immediately became the 
center 
of attention as the entire tribe turned out to look us over. 
All the clichéd expressions sprang to mind as I returned their scrutiny-noble 
savages, fierce pride, primitive grandeur, and all that-but the truth was 
that 
none of those expressions really did the Nomads justice. Imagine a cross 
between 
Crazy Horse and Lucifer. The result would be something both magnificent and 
frightening. The result would be a Purgatory Nomad. 
As Higgins had already explained, Nomad was our term for them. They thought 
of 
themselves in terms of their tribal identities. Tyla's tribe was Dyla-ken. 
Higgins explained that this translated roughly as "Dyla's people." They took 
the 
name from their tribal matriarch, Tyla's grandmother, and her mother before 
her 
and so forth. If Dyla were to die, then Tyla's mother, Noli, was the next in 
line and at a sort of ceremony of investiture, she would add to her birth 
name 
the name of the matriarch, though she would be addressed only as Dyla. 
Eventually, Tyla would also take on the name, using it as a prefix to her 
own. 
In this manner, the name had become a sort of title. 



However, names among the Nomads played a more colorful and descriptive role 
than 
among humans and apparently things could get a little complicated. Birth 
names 
were usually short and simple, chosen from among family names, but from 
there, 
it was anything goes. The next set of names a Nomad was saddled with depended 
on 
some significant or possibly even an amusing incident in his or her young 
life. 
Garr, for example, was actually Kol-Ap-Garr-Hoc-Altani, which Higgins 
translated 
as "Kol, Small Killer of Large Stones." There was, of course, a story that 
went 
along with this, as there was a story that went with every Nomad name. 
It seemed that when he was a child, Garr-then known only by his birth name, 
Kol-had been playing hunter with some other children and had attacked a 
fairly 
good-sized boulder, pretending that it was some local equivalent of a woolly 
mammoth or something. He had struck it a strong two-handed blow with a stone 
ax 
belonging to one of his fathers and the shock traveling up his arms had put 
him 
on his ass and made his head spin. However, he must have struck the boulder 
on 
the exact spot of a flaw, because the damn thing cracked and split apart, 
enhancing his reputation no end among his playmates. Hence, 
Kol-Ap-Garr-Hoc-Altani, "Kol, Small Killer of Large Stones," which he had 
informally shortened to Garr, which meant simply "Killer"-a name with a 
considerably more ominous interpretation, but given his size, apparently no 
one 
felt inclined to nitpick. 
I learned all this, and a few other pertinent bits of information, while we 
waited in the large central structure for the tribal meeting to formally 
convene. Everyone, or most everyone, it seemed, was already there and we were 
now waiting on the matriarch, who was being fashionably late. I half expected 
to 
hear a skirling of wood flutes or a roll of hide-covered drums announcing her 
arrival, which I guessed would be in some sort of a sedan chair. I was 
surprised 
instead when a Nomad female who didn't appear much older than Tyla walked in 
without ceremony and sat down cross-legged on the ground, about fifteen feet 
away from the fire pit dug in the center. At once, the other members of the 
tribe gathered on either side of her, forming a circle around the fire pit 
which 
we were meant to join. We sat down and the fire was lit. I stared across the 
flames at Dyla, the matriarch of Tyla's tribe. 
She was dressed simply, in the same short animal hide shift worn by the other 
females, and her hair was more silver than dark. For a grandmother, she wore 
her 
years extremely well. But then, what was old for a Nomad? I had no idea. I'd 
have to remember to ask Higgins. At the moment, instinct told me to keep my 
mouth shut, because everyone else was being quiet and you could cut the 
silence 
with a knife. 
Ever sit in the same room with about a hundred people and have absolutely no 
one 
make a sound? Well, perhaps in church, but even in church people tend to 
cough 
and shift around and rustle hymn books and there's always at least one 



anarchist 
who breaks wind loudly enough to shake the rafters. This was serious silence. 
Nobody moved. Nobody breathed. Then Dyla started speaking. 
Her voice wasn't very loud, but it was firm and full of confident authority. 
She 
exchanged a few words of greeting with her granddaughter, then she spoke 
briefly 
to Higgins, who replied in her own language. I didn't know what was said, but 
she seemed to regard him with the patient approval of a teacher toward a 
pupil 
who was making progress. Then she turned to look at us, and even from a 
distance 
of about twenty feet, that golden stare was difficult to deal with. I felt as 
if 
fuzzy caterpillars were crawling around inside the back of my head, tickling 
the 
gray matter as they slithered across my mind. 
I didn't know if I was really feeling that or if I was just imagining I felt 
that. Was the feeling self-induced by an attack of paranoia or was it 
something 
she was doing to me? Or was it something that evil bastard, Mondago, was 
doing 
to me back at Game Control? I couldn't tell and that was scaring me. These 
little anxiety attacks were coming more and more frequently lately and the 
fact 
that I'd managed to keep it all together so far wasn't all that reassuring. 
I knew only too well that the breakdown rate among psychos was phenomenally 
high. My morbid curiosity had led me to investigate a number of those cases. 
In 
each of them anxiety attacks and a growing sense of paranoia had increased 
exponentially until the mind went boom . . . and it seemed no one was really 
certain what happened after that, where those poor bastards disappeared to or 
what was done with them. 
In fact, the idea of the mind "going boom" raised a very nasty question-could 
that happen literally? Could Coles have slipped a microscopic bomb into my 
brain 
that would explode upon reception of a certain coded tachyon signal? Or would 
he 
ever need to do that? Could he get into my driver's seat and make me shoot 
myself or dive headlong off a cliff or beat my head against the ground until 
it 
turned to jelly? 
I suddenly realized that I had drifted off into another paranoid fantasy, a 
sort 
of mini-fugue, a real doozy this time. I blinked and shook my head to clear 
it. 
Dyla was still staring at me without expression. Jesus, how long had I been 
sitting there, glassy-eyed and slack-jawed, thinking those nightmarish 
thoughts? 
I shot a sidelong glance at Breck and saw that he was staring straight ahead, 
sitting perfectly still, completely motionless except for a slight tic at the 
corner of his mouth. I opened my mouth to say his name, but I couldn't seem 
to 
do much more than part my lips slightly and make very faint croaking sounds. 
I felt sweat trickling down my back. What the hell was happening here? A 
horrifying idea occurred to me, a terrible suspicion that Dyla was not a 
Nomad 
at all, but an ambimorph, that they were all ambimorphs, that Higgins had led 
us 
into a trap, that he was one of them, and in a moment they were going to 



start 
turning into giant snakes and slithering toward us, their jaws unhinged, 
fangs 
gleaming, dripping poison ... 
And suddenly the fear was gone-Bam-'- just like that, vanished in an instant, 
and I was staring into the flames of the crackling fire in the pit, seeing 
forms 
moving in the background through a veil of heat shimmers. My time sense was 
confused again. My vision was a little blurry. It seemed very, very warm. The 
flames were dancing and the heat shimmers above them were dancing and the 
figures beyond them were dancing and there were strange sounds filling the 
air-the ethereal, high-pitched, whistling whine of bone flutes, like the 
cries 
of sea gulls on the wind. For a moment, I thought I heard Mondago calling me, 
but it was only a distant echo in my mind that dissipated in that haunting 
birdlike music. 
A young Nomad female stood before me, looking down at me, legs spread apart, 
hips rolling gently, arms hanging straight down at her sides, fingers spread 
rigidly apart. Her head was inclined toward me and her jet-black hair hung 
long 
and loose down to her waist, only partially covering her naked breasts. She 
was 
wearing nothing except a sort of brief animal-hide loincloth and her golden 
skin 
gleamed with a sheen of perspiration. Her lips were slightly parted and I 
could 
see the tips of her two large pointed canine teeth. Her eyes were like yellow 
gold in firelight. 
Several other couples were dancing slowly around the fire, moving in a sort 
of 
surreal minuet to the intertwining, whistling melodies of the bone flutes, a 
cacophony of sounds like a bird chorus coming from a distance, as if heard 
from 
across a lake. The couples didn't touch. They stood close to one another, 
undulating gently, swaying like trees bending in the wind, almost touching, 
and 
then rolling back, and moving in and circling slightly, then almost touching 
once again . . . 
The Nomad girl reached out and pulled me to my feet. I stood and started 
imitating her movements, a little awkwardly at first, then falling into the 
rhythm of the bone flutes, their rising and falling whistles having a sort of 
ebb and flow, like surf crashing on a distant shore. Her gaze was locked with 
mine and I couldn't look away. Nor did I want to. The smoke from the fire 
filled 
the interior of the lodge, making my eyes smart. The temperature kept rising. 
In 
moments, it seemed, I was soaked with sweat. The wood they were burning had 
some 
sort of pungent, musky scent-or was that her scent?-that somehow made me 
think 
of the frankincense burned by the Russian Orthodox archbishops of my 
ancestors 
during their somber, melancholy services. I almost seemed to hear them 
chanting 
in their ancient Church Slavonic, the basso profundo voices of the deacons 
rising up from deep in my subconscious, memories rising not from me, but 
through 
me, from all those who had gone before me, from the long-suffering peasants 
on 
my mother's side to the pagan Celts on my father's. The Byzantine intonations 



of 
the bishops seemed to segue into the stentorian, guttural chanting of 
white-robed Druid priests, marching slowly in torchlit procession to an altar 
set in the center of a circle of high stones. A pale-limbed girl with hair as 
red as fire was held down on the slab, her green eyes wide with terror as the 
crude stone knife was raised-
and her sharp claws raked across my chest, leaving thin red trails that wept 
blood. I was naked, on my back, with the Nomad girl straddling me, her long, 
coarse hair, like a horse's mane, whipping me as she rolled her head with 
each 
savage thrust of her hips. Her hands gripped my shoulders and I felt her 
claws 
breaking my skin, digging deep, and I screamed, though not only with pain, a 
scream that seemed to catch somewhere in my throat and sound only in my mind, 
echoing inside my head and bouncing off a cacophony of images from a past 
that 
was completely alien to me, and yet, at the same time, hauntingly familiar. 
"Good morning," Breck said. "How's the newlywed?" 
I opened my eyes and saw him sitting cross-legged beside the pile of furs I 
lay 
on, a mocking smile on his face. 
"What?" I croaked, my voice sounding hideous. 
I tried to push myself up, but I collapsed almost immediately. My entire body 
was sore. I felt as if I'd run a marathon and then been forced to turn around 
and do it all again because I hadn't done it fast enough. I felt as if I'd 
gone 
eight rounds with the heavyweight champion of the world with my hands tied 
behind my back. I felt as if I'd been-
Jesus! I sat bolt upright and the entire room started spinning. Breck caught 
me 
and steadied me with his arm around my shoulders. 
"Easy there, son," he said. "You'd best take things a little slowly for a 
while." 
I looked down at myself and immediately squeezed my eyes shut. I was stark 
naked 
and my chest and thighs were covered with claw marks. My hips were bruised 
and 
there were thin trails of dried blood caked on my stomach. I looked as if I'd 
been mauled by a leopard. Actually, not exactly mauled, but ... 
"Oh, God," I groaned. "Don't tell me . . ." 
"One of these days, O'Toole, you'll have to explain to me about this 
attraction 
you seem to have for savage, predatory females." Breck pursed his lips 
thoughtfully. "Perhaps you appeal to their maternal instincts." 
"What the hell happened?" I managed to croak. 
"You mean you really don't remember?" 
"Goddammit, Breck, this isn't funny!" I looked around at the inside of the 
tiny 
lodge. "Where the hell are we?" 
"Your honeymoon suite, it seems," said Breck. "Tyla's family was gracious 
enough 
to loan it to you, seeing as how you married her little sister when you did 
the 
mating dance with her last night." 
I groaned again and fell back on the furs, pulling them up over me. "Jesus. I 
can't believe it. Where were you while all this was happening? Why the hell 
didn't you stop me?" 
Breck shrugged. "Well, after all, you are over twenty-one and I didn't really 
think it was my place to interfere." 
"So help me, Breck, if I had enough energy to make a fist, I'd punch you in 



the 
mouth," I said weakly. 
"All right, I'm sorry," Breck said, with a smile. "But you must admit that 
this 
situation is not without its comic aspect." 
"Notice I'm not laughing." 
"Duly noted," Breck said. "In fact, I couldn't have stopped what happened any 
more than you could. I've had a rather busy night myself, if not quite as 
active." He smirked, then caught himself. "Sorry. Actually your new wife is 
extremely concerned about you. Tali is young and apparently very energetic. 
She 
was afraid she might have killed you. She's with Tyla and Higgins at the 
moment, 
being instructed in the proper care and treatment of her fragile human 
spouse." 
"You really find this amusing, don't you, you miserable bastard?" I said. 
"Where're my clothes?" 
Wordlessly, he held up what was left of my shirt. It was in tatters. His 
mouth 
started to twitch and he struggled to keep it contained, but it was too much 
for 
him and he lost it, dissolving into laughter. I wanted to kill him. 
A moment later, he got himself back under control. "I'm sorry, O'Toole," he 
said, shaking his head. "I truly am. It's just that-" and he started to laugh 
once more, but this time he managed to fight it down. He looked away, cleared 
his throat, took several deep breaths, and turned back to me again. "We 
really 
do have much to talk about," he said. 
"Damn you," I said. "You should have done something! I simply can't believe 
it! 
I remember some of what happened, but it's . . . it's as if I was drugged or 
something. Breck, I can't be married! You've got to tell Higgins, he's got to 
explain it to ... what's her name again?" 
"You cad," said Breck. 
"Dammit, Breck-" 
"Her name is Tali," he said. "And you can explain things to her yourself. She 
can speak English, after a fashion." 
"She ... she what?" 
"Here," said Breck, tossing me some hides. "Put these on while I go get you 
some 
breakfast. Though she finds the idea quite appalling, Tali has actually 
agreed 
to burn some meat for you. Even Higgins is impressed. In this culture, that's 
akin to a princess agreeing to debase herself before the coachman. She must 
really like you. There must be more to you than meets the eye." 
I glared at him as he went out to get me something to eat and then I started 
dressing in the hides he'd left me. When I was done, I looked absurd, as if I 
were on my way to a masquerade party. I was in fairly good shape, but in the 
outsize hides, I looked like some sort of undernourished caveman. Or perhaps 
a 
cyberpunk in drag. A few moments later, Breck came back with some food, which 
he 
had promised we would eat out of sight of the Nomads. Higgins, it seemed, 
ever 
the complete xenobiologist, had learned to eat his meat raw with the other 
males. 
"I've heard from Mondago," Breck said, as he bit into his roast beast. "He's 
been absolutely frantic and Coles is in a state, as well. It seems they 
couldn't 
get in touch with us. Mondago kept trying repeatedly, but he could not 



establish 
contact." 
"I seem to remember Mondago calling to me last night," I said, "during the 
tribal meeting or ceremony or whatever it was-" 
"Did it sound as if he were calling from a great distance, his voice sort of 
muffled?" 
"More like a distant echo," I said. "Then it wasn't just my imagination?" 
Breck shook his head. "No, I heard it, too. And after a while, it sort of 
faded 
away. They blocked him out, you see." 
I frowned. "What do you mean, they blocked him out?" And then it sank in 
suddenly and my jaw dropped as I stared at Breck with disbelief. "They 
blocked 
him out?" 
Breck nodded. "I don't really understand it, but it seems that what the 
Nomads 
did was to telepathically 'insulate' our minds, effectively jamming the 
tachyon 
broadcast and reception." 
"But . . . but how?" I said, astonished. 
"That" said Breck, "is what our friend Coles would give his right arm to 
know." 
"Did Higgins know about this?" 
"How would he know? The Nomads have never been confronted with biochips 
before. 
He knew about their being telepathic, though." Breck grimaced. "It seems he 
neglected to inform us of that little detail." 
I shook my head. "I don't understand." 
"It's simple enough," said Breck. "He's on their side. Not against us, 
specifically, but against what's being done on Purgatory. And he realized 
that 
we could help him." 
"So this whole thing about ambimorphs playing gods among the Nomads was a 
setup?" 
Breck shook his head. "No, he claims that's real enough and Dyla backs him up. 
I 
spent most of last night talking with them. It was absolutely fascinating, I 
wish you could have been there, but you were . . . otherwise engaged." 
"Don't start," I said, pointing at him. 
He grinned. "Have some meat, you need to keep your strength up." 
"Very funny. I'm still waiting for you to explain what this is all about. 
What 
does Higgins think we can do for him? Where do the ambimorphs fit in? And why 
the hell was it necessary for me to marry ..." 
'Tali," Breck prompted. 
"Yeah," I said, feeling my face flush. "It couldn't have just been my boyish 
charm. Compared to the males around here, I'm downright anemic. So why?" 
"At the risk of wounding your tender ego," Breck said, "it was not love at 
first 
sight. It has to do with their customs and traditions, which require sexual 
bonding in order to ... well, it's rather complicated. I'll explain it to you 
later. For the moment, let's simply say that the reasons for your marriage 
were 
primarily political, although Tali does seem to have taken to you. But you 
need 
not concern yourself. It's a serious matter, to be sure, but it isn't quite 
the 
same as marriage in our society, as Higgins has already pointed out. In fact. 
Tali has something like fifteen husbands already." 
"Fifteen?" 



"I understand that's a conservative number for a female in her position. 
She's 
being groomed to take her place in the matriarchy, along with Tyla," Breck 
explained. "And to accept responsibilities far greater than any matriarch has 
ever had to undertake before. Which is why she's been learning English 
telepathically from Higgins. Sort of on the principle of know your enemy." 
"Meaning us," I said. 
"Meaning us. It seems we never learn from our mistakes. We underestimated the 
creatures we found on Draconis 9 and now we've done the same thing with the 
Nomads. We wrote them off as primitive nomadic tribes, semisentient savages 
at 
best, of no great interest to us because we had nothing to learn from them 
and 
all they had that we wanted was their real estate." 
"Instead, it turns out that they're the biggest threat to Psychodrome's 
mind-control monopoly," I said. "Looks like Coles has finally met his match. 
He 
can't push their buttons. Nor can he push ours, if they don't want him to. 
They 
decided to cut him off and that was that. They simply pulled the plug." 
And then it hit me. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "My God, 
Breck, 
they really did pull the plug. On themselves. They're already in the way of 
the 
greedy bastards who want to come in and rape this planet. And Higgins thought 
that he was helping them by bringing us here? Hell, we've just hammered the 
last 
nail into their coffin! Any reason Coles could possibly have had for helping 
out 
the Nomads disappeared the moment he found out that they could beat the 
biochip 
with just a thought. That makes them almost as great a threat as the 
ambimorphs." 
"Perhaps it would, except for one thing," Breck said. "Well, two things, 
actually. The first is that the Nomads are not hostile and they're not 
interested in threatening Coles or anybody else. They'd really much rather we 
went away and left them the hell alone. However, they wouldn't have much to 
bargain with if it wasn't for the second thing." 
"And that is?" 
"They can detect ambimorphs," said Breck. 


NINE 


I wondered which moron had decided that the Nomads were not as intelligent as 
we 
were. Breck was right; we never learn. Whoever had contacted the tribes of 
Purgatory first had probably taken one look at the way they lived, at the 
simple 
animal hides they wore, at the fact that they were nomadic hunter-gatherers, 
not 
interested in agriculture or technology, and based on that, they judged them 
simple savages. And the Nomads politely gave the fools back exactly what they 
expected, no more, no less. And no one ever suspected how sophisticated these 
"savages" really were. 
No one except a xenobiologist named Graver Higgins, maintained on the 
consortium 
staff as an exercise in public relations-a man who was expected to do no more 
than collect his salary, keep his mouth shut, and look the other way while 
they 
did to Purgatory what they once tried to do to Earth. Only Higgins took his 



duties seriously. Unlike all the bought and paid for corporate scientists and 
researchers who, throughout the years, had defended everything from 
cigarettes 
to strip mining, Higgins cared about the truth. And because of that, he had 
discovered the truth about the Nomads. 
I recalled what he had said about the Nomads being "private about different 
things." Their refraining from being judgmental was both an indicator of how 
differently they related to one another than we did and the different levels 
of 
their communication. A very formal, nonabstract sort of communication took 
place 
on the oral level. Secondary, nonoral communication required an intimate 
bonding, apparently more from custom and tradition than purely functional 
considerations. Higgins knew more about the Nomads than any other human, but 
without sophisticated scanning equipment such as could be found at Game 
Control, 
he could do no more than theorize about the way their brains worked. 
His idea was that their minds functioned as if they were two separate 
organs-and 
for all he knew, perhaps they were. A sort of primary and secondary brain, as 
he 
put it, able to work together, but able to function separately, as well. The 
primary brain, to follow his analogy, was the main engine. The secondary 
brain 
acted as a sort of turbocharger, amplifying the functions of the primary 
brain 
when necessary and giving them their telepathic and, in some rare cases, 
telekinetic abilities. However, not all of them were gifted equally. 
The males, with only few exceptions, had little or no telepathic ability. 
With 
most males, it wasn't mind reading so much as it was intuition. The females 
seemed to have greater development of their secondary brains, but not all of 
them were equally telepathic. Tyla, for example, had not been able to sense 
the 
presence of the ambimorphs back in the Red Zone. There were far too many 
people 
there, too much "white noise," as Higgins put it, for her to pick up on the 
subtle difference. 
"But Tali could've done it," he said. "Her powers are almost as strong as 
Dyla's, and Dyla says her own abilities increased with her maturity. When she 
was Tali's age, she says she wasn't nearly half as strong." 
I glanced at Tali, sitting silently next to me, following the conversation. 
There was a very intent, interested expression on her face, but then I 
realized 
that I was judging her by human standards and, for all I knew, the expression 
on 
her face might well have been one of amusement or even boredom. How was I to 
know? 
"In-trest," Tali said in softly accented English, enunciating carefully. "I 
am 
in-trest, husband mate." 
"I am interested," Higgins corrected her. "And it's just husband, Tali, not 
husband mate. Human females call their mates husband, at least when there's 
been 
a marriage ceremony. Unlike the tribes, humans do not always have a marriage 
ceremony before mating." 
She looked surprised, then she glanced curiously at me. "Have you mated with 
human females without ceremony?" 
Breck choked back a laugh as I tried to figure out how to reply, but my Nomad 
wife was already way ahead of me. 



"This is . . ." She glanced at Higgins and briefly slipped back into her own 
language, ending on a question. 
Higgins cleared his throat and replied, saying the word in her language and 
thinking it in ours. 
"Per-son-al," she said, enunciating carefully and nodding. "I understand. 
Interested." 
"Interesting," said Higgins. 
"Interest-w#?" she said, looking puzzled. It seemed that proper English 
grammar 
even taxed a telepathic mind. She glanced at me. "No offense in-ten-ded." 
"None taken," I said, feeling somewhat flustered. "This, uh, is going to take 
a 
little .getting used to. Are you reading my mind right now, Tali?" 
"Do you not desire me?" 
"Do you not want me to," Higgins hastily corrected her. 
"It's a little late to worry about confusion on that score," I told him, 
wryly. 
"Uh, Tali . . . can you read my mind only when I'm speaking and not at other 
times?" 
She nodded. "Yes. I want to have . .. courtesy?" She glanced uncertainly at 
Higgins. 
"I want to be courteous," he corrected her. He turned to me. "I know it must 
be 
pretty confusing for you right now, O'Toole. You see, they regard their 
secondary communication-the telepathy-as their most intimate level of 
communication, for obvious reasons. Their telepathy is not involuntary. It's 
something that takes a deliberate effort. And they don't need to be bonded to 
read each other's minds, but generally, they don't unless there's a close 
familial relationship involved. In any case, it doesn't take a mind reader to 
see that you're in a somewhat difficult position. You might feel as if you've 
been . . . well, raped, I suppose. There's no delicate way to put it. At the 
very least, you were seduced. But there really wasn't any other choice." 
"I don't understand," I said. 
"I know," Higgins said. "It's difficult to explain. You see, a Nomad male is 
not 
normally sexually responsive unless he's specifically triggered or, to put it 
another way, 'activated' by a female desiring to mate. That's part of what 
you 
felt last night. It's an incredibly powerful stimulus the females put out, 
part 
olfactory, part telepathic. Part visual, too," he added, smiling. "And as you 
discovered, it works very well on humans. Sort of an aphrodisiac that hits 
you 
on several levels at once. If you'll forgive the pun, a Nomad female quite 
literally turns you on." 
"Tell me about it," I said, still feeling weak and sore all over. I glanced 
at 
Tali awkwardly. There was a feral beauty about her that was absolutely 
riveting 
and I couldn't get over how I could have forgotten most of what had happened 
last night. She must have tripped some secret switch deep within me and 
driven 
me into a raving sexual frenzy. I now understood what Higgins meant when he 
said 
that mating with Tyla had almost crippled him. No question about it. I simply 
wasn't man enough for my new wife. Another night like that and my heart would 
burst. I sure hoped she'd understand and not hold it against me if I told her 
that I had a headache. 
"Among the Nomads," Higgins went on, "choice naturally falls to the females. 
They can take as husband any male they wish, subject to their ranking in the 



tribe. For example, if Tyla wanted the same male that Tali wanted, Tyla's 
choice 
would take precedence and Tali would not begrudge her. Jealousy wouldn't 
enter 
into it." 
"But, purely for the sake of argument," said Breck, "what if Tali decided she 
wanted one of Tyla's husbands?" 
Tali glanced at Breck with a puzzled expression. "There are many males with 
no 
mate," she said, speaking precisely and choosing her words carefully, her 
English improving rapidly as she picked up the conversational rhythms. "With 
so 
many males in need, why would I-wish to take a male from my sister?" 
"And if it was that important to her," Higgins said, "I think Tyla probably 
wouldn't hesitate to give one of her males to Tali." 
"Wait a minute," I said. "Don't the males have anything to say about it?" 
"Why?" said Tali, looking at me earnestly. At least, it seemed like an 
earnest 
expression. 
"Why?" I said. "Suppose a male doesn't agree with a female's choice?" 
She stared at me. "Males do not question females," she said, as if speaking 
an 
obvious truth. 
"Well, this one does," I said. 
"O'Toole, give it a rest a minute," Higgins said. "You're not at home, okay? 
You 
know, when in Rome, do as the Romans do?" 
"What are Romans?" Tali said. "Different from humans?" 
"I think I'm losing control of this discussion," Higgins said, with a sigh. 
"They're sort of a human tribe, Tali. Anyway, the point I'm trying to make 
here, 
O'Toole, is that for Tali to have the . . . uh, the depth or intensity of 
contact with you that was necessary to forestall the telepathic attack upon 
your 
mind, it was necessary for her to mate with you and-" 
"Whoa! Back up a minute!" I said, staring at him. "What do you mean, 'to 
forestall the telepathic attack upon my mind'? What telepathic attack?" 
Higgins glanced at Breck. "You didn't tell him?" 
"I thought perhaps you'd best explain about his getting married first," Breck 
said. "He's had a rough night and it's not the first time he woke up on the 
morning after and found himself a newlywed, you see. He's a bit touchy on the 
subject." 
"What the hell are you two talking about?" I said. 
'That time compression sensation you experienced," said Breck. "You remember 
when I told you that I felt a mental tug, as well? A sort of probing?" 
I nodded. 
"We thought it was Tyla," he said. "Turns out it wasn't. It was Chameleon." 
For a moment, I simply stared at him stupidly, and then it dawned on me. 
Mondago 
said that Chameleon had learned to use his biochip to tap into the 
playermaster 
satellite network and bypass Game Control. But I hadn't realized that meant 
the 
shapechanger could tune directly into any one of us! 
"Tyla sensed it," Breck said, "but she didn't quite understand what was 
happening to you at first. It threw her. She thought humans were incapable of 
telepathic communication." 
"She didn't know about biochips," Higgins explained. "I don't have one, you 
see." 
"You will," said Breck. 



"Like hell I will." 
"I'm afraid you won't have any choice," said Breck. "You're about to be 
drafted, 
Higgins." 
"Listen, if your people think they can simply-" 
"Wait a minute!" I interrupted them. "Can we settle this later? For God's 
sake, 
Breck, some alien creature just attacked my mind from light-years away and 
you're arguing about whether or not Higgins is coming back with us?" 
"Take it easy, O'Toole," said Breck. "You're safe enough for now. Mondago and 
Coles managed to override Chameleon's signal. Besides, you'll be all right so 
long as Tali's with you. She's the one who saved you. If it wasn't for her, 
Mondago and Coles would never have been in time." 
"What would have happened?" I said, not sure that I really wanted to know. 
"You would have died," said Breck. "Along with everyone who was tuned into 
you." 
What had saved Breck was his hybreed brain-his phenomenal powers of 
concentration and his iron will. And even at that, he had been through an 
ordeal. Because Tyla had told her people that he was a "warrior," Dyla had 
chosen to let Breck cope with the assault all on his own, partly because she 
had 
not wanted to offend his "warrior pride" and partly because she wanted to see 
how the attack progressed and how he dealt with it. The concept of telepathic 
warfare was something new to them. They were both appalled and fascinated. 
Chameleon had used his biochip to tap into one of Psychodrome's playermaster 
satellites and launch a telepathic attack directed by tachyon beam. He (at 
least 
we thought of Chameleon as a "he," though ambimorphs did not seem to have 
gender) had prepared for us with a series of experimental satellite contacts 
and 
transmissions. By the time Coles and his people had realized what was going 
on, 
there had been thousands of casualties. 
Reluctantly, Tali agreed to "release" me so that Mondago could contact me 
through my biochip. That, in itself, was an unsettling development-the fact 
that 
Tali could cut me off from Game Control. Ironically, despite all the paranoid 
feelings I had about having lost my mental privacy, I had grown accustomed to 
the idea of having Coles and his people there all the time. Suddenly, with 
them 
gone, I felt somehow naked and exposed. It was at the same time both 
interesting 
and frightening to realize how dependent on them I had unconsciously become. 
And 
it was also highly disturbing to think that this young, incredibly beautiful 
alien female, who seemed so outwardly primitive and youthfully naive, could 
so 
easily slip into my mind and, as Breck had put it, "insulate" me from all of 
Psychodrome's hi-tech wizardry. Coles found it highly disturbing, too. 
During the tribal meeting, Tali had realized that something was drastically 
wrong with us, as had Dyla, Tyla, and every other Nomad female with enough 
telepathic abilities to sense the assault Chameleon had launched against us. 
I 
had slipped into something resembling a coma-the time compression phenomenon 
I 
had experienced before-and everything had simply stopped for me as 
Chameleon's 
mental assault was transmitted through my biochip. In a way, it was like the 
calm before a storm. I had sort of "phased out" for a short while. And then 
my 



mind had started screaming. 
The very idea of telepathic communication being used offensively to harm 
another 
being so shocked the Nomads that at first they hesitated, confused by what 
was 
happening. Then Tali did an unprecedented thing. Sensing my psychic agony 
more 
strongly than any of the others, and thereby empathizing more, she reached 
out 
to me telepathically-using their most intimate form of contact to commune with 
a 
total stranger. And an alien, at that. Of course, Tyla had communed 
telepathically with Higgins, but he was no longer a stranger to her by then 
and 
even so, she had waited until after their bonding. In terms of tribal customs 
and beliefs, what Tali had done was unprecedented and scandalous, but then 
they 
had never before been confronted with a mind being flayed "before their eyes." 
That was when they had cut us off. Tali had reached out to my mind and 
"insulated" me from the incoming tachyon signal. Dyla, the matriarch, had 
followed her lead and done the same for Breck-only that hadn't ended it. In 
effect, they had neutralized a weapon after it had already been fired. The 
ammunition had already hit its target. 
Chameleon had broadcast to us a telepathic imperative to kill ourselves. Tali 
had cut me off from the broadcast, but my mind had already received the 
message 
and been programmed. Breck still had enough presence of mind to fight the 
terrible directive. Dyla had sensed his awesome willpower and allowed him to 
wage the struggle on his own while the entire tribe watched his silent 
conflict 
with himself. I was not a "warrior" and was considerably weaker, so to 
counteract my programmed impulse to destroy myself, Tali had chosen to fight 
with the strongest impulse she could engender in me-the procreative urge. 
She had blasted me with the overwhelming sexual stimulus of a Nomad female 
triggering her mate and while I was dizzy with lust, she had thrown me over 
her 
shoulder and carried me away, because once a Nomad female had started, there 
wasn't any way to stop. I was thankful for small blessings. At least we 
hadn't 
done it in front of the entire tribe. 
Afterward, she had gently healed my psychic wounds with' a balm of very 
selective, telepathically induced amnesia. From the moment the assault had 
started to the moment I awoke with Breck looking down at me, it was almost a 
total blank. I did not remember the agonies Chameleon had inflicted on me, but 
a 
lot of other people weren't so lucky. 
The game had become truly deadly, not only for the players, but for the home 
audience, as well. Mondago's scanners had gone right off the scale. Game 
Control 
had clipped the broadcast signal the moment they realized what was going on, 
but 
they were too late for a large segment of the audience. 
"The fail-safe biomonitors built into the psy-fi systems were never designed 
for 
this eventuality." Mondago's voice seemed to echo in my mind while Tali 
eavesdropped on our conversation, listening to Mondago telepathically and 
hearing me respond to him out loud. "They were designed to measure physical 
stress, not psychic disturbance. A glaring and fatal flaw in the design." 
"So you're saying they were useless," I said. 
"Not entirely useless," Mondago replied. "Our ratings indicate that the 



majority 
of those people tuned into you and Breck were saved when their psychic 
distress 
resulted in physical symptoms that registered on their fail-safe biomonitors, 
which immediately caused their psy-fi systems to shutdown. Unfortunately, a 
segment of the home audience retained a deep residual psychic imprintation 
after 
their systems had shut down and there was no way for us to reach them. Many 
of 
them committed suicide." 
"How many?" I said. 
"We don't know yet. The figures are still coming in." 
"Damn it, Mondago, how many so far? And what's the breakdown?" 
Us hesitated. "I see no purpose in going into that right now." 
"Damn it, Mondago, tell me!" 
"Thousands," he reluctantly admitted. 
"And the breakdown?" 
"Really, O'Toole, there is no need to-" 
"Answer me!" 
I could feel him sigh. "The majority of the suicides so far have been among 
those in the home audience who were tuned into your channel," said Mondago. 
"The 
percentage figures currently are at 86.3, but the programming analysis 
department isn't sure how much of that is due to the fact that Breck was 
better 
able to stand up to the assault than you were and how much is due to 
demographics." 
"Demographics?" I said. 
"They think that the more sensitive individuals among our home audience might 
have been tuned in to you, because of a greater affinity they'd have for you 
as 
opposed to Breck. However, I hasten to add that this is only speculation on 
their part and not supported by any hard data, so please don't try to take 
any 
of this on yourself. It was not your fault. Nor are you the only one that 
this 
has happened with. There have been other incidents." 
"You mean with Chameleon attacking the home audience through other players?" 
I 
said. 
"Yes, " replied Mondago. ' 'But to date, you and Breck are the only ones who 
have survived.'' 
"That's it, then," I said. "It's gone far enough. Too far. If Chameleon can 
assimilate a biochip and learn to do this, so can other ambimorphs. You've 
got 
to shut down. You have to tell Coles to stop the game." 
"That would be impossible." 
"Why, for God's sake?" 
"O'Toole, you have no idea what you're suggesting," said Mondago. "The game 
has 
become an integral part of society in many more ways than one. It isn't merely 
a 
function of public entertainment. It's much more." 
"Yes, I know exactly how much more it is," I said bitterly. "It's about 
control, 
isn't it?" 
"To be completely honest with you, yes, in part," Mondago said. "But only in 
part. It's also about facilitating communication between Earth and the colony 
worlds. The playermaster satellite network and tachyon relay stations are 
used 



for much more than just the game. Moreover, people need the game. The home 
audience has grown pathologically dependent on it." 
"A dependency that Psychodrome has been exploiting," I said. 
"True," Mondago admitted. "But we did not create that dependency. We merely 
fulfilled a need; we did not engender it." 
"That's a little like saying a pusher only provides the drugs, he doesn't 
make 
you take-them." 
"The point is arguable. And also irrelevant. The game is necessary to keep 
the 
public entertained-" 
"And under control," I said. 
"The game is necessary to maintain the lines of communication in our 
society," 
he continued, as if I hadn't spoken, "and the game is necessary for our 
security. Besides, even if it were possible to shut down Psychodrome, it 
would 
not eliminate the threat. The shapechangers would still-be among us, free to 
strike out anytime and anywhere, at will. Psychodrome is our only means to 
fight 
them. The game must continue, no matter what the cost." 
"Then at least you've got to warn the people," I said. "Go public with this. 
Tell them what's going on!" 
"We've done that right from the beginning, remember?" said Mondago wryly. 
"But you sold it to them as if it were part of the game!" I protested. 
"But it is part of the game," Mondago said. "We've been playing it as if it 
were 
for real all along. If we were to go public with it now, they d simply think 
it 
was part of the fantasy scenario, that we were manipulating death statistics 
to 
make it appear as if a spate of unrelated recent suicides came about as a 
result 
of an ambimorph attack. They'd think we were incorporating real-life events 
into 
a fantasy adventure, as we've always done. We've been presenting them with 
fantasy scenarios and playing them as if they were for real for so long that 
no 
one would accept it if we said, 'Yes, but this time we really mean it.' It 
would 
be like the boy who cried wolf. We've even fooled the news media in the past 
and 
they 're still smarting over it. They no longer take us seriously, which was 
precisely our intent, because we wanted to keep them from finding out what 
was 
behind the entertainment programming. How could we convince them now? Could 
we 
produce an ambimorph? No, they'd never believe it without proof. But even if 
we 
could make them believe it, the result would be an absolute disaster. Total 
chaos. Imagine the panic it would cause. Think of all the innocent people who 
would die as a result. No one would know who was really human anymore. We'd 
have 
mass psychosis. Paranoia on an unimaginable scale." 
"So what the hell are we supposed to do?" I said, feeling utterly powerless. 
"Continue with the game," Mondago said. "Believe me, the public is better off 
not knowing the truth. So long as they think it's just a game, we can use the 
game as a cover. And we can use the audience, as well, tuning in on them 
while 
they're tuning in on you." 



"And how long do you think you can get away with that?" I said. 
"As long as necessary," Mondago replied. "And in the meantime, we're anxious 
to 
find out more about the natives of Purgatory. Coles would like you to bring 
one 
of these Nomads back with you for observation." 
I glanced at Tali. Mondago realized that she was listening, of course. "What 
Coles would like and what Coles will get might be two very different things," 


said. "The Nomads are free to make their own choices. And if they choose to 
stay 
here, I'm not going to argue with them. For that matter, you're liable to have 
a 
problem with Higgins, too. Seems he doesn't think having a biochip implanted 
in 
his brain is the great boon you guys always say it is. Grover Higgins is a 
very 
independent man and he's got his own agenda in these matters." 
"I see," Mondago said, after a moment. "And what does Mr. Grover Higgins 
want?" 
"I think he'd probably be happy with that quarantine you spoke about, for 
starters. It would serve to keep out the industrial consortiums. And I 
imagine 
he'd like a xenobiology research station to be established here, under his 
authority. I think you can probably work out a deal with him whereby the 
company 
would be able to use his facility to study the ambimorph problem in return 
for 
some considerations." 
"We intended to put the quarantine in place anyway," said Mondago. "And we 
certainly don't need Mr. Higgins to establish our own research facility on 
Purgatory." 
"True," I said, "but without him, you won't get the cooperation of the 
Nomads." 
"You can inform Mr. Higgins that we'll be happy to give him what he wants," 
Mondago said, "subject to one condition." 
"What is it?" 
"That he return with you for debriefing with at least one Nomad to accompany 
him." 
"Come on, he'll never agree to that, Mondago," I said. "It's not fair to ask 
him 
that." 
"Fairness has nothing to do with it,-O'Toole," Mondago said. "We are at war 
and 
we cannot find the enemy. Apparently, the Nomads can. We'd like to find out 
how." 
Tali touched my arm. I glanced at her. 
"I will go back with you," she said. 
"No, Tali," I said. "I can't allow it." 
"O'Toole-" 
"Stay out of this, Mondago! Tali, listen to me. I don't think you realize 
what 
you're offering to do. You have a position of responsibility in the tribe. 
You 
have a family. If you went back to Earth with us, I couldn't say when you'd 
return. Or even if you would return." 
"O'Toole, are you deliberately trying to frighten-" 
"I said, stay out of this or I'll ask her to cut you off again!" Mondago fell 
silent. "Tali, I'm trying to say that I couldn't guarantee your safety if you 
went back with us. I have no idea what Coles might decide to do with you." 



"If I went with you, it would help my people," she said. "The human 
settlements 
that foul the air and break the land, Mondago and this man Coles could make 
them 
stop?" 
"Tali, it's possible that you could make them stop," I said. "If you can 
enter 
my mind the way you do, then maybe all of you working together could-" 
"O'Toole, what you're doing could be considered treason," said Mondago 
sharply. 
"So charge me," I said. "I'd love to see this one go to court." 
Tali was shaking her head. "No, O'Toole," she said, choosing her words 
carefully. "Humans must make the humans stop. Humans must decide. It would be 
wrong for us to do to humans what the false one did to you." 
"The false one?" said Mondago. 
"It's what they call the ambimorphs," I explained. 
"I see,” he said. "Do I take it, then, that we have a volunteer?" 
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "I guess it seems that way. But 
you 
can tell Coles that if anything happens to my wife, he'll answer to me." 
"Your wife?" Mondago said. "That native, uh, woman with you is your wife?" 
"Breck didn't tell you?" I said. 
"No, he didn't." I could sense the puzzlement in his voice. "I ... I suppose 
congratulations are in order." 
I grinned. "Thank you, Tolliver. And now if you don't mind, I'd like to 
resume 
my honeymoon, so I'll ask Tali to cut us off again. If anything important 
comes 
up, I' 11 let you know." 
"Wait! O'Toole, I -" 
But Tali had already slammed my mental shutters down and he was gone. I 
chuckled. Let him sweat it out. And let Coles bite his fingernails down to 
the 
bone, wondering what I had gotten myself into. 
"O'Toole," said Tali, "what is 'hon-i-moon'?" 
"Oh," I said, feeling flustered, "well, it's . . . it's . . . " 
"I understand," she said, reading my mind. "A human bonding ceremony." 
"Well, yes, I guess that's as good a way of putting it as any." 
"You wish to do this now?" 
"Uh . . . listen, Tali... you're very beautiful and I understand that we've 
been 
bonded and I don't want you to get the wrong idea, but I really don't think I 
could take another-" 
"I could try the human way," she said. 
I stared at her, taken aback. "The human way?" 
"You have strong memory of a human female called Kami," she said. "I can 
learn 
from this memory, if you wish." 
I tried to imagine how Kami would react to the idea of another woman taking 
pointers from her by telepathically scanning my memories of our lovemaking and 


declined as politely as I could. Some men might have found a situation like 
that 
sexually exciting, but not me. I don't believe in reducing sex to a 
recreational 
activity. It's far too intimate for that. Kami and I had shared something 
very 
special that perhaps neither of us had ever fully understood. She was the 
leader 
of a wild gang of scooter bandits whose first response to almost everything 



was 
violence and I was a down-on-his-luck gambler on the run whose first response 
to 
every threat I'd ever encountered was cowardly self-preservation. We made 
about 
as much sense together as a pair of mismatched Argyle socks, and yet 
together, 
we inexplicably managed to create a whole that was somehow more than the sum 
of 
its parts. And we both came away from it with pieces of each other in our 
hearts. After a relationship like that, sex for the sake of sex simply 
doesn't 
cut it. 
Tali's ability to read my mind made such complicated explanations simpler, 
but 
it still took a little work. Her people, unlike mine, had a very high regard 
for 
mental privacy and even though the two of us were bonded, she was very 
circumspect about poking around inside my head. She seemed to feel some 
anxiety 
about our situation, not that I could blame her. She had been confronted with 
a 
choice that had made things very difficult for her-disregard the customs of 
her 
tribe or stand by and watch another being suffer. It hadn't really been much 
of 
a choice for her. Her empathy was very strong and her sense of ethics-though 
I 
doubt she thought of it that way-had not allowed her any other options. Now 
she 
was trying to make things right in the only way she knew. She was trying to 
find 
ways to strengthen the bond between us, making it more meaningful. 
I was the problem. I kept thinking of our relationship as a marriage in the 
terms 7 was accustomed to and, of course, it wasn't that. Despite the fact 
that 
Higgins spoke of his relationship to Tyla as a marriage, he had made a point 
of 
saying that it wasn't the same thing as the relationship we called a 
marriage. 
But I kept getting hung up on the word. It was a word that always gave me 
trouble. 
Tali tried to help me find a way to wrap my mind around it. We spent a long 
night trying to get to know each other. Of course, being able to read my 
mind, 
she had a considerable advantage, but she was hesitant to use it unless we 
started having trouble communicating. It was fascinating, having a 
conversation 
with someone who could look into your mind and find out exactly what you 
meant, 
but at the same time refrain from "rifling the files," as it were, to see 
what 
else was in there. If I had the ability to do that, I don't know that I could 
have resisted the temptation. 
There's something about us that always seems to result in our trying to find 
out 
everything at once about the people we become involved with. Perhaps it's a 
function of our loneliness. We're so desperate to get close to someone that 
we 
have a tendency to rip open our shirts and bear our breasts, spill our guts 



in 
an effort to let the people we want to get close to see us as we really are 
in 
the hope that they will do the same. Tali could have easily found out 
everything 
there was to know about me in no time at all, but she was in no hurry. She 
didn't want to take any more than I was willing to offer. 
The memory of Kami was something she had picked up involuntarily while we were 
. 
. . well, mating, I suppose. I'd hesitate to call it making love. She was 
fascinated by the distinction that I drew. Nomads did not "make love." They 
mated. When they could "touch souls" the way they did, sexual intimacy came in 
a 
poor second. She found it interesting that human males were fertile all the 
time 
and did not require "activation" by a female in order to have the ability to 
mate. I explained to her that, in a certain sense, we did, merely that the 
"activation" wasn't quite so drastic. It did not drive us into an 
uncontrollable 
sexual frenzy-generally speaking, anyway-and it did not necessarily take any 
voluntary action on the part of a human female. Sometimes just looking was 
enough. 
What Tali found most interesting-and incomprehensible- was the fact that our 
human society was not structured along matriarchal lines, and that while 
equality was the official rule, in actual fact, the true power structure was 
still essentially male dominated. This puzzled her. 
"You say that human males and females are equal in power," she said, "yet the 
tribal leaders are all male?" 
"Mostly male, yes," I said. 
"Then how are they equal?" 
"That's something a lot of women have been asking for a very long time," I 
said. 
"I guess a lot of human males feel the need to be in control all the time." 
"Why?" 
"That's another question women have been asking for a long, long time," I 
said. 
"And no one answers them?" 
"Generally not, I guess." 
"Why do they allow this?" 
"I know a few who don't," I said. 
"Your mate-without-ceremony?" she said. 
"My what?" 
"The one called Kami." 
"Ah. Yes, she's one." 
"I wish to meet her." 
"That might be arranged," I said. "I think she'd like you." 
"Then I will like her, also." 
"Strange how things work out," I said. "When Coles sent us out here to bring 
back an ambimorph, I figured just about anything could happen, but I never 
expected anything like this. Or anyone like you." 
"Am-bi-morph," she said, trying on the word for size. "This is how you call 
the 
false ones?" 
"Or shapechangers," I said. "Higgins told us they were pretending to be your 
gods, trying to manipulate you." 
"And sometimes they pretend to be like us and stay among us," she said. 
"Only you can recognize them and they don't know that. That's the part I 
don't 
quite understand. They can read your minds and find out how you represent 
your 



gods and take that form, but they don't know that you can see through their 
deception and recognize them for what they really are. You understand about 
what 
Higgins calls your primary and secondary brains?" 
She nodded. "The part which speaks is that part which we let the false ones 
know. The part which touches souls is that part which we do not let them see." 
"Or to use the terms Higgins came up with," I said, "the ambimorphs can read 
your primary brain, but they cannot read your secondary, more intimate, 
brain, 
because you won't let them. I wish to know how you prevented them." I 
frowned. 
"In fact, if they don't even know your secondary brain is there, perhaps that 
could explain why they can't read it. They telepathically scan your primary 
brain, think that's all there is, and then don't bother looking any deeper. 
What 
I don't understand is if you are capable of recognizing them, no matter what 
shape they've taken, why do you let them get away with it?" 
"Because they have done us no harm," said Tali. 
"But they pretend to be your gods because they want to take control here." 
"Humans also wish to take control here," she said. "Not all humans. Not 
Higgins. 
Not Breck. Not you. But the others, across the desert. The humans and the 
false 
ones -the am-bimorphs-both wish to take control." 
"And you're caught right in the middle," I said, with a sigh. "I guess we're 
no 
better than the ambimorphs. In fact, we're considerably worse. At least the 
shapechangers don't pollute or build developments." I grimaced. "They're a 
lot 
easier on the ecology, I've got to give them that. Makes it kind of hard for 
me 
to act like I'm one of the good guys." 
She frowned with puzzlement, then her expression gave way to one of 
comprehension as she took a glimpse inside and saw what I meant. 
"At times," she said, "the tribes compete for territory. One tribe chooses to 
settle in a valley with a river flowing through it, another comes and wishes 
to 
settle there as well, but there is no room nor game enough for both. They 
fight. 
This is the way. This we can do. But we will lose if we try to fight the 
humans, 
though humans may be the greater threat to us. So Dyla has met with other 
tribal 
elders and they have decided that we shall help the humans in their fight 
against the false ones in exchange for humans not taking our territory. And 
if 
humans accept our help and still try to take our land, then we shall help the 
false ones against the humans. We have no wish to join this conflict, but 
with 
three tribes all wishing to settle in the valley, the wisest one will play 
the 
other two against each other. And, if necessary, fight the weakened winner." 
I stared at her, astonished, and I wondered once again what moron had decided 
that the Nomads were not as intelligent as we were. And I hoped Coles had 
enough 
sense to realize that power politics was not a game one played with the 
natives 
of Purgatory. I hoped he had enough sense to take Tali very seriously. And I 
hoped to God that he didn't have any funny cards tucked up his sleeve. 
As the embers of the fire died down, we curled up together and slept in each 



other's arms. Just before sunrise, the shapechangers tried to kill me. 


TEN 


I wasn't sure what woke me; whether it was the noise outside or the 
shapechanger's cry of pain as Garr's spear struck it in the back with such 
force 
that about half its length came out through the creature's chest. In the 
darkness, the figure of a young Nomad male came stumbling two steps into the 
hut 
and then fell sprawling face-first onto the ground about a foot away from me. 
I 
scrambled for my weapons, which I had foolishly tucked away inside my pack. 
My 
hand was on the plasma pistol when Garr stuck his face inside the hut. 
"Wait!" said Tali, stopping me just in time. 
Garr stepped inside and glanced at me, then looked down at the body on the 
ground. He grunted with apparent satisfaction, pulled his spear out, grabbed 
the 
corpse's foot around the ankle, and dragged it back outside. 
"What the hell?" I said, being unforgivably slow on the uptake. 
"It was a false one," said Tali. "An ambimorph. It meant to kill you." 
I got to my feet quickly, strapped on my holster, ducked down through the 
doorway, and went outside. The sky was gray with predawn light. Mist eddied 
like 
a tide just above the ground. Through the haze, I could make out the bodies 
of 
three Nomad males thrown in- a heap, one on top of another. Garr and several 
other male Nomads stood around them, leaning on their spears and talking 
softly 
among themselves. 
"Breck!" I yelled, alarmed. 
"No need to shout, O'Toole, I'm right here," he said, stepping out of the fog 
and dumping another body onto the pile. 
"What the hell is going on?" 
"Nothing, at the moment," he said. "It's all over. We're merely tidying up a 
bit." 
I stood there, staring at him and at the piled bodies. Tali came up beside me. 
I 
shoved my plasma pistol back into its holster. 
"It seems we had a number of infiltrators," Breck said. "It was a rather 
close 
call. Fortunately, I'm a very light sleeper." 
"I thought you said you could recognize them," I said to Tali. 
"Yes," she said. 
"Then why didn't you know about this?" 
"We knew," she said simply. 
"You knew?" I couldn't believe I'd heard right. I thought for a moment that 
perhaps she hadn't understood me, but of course, she had. "You knew there 
were 
ambimorphs among you and you did nothing!" I said, incredulously. 
She stared at me steadily, without saying a word. It was suddenly very quiet. 
Breck cleared his throat softly. 
"I don't think we're in a position to demand any explanations here, O'Toole," 
he 
said. "Besides, they did not exactly do nothing. They did save your life, at 
some risk to their own." 
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly to steady my nerves. "I'm sorry," 
I 
said to Tali. "I didn't mean to seem ungrateful. It's only that I ... uh ..." 



I 
I 
o 
point 
in saying it out loud. She knew. 
Tali spoke briefly to Garr and the other males. Most of the tribe had come 
out 
to see what the commotion was all about and we had quite an audience. Garr 
and 
the other males seemed to relax and I suddenly realized how out of line I'd 
been. Males did not mouth off at females around here. 
"We knew that there were false ones among the young, unmated males," Tali 
said. 
"They came in the night. They did not know that we knew them for what they 
were. 
As they are curious about us, so we are curious about them. We did nothing 
because they had done nothing. Now they have offended. Now they are dead." 
They started to drag the bodies away when suddenly someone cried out and I 
turned around in time to see a long tawny form streak across the clearing and 
leap straight at Breck . . . 
It happened with incredible speed. Garr had his spear up in an instant, arm 
cocked, but Breck was even faster. His arm moved so quickly that I couldn't 
even 
follow it. Something went "hisssst” and a bright sliver of metal flew through 
the air like an arrow, striking the beast in midleap, embedding itself in the 
sandcat's skull. The creature fell like a heavy sack to the ground at Breck's 
feet, a gleaming nysteel dart with metallic fletching stuck right between its 
eyes. 
For a moment, they were all too stunned to move, then they gathered around 
Breck 
and the dead sandcat at his feet, kneeling over the huge beast and gazing 
with 
wonder at the gleaming dart. Garr tried to pull it out, but he couldn't budge 
it. It was stuck firmly in the bone. 
"What is it?" one of the other males said. 
"I do not know," said Garr. 
"He threw it?" 
"He had nothing in his hand! How could he have thrown it when he held 
nothing? 
Where did it come from?" 
"To kill a sandcat with a thing so small!" said one of the others. 
"It was not a sandcat," a young Nomad female said. "It was a false one." 
And suddenly, with a shock as if a bucket of ice cold water had been dashed 
right in my face, I realized that they were speaking in their Nomad tongue and 
I 
could understand what they were saying! 
Breck bent down and took hold of the dart firmly with his metal fingers, gave 
it 
a sharp yank and it pulled loose. He wiped it off on the sandcat's fur-the 
shapechanger had become "fixed" in death, as they always did-and then he ran 
his 
fingers over the metallic fletching, which retracted into the shaft of the 
dart 
and locked in place. As the Nomads watched with awe, Breck slipped the dart 
back 
into the tiny barrel built into the top of his nysteel wrist. He fitted it 
into 
the barrel, tapped it in lightly, and then made a motion as if he were 
contracting a forearm muscle and the dart went back up inside his arm with a 
sharp pneumatic hiss. The small barrel then retracted back into his wrist. 
I had never seen him use that particular device before and under other 



circumstances, I might have been just as impressed as the Nomads, but I was 
absolutely flabbergasted by my sudden, inexplicable ability to understand 
their 
speech. 
"Breck, I can understand them!" I said. 
He glanced at me, grunted and nodded. 
I stared at him, completely taken aback by his lack of reaction. "Did you 
hear 
what I just said? I can understand what they're saying!" 
"Yes, I heard you," he said. "What did they say?" 
"Well, they're amazed at the way you-what do you mean, what did they say? I 
understood them! I actually understood them, as if they were speaking 
English!" 
"Yes, I know," he said. 
"You know?" 
"It's part of your ongoing bonding experience with Tali," he explained. "As 
she's learning English by reading your mind, she's also teaching you her 
language. It apparently happens on the subconscious level. Perhaps she did it 
while you slept. If you try speaking to Tali in her language, I think you'll 
find that you'll be able to, though you may have some trouble with the 
pronunciation for a while." 
It was too much for me. I leaned back against a rock outcropping and rubbed 
the 
bridge of my nose. I was getting a splitting headache. Perhaps from my 
unusual 
form of sleep learning, if that's what it was. I was having a hard time 
assimilating all this. It all seemed so incredible. There were long tracks in 
the dirt where the dead bodies of the shapechangers had been dragged away 
moments ago and here we were, discussing telepathic language lessons. The 
whole 
thing was surreal. I looked up at Breck. 
"How the hell do you know all this?" 
"Higgins told me." He shrugged. "There was not much else for me to do last 
night 
except talk to Higgins. After all, I didn't have a date." 
"Very funny," I said. "Where is Higgins?" 
"Applying some first aid to one of the young males who was injured." 
"Why doesn't anyone tell me anything?" I said, in exasperation. "Did you know 
about the shapechangers being here?" 
"No, of course I didn't know," he said. "If I had known, then they would have 
known that I knew and they would also have known how I knew, and then they 
would 
have known that the Nomads knew, and the Nomads did not want them to know 
that." 
I blinked and shook my head. "Huh? You want to run that by me again?" 
"I'm not sure I could," he said, frowning slightly. "It seemed to make sense 
as 
I was saying it. In any case, the point is that I didn't know about them 
being 
here. They apparently came in last night, thinking they could slip in and 
pass 
unnoticed, only of course they were spotted right away. Unlike Chameleon, 
these 
were young ambimorphs and they weren't very experienced. Which was rather 
fortunate for us." 
"How do you know they were young?" 
"Educated guess, based on their relatively inexperienced behavior compared to 
some of the shapechangers we've run into and based on the fact that they 
breed 
not far from here." 



"Oh. I see." I did a double take. "They what?" 
"Really, O'Toole, I do wish you'd pay more attention so I wouldn't have to 
say 
everything twice. It seems the shapechangers have a breeding ground not far 
from 
here. We're going there today. Undoubtedly, that was what precipitated the 
attack on us. We did come here to capture one of them alive, if you'll 
recall. 
That was the point of the whole exercise. I thought we might bring Coles back 
a 
baby ambimorph." 
I was beginning to realize why they called it Purgatory. Hell was just around 
the corner. The idea of a breeding ground for ambimorphs conjured up an image 
of 
an entire nest of the damn things, a creche, a colony of creatures each of 
whom 
was already a colony to begin with. And Breck proposed to waltz right in and 
bag 
one like going to a pet shop and picking out a puppy. Sure, why not? No 
problem. 
Easy for a hybreed commando who was incapable of feeling fear. I, on the 
other 
hand, was not only capable of being afraid, I was real good at it. 
The idea of invading the shapechangers' breeding ground didn't seem to bother 
the Nomads very much. After the remains of the ambimorphs had been disposed 
of, 
they held a meeting in the lodge to decide which of them would get to go on 
this 
junket and there was no shortage of volunteers. I wondered if any of them 
would 
be interested in taking my place. 
Nomads had some rough similarities to us in the sense that they fell into the 
life-form classification we called humanoid and, in fact, there were many 
parallels between them and a number of primitive human hunter-gatherer 
societies, but in spite of some superficial similarities, they were really 
very 
different. Their form of marriage, for example, the mating and the bonding, 
was 
nothing like any marriage in a human society, not even a communal one. It was 
more like a sexual-metaphysical rite of passage into an extended family 
defined 
less by mating patterns than by a sort of telepathic spirituality, with the 
female holding things together at the center, functioning not only as a 
sexual 
catalyst, but as an intimate telepathic link between the other males in the 
relationship. The Nomad word for it was "tal-ken," roughly translating as 
"soul-tribe." 
On one hand, the Nomads seemed to have an almost emotionless placidity about 
them. Yet, on the other hand, their sexual responses were frenzied and 
passionate beyond belief and their telepathic "soul touching" was incredibly 
intimate and tender. Their response to the situation that confronted them, to 
us 
and to the ambimorphs, was at the same time both coldly logical and 
confusingly 
nonsensical. They knew what the ambimorphs intended when they had infiltrated 
the village, and they had prepared for it, yet rather than confront the 
threat 
immediately in order to deter the attempt on our lives, they waited until the 
ambimorphs had made their move, as if they needed that excuse to act, to 
withdraw the hospitality of the tribe, which apparently required a truly 



serious 
transgression, even though it had been accepted under false pretenses. 
"We did nothing because they had done nothing," Tali had said. "Now they have 
offended. Now they are dead." 
Cause and effect. The tribal etiquette implacably and ruthlessly 
administered. 
Even with their telepathy, when they picked up the shapechanger's intent to 
kill 
us, that hadn't been enough. They had needed the initiation of the act itself 
before they could bring themselves to do anything about it. Cause and effect. 
Simple. 
But maybe it wasn't that simple. Perhaps it was the result of their 
telepathy. 
At some earlier point in their development, they had to have confronted the 
philosophical problem of when a crime became a crime-when you thought about 
doing it, when you planned to do it, or when you actually started to execute 
it. 
Perhaps they never actually thought of it in quite that way or in those 
terms, 
but it was something that they must have had to deal with. 
Higgins's theory about their "primary" and "secondary" brains was not 
necessarily literally true. Of course, there would be no way of telling that 
for 
sure unless a Nomad was scanned or autopsied, but if nothing else, the theory 
served as an excellent analogy for the way their minds functioned as compared 
to 
ours. If they didn't actually have two brains, perhaps they had a bifurcated 
one 
that functioned as if it were two separate organs. In principle, their brain 
function could be similar to right brain/left brain dominance in humans, 
where 
in humans the right brain was the concrete-logical and the left brain was the 
intuitive-creative, only it seemed that the Nomads had essentially divided 
brain 
function, as if there were two discrete channels that were complimentary, but 
that could also function independently. 
"That which speaks and that which touches souls," as Tali had put it, trying 
to 
find words in my language to convey an idea they probably never even had to 
think about before because they took it for granted. 
In a telepathic society, the need to preserve privacy and limit intimacy had 
to 
be intense. Even nature had conspired to impose limits on the Nomads. The 
males 
vastly outnumbered the females and they were rarely telepathic. They needed 
the 
females to link them in their soul-touching within the tal-ken. And beyond 
that, 
there were the customs and traditions of the Nomads, slightly different from 
tribe to tribe, but essentially the same in principle. Though there were 
certain 
things they probably couldn't avoid picking up, especially if someone was 
thinking very "loudly," Nomads didn't go around arbitrarily reading other 
people's minds, just as in human society you don't go around arbitrarily 
grabbing people and having sex with them. And if you do, the society has laws 
to 
deal with the likes of you. 
The arrival of humans, and ambimorphs, presented the Nomads with some fairly 
serious problems. Humans, not being telepathic, were very sloppy with their 
thoughts. We thought the Nomads were savages. They thought we were 



unconscionably crude. We started to build permanent settlements as opposed to 
seasonal ones and we constructed factories that screwed up the ecology and it 
did not even occur to us to ask permission. Not that it would've made any 
difference if the Nomads had refused. 
The ambimorphs, on the other hand, had followed their natural instinct to 
blend 
in with their environment, which might have been a great deal more acceptable 
if 
they hadn't done what their survival instincts made them do-telepathically 
invade the Nomads' minds and try to turn them inside out in an effort to find 
out everything about them, so that their shapechanging deception could be 
complete. To a Nomad, this was even more insufferable than the barbarity of 
humans. They had shut down. Or at least they had shut down that part of 
themselves which they considered most intimate, what Higgins called their 
secondary brains, in effect allowing the ambimorphs to go only so far and no 
further. And the ambimorphs apparently never realized that they had only 
skimmed 
the surface and never gotten to the part that really counts. 
It all raised a number of fascinating questions. How did the Nomads manage to 
shut out the ambimorphs? And could they continue to shut out the ambimorphs 
if 
the ambimorphs discovered that they were only reading the surface level? And 
then there was the most fascinating question of them all-how were the Nomads 
able to infallibly identify ambimorphs for what they were-"the false 
ones"-without the shapechangers catching on? 
Part of the answer had to do with circumstances. Ambimorphs did not often try 
to 
pass as Nomads. They had arrived on Purgatory by passing as humans. In the 
controlled environment of the Purgatory settlements, it would have been 
difficult for them to breed unnoticed, so they had found safer places to 
breed 
out in the wild high country. While they were developing, it was easier for 
them 
to take on the aspect of the various small creatures indigenous to the high 
country and the desert. In this manner, they survived until they matured and 
became large enough to take on human form and infiltrate the human 
settlements, 
which was their main priority. Until recently, there had been no reason for 
them 
to infiltrate the Nomad tribes. They were at war with us, not with the 
Nomads. 
However, it had apparently occurred to them that if they could exert a 
controlling influence upon the Nomads, they could conceivably turn them 
against 
the human settlements, and so some of them had started trying to infiltrate 
the 
tribes in Nomad form. 
Only it wasn't working. Because the males so vastly outnumbered the females 
in 
the Nomad tribes, the ambimorphs naturally attempted to infiltrate the tribes 
by 
taking on the form of Nomad males, hoping to get lost in the numbers. But 
while 
they had no trouble getting in, they had trouble staying there for any length 
of 
time, because the moment they tried to do anything, they were taken out. So 
long 
as they remained within the tribe as young, unmated Nomad males, the Nomads 
accepted them and didn't bother them. But the moment they tried to do 
anything 



to exert any influence within the tribe, the shapechangers ran into a dead 
end. 
They could not take on the form of Nomad females because every Nomad female 
was 
known by every other male and female within the tribe and the only way to 
supplant one of them would be to kill the original and take her place. Much 
easier said than done, especially when your quarry can read your mind without 
your knowing it. And males did not have any voice in a matriarchal tribal 
leadership. If the ambimorph imposters tried to press the issue, they were 
immediately challenged by other young Nomad males and killed. The manner in 
which it was done made it appear as if it were a perfectly normal part of 
tribal 
life-unmated, young males frequently challenged one another in an attempt to 
prove themselves in the eyes of females who might consider them as potential 
mates and these ritual combats were always to the death. A bit extreme, 
perhaps, 
but males were a surplus commodity and the weaker ones were expendable. It 
improved the tribal gene pool. These ritual combats between unmated males 
invariably resulted in the defeat of ambimorphs trying to pass as Nomads, 
because they were at a marked disadvantage. They could not take on any other 
form without revealing themselves for what they were and their telepathy did 
not 
avail them in trying to win these fights, because there was always at least 
one 
female watching the contest and she would telepathically anticipate the next 
move the ambimorph imposter would make and communicate it to the Nomad male 
it 
was fighting via the secondary brain. And the ambimorphs never realized what 
was 
going on. 
The shapechangers had not yet managed to catch on that they were being 
systematically "weeded out" of the tribes in this manner. But it was only a 
matter of time before they'd figure it out and the Nomads knew that. For the 
time being, some of the ambimorphs were trying out the strategy of taking on 
the 
form of Nomad gods, taking their cues from the representational art and 
ritual 
dances of the tribes, but when it became clear that that wasn't working 
either, 
it would have to occur to the ambimorphs that something was going on that 
they 
didn't know about. They had never before encountered a species that could 
recognize them in any guise and they were confused. But eventually they'd 
figure 
it out. The Nomads knew they would not be. able to remain neutral any longer. 
They had to take sides. 
Why us? Because we were the logical choice. They knew their odds of coming 
out 
ahead were far greater if they came in on our side than if they helped the 
ambimorphs. 
"It makes perfect sense," said Breck. "For one thing, the shapechangers never 
asked for their help, they tried to compel it. Bad mistake. They were even 
more 
invasive than we were. We only came in and took some of their land. The 
shapechangers tried to take their identities. But beyond that, if the Nomads 
were to fight with the ambimorphs against us, they'd be much more vulnerable 
because they couldn't shapechange and they'd have damn little defense against 
our weapons. On the other hand, we'd cut just about any deal with them if it 
would help us against the ambimorphs, including pulling out of Purgatory and 
probably providing them with some technological support and weapons systems. 



That way, they could not only use any weapons we gave them against the 
ambimorphs remaining here, they could also turn them against us if we ever 
tried 
to double-cross them. Trusting us is still a risk for them, but it's a 
calculated one. And it looks as if we need them a lot more than they need us. 
I'd say they've thought it out quite well and made the best possible 
decision. 
They learn quickly." 
The sun was getting high as we walked up the mountain trail. I felt exposed 
and 
uncomfortable in my hand-me-down Nomad hides. Even though they had belonged to 
a 
very young male in Tyla's tal-ken, they were way too big for me. The 
proportions 
were all wrong. Nomad males were truly massive in the chest and shoulders. 
Their 
arms and legs were longer and thicker than ours. They were generally size 
extra 
extra large. A child's hides would have been too small and the only other 
alternative would have been to wear female clothing, which would have looked 
even sillier on me than the outsize hides. I looked like some sort of 
futuristic 
barbarian with my weapons strapped on over my hides. A futuristic barbarian 
who 
could have done without the cold drafts finding their way into my ensemble. 
There were about two dozen Nomad males with us, along with four females, 
including Tali and Tyla. All were armed with their long spears and stone 
axes. 
Breck and I carried our plasma pistols and semiautos, with as many extra 
magazines loaded with frags and stunners and as many plasma charge paks as we 
could carry. I noticed that several of the males had curious-looking bundles 
of 
woven scrub branches tied to their backs and my curiosity finally got the 
better 
of me. I asked Higgins what they were and immediately wished I hadn't. 
'Torches," he said. 
"Torches? But it isn't even midday yet," I said. "How far is this place?" 
"We're almost there," said Higgins. 
'Then why the torches?" 
"Because it's underground." 
"What?" 
"Underground. In a cavern." 
There was a tight feeling in my chest and it suddenly seemed difficult to 
breathe. Underground. In a cavern. It all came back to me with a sickening 
feeling of deja vu, that cavern on Draconis 9 where I had hung over a 
bottomless 
chasm, clinging by my fingertips to a pile of loose rock while a murderous 
crystal hunter had blazed away at me. The cavern where Stone had died, buried 
under tons of rock and shimmering crystal. 
I glanced at Breck, walking several yards ahead of me on the mountain trail. 


wondered what it must be like to have never felt afraid in your entire life, 
to 
be literally incapable of feeling fear. Breck had told me once that Special 
Service commandos were fascinated by fear because it was an emotion they 
could 
never feel. A good way to get a hybreed commando to stand you to a drink or 
two 
was to tell him about some time in your life when you'd been paralyzed with 
fear 



or terrified half out of your mind. Breck was no exception. He read horror 
fiction voraciously, trying to analyze and understand what it was that 
frightened people. He enjoyed discussing people's nightmares with them and he 
was fond of tuning into reruns of Psychodrome adventures where the players 
had 
been scared to death, in some cases literally. I once asked him what he felt 
when he plugged in and vicariously experienced someone else's fear and he had 
told me that he had vicariously felt some of fear's physical symptoms-the 
strange tightness in the chest brought on by stress, the racing pulse, the 
quickened respiration, the clammy skin, the knot in the pit of the 
stomach-but 
he was never able to get out of it that essential psychological trauma that 
was 
the essential fear experience. He never knew what it was to panic. He had 
been 
designed not to and someone else's fear experience simply didn't translate. 
He 
had worked out an intellectual understanding of it, but he could go no 
further. 
He couldn't feel it. I envied him that. I told him so once and he said, "You 
shouldn't." When I asked him why, he said that the ability to feel fear also 
brought with it an ability to feel an incredible euphoria that came in the 
aftermath of surviving a terrifying experience. 
"It's apparently much more than simply experiencing an adrenaline rush," he 
told 
me. "As I understand it, it's a sensation of incredible vitality. It's been 
described to me as a thrill that has no equal, an intoxicating joy at having 
confronted your own mortality, of laying it all on the line and surviving." 
He 
shrugged. "I wish to hell I knew what that was like. I've laid it all on the 
line more-times than I can count and I've felt no worse, no better. No one 
experience seems more memorable than any other and none has left me feeling 
thrilled. They were merely situations in which I might have died and didn't. 
People envy my being able to take these things in stride. They call it 
courage." 
He shook his head. "They're quite wrong, you know. Courage is not the absence 
of 
fear. It is the ability to confront one's fear and go on in spite of it. You 
can 
be courageous, O'Toole. I can only be fearless." 
The distinction had seemed a subtle one to me at the time, but I understood 
it 
better than ever now. In spite of all his wry jibes and ironic taunts, Breck 
actually respected me because I was a coward. 
"What was it Shakespeare wrote about a coward dying a thousand times and a 
hero 
dying only once?" he had said. And then he'd smiled. "Hell, dying once is not 
so 
hard. Dying a thousand times? Now that takes guts." 
At the moment, my guts were tying themselves in knots. The Nomads carrying 
the 
bundled torches on their backs had unshouldered their burdens and were 
passing 
them around. I looked up at the rock wall rising above us. It was honeycombed 
with caves. Apparently, we'd reached our destination. In a manner of 
speaking, 
it was all downhill from here. 
"How did they find out about this place?" I asked Higgins. 
"Simple," he responded, tapping his forehead with his index finger. "They 
learned about it from the ambimorphs who had tried to infiltrate the tribe. 



And 
this also happens to be the site where some of the god manifestations had 
occurred. The ambimorphs wanted the tribes to think that this was sacred 
ground. 
They paid lip service to the myth while they actually read the shapechangers' 
minds and found out what was really going on here." 
"I wish they could teach us that trick," Breck said. He looked at me and 
grinned. "Well, what do you say, O'Toole? You ready to bag yourself an 
ambimorph?" 
Bag was the word, all right. A lot of thought had been given to how we were 
supposed to contain an ambimorph once we managed to catch one. The assumption 
was that we would use stunners to immobilize the target, then literally bag 
it 
in a self-sealing plasteel polymer container. The plasteel polymer was 
flexible 
and microporous, so it would stretch and still retain a very high tensile 
strength. Presumably, the creature would be able to breathe inside it. 
Presumably, the shapechanger would not be able to break it or somehow seep 
through the microscopic pores. We were assured that based on what we knew of 
ambimorphs, that wasn't very likely. But then, we didn't know much about 
ambimorphs, so what the hell did that mean? We didn't even know if stunners 
would be effective against them. Presumably-there was that word again-if the 
ambimorph was in human form, or the form of any creature against which 
stunners 
had previously proved effective, then they would work. They had not seemed to 
work all that well on "Jarrett." It seemed to me that Coles and his 
xenobiologist advisors were presuming a great deal, but then nobody asked me. 
They just sent me and Breck out with some hardware that was supposed to knock 
out an ambimorph and a hi-tech sandwich bag that was supposed to keep it from 
escaping and we were supposed to take care of the rest. They didn't bother 
with 
the pesky little details. 
"I don't suppose anyone has any idea of how many am-bimorphs we're liable to 
run 
into in there?" I said. 
"Oh, I imagine that there'll be a few," said Breck, gazing thoughtfully at 
the 
cavern mouths. Huge, gaping mouths with stalactite teeth, waiting to swallow 
us 
up. 
"How the hell are we going to keep from shooting at each other in there?" I 
said, feeling the cold dampness on my back as fear sweated through my pores. 
"The females," Breck replied. 
"What?" I said. 
"Tyla and the others are going to link us all telepathically," Higgins 
explained. 
I swallowed hard and nodded. 
"Afraid?" said Higgins. 
I stared at him. "Aren't you?" 
"I'm scared spitless," he said. "But I wouldn't miss this for the world. No 
scientist has ever had a chance to observe a live ambimorph. No one has ever 
seen one in its natural state and I'm going to be the first to actually see 
them 
breeding! It's an incredible opportunity!" 
I shook my head. "Yeah, to get killed," I said. "I'll never understand 
scientists." 
"You don't want to go in there, do you?" Higgins said. 
I snorted. "Whatever gives you that idea?" 
"But you're going to do it anyway." 
I sighed. "Higgins, I. can't begin to tell you how much I want not to go in 



there," I said. "But you're right, I'm going to do it anyway. And you're 
going 
to ask me why and I'm going to tell you I don't know and you're going to 
suggest 
that maybe I'm not all that different from a scientist such as yourself. Only 
it 
isn't the same thing. You're scared, but you're going to do it because your 
enthusiasm, your scientific curiosity, outweighs your fear. With me, believe 
me, 
nothing outweighs my fear. I'm so goddamned scared that I may start to cry at 
any moment, but much as I don't want to do this, I've got to. I have no 
choice." 
"Why?" said Higgins. 
"To be perfectly honest with you, I don't really know. Because it's my job, I 
guess. Because Breck is going to do it and I can't let him go in there alone." 
"But he isn't going to be alone," said Higgins. "And Breck is a hybreed. He's 
incapable of feeling fear." 
"That makes no difference," I said. "We're a team. Partners. And partners 
don't 
let each other down. And I guess maybe there's more to it than that. AH my 
life, 
I've been a gambler. A hustler, strictly small-time, until I got into a game 
that was way over my head and that led me to what I'm doing now. The game's 
not 
over. The pot in the center of the table simply keeps on getting bigger and 
bigger, but the game goes on. And I just can't throw 'em in and fold so long 
as 
I've got money on the table. That make any sense to you?" 
"I think I understand," he said, with a smile. "We're not really so very 
different after all, you know. A scientist is a great deal like a gambler, in 
a 
sense. You don't really know the outcome of what you're doing. But you don't 
merely stumble along blindly, either. You play the odds. Sometimes you win, 
sometimes you lose. And in science, as in gambling, you probably lose more 
often 
than you win, but you keep going, hoping to at least break even, going for 
that 
win because it's worth it and because it feels so satisfying. And there's 
that 
special thrill when you know you've played the long shot and it's paid off. 
"And then, aside from that, there's also a certain sense of duty," he 
continued. 
"Like the responsibility you feel for your partner, Breck. It's my job, too, 
O’Toole.. And I can't let down all the other scientists out there who need to 
know what only I am in the position to find out right now. So perhaps you 
understand scientists a lot better than you think. We're gamblers, too. The 
only 
real difference is that most of the time, we don't stand to lose as much as 
you 
do. Except maybe in this case." 
I watched the Nomads light their torches and felt my heart inching its way up 
my 
throat. 
"I guess I never thought about it that way before," I said. "But it makes 
sense 
to me." 
"What I don't quite understand," said Higgins, "is why he does it." He 
glanced 
at Breck. "He's not a scientist and he's not a gambler. Risk holds no thrill 
for 



him. Hybreeds can't feel fear, so it can't be a danger high that motivates 
him. 
What is it with him, duty? Patriotism? A test of his abilities? What?" 
"All of those, I guess," I said. "But mostly it's what he does best. He's a 
soldier. It's what he was trained to do, what he was designed to do. I was a 
soldier once, myself. Not like Breck, of course, but I think that 
soldiers-regular army soldiers, that is-probably understand hybreeds better 
than 
anybody else. Better even than the people who designed them. They're 
different 
from ordinary people, sometimes in very obvious ways, sometimes in very 
subtle 
ones. And it goes beyond the biological differences between us. You and I are 
not the result of a carefully designed genetic matrix created in a 
laboratory. 
We had parents. We had a family life. We had roots. Hybreeds had none of 
those 
things. Behind all their strutting elitism, their arrogant nonchalance, is a 
very real and very painful awareness of the fact that they were shortchanged 
in 
some fairly important ways. And they're also painfully aware that in a 
certain 
sense, they were never really born so much as made. They can never have 
children 
of their own. There are certain emotions, such as fear, that they can never 
feel. And they know that something's missing." 
I watched Breck giving- instructions to Tali, who passed them on 
telepathically 
to the others. An officer giving a final briefing to his troops. He was in 
his 
element. 
"He can do more with that artificial arm of his than anyone could do with one 
made of flesh and blood," I said, "but technically, he's disabled and that 
means 
the SS can't use him anymore except in some administrative capacity. They 
designed him to do just one thing and then when he got hurt in the line of 
duty, 
they told him he couldn't do it anymore." I glanced from Breck, standing with 
the Nomads, to Higgins, standing next to me and watching him. "A lot of 
hybreeds 
commit suicide after they leave the service, did you know that?" 
"No, I didn't," he said. "I thought depression was stress-related, like fear. 
I 
would have thought they couldn't feel it because of the way they were 
designed." 
I nodded. "True, but I don't know what's worse, being depressed and feeling 
despair or not feeling anything at all. Except maybe that you're useless." 
"God," said Higgins, softly. 
"Breck's one of the lucky ones," I said. "He's found another way to keep on 
fighting battles, to continue being useful. And he's a glamorous star, famous 
and incredibly wealthy. A lot of people think he's got everything. But you 
know 
what? I think he'd trade it all to know, just once, what it was like to feel 
afraid." 
Breck was beckoning to us. 
"Poor bastard doesn't know what he's missing," I said wryly, taking a deep 
breath and letting it out slowly in an effort to steady my nerves. I 
moistened 
my lips and checked my weapons. "Shit. Let's go." 



ELEVEN 


How do you sneak up on creatures who can read your mind? The answer is, of 
course, you can't. To some extent, the Nomads could keep their thoughts 
secret 
from the ambimorphs, but they couldn't hide their presence. They could shut 
down 
their secondary level of intelligence, but the ambimorphs would detect their 
primary mental energy. And Higgins, Breck, and I couldn't do anything to 
hide. 
Tali could try to shield me telepathically, as she had done before, but I'd 
need 
all my faculties intact to get through this one. I couldn't take a chance on 
not 
being completely in control. Besides, Coles wanted both Breck and me 
clearheaded, so we could transmit our experiences back to Game Control. That 
way, even if we didn't make it, Coles would still have a record of what 
happened 
and the public would get one hell of a show-never suspecting it was real. And 
if 
we died, the official story would probably be that we had succumbed to the 
mental stress of a hallucinact computer simulation. Another case of psycho 
stars 
dying for the public's entertainment. Hey, that's show biz, folks. 
I recalled the nightmare in the mountain cavern on Draconis 9, when I'd come 
so 
very close to dying. The raw fire crystal that veined the cavern walls had 
kept 
Game Control from picking up our signal. Fire crystals were used for focusing 
the tachyon beam transmissions and the crystal formations in the cavern had 
kept 
our signals bouncing around inside the mountain. Fire crystals were not to be 
found on Purgatory, so there was no reason why Coles and Mondago couldn't 
follow 
all the action back at Game Control. Coles had insisted that under no 
circumstances were we to allow the Nomads to shield us telepathically. He 
didn't 
want to miss this for the world. 
I tried to imagine what the scene would be like back there, Mondago at the 
playermaster's console in the darkened room, Coles standing tensely behind 
him, 
plugged into an auxiliary psych-fidelity channel, watching the screens 
intently 
as the scan team monitored the readouts. Meanwhile, the xenobiologists and 
psychocybernetic engineers would all be glued to their own sets, plugged in 
and 
fail-safed, their access terminals on stand-by to receive the data as they 
fed 
in their impressions of what they would vicariously experience through us. 
I felt as if I were some kind of remote probe being sent into unexplored 
territory to record as much information as possible before the hostile 
environment destroyed me. In effect, that's exactly what I was to them, no 
more, 
no less. If I stopped functioning, at least they still had Breck. And if 
Breck 
was killed, they would all sigh collectively and go analyze the data we'd 
sent 
in while Coles lined up a couple of new probes. I didn't harbor any illusions 
that we meant anything to him or any of the vultures back there. We were 
nothing 



more than a means to an end. With any luck, not our end. 
As we went through the cavern mouth and the torchlight cast ghostly shadows 
on 
the rock walls, I wondered if Chameleon was tuned in. 
There was a time when I felt a certain sympathy for the ambimorph Coles had 
appropriately named Chameleon. He could easily have killed us in the Fire 
Islands or later on Draconis 9, when we believed him to be a crystal hunter 
named Nikolai Razin, but he hadn't, although he certainly had reason to. 
How would humans have reacted if we were confronted with aliens who came to 
Earth as if they owned the place and started hunting us for food? The idiots 
in 
the first survey party sent out to Draconis 9 had decided that the herds of 
large, slow-moving, placid creatures they had found there looked enough like 
steers to barbecue. The meat was apparently quite tasty, so the fools had 
continued to shoot the animals for food. And the ambimorphs, who made up a 
large 
part of the herds of peaceful quadrupeds, started to shapechange to human 
form 
in self-defense. 
I recalled how "Razin" had revealed himself to us and I recalled how he had 
said, "We want only to survive." I could understand that. I could even 
sympathize. But the trouble was, being telepaths, they knew us well enough to 
realize that we could not trust them and they could not trust us. 
There seemed to be no way around it. A shapechanger was a shapechanger and a 
human was a human and the universe, absurdly, did not seem big enough for 
both 
of us. We did not want them among us, pretending to be human, living with us, 
working with us, marrying our daughters, God forbid, and they did not want to 
take us at our word that we would not reduce Draconis to a cinder if they all 
went back to where they came from. Because, the sad truth of the matter was, 
that's probably just what we'd have done. 
And so the game continued-a game within a game within a game, with bystanders 
like the Nomads getting dragged in against their will. So long as there were 
ambimorphs among us, we could not attack their home world for fear of their 
unleashing war the like of which the human race had never seen. Something 
they 
had learned from us. And what kept the ambimorphs from all-out warfare was 
the 
fear that we would then destroy their home world. An impasse. 
Meanwhile, we tried to protect people from the truth, to pretend that none of 
this was really happening, to convince them all-with a massive cover-up and 
propaganda reinforced with covert mind-control techniques-that it was merely 
another game scenario of Psychodrome. And as we played for time, working 
desperately to find a way to ferret out the ambimorphs among us, they 
increased 
their number and made their presence felt with acts of terrorism here and 
there, 
such as the sabotage on Purgatory. Except at least one of them, Chameleon, 
had 
started to escalate the game. 
Could anybody win? Hell, I didn't know. I was still trying to figure out 
which 
was worse, living in a world where you never had any way of knowing if the 
person you were with was really human or living in a world where everyone was 
hardwired with a biochip and you never had any way of knowing if someone was 
accessing your mind. The way we were going, we'd probably wind up with both. 
An 
ambimorph could read your mind, a man like Coles could program it 
subliminally. 
Christ, no wonder Higgins wanted to remain on Purgatory. 



"Never mind me," Higgins said, "just keep your mind on what you're doing." 
I jerked and. spun around to face him, startled to hear him say that, and then 
I 
realized that he hadn't actually said it. He had thought it. 
"Tali's got us mindlinked," he said, though he said it in my mind and not out 
loud. The phenomenon was similar to the effect of Coles or Mondago contacting 
me 
via my biochip. I could actually "hear" him, though, of course, I wasn't 
really 
hearing him at all. Tali was picking up his thoughts and relaying them to me. 
"It feels strange at first" Higgins continued thinking at me, through Tali, 
"but 
being accustomed to a biochip, you and Breck should make the adjustment 
pretty 
quickly. Try not to let your mind wander. Otherwise, that makes it difficult 
for 
Tali. Concentrate. Discipline your mind. Think only about the job at hand.'' 
I tried to push all extraneous thoughts out of my head and concentrate only 
on 
the damp, downward-sloping tunnel floor before me. It was not an easy task. I 
was nervous as all hell-frankly, I was scared to death-and at such times, my 
mind has a tendency to bounce from train of thought to train of thought like 
a 
ping-pong ball. But I had to make an effort to "empty my mind," as the Zen 
roshis in Japan would say, and open myself up only to the here and now, to 
the 
sights and smells and sounds inside the cavern tunnel. 
The four Nomad females who had accompanied us were the four most gifted 
telepaths in the tribe. And their job would be a great deal more difficult 
than 
ours. Between the four of them, they not only had to link the rest of us 
together telepathically, so that the ambimorphs would not be able to confuse 
us, 
but they had to be prepared to defend themselves, as well. And having three 
humans in the telepathic matrix made things much more difficult for them than 
if 
all of us were Nomads. We were the weak link. We had the least amount of 
mental 
discipline. Except for Breck, whose will and self-control were superhuman. I 
breathed deeply as I walked and forced myself to relax as much as possible 
under 
the circumstances. I think Tali helped. Or maybe it was Breck. 
It was an incredible experience. In a sense, it was roughly similar to the 
experience that someone in our home audience might have. It was like being 
tuned 
in to someone else, sharing their perceptions, their feelings, and even their 
thoughts, which was something psych-fidelity did not offer to the fans. My 
audience at home, apparently because I was a better "projector" than most, had 
a 
superficial sense of what it felt like to be me, to feel about things the way 
I 
did and to experience my emotions, but they could not literally read my mind. 
In 
this case, we could do that. I could tell what Breck was thinking. Breck knew 
what Higgins thought. And Higgins was able to share Garr's thoughts and so on 
and so on, all of us linked in a gestalt that gave us shared thoughts and 
perceptions. It had to be incredibly exhausting for Tali and the other 
females, 
Tyla, Lina, and Tola, one of Tyla's daughters with her husband Zaal-who was 
also 



with us. I wondered how long they would be able to keep it up and was 
immediately reprimanded by Higgins once again, who told me-or thought at 
me-to 
keep my mind on the business at hand and stop plugging up the matrix with my 
anxieties. 
Sure. Easier thought than done. I sensed Tali's displeasure and tried to 
concentrate on our surroundings. 
The mountain was honeycombed with caverns. Smaller tunnels created by 
volcanic 
action met up with ours from time to time and I hoped we'd be able to find 
our 
way out again-no, stop that, don't think about that stuff, just pay attention 
to 
everything around you-there was a barely perceptible, cool breeze against my 
cheek, coming up from the caverns somewhere still ahead of us, which meant 
that 
there were other openings connecting with the cavern. It was just like that 
cavern back on Draconis 9, when we-no. I swallowed hard and concentrated on 
the 
present. 
The torchlights flickered ahead of me as the Nomads in the vanguard descended 
down into the tunnel, heading deeper and deeper inside the mountain. I saw 
their 
shadows lengthen on the rock walls as they turned around a bend. The tunnel 
floor was sloping much more sharply now and the breeze coming from below 
seemed 
stronger. I slipped slightly on the steep grade and put my hand out to steady 
myself on a large thick stalagmite to my right . . . and immediately jerked 
back 
my hand as it encountered something slimey. 
I stopped abruptly and brought my hand up in front of my face, staring at it 
in 
the torchlight. It was glistening, covered with a slippery, slimey, clear 
substance of some sort. I was suddenly overcome with revulsion and I started 
frantically wiping the stuff off on my hides. 
"O'Toole ..." 
Behind me, Higgins was holding his torch close to the stalagmite. The entire 
rock formation was coated with the slick, glistening slime. My stomach felt 
queasy. 
"What is it?" I thought. 
Higgins shook his head. "I don't know." He brought the torch down lower, 
illuminating more of the stalagmite, closer to the ground. The glistening 
slime 
coated the stalagmite down to its base and then it went across the tunnel 
floor 
and up the opposite rock wall, ending at a large crevice high up in the wall. 
"Jesus," Higgins thought. "It's a trail, like what a slug would leave or . . 
."He glanced back at me. ". . .an ambimorph in its natural state?" 
I shivered and started wiping my hand against my hides again. 
"Come on, you two" Breck's voice came to us in our minds. "You're falling 
behind." 
"Breck," I thought intently, "there's a-" 
"I know. Keep your eyes open and your weapon handy." 
I pulled my plasma pistol out of its holster and checked the charge pak 
again. 
Then I flicked the safety off. Unlike Breck, I could only handle one weapon at 
a 
time. I was never any good at that fancy two-gun stuff, so I had given my 
semiauto to Higgins, along with a pouch containing spare magazines. They were 
color coded. The black magazines contained the stunners. The red ones held 



the 
fragmentation rounds. 
"If the stunners don't get the job done," I had told him before we started 
down, 
"forget about taking one alive. Jack out the magazine and slap in one of the 
red 
ones. The frags will stop 'em." 
"Assuming I can hit anything with this," Higgins had said wryly. "I don't 
have 
much experience with firearms. Maybe I'd be better off with the plasma gun." 
"Are you kidding? If you start shooting wild with that thing, we're all going 
to 
cook! If you're not sure what you're doing, you're better off with the 
semiauto. 
It's lighter and a lot easier to use." 
"There's only one problem," he had said. "You know what's liable to happen if 
I 
start popping off with exploding rounds inside a cavern?" 
"Would you rather carry a spear?" I had said. 
"Might be a whole lot safer," he had replied. 
"Yeah, for the ambimorphs. Just take the damn thing and make sure you hit 
what 
you shoot at. Wait till your target's close enough to spit at if you have to. 
Whatever you do, don't panic and start spraying frags all over the place. 
That's 
liable to get real messy." 
He had looked at the gun as if it would bite him. 
"Christ, what the hell do you use when you go out in the desert all by 
yourself?" I'd asked him. 
He had reached into his pack and pulled out a small canister about ten inches 
long with a circumference only slightly larger than that of a small billy 
club. 
"What the hell is that?". I'd said. 
"XQ-4," he had said. "Chemical irritant. It's got good range, you don't have 
to 
be all that accurate. It discourages most creatures without harming them." 
"Well, what happens if you get a stubborn one that just keeps right on 
coming?" 
He had reached into his pack again and took out a leather bootsheath, from 
which 
he had pulled a huge honest-to-God Bowie knife. I had stared at it with 
disbelief. 
"You're kidding," I'd said. 
He had frowned slightly. "Why, what's wrong with it?" he had asked. 
"Nothing, if you want to whittle tent pegs or chop carrots. But as a serious 
weapon, it leaves something to be desired." 
"Breck's got knives," he had said. 
"Breck's got reflexes that are at least three times as fast as yours, to say 
nothing of his strength," I'd told him. "Do yourself a favor. Forget the 
pigsticker and take the gun." 
He had the semiauto in his hand now, but he had also tucked the Bowie down 
into 
his boot. 
"O'Toole!" Breck's voice in my mind snapped me out of it. "You hear it?" 
From somewhere up ahead of us came a roaring sound that echoed through the 
cavern. 
"Water," Higgins thought as he came up behind me. "It's an underground 
waterfall!" 
As we rounded the bend, the tunnel opened out into a large cavern. The 
torches 



we carried could not begin to illuminate it all. I could feel the spray from 
the 
waterfall on my face. Its roar was deafening. 
Breck fired his plasma pistol at the roof of the cavern. The charges slammed 
into several large stalactites, superheating them and causing them to ignite, 
the mineral deposits in them burning with a white-hot flame and lighting up 
the 
cavern all around us. 
The waterfall roared down from a fissure in the wall about sixty feet above 
us. 
It crashed down into a depression about forty feet below. Billowing clouds of 
misty spray came rising up from the churning water. The crumbled rocks around 
the waterfall's base were glistening, but not only from the spray. 
One of the Nomads started screaming, batting at himself wildly. A dozen or 
more 
translucent, silvery lumps of protoplasm clung to him, creatures that looked 
less like slugs than like fist-sized globules of mercury. A large rock 
outcropping next to which he'd stood was covered with them. It glistened with 
slime as they moved over it, some of them the size of grapefruits, others 
larger, more oblong, up to several feet in length. The Nomad scrambled back 
blindly from the rock outcropping, screaming and tearing the creatures off 
his 
body, and before anyone could stop him, he slipped over the edge and fell to 
his 
death onto the rocks below. As I stared down in horrified fascination, the 
rocks 
began to squirm and writhe. They rose up over the body of the fallen Nomad 
and 
covered it completely as they started to assimilate it. 
The other Nomads were jabbing with their spears at the silvery globules on 
the 
ground around them, hammering at the creatures with their axes and thrusting 
down at them with their torches. The torches were having more effect. Some of 
the smaller globules began to bubble and run, like plastic melting. The other 
ambimorphs escaped by turning into insects and rapidly scuttling away or 
shapechanging into various small animals and reptiles native to 
Purgatory-lizards, sandstriders, and other creatures I'd never even seen 
before. 
A number of them turned into leather flyers similar to birds. A bunch of them 
flew at my face and I cried out as I backed away, shielding my eyes. I felt 
stinging pain in my hands and on my arms and when I looked at them, they were 
bleeding in a dozen places where the flesh had been torn away. 
"O'Toole! Help me! I've dropped my gun!" 
Higgins was backed up against a wall, an expression of stark terror on his 
face 
as several of the creatures crawled toward him, shapechanging into voracious 
multilegged sandstriders as they came. He reached out to me desperately. 
"Throw me your gun, quick!" he shouted. 
Without thinking, I almost did it when a voice inside my mind cried, "No!" and 
a 
Bowie knife came whistling through the air past my ear and thudded into his 
chest, embedding itself almost completely to the hilt. He cried out and 
clutched 
at the huge blade, then sank down to his knees and fell forward onto his face. 


turned, stunned, to see the real Higgins standing a short distance behind me, 
waving me on. 
"Think, O'Toole, don't talk!" he thought at me through the mindlink. 
"Remember, 
ambimorphs can't send!" 



He fired several stunners, clicked on an empty magazine, jacked it out, and 
slapped in a red one. 
"Higgins! That's a frag-" 
"I know, damn it, the stunners aren't even slowing the damn things down!" 
Breck came plunging past me, carrying one of the plasteel polymer sacks in 
his 
right hand. Something inside it was squirming. 
"Let's go!" his voice came through the mindlink, "I've bagged a couple of 
them! 
Everyone get out! Get out now!" He passed me, firing as he ran. 
I fired a plasma charge at a cloud of cluttering insects that came down at us 
from the ceiling of the cavern. It incinerated most of them and steamed into 
the 
waterfall. Breck was firing down at the rocks, where the creatures were 
breeding. The larger ones were dividing rapidly, stretching like glistening 
translucent taffy and breaking apart like globules of quicksilver. They 
bubbled 
as the plasma charges whumped into the rocks, frying them and igniting the 
mineral deposits. 
The entire cavern was in flames. Plasma commingled with the spray mist filled 
the underground chamber with fire and steam. There were loud popping sounds 
as 
rock cracked and shattered from the intense heat. Spray hitting the burning 
plasma filled the cavern with a hissing as if the place were filled with 
thousands of gigantic snakes. 
I felt something winding itself around my leg. The nightmare plucked from my 
subconscious coiled itself around me, its jaws gaping wide. I incinerated its 
head with a plasma blast, wincing as the wash of heat blistered my skin. My 
hides were smoking. I heard the sound of Higgins firing the frag rounds, the 
echoing blasts as they went off, and then the ominous rumble from the rock 
walls. 
A Nomad was suddenly in front of me, holding a spear. I leveled my pistol at 
him. "Who are you?" I thought at him, and he made the mistake of replying out 
loud, in English. 
"Don't shoot, I'm Garr!" 
"Wrong answer," I said, and fired point-blank at his chest. 
The creature screamed briefly as the plasma whumped into its torso, burning a 
huge hole straight through it. The body burst into flames and fell backward, 
a 
charred hulk of crackling, steaming flesh. And then I heard shrill screaming 
as 
Tyla and several of the male Nomads became engulfed by an army of tiny 
shapechangers in the form of sandstriders. 
The voracious crablike creatures swarmed over them, turning their bodies 
black 
with their wriggling hairy forms. The Nomads screamed in terror and agony. 
Tyla 
panicked, sending waves of searing pain and hysterical fear through the 
mindlink. Higgins screamed out her name and lunged toward her. Two Nomad 
males 
grabbed him and started to pull him away as he struggled, screaming her name, 
and then I felt her shrieking terror in my mind, her unspeakable agony as the 
sandstriders ate her alive. I leveled my plasma pistol at her and fired a 
blast 
on wide dispersion. 
For an incandescent second, I "felt" a wash of unbelievably intense, searing 
heat all over my body and then she was gone and Higgins was screaming as the 
Nomads carried him away. I kept firing ceaselessly, feeling the pistol 
growing 
hot in my hand as creatures of every size, shape, and description scuttled, 



crawled, flew, and slithered toward me as the cavern burned and clouds of 
steam 
obscured my vision and choked my lungs. Then there was a rumbling that was 
even 
louder than the roaring of the waterfall and the hissing of the steam and I 
turned and ran, the last one out, my legs pumping as I followed the bobbing 
torches ahead of me down the tunnel. The entire damn mountain was coming 
down, 
the rock groaning like some gigantic beast in its dying throes, and then it 
roared its last as tons of stone cascaded down behind me. 
It was happening again, just like the last time, when the wall of rock came 
down 
and crushed our skimmer, burying Stone. I ran blindly, ignoring the pain as I 
sideswiped a rock outcropping and scraped my side raw. I ran, my lungs 
bursting, 
stark terror driving me as the tunnel shook and I felt tremors in the ground 
beneath my feet. Behind me, there was a sound like thunder, like a bomb going 
off, and the ceiling of the tunnel started to cave in on me. 
I felt the rocks raining down, the shards of stone lacerating me ... and then 
Tali was there, inside my mind, urging me on, giving me a fresh burst of 
energy 
and speed and I saw daylight up ahead. As I burst out of the tunnel, I felt 
powerful hands grab me underneath my arms and lift me as two Nomads, Garr and 
Zaal, picked me up and ran with me down the slope. Then we were falling, 
tumbling head over heels as the ground shook and the mountain collapsed in 
upon 
itself. 
I gulped in air as I lifted my head and saw Breck on his hands and knees, 
still 
holding onto the plasteel polymer sack. The creatures in the sack were 
squirming, trying to break free, but the material held. Breck slammed the 
sack 
savagely against the ground several times and they stopped squirming. Tali 
and 
Toli had both made it out. Toli had collapsed upon the ground. She looked 
unconscious. There was no sign of Lina. Of the males, only six were left and 
all 
of them were wounded, two of them badly. Breck was breathing hard and his 
face 
was ashen. I'd never seen him look that way before. 
"I felt it," he said, swallowing hard, his chest rising and falling as he 
breathed deeply. "Her fear, her terror, I actually felt it! So that's what 
it's 
like! I had no idea! I never knew anything could be so incredibly ..." His 
voice 
trailed off as he failed to find words to describe an emotion he had never 
before experienced and then he saw Higgins sitting on the ground, staring at 
him 
with a stricken expression. "My God, I'm sorry, Higgins," Breck said. "I'm 
truly 
sorry." 
I tried to lift myself up off the ground, but I had nothing left. Nothing 
whatsoever. Tendrils of smoke curled up from my blackened hides. My face, 
arms, 
hands, and legs were scored with scrapes and lacerations. I felt blood 
running 
down from a large gash in my forehead. My right side was badly bruised from a 
collision with a rock outcropping and it felt as if I might have fractured 
several ribs. The plasma pistol, still gripped tightly in my right hand, was 
so 



hot that the grips had melted and burned into my flesh. 
I felt Tali gently easing her way into my mind, shielding me, enveloping me, 
shutting me off from the agonies of my battered body. I felt as if I were 
drifting, cut loose from myself and floating in a warm and soothing darkness. 
I 
heard Breck saying something to me, but I could not make out the words. They 
seemed to echo in my mind. I could no longer see, I could no longer feel. The 
last thing I heard was the far-off sound of Higgins softly sobbing. 


TWELVE 


The plasteel polymer tape around my chest felt tight, which was the general 
idea. I wasn't supposed to move much, not with three fractured ribs. My right 
hand was tightly wrapped, as well, where the plasma pistol grips had melted 
and 
burned into my palm. My arms and legs were bandaged, my face felt swollen, and 
I 
ached all over. 
"How do you feel?" said the doctor. 
"Like a mountain fell on me," I said. 
"I've given you something for the pain," the doctor said, "but it won't knock 
all of it out and I wouldn't want it to. I want you to hurt a little, so 
you'll 
take it easy for a while." 
I was strapped down onto a gurney inside some sort of small room. I was still 
feeling slightly disoriented. I seemed to feel a sensation of motion. I 
looked 
around. "Where am I?" 
"In the cargo compartment of a desert sled," said the doctor. "Perhaps not 
the 
fastest way to travel, but it's the best thing I could come up with on such 
short notice. My name's Shulman. Dr. Jay Shulman. Your friend Breck is up 
front, 
driving. Your Nomad girl is sleeping up front in the passenger seats, along 
with 
Higgins. He's a bit banged up, but nowhere near as bad as you are. The Nomad 
girl's not hurt; however, she was totally worn out. She looked on the verge 
of 
collapse, but she wouldn't leave your side. I had to plead with her to take a 
rest." 
"How did you find us?" I said. "Who-" 
"I received a priority-red tachyon transmission from a man named Coles," said 
Shulman. "I've never received a priority-red transmission in my life and I 
didn't even know anyone who had, so you bet I sat up and took notice. I took 
even more notice when your Mr. Coles offered me the equivalent of a year's 
salary and an appointment to the staff of a corporate medical facility on 
Earth 
if I dropped everything I was doing and immediately took a medevac across the 
desert to some Nomad village in the high country." 
"Coles did that?" 
"Indeed, he did. You've got friends in high places, O'Toole. And it's a good 
thing, too. You're going to need them." 
"What do you mean?" 
"You've got the people out here in a pretty ugly mood. There's a warrant out 
for 
Breck's arrest on a charge of murder. He's been accused of killing a man 
named 
Strang and a young woman named Jane Carmody, who worked for Cody Jarrett. You 
and Higgins have been charged as accessories, along with that Nomad wife of 
his. 



What's more, Jarrett's disappeared and everyone knows he went out into the 
desert, after you. People think you did him in, as well." 
"What do you think?" 
"I think I sure would like to get off this goddamned rock and back to a 
well-paying appointment as a medical director back on Earth," he said. "That 
thought pretty much occupies my mind right now. Beyond that, I don't think 
anything." 
"You've told Breck all this?" 
Shulman nodded. "He didn't seem terribly concerned. He said he expected it. 
He 
assures me that your Mr. Coles will take care of the problem. Or should I say 
our Mr. Coles?" He smiled. "I'd just about given up on ever getting out of 
here. 
I'll tell you something, O'Toole, for what your friend Coles is offering, I'd 
help you get off planet even if you did do it." 
"So then you don't believe we did it?" 
"If you did, do me a favor and don't tell me. My conscience will rest a 
little 
easier if I continue to believe you're innocent." 
"Well, in that case, Doctor, your conscience can rest easy. I can swear to 
you 
on a stack of Bibles and my mother's grave that we didn't kill any people on 
Purgatory." 
"That's good enough for me," he said. He got up and went over to a rack of 
storage bins built into the bulkhead. "However, in case it's not good enough 
for 
the security boys . . ." He lifted the lid and reached inside. He pulled out 
an 
assault rifle. 
"I've got four more of these in here," he said. "Never a good idea to go out 
into the bush unarmed, you know. Lots of dangerous creatures out here." He 
put 
the rifle back inside the bin, then reached in again and took out a couple of 
objects that looked like very large bright-red eggs. "And I figured I'd bring 
along a few of these as well," he added. 
My eyes widened. "Where the hell did you get those?" They were plasma 
incendiary 
grenades. "Those are supposed to be military issue only!" 
Shulman shrugged. "Supply-side economics," he said. 
"What?" 
"I created a demand, and there arose an outlet of supply." 
"What the hell kind of doctor are you?" I asked him. 
Shulman raised his eyebrows. "A surgeon, of course." 
Higgins came into the back. "How's he doing?" he said. 
"Ask him yourself," said Shulman. "He'll be okay if he takes it easy for a 
while. I'll keep him strapped in till we get to the spaceport. With any luck, 
we'll be off planet before anyone even knows you're back." 
Higgins looked down at me. "You okay?" he said. 
I nodded. "I'll live. Listen, Grover, about Tyla . . ." 
He shook his head and held up a hand to stop me. "It's all right," he said, 
his 
face expressionless. "You did what you had to do. I understand. If our roles 
were reversed, I'd have done the same. She was dead, anyway. You just saved 
her 
a lot of pain." He closed his eyes briefly, squeezing them shut, and clenched 
his teeth. A moment later, he had himself in hand again. He looked at me and 
nodded. "It's all right," he said again. "I guess there's nothing to hold me 
here now. I'm going back with you." 
"How's Tali?" 
"Exhausted," he said. He looked pretty bad, himself. "She kept you under 



until 
Doc Shulman was able to get out to us. That, plus the mindlink, has taken it 
all 
out of her." 
"I owe her a great deal," I said. "She saved my life. And I'm making it up to 
her by taking her away from her home world, away from her people and 
everything 
she knows." 
"Don't lay that on yourself," said Higgins. "You're not taking her anywhere. 
She's going because it will help her people. And also because she wants to. 
You 
couldn't do anything with her against her will. She's glimpsed bits and 
pieces 
of human society through telepathic communion with you and she wants to learn 
more about it, to experience it for herself. Don't worry about Tali. She 
knows 
exactly what she's doing." 
"I don't know, maybe you're right. But I can't help feeling as if I'm taking 
a 
young girl away from her home and family, like I'm robbing the cradle or 
something." 
"True, she is young," Higgins said. "For a Nomad." 
"What does that mean?" 
"It means she's not quite as young as you might think. Their lifespan is 
considerably longer than ours," said Higgins. "If anyone's doing any cradle 
robbing around here, it's her." 
"How old is she?" I said. 
"Difficult to tell," said Higgins. "Nomads aren't too concerned with things 
like 
counting birthdays. She's probably got at least twenty or thirty years on 
you, 
maybe more. By Nomad standards, O'Toole, you're just a child." 
"We're approaching the terminal," Breck's voice came over the speaker. "And 
it 
looks as if we've been expected. They've got the shuttle hangars blocked off." 
Shulman started breaking out the arms and slapping in the magazines, checking 
them very professionally. 
"Are you sure this guy's a doctor?" I asked Higgins. 
"I served with eighteen different M.A.S.H. units in thirteen corporate 
mercenary 
wars," said Shulman, tossing Higgins an assault rifle. "I've seen about every 
kind of wound and injury there is. If you're busted up so bad that I can't 
patch 
you up, believe me, no one can." 
"Doc Shulman's about the best we've got out here," said Higgins. "His bedside 
manner leaves something to be desired, though." 
His wasn't the sort of background that would appeal to most medical 
institutions, I thought, but it would impress a man like Coles, who dealt in 
the 
harsher realities of life. The sled settled to the ground with a diminishing 
whine of engines. Shulman came over to my gurney and released the catches on 
the 
straps. 
"Sit up slowly now," he said, helping me up with one hand and holding an 
assault 
rifle in the other. "Feeling any pain?" 
"Some," I said, wincing as I sat up. And, abruptly, the pain all went away. I 
glanced up and saw Tali standing in the companionway. 
Shulman noticed her and pointed an admonishing finger at her. "Now don't you 
go 



blanking out all his pain again," he said. "He needs a little pain to warn 
him 
when he's pushing himself too far. Let him feel at least a little of it, 
otherwise he might injure himself worse. You understand?" 
She nodded. "I understand. Enough pain to warn, but not enough to suffer." 
"You got it," Shulman said. He shook his head. "Boy, I wish I had her with me 
in 
some of the M.A.S.H. units I served with. Telepathic anesthesiology, would 
you 
believe it? Mental acupuncture! Christ, these people would be invaluable in 
battlefield conditions!" 
"You didn't seem so interested when I asked you to fly out to their village 
with 
me and treat some of their sick," said Higgins. 
"Are you going to start with that again?" said Shulman. "Look, I told you, I 
was 
being paid to patch up workers who kept opening each other's skulls with lug 
wrenches and getting injured on the job. I wasn't getting paid to fly out 
across 
the desert and give antibiotics to the natives because you 'd infected them 
with 
a cold virus." 
"What about your Hippocratic oath?" 
"Hippocrates didn't pay my tuition to medical school. And nowhere in the oath 
does it say that people are entitled to the fruits of my labors for free." 
"What about charity?" said Higgins. 
"Charity's worth exactly what you pay for it," said Shulman, slamming back 
the 
bolt on his rifle. "Let me tell you something, Higgins, people don't value 
anything unless it costs 'em." He glanced out the window and snorted. "Got 
ourselves a bit of a mob out there," he said. "Lots of familiar faces. I've 
patched up over half those guys at one time or another." 
"And now you're going to shoot them?" Higgins said. 
"Hell, I put 'em together, I can blow 'em apart," said Shulman. "Look, 
treehugger, I know those people out there. They're a rough bunch and they're 
mad. Pointing a gun at them isn't going to stop them. You'd better shoot. 
Otherwise, give the rifle to O'Toole here. He doesn't look like he's afraid 
to 
pull the trigger." 
"I'm not afraid," said Higgins, tightly. But he put down the rifle just the 
same 
and took the semiauto I'd given him out of its holster. "But I think I'll use 
this instead. I've loaded it with stunners. I don't want to kill anyone unless 
I 
have to." 
"Suit yourself," said Shulman. He glanced sharply at Tali as she picked up 
the 
assault rifle Higgins had put down. "Hey, be careful with that!" 
She slammed back the bolt the way she'd seen Shulman do and looked at him 
questioningly. "Now it is ready to function?" she said. 
Shulman looked at her steadily for a moment, then nodded. "Yeah, just point 
it 
and squeeze the trigger," he said, indicating the trigger on his own weapon. 
He 
glanced at me. "Like I said, I could've used her in my M.A.S.H. units." 
From outside, a voice blared over a bullhorn. "Come on out, Breck! We know 
you're in there! If you try to take off again in that sled, we'll open fire 
and 
blow your fuel cells!" 
Breck came into the back. He glanced at me, sitting up on the gurney, looking 



like a wounded caveman in my hide loincloth, taped chest, and bandages. "How 
do 
you feel?" he said. 
"A little stiff, but I'll manage," I said. 
"Here, take this," he said, handing me his semiauto. 
I took it with my left hand. I glanced at the grip indicator and saw a strip 
of 
red through the clear plastic. It was loaded with frags. 
"Can you shoot left-handed?" Shulman said. 
"I can learn," I said. I looked at Breck. "Isn't there any way we can avoid 
this?" 
"I'm open for suggestions," he said. 
I didn't have any. 
"When's the next shuttle due out?" I asked Shulman. 
He gave me a wry look. "What do you think this is, O'Toole, a commuter route? 
We're not exactly on the main line out here, you know. There's no schedule. A 
ship comes when it comes and then they send a shuttle up. Or one comes down. 
Your friend Coles said to get you to the terminal. All right, I got you to 
the 
terminal. Next move is up to him. And I hope like hell he makes it soon." 
"We might have a long, long wait," said Higgins. "And those people out there 
don't look very patient." 
"That's their problem," Shulman said, lining up a row of frag magazines on 
top 
of the storage bin beside him. 
"Breck!" the voice on the bullhorn called again. "This is Security Chief 
Blaisedell. We have a warrant for your arrest, and the arrest of Arkady 
O'Toole, 
Grover Higgins, and the Nomad female known as Tyla. Now we know you're in 
there. 
Come on out and nobody will get hurt." 
"I wonder what your friend Coles had in mind," said Higgins, glancing out the 
window nervously. "If any of those men out there are armed with plasma 
weapons, 
we're going to fry in here." 
"The consortium wouldn't risk arming Blaisedell or any of his thugs with 
plasma 
weapons," Shulman said. "Still, you never know. Things manage to get smuggled 
in." He snapped a plasma grenade onto the launcher attachment of his assault 
rifle. 
"Breck, O'Toole, stay put," said Coles, speaking to us through our biochips. 
"I've got a light battle cruiser heading your way. I've had it stationed out 
there in an asteroid belt, where the scanners on Purgatory couldn't pick it 
up. 
They should be there any moment." 
"Well, I hope they hurry," I said. 
"What?" said Shulman. "Who're you talking to?" 
"Coles," I said. I tapped my head. 
Shulman understood. "Well? Is he sending help to get us out of here or isn't 
he?" 
"A light cruiser's on the way," said Breck. 
"A battle cruiser?" Shulman said. "God damn! I might get off this lousy rock 
yet!" 
"Breck! I'm only gonna give you one more chance . . ." Blaisedell called over 
the bullhorn. 
Shulman slid open the window. "Blaisedell!" he shouted. 
"That you, Doc?" 
"Yeah, it's me. You'd better back those people off if you don't want 'em to 
get 
hurt!" 



"Can't do that, Doc. You're making a mistake. I don't know what they've 
offered 
you, but believe me, it's not worth it." 
"Oh, yes, it is." 
"They killed a girl, Doc. And they murdered Strang and Jarrett, too." 
"They tell me they haven't." 
"We got proof." 
"Fine. Come on in and show it to me and I might reconsider." 
"Now don't be a fool, Doc. You come on out. And tell those people in there 
with 
you that if they're smart, they'll come out, too. There aren't any ships up 
there. Nobody's going anywhere. You'd never even make it to the shuttle 
hangars." 
"I hope Mr. Coles knows what he's doing," Shulman said softly. Then he yelled 
out the window, "I'm warning you, Blaisedell, you better back those people 
off. 
We're armed with assault rifles in here, just like you are. And we've got 
some 
plasma, too. You start shooting, we're gonna have to shoot right back." 
"You always were a lousy poker player, Doc! You're bluffing!" 
"Call it, then!" 
"You asked for it, Doc!" 
Several rounds of fragmentation fire hit the sled. The rounds exploded and 
blew 
jagged gaping holes in the bulkhead. 
"Read 'em and weep, Blaisedell!" shouted Shulman, firing the grenade launcher 
out the window. It made a hollow, metallic, chunking noise and a moment 
later, 
it went off with a tremendous WHUMP! A huge cloud of orange and black flame 
blossomed on the tarmac behind the crowd and they scattered in all directions. 
"This isn't necessary!" Higgins said. "Can't we explain it to them? They 
don't 
understand!" 
"Even if they gave us a chance to explain," said Breck, "they'd never believe 
it." 
"You could show them!" Higgins insisted. "You could show them the living 
proof!" 
"And risk having them escape after all we went through to capture them?" 
Breck 
said. He shook his head. "I don't think so, Higgins. There's far too much 
riding 
on this. I'm not taking any chances." 
"You figure Coles is going to broadcast this?'' I asked Breck. 
Breck grimaced. "Somehow, I doubt it. Shooting up innocent civilians can't be 
too good for our image." 
He broke a window with his nysteel hand as sporadic fire broke out and let 
loose 
with several bursts from his assault rifle. Tali watched him carefully for a 
moment, then went over to another window, opened it, and started firing her 
rifle in short bursts to keep the barrel from overheating, just like Breck 
was 
doing. 
Shulman snapped on another plasma grenade and fired the launcher. Chunk . . . 
WHUMP! Another flame cloud burst upon the tarmac, making a huge burning 
crater 
just in front of the terminal building. The terminal caught fire. I started 
to 
get up off the gurney, but Shulman waved me back down. 
"You stay right where you are, O'Toole," he said. "I don't want you ruining 
any 



of my good work." 
Several fragmentation rounds hit the sled and sent shrapnel flying through 
it, 
missing me by inches. I ducked down and winced at the pain in my ribs. 
"I don't think it's much safer back here," I said. 
The sled was starting to resemble a cheese grater. I was bleeding from my 
shoulder and my forehead, where I'd been hit by flying shrapnel. Breck was 
bleeding on the side of his face and Higgins had been hit, as well. He was 
tying 
a makeshift tourniquet around his left arm. 
"If they manage to hit the fuel cells, we've had it," he said. 
"We can't sit here and wait any longer," said Breck. "We'll have to make a 
run 
for one of the shuttles and get airborne." 
"We'd never make it," Shulman said. "They'd cut us down before we were even 
halfway there!" 
"Not if we take the sled," Breck said, heading for the cockpit. 
"If we lift off and retract the landing struts, it'll expose the fuel cells," 
Shulman said. 
"So we won't retract the landing struts," said Breck, starting the engines. 
"Are you crazy?" Shulman shouted over the whine of the engines. "This thing 
doesn't lift any higher than six feet off the ground! The struts are five 
feet 
long! If we catch one, it'll flip us over!" 
A burst of frag fire stitched the bulkhead about a foot away from him, blowing 
a 
huge hole in the side of the sled and sending shrapnel flying across it to 
penetrate the bulkhead on the other side. Shulman screamed as shrapnel 
lacerated 
his face and chest. 
"Ahhhh! Jesus! Shit, go for it!" 
I felt the sled start to lift as Shulman propped himself against the 
bulkhead, 
beside the huge hole that had just been blown in it, and fired several plasma 
grenades in rapid succession. Tali fired repeated bursts with her assault 
rifle. 
Her hair was matted with dark blood. Higgins stood beside me, steadying me. 
"This is madness," he said, shaking his head helplessly. "Those people don't 
know, they don't understand . . ." 
"I know," I said, patting him on the shoulder with my right hand, forgetting 
it 
was injured and wincing with pain the moment I did it. I was hurting a lot 
more 
now that Tali's attention was occupied and the drugs Shulman had given me 
were 
wearing off. 
Another burst of frag fire slammed into the side of the skimmer as Breck 
turned 
it around its own axis and I was thrown off the gurney onto the floor. 
Higgins 
was knocked off his feet as well. I yelled with pain, clutching at my chest. 
Tali was there in an instant, lying beside me, sheltering me with her body. I 
felt the pain begin to ebb as she shut it off inside my mind and then I 
glanced 
at Higgins. The entire left side of his face was bloody and there was a large 
jagged piece of shrapnel stuck in his upper arm. He was grimacing, gasping 
with 
pain. 
"Tali..." I said, glancing at him, and she nodded. Higgins breathed deeply 
and 



looked up at her gratefully. 
"Can you manage both of us?" he said. 
"I will manage," she replied, picking up the pistol I had dropped and tucking 
it 
inside her belt at the small of her back. "For a while." 
"A while should do," I said. "I hope." 
"God damn it, Breck, keep her steady!" Shulman shouted as the sled lurched 
and 
almost banged a landing strut into the tarmac. He launched another grenade, 
trying to make it hit the tarmac between us and Blaisedell's men, so that the 
flame cloud would temporarily obscure us from view. The sled hovered six feet 
off the ground, moving toward the shuttle hangars. Blaisedell had the hangars 
blocked off with a row of vehicles. 
"Doc!" Breck shouted from up front. "I'm going to turn her broadside for a 
moment! I need you to clear the way!" 
"Got it!" 
Breck brought the sled around and Shulman took aim with the grenade launcher 
and 
fired. He scored a direct hit on the row of carts and trucks and they 
exploded 
in a cloud of black and orange flame. Now all we had to do was drive right 
through it. 
"Hang on!" Breck shouted. He straightened the sled and gave it full throttle 
forward. 
"Oh, shit!" said Shulman, throwing himself down onto the floor. 
Smoke and flame billowed through the gaping holes shot in the bulkheads as we 
drove through the burning wreckage. One of the struts caught on something 
briefly and we heard a horrible scraping sound as the sled lurched sideways, 
almost flipped, and then lurched straight ahead again as the strut was pulled 
free. Breck brought the sled up alongside the hangar, then fired his plasma 
pistol through the cockpit windows at the hangar door. White flame billowed 
against the side of the sled briefly as the plasma melted through the door, 
then 
Shulman was leaping down, jumping through the glowing hole in the hangar 
door, 
and opening it from inside. Higgins and Tali helped me down and then the sled 
moved off once again. Higgins stared after it in disbelief. 
"What the hell is he doing?" he said. 
"He's got to get the damn thing out of the way, doesn't he?" Shulman said. 
We watched as the sled started to head off in the direction of the terminal, 
where most of Blaisedell's men were, then Breck came leaping down out of it, 
running across the tarmac toward us, and drawing all their fire as the sled 
veered crazily out of control. 
"Come on, let's go!" Breck shouted. 
We climbed aboard the shuttle and started running down the companionway 
toward 
the cockpit when the door at the far end opened and Gil Cavanaugh stepped 
out, 
holding a rifle. 
"Don't even think about it," he said. "I'll know it in a second. Drop your 
weapons." 
"Cavanaugh!" said Higgins. 
"No, not Cavanaugh," Breck said. "There may have been a Cavanaugh once, but 
not 
anymore." 
"You suspected me right from the first," the creature said. "But you weren't 
sure, were you? I, on the other hand, never have that problem. I can see all 


need to see by looking in your mind. You have something inside a special 
container in that pack of yours, Breck. Take it out and open it." 



"I don't think so," Breck said. "Why don't you come and get it?" 
"Don't be a fool," said the ambimorph. "I-don't, Doc! You'll never reach that 
rifle. Remember, I can read your every thought. The first one of you who even 
thinks about trying anything will-" 
Tali quickly reached behind her, pulled out the pistol she had tucked into 
her 
belt, and fired four times point-blank into the creature's chest. It dropped 
the 
rifle and went flying back against the cockpit door as the frag rounds hit 
its 
chest and exploded. 
"It could not read every thought," she said. 
"Damn!" said Shulman. "Let's go! Let's get the hell out of here before 
Blaisedell comes down on top of us!" 
Breck ran into the cockpit and we all crowded in behind him. 
"I sure hope you know how to fly this thing," said Higgins as Breck sat down 
in 
the pilot's seat and started flicking switches. The engines began to whine. 
"I think I can manage," Breck said. "If we have the time." 
As we started to roll out of the hangar, we saw several carts and trucks come 
barreling across the tarmac from the direction of the terminal, veering 
around 
the burning craters and heading straight for us. 
"We'll never make it," Shulman said. "They know we can't return their fire 
from 
in here. Shit! I knew I'd never get off this goddamned rock!" 
The front part of the shuttle cleared the hangar doorway and Breck had to 
turn 
sharply to avoid the burning wreckage in front of us. We were moving, but we 
were moving far too slowly. Blaisedell's men were closing the distance fast 
and 
we could hear the sound of their weapons firing. 
"Come on, come on . . ." said Higgins. 
'They're going to cut us off!" said Shulman. "Damn you, Blaisedell, you son of 
a 
bitch ..." 
Suddenly the lead two carts veered crazily as two huge bursts of plasma 
struck 
the tarmac on either side of them and six more orange and black clouds 
erupted 
in twin, parallel bursts, bracketing the other vehicles as the fighter banked 
low over the tarmac and veered away, turning to make another run as a second 
fighter came in behind it. Shulman let out a whoop. 
"All right, Navy!" he shouted. "We're going to make it! We're going to make 
it!" 
He slapped me on the back and I saw stars. "Oh, hell, O'Toole! I'm sorry! I 
forgot!" 
He and Tali eased me down into a seat and strapped me in. I felt the shuttle 
lifting off seconds before I lost consciousness. 


EPILOGUE 


It had been a while since I had lived with a woman. I suppose it's arguable 
whether you can correctly refer to a nonhuman female as a woman, since "man" 
and 
"woman" are distinctly human terms, while "male" and "female" are not. In any 
case, that's what the xenobiologists tell me. I try not to get hung up about 
it. 
Everyone else-except the xenobiologists, of course- tends to think of Tali as 
a 



woman, which is fine with me because I prefer things to be uncomplicated. My 
life is confusing enough as it is. Most people who meet Tali don't even 
realize 
that she's not human. She looks more human than a lot of people you see 
nowadays, especially the cyberpunks with their rad, hardwired mods. Some of 
their style has caught on with the social set and those who don't know that 
Tali 
isn't human merely assume she's being fashionable. 
We didn't get to see much of each other for the first few weeks after we got 
back to Earth. I required some medical attention and anyone trying to see 
Tali 
would've had to beat the xenobiologists off with a stick. Still, we got to 
see 
each other for at least an hour or so each day. Tali had insisted upon that, 
otherwise she'd refused to cooperate with them. And when two people can 
achieve 
telepathic intimacy, you'd be surprised how much you can accomplish in an 
hour. 
For all their theoretical knowledge, the xenobiologists had a hard time 
understanding that. They kept apologizing to me for keeping my wife in 
protective quarantine until they could determine if it was safe for her to 
wander abroad in our highly infectious society. They were frustrated because 
she 
wouldn't let them simply poke and prod at will and she demanded explanations 
for 
everything they did. Her being telepathic also made them nervous. It led to 
some 
amusing incidents. 
One young xenobiologist became so taken with her feral beauty that he could 
not 
keep from having sexual fantasies about her and despite Tali's respect for 
other 
people's mental privacy, he was so "loud" a thinker that she could not help 
picking up his thoughts. I had explained to her that it would not be 
considered 
improper for her to use telepathy to assist them in their scientific 
research, 
because it wasn't really personal, but I hadn't quite anticipated anything 
like 
what happened. Since the human proclivity for sexual fantasizing was 
something 
Nomads didn't share, under the circumstances, Tali interpreted the young 
xenobiologist's erotic fantasies as scientific interest. And since he was so 
intent on contemplating what it would be like to mate with her, she decided 
to 
satisfy his curiosity. She gave him a telepathic mating experience, 
non-physical 
and nonemotional, but complete with all the sense impressions and sensations, 
which allowed him to vividly remember doing something he had never actually 
done. The poor guy was thrown for such a loop, he didn't come in to work for 
two 
days and when he finally returned, he couldn't even look at her without 
blushing 
and breaking into a frightful stutter. 
When they were satisfied that Tali could survive living on Earth-and that she 
had not brought any nasty organisms with her that we did not have here-they 
released her from protective quarantine and she moved in with me. She was 
just 
as curious about the way we lived as the xenobiologists were curious about 
her. 



We divided our time between long sessions with the scientists and occasional 
outings in the city. There were some minor problems, such as her outright 
refusal to eat cooked meat in restaurants and her dismay at realizing that 
there 
wasn't anywhere she could go to kill her own fresh game. We had a bad moment 
with someone's pet poodle in a park once, but after that, Tali resigned 
herself 
to eating the raw meat I brought home from the market. She liked the better 
cuts 
of steak, although she missed lapping up the warm blood. 
What disturbed her most was the cacophony of human thought, especially in a 
crowded city like New York. She didn't understand the crowding, either. She 
failed to comprehend why anyone would want to live in such close quarters or 
in 
such a noisy, filthy environment. And human social interaction was a constant 
fascination and a puzzle to her. Our communications systems were a source of 
endless wonder to her and one of the first things that she had me do was put 
through a call to Kami at The Pyramid Club in Tokyo. 
The two of them hit it off at once and they talked for about an hour, which 
astonished me because Kami was the least talkative person I had ever known. 
She 
wanted us to fly out to Tokyo and visit her on the Ginza Strip, but we 
couldn't 
get away from Coles and his researchers and Kami couldn't leave her gambling 
empire with the Yakuza still trying to wrest control back from the bandit 
gangs. 
I wondered if the day would ever come when we all stopped fighting battles. 
As fascinated as the scientists were with Tali, they were simply blown away 
by 
the two young ambimorphs that Breck had captured. They had built a special 
maximum security lab for observing them, complete with a sealed clean room 
with 
a sophisticated environmental system in which the creatures were kept. 
Microporous double airlocks were used for introducing food and other things 
into 
the chamber and every fail-safe system that anyone could think of had-been 
built 
into the lab. They showed it off to Breck and me and were proudly telling us 
how 
impossible it would be for the creatures to get out when they looked inside 
and 
saw to their horror that in spite of all the elaborate precautions they had 
taken, the shapechangers had somehow managed to escape! 
Alarms went off all over the place and sealed doors came down and everything 
was 
pandemonium until Breck asked them if the ambimorphs had ever left their food 
uneaten. And, of course, they had eaten their food. They had merely assumed 
its 
shape in an attempt to fool their captors, which they very nearly succeeded 
in 
doing. It shook the smart boys up a bit, but it taught them that all the 
fail-safe systems and security precautions in the world were only as good as 
the 
guy who controlled the on-and-off switch. 
One of the first things they learned about the creatures was that they did 
not 
leave the sluglike slime trails in their natural form. The slime, which the 
lab 
boys were extremely curious about since they'd never seen it firsthand, was 
thought to be part of the creatures' reproductive process. The xenobiologists 



were all anxiously looking forward to the day when the shapechangers would 
mature and divide into more shapechangers, slime and all. Their worst fear 
was 
that the ambimorphs would not reproduce in captivity. I had to laugh. Here we 
were, trying to find ways to kill the creatures off, and the xenobiologists 
were 
anxious to breed more of them. I hoped to hell they knew what they were 
doing. 
They had all the requisite degrees, but I was always more impressed by street 
smarts than by sheepskins. For now, they had their hands full with the 
creatures 
and the ambimorphs weren't even fully grown yet. Eventually, they'd tire of 
changing into laboratory mice and rats and rubber balls and wooden blocks and 
they'd grow large enough to take on human form. And then the scientists would 
really get an education. 
Higgins and Coles despised each other at first sight, though each had a 
grudging 
respect for the abilities of the other. Coles wanted Higgins on the research 
staff and Higgins wanted badly to accept, but there was an obstacle to their 
negotiations that at first seemed insurmountable. Higgins categorically 
refused 
to be implanted with a biochip and Coles would not have anyone around who 
could 
not be monitored. He was-not unreasonably, I suppose-terrified that 
shapechangers would infiltrate his nerve center. They finally found a way to 
reach a compromise. Permanent residential quarters would be set up for 
Higgins 
inside the maximum security Game Control nerve center-and Higgins would never 
set foot outside. It astonished me, but he actually agreed to those 
conditions. 
"It's the work that matters, O'Toole," he told me, philosophically. "It's all 
right. I'll be comfortable here." 
"But, Jesus, Grover," I said, looking at his rugged outdoor complexion, 
"you'll 
never be able to go outside! You don't know Coles. He wasn't kidding. If you 
so 
much as set foot below the maximum security levels of this building, you're 
out. 
Finished. You'll never get back in again. He's so paranoid, he won't even 
accept 
it if Tali clears you." 
"Actually, he knows damn well that if Tali vouched for me, I'd be okay," said 
Higgins. "No ambimorph could fool a Nomad. That's not what this is all about. 
This is an issue of control. He thinks I'll break down and accept a biochip 
implant, but I simply will not allow anyone access to my mind." 
"But that means you'll have to play by his rules," I said. 
"Are they his rules?" said Higgins, smiling. "So long as I've got something 
he 
wants, he plays by my rules. Otherwise I just take the tube down to the lobby 
and I'm out of here. I'm not a prisoner; I'm free to go if I choose. But 
what's 
on the outside for me? City streets? Residential towers? Pollution, traffic, 
people?" He shook his head. "There's nothing out there I want to see, 
O'Toole. 
Coles and I have cut a deal. When I'm fed up with this place, he buys me a 
one-way ticket to anywhere there's mountains and the animals haven't learned 
to 
run away from people yet. Meanwhile, he picks up room and board and provides 
me 
with the greatest scientific opportunity of my entire career. Believe me, 



it's 
not such a bad deal." 
As for Purgatory, Coles kept his part of the bargain. The factories and waste 
dumps were closed down and the human settlements were evacuated under 
military 
supervision. Purgatory Station became a military garrison manned by the 
hybreed 
soldiers of the Special Service and the Nomads worked with the commandos to 
keep 
any shapechangers from leaving Purgatory in human form. Those in charge of 
the 
evacuation were shocked at the number of ambimorphs among the workers on 
Purgatory. The Nomads were able to pick them out as they went through and a 
lot 
of them were killed, but many of the shapechangers managed to escape into the 
desert. Several SS units remained on the surface of the planet, taking over 
the 
largest of the residential complexes and establishing a permanent military 
ground base, so that they could work closely with the Nomads in an attempt to 
clean out all the ambimorphs. It was going to be one hell of a big job, one 
that 
would undoubtedly take years to complete-assuming that it could ever be 
completed-but if they succeeded, it would be the first indication that we 
could 
accomplish the same thing on Earth and in the colonies. Perhaps it wasn't 
much, 
but at least it was a start. Now, for the first time, thanks to the Nomads, 
we 
had a chance. The sad part of it all was that the lifeway of the Nomad tribes 
would be irrevocably changed. Civilization had arrived, with all of its 
complexities, and Purgatory would never again be the savage, unspoiled, 
primitive world it was when I had first arrived there. I never thought I'd 
say 
it, but I'm not sure the change is for the better. 
The people who had lived and worked on Purgatory were a problem. They were 
far 
from thrilled at the prospect of losing their jobs and homes and once the 
evacuation got started, it became impossible to keep them from finding out 
the 
reason for it. When the person who's in front of you in the line waiting to 
get 
aboard the ship suddenly turns into a swarm of bugs and gets incinerated by a 
plasma blast on wide dispersal that passes by so close you get a tan, it's a 
little hard to accept being told, "It's nothing, don't worry, just keep the 
line 
moving." The only way to keep things under control was to declare martial law 
on 
Purgatory and brainwash everyone who'd been there. 
They each received a biochip implant and some programming to qualify them for 
positions elsewhere. And while the programmers were at it, they "installed" 
some 
artificial memories which suppressed the real memories of what had occurred 
on 
Purgatory. So far as any of the workers knew, the consortium had simply 
decided 
that the Purgatory plants were no longer cost effective and the ambimorph 
invasion was merely one of Psychodrome's adventures. And so the game 
continued. 
But cracks were starting to appear. It was inevitable. There was no way they 
could keep such a momentous secret and it was all about to bust wide open. 



There 
were only two ways to infallibly suppress a memory-murder or total mind wipe, 
which amounted to the same thing. Every one of the people who had been on 
Purgatory was a potential risk. Any one of them could break through the 
installed artificial memories and remember what had really happened, but 
there 
was nothing to be done. Coles knew it. From the start, it had been a waiting 
game. Sooner or later, it was bound to hit the fan and all that Coles was 
hoping 
for was that the truth disguised as media adventures would have enough 
desensitizing impact on the public that when the whole thing blew wide open, 
they wouldn't all go bugfuck. I wasn't sure if it would work or not. I knew 
that 
some people had a tendency to confuse media reality with real reality, but 
actually using real reality disguised as media reality to condition the 
public 
was a new one on me. Maybe it would work. Maybe not. But the news media was 
already beginning to smell the cover-up. 
The broadcasts were beginning to have a strange effect on the home audience. 
A 
lot of them were starting to believe it and buy into the mindset. There had 
always been those who believed what they experienced on Psychodrome. We 
called 
them the "borderliners." They were the ones who always came up to us in 
public 
and greeted us like old comrades in arms, wanting to slap our backs and 
reminisce about the last adventure they had shared with us. We always tried 
to 
humor them. You'd be surprised how often you can have a friendly conversation 
with someone without letting on that you don't know their name. But I had 
always 
more or less assumed that most people were capable of differentiating between 
reality and fantasy. Now, I wasn't even sure that I could do it. Psychodrome 
was 
erasing all the borders. 
Something was getting through to the home audience, something that was 
feeding 
the little paranoias that we all have deep inside us, even those of us who 
like 
to think we're well adjusted. The ratings on the alien invasion "game" were 
skyrocketing. As of the last scenario, Breck and I had become the number one 
rated psycho stars. What we were going through was scaring the hell out of 
people. And they kept coming back for more. The news media had started paying 
attention. 
They began reporting on what they called "the terror broadcasts," cases of 
home 
viewers who had tuned in on the game and shortly thereafter committed suicide 
or 
gone out and done some violent act. The old argument of violent entertainment 
engendering violent behavior was trotted out again and the question of 
whether 
or not we were desensitizing our home audience to violence and death was 
hotly 
debated in one forum after another. Coles paid very close attention. 
Something was getting through to them. And the more the news media talked 
about 
the "potential dangers" in "the latest ultra-violent offering from 
Psychodrome," 
the more people tuned in. 
Breck finally understood now. 



"I tell you, O'Toole," he told me over drinks, his eyes blazing from the bang 
smoke, "it was the most significant experience of my entire life. I'll never 
forget it. I don't mean to sound insensitive or morbid; I grieve for Tyla, 
but 
I'll always cherish the memory of her terror as she died." He looked down 
into 
his drink. "I suppose that sounds a bit sick, doesn't it?" 
I pursed my lips and shook my head. "No. Not to me. Not coming from you. I 
understand, you see. But I wouldn't talk about it to anybody else if I were 
you." 
Breck smiled wryly. "There are times, O'Toole, when I feel as if we've known 
each other all our lives." He gazed off into the distance. "For the first 
time," 
he said softly, "I understand what was taken from us hybreeds when our 
genetic 
template was designed. Perhaps 'taken' isn't the right word, since we never 
had 
it to begin with, but, nevertheless, we were egregiously deprived." 
He inhaled deeply on his bang stick and his eyes flared. He held the smoke in 
his lungs for a long moment and then exhaled heavily. 
"It's astonishing to me how most people fail to understand the compelling 
attraction of violence," he said. "How they are ignorant of the pathology of 
fear. Perhaps it's because many of them don't really think. They merely 
react. 
The fact is that humans are a savage species. They had to be in order to 
survive. Other animals were bigger, stronger, faster, more resilient. . 
.humans 
were afraid of them, and so they became smarter and more vicious. Man is 
nature's most successful predator. Modern citizens don't like to hear that, 
though. We are all nonviolent and civilized these days. And yet children 
still 
tear the legs off spiders and adults dismember one another in the boardrooms." 
He smiled. It was a sad smile. The smile of an outsider who understood the 
rest 
of us only too well. 
And then, of course, there was Chameleon. 
After his long-distance attempt against us while we were on Purgatory, the 
most 
dangerous shapechanger of them all seemed to have gone back underground. For 
a 
while, with Tali occupying all of my attention, I had almost forgotten all 
about 
him. Until the night I woke up screaming. 
It was a nightmare that refused to go away when I woke up. There were 
hundreds 
of snakes writhing on the floor around our bed. Sandstriders were scrambling 
out 
of the walls by the dozens, their multijointed, hairy legs wriggling through 
and 
pulling their fist-sized, hairy black bodies after them. They dropped down 
onto 
the floor and climbed up on the bed, scuttling like crabs across the 
bedsheets, 
their bone-crushing jaws snapping, and I could feel them crawling over me. 
The 
ceiling started to tremble and buckle. It had turned into the ceiling of the 
cavern back on Purgatory and shards of rock rained down upon me, bruising me 
and 
lacerating my skin. 
I felt something grabbing me and pulling me down and I kept screaming and 



fighting until I realized that it was Tali holding me, pushing me back down 
onto 
the bed, entering my mind and soothing me, alarmed at the terrors that she 
saw 
there. The nightmare visions faded and then we both heard it in our minds, as 
cold and ominous as an echo in a tomb. 
"Nomad . . . you cannot protect him. Your help will not avail. There's no 
place 
to hide, O'Toole. There's nowhere to run. I can reach out and find you 
anytime. 
I want you to give your Mr. Coles a message. Tell him that I have not even 
begun 
yet. And there is nothing he can do to stop me!" 
The voice seemed to fill the room and suddenly he was standing there, at the 
foot of our bed, looking exactly as he had appeared when he had taken the 
form 
of the crystal hunter. 
Nikolai Razin. The massive muscular frame was dressed all in black, the head 
was 
shaved, the eyes were cold and hard. As I stared at him, knowing it was an 
induced hallucination, I still felt sweat breaking out all over me. His form 
blurred and long jet-black hair sprouted from his skull. The proportions of 
his 
body shifted, the features changed into the lovely contours of Stone 
Winters's 
face and, for a moment, she stood naked at the foot of our bed, beautiful and 
incredibly seductive. Then her facial features melted and she leaped, turning 
into a snarling sandcat in midair. The image faded as Tali forced it from my 
mind and we heard the haunting, far-off echo of Chameleon's laughter. 
"This is only the beginning, O'Toole," the ghostly voice promised as it 
seemed 
to recede into the distance. "Only the beginning ..."